Summary about me (part 3)

Where did I stop again on my previous article, summary about me (part 2)?

2020 is a year of many opportunities for me that made me so busy that it was hard for me to focus with my goals. Would you rather have resolutions or goals? Whether it is resolution, dream or goal, what matters is if we can make it into a reality. So what keeps me busy? Before? Aside from my Youtube channel, my business and my Facebook pages, I also tried some money earning platforms like Lyka — earn by uploading photos and rating users. I also tried to earn money with shortened link.

During the start of this year, I started to declutter some of my stuffs and we also had a general cleaning after many years. LOL. I was suppose to do another general cleaning this July but I have a lot of reasons not to. Majority of the cluttered stuffs are from my parents so it is hard for me to touch those things. I hope I can get their approval to throw away those items.

With regards to my goals update, I know I would still be able to accomplish maybe not all but some of it. I am now emotionally and mentally ready to start my fitness journey and to not always look back on my weight loss journey before. If I have a lot of money, I would want to buy some slimming products. I really need to lose weight for me to be healthy and to regulate my monthly visits. It has been my problem for years now. I had my acne breakouts because of hormonal imbalance. I tried using my period cup since January of this year and was able to track my blood flow that I would discuss with my obstetrician gynecologist since I have already consumed all regulating pills she prescribed me. @Momentswithmatti have shared her experience with regards to washable pads. Whether it is a period cup or a washable pad, I hope you have an open mind in using these things so we can help our environment in our own little way.

I know that what I eat in a day has something to do why I am obese. LOL. I really love eating and food is life. Even if I sometimes eat unhealthy foods, I still see to it that I get to drink lots of water.

Let's now move on to something even more personal. I have had my first heartbreak when I first started working in the food industry. It was really painful but it had made me stronger and a little wiser. It was when I experienced a lot of firsts on first job. We were not official just like with my second flirtationship. It is with the latter that lasted for years and I even have a breakup playlist on my Spotify for him. Are you friends with your ex? I do not think I can be friends with him as of the moment but I have already moved on. Both guys did not even gave me any monthsary gifts. LOL. But with my second flirtationship, we were able to celebrate love month either advance or late because of our jobs. Today's IFs would be: if I were to text or message him now, I would say, " I am missing you". Do not forget the 2 broken heart emojis. LOL. Or probably because I have watched a lot of basketball games lately to make me miss him more. If I we would have an unexpected meet up with him, I might be in tears while smiling. Crazy? Maybe a little teary eyed that wants to blush. LOL.

A part of me knows that I am not up for marriages. However, there were times that my relatives would pressure me and I would also feel pressured. Why? I am not getting any younger. Should I try some dating apps for me to have a love life? I also want a baby though I think I should learn first how to be independent before thinking of having a family of my own. I am still in my comfort zone that is why working overseas is really out of my mind especially now. With everything that had happened to me from job hunting, job interview, managing a restaurant, my success or failure, my love or life in general, I realized that a mother's love and a father's love to their children is really unconditional. I may have not asked them for forgiveness for how I treated them before or with how I rebelled against them but still they forgave me. One of my happiness is doing things for my parents especially treating them or giving them a small gift.

Our life during pandemic limited us from doing a lot of things but it gave us a lot of bonding with our familes to make up for the lost time. I am in charge of doing the grocery shopping because my parents are more vulnerable to the virus. Though they already received their 2nd dose of vaccine during their vaccination day months ago. I go out once or twice a month to buy our basic necessities so I always receive a copy of my contact information for contact tracing in my email. We seldom do online shopping so when we bought some things, I did a Shopee haul for the month of May. I do not know when I can buy the items listed on my wishlist again but I have to prioritize our needs first before wants. It is so fun when I add to cart but I never get to check them out. LOL. They are just in my cart for the longest time.

My 6 months on read.cash made me poured all my heart and soul through my articles. I felt like I have released almost all of my past negativities. I think I have mentioned it to @Jeaneth and @Bloghound a few days ago that I have shared most of my life's experiences already. Now I feel like I am more positive even if I still have some problems. I do have some topics listed but I still cannot think of what words to say as if there are no more rants, anger or even hatred in my heart.

I do not know if the next article would be the last part of this summary but I hope you enjoyed reading it.