A little bit of color back to my life

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ZehraSky

Poet lost in the void

2 years ago

In community: Just Write(e5e5)

Topics: Personal Blog, Healing, Reflection, Realizations

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Today started as one of my lowest days. The words and actions of my family towards me made me feel as if it was better to not exist at all.

I understand their frustration. Even I am frustrated with my mood. I do not exactly like who I am right now.

However, it still does not change the fact that their attitude towards me made me feel so unwanted. As if my entire existence is a waste of space.

I wallowed in self-hatred for a feq hours before I impulsively invited two of my best friends to go out with me.

One was unable to go due to conflicting schedule but the other one managed to accept my invitation. Let us call her Mo. Mo is an outgoing person, she is usually the one who will go out when asked.

Anyway, I decided tp take the risk and ask them out and I am glad it paid out. After a few minutes of talking, we were able to come up with some agenda that we want to do for today.

It was great because my original plan was to mope and cry all day. Good thing that there is a surprise twist for me.

You never truly know

If I had just decided to be miserable on my own, I would have never realized that there is something else I could do.

However, because I decided to reach out to friends, my day became much brighter and better. I was able to be with a loved one and do fun things.

Today is enjoyable

After we decided where to go, I started to look at my clothes to see what I should wear. At first I wanted to go for the classic jeans and tees but I decided it was too hot for jeans.

Then my eyes caught the rainbow bandana I made earlier this month. And I decided then that I want to wear it.

So I picked a light colored dress. It was a dress where you just have to wrap the straps for it to fit you well.

Here is my oufit for today. I am a bit embarassed to share this picture but I wanted to at least share how the banda looked on me.

Ignore the white dot near my forehead, it is a stain on the mirror itself that I did not notice when taking the picture.

I really enjoyed how simple and cute the outfit looked. Hopefully, I managed to carry the outfit.

To the outside

It has been awhile since I last went out. Well not that long actually since I walked last Saturday. But that is beside the point.

First thing we did was we met at a nearby McDonald's close to the tricycle lane we could take to go to the mall. Once we got to the mall, we looked for Taco Bell.

Thanks to my partner, I learned to use my phone in times of need. Like today when we could not remember where Taco Bell is located. A quick google search helped us locate it quickly. It saved us a lot of time.

At Taco Bell, we ordered our food. I ordered beef burrito for mine whiel my friend ordered nachos. After we finished eating, my friend said that she wants more.

She seemed to contemplate then decided against it since she wants to buy some clothes. So I told her that I will pay for the nachos if she wants.

At first she was denying the offer but she eventually gave into her cravings and oredered another nachos.

Then we went to Unisilver. Mo said that her cousin asked her to bring two rings to be cleaned at the jewelry shop for free. So we stopped there for that.

Once we finished that, we went to Fully Booked to look at the books there. We did not buy any since the books are expensive.

Then came the exciting part.

We eft the mall to go to the ukay-ukay. I think it is called thrift stores in english. Basically, it is a place for second hand clothings and other accessories for a cheaper price.

If you are lucky you might come across a branded clothing for only $1-$3. It is a bargain especially for students like us.

I know that some people are not a fan of thrift stores. I do not actually go there as usual anymore but it is still nice once in a while.

My best friend managed to find some pants, and some polos as well. I think she spent close to $10.

As for me, I did not want to buy anything but since we were already there, I decided to look through the options. In the end I bought three long sleeves shirt (2 round necks while the other 1 was a turtle neck) for only $2. It is definitely a good purchase for me.

Although I could say that it was not a wise one since I already had a stack of new clothes on my drawer and I bought more. And it mught not be my last thrift stop since I told my bestfriend to tell me if she wants to go to ukay-ukay again so I can accompany her.

Maybe next time I will look into the skirts there. They seem to have a good collection of pants and skirts as well.

Saying goodbye

Sadly, the day needs to end earlier than usual. After all, I take my medication at 6:30 PM so I had to go home early.

My bestfriend waited for me to ride a jeepney before going home. When I reached my stop, I decidedto buy some dry dog food for Moshi. After all, she was just eating rice with wet food since her dry food already ran out and my older sister did not want to buy her more.

I bought her dry food worth P125 (~$2.50). And I finally went home. I ate my dinner then drank my meds and here I am writing an article for today.