@ZehraSky

@ZehraSky 5 July 2022

Not good enough These days I try to pretend that I am good and that I am recovering. But honestly, it is tiring to have to fight your mind all the time. Even with medication, I still have a bit of struggle. I am still in a state of in denial. Despite the fact that I have been diagnosed for months and has been regularly taking medication for a month straight now. I feel like a fake, a liar. I feel as though maybe I do not need all this stuff after all. And I fell back into the habit of spending my money on unneeded things. I thought it would make me happy, but the parcels I received lay there unopened. I can not even bear to look at my reflection anymore. A failure The word failure keeps filling up my mind. I tried to do the things advised to me on my last therapy sessions but I keep messing things up which made my inner critic talk more badly and loudly. I feel sick to my stomach. I just want to not feel like this. I have no reason to feel like this. I am here a student having a good side hustle. My small business is continuously getting orders. I have friends, family, and even a romantic partner. Why do I feel like this still? Trying to claw myself out I feel so stuck in this body that keeps failing me. My mind is a mess. And I can not seem to do the things I want to do. I am trying yet my efforts are not giving me results. I am doing my best to live well, to be well but maybe I don't even deserve that. At nights, I find myself scratchin my arm, trying to open up my skin so I can leave this wretched body of mine. I try to stop but the voices in my head get so loud at night. So worthless. So useless. Never good enough. I am just so tired of failing at being normal. So tired of feeling like I don't belong. So tired of being myself. But who cares anyway? I am just a shell goin through the motions of life. I tell myself that I am too empty to feel anything yet my emotions still choke me in my sleep. The silence is too loud My mind quited down since taking the medication yet I still feel like everythin is too loud. It is so tiring to fight. I see no reason to live. No reason to keep trying. Yet, this body refuse to give up. Even in just giving up, I am still not good enough. Think of this as fiction. It would be better if you think that I do not have to feel this way. Think of this as a story. Maybe then you can tell me what would happen next so that I won't be up all night thinking about it. Pretend I sometimes pretend I am happy even though I am drowning in deression. I tried to do that today. I tried to write about installing photo, and video editor on my laptop and yet for some reason I can not finish it. I just felt like I would go insane if I did not write this down. My psychologist told me to start a journal but it has been two weeks and I have yet to actually understand how to create a good journal. I feel like I can not do the simplest things. I feel so tired and sad and I have no energy to even put on a mask. Yet everyone around me keeps telling me that nothing is wrong with me. But then they would also be the ones to call me crazy for being myself. They would be the ones to make me feel as if my very existance is unwanted. I am tired. So so tired of pretending I'm okay. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **June 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2022-articles-summary-064bch-104697aa **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 4 July 2022

If you are reading this, you're a clone What would you if one day you wake up and read a note in your own handwriting telling you you are a clone? It seems like a weird prank that you have forgotten you were playing on yourself. But think about a world where you keep getting killed and just get cloned the next day? With the memories of what happened erased on your mind, what will you do? A hidden gem This is the plot of one of the webtoon I discovered today. It was in the Top Thriller section and I was curious. It was a new webtoon so it was the first time I saw it but it is already on the Top 5 Thriller? That means that it is an interesting story. And how could I even pass up on such a story. Just looking at the title banner gives me the creep. The artstyle is so good for the story, it adds to the creepy effect. And the title will make sense the more you read. ***Never-Ending Darling*** | WEBTOON Ha-im Yun lives in a world where people register their DNA into cloning databases, a world where human suffering has basically been eradicated. The brilliant mind behind this cloning technology is none other than Ha-im’s boyfriend of five years, Geunhu Ji. Their relationship isn’t perfect, but they make it work -- or so Ha-im thinks, until she finds a dead body at her boyfriend’s house… and the dead body is hers. The next day, she wakes up with no recollection of the previous day until she finds a note from herself in her room… “Ha-im, if you’re reading this, you’re a clone.” https://www.webtoons.com/en/thriller/never-ending-darling/list?title_no=4212 Here you can read the summary of the webtoon. Just from it you can already tell that it definitely deserves its spot at the Top Thriller section. I will actually not be surprised if it ranked higher as the story progresses. My thoughts The summary did a good job in making my mind ran through different scenarios. I was able to put myself in shoes of the main character and it really felt as if I was the one who discovered the note reading: “Ha-im, if you’re reading this, you’re a clone.” I made the mistake of reading it with the lights off and now I can not shake the feeling of being watched. The webtoon started out with intense emotions being awaken. It was a surrise since thriller stories on Webtoon usually try to keep the mystery of the story. The usual way is for the story to slowly build its thrill and intense emotions as the story progresses. This is why thriller stories usually already have more than 10 episodes when it appears on the Top Thriller, the exception being Shotgun Boy since it is a story by an already known creator. The creator of Bastard and Sweet Home. With Sweet Home already adapted in a K-Drama if my memory serves right. Anyway, going back to Never-Ending Darling. The Webtoon unveils its bomb in the first chapter and you can hear its ticking as you read the chapters. With six chapters open to the public, it is no wonder why it ranked with the intensity of the story. Even now, I can still feel some tremors in my body as I think back about the story. Don't make the same mistake I made into puting myself in the shoes of the character, you will experience such a rollercoaster ride. Closing words I recommend this story if you are lookin for an interesting story. It might not be everyone's taste but I am sure that there will be someone here who would appreciate the recommendation. Let me know if you have read this Webtoon, tell me why you never recommended it to me before, just kidding. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **June 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2022-articles-summary-064bch-104697aa **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 3 July 2022

Installing AutoCAD 2022 on my laptop As an engineering student, I have a lot of applications that I needed to install for academic purposes. This is a difficult thing for me as someone who does not know much about technology. I have a laptop with okay specs because I asked someone to give me the specs I need to run the applications an engineering student needs. But I do not have the knowledge to crack the application I need. It was no problem When I was in freshman year, installing applications is no problem to me at all since my bestfriend and I are classmates so she installs the application we need on both our laptops. All I had to was bring my laptop and watch her do her magic. Once she was done, I would clap and thank her while praising her as well. But since the pandemic started, I was left to my own devices. I woukd be lying if I said that I immediately learned how to install things on my own. Yet despite the hardships I encountered, I did end up slowly learbing how to install stuff without help. Youtube saves me The thing that helped me out a lot is Youtube videos. Most times the videos involving crack versions of applications are in a different language that I can not understand. But I still persevered. So I was able to install most applications I needed in second and third years. Trouble comes along The problem makes itself known after my decision to upgrade my laptop. I had the HDD switched to SSD to make my laptop run smoother. While I was there, the OS is also upgraded to Windows 11. This reformats my laptop and I was fine with it at first. I thought I could easily reinstall the applicationd I lost since I have the cracked files on a back up. But boy I was so wrong. I managed to reinstall most of the new engineerng applications I lost aka the ones I installed on my own. But the older applications or the ones that may bestfriend installed gave me a headache. First reason is that the files I have were no longer compatible with my OS. Then I could not go to my bestfriend to ask her to install it because it was embarassing. We did made a plan for that but it ended up not happening due to reasons so I was back at square one. I was mostly worried about AutoCAD since we use it more now than before. But I managed to get by with the trial phone version of the application. It is amazing how many dummy accounts can help you avail free trials. But the problem persists and I was just actively ignoring it. That changes today I think today is when I read an article by CrazyRichFilipina if I am not mistaken. It was an article about her goals and she mentioned AutoCAD and SketchUp in her article so I had to remember that yes I still do not have AutoCAD on my laptop even though class will start in a month. What I did after that is searched for Youtube videos to follow but I was not eager to try downloading the files there for fear of virus. The files I had installed before wete given by professors so I was sure it was safe but I do not trust myself to distinguish virus-free files from other files. So I decided to surf the web, specifically Shopee and Lazada. Shopping for crack (files) Now that I decided to install AutoCAD I could not ignore it any longer. So I took the time to check the digital files they are selling on the platforms. I found a lot on Shopee but there are scary reviews which made me turn away from it. Plus I really hate the transaction fee fir transferring money using E-wallets. So I went to Lazada. Lo and behold I saw a shop selling it for a cheap price. Here is the link for it if you are an engineering needing one: https://s.lazada.com.ph/s.Uey1F. The reviews caught my attention because one review said that they downloaded and install the application without turning off their anti-virus applications. It was different from what I was expecting so I said okay, P30 is not much to be ripped off. I'll buy it. Good purchase I bought it and paid for it immediately. The seller also sent the instructions soon after. I downloaded the file, and did what was written in the quick installation guide. At this point I was holding my breath since I really want it to work. Then when it reached 100%, I opened the application fearing for the worst. But then it worked! I tried it again and again because I could not believe how easy it was. I did not need to do the thing that my bestfriend did before which includes keygen and soome keys. All I had to do was download the file, extract it, follow what was written on quick installion guide and wait for it. Easy peasy for a techno noob like me. The whole process took about an hour though mostly it is because of the downloading time. Closing words I bought two other digital files. One is for Photoshop and the other is for a video editor. It costs P30, and P33 respectively. I was unable to try installing the two earlier since I bought some stuff to eat. I am still downloading the files for now. Let us see if these two purchases will also be a good buy. I know that having this crack files can be done for free but I will leave that to you techies. For a noob like me, P30 is not much and definitely worth for having the application I need. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **June 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2022-articles-summary-064bch-104697aa **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 2 July 2022

It adds up First of July was kind to me. I woke up feeling down and super tired but I still managed to complete my daily exercise. After lunch, I also managed to study for an hour about some concepts for my program. I am starting to refamiliarize myself with old concepts before the new academic year starts. Of course, I know that I will not be able to cram everything we tackled for three years but I want to remember the things that are still needed. These include process control, as well as reading P&ID. Computation is a scary part of an engineering course but according to the engineers I know of, most computations on the job will be left for the computers to deal with. Baby steps still take me to where I want to go An hour of studying might not seem much but it is opening up doors for me to learn. This short time I allot to myself is an investment for the future. One hour is not much but 30 hours of study to prepare for the opening of classes are a considerable amount of time. Plus, I believe that consistency is the key. After all, I have tried studying for long hours but I end up not remembering anything after a test. So being consistent is the way for me to go. On money matters The same also applies for money. A peso might not be much but without it I will not be able to buy a lot of things. After all, no one wants to miss out on a peso in a business. One thing I learned with handling my money is that I have to let it flow. By this I mean, I need to set aside the money I need for my various investments and slowly grow it. Instead of spending every peso I have. Crochet business As I have shared in my previous articles, I have a crochet business. I started it last year but due to the challenge of handling it, I stopped it. The first problem I encountered is that I spent all the money I get from selling crochet projects. Thus, my initial investment ran out and I stopped paying attention to it. Today I bought three red yarns for an order. I am not sure if all three yarns will be used. I am actually quite confident to say that three yarns are more than what I need. But I learned that it is better to have excess yarns to have less yarns than needed. Why? Because the color of the yarns changes depending on its batch. So I can order the same shade of yarn but when I get it, it might not be the exact shade of the ones I ordered before. So it is better to have more than less. I started working on the beanie a customer ordered last night. Here you can see me eating my "midnight" snack. I have started to bring some food in my room because I get so hungry after drinking my medication. I try to stop myself but the feeling so not fun to deal with. Did you ever have a moment when you skipped a meal and you feel so weak and hungry after hours of ignorin meal time? That is the same kind of hunger I feel even though I just ate dinner before drinking medication. If I drink my medication before dinner, I still don't feel good. I feel like puking my insides so I just learned to eat a light dinner before meds and a light snack after drinking medication. Going back to the crochet order Unfortunately, I made a mistake in the stitch I used last night so I had to frog it when I woke up. This yarn noodles were my breakfast earlier. I am halfway done with the crochet project I am making. I am excited with the outcome of this one since I really put in an effort to make it. Closing words I received an order for my headset covers again. This time it is for a random two toned headset covers. The customer decided that they will take it on Monday. I feel happy about it since I am starting to get orders from strangers. Also, I am excited for the future since I joined a group which has a goal of doing fundraisers for donations via selling of crochet items. I am happy to be a part of a group that has such good motive to help others. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **June 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2022-articles-summary-064bch-104697aa **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 30 June 2022

June 2022 Articles Summary + 0.64BCH This month is full of ups and down. I can clearly see it when I check the mood tracker that I started this month. Most of the days were red like the market these days, but red on my mood tracker means a depressed mood. And it was a bit saddening to see that so many days of the months are red. But I still feel glad to see the green that shows me having a great mood. Even though majority of the month is red, the green days are what keeps me going. Now let us see how this ups-and-downs in my mood affected my performance in grinding. Articles Here are the articles I have written for this month. I started it with flying colors to officially welcome Pride month. I am still a bit surprised to see that it is already the last day of June. Anyway, mood is not just the only thing affected with my disorder. My energy, and concentration also suffers. Despite starting my medication again, I faced the same problems since it will take a lot of time before my body got used to the same medication again after suddenly stopping. Even now that I have taken it for about 3 weeks, I still have trouble with the side effects so I am just keeping my fingers crossed that it gets better soon. **Stand with Pride** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/stand-with-pride-3db33e82 **You are not broken** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/you-are-not-broken-bdc4cfd2 **Free mental health consultation and medication** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-88f0bf5b **It is tiring but necessary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/it-is-tiring-but-necessary-8da15fc2 **Words like Knives** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/words-like-knives-c5e1ba0a **A little bit of color back to my life** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/a-little-bit-of-color-back-to-my-life-990ce3ae **Reopening my small crochet shop slowly + BCH** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/reopening-my-small-crochet-shop-slowly-bch-c62a710c **Getting back into arts again** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/getting-back-into-arts-again-922a3513 **Last Month of Free Teleconsult** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/last-month-of-free-teleconsult-94f12791 **More dates to come** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/more-dates-to-come-f4c4e719 **To see you again, after such a long time** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/to-see-you-again-after-such-a-long-time-a2b85bb3 **Applying for PWD ID** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/applying-for-pwd-id-0148d161 **Enjoy Avocados in Three Ways** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/enjoy-avocados-in-three-ways-1815fd9a **You are a green flag** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/you-are-a-green-flag-6bcc0b74 **An Unexpected Plot Twist in my Life** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/an-unexpected-plot-twist-in-my-life-10a8ab37 **Emptying my BCH wallets** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/emptying-my-bch-wallets-0d2ce8b7 **To sleep the day away** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/to-sleep-the-day-away-60186fa1 **Making a Spiderman Keychain** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/making-a-spiderman-keychain-8b8fbc94 **Know what bipolar disorder is** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/know-what-bipolar-disorder-is-0379ad8d **Make crochet orders with me** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/make-crochet-orders-with-me-a4a7fd75 **Thank you BCH for making this possible** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/thank-you-bch-for-making-this-possible-dbf1bc8c **An Introvert's Adventure** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/an-introverts-adventure-8e3b1aa5 **Get P13800 worth of medication for free + 1BCH Unlocked (Again)** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/get-p13800-worth-of-medication-for-free-1bch-unlocked-again-f242b95b **When BCH recovers** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/when-bch-recovers-7e532868 **Restocking crochet items** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/restocking-crochet-items-f178c315 **They grew up so fast (Part 1)** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/they-grew-up-so-fast-part-1-84815e42 **They grew up so fast (Part 2)** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/they-grew-up-so-fast-part-2-a9c0ed6e **Such a joyous day** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/such-a-joyous-day-726c55ad Here you can see that I managed to publish 28 articles this month. 29 if you include this articles summary. Most of the articles I published are personal as in sharing vulnerable sides of myself unlike the other articles I have in the past which are carefully drafted to build an image that I wanted others to see. Starting last month, I decided to be more open and honest about my struggles instead of just sharing achievements and manic episodes where I seem to be the most productive person around. This month I continued what I started. I also started to share where you can find resources as well, and I hope that it helped someone get the courage to seek help as well. Remember that there is nothing wrong with seeing a professional. Life is already hard enough without undiagnosed illnesses hindering us. BCH Earnings As you might imagine, the dip in this market provided a great opportunity to accumulate BCH. The fiat equivalent might not be much right now but I believe like most people here that BCH will recover. It might take a month or years, but the fact will not change that we will see the green BCH that we miss. As you can see from this screenshot, I earned 0.193 BCH at the first half of the month. I was mostly inactive then since I restarted taking my medication and I was battling a bad battle of my self-image and being in a state of denial about my condition despite telling the world that I had accepted it. After the first two weeks, I started to get my bearings straight. Mostly thanks to my partner, and family. My partner was a constant in my ups-and-downs and it helped me have some sort of safe haven despite my ever see-sawing moods. My family also provided support despite their constant denial of my illness. It also helped that we celebrated 2 birthdays this month on the 2nd part of June which helped me keep my mood up for some days. Of course, how could I forget the amazing experience I have of receiving crochet orders from strangers? It really motivated me to keep doing this hobby of mine. Going back to my BCH earnings, you can see that I earned 0.448 BCH for the second part of the month. It is honestly unexpected since you can see that I started missing out on writing an article at the second part of the month due to either depression or celebration of birthdays. Unexpected though it may be, it is still a welcome surprise for this month. Overall, I managed to earn 0.64 BCH for this month alone. I will be staying quite now how much BCH I have since it might invite more trouble than I can be bothered to deal with. This is easily the largest amount of BCH I accumulated in a month, and I could not have done this without any of you so thank you very much for the support. Closing words I have a plan for July which might mean sacrificing my daily grind on both noise.cash and read.cash. I am on the path of trying to improve myself and develop skills that will make me a valuable asset in the future. And while both platforms provided me a great opportunity to earn, it is not a stable source of income and I am not actually challenging myself here aside from making sure to write daily. I will not share my plans for now since I get lazy when I do that. Anyway, these are just the things that I wanted to share before I take my medication for today. I hope that you also had a fruitful June. I will definitely miss my rainbow themed lead image. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 30 June 2022

Such a joyous day I was inactive yesterday. But the reason now is not as sad as it was usually. I was missing in action because it was my youngest sister's birthday, and we celebrated it as a family. We actually had a lot of plan leading up to her birthday. My favorite plan was to go to Enchanted Kingdom. But that plan did not come to fruition because of our parents. They are not fond of rides so they feel that it would be a waste of money if the six of us since our parents will just be walking around there. With that plan scratched and burned, we were back at square one. We have a lot of things we wanted to do, well mostly me. I suggested going to a buffet since it has been a while since we last ate at an eat-all-you-can place but the birthday girl did not like this idea at all. So it was another idea thrown at the bin. The result The day finally came and we celebrated it by going at a place near our home. Yeah, in our planning stage we wanted to go out of town but some stuff happened and we decided to just stay near our place. We decided to go at a place that offers private videoke rooms. Rooms 498 The place we went to is called Room 498. It offers variety of things such as an event place for celebrations like debut, weddings, etc. It also offers rooms for accomodations, kinda like a hotel but not quite. And most importantly it offers entertainment rooms also known as videoke rooms. Here we shall celebrate We arrived there a little bit after lunch at around 2PM. The lady we talked to explained that the videoke rooms are free but we have to avail foods. We had to pay P1000 for the deposit but it is refundable at checkout as long as we did not break anything. The foods ranged from P3000 to P5000 depending on the amount of persons. But let us not yet talk about the foods in detail as of yet. Let us see what the rooms look like first. This is what one side of the room looked like. There is a small disco lights there and it really sets the mood for a celebration. The room also has its own sink, comfort room, and shower room. It was a plus point for me since I went to two videoke rooms before (and they were more expensive) but there are no comfort rooms in the rooms itself. So if one has to go to the cr, we face some interruption since the room is exposed to the outside room for a few minutes. There was only 1 microphone there though. But the sound system is good. The choice of songs are also great. You know, I am not fond of karaoke because I have a hard time finding songs that I like to sing because most songbooks are composed of old songs. But the songbook at Rooms 498 has a lot of songs that I liked. So I had a really great time singing. The songs I sang was by Olivia Rodrigo, and Taylor Swift. I also sang a song by Avril Lavigne. My older sister kept telling me that my voice is beautiful since I kept singing songs with high notes and my vouce does not waver. The foods We ordered food worth P4000. It was advertised that it is for up to 12 persons. We were only six there but it was the only available option so we just availed it. I forgot exactly what items on the menu we ordered. But we ordered all the chicken options, some seafood options, a pancit, and two iced tea towers. Here are the foods on the lon table there. As you can see the servings are not that large but definitely enough to feed six people. These two plates had no place t the long table so it was served at the table we had in front of the videoke. And here are the iced tea, and red iced tea towers along with the plates, glasses, and utensils. The foods are ordinary. It was not suoer tasty other than the pancit. But it is still filling. Closing words I had a really great time yesterday and it was a nice experience to have. After all, I managed to not ruin the mood despite mt fear of it. I definitely want to go back there but not until I find out what their new rates are. We were told that this is the last month when the rooms would be free. Starting next month, the room has to be paid for as well as the food. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 27 June 2022

They grew up so fast (Part 2) This article is a continuation of an article I published earlier. https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/they-grew-up-so-fast-part-1-4e79aeb0 In this article, I will just continue going on a trip down the memory lane. I want to share some photos of the kittens from when I first got them to the present time. This is basically just me dumping cute pictures to you guys. Everyone knows how much we need a little bit of mood lifter in the current state of the market. Sharing bowls When I first got them, I decided to let them share food and water bowls. I only ordered two bowls since they are still young. This decision led to one of the kittens gaining more weight than the other. If you are guessing, Oreo is the heavier one at first. She weighed 0.75kg back then while Presto only weight 0.60kg. Also, keeping the water bowl near the food bowl is a wrong move on my part since they barely drank water. And they decided they would rather drink water from the bathroom than the water I served in their water bowl. Still sharing a bowl This is them a few days after I got them. Can you see how tiny their tails are in this photo? Their tails now are long enough to bother me since they keep getting in my way and I end up lightly stepping on their tails by accident when I am not oaying attention. But during this time when the photo was taken, stepping on tails is not a problem for me. Also it is still convenient to feed them in one bowl only. Sharing water still I have since learned that they want the food and water to be in separate parts of the room. So I placed this automatic water feeder by the door to make it easier for them to drink water. The food bowls are on the other side of the room. When they finish eating they immediately go to the water feeder and it makes me happy since the automatic feeder is not cheap at all. So seeing them use it to their hearts' contents makes me feel glad that I bought it. Moreover, buying am automatic feeder makes them drink more water now so I no lpnger fear that they might get dehydrated. Don't touch my food Gone are the days when my life is easy during the preparation of their food. Now I need to do the process twice while aso ensuring that I give them the same amount of food. After all, I do not want the other to have normal weight while the other one becomes overweight. This change also gave way to a chnge in their weight. On our last vet visit, they now both weighed 1.25kg. Presto really catched up in weight since she keeps stealing food from both Oreo and even Moshi. She even attempts to steal my food. It almost makes me believe that she has a blackhole in her stomach. After all she already has a full tummy but when she sees me eating she would meow as if I did not just finish watching her empty her bowl. Tsk, her cries might make the neighbors think I am trying to starve them. Which is why I started talking to them out loud even if it js embarrasing. I make sure to narrate for those eavesdropping that Presto and Oreo akready ate and their tummies are round but they are still trying to get more food by acting cute. Unfortunately for them, I am taking care to make sure they stay at a healthy weight. I do not want them to be chonky cats since they will suffer. Favorite spot Look at how tiny they are back then. They could comfortably sleep together here. Still a favorite nap place Even though they got bigger they still try to sleep on the same place. At this picture they could still fit in the little circle. But now, only one of them could sit or sleep on it. They grew up so fast. Their favorite sleeping area now are the chairs which frustrates my mother to no end. After all, the kittens each take 1 chair to sleep comfortably, and pur chairs are only enough for the human members of the family. But the late comers need to adjust since no one wants to bother the kittens when they sleep. Yin yang When they play I am always amazed at how cute they look. I even think that they look a bit like the symbol of balance yin yang. Sleeping yin yang Here you can see them sleep on a single chair. They refuse to sleep on the floor. They would either sleep on my bed, on the couch, or on the chair but not on the floor. They only stay on the floor to bother those ina hurry. You know those times of needing to rush, the kittens think that is a good time to interrupt and become a disturbance on the floor. I can't count on my two hands the number of times, I accidentally kicked them because they would put themselves on my path. After a few times of these and the sermon I give them, they learned not to get in my way, and I learned to be alert and cautious to where the kittens are walking/running. Closing words Seeing them now, I can not even imagine what they would look like when they reached their six months with me. They are approximately 3 months old now. They are spoiled rotten, and are regularly seeing the vet. I am just waiting for them to get to 6 months to bring them at the clinic for spay/neuter. The vet said that we had to wait for the kittens to be 6 months old at the earliest. So I am waiting. I love these kittens so much and Moshi as well. Even on my depressive episode, they still trust me enough to give them food haha even when I am having trouble feeding myself. Their belief that I will give them food when they cry or act cute is amazing for me. They would even catch rats or cockroaches for me. I know that means they view as a poor hunter or something but I appreciate that they help lower the pests around us. I just really wished they will stop bringing it to my room HAHA. Right now Oreo is using me as a pillow. Sadly, I would need to move since I need to drink my meds. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 27 June 2022

They grew up so fast (Part 1) Sometimes, I feel as though time is flying faster than I could comprehend. I mean we are already almost done with the first half of the year 2022 after all. And yet, it almost feels like it was just yesterday that I was writing my new year's resolution. The same could be said about taking care of the kittens I have adopted. Sometimes when I see them I get surpised at how big they are now. I even made a noise.cash post about this earlier. It is about the following picture: Good morning, everyone! Seeing the two kittens eating reminded me of the first time I got them. They were so tiny back then, and they had fleas on them too. I was in a depressive episode then and was sp afraid I would accidentally harm the kitten by being forgetful. I thought that they might die and I was so scared of that. I spent the following days reading multiple articlea saying the same things before I was able to relax into the role of becoming a fur parent. Now when I see them I am always happy to see how big they have grown. I also enjoy the fact that they are not super picky with their food. - ZehraSky (noise.cash post) https://noise.cash/post/k8k8z30bz79n Now that I am already in the mood for it, join me as I look back at how different yet how similar the kittens are from when I got them first. The box is their comfort They were scared to leave the box where my father put them in when he got them off the road. I put Moshi's toy with them so they woukd get used to Moshi's smell since I do not want them to be afraid of Moshi when they finally feel comfortable to leave the small box. It turns out that I do not have to worry about it since when I let them out the first time, they refused to just stay in the box in the following days. I was keeping them there at first since I read that the kittens might feel more comfortable at a small space instead of being released into an entirely new place. But for them, when they got a taste of what is on the outside of the box, they refuse to stay still in there unless they are sleeping. Boxes are still a good sleeping place The kittens don't even care that the box is full of stuff. They just want to stay there to nap. They used to look so small when napping in that box, but now the space looks crowded with just the two of them but it is still one of their favorite hiding places. First meeting with Moshi Here you can see Moshi towering over the kittens. Oreo is the curious one about this big thing looking at them while Presto was more interested at Moshi's legs. Moshi is understandably excited to meet new friends. But I made sure to supervise their time together since I do not want the kittens to be overwhelmed and be scared. Thankfully, the relationship of these three is good. New sleeping buddy Their reationship is so good that they actually like to sleep next to each other now. But Moshi is jumpy when the kittens accidentally put their claws on Moshi's fur. She has been a victim of mean cats before so she is scared at the feeling. Good thing that the kittens are fast learners and they stopped using their claws when interacting with Moshi. Although Moshi got used to their antics quite quickly. Of course, she refused to be on the losing side so she would also play with them. Closing words Sometimes, I get a bit jumpy too when Moshi is playing with the kittens since even though the kittens grew up, they are still no where near Moshi's size. So until now, their play time is supervised. I still have more pictures to share but I decided to use it for another article. I am missing one article after all. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 26 June 2022

Restocking crochet items As some of you might remember, I have an online shop for my crochet creations. Although most of my orders were from word of mouth, I have started to receive some orders from the online pages and my crochet account which makes me happy. But as my experience last time taught me, I need to be prepared. Because even though I include in my shop's description that I accept no rush orders, I still accepted one last time. And as expected I did not enjoy it. Yet I feel happy still since the rushed orders gave me money. And I know that I would have regretted backing out on that order. So where is the balance? I am stuck between not wanting to experience working on many orders with a deadline to not wanting to miss out on bulk orders. So my solution is to start stocking up my crochet items. It is risky since I might end up with a lot of crochet items gathering dust inside a container. But it can also pay off if I come across a customer who wants on hand items. And as far as my limited experience told me, buyers want on hand items even though they are buying handmade items. They do not like to wait, no that is a deal breaker for them. Stocking up I realized that I would never want to sell crochet wearables since that attracts a different kind of buyers wanting cheap price for a handmade items and I do not have the patience to deal with that. So I am deciding to stick to my crochet trinkets like headset and mic covers, scrunchies, bandana, and amigurumi key chain. It might not seem like much and yeah it is actually not much. I could do much more than these items but what does it matter if I end up hating crochet over it? I would rather keep making the smae things for business and doing some patterns I want for personal use only. I do not want to feel too drained because of my online shop which is why I only decided to settle with these 4 items. Here is me working on a rainbow bandana. I accidentally lost my on hand bandana since I wore it outside to promote it, yet I lost it so I needed to refill its stock. Here is the end result of that. As you can see it is a reversed rainbow. Usually red is the one at the outermist part but I forgot that and I did not want to have my efforts gone to waste so I pushed through with it. It looks quite cute anyway so I feel happy about that. This is a cute scrunchie I made from a pretty yarn I bought from a yarn shop near us. I plan to buy more fun colored yarns there since I really liked the outcome of this. But I will wait for more orders to come in before I buy more. Last but definitely not the least are these two sets of headset and mic covers. The yarns I used for these two are impulse buy so I had no project on my mind for them. Good thing that they looked good as a headset and mic covers set. Closing words It is a bit embarrasing to keep on promoting my business here but this the only platform, aside from noise.cash, thatI am most active. Well, I am trying my best to be active in my crochet acciunt and page now but it is just different here. Plus I realized that my business will get nowhere if I am too shy to try and promote my works. After all, who will believe my works are good if I do not even have the guts to promote them, right? If you have a bit of extra time and are interested in getting a crochet item for yourself, just clicking the links to my online shops help me a great deal. Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/zehrasky.yarns Shopee: https://shopee.ph/zehrasky.yarns **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 25 June 2022

When BCH recovers I have been in this platform for a year now, and yet I know that I am still a noob about a lot of things involving crypto. It is not that I have no interest in learning more about it, it is just that I do not have energy to learn more about it as of the moment. Yet, I still try my best to learn what little I could understand. Mostly from other writers here on read.cash. For that, I am forever grateful to the writers who take their time to research and write an article about cryptocurrency. Some Lessons I learned I have come across many things that did not make sense at first. And I admit that back then, I did not care whether I understood crypto slang or not. I was just here to write and hopefully improve my social skills a bit. **Buy low, sell high** This one might be common sense to others but for me, it was a good lesson to come across. I am after all more inclined to do things based on emotions. So I used to find myself buying things when they are a hype and feeling incredibly sad when the inevitable dip comes in. But due to the repeated articles that mentioned not to do this, I have learned to be calmer when it comes to buying and selling. Although, I make a mistake in buying some BCH when the price was still at around P9000. I thought that it would not go lower than that but I was so so wrong. **HODL** This is what I am doing right now with my BCH, and I also have a small amount of XRP and SLP. I am just waiting for the market to recover while also accumulating more. **DYOR** This is supposed to be a given but my impulsivity and fear of missing out (FOMO) controlled most of my actions in the past. Oh how, I wished I was not too greedy before. Even though I always get my investment back, I am sad about losing the profits. Well, it is not yet lost since I have yet to sell but seeing the price of them now does not give me happy feelings. **Invest what you could afford to lose** This is the most important thing I could have learned early on. If I had heeded this advice, I would not be feelinf sad about the losses nor regret that I did not do my research. Well, I am sad since the profit I got from my investments is what I used to invest more and they ended up not as successful as I had hoped for. Despite my unwillingness to study crypto on my own, the number of articles I have come across in my stay here gave me some basic ideas that helped me realize the mistakes I have been making and what I plan to do to rectify these mistakes when the market recovers. I wait for the green Right now, the market is bloody and I have no idea when it will become green again. But I know and believe that it will recover again. So I want to apply what I learned when the market recovers. I will no longer just HODL my BCH and let opportunities pass. First thing I would do is wait for the price where I feel happy with. As of now, I am thinking of waiting for the BCH price to go back to P30 000 but that might change in the future. Anyway, when the price reached my desired set point, I will be converting half of my BCH HODL to fiat. Half of the coverted BCH will go to stable coins. I learned the importance of holding stable coins this red market. If I had stable coins, I would have been able to capitalize on the dip and accumulate more BCH, but since I had none, all I could do is use spare fiat to buy BCH and grind more on read.cash and noise.cash. 1/4 of the converted BCH would be left to my coins.ph wallet for other crypto that I might want to buy. The other 1/4 would be for me to spend. After all, I feel like I deserve to enjoy the fruits of my grind. It would not be a worthwhile thing if I just let the green market pass without even tasting a bit of its sweetness. I would hope that the 1/4 converted BCH would be enough to buy a new phone. I am not looking for expensive phones since I barely use my phones fkr anything other than scrolling. I want to buy a new phone since the ohone I am using right now was originally my father's. I traded my phone with him since he needed a later phone than this one. This phone is android 7, while the phone I was using before was android 10. So yeah,the phone I have right now is old and it has a lot of cracks on the screeb which makes it harder to type since sometimes the are random touches which closes the tabs or apps. Closing words My coping mechanism during this bear market is to imagine how much I could get when the bulls wake up again. It makes me feel like all this waiting and believing will all be worth it. Thankfully, I could still afford not to convert any BCH since I am lucky with my crochet business this month. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 23 June 2022

Get P13800 worth of medication for free + 1BCH Unlocked (Again) Who in the world would even say no to free things? As far as I know, people would do anything to get something for free. Be it faking their age or their birthdays/proposals etc., people would do stupid things for free things. Now imagine if the free things you can have are those that you really need. Say for example a medication. No need to imagine With the right knowledge acquired, free medication will no longer just exist in your mind. It will be a part of reality. This is what happened to me. I discovered the free psychiatric consultation of NCMH which then led to my introduction to Malasakit Center. What is Malaskit Center? I honestly do not know the exact mission and vision of this. All I know is that it helps Filipinos afford their healthcare. As far as I know, it is not just medication that they give for free but also laboratory and diagnostic tests. Getting P13800 worth of medications As I have opened up before, I am diagmosed with bipolar affective disorder. It is a mood disorder with no known cure as of the moment, but the condition can be managed by therapy and medication. The medication I am taking is Quetiapine 300mg. When I checked the price for it, I learned that the cheapest is around P138. If I would not get medication with the help of Malasakit Center, I would need to spend more than P4000 every month just for medication. So you can see why I am so grateful for the existence of Malasakit Center. This is part of my prescription. I am just taking care because I do not want anyone to edit my prescription so they can self-medicate themselves. These are the medication I received. As you can see, it is a lot. These medications are good for 3 months. So if you are in need of medication, look for Malasakit Centers near you. I think there are Malasakit Centers on hoapitals if I am not mistaken. The requirements are simple for me- prescription from NCMH, certificate of indigency, and photocopy of valid ID. It is a worthwhile trade of a bit of requirements and time for the amount of medication I got for free. Let's move on to BCH Remember that I already unlocked 1BCH HODL before? Well, I remember but I forgot when it happened. It feels like it happened a long time ago. Maybe because I needed to spend the 1 BCH for my therapy, consultations, and medications back then. But now, I have found some breathing room in the financial aspect of my treatment since I am takin advantage of the free services I could avail. 1 BCH UNLOCKED (AGAIN) This time around, I unlocked 1 BCH again without me realizing it. I just had a bit of urge to check the total amiunt of BCH I have on my wallets right now and I am surprised to see that I already have 1 BCH again. Here is the screenshot of my BCH wallets on Bitcoin.com. The estimated total of this is 0.70 BCH. The remaining 0.30 BCH is found here aty coins.ph wallet. Closing words I am sharing my knowledge on free medication because I want to be able to help point someone into a place twhere they can get the help they need. Hopefully, someone will read this and be able to get help for the financial aspect of their healthcare needs. I am sharing my BCH achievement not to brag nor inspire. I just want to show you guys how much your support means to me. It is easy to say that I am thankful for your support, but I find that it is better to show what your support helps me achieve. Because of your continued support, I was able to get the money for my treatment, and now I am able to hold 1 BCH again. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 22 June 2022

An Introvert's Adventure Today is an eventful day in a way. Let us start my story telling by sharing a bit of how my day started. The day for me started with loud meows in my ear, and then there were claws digging in my shoulder when I ignored the meows at first. A natural alarm clock It was Oreo waking me up so they could eat. I really regret getting them used to such an early breakfast. Oh well, even if I did try to move their eating time, I am sure they will still give me a hard time since they eat when they want to eat. It is actually a challenge to ensure that they will not be overweight. I am closely monitoring their bodies every week to see if their appearance is starting to look chonky. Chonky cats look adorable but I know that they are suffering. So if you are a pet owner, please don't let your pets become overweight. They will have a hard time and worse, they will have no way of communicating it. I know how difficult it is to resist the temptation to give them treats every time they cry but we must stay strong to mke sure they will live long, and healthy lives. Anyway, once I fed the little monsters, they left me alone to just stare at my ceiling as I could not go back to sleep. Then I heard my alarm clock ringing, which signals that I need to exercise but today my body felt so heavy so I skipped exercising. Leaving my humble abode When the late afternoon hits and the sun starts to go to a different part of the world, I decided to go out and buy some dry dog food for Moshi. When I got there, I also bought some Ciao Churu Cats treats for Oreo and Presto. I spent P249 there. Then as I was walking home, I was contemplating buying a lot of foods, especially ramen and milktea. In the end I decided not to get them but I could not stop myself when I walked by the bakery. I was craving this for some time now and I never found the right name to call it so the people here do not understand what I was talking about haha. Good thing that I came across it on my home. I also love that the baker gave me a fresh batch so it was still hot and the smell was heaven. The exciting part I decided last night that I wanted to start working on an order I received a few months ago. It was an order for a school boy dog clothes. My sister's best friend is the one who placed this order which is the reason why I did not immediately started working on it. But now since I have a bit of free time, I was up for crocheting dog clothes again. I messaged a yarn seller near me to ask what yarns do they have. Luckily they have the milk cotton yarn I am looking for. So I placed an order for these yarns, and the seller readied the items for pick up. Once it was ready, I once again left our house, this time I am accompanied by my mother since she is the one who knows where the store was located. We got caught up in the rain though we luckily have our umbrella with us. Good thing that the rain stopped as quick as it started. These are the yarns I ordered. I was happy since I managed to get my investment back from my orders last time which is why I have the money to buy the yarns needed for the order I am working on. My plan is ti just let the measly P440 rotate as my investment jn my small crochet business. I onlt spent P230 for these yarns though so I have more to spend if I suddenly received a different order. Right now, I am making the order. I hope that I can finish it by next week so I can give it to her personally. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 21 June 2022

Thank you BCH for making this possible Therapy is a word that sounds a bit sad. I mean when I hear it, the first thing that comes to my mind is that something is wrong so a therapy is required to fix it. So imagine me who has thoughts like these, booking my psychotherapy sessions for the first time. And my first psychologist going about how there is nothing broken about me even though I never once mentioned that I think I am broken and needs fixing. It basically made me shy away from therapy. But as luck would have it, my impulsive decision to book another session at a cheaper rate in a different place was a blast. Structure is something I need Initially, I was hesitant to book a session with this psychologist because I prefer a female one. But the other osychologist was fully booked and I did not want to be put on a waitlist. I was afraid that if I put seeking therapy for too long then I will go back to the same toxic patterns that I have been doing. So I decided to just say, screw it, I will book a session with this psychologist even though I am not sure how it will go. And that is probablu one of the best impulsive decision I make. Woah, who knew my hypomanic episode have it in it, right? Thanks for bringing me into the right path, yey. Anyway, at my first session with this psychologist, I was open and honest how disappointed I was at my previous experience. It was because it felt like I was paying the former psychologist to listen to me vent about life and for her to repeat the same things she already said. It is probably just not the right approach for me. So I told my new psychologist about how I wanted sime structure to the therapy, I was also firm on having some sort of measuring stick or guide so I can know that I am making progress. When I told him that, I was ready to be disappointed in truth. I thought that I would have paid someone to tell me some sort of things that do not resonate to me at all. The truth is satisfying As the initial consultation progresses, he starts hitting all the things I wanted right on the nail. First one is he laid out the measuring stick that we will be using. For this, we decided to use mood tracker, sleep tracker, and eating tracker. The mood tracker is to see how much my mood fluctuate on a daily basis, while the sleeo and eating tracker is to track my sleep and eating habits on a daily basis. Then he started giving assignments which would keep me interested for the next few weeks that I have no therapy session. Today is fun (unexpectedly) The day started out great for me! I shipped the orders I received and I have money on top of that. Then my sister cam home with a banana cake, and the avocados were starting to ripen. Basically the best day in the making. Then my partner and I watched a movie of my own choice. I chose to continue watching the last part of The Hobbits. When I say that I did not need my heart, I mean it. That movie just went ahead and squished my heart so much so that I did not know what to say when my therapist asked me how am I feeling earlier. I told him that I honestly don't feel anything at the time, and that I was still trying to come to terms about what happened in the movie that me and my partner watched. Then the therapy started and I started tk enjoy it. By the end of it I was laughing and my mood is lifted again. Though I was given some difficult assignments for the next session. Still worth every cent though. I am so glad I went ahead and booked an appointment despite it all. And of course, I will forever acknowledge that I was able to get my savings because of BCH. It is the main reason why I am HODLing my BCH during thjs bear market. Closing words I wrote this article because I did not want to think of a topic. It just popped through my head and boom I decided to go ahead with that. This article might seem more casual than usual. It is because I am basically just writing down my thoughts. And my thoughts right now are full of positive feelings. I just have sooo much energy today that has nowhere to go so I put them into writing. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 20 June 2022

Make crochet orders with me Luck is on my side today, if I do say so myself. You might be wondering why. Or maybe you read the title and already know why. The reason for my luck today is unknown. But my luck is very real. I received 2 orders from Facebook marketplace. The first one is 2 pairs of big headset covers. I sold it at a discounted price of P75 each. So the total of this order is P150. It is already paid even though I did not start it until earlier. I really felt happy when it happened since it was my first order outside of my sisters, and their coworkers and friends. Basically, it was the first order from a stranger. Make the big headset covers with me The first thing I had to do was asked the client for the measurement of their headset. When they sent it to me. I started making the order. I sent this to my customer so that he will know that I am already starting with his order. He is a chill customer since he did not mind that I take hours to reply sometimes. These are the big headset covers that I made today. I am hoping that it fits the headset well since this is my first time making it so I am not sure how well it would fit. This is what the order looked like after I packed it. It is now ready for shipping but the customer has yet to send his shipping information. I have no complaints since I already received the payment so I am not afraid that I got scammed. More blessings I was already over the moon with the order of big headset covers but then something happened that made me happier. A erson messaged my crochet account, Sky Yarns, asking if the item I posted on the marketplace is still available. I told her that yes, the headset covers are still available. She then placed an order of 11 sets of headset and mic cover. I priced this set at P80 only sonce I gave a discount because she is the first customer who bought in bulk. You can do the math how much money I could get when I finish this order. The only downside is that I need to ship it immediately so I need to focus on crochet for now. But I think it is worth the price. This is my progress right now. I still have to make 2 1/2 headset covers and 10 mic covers. It would be a piece of cake if only I am not experiencing the side effects of my medication. I am honestly feeling a bit scared. I am wondering if maybe I bit more than I could ches but really, I know for. Afact that I can do this huge order. I just did not expect it would be super challenging while also fighting the side effects. Honorable mentions Aside from these two orders, I have already completed orders this week. The first one is the Spiderman keychain. You may remember it from a previous article. I solde this one for only P200. The next is a brown bandana. This is a fun project to make so I sold it for only P70, but that is because the customer is my sister. I told her to offer the bandana to her workmates as well but for P85. Then I also sold 2 bucket hats to my sister again. I gave her a very discounted price as part of my birthday gift to her. She bought the 2 bucket hats for only P50 each. For reference, I price my bucket hat at P250 up for adults. I also received oayment for 2 headset covers from my younger sister's coworkers. That amounts to P80. And there is also payment 1 headset cover from my older sister's coworker. How much money is that now? I did not compute it tho since I am lazy. I have many plans about creating spreadsheets to track my money and stuff but I am just not up to it. Closing words Unfortunately, I would need to wake up early tomorrow since I did not manage to finish all the orders today. Hopefully, I could wake up early for I can ship the items immediately. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 19 June 2022

Know what bipolar disorder is Today I decided to share a bit of knowledge about my condition. The reason for this is that lately, I have been reading online about the perception of people about those who live with bipolar disorder. And as expected, I did not have a fun time reading it. Mostly because other people's opinion are rooted in ignorance yet they act as if they know everything there is to know about bipolar disorder. This article is not meant as an attack or insult nor does it mean to offend anyone. It is simply my hope that there will be people who read this and understand a bit more about what I, and many others, have to live through. Let's talk about mental illness In our country, the Philippines, the stigma surrounding mental illness is a difficult thing to ignore. Sure, the state of mental health support is better now than it was before but we still have a lpng way to go. And I know that many countries also struggle with these same kind of stigma. The first and most likely statement that one would hear after sharing their diagnosis is that mental illnesses are made up, and are just in our minds. I honestly have to laugh at this one because obviously the illness is in the mind, it is literally called "mental" illness. But I know that they say this to diminish the term illness. They say this to say that the illness is just our imagination and therefore must not affect reality. But contrary to their opinion, mental illnesses are shown to affect the chemical composition of the brain itself. Yes, the organ in charge of all the functions of a human body is physically and chemically affected. Those diagnosed with mental illness are shown to have a chemical imbalance in their brains which causes the symptoms that they struggle with. It is not going to go away with just a prayer or by doing daily meditations. In fact, untreated mental illnesses tend to get worse as years go by. We are not weak Will you tell someone with a broken bone they are weak for seeing a doctor? Will you ask those with diabetes to stop taking their medication because they are in control of their body and does not need those pills? Will you say the same kind of cpmments you utter to those with mental illness to any other person struggling with a different illness affecting a different organ? If your answer is no to all questions, I wish you would think twice and hard about where the hate is coming from when it comes to those with mental illness. Ask yourself why you think the brain is a silly organ that you can ignore when it is ill. Even though the brain is the one in charge of the body. What is bipolar disorder? Bipolar disorder was previously known as manic depression. It is a mood disorder characterized by extreme highs and lows. But not all people with bipolar are the same. Some struggle with bipolar 1, which is a type of bipolar where a manic episode has occured. Most times, hospitalization is needed for those in a manic state to stop them from hurtin themselves or others. Depressive episode may or may not occur in this type of bipolar. Manic episode may look like reckless spendin where a person keep shopping online even when they are already in debt. It may also look like being the life of the party, drinking alcohol nonstop. Some may have a misconception that being manic equals to being super creative. While it may be true that a manic episode includes high amount of energy, the product produced this time period are not as well made as the times when the mood is stable. Why? Because in a manic episode the concentration of the individual is not great. Most times an individual would have so many things they want to do and they try to finish it at the same time. The end result would be a lot of WIPs with no finished product. This type of bipolar also includes illusions of grandeur that is far from reality. A person may believe that they pwn big companies and have endless ampunt of money even though they are already in debt. But their condition does not let them see that. Their reality is that they are the owner of a big company and have endless amount of money. Next is bipolar 2 which is characterized by hypomanic episodes and major depressive episodes. Some people have the misconception of thinking that bipolar 2 is the "less severe" type. Thisis because full-blown mania does not occur in this type, but the depressive episodes are debilitating and can cause much damage to those with bipolar and the people surrounding them. Hypomania is a watered down version of mania. It may look like impulsive buying. Or impulsively investing in things without researching. Most times this would cause a damage in one's life either financially or in terms of relationships. And then there is the rapid cycling bipolar characterized by immediate mood swings. And there are others which do not meet the qualifications of the aforementioned types. Closing words These are knowledge I learned from attending therapy, seeking psychiatric assitance as well as reading the assignments given to me by these mental health professionals. It is also important to remember that not everyone diagnosed experiences bipolar disorder in the same way. So keep an open mind when meeting a person with bipolar instead of acting you know everything about their condition. I still have much to say but I am already getting sleepy from my medication so I will end it here. If you suspect anyone you know to have this condition, make sure to help them get the help they need. Remember that when left untreated, bipolar disorder tends to get worse as a person gets older. Also, do not go arround diagnosing people. Even mental health professionals can not diagnose people outside of the consultation set up. Next time, I want to share some thoughts about how people perceived those with bipolar. Some of these include but are not limited to being cheaters, are dangerous, can not be trusted, are super creative, can not keep a job, etc. I wish to do my part in being a mental health advocate, and that includes the hard part of sharing information with no assurance that it will be well-received. On a side note: I actually received a pretty insensitive and ignorant comment before right here on read.cash. This is the reason why I have not been interacting with those who commented with my articles since I have stopped from reading them for peace of mind. I will try my best to start being interactive again though. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 18 June 2022

Making a Spiderman Keychain Truthfully, I do not know how to start this article. After all, I am feeling so sleepy and drowsy now since I have already taken my medication. Maybe let me start this by saying that I have no idea about superheroes stuff before I met my partner. Sure, I have heard of the names and I know what they look like. Well I know what the common superheroes look like. But I do not know their stories nor did I have any desire to know more about them beyond their names. But my partner introduced me to this amazing world, and I am slowly learning why so many people are fascinated with the superhero movies. It still does not change the fact that I do not have much knowledge on the topic. But I can appreciate the character design. And one thing that I love about being able to crochet is that I can challenge myself into making a crochet version of these superheroes. I had the chance to do that with a superhero known as Spiderman. This is actually not my first encounter with this hero. A birthday gift Back in Novermber 25, 2021, I had already made a crochet project inspired from this hero. It was a gift for the sister of one of my best friend. She is a cute kid so I gave her a gift. This was my first time doing a superhero themed crochet project. And thankfully not the last time. Just this week, I received an order involving the very same superhero. A coworker of my sister wanted a Spiderman keychain. Her coworkers know of me since they already ordered a lot of crochet headset covers from me. Most of my sales are definitely from word of mouth. A challenge At first, I was hesitant to accept the order. I do not have much experience with doing superhero themed stuff, and the amigurumis I did in the past were all cute things but definitely not human shaped at all. So doing a Spiderman keychain is bound to be challenging. Still, I decided to accept the order when it seemed like the client is not one who expects handmade items to be cheap. After all, I was going to turn down the order if the client's estimated amount for the keychain is P50. When I was told that I could price it however much I want, I decided to continue. I told the client that for amigurumi the suggested price is P100 per inch. The keychain I was making was 3.5 inches. Supposedly, it would be P350, but since I apreciated the client's willingness to pay for handmade items, J gave a discount of P150. So I sold the item for only P200. The process I will not be doing a tutorial on this crochet project since I did not write the pattern. But I will be sharing some pictures of the process. The first thing I did is to make the eyes. These are actually failed eyes and I did make another pair which I ended up using. Then I started working on the head. Random thing to mention that I have no idea where this exact hook is. I am currently missing 2 hooks and I have no idea where they are. Thankfully, the missing ones are different sizes so I still have a spare hook for both sizes. Then I got to working on the body. This is my first time trying this technique of doing an amigurumi doll. And then I added the legs. This picture is the one I sent to my customer when I said that the price for amigurumi is P100 ero inch, and the product I am making is 3 5 inches. Then I added the arms. Here you can see another learning I had. Which is to use my pins to hold the items in place. I used to not do this and my amigurumi ended up wonky so now I use pins to hold them in place. I may have went a bit overboard in this one though. Then I added the keychain as well as the tiny spider on the outfit of our Spiderman keychain. I know that a spider does not have six legs, but whatever. It still looks like a spider anyway I then packed the item in a holographic pouch. I do not have any boxes for amigurmi which is why it is only on a pouch. Closing words I hope you enjoy seeing the behind the scenes photos of the making of Spiderman keychain. I look forward to sharing more crochet projects with you. If you are interested in getting a crochet keychain or any crochet item, you can send a message on my online business. I also accept BCH as payment. The only downside is that this is only for Filipinos since I do not know how to ship items to other countries. Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/zehrasky.yarns Shopee store: https://shopee.ph/zehrasky.yarns **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 18 June 2022

To sleep the day away I thought I was on the road to having stable moods for life. After all, I am following the doctor's instructions and I even went beyond that to make sure that my treatment plan will work. I have been taking my medication regularly. I am also attending therapy sessions to better understand myself and learn healthy coping mechanisms. And I even tried establishing a routine. I read that a daily routine would lessen the chances of relapse. Moreover, I also followed my previous psychologist's advice to spend time with my loved ones when I am having a hard time. So I do not understand why I am on the brink of another depressive episode. This is article is mostly just me venting my frustrations. I feel like a failure for feeling this way. Moreover, I did not see anythin wrong with me getting a PWD ID but an instance yesterday made me feel like I should not have done that. I know that it is difficult to fight the stigma that many has especially for invisible disability but it was still an uncomfortable feeling when someone close to me made me doubt my decision of using my PWD ID. It was as if I was supported when I got it becuse they knew I would get in anyway, but then they do not support my decision to use it. I try to understand their actions. After all, who would want to see a loved one be discriminated or judged. But I hope they know that their judgement of my decisions and condition are the ones that affect me instead of strangers' judgement. I do not really care about what strangers thought of me. Speaking of PWD ID earlier reminded me of my anxiety about using or disclosing it to future companies that I apply to. So I decided to post my thoughts to a support group for those with Bipolar disorder. And the responses I received were difficult to read. Since there were others who shared how they were discriminated and turned away from a job the moment they disckose their condition. Then there was one whi disclosed his condition and the company required him to get a monthly medical certificate and a fit for work notice from psychiatrist. He advised me to not disclose it since it will open room for more expenses. Of course, there were comforting comments such as that I have no need to disclose it unless there is a drug test for the medical exam. There is a comment saying that some failed their drug test since they did not disclose that they are taking medication for bipolar. I am not sure how true their claims are though. Some also shared their success story where they found companies who value diversity and accepted their disability with an open mind. Basically, it all boils down to either not disclosing it or finding a progressive company who will be open minded about my condition. Closing words As I was typing this, I am using my smart hula hoop to exercise. I had not been able to exercise for a few days because of the symptoms I am experiencing so being able to exercise again is nice. The sad thing is it did not do anything to lift my mood haha. But that is okay, maybe my mood will get better after eating breakfast. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 17 June 2022

Emptying my BCH wallets We are halfway through the month and the red market gets dipper. It is a big challenge to me who is experiencing such red market for the first time. I can not help but remember the days when BCH was at its old price of around P45 000 to P50 000. Back then, I was still fairly new to the platform so every time I needed a bit of money, I just convert all my BCH to fiat even though I did not need to convert everything. Basically, I had no concept of what HODL means and what to expect from BCH. All I knew was that I got some money I could spend if I wanted to. As I stay in the community longer, I learned the advantage of being patient and HODLing my BCH. I learned more about what the goals of BCH are and how this community plays a part in BCH adoption. With that being said, I sometimes still struggle to keep my calm. My emotions get the best of me and I make decisions that are not rooted in logic, but in fear. Perhaps, it is the reason why I have uninstalled MetaMask and stopped playing with smartBCH. Perhaps, it is the reason why I am not trying to trade BCH despite the many opportunities presented. In all honesty, this is my first time seeing the market in such a red state. It triggers my fears, and it definitely made me doubtful. After all, in just last month, I thought that I would be able to finance my treatment plan with a little bit of my earnings from writing in both read.cash ans noise.cash. However, the market did not play right into what I needed. So what did I do? I emptied my BCH wallets. This was the state of my wallet yesterday. Almost a clean slate. I was too slow to take the screenshot of when the numbers were still zero. Why did I empty my BCH wallets? Well, I just actually transferred the BCH I got from June 1 to 15 at a different BCH wallet. I could not even bear to look at the price of BCH right now, so why would I sell any, right? I was just pulling your leg with the title and all my drama above. This is where the BCH I have went. This is just for the first half of this month though. I am not going to reveal how much BCH I am HODLing. Let us just say that it is a lot more than I expected I would HODL during this trying times. What about my treatment plan? Having a psychosocial disability is not a fun experience. After all, I am surrounded by people who are used to dealing with normal people so when they see me act based on my emotions, I am told many hurtful things. So treatment is really needed for me to function normally, in a word. There is no cure for my condition yet but the there are various treatment that works. My treatment revolves around taking my medication every day and monitoring my symptoms. Plus attending DBT (psychotherapy). These treatments hand in hand is supposed to help me develop healthy coping mechanisms so that my episodes will happen less frequently and less intensely. Let me be vulnerable with you guys. I have used up the savings I put aside for my treatment plan. Right now I only have money to afford another psychiatric consultation. I am actually trying to extend my money by asking if the clinic gives discount for those with PWD ID. But as of yet, they have not sent a reply to my inquiry. I am feeling a bit sad about that since getting a discount will be a big help to my treatment plan. As of now, I do not know how I could attend more therapy sessions or psychiatric consultations. But I will figure it out when I get there. My plans for my BCH As of now my plan is just to let them sleep in my wallets. I have 4 wallets. The first one is where I send my bi-monthly earnings. The next are my wallets connected to read.cash and noise.cash. The last BCH wallet I have is my coins.ph wallet where I send a bit of BCH in case I needed to convert to fiat for emergency. Thankfully, it has been a full month since my last conversion. I am hoping that I will not need to convert anything yet during this dip. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 15 June 2022

An Unexpected Plot Twist in my Life When the semester started, I promised myself that I will do my best. Yet as the months went on, I found myself begging for just the passing grades. I did not care whether or not I became a part of the Dean's List again. All I had wanted was to get the passing mark. For those of you in other countries, we have a different grading system here. In foreign countries, I believe that 4.00 is the highest grade one could get. Here, at our university we use a different system. 1.00 is the highest grade a student could get. And the lowest mark is 3.00. The 4.00 here is a conditional passing grade. It means that it can become a 3.00 or a 5.00, depending on the student and the professors. While 5.00 is a failing mark. Then INC is incomplete. Anyway, going back to my story today. Since I was struggling with so many things this semester, I found myself letting go of my goal to be a part of Dean's List again. I was content to have 3.00 on all my subjects. Well, not all since I did my best still. Just some subjects that I had difficulty with. What are these struggles I had? These struggles are something that I have been open about at this platform. Although in real life, only a select few knew of my condition. The first and most important reason why I gave up on being in the Dean's List is that my symptoms were overwhelming. These symptoms include anxiety attacks, deep sadness that lasts for a long time, sleeping problems, eating problems, concentration problems and there are other more symptoms but those are the most problematic for me. Imagine how difficult it would have been if your mind is thinking of everything that happened and could happen in the future, all the while ignoring the activities due that day. Now imagine that feeling multiplied ten times. Maybe then, that would give you an idea how intense the symptoms I have felt this entire semester. It was not a case of laziness where I could have done the activities any time. Nor was it a case of procrastination. It was a consequence of the undiagnosed problem I had before. Although, thankfully, as some of you may know, I managed to get the help I needed which provided me with a working diagnosis and a treatment plan. While the treatment plan will be goo in the long term, the side effects I had to go through provided another challenge which really solidified my wish to just get passing marks and I would have been happy. The grades are out Students like me know that the official end of the semester is not where the battle ends. It is just the hardest part of the battle which is waiting for the grades to be encoded. Some may be confident, usually those who understood the topics well and know that they niled every examination and activities. While regular students are glued to their student portal waiting for each grades to be encoded. And then there is me who had anxiegy attacks about my grades yet I did not know when the encoding of grades will be nor did I have the courage to check it from time to time. I usually wait for my classmates to tell on the group chat that the grades are now complete. I did a different approach this time though. I check it every time a classmate message about an update in our grades. This means that I checked the portal 3 times. The first one, only 3 grades were encoded. Those are from the subjects that I somehow expected to pass so it did not ease my anxiety. Nope, not even a single bit. The next one, only 1 subject were not yet encoded. Before I opened my student portal to peek at my grades, I repeated my wish and prayed for 3.00 or just passing marks for the two subjects I was so worried about. Why am I worried about those two subjects? Well because I did not feel like I learned anything in the subjects. I literally felt like I was just faking the little understanding I managed to answer for the exams and activities for those subjects. Below is the screenshot of my grades. The first column includes the subject codes. The next one is the grades. The one next to the grades are the units. While the last column is filled with the subject descriptions. The subjects I was worried about were ICE10 and ICE11. Those subjects were hell for me. The professor is the same for both subjects. He is our Department Head and he is a great professor. I was just really not at my best so I was unable to appreciate his efforts. But seeing that my highest grade (1.25) is for the subject Final Control Element (ICE11), the same subject I cried about because I was struggling so bad, it made me feel so relieved. I literally felt my heart stopped when I saw the numbers. At this point, I was already out of the anxious zone. But I developed a new anxiety. The thought that ran through my head was that I wish I could still be a part of this semester's Dean's List. Based on the screenshot, I can be a part of our Department's Dean's List. The requirements for that are grades must not be lower than 2.50, and the GWA must not be lower than 2.00. Easily achieved unless you are in an engineering program, which of course is my program. I was quite sure that I did my best on the last subject with no grade yet. It was actually one of the subjects that I was able to understand since it was mostly computation. Yeah, it must have caused some to raise their eyebrows. Honestly, if highschool me could read that, she would definitely be laughing in disbelief because I hate math and computation and numbers. I have no idea why I chose an engineering program so don't ask me. Anyway, today the grades are finally completed. Here is a screenshot of my complete grades. Honestly, I really want tk laugh at the ICE12 grade since the professor only met us ***once*** for the whole semester yet he had the audacity to give that grade. I will not complain though since it could have been worse. He could have given me 2.75 in which case I would complain, just kidding. These grades are a huge plot twist for me since it is so unexpected considering my situation in the last few months. This is my GWA (1.81) for the semester. It is higher than I expected. I feel very orpud of myself. I just actually finished submitting my requirements for the Dean's List. Although I never actually share my achievement on my Facebook profile. I just let it stay on our Department's page. I only share my achievement privately but I figured I could share this with those in read.cash. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 14 June 2022

You are a green flag Hey, Where do I even start this letter? I have so many things I want to tell you that I do not know how to begin. Maybe I can start at the beginning. Remember how lost I was and every impulsive decisions I made would be considered as red flags. In all honesty, J really think that I was a walking red flag back then. I had no idea what drew you into me. Sometimes, I would wonder if perhaps, I unknowingly used a love potion on you. But I think your love is too pure for that. Anyway, this is an open letter to you. I decided to publish it here as a reminder to myself too. It serves as both a thank you to you and a reminder that I am worthy of love too. Today is heartwarming It started last night when you offered to accompany me to go to the NCMH. It was the first time I would go there for a supposed consultation and I was so nervous. When you offered to go with me, despite how shy I was, I really wanted it too much to even think of declining. Today you went ahead and joined me. I was able to skip the long lines for the consultation since I did not have nything to ask the doctor. So I just needed to refill my medication. This means that we were able to go straight to the Malasakit Center to get the medication. I will admit that I was afraid you would go home immediately after accompanying me to get the medication. So when you agreed to spend more time with me, I was overjoyed. First we ate at Chowking. It has been a while since I last ate there. Despite the fact that the branch we went to does not have the food I was craving, it is okay since I just wanted to spend more time with you. Mall of Asia After that, I thought for sure you would go home now. But you invited me to go to SM Mall of Asia if I wanted. So I immediately asked my parents if I could go. They just said yes since they know I am in safe company. Our first stop when we got there is IKEA. I remember that you mentioned before that you wanted to view some furnitures with me. And now we have done that. I really enjoyed learning about what color you wanted for the house and the kind of atmosphere you want. I also enjoyed getting lost in the IKEA with you. Really, I would not have mind if we got stuck there for hours. Although thankfully it did not come to that. The shortcut that did not feel like a shortcut managed to save us a lot of time still. Once we go out, we bought some food. I really enjoyed the ice cream and the hotdog too. But my favorite part is trying the Nordic drinks with you. It was so funny how you tried to control your facial expressions so I will not have an idea whether the drink tastes good or bad. I frankly do not have the control to do that. You could immediately see when I did not like the drink. Well to be fair, we only liked the sparkling lemon out of all the drinks we tried there. Then we walked our the mall talking about everything and nothing at once. When I am with you, I feel like words are not that needed since I enjoy being in your presence. When we got tired of walking, we decided to look of a place to eat. But many establishments were full since it was already lunch time. In the end we ended up eating at Burger King. And this is also the first time we used my PWD ID to get a discount. I really like the sauce of the meal we ordered. Then here comes the exciting part. We went out to enjoy the seaside. I m not sure what to call it. Bay walk? Sea side? Who knows? Definitely not me. I just really enjoyed going there. We came across the bumper cars and we tried to look at how much it is but we coudl not find it at first. Thankfully, we managed to find it when we were checking out the ferris wheel. That was the first time I managed to enjoy the bumper cars. You laughed because I kept chasing you but I really enjoyed it and I know you did too. When we finished with the bumper cars there were many people already walking outside. We walked for a bit and sat down for a bit. Sadly, all fun things have endings too. The sky was getting darker and you said that we should go home before it rains. It is good timing too, because as I was writing this article, it is raining heavily. Closing words I always joked about how the only red flag you have is your interest in me. But now, I realized that because of you, I am learning to believe that I deserve this kind of love too. Thank you for coming into my life. Your presence made my life brighter. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 13 June 2022

Enjoy Avocados in Three Ways Avocado is my favorite fruit next to strawberries. I do not know why but I really like the taste of it and I usually wait for its season to fruit every year just so I can enjoy its taste. Fortunately for me, ny best friend posted in her my day that she is selling some avocados. After seeing that, I immediately sent a message ordering 1 kilo of avocados. One kilo cost P140. I don't know if that is more expensive than usual or if that is the expected price. I just really want some avocados. After the message, we decided to meet the next day so I can get the avocados and pay for it. The day comes We met last June 11 at a nearby McDonalds. I immediately oay for the avocados since my father was waiting ao he can take the avocados home. This is because I had plan to spend a bit of time with my bestfriend because we have not seen each other for a while. We decided to eat at McDonalds since we were already there. This is what we ate that day. I actually already had lunch when we met but I got so hungry easily so I still ordered. I ordered a K-Chicken Burger with a side of apple pie and a large iced tea. I really like the sauce at this limited edition burger. I feel glad that I decided to take a risk to order something new. My best friend ordered a spaghetti and burger combo with a medium pineapple juice. She joked about how healthy she feels because of the pineapple juice. As we ate the meal, we talked about things that are happening in our respective lives. We also messaged our pther best friend inviting her to join us even if she is late but unfortunately she had a headache so she chose to stay at home. Anyway, enough about what went on after I got the avocados. Let us now talk about the avocados. Just look at these avocados. I definitely plan to order more next time. Here is a view of an avocado cut in half. It looks delicious, right? Let us now discuss how we decided to eat our avocados. Avocado Ice Cream The first way to enjoy an avocado is by turning it into a DIY ice cream. This js sent to me by my best friend (the one selling the avocados), and I really like how it looked. According to her, you just have to mash the avocados and put condensed milk on it. Then refrigerate over night. I definitely plan to try this next time. Avocado with sugar, milk, and ice This is the way I have always eaten my avocados. This is how my mother prepared it and I really like it since it is easy to make and tastes so delicious. For this, you just need some ice cubes, powdered milk, and a bit of sugar. Mix it with mashed avocados and there you have it. Avocado with sugar The first time I tried this is at a friend's house back in high school and I liked how it tasted. I also like how easy it is to prepare. You just need to cut the avocado, sprinkle some sugar and then you are free to dig in. Definitely a great way to enjoy avocados. Closing words These are the ways we eat our avocados. What are your favorite ways to enjoy avocados? I have seen some people put avocados with egg in a sandwich and I have yet to try that. Maybe I will try that when I buy more avocados. I also read that some people eat avocados with salt. That is defintely an interestin way to eat avocados so I will try that tok just to see if I would enjoy it. Some also eat avocados as they are, no addition or anything. I tried this one and I do like it but I prefer to have more sweetness or other flavors too. Feel free to let me know more recipes I can use for avocados. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 13 June 2022

Applying for PWD ID Never have I ever though that I will one day apply for a PWD ID. It is just something unthinkable before. After all, the stigma surrounding this ID is a lot. Especially moreso for those who have invisibe disabilities. What is PWD ID? PWD ID or Person with Disability Identification is a card which provide identification that the person has a disability. It is also the card that can be used for various discounts around the country. The benefits are many which also means some people will go so far as to fake a disability just to get a PWD ID. Or some rich folk will pay big money to get one even when they do not have any disability. These instances of faking an ID became so problematic that the government took action in ensuring that it will not happen again. How efficient these actions are is another question that I have no answer for. However, today is not a day where I will talk about some people who think so lightly of disability tht they will go so far as faking one. Karma will knock on their doors someday and they will see how much they like havig a real disability. Today, I would like to share my experience in getting my PWD ID in case there is someone here who wamts to apply for one yet does not know where to start. Applying for PWD ID The application for PWD ID is fairly easy and free if you truly have a disability. Et us divide this part into three. The first one will deal with getting the requirements ready; the next part is about passing the requirements; the last part is concerned about getting the ID and booklet as well as the explanation of where both can be used. **Getting the requirements ready** This process will be a hindrance to those with a bit of conscience who want to fake their disabilities. But for some, they will just pay their way for the requirements. Anyway, the first one that you need to prepare is recent ID pictures (1x1 and 2x2). This varies per municipality so be sure to check with your city to know how many pictures they require. For my city, I had to pass 2 1x1 photos as well as 2 2x2 pictures. Next is valid ID or certificate of indigency. This is needed for proof of your identification as well as to show that you do live in the city where you are applying PWD ID. Last but the most important requirement is medical dcertificate or clinical abstract from a specialist. This will serve as the proof of your disability especially if it is one that is showing physically. For psychosocial disability, I had to get a medical certificate from my psychiatrist stating my diagnosis as well as the prescribed medication for my treatment. **Passing the requirements** The next thing you need to do is to go to the city hall and ask about where to pass the requirements for PWD ID application. In my city it is called PDAO or Persons with Disabilities Affairs Office. Once there, they would ask for the proof of disability (medical certificate/ clinical abstract), then they would ask for the other requirements. They would then give you an application form that you have to fill out. It will ask for basic information like name, address, marital status, employment status, and other things. Definitely easy enough to answer. **Getting the PWD ID and Booklet** The last thing that you have to do us to wait for the ID and the booklet. Once the ID and booklet are ready, the person in charge will explain where the PWD ID can be used and how to use the booklet as well. Basically, there is a bit of oritentation so you will have an idea what benefit can you avail as a PWD. Here is my PWD ID and my booklet. I blurred the important details for anonymity. The whole process is done in about an hour so it is fast and can be squeezed in to our busy lives. Benefits I can remember The first and most important for me is the 20% discount on medication and laboratory tests. This will definitely come in handy if I need a medication and have yet to get a free medication from NCMH. Plus I need to have some lab tests done again on August so a discount will be great. And next is 5% discount on commodities. There is a list on the booklet where the discount can be applied. Unfortunately, it can not be applied to all groceries but it can be applied to essential things so it is still great. There are other benefits but these are just the two that was mentioned to me at the mini orientation. For more information about the process of getting a PWD ID and the benefits, you may clink this link: https://governmentph.com/pwd-id-application-guidelines-requirements/ **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 11 June 2022

To see you again, after such a long time Time is a fickle thing. It goes too fast when you don't want a day to end yet it pass by too slowly when we are doing something we would rather not do. There was a time when I would even consider if the mythologies I have read have some truth to it, and the Titan of time, Chronos, is playing with us for his entertainment. However, that is such an unbelievable thought than even I have trouble comprehending how it even appeared in my mind. Anyway, I say this statement as I have noticed how fast and slow time flew by. It was fast when I am with my loved ones. A day disappears on a blink when I want to make a moment ladst longer. And time moves too slowly when I badly want to meet my loved ones again. Fortunately, the stars seem to have taken mercy upon me and granted me a wish. The wish is to see my bestfriend again, and to spend time with her even if just for an hour. The lucky event My best friend lives with a super strict parent. So she could not go out for no valid reason. Me and our other best friend tried going at their house unannounced and it was fine when we were there but it was hell for her when we leave. So we stopped being selfish. As much as the three of us want to hang out, we understand that we must not push too much. We are still at the roof of our parents, and thus our moves are limited. Yesterday, though, an opportunity provided itself for us to meet again. My best friend is selling avocados fresh from Batangas. A perfect excuse since I am actually craving avocados for a long time now. Immediately, after seeing the post I sent her a message telling her that I want to place an order for 1 kilo of avocados. At first she must have thought I was joking but in the end she realized I am serious. Unfortunately, our other best friend has a headache and could not join us. But we still did our best to look forward to our time together. Today is great We met up at around 12:50 PM. I got there after her and I gave the avocados I ordered to my father so he can take it home as I planned to spend time with my bestfriend for a while. We waited for her other customer to show up, and once he did we waited until he left. When he left, we got up and ordered some food. Oh, I forgot to mention that we met at McDonalds so it was not too hot in the place. It has been a while since me and my best friend went to McDonalds together so we were having a greta time talking. We ordered via the big tablet thingy they have. I do not know what it is called. But basically it is something where you can place your order without talking to another person, perfect for me who has a hard time talking with strangers. At first, my best friend was having a hard time deciding what to order and she was refusing my offer to treat her. But I insisted since I was the one to ask her to stay for a bit and eat. Basically, I was the one who invited her so I want to pay for her food. Thankfully, she did give in after a while. This is what we ended up ordering. She ordered a McSpaghetti and burger combo with a pineapple juice. While I ordered something new that I saw on the menu. I ordered a K-Chicken burger with a side of apple pie and a large iced tea. We ended up sharing all the foods that we ordered though haha. After eating, we went to a grocery store so she can buy some things. I wanted to buy some thins as well but I ended up jot doing it as I feel that I would have purchased more things than necessary. So I told her I would just let my parents buy the things we need for the avocado. After buying some things, we went home. The whole thing only happened for about an hour yet it did a lot to lift my mood. Closing words Next week, we might have a chance to see each other again since there might be more avocados again, according to her. I really hope that it happens. And that our other best friend could be there as well. I will just update you guys if it does happen next week. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-88f0bf5b#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 11 June 2022

More dates to come Yesterday is a fun day for me. It started out great. I slept in and woke up feelin refreshed. Then I managed to exercise for more than 45 minutes. I am also learning how to use the smart hula hoop I bought on Lazada. As I was resting after exercising, my partner messaged me. We got to talking about the usual stuff. I actually fell asleep last time without telling him so I said sorry about that. Then after a while, I told him to tell me when he finally have a free time so we can go on a date. He said he had a free time right then since his contract with his work ended. He then inquired if I am craving anything that day. I told him I want to eat the burger we ate at one of our dates. Luckily, we do not eat a lot of burgers so he knew exactly which one I am talking about- a burger from Burger King. He then said, "Tara" (Let's go). I panicked since at first since I had not yet taken a bath so we decided to meet at a later time. And he's here He got at out place at around 11AM. We waited for a bit since I was expecting a call from a psychiatrist from NCMH. As we were waiting, my mother kept insisting that we eat lunch. After a while, we agreed to eat since my mother kept bringing it up even though we were going to eat anyway at the mall. After an hour passed without a single call from the psychiatrist, I decided that we should leave and go on our date. We arrived at Megamall at around 12:30PM. It is a good thing that we had lunch at home so we were not so hungry. We walked around trying to find something to do, and we got to the cinema. We were lucky since we wanted to see Dr. Strange in the Multiverse of Madness but we could not find a matching free time for us before. We thought that it was done showing at the cinema but it is still showing. Luckily, we got there in time to buy a ticket for the 1PM slot. We bought a bucket of popcorn and two bottles of water before going inside the theatre. This is a blurry picture I took inside before the movie started. It is already dark though but I did not want to use flash. Maybe you can somehow see the popcorn at the background. After the movie was done, we were given a free popcorn. My aprtner and I laughed about it wondering why they are giving it at the end. My partner said maybe it is a marketing strategy so you will see another movie again since you now have a popcorn again haha. Of course, we know that they will not give it away before the start of the movie since the popcorn stand there will not make much sales if they are giving popcorns for free. My partner gave me his popcorn but I have yet to open it so I do not know what it tastes like. Okay, I could not resist so I ended up opening it now. And it tastes delicious. Walking aimlessly Once we were done watching, we were just walking around the mall since we were not hungry yet. Then when we got hungry we went to Burger King to eat again. This is our order at Burger King. I forgot the name of the meal but basically, there are bacon and cheese on the burger and the sides we ordered were onion ring (for my partner) and fries (for me). We also have a large iced tea. As we were eating we talked about something that made me look forward to the future. We both want to have so many dates with each other that we will get confused with the details of each date. Right now, we have gone on many dates but not too many that it is difficult to remember the details. Basically, we just want to go on dates with each other until our mind find it hard to recall the exact date when events took place. It sounds nice, doesn't it? I really look forward to more dates to come. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-88f0bf5b#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 9 June 2022

Last Month of Free Teleconsult I just finished eating my lunch yet my thoughts are still in disarray. This is due to the phone call I made earlier. The call laster just 3 minutes yet it carried an information that made me overthink. *I would just like to inform you that this will be the last month where we would have a teleconsult follow up. The next consultations will be face to face.* These are the words spoken to me by the phone operator when I called the NCMH Outpatient contact number. I managed to book a teleconsult appointment tomorrow but based on this new information, I would need to go to the NCMH for consultation next time around. Or maybe I could still get a follow up this month but in the next month, it would be face to face consultations only. Reasons why I am overthinking The first reason is travel. NCMH is a little bit away from our house. Well it is just 1 jeepney ride away but on a bad day, 1 jeepney ride is all it takes for me to have an anxiety attack. The next reason why I am overthinking is because NCMH is only open during the weekdays. It is fine to have face to face consultations there this time ariund since I am still on vacation, but what woud happen if I am already having classes? Especially if face to face classes start to make a comeback. I am hesitant to disclose my mental state to my professors in fear of the stigma surrounding it. Sure, I can tell the world I have bipolar disorder here on the internet but that is only because I am anonymous here. No one knows who I am here. So even if you carry judgement towards my condition, it will not affect me. But that is not the case when it comes to academics. Some professors might understand my condition and give some considerations but some might not be so understanding. At worse these rofessors might say something that will make my mental state spiral out of control. What should I do? I am on the fence right now on what to do. On one hand, it is tempting to ignore the problem right now. After all, it is not really a problem during vacation. It will only become a problem once I need to attend classes again. And it might not even become a problem yet since my schedule is not yet known. But supposing that I get passing grades in all my subjects, then I will be 4th year next semester. This means that I will probably have an OJT in the morning and classes in the late afternoon to evening. So I will be very busy indeed. Just thinking about it makes me feel overwhelmed. Anyway, a part of my brain is functioning a bit normally right now which led me to come up with a very loose plan of action. The first thing I have to do would be to finally apply for a PWD ID. I already have the requirements to apply. I just need to pass it at the City Hall and wait for the ID to be reeased once my documents got approved. Getting a PWD ID is crucial for me in the following months. Why? First reason is that it would give me discounts when I buy my medication. Moreover, it also entails discounts for doctor's appointments. Let us put it into this perspective. My medication would cost me P3600 per month without discount. If I have a PWD ID I could get a 20% discount which would make my P3600 medication costs down to P2880. That is a difference of P720. I just need to add a bit more to afford going to psychotherapy with that amount. This also means that a P1800 appointment will become P1440 only. It might not look like a big discount but it is already a lot for me. It is still not a very affordabe alternative though. Because this would mean I need to avail private services again over the free services just so I could have my consultations on a weekend instead of weekdays. I am not yet sure how to proceed yet but I will just take it easy for now. Closing words As you can see, my mind is a bit of a mess right now. I was told that writing down my thoughts is a good way of coping when I am starting to overthink so that is basically what I am doing here. Anyway, it seems that I am going to face some difficulties in my treatment plan in the next few months. Hopefully, I can think of a way to maximize the free services without sacrificing too much money. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-88f0bf5b#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 8 June 2022

Getting back into arts again For the last few months, I was so caught up with many responsibilities that I had forgotten to allot some time for arts. Well, crochet can be considered part of arts and crafts, and writing is also a form of art but what I am specifically referring here is painting and drawing. For those who could remember, I was active before in posting my artworks throughout the week. Some of the artworks I posted are full of complex details, almost mimicking realism. And then my favorite are the vector arts which are easy for me to do yet looked so cute. Yesterday, I felt my fingers itch. It is a feeling I am familiar with but I had not felt for a long time. It was the itch to create something. I let the muse possess me When the muse sings a song I had not heard for months, my whole being just agreed to be possessed by my creative muse. And with it, my initial preparation is complete. Now that I am prepped to be creative again, I need to prepare my materials. Drawing tablet or phone? This is the first decision I had to make. Using my drawing tabet would ensure a good quality artwork. Moreover, it will give me an easier time to do art. The downside to this is that it takes a bit of time to set up. And I am so lazy to get my laptop out just so I could use the tablet. Phone is a bit tricky to use for doing artworks. The main problem is the small screen. But it is baalnced out by the portability of the phone. In the end I decided to use my phone and fingers as my main instruments for drawing. I also decided to use IbisPaint X as my canvas. Avril Lavigne's Love Sux I wanted to recreate the album cover since it came out but I was in an art block era then so I was not able to do that. But it does not matter now since I managed to create this messy artwork. I think my messy line art in this piece shows how much time passed since I last painted anything. It also shows how ugly my concentration is as I work on this artwork but that is not super important. Anyway, this piece is a simple one to make so I believe it took me about 30 minutes to finish this. I might go back again to this artwork and try to make a cleaner line art but honestly, I am already quite happy with the outcome. Lonely beach The next one shows how much my art skills faded in the months I did not aint anything. As you can see here in my practice of painting seascapes, I need to work on the depth and point of view of my drawings again. But I still feel prpud of this artwork because I think it captures the essence of the beach we visited at Calatagan. This artwork took me about 45 minutes to make just because I fotrgot how to create cute skies until I finally devided to give up (for now). Jisoo in your area This one is my favorite out of all the artworks I made so far this month. I really enjoyed drawing Jisoo again and she looks so magnificent. This artwork took me about an hour to make. Mostly because I wanted to capture how beautiful her dress was. Closing words As I was writing this article, I realized that I could connect my drawing table to a phone so I might do that next time. I also remembered that I can use some layer options to make my drawings look better. So I will do that next time (if I remember it). **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-88f0bf5b#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 7 June 2022

Reopening my small crochet shop slowly + BCH Last year, I started learning how to crochet. After a few months, I was already earning money from it by selling the items I made to those close to me. Due to school, I decided to close my shop for a while because I had no time for it before. I would have needed to ignore my academic tasks to continue pursuing a business in selling crochet items. That decision is an easy one to make since I did not need that much money before. But now it is the opposite. I need to establish more streams of income for the treatment of my disorder. Sky Yarns The first step to reopening my shop started when I changed my DP to this Pride month equivalent. A few days later, I made my first post in a while announcing that I am now accepting orders for my headset covers. Unfortunately, I cannot attach all pictures because the files are too big according to read.cash. Here is a sample of the two-toned headset covers that I am selling. I already made a lot of articles about this so some of you might be familiar with this item already. Let me still attach the link here in case anyone is interested in buying these headset covers. https://shopee.ph/product/368244096/18409204911?smtt=0.368263673-1654594476.9 Next thing I posted is these sunflower hair ties I made back in February. I amde this as a present to my loved ones during Valentine's day. If you are interested in buying this product then you may click this link. https://shopee.ph/product/368244096/21209162500?smtt=0.368263673-1654594902.9 The last things I managed to publish in my online shop today are these rainbow donut keychains I have. These are cute and definitely make a bag looks livelier and brighter. I would know since I have one on my bag. You can check it out here. https://shopee.ph/product/368244096/18209165047?smtt=0.368263673-1654595012.9 Will I accept BCH as payment? I am actually planning on it. But we have to transact outside of Shopee since there is no BCH payment method there. If you will pay using BCH, you can use it to pay for the item itself then I will give a voucher on Shopee for easier checkout. Of course, you will still need to pay for the delivery fee using your own fiat. Take it slow though I will just take it slowly though. Since I am not yet that familiar with selling on Shopee. After all, the orders I have completed in the past were done on the basis of word of mouth so it is easy to deliver the parcels because there is a middle man. Now though, I am not yet sure. I have only used Shopee twice before closing my shop. Hopefully, I will have a better luck this time around. Closing words I am opening my shop again to help with my treatment plan. I do not want to touch my BCH yet so any fiat I could earn is heaven sent already for me. If you would like to show your support, I would appreciate it if you could visit my pages in Facebook, and Instagram. https://www.facebook.com/zehrasky.yarns https://www.instagram.com/zehrasky.yarns I am still trying to figure out how to sell things online. First of all, I am not active on social media. So obviously, I will miss some messages inquiring about my products. Next is that I do not have social media presence. What I mean is that I do not have a lot of followers nor do I post a lot on my personal account. Moreover, I also do not have a vast social network who can help me by spreading the word about my business. I am basically starting at a bad stating point to be a seller but I will still try my luck here. After all, I would regret it if I did not try because my position seemed hopeless. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-88f0bf5b#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

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@ZehraSky 6 June 2022

A little bit of color back to my life Today started as one of my lowest days. The words and actions of my family towards me made me feel as if it was better to not exist at all. I understand their frustration. Even I am frustrated with my mood. I do not exactly like who I am right now. However, it still does not change the fact that their attitude towards me made me feel so unwanted. As if my entire existence is a waste of space. I wallowed in self-hatred for a feq hours before I impulsively invited two of my best friends to go out with me. One was unable to go due to conflicting schedule but the other one managed to accept my invitation. Let us call her Mo. Mo is an outgoing person, she is usually the one who will go out when asked. Anyway, I decided tp take the risk and ask them out and I am glad it paid out. After a few minutes of talking, we were able to come up with some agenda that we want to do for today. It was great because my original plan was to mope and cry all day. Good thing that there is a surprise twist for me. You never truly know If I had just decided to be miserable on my own, I would have never realized that there is something else I could do. However, because I decided to reach out to friends, my day became much brighter and better. I was able to be with a loved one and do fun things. Today is enjoyable After we decided where to go, I started to look at my clothes to see what I should wear. At first I wanted to go for the classic jeans and tees but I decided it was too hot for jeans. Then my eyes caught the rainbow bandana I made earlier this month. And I decided then that I want to wear it. So I picked a light colored dress. It was a dress where you just have to wrap the straps for it to fit you well. Here is my oufit for today. I am a bit embarassed to share this picture but I wanted to at least share how the banda looked on me. Ignore the white dot near my forehead, it is a stain on the mirror itself that I did not notice when taking the picture. I really enjoyed how simple and cute the outfit looked. Hopefully, I managed to carry the outfit. To the outside It has been awhile since I last went out. Well not that long actually since I walked last Saturday. But that is beside the point. First thing we did was we met at a nearby McDonald's close to the tricycle lane we could take to go to the mall. Once we got to the mall, we looked for Taco Bell. Thanks to my partner, I learned to use my phone in times of need. Like today when we could not remember where Taco Bell is located. A quick google search helped us locate it quickly. It saved us a lot of time. At Taco Bell, we ordered our food. I ordered beef burrito for mine whiel my friend ordered nachos. After we finished eating, my friend said that she wants more. She seemed to contemplate then decided against it since she wants to buy some clothes. So I told her that I will pay for the nachos if she wants. At first she was denying the offer but she eventually gave into her cravings and oredered another nachos. Then we went to Unisilver. Mo said that her cousin asked her to bring two rings to be cleaned at the jewelry shop for free. So we stopped there for that. Once we finished that, we went to Fully Booked to look at the books there. We did not buy any since the books are expensive. Then came the exciting part. We eft the mall to go to the ukay-ukay. I think it is called thrift stores in english. Basically, it is a place for second hand clothings and other accessories for a cheaper price. If you are lucky you might come across a branded clothing for only $1-$3. It is a bargain especially for students like us. I know that some people are not a fan of thrift stores. I do not actually go there as usual anymore but it is still nice once in a while. My best friend managed to find some pants, and some polos as well. I think she spent close to $10. As for me, I did not want to buy anything but since we were already there, I decided to look through the options. In the end I bought three long sleeves shirt (2 round necks while the other 1 was a turtle neck) for only $2. It is definitely a good purchase for me. Although I could say that it was not a wise one since I already had a stack of new clothes on my drawer and I bought more. And it mught not be my last thrift stop since I told my bestfriend to tell me if she wants to go to ukay-ukay again so I can accompany her. Maybe next time I will look into the skirts there. They seem to have a good collection of pants and skirts as well. Saying goodbye Sadly, the day needs to end earlier than usual. After all, I take my medication at 6:30 PM so I had to go home early. My bestfriend waited for me to ride a jeepney before going home. When I reached my stop, I decidedto buy some dry dog food for Moshi. After all, she was just eating rice with wet food since her dry food already ran out and my older sister did not want to buy her more. I bought her dry food worth P125 (~$2.50). And I finally went home. I ate my dinner then drank my meds and here I am writing an article for today. Closing words I had a lot of fun today and it made me think of a brighter future ahead instead of feeling so blue. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-88f0bf5b#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 5 June 2022

Words like Knives Maybe I am too emotional. This is what I tell myself as I was crying from careless words spoken by my younger sister. Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder which makes it hard to regulate my emotions. I swing from one extreme to another. But my diagnosis is mostly composed of depressive episodes as compared to manic episodes. I knew even before my diagnosis that I need to handle my anger better. Honestly, I included reading up on nager management in my New Year's resolution. After my diagnosis, I knew that my manic episodes are full of anxiety, anger, and irritation more than any sort of painful euphoria. What I am not saying Sharing this is not supposed to be some sort of excuse. I never plan to use my condition as an excuse to intentionally be a mean person. I am just sharing that for a rational human, also known as the "normal person" or a person with no mental disorder, it is natural to think logically of certain actions. You would know it is wrong to react at a drop of hat so you would be able to hold your emotions. For me, my anger would burst out of me before I could even feel it coming and then my mouth is moving before I even understand what is happening. Following outbursts like mine are usually followed by an insane amount of guilt and self-hatred. The context When I stopped taking my medication starting May 12, my mood is in chaos. I try my best to control myself but I know it is not nearly enough. I can not share how tiring it is to do my best and still hear my sisters tell me to get my act together. I want to tell them I am trying but I do not want a full blown fight to occur so I just keep rolling my eyes at them. During our vacation last May 20-23, I was irritated with almost everything. I know how bad it is and I can see that they do not understand. They think I am just being a party pooper for no reason at all. Feeling this made it more difficult to enjoy our vacation. It sucks because I was really looking forward for it and I could not help but feel that it is my fault that we did not enjoy the vacation as much as we could have had. Today pushed me off the edge As much as I was dangling with the edge of the chasm of my mental health, I was still able to mostly move out of it even when unmedicated. But I started taking medication again this June 3. This comes with the side effects again which brings me in a not so good mood. I try my best to mostly sleep to past the time but of course I still want to communicate with my family. Today, my mood was all over the place. It was so bad that it prompted my sister to tell me that *whenever I am in a place, I just put everyone in a bad mood.* These simple words made me choke back tears. I immediately gathered my things and left the room because it was too much. I was mistaken I thought that by being open they would give me time to be myself as I try to get better. But it seems as if my family is the very triggers that I have to avoid for my mood to stabilize. As much as I understand where my younger sister was coming from, it was still a slap to my face to be indirectly told that I am not wanted there. I was already having the urges to yeet myself out of this reality and those words just pushed me off the edge. I feel scared of what I am thinkin right now but I am tired already. Why keep fighting when even legitimate blood relatives basically told me that I ruin the mood when I am around? I can not be bothered to think of any reason to fight anymore. To fight a battle alone is already hard enough, but to figure out that the support system that I thought I could count on just view me as a burden is beyond difficult. Closing words I am not sure how I am going to get over this. I tried rationalizing the situation but it just made me angrier. I know better than to think that a mentall illness is an excuse fo bad behaviour. But I was not even trying to ruin the mood, I was just interacting with them as my mood disorder is affecting me. There was absolutely no need to make me feel as if my very existence is a nuisance they would rather not deal with. *Sorry for this article, I just do not have a lot of friends to talk to so I just turn to writing.* **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7

@ZehraSky 4 June 2022

It is tiring but necessary When I was suspecting the presence of mental illness in me, I knew deep inside that getting diagnosed would open more expenses than I was ready for. And it did happen. From consultations, to therapy, to lab tests, to medication, the money I worked so hard to save was gone in an instant. Oh how I wish that I could make money out of thin air. I would never need to worry about anything ever again. But that is beside the point. The point is Today I met up with a psychiatrist after a month of not seeing her. As expected, I would be reminded to continue takin my medication again and to do my best to not stop. Because of my impulsive decision to stop, I would have to meet with my psychiatrist, regularly again. Regularly means every 2 weeks to monitor my symptoms and how it is affected by Quetiapine. This means that I would have to spend P1800 every two weeks. Aside from the therapy which aso costs P1800 every two weeks as well. I do not know what to do The truth is I had been planning to just make the most out of the free services available to me and taper off from the expensive ones. But I am feeling a bit lost now. The psychiatrist will start giving me worksheet to work on as we go along our treatment plan. This is the main reason why I feel like I have to go back again. It feels as though I am between tight spots right now. I either need to let go of therapy or psychiatric consultation. Well, of course it is not just those two choices available to me but it feels that way right now. The truth is that I feel like I am not getting my money's worth anymore. I paid P1800 for a 45 minutes session but the session was only about 30 minutes long. It kinda feel as if those unused time should be refunded to me haha. I am just a student so P1800 is a huge expense for me. If I would use that for online shopping, I would have a lot of new yarns. As of now, my money could only afford one more session. The cash I have on hand is not counted since I pay via GCash. I also have no plans of touching the remaining BCH I have. I am going to be holding my dear BCH for now. So what will I do now? First of all, I would like to take it a step at a time only. I requested a medical certificate to apply for a PWD ID. Hopefully, the application will go smoothly. Why am I applying for one? Well, I have a feeling that it will help me out in the future and I am not one to ignore my gut feelings anymore. Plus, that is a tangible proof of my diagnosis. You know that some people will not take your word for it, they will try to discredit you and aay thatwhat you are feeling is normal, even though it is debilitating to you. I just basically want something that I can hold on to when I feel doubts about whether or not I am just overreacting. After that, I will have to attend a psychotherapy with a new psychologist. Hopefully, I will have an enjoyable session but if not, then I think I will let go of psychotherapy for now. I will be making an article about psychotherapy soon if there is anyone interested in getting one but not yet sure if it will be fit for them. Then, I would need to get a new prescription from NCMH again to get free medications from Malasakit Center. Basically, I just plan to focus on baby steps for now. There is no use worrying about money right now since aside from BCH, I have no other sources of income unless some coworkers of my sisters will commission me for tons of crochet items. Closing words I have taken my medication for tonight so my mind is starting to shutdown so I can sleep. Forgive any mistakes on my article. **Thank you for reading this article!** If you want to read some more articles of mine, I have monthly summaries here: **May 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/free-mental-health-consultation-and-medication-770bb8fb#bad-link **April 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/april-2022-articles-summary-42ae9c6e **March 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/march-2022-articles-summary-f8534b65 **February 2022 Article Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/february-2022-article-summary-1ac4a2d8 **January 2022 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/january-2022-articles-summary-158cfc1f **December 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/december-2021-articles-summary-900cb111 ****November 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/november-2021-articles-summary-2c68b6ca **October 2021 Articles Summary** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/october-2021-articles-summary-1293a999 ****September 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/september-2021-articles-summary-7febda16 ****August 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/august-2021-articles-summary-cb068f97 ****July 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/july-2021-articles-summary-fc106569 ****June 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/june-2021-articles-summary-baeb334f ****May 2021 Articles Summary**** https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/may-2021-articles-summary-5ba6d0c7