Sunday random thoughts
I have had more free time than usual because I have stopped cramming most of the time. I usually finish my activities days before it is due but sometimes my body refuse to move. And I let my body rest when it tells me that it needs rest and downtime.
This has been the case this weekend so I have just been sleeping when I have free time. I do not even play games nor read that much these days. I have been focused on just resting and reflecting.
I realized that I have much thoughts that I really want to see come to life yet I am too scared to take the first step. This is especially true involving re-opening my shop.
Some of you might remember that I had a crochet shop a few months ago but I closed it after a few weeks because I got busy. I was just starting to get orders then but I was doubting if they really like my products. So I stopped taking orders unless I knoe the customer personally like my sister and her bestfriend.
Despite the fact that I closed my shop, I still received orders so it did not bother me. Or that is what I told myself. To be honest, I had so many plans for my crochet shop.
One of it is accepting BCH as a payment for my crochet product. This will of course be only open locally and there would be a lot of process involved but I did not pursue the thought further. I even thought about including random amount of BCH QR codes to the orders I received so that my customers might get interested about BCH as well. But again, I did not continue through with the plan.
The reason is that I doubt myself a lot. I do not know anything about business. Sure, I have already gotten back my invetment from my initial run at my crochet shop but I still feel doubtful. I can not help but overthink my thoughts and actions.
What if no one notice my efforts? What if I am just wasting my time? What if this is not for me?
And then there are questions about how to handle a business properly. Do I have to register my online shop with our barangay? Do I need a permit? Will I get in trouble if I do not do that?
I have researched this but many answers vary. I have also asked around for my fellow crocheters who sell their works and I actually just got more confused.
In the end, my doubts won over my desire to try something new and I stopped.
But still, I can not stop myself from wondering about it. If I had the courage to re-open my shop any time soon, I hope that I can implement the things that I want to do.
Moreover, it is a bit frustrating since I know this is an aspect of life wherein I hace to take the first step to learn. I can not just grow and learn by reading and watching about other people's experiences. I have to start my own path si I can learn how to navigate it.
I know that logically but it is hard to fight the fear that comes with it. I have so many things I want to do but I have so many excuses. I wonder when I will finally ran out of excuses and start taking actions.
However, I usually think about my dreams at night time. I imagine opening my shop and telling others that I accept BCH as well. Will it not be amazing?
But for now those dreams will just have to remain that way. I am not yet ready to tackle such a task right now. Slowly but surely I will get there, someday. I am just taking baby steps right now to start bringing my dreams to life.
Closing words
Free time for me means more time to overthink things. Anyway, I kinda feel lighter now that I share these random thoughts here. I still habe lots of thoughts to think about but I want to keep them for myself for a while.
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If I have free time I also overthink more until I cry and cry co'z I can't already understand what's happening