Things I learned since becoming a fur-parent
It has been a few weeks since I adopted 2 kittens. Back then, I was hesitant about my ability to take care of such tiny creatures especially since I had just been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I thought to myself that I can not even take care of myself, how would I be able to take care of 2 additional pets?
Thankfully, my youngest sister helped me out quite a bit. She reminds me to get out of bed and feed the pets since I was struggling with that at the time. I had just begun taking my medication then, and I was still not used to the side effects. So her reminders were a great help to me, and I appreciate it a lot.
Along the way, I have learned things that I would never have considered before. These things that I discover give me much joy in taking care of Oreo, Presto, and Moshi.
It is tiring but rewarding
The first one is a bit expected. The surprising part is that I still find joy in taking care of them no matter how difficult it gets. I learned not to get too upset with the mess since I can always clean it up.
Since becoming a fur-parent, I have been getting up at ungodly hours just to feed the kittens. I have to do this since when I got them they were still too young so they needed to eat frequently. This disruption in my sleepy made me more irritable than I would like. Yet I can not deny the fact that watching them grow up is amazing.
It is expensive
I honestly suspected this already even before I adopted the kittens but I could say that I am still caught off-guard by how expensive it can get. Just from buying the essentials, I have already spent my average monthly earnings from writing. Even then, I still have some things that I need to buy.
Moreover, there are the vet visits that I have to allocate money for. Good thing that my sister will cover the first visit. But I would need to pay for more services for the kittens.
I think the thing that makes having pets expensive is looking for the food that they would like and that is good for them. I can not just feed them something that might cause problems later on.
I honestly did not realize that before. However, as I become more curious about how to take care of pets properly, I learned that there are some kitten food (for Oreo and Presto) / dog food (for Moshi) that are not good for them in the long run. So I have been on the hunt for more food that would provide better nutrients for them. I can not throw the ones I bought but I plan to supplement them with better food.
It is messy
This is the one that I am least prepared for. By nature, I am already a disorganized person. My things are in random places that are not aesthetic but I keep them out of the way and out of sight so my room mostly looks okay.
However, having pets changes that. Pets can cause so much mess when they are playing, and the worst thing is that they can not pick up after themselves. So I really have to put more effort into keeping my space clean.
Also, the fur is absolutely everywhere with Moshi. I really need to step up my brushing game since Moshi absolutely needs it.
It is time consuming
The free time that I could have used to pursue my hobbies are taken up by taking care of the pets. My time to eat is extended to 1 hour since I also feed them. I do this since I do not want to forget feeding them so I make sure that when I eat, I would also feed our pets.
Other free time will be occupied by playing with them. Sure it is fun but it is difficult because I have to take care in showing favoritism. I do not want any of them to act out because they are jealous of others.
Closing words
These are just some things I learned since becoming a fur-parent. I still have more realizations that I did not share here. Maybe I will write it down someday, but for now these are the pet lessons I learned.
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Living is tiring
I am writing this article while fighting the side effects of quetiapine. Quetiapine is the medication I take at night for my disorder. It is an anti-psychotic drug but it can also be used for other illnesses like bipolar disorder.
I am thankful for this medication since I could feel the...
I could not take it
I was writing that article last night but my body was not having it. I thought I could fight what I am feeling but eventually I decided that it would be better to just let my body rest. So that is what I did.
I actually can not remember how I wanted this article to go but I will try my best to write it in a way that makes sense.
Being medicated
To continue what I started to write last night, being medicated helps a lot in managing my symptoms. I am able to rest my mind for a bit. The medication actually slows down my mind so that I will not be caught up on it all the time.
However, this peace of mind comes with a cost outside of monetary value. The tablets I take everyday gives me challenges to face as well. I know that it is expected since my body is just getting used to the medication. Beside, I searched for what to expect before asking for a prescription.
Escitalopram helps me in controlling my depressive episodes at first but it triggers hypomanic episodes which is the reason why the psychiatrist gave me another medication. This tablet makes me feel so sleepy but I still struggle with sleeping at the right time. It was probably because I am taking this in the morning which makes me sleepy in the afternoon but the effects are somewhat faded at night time.
Quetiapine is helpful for me as it helps me fall asleep at night. In the past, I would be up past 3AM even though I have stopped using my phone at around 12AM. There was no reason for me to be awake yet my tired body just can not seem to relax enough to sleep.
With medication, I was able to get more or less 8 hours of sleep which starts at around 10PM. At first I was actually sleeping more than that. It was probably due to the combined effects of escitalopram and quetiapine. However now that my body is kind of getting used to the tablets, I am getting a bit better in managing my time.
A different kind of fight
As much as I would like to believe that I am magically better now, the truth is I know I still have a long way to go. Despite the fact that I am now sleeping better, I still have some major problems at hand.
The thing that bothers me the most is that I see no reason to keep doing this. It is so difficult to continue fighting when my mind is not giving me any reason to do so. I have a fear that I may someday succumb to this temptation and inevitably hurt my loved ones.
My mind is clearer than it was a month ago, but the thought of not wanting to continue moving forward stays with me.
There are a lot of times when I asked myself, "why am I trying to get better when I will just die someday anyway?"
Honestly, I tried to reason with myself. I tried to remember my friends, family, and my partner. I tried to remember how much I love them, and how I never want them to be hurt by me or my actions.
I just think that right now, I am only doing this because I am so tired of hurting them emotionally when I could not handle my emotions. I am also tired of hurting myself.
I just want to get better, and not worry about this anymore. If only there was some sort of switch that I could turn off so that my mind will be okay right now, I would have done it without hesitation.
Closing words
I did not publish an article yesterday so I am going to publish 2 articles today. I am going to be busy with school works though so I will probably still not be able to interact as much as I would like.
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A Funny Miscommunication
Today is a bit better than the last few days. First of all, we only had a short class and the professor did not give us an activity. So I was able to rest comfortably.
Then, we received the confirmation that our stipend is going to be sent to our respective accounts. This made me incredibly happy.
My father bought ice cream from us withthe stipend I received. I really like ice cream because it makes me feel better all the time. I guess that is the reason why my father bought this with his part in the stipend.
After that, I excitedly asked my sister to eat ramen with me. We even bought some for our parents.
This is the ramen that we ordered. We ordered it from the nearby ramen shop. We did not include our order for our parents since we already gave the ramen to them before we decided to take a picture.
The funny text
In my happiness, I sent a text to my partner. I told him to go at our place and et ramen together.
I thought he would take it as a joke since it was already night time. I was also about to take my medicine so I did not think much of it when he said okay in response to my invitation.
After eating the ramen me and my sister bought, I finally decided to said just kidding in reply to my first invitation. But then he said that he was already on his way.
I really thought that he might be joking but I was starting to think that he might be serious. And then, he said that he was already outside.
He really was there
When I went outside to check, he really was there. I kind of felt embarrassed since it is my fault for not immediately clarifying that I was joking only as I was already done eating.
But since he was already there, we still went ahead to eat ramen.
We forgot to take pictures at the start since we were still figuring out the miscommunication. We were also busy catching up since we were both doin a lot of things during our usual days.
That was a cropped part of the selfie that we took near the end of our meal. As you can see, I was only eating the egg nd some broth left in the ramen. We really got caught up with each other that we forgot to take cute pictures together.
It was a memorable night
I was so full after eating ramen not only once but twice in one night. My tummy is very happy.
My partner and I only ate together for less than an hour but for me it was a sweet moment to remember. The fact that I now know for sure that he will be by my side when I ask him to is a huge thing for me.
Even if we have been with each other for some time, I still found myself hesitating sometimes, because I am afraid that I might be expecting too much. However, now I realized that my partner is really here for me.
It was a funny miscommunication yet it brought me the reassurance that I did not even know I needed. It feels comforting to know that I have someone who will put an effort to be with me if I ever needed someone to be there.
Although, I will be more careful with my invitation from now on. I do not want him to drive at ungodly hour just because I forgot to say I was just joking.
We have an open, and healthy communication but miscommunication like this also gives more room for growth. This experience definitely taught me a good lesson to remember.
Closing words
Today is a memorable day. I feel hopeful for the future today. I am reminded clearly of why I decided to get help.
At the start of the day, I was feeling blue and lost. I wanted to stop but now I remember why I had to keep going.
At the end of the day, I am not alone. I am surrounded by people who care for me and want the best for me. And someday, I hope that I can return the favor by being there for them too when they need someone.
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Hello, I am Zehra Sky
I planned to write a similar article like this on my anniversary here on read.cash. However, what would be the difference if I write it now or in the future?
I see no big difference at all so I decided to just go ahead and write this article. When I was planning this article, I wanted to write a bit of an overview of my journey here.
The story of where I started my self-love journey and where I am currently at is the main theme I had in mind.
Right now, I guess I can still do that but I have never once imagined that I would write the things I will write here today.
It started with a decision
The decision to finally let go of my hesitations and fears of the things that I have little knowledge of. Had I succumbed to the fear, I would have never established a safe haven in this place.
This is where I started to finally allow myself to be me, outside of the mask I have created for the world. In this site, I let myself be free. With this newfound freedom, I learned happiness.
It is an egg
But the happiness I found is an egg that is so easy to break and impossible to repair. I found myself constantly anxious about my hold.
I wanted to be at peace but I always had to worry if my happiness will last or if the shell will be broken any minute now.
Inevitably, it did
When the inevitable finally happened, I was not surprised. Maybe the ones who have been with me since the start of my journey will be able to remember the rollercoaster of my articles.
Maybe they would remember a time where I was active until one day, I mostly disappeared. I will pop in once in a while to interact then be gone again.
I feel like the clouds
Ever changing, never staying in one place.
I guess those are good words to describe me. It definitely catches the way my mind would flip as if a switch was suddenly turned off and on.
The skies are sometimes clear for some time. The sun shines so bright and the birds sing with delight.
In my mind, everything would be so amazing. The trees I have always watched will look so new to me. The path I have taken million of times before would feel so unfamiliar.
The world would sing to me, and in response I would live without a bit of worry. All caution thrown into the wind, just happily living my life.
The sunshine burns
But the sun leaves burns on the skin if left unprotected. The sun end up hurting innocent bystanders. And the sun burns itself just to keep itself warm and to keep its shine.
Just as my mind would chase the soark of motivation I have without stopping to see if I could hurt someone. Most times, I end up hurting myself from my actions.
When the sun hides or sleeps
The clouds loom over everything. It hides the light and things are cast in shadows. The clouds move slowly as if dragged down by their own weight. The sky looks so dark that it was as if no light can penetrate it.
I would feel to drained to even move. My body just can not seem to grasp the need to do the necessity to keep my body alive. Too much yet too empty. I am too out of it to even see the people who care for me.
Closing word
This is a bit more abstract than my other articles but I kinda love it. Well, I might change my mind tomorrow but in my sleepy mind, this work looks great.
This is just a shallow dive of what goes on in my head. There are more words in the currents of my mind but I am leaening how to pick out things carefully instead of focusing on everything at once.
I am Zehra Sky, and I would not know who I would be without my words.
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Food trip with sisters
One of our favorite bonding as sisters is having a food trip. People will probably not have to guess that hard if they see us together since me and my sisters are all at a healthy weight, some more so than the others.
A few months ago, we had an established routine of buying midnight snack since our elder sister was working from home. But since goin back onsite, our usual bonding time has since stopped.
But there are some weekends when we could continue our bonding. One such day was last Saturday where three of my sisters paid for our midnight snack.
I was the only one who did not pay for anything since I did not brin any money with me. They were gracious enough to let me get away with it as I have just told them my new diagnosis back then.
The food
We ordered the food in a Facebook group called Mandluyong Food Hub. Scammers are all around in that groupthough so we played it safe and ordered from someone that we had already ordered from before.
The shop actually had a slight price increase probably due to the increase In the price of LPG. The prices are still reasonable though so we pushed through.
The first order we got is beef nachos chips. I really like this nachos because it is just the right amount of toppings for me.
Some nachos are full of cheese that it is not as delicious or some will have many vegetables but barely any beef.
But this one has enough for its price. Definitely recommended!
This one is my elder sister's order which is shawarma rice. She did not like the rice since it was sticky but our younger sister liked it so she ate it.
I was the one who ate the cucumber since our eldest sister inly eats 2 vegetables- sitaw, and potato.
The next one is the order of ouryounger sister. It is chili cheese fries.
I really like the chili powder of this one since it is not just spicy but also delicious.
This is order. Our youngest sister is the one who paid for my order since she wanted to treat me after I treated her to ramen twice.
This is cheese bacon fries and I really like both cheese, and bacon. The fries is worth it for its price.
And then we have 6 pieces of hickory bbq chicken wings. I really like the dip of this order and it was delicious.
The last one is the order of our youngest sister which is pork liempo. This is her favorite thing to order when we have our midnight snack since we usually do not eat pork.
How much was it?
I forgot the exact price for each items but from what I remember, they paid P645 for this order.
It is worth it for me since I spent zero money on it. My sisters also looked satisfied with the order so I assume that they have no complaints.
For anyone who got hungry from this article, I believe the store is called Meals in Minutes on Facebook. You can check their page out to see if they also deliver on your place.
My all time favorite is their chicken katsu curry but it was unfortunately not available last Saturday. You better try that dish if you can, though! I promise it tastes so good and is definitely filling.
Closing words
This is my sevond article for today and I wanted to share a light hearted moment I shared with my sister.
I like to remember this day a lot since I felt light that night. We were supposed to watch a movie but my sister's laptop took too long to load and by the time it finished setting itself up, we are already halfway through our food. So we did not watch any movie.
We just finished eating then scrolled through our phones.
I actually had a video call with my partner after eating. He showed me what Boracay looks like during the night. It was so sweet of him to think of me when he is on a vacation.
Afterwards, I managed to sleep soundly since both my stomach, and heart is full.
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I need BCH now more than ever
Last night I was unable to publish an article as I started taking a new medication prescribed by the psychiatrist. I did not time it well since I thought the side effects will be mild but I was wrong.
Just a few minutes after taking the tablet, I could already feel my eyes getting heavy. In an hour, I was knocked out after finding a good position for my stuffy nose.
I even set an alarm to wake up and write an article but I did not hear it. I also promised my sisters a pizza as my treat to them for midnight snack but I also did not manage to fulfill it. We decided to just spend the money for today's food.
New diagnosis
Just like what I mentioned last article, I got a new diagnosis which is why I am also taking a new medication along with the old.
I was misdiagnosed as having Major Depressive Disorder but after a consultation with a new psychiatrist, it was determined that I have Bipolar Affective Disorder, specifically Bipolar 2.
I know many are probably thinking that I could just snap out of this condition or that having bipolar is just being moody, but today is not the day where I have the energy to educate about my condition.
Today is just a day to share where my hardwork is going. Today is a day when I can tell you that all the support you have given me is helping me tremendously.
Why do I need BCH?
I am now taking two medication to handle my symptoms. The original medication should not be suddenly stopped just because I am taking a new one. I want to share my prescription so you guys can see what medications I am taking.
I cropped the prescription to stop people from faking their own prescription out of the format that they might see. I do not want people to self diagnose and self medicate just because I carelessly posted my whole prescription especially since knowing how to use Photoshop will effectively help them edit the prescription I post for their own benefit without consulting a professional.
So I am still taking the old one which is escitalopram and a tablet of this costs around P45. I was prescribed 30 tablets after I finished the 20 tablets from before so P1350 will have to be spent just for the old medication.
This is the new medication thatI have to take. As you can see, it will be slowly introduced to my system but the dpsage of this new medication is higher than the old one.
This new medication will help handle both the highs and lows of bipolar disorder instead of triggering hypomanic episodes like taking antidepressant (escitalopram) alone.
The cost of one tablet of quetiapine is P100. The total money I need to buy the prescribed medication is P3000.
So for the next 30 days, I will have to spend P4350 just for medication alone.
But wait, there's more
The psychiatrist also wants me to have some laboratory tests done to rule out physical conditions that might affect the dosage of the medication.
These are the tests that I have to get before the next consultation which is on May 7.
I am not yet sure how much this will cost. I will have to ask the clinic near us if they are doing these tests and for how much. But based on the estimation of my friend who is a nursing student, I might have to prepare around P1500 to cover all the tests.
So now I need P5850 to cover both the medication and the laboratory tests.
I need more
As much as I would like to end my expenses there, I actually have more to spent for.
I still need to pay for the consultation, and psychotherapy. I had already paid for my session last April 23, and my upcoming therapy on April 30 which amounts to P3600.
However, I will still have follow up consultation with the psychiatrist every two weeks. Each consultation costs P1800 for 45 minutes. So every month, I will have to pay P3600 for the consultations.
Next is psychotherapy. Each session costs P1800 for 60 minutes. And it is also usually a bi-monthly set up so I need P3600 every month.
That is an additional P7200 every month for consultations, and therapy along with the P4350 for medications.
For the next 30 days, I will have to spend ****P13050**** to cover the medications, laboratory tests, psychiatric consultations, and therapy.
Now, what?
My parents decided to cover a huge art for the medication, and my sister will give me some money to add for the laboratory tests costs. I shoulder the consultation, and therapy costs alone but their help is already huge.
The BCH I have right now is not enough to cover all the expenses yet so I will strive to work harder to get the money I need for my treatment.
Closing words
Bipolar disorder is a lifelong illness. There is no cure but there are effective treatments available. I pray and hope that I will be able to find a treatment plan that works for me so that I can live a relatively healthy and normal life.
Thanks to BCH, I was able to get the help I needed in timely manner. After all, bipolar disorder left untreated tends to worsen overtime and treatment is not that effective in managing the condition.
I have a confidence that I will be able to get better. I will not be defined by my mental illness. I am not bipolar, rather I have bipolar.
I will have to look into more earning opportunities to hopefully get enough to cover my expenses without asking for my family's help. I do not want to be a burden, after all. But for now, I am trying to battle the side effects of the medication and will not be able to be as productive as I wish I could be.
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Cook Samyang with Me
Today, I had a psychiatric appointment to get more prescription for my medication. I also managed to get a second opinion in my diagnosis, and the new diagnosis given to me actually feels more like what I am experiencing.
However, I am not ready to talk about it here for now as I have yet to inform my family about this new development about my illness.
So for now I would like to share an article that I wanted to write before I got too busy with publishing pet related articles.
Samyang
We like to eat Samyang noodles but not the spiciest kind. Why? Well when we tried it before the noodles are just spicy with not much taste to it. We like spicy foods but not food where it feels like you just ate a literal chili and nothing else.
Anyway, we still enjoyed this carbo samyang noodles so my sister buys these for us. It is still spicy but it actually carries some kind of deliciousness to it.
We like to add eggs and cheese just to make it more delicious. It also helps in giving our stomachs some room so that we will not eat much spicy food.
This is what the sauce looks like, it is just for one pack though since I forgot to take a picture of it together.
After taking pictures, weboiled the noodles and drain the water once it is done.
After draining the water, we mixed the sauce and added the eggs. And then when the eggs cooked, we added the cheese as well.
We waited for the cheese to melt and then transfer the noodles to the plate.
This is what the final product looks like. I really like how it tasted and I ate a lot. You might find it weird but I also like eating rice with noodles.
Not just noodles but also for spaghetti. When I told my friends about this, they look at me as if I suddenly told them some disgusting thing. But I just really like eating rice and I did not find it weird until I learned that most of the people around me do not eat rice with spaghetti or noodles.
A small confession
The pictures are taken more than a week ago when my sisters, and mother are at the province. I had been planning to write more abput it but I kept putting it off since as you can see I did not manage to take a picture of each process.
I thought I did but when I checked my gallery, those are the only pictures I have taken that day. I might not have noticed that I did not properly click the button to capture the photos.
Anyway, I just could not think of any topic to write today. Well I have a lot of topics I want to write about but my pictures for those are not yet ready so I am unable to do so.
Closing words
I just really want to publish an article today but as you can probably tell, my mind and heart is not up to it.
As much as I do not want to let the new information about my diagnosis get to me, I feel so much emotions right now to properly distinguish what exactly I thought about it.
I am just glad that I made the decision to change psychiatrist since I had more time to share what my symptoms are. The doctor also explained what my diagnosis meant exactly.
Now I have some things I need to take care of for the next appointment. My psychiatrist asked me to have some laboratory tests done. She said that the tests will be used to rule out physical conditions and to know if I have some things that might affect the dosage that should be given to me.
I was also given an assignment that I plan to work on tomorrow. Or maybe on Monday. I am not yet sure.
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More Shopee Budol
Today I have been busy catching up with some academic responsibilities. As much as I would like to ignore these things, I want to keeo my scholarship so even if I am too drained to move, I am still fighting to keep going.
In a different matter, my Shopee payday sale budols finally arrived and my pets are using them. I was planning on doing a review of the items I bought but I have just not been in the right mood to write that article yet. Maybe soon I will write it.
Anyway, since the orders arrived, I have more orders that I bought for the pets, and some for myself as well.
I bought some for myself as a small reward since I have been doing my best despite what I am feeling at the moment. And since our pets are a huge part of why I can keep getting out of bed, I promised myself that I will always do my beat to provide for them.
More orders for my pets
I bought another litter box as I mistakenly thought that Oreo refuses to share one with Presto. However, I noticed that she has also began using the litter box but she would also sometimes use the bathroom when she is too lazy to go upstairs to use the litter box.
This litter box will be put in a different place so they can choose where to go.
I also decided to buy a laser so we can have more fun activities to do.
I realized that 1kg of kitter sand is not as much as I thought it would be. So I bought more. Hopefully, I can buy some clumping sand soon when the kittens are a bit older. I want to be able to get away with not washing the litter sand and box as much just to ensure that the odor will not be too much.
I also bought some dry kitten food for Oreo and Presto because I noticed they took well in adjusting to wet food mixed with goat's milk.
I have actually received this package today and I already let the kittens taste it. They love it a lot. Although, I noticed that they prefer to eat it without milk anymore.
I probably underestimated their age especially when I realized just how sharp their teeth are already. I am observing them for any changes in their bowel movements but so far so good, they actually seem to have more regular bathroom breaks than when they are on a milk diet.
Moshi also ate a bit of the dog food which is a huge win for me since Moshi is a picky and spoiled dog. I am trying to get used to eating dog food so that she will not be a problem when we go to the province next month. I do not want her to act her usual picky self that will refuse to eat if they do not find the food up to her taste.
More orders to come
I still have some things that I want to buy for the pets during the 5.5 sale so I am svaing up for that. The most important ones are the crate, and the carrier. The crate is for Moshi so that she will have a place to sleep in when we are at the province. After all, she can not sleep on the bed like she is used to. The carrier will be for the cats so that they can be familiar with it for when I take them to the vet on May 12.
I also plan to buy more kitten food since I read that too much Whiskas might not be that good so I plan to mix it with some other brand to help the kittens get more nutrients. I am also not giving up on finding a dog food that Moshi will like.
Maybe, I will buy some things for myself too.
Other orders
This is one item that I bought for myself. I bought this sinceI realized how comfy wide leg pants are so I wnated to have more of the same kind of pants.
I was initially planning on building my closet with more outfits but that was delayed due to the arrival of the kittens. But I will be trying to get there piece by piece.
This one is for my father since his phone case is broken already. I decided to just give this to him as a thank you for his hard work.
Closing words
It might seem like I have a lot of extra money but in reality I actually saved up for this for a few months before I started to buy on Shopee again.
Moreover, I have some expensive bills to pay particularly the therapy and medication that I am taking so I am actually holding myself back from buying a lot. I am just buying things that are needed instead of things that I want or find cute.
To end this article, I would like to share this cute picture of Oreo and Presto just so you could see why I would spend a lot of money on them.
And here is Moshi picking her food because she is not used to eating dog food. I ended up picking it up and feeding it to her by hand and she ended up eating it all so I am quite happy with Moshi. She is growing up so fast.
Anyway, I will be sleeping now since I have an appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow morning. Good night.
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Craving Satisfied
Even though my partner and I had a ramen date a few weeks ago, I still continue to crave ramen. I do not know why, but I just really like noodles even though I know they are not exactly healthy for me.
Anyway, let us not talk about health and all since food is something I truly enjoy. I do not want this to become a part of my life that I have to stress over too.
Going back to the topic, earlier we ate Jjampong cup noodles which made me crave ramen more. After class, I was incredibly hungry. So I ate light dinner.
Sometime after, I could already tell that I will be hungry in a few hours. I get hungry easily these past few weeks, probably a side effect of the medication I am taking.
I asked my youngest sister if she wanted to eat ramen tonight. Of course it was my treat since I have more money than her.
Our agreement is that she will be the one who will tell our orders at the store. After that, we went out to buy ramen. Good thing that there is a nearby ramen shop that I have been wanting to try.
Ikigai Ramen
The name of the shop is Ikigai Ramen which reminds me of my first ever article here on read.cash. It is amazing how now I am using my read.cash earnings to buy from this ramen shop.
This is what it looks like on the outside. It is just a small store so you might miss it if you are not paying attention. But even on the outside, I could feel the inviting atmosphere of the place.
Their menu is posted outside as well. Probably to let the customers decide their orders before coming inside. As I said, the store has a small space so it would be crowded if many customers line up to decide on their orders inside.
Inside Ikigai Ramen
The first thing I noticed is their logo on the wall. I was amazed how clean the painting looked and I admired the hands of the one who painted it.
Then of course, I was fascinated with this fan art of Naruto characters on another wall. It kinda makes me feel like I am eating with my favorite characters.
This is what the counter looks like. I find the lanterns so cute.
There are some tables for dine-in customers but I did not take a picture of those.
Our orders
Initially, my sister and I wanted to order one seafood lobster claw and one naruto crabstick special. However, upon telling that at the checkout, we were told that the seafood lobster claw was unavailable. So we ended up ordering 2 naruto crabstick special.
We decided to take it out since we planned to eat it when we get hungry during the night.
The noodles as well as the toppings are in a microwave oven safe container while the broth is in a thick plastic.
This is what the order looks like. I have to admit that the egg smells so good, it is not just a simple boiled egg although I am not sure what they did with it.
This is what the ramen looks like when the broth is added with the noodles. It smells so great and I was so eager to start eating it.
An hour after ordering, we decided to eat it so that we can rest early. After all, we will have to wake up at 5AM for our morning walk.
My rating
I would rate this ramen a 3.5/5. It is delicious and it satisfied my craving. However, it is not the best ramen I have tasted.
The portion is great too. I was full and I have a feeling that I will not feel hunger during the night.
For its price, it is well worth it which is why the rating is 3.5/5.
My sister rated the ramen 4/5. I did not ask her about her reasons though.
Closing words
I really enjoy the food and I am glad that my craving is satisfied. I will be abe to sleep well tonight. Unless the kittens decided to wake me up again.
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Life with three pets
This is going to be a very honest article coming from someone who never had to take care of any pets and then suddenly has to take care of three pets.
I would like to preface this by saying that no matter how tiring it gets, I love our pets and they bring me a lot of joy. But the reality of taking care of more mouths to feed is not as sweet as many portray it as.
To provide a bit of organization to this work, I want to divide it into my life before we had pets, and our life now that we have pets.
Before Moshi
Before Moshi, I had a nice routine going. I would wake up then medidate then exercise. After that, I could read or sleep again.
I also explore a lot of hobbies back then such as airdry clay sculpting, handmade paper making, sewing, painting, etc.
In short I had a lot of free time. And nost of my stress were from academic.
After Moshi
The first few weeks were rough. I remember hiw I tried to be tiughhearted then to hopefully convince my elder sister to see that she can not take care of a pet when she is already so tired from work.
But I was unable to ignore Moshi's pitiful cries back then. My elder sister did her best to provide for Moshi's things but as many of you know, a puppy requires more care.
So when Manju went on a vacation for two weeks, I was the one who had to take care of just a month-old Moshi. It ate up a lot of time. And my routine is destroyed.
But in such a short time, I developed a love for Moshi that I find myself smiling at her playful nature. I find myself lookin forward to taking care of her as well.
Before Oreo and Presto
Moshi is already a year old so she is no longer a puppy and does not require much care anymore. Although she does have more needs when it comes to physicl activities since she has more energy. But it was almost natural to adapt to that routine.
I even managed to find some time to restart my hobbies such as crochet. And still hve enough time to grind and do other things.
After Oreo and Presto
Taking care of three pets is beyond exhausting. I was already left with no energy just taking care of myself, and was barely managing taking care of Moshi daily and now two additional pets are added under my care.
At this point, I felt frustration built up on some family members because they think taking care of pets is easy so they keep adopting even though majority of the work falls on me.
But of course, I could not bear to just stand aside and watchthe kittens suffer because no one else knew how to take care of them. So I once again stepped up even though I know it is going to be difficult.
This is what my arm looks like two weeks after taking care of Oreo and Presto. I actually had more scratches before when I was just starting to stimulate them but I did not want to look at it so I did not take a picture.
Now I was able to take a picture because finally the kittens are starting their litter box training so I do not have to hold them anymore and stimulate them.
There was a time I cried a little because the scratches are painful. But I had to keep doing the same thing before and after their meals to ensure they are healthy so I had to push through.
I am not blaming them since I know they can not hide their claws yet at the time.
But that is not all
I had to pay attention to Moshi too so that she will not feel jealous of the two kittens. I was actually relieved when Moshi was not angry upon seeing the kittens which is one of the main reason why I decided to agree to adopting them.
If Moshi had been angry, I would have asked my father to find someone else to take care of the kittens. So it must be fate for me to adopt Oreo and Presto.
However, Moshi is super excited to play with them but the size difference is a bit hard to ignore. Oreo and Presto are tiny so they get quite shocked when Moshi tries to play with them.
This leads to chaos since Moshi is trying to get them to play with her while the kittens try to hide from her.
The kittens are also troublemakers especially when I am feeding Moshi. Even though I already feed them before I feed Moshi, they still try to get to Moshi's bowl, unbothered by the fact that I already put it on top of a container to keep them away from it.
And then there is Moshi who is also curious about what the kittens are eating.
Since food is involved, there are claws and noises involved. I am just incredibly grateful that Moshi is smart enough to know that biting a kitten is bad.
Closing words
Taking care of three pets is taking a toll on me. But I am also enjoying it. Watching them grow up make me happy.
Although there truly is a lot of expenses involved with having pets.
I wish I was a bit more prepared but I do not regret having them in my life.
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BCH saved me from going crazy
Today started out great as I still have my good mood from the surprise dat yesterday. I wad actually pretty hyper than normal which freaked out my youngest sister.
But my mood turned downhill when I realized that today is April 19, and I have yet to receive information about how my follow up with the psychiatrist from NCMH will happen. When the realization sunk in, I decided to call the contact numbers but it seemed that all lines were busy. It was just ringing for a few minutes and then the line will be cut off.
I was in a panic
By this time my mind is a mess already. I was overthinking several scenarios at once and I was having a difficult time breathing.
I tried to think logically but my mind refused to cooperate. It felt like all logic was suddenly thrown out the window and all that was left was an endless void filled with various screams and wails.
It felt like I was going crazy. To understand my reason, I will try to explain some of what I felt before and during the time I started taking the prescribed medication.
It was noisy
My mind was filled with various thoughts before I decided to get help. It was normal for me to have rapid fire thoughts goin through my mind.
Throughout the years, I started to get better at ignoring the background thoughts and focus my attention on what I should be focusing on.
However, the noise remains and I am always aware of it.
It was dark
Before taking the medication, the world around me seems so hopeless. I have some better days where I feel "normal" but most days, I was in a state fueled by loneliness and sadness.
I could not even find a reason to continue doing the things I love because, what was the point?
I felt helpless
For years, I was stuck in a cycle of feeling okay to suddenly feeling hopeless. No matter how many self-help books I finished, the relief is short-lived.
I meditated but my thoughts refuse to stay calm. I exercised and eat healthy yet my mind is still not okay.
I was still not okay. At some point, I started to think that maybe I will forever feel that way.
Until I took a different step
I finally decided that self help is not helping me that much which is why I seek professional's help using the BCH I earned from writing.
This enabled me to finally have the courage to see a professional who showed me that being honest and vulnerable can be a brave thing. And soon after I saw a psychiatrist who gave an initial diagnosis and medication.
It gets a bit better
Just on the first day of taking escitalopram, I could already feel some subtle effects. I say subtle because I could still feel majority of my symptoms but I felt like they are easier to manage.
Moreover, getting a good sleep that day is a definite plus in my book.
In the week that followed, I was mostly stuck in the usual mood I experience but a bit toned down than when I sought for help. It means that I was just back to my mostly empty and mindless self.
My mind works slower than before. But in general, I felt better in a sense.
In the second week of taking medicine, I started to have some lapses in the time I take the medication.
I usually take it at around 5-6am once I wake up and eat breakfast. After taking the medication, I would go back to sleep for a bit until I had to get up for my classes.
However, in the second week of taking medication, there were times when I would forget to take it during the early morning. And I would just take it at around 9am.
It seems like a small amount of time, but I could feel the effect it has on me. I felt disoriented and my mind is fuzzy. I was so deep in my sleep that if my sister had not woken me up, I would have missed my alarm.
Even after taking the medication, it took a few hours before I got back to my "normal" state.
It changed me
The experience I shared scared me. I have been advised to not suddenly stop taking medication because I might experience withdrawl effects which might make my symptoms worse. So the experience almost felt like a taste of what ckuld happen if I suddenly stop taking the medication now that I feel a bit "better".
Going back to the story
This is the reason why I had a panic attack today when I received no new about the follow up appointment. I getthatit is a free service so many people are using it but it was not a fun experience for me.
I only got prescribed 20 pills of escitalopram. I already took 14. If I did not have my follow up with the next 6 days, I would be forced to suddenly stop because I can not take the medication without prescription.
It took me an hour or two to clear my mind just a little. But it was enough for me to realize that I am not left without a choice.
It is because I still have BCH which already opened up a variety of options. I could book an appointment with another psychiatrist. I could look for a new clinic where I could get my medication.
That thought saved me from breaking down further. Because of that single thought, I was able to remind myself that I have other options available.
What happened next?
Well, I missed my follow up for today. So when I finally got myself together, I sent a desperate email to the private clinic I had my initial consultation at.
I asked whether I could book another appointment even though I have an upcoming appointment on April 30.
Thank the heaven that the clinic sent back a reply just an hour after my email and it was a reply that I wanted to see. I had the option to bookan appointment withtheir psychiatrist either on the 23rd or the 30th.
Of course, I chose the 23rd since my mind would probably not be able to handle two sessions in one day.
I converted a small amount of BCH to pay for the appointment. And now, my problem is averted. I will not have a chance to consult a psychiatrist regarding my condition and I will not have to face withdrawal symptoms because of a missed appointment.
Closing words
To some, it might not make sense why I had to do what I am doing. But it does not matter to me. After all, I am just tryin to get better.
And I am forever thankful that BCH opened up this option for me.
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A Surprise Date
I just got home from a date with my partner. I was not actually expecting much to happen today.
It was a Monday after a short break and I was not excited for it. I know my youngest sister feels the same way too.
You know the feeling when your body is getting used to resting then all if a sudden you have to grind once more. Yeah, I am not that happy about it.
Anyway, my partner got to his work today and was mostly busy during the day. While I spent my time waiting for professors to show up but they never did.
I am not complaining though, I just wished that they would say something when they do not plan to hold classes.
Anyway, in between the waiting game I have, I just slept the day away. Then when I woke up from a nap to wait for another class to begin, a message I am waiting for appeared.
A nice surprise
My partner messaged me telling me he is about to go home. Of course, I went through the usual wishing him to go home safely.
But then he suddenly asked if I want to eat ramen with him. I told him, I want to but I have no money.
I never felt comfortable leaving the house with no money on hand even when I go out with my sisters when they promise to treat me. I have major trust issues so I always want to have money just in case.
Anyway, when my partner said that he will treat me, I did not doubt it. So I told him, I will not refuse haha.
As we were chatting, he was actually already waiting for me outside but I was oblivious. A part of me was scared that it was just a prank so I was trying not to get my hopes up.
However it is not a prank and after 10 minutes, he finally told me to go outside since he has been waiting there all that time.
Ramen turned to KFC
We decided to just eat at fastfood for our date since we already had a ramen date last time.
We ordered the same thing on KFC. I forgot what this is called though since it was the first time we ordered it.
I was too shy to include his food in the picture since he might want to start eating it already so I just took a picture of mine to send to my parents. I always try to keep them updated when I am out so that they will not worry about me.
I enjoy eating food with him since we can share a good conversation as well as be comfortable of eating in silence. I honestly appreciate his
Sweetness overload
After eating rice, of course we have room for sweets. We decided to go to the store next to KFC which is Dunkin Donuts.
It has been years since I last went to this exact branch. It was nostalgic for me since my bestfriends and I loved hanging out here. My partner and I even sat at the the favorite spot me and my bestfriends always take.
And look an oppa even appeared at the Dunkin Donut but my eyes were only set on my partner.
My partner ordered this. He wanted to also give my family some donuts. I was shy but incredibly grateful. I found his action so sweet and thoughtful. It honestly made me soft.
This is the last picture I will share for today since I want to keep the others for myself. I find this picture cute and romantic.
I would have put this in my story in social media but my parents will see it and give me a piece of their mind. So I would just share it here.
My partner is the one who took this photo which made it more special for me so I really wanted to share it.
Closing words
In today's episode of I am broke but my tummy is full, my partner is the hero. I am embarrassed to admit that I left the house carrying only my phone and a face towel.
I enjoyed the time spent with my partner not only because of the food but the most important thing for me is his presence. We could have just stayed at home and ate some cheap snacks and I would have enjoyed it immensely as well.
Seeing my partner definitely puts me in the best mood I have had this month. I can not wait for the day when we could spend each day together.
But for now, every moment we sent together is something that I deeply treasure.
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Stuck in my throat
I thought that getting a diagnosis would be easy or that it would be natural for me to say it. I mean, I managed to inform my bestfriends, and my partner about it the moment I got the diagnosis.
I even let my family know about it. Well, except for my younger sister. She was sleeping when I told the other members of my family about it so she never knew the reason why I am taking a medication.
I asked her about it
Randomly, I asked her if she knew why I am taking a medication. I imagine how it would go so many times in my head.
In my imagination, I always just say it sk casually as if it was just something insignificant.
But reality is disappointing.
When my youngest sister asked me the reason why. I could not open my mouth. I found it difficult to breathe, and I had to focus on breathing for a few minutes. And then, all I was able to say was it was because of my diagnosis.
So many words
I had many things that I wanted to share but they were all stuck in my throat. It felt as if the gathered there and it stopped my voice from working.
I did tell my youngest sister what exct diagnosis I got since she deserves to know. After all, the two of us spent most of our time together as she helped me take care of the pets.
I wanted to tell her
I wanted to tell her how my condition affects me. That the reason why I have been so out of it for the past few months is because I no longer had a control on my mental health.
I wanted to tell her how if she is not always pushing me to get out of bed to take care of the pets, I would have never find the energy to leave my room.
How I would have forgotten to eat if she does not ask me to eat together. How I would have never gitten around to washing the dishes if she is not always waiting for me to finish doing it.
No words out of my mouth
But I did not tell her that. Just like how she acts as if I had just not told her something serious.
Yet both of us understand each other better now. We are never good t communicting our thoughts but we show it in our actions.
We share our concern in different words and I am used to it. Afterall, I never tell my family I love them but I do my best to give everything I can.
I never say nor show affection to my youngest sister in the normal way. I just give her money everytime I have money and I also buy her cravings too.
In turn, she did not freak out on me when I told her my diagnosis. Rather, she just promised to treat me to unli wings next time.
Unspoken but understood
It took me a while to get it. I used to not understand my family becuse they never communicate their feelings into words.
But when I started paying attention, I saw how they speak. It is not in words but actions.
Of course, some might say it is better to clearly convey what we feel, but it works for us this way.
It is never spoken, but we all know that we have each other's backs even during the times when we do not fully understand. Just like how my family supports me even though they are not sure of what my diagnosis mean.
Honestly, it does not bother me since they are doing their best to be understanding.
I am also not at the stage where I could continuously talk about what I am feeling outside of therapy.
So the subtle shift in their attitudes is more than enough for me.
Closing words
Writing is different from talking. I always find myself more comfortable with writing my thoughts than talking about it.
Maybe that is why no matter how bad my condition gets, I still always find my way back to writing.
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Payday Sale 2: Buying Pet Essentials with BCH
Yesterday, I shared some of the items I got from Duke Petshop for the Paydy Sale. Most of the items were for the kittens since they are new members of the family.
Today I want to share more items I got for Moshi, Oreo, and Presto during the sale. This is the life of a fur parent. Instead of spending my money on myself, I used it to provide for my fur babies instead.
Well, I m not complaining since I enjoy buying things for my loved ones.
The things I ordered
The first thing I ordered is goat's milk along with 2 milk scoopers. As of now, the kittens are drinking kitten milk replacer but I read that it sometimes causes constipation so goat's milk is recommended to help with digestion.
I just hope that they like the taste of this milk too. I want them to enjoy their meal time, after all.
I bought two scoopers so that I can use the other one for the wet food.
Next, I bought some food from Shopee Mall. I ordered 2 packs of dog treats for Moshi. I hope that she likes the taste of this treat since I have never tried giving it to her.
Then, I bought 3 packs of kitten wetfood for when I start weaning Oreo, and Presto.
I was planning to buy kitten dry food as well but I decided to just buy it on the 5.5 sale since I will not be using it immediately, after all.
This one is for Moshi. Since we go for our morning walks, I wanted to make it more fun for her so I decided to get this.
This water bottle has a space for food as well as food cup for treats. Moreover, it has a storage for poop bags as well as poop shovel for when Moshi can not hold it in.
I really like how convenient it would make travelling with Moshi is. I am so excuted for this parcel to arrive.
This is the scratch post that I wanted for my kittens. I was unable to buy it at my first order during the midnight sale so I bought the scratching board seen in my last article. https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/payday-sale-duke-petshop-feat-bch-db1b2b1b
Fortunately, my elder sister gave me some extra money since she received her payday. This enabled me to buy this kitten scratch post before the sale ended.
This is also the last thing I ordered for the Payday sale.
Closing words
I had a lot of fun online shopping for our pets. I also could not believe that I spent P1,427 during this Payday sale. And I still have more items in my cart that I pln to check out on the 5.5 sale.
It is not a problem at all since I have BCH so I can plan on what items to buy and I know that I will be able to get it. Speking of plans, I am already thinking of what items to buy in the 5.5 sale.
The priority would be getting a carrier so that the kittens can get used to it for their first vet visit. I have yet to take them to the vet since I decided to just time it during Moshi's next visit for convenience.
Of course, I will need to buy 2 more litter boxes next time but I think it can wait for another few weeks. They are still kittens after all, and will not mind sharing the same box.
I also need to buy some kitten food, and treats. And some treats for Moshi as well.
Maybe in the next sale I could buy something for myself. I deserve it after all.
However, that is a thought for another time since I am now excitedly waiting for next week to arrive.
No, I am not excited to study once again. But I am excited since our stipend will most likely arrive next week. Moreover, the orders I have will start arriving next week.
It is no problem to me since I already paid for all the orders via Shopee Pay. I always do this since I do not want to bother my parents if I am busy and my orders suddenly arrive. By paying for it online, all my parents have to do is receive my parcel and disinfect it.
Although, I still prefer COD for expensive items just to ensure that it reached me safely.
What about you? How much did you spend this payday sale? Are you planning to buy something on the 5.5 sale as well?
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Payday sale: Duke Petshop feat. BCH
Last time, I converted BCH for some bills to pay. I decided back then to also withdraw some money for the Payday Sale. Today, I want to share some items I got for my pets. I will be writing 2 articles since I bought many things and it will be too long if I include them all in one article.
Just like my routine from months ago, I stayed up waiting for 12 midnight so I can immediately checkout the items I want to buy. I do this because sometimes the good vouchers are limited and I do not want to miss out.
Duke Petshop
This is the store on Shopee where I bought 10 items. I saw that the shop has great reviews so I decided to buy from them. Plus, it is incredibly convenient since many of the items I am looking for are already there so it saves me money for shipping fee and it is nice to receive big packages at once instead of receiving small parcels at different times.
My orders
The first order I have is dog collar to help with fleas and other insects. Moshi sometimes get some insect from our walks since we encounter a lot of stray dogs in our areas.
I want to try this collar to see if it will help Moshi. I am not so sure about how it works though.
The next one is for the kittens. As of now, I am just using a small syringe with no needles to feed them. But I think they will benefit from using a feeding bottle and it might make less mess than what they are making now. I have to clean a lot of spilled milk right now so hopefully this will help me.
I bought this cat toy to help the kitten exercise. They mostly sleep all day as they are still growing, but I want to spend some quality time with them doing what they find interesting.
I do not want to buy too much toys though since I do not want them to go to waste like Moshi's toys.
Kittens are very messy so I need these wipes to keep them and the place clean. As of now, I am just using tissue paper and water to clean them and their mess. I also use some mild soap and alcohol for the floors. But I did not use bby wipes for the kittens because they might not like it so I am buying wet wipes meant for pets.
I bought this scratching bord because the one I wanted would put me over the budget. Well, I still ended up placing an order for it tonight so this might be unnecessary. The one I wanted was a scratch post, I will share it tomorrow.
I only bought 2 bowls for now since I am just going to start training the kittens to use bowls instead of being bottle fed. So I decided to just have one bowl for the food, and one for water. I will buy more on the 5.5 sale when my stipend arrives.
The last thing I bought from this shop is 2 packs of chicken biscuit dog treats for Moshi. I am not sure if Moshi will like this since I never bought one before but I ended up buying two just in case Moshu liked it. She deserves many treats since she is always a good girl. And I do want to do more trainings for her so she can be happier.
All in all, I endedup spending P423 in this shop alone.
Closing words
Thanks to Bitcoin Cash, I was able to afford buying all these things for my pet. I feel immensely grateful that I come upon this opportunity where my efforts are rewarded with BCH. It helped me not only in times of need, but also in providing the best for the animals in my care.
My youngest sister is surprised to see how much I am spending for this sale since I have yet to receive my stipend but I already have a lot of money. Well, BCH is my secret so of course I never ran out of cash when I need or want it.
And my shopping spree does not end here, I still have more items to share tomorrow and they are all so cute that I am excited to share them with you.
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I'm sorry, I can't keep my word
One of the things that used to make me proud of myself was that I always keep my word. No matter how the situations changed, when I promise something, I make sure I fulfill it.
Over time, I realized it was toxic. Well, it was my bestfriend who made me realize it. At first, I was in denial.
I thought that people who can not keep their word are just looking for excuses. I believed that because I had been able to keep my word all throughout those years, then people should do the same.
But my wonderful and kind bestfriend showed me another perspective. Sometimes, life just gets in the wy of promises. It does not matter what we want when we are faced with things that need to be done.
It took me awhile to understand
I wish I could say that a single conversation was enough to change my though process but that is obviously not the case.
It took me some time before I was finally able to see how harmful it is sometimes to keep my word.
Keeping my promise was the reason I stayed in a toxic relationship. It was the reason why now I have a lot of things to unlearn.
And soon, I also realized just how much toll it took on my loved ones sometimes to keep their word.
I am not saying that one should never uphold their promise because saying something with no intention of keeping it is wrong. I am just saying that as I grow older, I learned that it is not always about the promises made or words uttered. Sometimes, life happens and it gets in the way of what we want. So I have learned to live with it.
I am just sharing this
I thought about it today as I lie in bed dealing with my demons. I feel weak and worthless.
I feel embarrassed of myself for not being able to be more active after saying that I will do my best.
Does it even matter if I continue writing?
It feels like leaving this platform is the answer. I feel so lost and tired.
I wish I could go back to being my productive self again. I miss seeing replies on my articles about how cool it is that I managed to do a lot of things within a month.
Nowadays, it just feels like I am drifting. Just flowing from one day to another. They blur together most times that I find it hard to keep track of what date it even is today.
Thank you
I want to say thank you for giving me space to exist here in this virtual world. No matter how difficult it gets in reality, I feel a bit better because I have this place where my thoughts can run free.
Thank you for understanding my inbility to keep up with life. I wish I could be my high-functioning self all the time, but I must face the fact that sometimes I can get too tired.
Thank you for helping me keep my passion alive. Despite the fact that I have now lost interest in writing and the fact that as of now, J find no joy in doing it, I could still continue due to the safe haven I have here.
I promised myself that I will write everyday. And if I can not keep my romise of being more interactive, I wish for myself that I can keep writing here daily. And if I ever succumbed to my demons, I pray that I find the strength to lean on this place again.
Closing words
I have been feeling a lot of things lately. I am not even so sure if it is because of my condition or if it is a side effect of the medication I am taking. Maybe it was even both. Whatever the case may be, I am not feeling up to faking being okay.
Thank you for being so kind to me. I appreciate all the words and concern and the wishes for me to get better soon.
I hope that you are continuously blessed in your life. May you have everything you want and more.
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Thanks for the help, BCH
Life is funny because it is full of unexpected twists. Just like this week, I was so content in not touching my BCH since my stipend is going to be given next week after the Holy week. Unfortunately, needs can not be delayed.
I could not wait for the stipend when I had so many things that needed to be paid. The first one was the kitten essentials. The next is the fee for the therapy session I will have on the 30th of April.
Today I thought the expenses will finally stop but I woke up to the sight of my mother using the rice cooker to cook eggs. It turned out that our LPG once again ran out.
With a stone in my stomach, I asked them if they are not yet ordering because it is still early or if it is because they have no money to order it.
My father told me that it wad the latter. Although, they did not ask for money, how could I ignore the situation?
I knew I needed to convert BCH to fiat again. And it was difficult since the conversion rate was low. But I still went through with it. I mean, the other option was to watch my parents worry about that for a few days as well as not eating homecooked meals so the alternative is not exactly pleasant.
This is the amount I withdrew from my coins.ph wallet. It was the last batch of BCH I had in that wallet.
As you can see, I converted 0.07307417 BCH and I got P1, 136. I gave the P1,000 to buy the LPG.
The first store was selling it for P1, 200 but fortunately, my father managed to contact a store with cheaper price. The LPG costs around P985.
I thought that it would be the end of it. But then my mother suddenly asks to borrow money now thta she knows I still have some spare. At first, I denied her because I already spent all the BCH in my coins.ph wallet.
But then she started to tell where she would spend it. My mother and sister would go to the province on Saturday to visit my aunt who is struggling.
My mother has no money of her own so she wanted to borrow some from me. I knew that it will not be returned to me.
But I could not bear to let her go to the province with just expecting my sister to provide for her. So I made the decision to transfer the $60 I had earned from read.cash to my coins.ph wallet.
Before I do this I asked her if she really needed it now since the BCH conversion is low and she said yes even though their plan is to go to the province on Saturday.
So with a heavy heart, I waited for the BCH to arrive. And I converted all of it. I did it because I want to be honest when I say that I do not have any BCH left.
This is my read.cash earnings since the beginning of April. I hated having to convert at the dip right now but I had no choice.
So I converted 0.20319482 BCH to P3,164. I gave my mother P2000. And the rest will be my budget for the Payday sale to buy more kitten essentials.
Closing words
As much as it saddens me to see the increase in BCH's price compared to its price earlier, I am still undeniably grateful that I was once again able to help my family out.
BCH is money, and the money I have is something that I spent for me and my family's needs. So even though I was sad to see how quickly my wallet emptied out, I am satisfied to know that it was for a good cause.
I am saved again by BCH. BCH is reliable since it is there for me when my stipend fails me. Imagine, if I had not found out about BCH, I would be left watching my family worry about the LPG and seeing my mother go to the province with no money just because my stipend did not come on time. But because of BCH, I can still help my family even though there are delays in our scholarship allowance.
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Selling BCH during the dip
In my article a few weeks ago, I have shared about how BCH helped me in finally getting an initial consultation with a private clinic with regards to my mental health. I alsp mentioned there that the treatment plan will be emailed to me along with the details of the next consultation. https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/bch-keeps-me-sane-09b65388
Well, after waiting for more than a week, I finally received an email about it. I received two emails actually. The first one was sent by the one I have talked to during initial consultation and the next one is from the clinic detailing the available schedule for the senior psychologist asked to take over my case.
Oh, I forgot to mention that I was recommended to undergo psychotherapy to help with my thought process. I would hve to bring up that I saw a psychiatrist though since the symptoms were too much. Hopefully, they can recommend a psychiatrist to help me out since it is a bit difficult to choose a schedule for the free consultation of NCMH.
I needed the money
I actually already sent the BCH to my coins.ph account weeks ago but the value unexpectedly dipped. What was supposed to be enough for two sessions ended up just being enough for one.
It is okay though since I have faith that BCH will increase in value again.
As you can see from this image here, I converted .12874437 BCH which is worth P2000 when I was converting it. It is a bit sad to sell at the current price but I had to convert it so I can confirm my appointment.
The process is payment first and I had to send the proof of payment with 12 hours of receiving the email about my appointment details.
So even if I will certainly have my stipend next week, I can not wait for it unless I want to risk missing out on my desired dates.
Paying for the appointment
The Online Psychotherapy session with a senior psychologist is worth P1, 800. I am blurring out the details of the clinic since I want to experience the psychotherapy first before sharing their name.
It is just a failsafe in case I end up not liking the service, then I will not feel guilty about probably leading someone to spend their money on an appointment with them.
Honestly, I have a good initial consultation but you never know. I just want to make sure that when I do share the private clinic I am going to, I am confident that those who try their service will also have a good experience. After all, the sessions are not cheap especially for students like me.
Closing words
I feel so grateful that I have BCH to fall back on for my online consultations. I am not sure what I would have done without BCH. I would probably have not taken the first step to getting help because I am afraid of the bills.
However, now money is not that big of a problem for me anymore. I am finally able to spend something for my benefit.
Although I am now taking a break from grinding here and on noise.cash, I am still enjoying the fruits of my efforts from the last few months.
I feel thankful for it since I can rest easy without worrying about making more money. I feel content that I found a balance with grinding and prioritizing my mental health.
I do plan to return to my usual routine soon, though. For now, I am just taking the time to rest and to recharge myself for the busy weeks ahead.
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Buying kitten essentials with BCH
A few days ago, I wrote an article introducing Oreo and Presto. In that story, I also told how I ended up taking care of them despite not having any plans for it.
Because of the abruptness of the situation, I was not able to buy a lot of essential things and just make do with some alternative things.
For example, I have yet to buy the kittens their own bed as well as their own carrier. The bed is self explanatory because I want to give them their own space. The carrier is for when I take them to the vet.
I am planning to just go with the vet during Moshi's next visit so that my sister will be there as well. I also need to prepare for it since it might be ricey with two kittens.
Anyway, my kitten supplies for now consists of a kitten replacement milk since they are still young. It is a bit expensive but I manage somehow. Then there is an old mug where I mix their milk as well as a small syring as a substitute for a baby bottle.
I also have an old ice cream container that I use when I stimulate them to do their business. Of course I have a lot of tissues as well as plastic bags to clean up their mess.
The things I want to buy
I want to buy them a lot of things. First will be a litter box as well as litter sand. Using sand is cheaper although I would need to do some additional steps to ensure that their mess will not smell.
Along with that, I want to buy some biodegradable plastics which eliminates the smell and an enzyme cleaner to prepare for the accidents that are bound to happen while potty training Oreo and Presto.
As I said earlier, I need a cat bed and carrier. But these two can wait since they are comfortable sleeping in an old mattress and the carrier can wait until I get my stipend.
I need to buy them toys as well so that I can start tiring them out so that bad behaviours will not be much of a problem.
Of course, I need milk replacement and soon I will need to start weaning them so a cat food will also be needed. Along with that, I need to prepare some bowls for their water and dry food.
Let me just buy the urgent items first
I wish I could say that I immediately ordered these items when I had the kittens but I did not since I was hoping to wait for my stipend first. But it seems like the stipend will come next week so I needed to order the essentials online.
These are just the things that I believe are needed and cannot wait until the Payday Sale which is why I place an order for them already.
Good thing that I have a BCH reserves to fall back on for this emergency expense. Otherwise, I would have to wait for many days.
As you can see, I only ordered from 3 shops. I limited my budget so that I can buy more in the online sale during Payday.
The first thing I bought is a litter box with scoop. I only bought one since I read that kittens can share a litter box. I will add two more litter boxes soon.
I need an extra one since it is recommended to always have an extra litter box for cats.
But I think I have a bit of time before I need to worry about this since they are still young and still need to be stimulated to go do their business.
Then of course I need a litter sad to go with the litter box. I want to start training them immediately since I do not want to deal with a lot of accidents. I also only bought 1kg of it just in case the kittens do not like the texture.
I bought another pack of kitten milk replacer since the ones my father provided is more expensive that this. I only bought a small pack because I plan to buy more during the Payday sale in a few days.
I also bought a disposable bag so it is easier to get rid of their mess.
Closing words
All in all, I spent P253 for all of these itens. I got lucky since as a platinum member I have additional vouchers. The one that saved me this time is a P50 off voucher.
I only converted P300 worth of BCH for this. I think it was around 0.018BCH when I converted. I am not sure now though since I forgot to check the price.
Taking care of kittens are more expensive than puppies, I think. Since dogs can be potty trained outside but indoor kittens need to have their own litter box plus an extra one.
But it is also rewarding to see the kittens grow up especially when they were already weak when we saw them.
In the next sale, I will be breaking one goal that I set for this year which is to limit my online shopoing expenses to only P500. It is okay though since I have not exceeded that budget in the last months. Another thing is that I remember that I changed that goal to just spend money on essential things and these are definitely purchases that needed to be made.
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It is a process
These days, I have been too hard on myself. Instead of acknowledging the strength it took to get professional help, I am bringing myself down for even needing it.
A part of me feels as if I am weak to have these problems. A fragile little thing that will break with one wrong move.
Even though my family tries to hide it, I can see it bothers them. They have been trying to be understanding but I could see they are not understanding what is going on with me.
It shows in their actions and questions
*"Are you feeling normal yet? "*
*"When will you stop taking the medication? "*
Such simple questions that I find so hard to answer. I am not feeling normal, I do not know if I will ever go back to what is considered normal. It is not like I want to be like these too.
I hope they know that I spent years trying to fix myself before I had enough. I just want to feel better too but it is not as easy as taking a pill and everything goes away overnight.
The medication helps but I can already feel that the doctor might increase the dosage since I am still struggling. I hope I can say that taking the medication makes me feel normal but I do not feel that way. Not yet anyway.
Most of the times, I just get a burst of energy to get through doing the essential things to keep myself and my pets alive and then I have no energy left. Not that I am complaining, the burst of energy is better than none at all.
I needed the reminder
Last time, I told my partner bout my worries. I shared about my fears of the medication not bein right for me and how I do not want to jump from one medication to another until I find the right one.
I opened up about how I just want to feel okay. And how difficult it is to even function normally.
I had these worries after a few times of my mind being slow to process things. I am so used to having so many thoughts at once and understanding things quite easily that when my mind slowed down for a bit, I feel so lost.
I told my partner that I just want to not have to go through this anymore. And he reminded me it is a process. I knew that but I needed a reminder sometimes.
It is not linear
The path to healing is always depicted as this sort of upward trend. Where you went from 0 to 100 with no stop or pause.
However, as I am finding out firsthand, it is not the case. The path to healing is filled with challenges as well. Sometimes, it is even tempting to just go back to ignoring the problems I have.
Although honestly, I am afraid of what I will have to face when I do stop taking my medication. I do not want to feel the same intense symptoms I have been living for years already.
I am so afraid but I know this is the best way to get better. I wish things could speed up so I can get better faster but we all know life works on its time.
I wish this was easier
I wish I could explain it to my family. I wish they would stop pretending that I am still normal.
I wish I could stop feeling shame from my diagnosis. I wish I could stop feeling afraid of what other family members might think when they go here on vacation and learn of what is happening to me.
I wish I do not have to prove to myself that I am unwell because being high-function most of the time almost feels like I am all just imagining things in my head. But I also wish to stay high-functioning because being low-functioning will put my scholarship at risk.
I wish getting better is easier. But I have to be gentle with myself. I doing my best and for now, it is more than enough.
In the future, I hope future-me will look back on this moment and be thankful that I took this first step now instead of putting it off. I hope in the future, I could live without feeling like there is always a war waging in my own mind.
Closing words
I am trying to get back into my rhythm of publishing articles that are not so personal. But for now, I need to release these thoughts I have.
Maybe receiving my stipend will give me some needed motivation. I am not sure how long it will take me to get back to my usual routine.
All I know is that I am trying my best everyday even if my best for the day is just getting out of bed.
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Taking care of two kittens
Last April 6, my father found kittens left for dead on a busy road. The kittens were dirty and crying. He saw them as he was going home from buying my medication.
He gave the kittens to me along with my medication that day. He knew that I wanted cats ever since and this is his blessing in letting me adopt.
Honestly, my first reaction is not joy but frustration. I knew that my medication will leave me sleepy most of the days and I wanted to sleep for most of the day but since the kittens he brought home are still too young, I will not be able to do that.
I believe that the kittens are less than 3 weeks since they can not release on their own yet. They still need to be stimulated before they can pee and poop.
It is frustrating since no one else wanted to learn how to do it so I had to wake up everytime to feed the kittens and help them. I feel frustrated with my father since he wanted to bring home the kittens but does not want the responsibilities that come with it.
I know he did with a good intention as he might have thought the kittens will distract me from my diagnosis and yes they did distract me. But it is hard to enjoy the process of taking care of them because I am always sleepy and then they will scratch me.
These little monsters
This is Moshi meeting the new kittens. Good thing that she was not angry about their presence. Although the kittens looked a bit frightened.
Moshi wanted to play with them but the kittens were having none of it. So Moshi was left staring at them and smelling them.
The upside of taking care of two kittens is that I do not have to entertain them as much. They keep each other company and play with each other. So all I have to do is ensure they do not get into tight spaces and not fall from tall objects.
The truth is
The truth is I am not that frustrated anymore that I have to take care of them. At first, I refused to name them as an act showing my displeasure in having to take care of them but yesterday I finally gave in and told my family what the kittens' names will be- Oreo and Presto.
When I first saw Oreo, the name just popped in my mind but I did not want to admit defeat to their cuteness yet.
I named them after my favorite biscuits to keep the tradition of naming our pets based on food.
Hard but not impossible
It is difficult to take care of them when I could barely take care of my own as of now. I also take care of Moshi so that is three lives dependent on me while my mental health is not the best but I am trying my best to make it work.
My youngest sister also helps out sometimes but most of the time it is just me. I do wish I could just focus on resting but I also enjoy the company of our three pets.
Closing words
I was unable to be active since I was just sleeping for the whole day and when I am awake, I focused on feeding Moshi, Oreo, and Presto. I have to wake up every 2 hours since the kittens need to eat that frequently at this time. I can not wait for them to grow older so I will not have to take care of them that much.
Which reminds me that I have to start buying things for the kittens and Moshi. I wish our stipend will come next week so I can go all out in buying this Payday Sale. I have been holding myself from impulse buying for a few months now and I think I can afford to spend at least P2, 000 when I get my stipend.
After all, the things I plan to buy are essentials and not just wants.
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No energy at all
Today I woke up at 5AM to have a morning walk with Moshi, and my sisters. This is a great way to start the day if only I could sleep early.
The medication I am taking makes me sleepy but not enough that I could actually fall asleep. So I am just stuck yawning all day wondering how many hours of sleep I could get.
Having a short sleep at night is usually okay since I try to take long naps in the afternoon between my classes as well as the free time in between. My naps usually add up to two hours so I can function okay.
But today, the midterm examinations are only separated by a small break that I used to feed my kittens. So I feel so tired.
Well, I always feel tired bht today I just have no energy. It felt like I was just floating from one subject to another. Thankfully, I know that I did my best today.
Medication helps but not always
After taking the medication, I would usually feel sleepy so at this point, I am able to take an hour nap. I can not take longer naps since I had to feed Moshi as well as the kittens now. So even if I wanted to continue sleeping, I can not.
By the time I finished with mt chores, it is usually already close to class hours so I just lie on my bed while dreading my alarm. Sometimes, I wish time would just stop so I could breathe.
The medication is helping me keep some of my symptoms at bay but since I was only prescribed a small dose, and I had only just begun taking it, the effects are not as much as I would like.
My fear
There is a part of me that is scared that I might not get truly better because it took me so long to ask for help. Some part of me though feels like maybe I am just being dramatic about the state of my mental health. I mean I did just fine for a few years living in constant state of tiredness so why am I trying to change that now?
I am not sure how to explain it. Honestly, I have no energy to think of anything but I do not want to give in to the thought of stopping because I am not feeling okay.
I will keep fighting
No matter how tired I get, I want to keep fighting. The doubts might keep me up at night, but I will continue to hold onto the hope that it will get better.
Right now, I have no energy to mince my words or think of a way to express myself creatively. But I still want to keep my promise to myself to publish everyday.
I already feel worthless without the pile of unfulfilled promises to myself, no need to add it.
I have the urge to apologize for such a confusing article today. My mind is a mess and I really can not form sentences together.
The medicine the doctor gave me helps out in quieting down my overthinking mind but it also feels like I process things slower.
Do forgive me for not interacting much today yet still publishing an article. I was swamped with examinations while having to take care of 3 pets. Sometimes I kinda wish that my heart could bear to ignore their needs but I feel so much shame for even thinking of that.
Closing words
This day is not all lows though, we received an update about our stipend and it seems like our adviser is doing his best to rush the process. Hopefully, we can get the P33, 000 within this month. I already have plans for it. Although I would give majority of it to my parents and allocate money to contribute to our monthly expenses.
Let me end this article by sharing how much I envy those people who can fall asleep as soon as their heads hit their pillows. I wish I could fall asleep eithin seconds too. It is not fun to feel sleepy yet not be able to sleep.
Hopefully, this short break will give me time to recalibrate myself. I do need to start cleaning my room again once ng medication gave me that boost in my mood. Or maybe the medication will make me so sleepy, who knows. It depends on my luck that day.
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DIY two-toned headset covers
Crochet headset covers is my new interest as of now. I have been receiving orders of it from time to time which makes me grateful.
Today, I want to share about this simple yet pretty pattern for making your own crochet headset covers. I have already made similar articles about this topic, you can check the links after the article for more information.
The difference in today's pattern is that I used a different type of yarn which means I had to adjust the pattern for the same measurements. The measurements I am using for these patterns are 5.5cm-6cm diameter and 1.5cm depth. These measurements are suitable for many brands of headsets especially in the call center industry. So without further ado, let us start.
Materials
Of course, we have to discuss the materials first before we start any project. Ensuring that you used the same materials as me means that you will not have to worry about adjusting the pattern. However if you have different materias than me then you will know that you need to adjust accordingly.
**2/0 (2.00mm) crochet hook**
This is the crochet hook tht I used since the yarn is thin. I suggest using a branded hook like Tulip Sorbet/ Tulip Gold but if it is out if your budget, a normal hook will do.
**2 colors of mercerized cotton yarn (Cannon/Monaco: 3ply)**
This is a yarn that I used for creating bookmarks as well as earrings. They are also erfect for this pattern because they keep their shape unlike other yarns. Out of the two brands, I used to prefer Cannon since their yarns are shinier but now I think I am leaning more into Monaco since they are easier to work with. Both are good though so you can definitely use either of them.
**Tape measure**
You will need this to ensure that the covers you will be making is in the right size.
**Darning needle**
Darning needle will be used to sew the ends of the excess yarns so that the project will not unravel.
**Scissors**
Scissors will be used to cut away excess yarns after sewing it into the project.
Pattern
This pattern uses US crochet terms. It includes magic ring, chain, double crochet, increase, decrease, and slip stitch. Chain 3 in the pattern will not count as a double crochet stitch.
Create a magic ring, chain 3 (will not count as a double crochet), and put 12 double crochet in the ring. Tighten the ring and slip stitch to the first stitch.
Chain 3, increase for this round. Increase means put 2 double crochet in each stitch. You must have 24 stitches at the end. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
Chain 3, (double crochet, increase)* repeat 12 times. This means that in the first stitch, you will put one double crochet stitch, then in the second you will put 2 double crochet stitch. The pattern repeats for the remaining stitches. At the end of this round, there should be 36 stitches. Slip stitch to fhe first stitch.
*****change to another color*****
Chain 3, follow the pattern (double crochet, increase, double crochet) *12. This means that at the first stitch, you will have one double crochet, two double crochet on the next stitch, and one double crochet next. Repeat this pattern until the end of the round, you should have 48 stitches in total. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
Chain 3, insert a double crochet in every stitches. You should have 48 stitches at the end of this round. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
Chain 3, follow the pattern (double crochet, decrease, double crochet). This means that in the first stitch you will have one double crochet. You will decrease in the next stitch. You can do this by either skipping a stitch or doing the invisible decrease. I used the invisible decrease for cleaner apearance. And then at the 4th stitch, you should put one double crochet. At the end of this round you will have 36 stitches.
Slip stitch to the first round and fasten off.
Sew on the excess yarn ends, and cut the yarns outside the project.
Congratulations! You have successfully made your own crochet headset covers.
Final output
Here are some of the two-toned headset covers I made using this pattern.
These are orders and they are actually the first two-toned headset covers I made. I made a bit of adjustment to the pattern since then.
These are just some color combinations that I wanted to try. I really liked how they turned out. I can't wait to photoshoot them soon.
These are another trial color combination. Well, not exactly trial since I know black and pink wil go well together. I just mean that no one krdered this, I just made it because I wanted to.
Other patterns
If you are interested in other patterns of crochet headset covers then you might wanna check these articles out:
https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/make-your-own-crochet-headset-covers-3d5fc234
https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/i-made-4-pairs-of-crochet-headset-covers-744e1b8d
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I told my parents I am sick
One of the things that I have a difficult time doing is opening up to my parents. I love them a lot and I work hard to give them a future where they can just relax instead of worrying but our perceptions in life are vastly different.
I have learned fron childhood that sometimes being honest is punished so I have learned to keep secrets from them. However, as I grow older I got tired of keeping things from my parents.
So I did my best to be honest with the especially with my dates. I did not want to lie just to go out on a date with my partner so I became honest about that.
However, just because I got a bit better at being honest with them does not mean that I freely tell them things. I honestly envy those people who have such good relationship with their parents that they can tell them anything without fear.
As much as I know that they are only lookin out for me and sharing what they think is best for me, sometimes I could not ignore how much we differ from our mindset. I feel like they are stuck in the past while they might think that I am a little too out of control if they know the things I hide from them.
But they are always under the assumption that I am their perfect daughter. The one they kept putting their pressure on. The one who listens to them and does not talk back much.
I have always felt the need to resent myself as the strong one. I know that I cannot show them a moment of weakness since they never forget it.
I tried so hard to be tough but I know that I was just burying feelings that will cause harm to me in the long run. But I still tried my best to pretend everything is fine. And my family did not know any better.
Today I placed my trust on them
This morning, after our morning walk I randomly told my mother that I need medicine and I have a prescription for it.
I have been wondering the night before what excuse will I tell them to buy my medicine. But upon fallinfg asleep, I think my mind decided to just tell them and deal with the fallout if it happens.
Anyway, I had a hard time telling what it was for and just told her that it was for sleep. She was actually happy about that and suggested that each of us take it so we can sleep properly.
By that time I panicked and told her that I am sick. That what happened six years ago. She got quiet and asked me again if I was still not okay from what happened then and I told her yes, I am not okay. I needed help so I found ways to get help.
I knew she did not understand but she let me knows that she is supporting me in her own way.
Telling my mother was the easy part. It is my father that I knew I would have problems with.
When I told him what the medicine was for he said some hurtful things. But I think my mother talked some sense to him because he insisted to pay for my medicine even though I have the money.
He also brought home cats maybe because he thought it will help me. I really love cats but I honestly am not in the right mindset to take care of one kitten let alone two. I am already tired from taking care of Moshi so I do not know how I will even manage to take care two kittens.
I will refrain from saying anything more since I know his decision stems from some kind of belief that it will help me.
Closing words
Telling my parents went as I expected it to go down. Although I had a leasant surprise when my sisters showed their support for me in their own way. My younger sister gave me money to add for my medicine and therapy budget and my sister promised to treat me in Payday, our youngest sister is less noisy and irritating today too.
I know that everyone in my family supports me in the way that they know how even though some left me more drained than the others. I did not want to tell them since I know they tend to worry and I did not need coddling. I need space.
Hopefully, now they would understand if I just want to be left alone for some time. It was a difficult decision to tell them but I am glad I still did it since I actually got less expenses for the medicine.
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NCMH E-Consultation Experience
Mental health used to be something largely ignored. Most believe that mental problems are easily set aside by positive thinking and other similar things. Thankfully, as the world progresses people are starting to understand that we must take care of our mental health as much as we pay attention to our physical and emotional health.
But a problem still remains
Just like most healthcare, professional help for mental health is expensive. Just the seeing the price of initial consultation, which ranged from P400 upwards, a normal Filipino would probably decide that it is out of their budget. And so, their mental health continues to deteriorate.
Even if one somehow managed to get the money needed for the consultation, the following expenses will surely test one's commitment to getting better.
It is understandable then why many people especially the oder generation still believe that psych services are just a scam or a waste of money.
This causes the younger generation to seek out help without their parents' knowledge or support. As I said, with the prices as high as they are right now, it is no wonder why people would rather self-diagnose instead of seeking professional help.
NCMH offers free consultation
As the world learns how to fight against the stugma surrounding mental illnesses and mental health, many free consultations are popping up to offer help to those who need it but struggle finncially. One such service comes from the National Center for Mental Health which offers free consultations, and online consultations with their dedicated pyschiatrists.
I could write how I got my free consultation in another article if someone needs it. But for now, I want to share just my experience.
NCMH Free Consultation
This is the confirmation I received from them. I was quite surprised since it was only after a few hours of when I registered and immediately, I already had a schedule. Contrary to what I have read online so I was unprepared for it.
It actually coincided with my class where we had to take a midterm examination. So I tried to re-schedule but received no confirmation. It made me change tactics where I instead informed the professor about what is happening. Good thing that the professor understood so our group was not called first.
After I privately messaged the rofessor about my consultation, I attended the online consultation with the assigned doctor which I will not name due to privacy concerns.
The doctor started the session by apologizing that the consultation will probably only take 10 minutes due to the large volume of patients. It is understandable since it is a free service so many people are using it.
I was asked about the symptoms I was experiencing, as well as medical and family history. I was also asked to share when the symptoms started. I tried to keep it concise due to the time limit and I wanted to get back to the class as soon as possible.
Afterwards, I was given my initial diagnosis and was told that I was symptomatic with my diagnosis. I was prescribed with something to help with my symptoms as per my request. I was also told to go back for a follow up appointment after 2 weeks.
At the end, I mentioned that I am also about to undergo a psychotherapy in a private clinic and I was advised to take it easy. I was told that it might be too much for me to start a medication while undergoing talk therapy since usually the way it is done is by first taking medicine and once majority of the symptoms subside, that will be the time for talk therapy to enter.
I plan to attend a psychotherapy session though to bring this up with the assigned psychologist to me. I want to hear a second opinion as well about my diagnosis since I am not top confident about a diagnosis done in such a short amount of time.
My thoughts
It was an easy and fast procedure. It was a smooth process from registration to the prescription which is nice because some reviews show different stories. Maybe I got lucky.
Anyway, I plan on buying the prescribed drugs. I am just not sure yet if I will use Grab Pabili service for it or if I would just go out to buy them myself.
I am also searching about the possible side effects so I can prepare for them. I wil take this medication as I wait for the email of the private clinic I went to last Friday about the treatment plan they want me to undergo to. There I will discuss what happened and see where to go from there.
I honestly would like to continue availing the services of the private clinic as I can choose which professional was assigned to me. It means that I can have one all throughout the session so I can establish rapport with them. Unlike with the NCMH free consultation, the doctors are random so the next one might not be the one assigned to me right now.
It is a daunting thought as I have read some not-so-nice reviews about the service that others experienced.
Anyway, I attended the free consultatipn since I know they will give prescription and I needed it to help with my symptoms as it is affecting my academic performance already. I am glad that I was able to get what I wanted from the consultation.
Closing words
I am still not ready to share the diagnosis I received. I will robably wait for a few more weeks and a second diagnosis before I start sharing. Although the diagnosis I got is the one that seems like the condition I am feeling when I searched for its symptoms. However, as I said I want to wait for more consultations because there might be changes in the diagnosis.
NCMH's free online consultation is an affordable way to get help if you ned it and has no allocated budget for it. However, I have a feeling that it is better to seek private or paid professionals if you are looking to have long term treatment.
This is just my personal opinion, though. Plus there are other institutions which offer free consultations such as PGH. If you do not know where to start, I suggest checking the subreddit r/MentalHealthPH to read about the experiences of other Filipinos as well as ask questions.
Hopefully, this article helped you out in finally taking the first step to taking care of your mental health.
**Thank you for reading this article!**
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Three ways to make your own crochet scrunchies (Part 3)
In the first two articles, we have already learned how to crochet a thin scrunchie and a regular sized scrunchie. If you missed those articles, you can find the link at the end of this article. Be sure to read those as well so you will know more patterns for making scrunchies.
Before we go ahead with our last pattern, I want to share that I really enjoyed making this type of content. I actually hve a bit more crochet topics to write about. They are just simple patterns since I do not like to mke my life more difficult.
So if you enjoy reading about this hobby of mine, feel free to read my following articles as well.
The pattern for this ruffled scrunchie that I would like to share is the one that gave me the most sales since I started my crochet business. I have received about 35+ orders for the products that this scrunchies pattern will produce. So if you are looking to start your own scrunchies business as well, feel free to use this pattern of mine. Crediting my pattern back to me is appreciated but it is also okay if you will not credit me. As long as you do not claim the pattern as your own. This statement applies to all the freehand crochet patterns that I have posted here.
**Materials**
The materials used in this project are the same as the ones we used for the two patterns last time. The only difference is that this will require more yarn.
Love Knots Acrylic Yarn
6/0 (3.50mm) crochet hook
Hair ties
Darning needle
Scissors
Pattern https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/three-ways-to-make-your-own-crochet-scrunchies-part-2-a960a045#pattern
This pattern includes slip knot, slip stitch, single crochet stitch, and double crochet stitch. If you are unfamiliar with any of these crochet US terms then do search how to do the stitches first before trying out this pattern.
Create a slip knot. Insert the hair tie from the other end of the hook to the one with the slip knot.
Stitch single crochet all over the hair tie. Make sure that you will not put too litte that the hair tie can be seen but not too much that the hair tie will not lie mostly flat. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
Chain 3, this will count as the first double crochet stitch. Create another double crochet stitch on the same stitch.
Put 2 double crochet stitches in the remaining stitches. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
Chain 3, this will count as a double crochet stitch. Insert 2 more double crochet stitches in the same stitch.
Put 3 double crochet stitches in the remaining stitches. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
**(Optional: This is part of the pattern that I use for the scrunchies I sold before but I did not do this step in this specific ruffled scrunchie. )**
Switch to a different color of yarn. Chain 2, this will not count as the first half-double crochet stitch. Insert half-double crochet stitch in all the stitches. Slip stitch t the first stitch.
Fasten off. Sew the excess yarns and cut off the ends.
Final products + side by side comparisons
In this picture you will be able to see the scrunchies we made. The ones on the left are the thin scrunchies, the ones in the middles are two-toned regular scrunchies, while the one at the
As you can see the most obvious difference are the sizes. But if you look closely, you can see that the waves of the scrunchies are different as well.
I could not find the pictures I have of the scrunchies I have sold. But I did managed to find the pictures that one of my customer sent me.
She let me choose the colors randomly and it is a good thing since I only had limited colors of yarns.
Here you can see the crochet scrunchies together. I remember when I saw these pictures, I felt happy. And I felt happier when I learned that they liked it.
The customer ordered it for Christmas gifts last year which is why the order is big.
Closing words
Crochet is easily one of the things that made me happy and calm. So when other people appreciate my creations, I feel happy.
If you enjoy this article, you might be interested in the first part where I shared how to create a thin scrunchie and a regular scrunchie.
Three ways to make your own crochet scrunchies (Part 1) https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/three-ways-to-make-your-own-crochet-scrunchies-part-1-2abdeec7
Three ways to make your own crochet scrunchies (Part 2) https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/three-ways-to-make-your-own-crochet-scrunchies-part-2-a8d96986
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Three ways to make your own crochet scrunchies (Part 2)
Last article we talked about how to mke your own thin scrunchies. That project is perfect for when you need to give someone a gift and you only hve a short time and scrap yarns to do so.
I can say that its appeal is how cute it looks without being over the top.
Today we will be making a new type of scrunchies which I call as the regular scrunchies. They are larger than thin scrunchies and they have more flair to them.
The pattern is definitely similar to the first one so it will not be too hard to do. This scrunchie will be erfect when you want something that will add a twist in your outfit. You will see the end product of the pattern at the end of the article.
Materials
The materials used in this project are the same as the ones we used for thin scrunchies. We will be using more yarns here though.
Love Knots Acrylic Yarn (optional 2 colors)
6/0 (3.50mm) crochet hook
Hair ties
Darning needle
Scissors
Pattern
This pattern includes slip knot, slip stitch, single crochet stitch, double crochet stitch, and half-double crochet stitch. If you are unfamiliar with nay of these crochet US terms then do search how to do the stitches first before trying out this pattern.
Create a slip knot. Insert the hair tie from the other end of the hook to the one with the slip knot.
Stitch single crochet all over the hair tie. Make sure that you will not put too litte that the hair tie can be seen but not too much that the hair tie will not lie mostly flat. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
Chain 3, this will count as the first double crochet stitch. Create 2 nore double crochet stitches on the same stitch.
Put 3 double crochet stitches in the remaining stitches. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
***You can change colors at this part to highlight your scrunchie or not. It is up to your preference.***
Chain 2, this will count as a half-double crochet stitch.
Insert 1 half-double crochet stitch in all the remaining stitches. Slip stitch to the first stitch.
Fasten off. Sew the excess yarns.
It is quite easy to make right? I am sure that you are already excited to see fhe final result of our efforts.
Final product
The one in the middle with violet highlight is the one that we managed to make today. You can experiment with any colors tha you like. Your creativity is the limit to crochet.
Closing words
The next and last article will be the one pattern that I used for the scrunchies sold the most. They ade quite entertaining to make although they do take quite a bit of time compared to the first two patterns I have shared already.
If you are interested, please do wait for the next article wherein I will share my pattern to make your own ruffled scrunchies. They are definitely a cute thing to have to soice up your outfit. Especially during the summer when you probably will not want layers of clothes sticking to your skin nor your hair stitcking to your face. So a scrunchie is a must-have.
You know, I almost forgot to publish this article. I have been forgetful lately and it is not such a fun thing to experience especially when it involves academic tasks.
I almost missed an activity last Friday because I forgot about it. I only learned of it again when my bestfriend asked ne if there is a lready a submission bin for it. And I was confused what she was talking about.
But luck was on my side that day since the activity got extended until tonight. I managed to finish mine at 6PM, the deadline is supposed to be 9PM but the rofessor have yet to create a submission bin so she might have forgotten about it. Maybe the dealine will be until tomorrow.
I am still glad to have been able to do it though since I was really not feeling up to it.
Anyway back to crochet. I managed to create another pair of headset covers and I enjoy making it.
If you enjoy this article, you might be interested in the first part where I shared how to create a thin scrunchie.
Three ways to make your own crochet scrunchies (Part 1) https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/three-ways-to-make-your-own-crochet-scrunchies-part-1-2abdeec7
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Three ways to make your own crochet scrunchies (Part 1)
Crochet is the only hobby I picked up during the start of pandemic that I still regularly do to this day. Perhaps it is because crochet makes sense to me. Following new patterns may sometimes be difficult but I enjoy the challenge a lot.
I also figured out that I liked trying to make simple patterns of small projects as well. They are not as amazing as the ones being sold but they are mine so I am proud of them.
Since the patterns I make are simple, I do not have any intention of selling them. But I still want to share them to someone so I write about these patterns here at read.cash. Maybe in the future, I will exand my reach to include other blogging platform, but for now I am satisfied with sharing my patterns here.
Today's pattern will be fairly easy. Even a beginner can make it. I feel regretful for being too drained to take pictures of each process so I will try my best to explain it as clearly as possible. Maybe I will revise the patterns I already published here to include some step-by-step pictures.
I call today's project as ***thin crochet scrunchies***.
Materials
These are the materials needed for the project. They are usually already found in a crochet kit so you will not have to fret over this. After you prepare these materials then ypu are ready to go to the next part.
Love Knots Acrylic Yarn
6/0 (3.50mm) crochet hook
Black hair tie
Darning needle
Scissors
Pattern
Crochet patterns are usually written in just the simplified version of what stitches and how many stitches are there but I will try to make mine more detailed.
This pattern includes slip knot, single crochet, and double crochet. So please look for a tutorial if you are not yet familiar with these US crochet terms.
The first thing you need to do is make a slip knot. Once that is done, get your black hair tie, and slip it from other end of your hook to the one attached to the yarn.
Make a single crochet all across the hair tie. Make sure that the hair tie is covered but do not put too much stitches where the hair tie is already folding on itself. Just put enough single crochet stitches to crover the hair tie while keeping its shape.
After convering the whole hair tie, slip stitch to the first stitch. Then chain 3, this will count as the double crochet stitch. Put two double crochet stitches in the same stitch.
Stitch 3 double crochet in the remaining stitches. At the last stitch, slip stitch to the first stitch.
Fasten off.
It is very easy right? I really like doing this project with the excess yarns I have from other projects.
This thin scrunchie does not eat up a lot of yarn so you can make a lot with just one skein of acrylic yarns.
Final Product
You might be wondering what the product will look like following this pattern. So here I will show you a quick picture I took of the ones I made.
I will aso be sharing the pictures of the next scrunchies that we will be making next time.
The ones on the left are the thin scrunchies; while the middle ones are regular scrunchies; the last ones are ruffled scrunchies.
If you find one that you want to make, make sure to wait for the article in the future.
Closing words
Scrunchies are something that I really enjoy making not just crochet scrunchies, I also make satin scrunchies. I really like how they add up to the style of any outfit. They are cute yet easy to make. They are also not that expensive if you do not want to make one and just buy them somewhere.
Hopefully, soon I can set up my online shop again so I can promote it here. I am still wiating for my stipend to have my initial investment.
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BCH keeps me sane
BCH undeniably brings a lot to the table. Since getting to know BCH, my life has changed for the better. It helped me in a lot of situations, some urgent and some are just for wants. But the fact stays that Bitcoin Cash is there for me despite knowing about it for less than a year.
Perhaps, I found something that made me the most grateful to BCH. The reason for this is because BCH funds my journey to becoming mentally healthy. Yesterday, I shared about my decision to book an appointment for the initial consultation.
After six long years of putting it off, I finally ran out of excuses because of Bitcoin Cash. As a student, I did not have a lot of money. Even though I received P7,000 monthly, I usually just get the P2,000 from it which I mostly spend for my wants and some personal needs of mine. So I did not have a lot of extra money to even afford thinking about going to professionals about my mental health.
Some of you might be wondering if I never bothered to try free consultations, I did but the experience is not the best so I usually try to forget about it. Which is why I am referring to my recent appointment as the first.
Anyway, consultations and therapy are expensive especially for someone who has no job nor extra income aside from my stipend. So when BCH came to my life, I started re-thinking about the need to go see a mental health professional. But my fear always gets the better of me.
BCH keeps me sane
Due to some circumstances, I finally decided that I needed help, and I needed it now. If this had happened before I met BCH, I would have just ignored this thought. But since it happens when I have already become familiar with Bitcoin Cash, I was able to act upon my thought.
The desire to get better mentally is finally accompanied with action. I am no longer alone in my fight against my demons.
Because of BCH, I was able to pay for my first consultation today. The consultation lasted for about 34 minutes and it costed P780. This would have been too expensive for me before.
Moreover, it is not like the expenses stop at the first consultation. Of course the first one will be followed by more appointments and usually they are more expensive than the consultation. So, I could not have just saved up for the first consultation and hoped for the best about what to do for the next appointment.
This is why I am incredibly grateful to BCH. In just ten months of writing, I was able to finally have the courage to seek help because I have the money for it. Sure, I could have done so earlier if I had saved up all my BCH since I started writing but that is beside the point.
The point is that now, BCH is funding the key to keep me sane. I never thought that my interest in writing will give me this much opportunity but here I am. Because of Bitcoin Cash, the thing that I wanted is finally within my reach.
The consultation
Like I said earlier, the consultation lasted for only 34 minutes but I believe it is already enough for me. That time actually made me reflect on a lot of things already and it was just the beginning.
The meeting might be brief but is helpful. I was actually surprised to find that I have no regret about the money I spent on the consultation. Usually when I made big purchases, I always find a bit of regret about it when I think of how much I spent. But today, I did not feel an ounce of regret. All of the money was well-spent.
The realizations I had are very personal so I will not be sharing them here. What I can say though is that it is an amazing experience. It felt uncomfortable, sure, since I am talking about things that I never managed to share with anyone but it was freeing in a way because I could speak my mind and be free of judgements.
Anyway, the consultation ended with the psychometrician sharing how to address my needs. She asked me first how they can help us but I told her I have no idea and that I want to hear her thoughts. She suggested psychotherapy or talk therapy to help deal with my problems. She asked me to wait for the e-mail about the plan of action so I can book my next appointment.
Honestly, I am excited for it even though the next appointment will be more expensive.
Closing words
Seeking help is the best thing I have ever done. Taking this first step was difficult, so I am thankful because BCH made it possible. I believe that it will get more challenging from here but now that I have an idea about what to expect, I am looking forward to it.
**Thank you for reading this article!**
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March 2022 Articles Summary
Another month has come to an end which means it is time to list all the articles I have managed to write in this account. I do this so I can easily check my past articles without worry.
March 2022 has been a month full of expenses and I am glad that the first two months of 2022 were spent on saving up every cent that I can set aside. In the following months, I would probably regularly take out the BCH I get from writing so I am thankful that I still managed to set aside 0.50BCH. Hopefully, I will not need to touch it in the near future but if I ever do end up needing it then I am more grateful for it since it will be a big help for me.
As of now, I am just going with the flow since I really do not have much energy to set big goals nor work for certain achievements. With that being said, I am so proud of the number of articles I have written for this month. Despite the fact that I feel tired all the time, I still managed to consistently publish articles.
My articles
These are the articles I published for this month. The first article I wrote is about the biggest achievement I got from writing. I never expected it and until now I sometimes wonder if it was real or just something that I made up.
I also started my Adulting 101 series wherein I shared the knowledge I have acquired from various people and books about finance. I am still not done with it which is why I have yet to write an article about the references I used but right now, I am just not in the right mental state to write about it. I will definitely continue it so if you are interested about these topics, feel free to read the first articles while waiting for future topics.
Another thing that made me happy this month is the crochet related articles that I wrote. I think I stopped writing about this hobby of mine for some time since I was a bit lazy to take pictures and write patterns. So I was ecstatic to manage writing an article about it. Plus, the crochet topic that I wrote about is definitely a great product to sell especially if you are in BPO industry.
**Dreams do come true: 1 BCH Unlocked** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/dreams-do-come-true-1-bch-unlocked-5e8bd03d
**Adulting 101: Track your Expenses** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/adulting-101-track-your-expenses-a8f6c523
**It is over** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/it-is-over-bdcdb46a
**You get used to it** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/you-get-used-to-it-b48b9e6a
**Maybe next time** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/maybe-next-time-ebe2d763
**Adulting 101: Make your own finance tracker (Part 1)** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/adulting-101-make-your-own-finance-tracker-part-1-1e8573a8
**Adulting 101: Make your own finance tracker (Part 2)** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/adulting-101-make-your-own-finance-tracker-part-2-45f911a3
**I made up my mind** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/i-made-up-my-mind-676ac03a
**Turning Red** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/turning-red-d90174fb
**I let down my walls a bit (it was worth it)** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/i-let-down-my-walls-a-bit-it-was-worth-it-0781a87e
**BCH saves the day** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/bch-saves-the-day-25e4a1a9
**Just keep showing up** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/just-keep-showing-up-4bf34942
**Sunday random thoughts** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/sunday-random-thoughts-e481140f
**Adulting 101: Prepare an Emergency Fund and its importance to BCH holders** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/adulting-101-prepare-an-emergency-fund-and-its-importance-to-bch-holders-98087eff
**Adulting 101: Consider these things when setting up your emergency fund**
**A memory to treasure** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/a-memory-to-treasure-704969b1
**Make your own crochet headset covers** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/make-your-own-crochet-headset-covers-9361447c
**Speciesism: The bias for the same species** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/speciesism-the-bias-for-the-same-species-330004ef
**It is a Productive Day** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/it-is-a-productive-day-f00ac63c
**Just the three of us** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/just-the-three-of-us-5d68b594
**Jumbled Words** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/jumbled-words-bbba16f7
**I did not want the day to end** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/i-did-not-want-the-day-to-end-2bff4726
**I made 4 pairs of crochet headset covers** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/i-made-4-pairs-of-crochet-headset-covers-09d8a25d
**I took the first step to help myself** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/i-took-the-first-step-to-help-myself-138f93e5
Manju's articles
Most of you might already be familiar with Manju. She is my older sister and she writes articles sometimes. She does not have her own read.cash account because she has no time to manage it which is why I let her post articles.
However due to some change in the circumstances, Manju has stopped publishing an article in my account. These are the articles she published this month before she stopped writing. It remains to be seen if she will once again grace this account with her presence or if this is a permanent goodbye.
**Plus Size Confidence** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/plus-size-confidence-74b95235
**Level 1: Return To Work** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/level-1-return-to-work-0957864a
**Change Being Constant** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/change-being-constant-557d4f7a
**How's your day** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/hows-your-day-52ca9fe0
**As Disappointing As It Can Be** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/as-disappointing-as-it-can-be-ed541ebc
**A Life Without Distractions** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/a-life-without-distractions-4023954a
**Sippin' on Sunshine** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/sippin-on-sunshine-4e82f827
Closing words
This is a great month indeed since we managed to publish 31 articles for this month. 32 if you count this summary too. I think 24 articles is my record for the highest number of articles for this year. Hopefully, I can increase that number next month since I am now once again the sole holder of my account.
I will need a new lead image for April 2022 but I like my lead image right now a lot. So I might just end up swapping the green background into a pink one. Let us see if I will change my mind tomorrow.
**Thank you for reading this article!**
If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here:
**February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8
**January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f
**December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111
****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca
**October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999
****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16
****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97
****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569
****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f
****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7
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