Time to Recover
Date: August 01, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
July was not so good for me co'z that month was full of ups and downs and being demotivated drove me out to make me more distant and I totally lost my courage to write and to engage with others. If I publish, I immediately log out. That was my routine last month and I feel sick of it. Gosh, I miss the old me where I am so excited to open read.cash and Everyday I spend so much time roam around and explore more and engage more but then I was totally missing. Last month, it was my longest time being inactive throughout my existence and since I joined the read.cash. Probably, it is also my lowest publish so far and lowest income though Rusty seems aloof to everybody as I've noticed unlike before more than $20 income within 24 hours in the top section. I know everything will be back to normal soon like the Bitcoin.cash that shows slow progress which is a sign of hope.
I didn't notice that last month, I celebrated my 11th months old at this platform which means that time flies so fast co'z it everything seems like yesterday where I was so eager to find an earning application from various platform until someone open up this read cash topic and my eyes went to "$" hearing how big I could earning if only I work hard and earned from it but I didn't take advantage co'z everything was the result of my hard work. Honestly, writing 600 days and more everyday is not easy as there are times we have writer's block which is pretty normal. That is why prompts and question generators save us a lot, especially on tiring days where our brain can't explore and elaborate more.
I think one of the reasons why I am demotivated is that I didn't have a monthly goal unlike the previous months where I set goals. Everyday I always keep those goals to achieve and I work hard to achieve it by making it possible which I wanted to re-do this month to help me out to become productive again.
`Without further ado, lemme start…😊`
**Per day article**
This is one of the things I missed out on last month that is why this is also my number one goal this August. Setting this goal is not new to me yet this is a big challenge for me to be back to daily articles. Hopefully, I can achieve this goal co'z I have achieved it before. Also, having a per day article has a great chance to have a big earning through Rusty is quite aloof since last month.
**Renewal of Sponsorship**
I need to accumulate my earnings to renew all my sponsorships. Though I still have a small amount left, I cannot assure that it will cover it all from renewing and upvoting. I will make sure to save more to renew just wait a bit of time before I could make it.
**Sponsoring 5 to 10 User**
Aside from renewing, I also plan to support new users as a sign of support and it is my way to give back something even in small amounts.
**Save $1 per day for the surprise in my read.cash anniversary**
This month will be my anniversary in read.cash and I plan to have something surprising that everybody can join but I can't win a big prize and you already know why, especially how the market works. Hopefully, I can earn $1 per day.
**Read more than 10 articles per day**
Gosh, sandamakmak na yung tambak sa notification ko kaya I badly need to clean them up slowly.
`How about you, do you set goals for this month?`
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Select a Jar: I have five
I believe everyone is unique in our own way. Our parents have been the one first to appreciate our beauty since we were a kid. Time goes by, the more we know about society it also weakens some insecurities of body features as it has a standard of beauty. There is nothing wrong in appreciating but what's wrong is when we look down on ourselves just because some look better than us or more prettier than us but honestly we are all beautiful no matter what skin color and body sizes.
Personally, I was swollen with insecurities years ago desperately pushing myself to the limit just to fit in but later on I realize I forget who I am because of aiming for something that I will not be. Self destruction is what I get. Until today I still have insecurities but as much as possible I embrace myself more and ready myself of any kind of discrimination might be. These are the jar of insecurities I am dealing with because of society's beauty standards.
**Nose**
My nose is not pointed, rather it is laying down the road, lol. In Bisaya we have this made up story " during pregnancy my mother craves coconut and my father gets coconut and accidentally gets the branches which make my nose like this" but it is not true of course. I'm really insecure with my nose because if I wear shades it will just slide down hahaha but now I love my nose very much co'z I find it cute.
**Belly and Body**
Since the pandemic outbreak, I have really gained more weight because most of my shirts, pants and shorts cannot fit anymore and even my all dress. My face becomes round together with my belly. Bilbil is real na talaga especially when I sleep side view it really touches my bed. My thighs got bigger than before, which I really wanted to lose. In spite of my chubbiness and insecurities every time I see someone with a petite figure there is someone who is there to remind me that I don't compare myself as he loves my fats above all, lol.
**Sideview (Face)**
Inside view. It is totally plain, as you cannot see a pointed nose like others, which I hate taking pictures of. If I do, I really try to find an angle where I look beautiful.
**Hair**
Before my hair was straight, I did have curly hair but frizzy, dry and dead hair that I hide it everyday in hair style co'z I push myself to learn styling to make it beautiful and presentable as I always do the braid in all kinds. If I ignore it, talagang lilipad ako sa sobrang buhaghag and the strands of my hair become thicker and more dry. It was a graduation gift from Mama during senior high school to straighten my hair as I really wanted it.
**Skin**
I'm a morena but society wants the white skin color which a lot of people use in different ways just to achieve the white color. I wanted to be white co'z my perspective being white can wear any type of clothes are all suitable but I changed my mind and wanted to stay to be morena.
Thanks a lot❤
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Hello, five interview
Date: July 29, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
I didn't think that reality looks like this as it really makes me want to go back to the four corners of the classroom. I thought it might be easy but it hit me so hard that I came to the point to surrender and give up. Before, I was so excited to face life and graduate and I even dream to wear black toga as I see it has more opportunity coming to the way but I was wrong co'z being a graduate means a advantage having theoretical knowledge yet employers seek applicants with experience which I'm lacking.
It's been a month since I started hunting for a job, hoping to be hired by a certain company. I've been to job fairs, online job hiring and walk in applicants to the point I lost count and I can't remember which and where I send my resume because every time I see someone hiring I immediately send my resume. I never complain about it yet I find it funny as it is part of my journey and process. I almost peed, where I got a text message for the initial interview and final interview. I don't remember how my resume reached them but I took my chance and went where I got positive feedback for the head department. I waited a week like what she said before I got a call for a follow up interview. What shocks me, is when I got another text saying "for another initial interview" from the agency which I ignore because I fint it a hassle this time co'z this will be the fourth interview and soon to be the fifth interview for that certain position. Honestly, I'm very thankful for the opportunity they gave me but sadly I refuse because of their miscommunication between the company and agency.
First interview from their agency representative last July 20, 2022 at the main office of the hiring company. I waited for 2 hours until my turn to be initially interview and thankful I passed and proceed to final interview which is the head of the company (not the agency employee) that I almost peed due to nervousness and after demonstration examination, for the second time around I passed and hired. Unfortunately, she can't directly hire me because they need to communicate with the agency and expect a call from them (agency) for requirements and all. 26th of July when I got a called from human resource development agency for follow up interview and finish slowly the third interview through call. https://read.cash/@JustMaryel/i-almost-pee-18240d79#comments
Yesterday, another text I received invited me for "initial interview" and after will be final interview like how many interviews should I pass co'z it really hassle and waste money if in the end they will not hire me. Also, it might be a waste of money co'z the location is far from my home and the city town estimated it would cost $5 to $6 excluding the food. Again, the text is from the agency.
I may sound ungrateful but I am grateful to them because they give me time as a first timer and without experience. Unfortunately, I sounded like that because of too many interviews from the agency. Maybe pag interview lang ako hindi pangwork hahaha. I intentionally lost the opportunity because of miscommunication in the department. Also, maybe that is the sign that the job is not for me which I accept. Despite all of that, they gave me a takeaway regarding the interview that I can use for the next interview.
Thanks a lot😘❤
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Funeral Beliefs
Date: July 25, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
**A blessed Monday read.cash citizen❤** I was not able to write here yesterday because I decided to make every Sunday a rest day in writing but that doesn't mean I'm totally inactive yet I was roaming around and clearing tons of unread notifications to make my Sunday productive. It's been a few days since our neighbor died and my family wants to send our sympathy and offer our time in vigil. We just went home at dawn as we felt the coldness due to raindrops.
Here in the province, every vigil there is a different kind of gambling either it is a game card or head and tail which people wanted to go and do the vigil. Though some people think it is illegal, it is one way to make people stay awake all the time and every game they will give tips which can help to give snacks for the entire nine nights. Before, I thought everything was free but later on I realized how expensive burial is.
In this kind of moment, we have some kind of beliefs that our parents inherit from our ancestors that until this present some Filipino apply and still believe in them.
**Never ever bring any time of foods from funeral**
As a kid who loves to eat like me, every time they offer a snack I always get more for me to eat longer. I even love to keep it, especially when it tastes so good. My parents always check my clothes and hands before we leave as they believe it can be a reason the spirit may follow.
**Never ever take a bath and brush your hair in the vigil house and never ever find lice**
I know this one when during my father funeral as my auntie informing me about it and I can't do any objection. When I take a bath it should be far from the house and I should get back when I am fully done. I don't know the meaning behind it.
**Never wear red clothes**
Wearing red means "you are happy for his/her death" which I don't think so. Mama always looks at my clothes before leaving the house because I don't even care what I wear and if I wear red she will stop me from wearing it even though I didn't mean anything.
**Never ever leave the coffin alone and Never ever let any black animal near the coffin**
Every funeral there should be someone who looks at the coffin and be the watcher as they believe black animals might be a bad spirit or bad spirit that can make the dead stand up. Also. They believe it will take the dead and replace some illusion that is why it is important not to leave the coffin.
We need to step the ash in front of the door before entering the house
This is what we usually do when we are at a funeral. We need to step ash, which means "pagpag" leaving everything and believe it is the only one the dead spirit will not come into our house. Some usually go to another place just before going home to make sure no spirit follows.
Change our clothes before sleeping
Sleeping in the same clothes from the funeral is not my thing because when I don't change I feel like someone is with me or watching me which makes me feel unsafe and somehow afraid.
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I almost Pee
Date: July 22, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
Yesterday was an exhausting and tiring day for me that made me sick at the end of the day, which is the reason why I am not active and publish a daily article. Though, my mind wanted but my body and eyes wanted to shut down and take an early rest co'z my health badly needed it. Am I the only one who suffers breakdowns in the middle of the night because of anxiety attacks and cramble thoughts coming from small voices. I thought I already overcame it because it's been a year when I was suffering from depression . I almost took my own life to end the suffering but now it comes back again out of nowhere. Maybe because of how unstable my emotions are together with the pressure of life after I graduate. As people view, a graduated student can easily find a job with a high salary, a job which is suited to what degree you hold and especially people thought degree holders work by just holding a pen. People's opinions give stress and awaken anxiety that they don't know.
Anyways, yesterday's errands were nerve wracking as I woke up as early as possible around 6 o'clock because I needed to go somewhere. My body is not used to waking up early since the pandemic and online classes happen co'z usually I woke up around 8:00 am except during Sunday because the service starts at 7 o'clock. Last July 20, 2022 I received a text message saying " I was invited for an initial interview for a certain company" which I didn't expect. Honestly, I started to wonder where they got my resume as I didn't went to any agency when I was job hunting. I told myself, take the chance and maybe this is the work of me since it comes from nowhere. Receiving the text makes my night sleepless co'z I always think about what might happen during the initial interview and in the back of my head I start to answer possible questions that the interviewer will ask.
8 o'clock is my interview time but before 8 I am already in the company premises, you know impress hahaha. Early bird catches the worm, I believe in that. Being early has an impact to them as they believe "this applicant is punctual", am I right? I waited for almost 2 hours before my turn. Gosh, sitting in front of the door wants me to run and peed like anytime I'm about to collapse with mixed emotions rushing through. Moment of truth, my heart skipped so fast and everything I prepared was totally missing. She started throwing questions and I panic co'z I'm in a mental block. After the interview, I was shocked when she told me to do an actual demonstration which I am not prepared for. Entire interview, I feel overwhelmed as she really appreciates my honesty and accepts some of my fears regarding the position they are hiring for. In the end, I received a positive response when she said " if only she could hire directly, she will but then she needed to collaborate with the agency before anything else".
In spite of that, I'm still unsure about accepting the job co'z accepting it means I will be assigned to another place which is far from my hometown and very new to me. I can't help to worry though it is part of reality but I am not yet prepared for this kind of reality though. But, I still have time to think about it.
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I won two jackpot prizes
Date: July 20, 2022
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I don't know where to start as I am floating in happiness co'z I never thought it would happen and once it crossed into my life unexpectedly. My body is literally shaking because of excitement and over joy that I can't hide it anymore. I am one of the lucky winners by winning the $250,000. It was a pretty good money, and it makes my dream come true having my first million.
Honestly, I just received this one last July 14, 2021 and I know it's too late but I can't help but share it with you guys. It's better to be late than never. Anyway, it was afternoon when I received a text telling me that " I won $250,000" with a reference number and email address below which I just blurred it out to cover. $250,000 is equivalent to 12,500,000 in our currency which makes me an instant millionaire in just one snap without doing anything. Yeap, it was a click bait but let me enjoy the sensation of having that amount though it was not true and obviously a scam message. Imagine winning that huge amount of money will literally make me collapse. Thinking about money, there are a lot of things running through my head about what to buy, where to invest and how long it will last.
First, I will secure an investment and buy shares and stock in a big company as it has an assurance of return. My target will be the real estate and food industry with a budget of 500,000.
Second, buy properties and land in the city area for me to build small houses for rental which is a good business and my sort of dream business.
Third, buy land and build a house for my family to secure their comfortness in living as well as with my siblings near our compound
Fourth, secure a trust fund for my nieces and nephew education fund, especially for college, for them to have the freedom to choose whatever course they wanted without thinking about expenses. Personally, due to finances I chose a course which is less expensive.
Lastly, 10% for the Lord and the rest will be saved for future events.
Again, yesterday was another day to be bait again by the fake coins.ph account saying "congratulations for being a lucky winner of 2.5 ETH ( 197,953, 44 pesos) and 2,000 XRP" which makes me more money by winning. Gosh, I wish everything is true but I know it was a scam and bait a huge amount that I can't get after all. This is the third attempt they made for me but they just get nothing. At first attempt, I took the bait and clicked the link and thankfully I messed around my coins.ph password once which made me come back to senses and hurriedly exit. Afterwards, I received multiple messages saying someone was trying to sneak into my account by sending tons of codes. I learned my lesson that not all the congratulations are true but some are clicking bait just to snatch our account and privacy. We all know scammers are roaming around waiting for their prey to take the bait. Vividly, it was months ago when some anonymous bothered some users in the comment section just to get attention and click the given links but we were all smart enough not to take those traps.
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Date: July 19, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
While roaming around I noticed how Rusty works each article as some gets higher and some gets lower than the usual but what's important is Rusty still with us. Honestly, knowing how it works makes me think that it will take days before I will catch his attention again which I deserve for being inactive for weeks and unexpectedly when I visited the red bell I saw a notification from him which makes my day complete as it indicates he is still with me and us. Hopefully, everything will be back to normal especially the Bitcoin.cash but for now let us keep hodling on until it fly into the skies.
A busy day for but thanks to my kabit @Probinsyana for her article "truth or dare" for saving my Monday article. I'm busy with some errands and still hunting for a job while waiting for my school documents needed for applying. Earlier, I was invited to take an examination but it was canceled co'z they need my TOR, which is still in process. I know there is one job waiting for me. https://read.cash/@Probinsyana/truth-or-dare-9b838015
`Without further ado, lemme start…`
**When scrolling through social media, do you prefer posts from celebrities or from your best friends?**
Both but it depends what kind of post it is. I hate seeing posts about negativity and conflicts like I don't want to be Marites. If it is a celebrity and I am an avid fan of that celebrity I don't mind my walls for posts about him/her but above all I really wanted my wall flooded with positivity. At this moment, my wall is full of posts about graduation which I love to know and read how they survived.
**Is there an app you hate but use anyways?**
No other than Facebook because of how toxic some are that they don't mind and they don't think about what they are doing as long as they gain views or reaction though their dignity is involved. What I keep visiting this application is watching random videos where I can learn something. I love to watch DIY (Do it Yourself) design, cooking, baking and especially mukbang that really awakes my monster.
**If you could only speak one word today, what would you say?**
Positive not in Covid virus but positive mindset, positive thoughts. positive approach and all positivity that will help us to keep moving where we are. As our surroundings are full of negativity, especially social media aside with pressure in life that we can't avoid to think negative. In spite of everything, let us keep being positive to make growth.
**What is the stupidest thing you’ve done because someone dared you to do?**
Approaching someone whom I don't know and saying " I like you" in front of many people is so embarrassing. Gosh, lupa bumukas ka at kainin mo ako sa sobrang hiya and worst it was daytime. Next, I don't want further details.
**What is the stupidest thing you’ve done on your free will?**
Singing a song confidently and loudly but the lyrics are wrong as I don't memorize the lyrics and made my own version hahahaha.
**If you could lock up one person in a mental institution, who would it be?**
I volunteer. I need to be in a mental institution as I'm crazy over him.
**What part of the human face is your favorite?**
I love the eyes, I believe the eye is next to our souls and it will never lie to us no matter how well hidden we are. Fortunately, I fell into his eyes not because it was beautiful but because it tells me the story of his
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Here I am read.cash
Date: July 18, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
It's been awhile since I am not with you anymore. For the long time I've used to be with you, you were my listener, stress reliever, joy, comforter and all that I never thought I could have the courage to leave you behind my back. They thought it was a very impulsive decision and I thought so but I told myself I need to breathe, I need to find myself to be self reliant, with motivation and inspiration that I don't need others to do it for. I'm so sick of finding motivation which I can do for myself alone. All I need to do is to find myself and bring it back to my senses.
First, it was painful to just leave and consider my other behalf. I always look back and want to come back but bravely say " I need to breathe" and think of things which are more important. One, two and three the high urge to return into your arms where safety is all I could feel. No fears, no doubts, no anxiety as everything is joy but I came to the point of tiredness due to multiple demotivation that I could function as I used to. In three days, I decided to return but I still enjoy where I am now which gives me more days to cope and deal with it.
Second, the moment I turn my back is the moment I also lost what I've worked hard for, just to build the foundation strongly yet I failed because I chose what seems impulsive that I might regret. I regret that for almost 4 weeks, I let my laziness and tiredness control me. That lasted for a long period of time which I didn't expect. I didn't expect to endure not visiting the read.cash nor sneak just to monitor. Honestly, I regret that for the longest time I was not able to be here and I can't do anything about it but to make steps and push myself to come back once again.
Third, I missed a lot at sandamakmak na tambak na babasahin will welcome me back which I deserve for and earlier I started to unread to catch up on some events as I really don't know the happenings for 4 weeks. Does maintenance happen? Or did Rusty change? Whatever it is I can figure it out along the way. For now, I need to work on tons of unread notifications but I can't promise to finish and read word for word or maybe I'll just leave an upvote and when I get tired of dating gawin "mark all as read", lol.
Lastly, few days ago I celebrated our graduation which I waited and work hard for four years though I was upset with the school and curse (my bad) co'z they really made us feel like nothing as it is a virtual celebration unlike to other school who celebrated face to face. We deserve face to face graduation as it gives a nostalgic feeling yet the school didn't value what we value. I'm really upset how it work because all of the city schools had face to face graduation and even the Kadayawan will be face to face. Gosh, I didn't know what to feel anymore but still thankful that I was able to survive for 16 years of studying from elementary, high school, senior high and college.I come back with more determination with eagerness to achieve those pending goals.
Thanks for not leaving me with my journey❤
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Removing K to 12 Program
Date: June 30, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
Removing the K to 12 program in education has been an issue for a few weeks. Some agreed and some disagreed. There are some factors why people take one side which they seem to be favored. Before taking my side, let me just share some factors based on my understanding and experience as the first batch of the said program graduate.
*They agreed because…*
**Additional expenses for that 2 years.** It is indeed costly, especially for the unfortunate ones like me. Instead of buying a book we do xeroxing which is more costly as time goes by. It becomes more costly when research is introduced to us as we need to print out those outputs again and again. Imagine, each print costs 5 pesos or $.05 and if it is colored ($.10). Example, the research paper is 20 pages overall, 20x5=100 pesos excludes the colored one and the hardbound. Vividly, in our batch we made three research papers. That amount seems not too big but for us it is already big and our parents need to work harder to accumulate.
**Being a K to 12 graduate doesn't guarantee a job like what they said.** They said the K to 12 program helps to get a job because for that two years we are trained based on our track and each track offers training for the preparation of getting NC II which some employers look for but sadly employers still look for college graduates.
**It will prolong the years spent in study.** Supposedly, if K to 12 program did not implemented for sure I been two years working but look I am still graduating and dome K to 12 students should be in college and some are graduate.
*They disagree because..*
**The K to 12 program is a preparation for college.** This is the main factor why the K to 12 program should not be removed because at this stage they are preparing students for what college should be. They taught some things that one should acquire being a college student, namely essays, reports, and powerpoint , especially research/thesis. These things are very important in college because we are the ones who make our grade at hindi uso ang floorwax sa professors unlike in elementary and high school. Having those experiences will help us to view how college life will be and how horrible it is.
**How about those who graduated?** I can say it's really unfair for those of us who went through everything but are still thankful for the experience and helping us to conquer the next level using what we learned, acquired and trained.
In my own opinion, I would disagree if K-12 was removed from the curriculum because the Grade 10 students are not yet ready to take on the life of being a college student for these reasons:
1. They didn't know how to make a thesis. (Some)
2. They didn't know how to make a PowerPoint presentation yet. (Some)
3. They didn't know yet how to report the given topics. (Some)
4. Some of them are not good at reading.
5. Some of them are not well trained when it comes to communication skills and constructing an essay or even a poem.
Some of you were happy about removing the K-12 program because of the lower financial expenses, and some of you thought that if the K-12 was removed, your children were rapidly going to graduate from college and find stable jobs. For me, it's not all about the years that the children spend their lives in school, but it's all about the learning and preparation of your children for their future careers. Finally, K-12 helps students learn more about their future careers.
`From Reymark Delana Bello`
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I Hate Affairs
Date: June 28, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
Reality really hit me so hard that I didn't expect that it could be like this. Facing one fourth of it seems so hard that I wish to go back to school again where the four corners of the classroom is my comfort zone. Schools are way different from reality , especially how they move. In my successive job hunting, my body really drained me up that I can't feel my legs anymore due to the long walk from one establishment to another and every interview I feel like I'm about to peed and everything I prepare constantly leaves me and ends up being a mental block. Also, it is difficult to apply for a job related to the course without work experience kaya nga kami nag apply para magka experience hahaha. I really don't know anymore.
Anyway, I was inactive for days but I'll make sure to catch up with you guys when my schedule is free because right now it is so hectic due to job hunting. Thanks a lot for this kind of writing style that always saves my day. Thanks to my kabit @Probinsyana for her article that once again saved my Tuesday. https://read.cash/@Probinsyana/does-ldr-work-427115c3
`Without further ado, lemme start😊…`
**Do you think the Internet is a good way to find a partner? Explain your point of view.**
I don't know if it's a yes and no. Yes, because some happily married couples just met online and their relationship is successful. On the other hand, no because meeting someone on the internet doesn't grant knowing him/her fully because everything can be fake. I believe wherever we could find our partner it all depends on how we handle the relationship to make it healthy and successful.
**Have you ever written a real love letter (not email)? How do people in love communicate nowadays?**
I never have I ever written a real love letter one of the reasons is my penmanship, but maybe soon I can make one. In love people nowadays communicate through messenger as we can chat with them without a load. We can video call and chat with them no matter how far they are. Vividly, text and call are the way of communication where I text random people and send a group message with one person just to catch his/her attention hahaha. Nowadays, texting and calling is not what I usually see because of modern technology and media platforms.
**Sometimes people already in a relationship have an affair, why would they do this?**
I really hate cheating and cheating is something I can't tolerate, especially in a relationship. Cheating occurs when the person is not content with whom he/she will be. When lack of contentment happens people will find it with somebody else whom he believes can fulfill what they long for. I really felt bad for everyone who experienced being cheated because it has an impact that sometimes we question our worth and question ourselves saan tayo nag kulang.
**What is a long distance relationship? Do you think they work?**
Long distance relationships are short for LDR. I don't have any idea how it works because I haven't yet experienced it but I will experience it days from now. One thing, I'll make sure is to fully trust him always.
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Drunk Sports
Date: June 27, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
**A rainy Monday read.cash❤** Another job hunting again which makes my article today a bit delay. Thanks to my kabit @Probinsyana with her article save my tiring Monday. https://read.cash/@Probinsyana/how-do-you-sleep-297edf97
**What sport would be the funniest to watch if the players were drunk?**
For sure it will be soccer, as they will run in a zigzag way aiming to defend the ball. Maybe some will collapse as they will run due to tiredness and drunkenness that will make their mind crample. Surely, in this game no one will win. The benefits they can get are that they might fall asleep or wake up from drunkenness.
**If animals could talk, which would be the rudest? Why?**
It might be the cat especially the stray cat where people misunderintrepret most of them as a akyat bahay and a thief of foods on the table. They will surely talk back about their complain and suffering. Seeing cat being mistreated by our neighbors makes my heart break that is why I told Mama to let some cat be with us and feed them. Happily, four cats are happily with us though I am not really into animal lover.
**Would you rather sneeze for an hour or have hiccups?**
I can endure to have a hiccups as I am used to it. I remember, when I hiccups Mama will put something in my forehead to stop the hiccups as their beliefs. Also, hiccup means gaining some heights which ever happen at all. As time goes by, every hiccup I will drink plenty of water.
**Who do you wish would run for President? Why?**
I don't have any idea who will be my candidates as I am not into politics also I hate how it moves. For me, every candidates runs for their own motives and their campaign are just a cover up. Mostly, their promises during campaign nakakalimutan once they won.
**What's your favorite travel destination?**
I really wanted to travel in Israel to see the place where Jesus Chirst were born and crucified and their ancient infrastracture. I believe many Filipino are there. Second stop will be Japan as I wanted to experience snow and see their amazing technology and surrounding that really amaze me everytime it features in dufferent social media platform.
**What's your favorite holiday?**
Christmas holiday, gosh I love it so much and very very much as it reunited every family because everyone goal is to celebrate Christmas holiday with our family. Aside with that it is a giving holiday where our ninong and ninang start to hide to avoid their godchild hahaha. Work bonuses and other bonuses awaits every worker and a vacation for every student. Above all, food is life because every house prepare delicious foods they wanted to put in the table.
**What's your favorite ice-cream flavor?**
Anything that has a chocolate as I am a chocolate lover all the time. I really want to try different flavor to explore aside the avocado flavor as I am not into it.
**What's your favorite media platform?**
I can't figure out which one because it seems every media platform are toxic especially facebook despite the toxic I love roaming around watching random videos that kills my time.
**How do you like your coffee?**
I'm a brown kopiko lover as I love the aroma and the strong taste of it. It really awakes my sleeping body. Usually I do coffee if I am in my mood no matter how sunny ut is if I am at the moody of making coffee I will make one.
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No to Math Brain
Date: June 26, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
**A blessed Sunday read.cash❤** I am super blessed with the word of God today that really enlightened and redirected my path. I don't have a topic but thanks to Kuya @ARTicLEE for his article. https://read.cash/@ARTicLEE/an-empty-wallet-2a670576
**If you had a pen and paper what's the first thing you would draw?**
Sadly, I don't have drawing skills but if ever I have it will be a family picture where we are all complete and happy. Due to the financial crisis we don't have a single family picture, though technology has started to be involved but we can't afford to buy a touch screen phone where we could take pictures. Maybe though drawing and our memories where complete can be demonstrated through drawing. For sure, I will treasure that piece no matter what.
**Do you wear your favorite color often?**
Before, my favorite colors were yellow and red but as time went by I suddenly fell in love with dark shades especially black though Mama protested about because it doesn't suit my skin tone but I am hard headed and sutil which I tease her to the point she give up saying something when I wore black shirt. Most of my things are black as I love them because dirty are unseenable.
**What is your favorite candle scent?**
We barely use candles if we do it because of power interruptions. We just used the normal candle, the white one, without any scent on it and that candle was also used every saint's day.
**What is the best Christmas activity?**
Aside from eating, it would be the exchange gift portion for kids that we love, especially since I am assigned to make games that everyone loves to play co'z everyone aims for the prize. I love wrapping my nieces gifts as well as the prizes. Above all, the Christmas that we should celebrate is complete and intact before 12 midnight.
**If you could go to any concert, what would it be?**
I am into Christian songs, that is why if I could go to any concert it would be the concert of Hillsong, a famous group that makes Christian songs. Rumored that in 2022 they will have a concert but no official announcement was made by the group.
**What childhood toy did you always want but never got?**
My childhood toy that I wanted so much is to own a barbie doll but due to financial my parents cannot buy me one which I also understand because I know our living status. Also, I really wanted before to have a barbie bag na may gulong because before owning it means a lot parang nakaka ginhawa sa buhay. My entire elementary days I only have a red shoulder bag na talaga sobrang tibay at matibay pa sa relasyon ninyo hahaha.
**If you could be the best at any sport, what would it be?**
I will always be on the softball field as I always fall in love with that game co'z I find it cool. Holding a bat and wearing gloves with the ball on it. I could say I am good at it because I really give ample time just to train amf endure those hardships that I think I can't make it. In this game, I am confident that wherever my coach places me I know that I can do it as I train all the roles and techniques.
**Have you imagined/planned your wedding?**
Of course I do but no matter what kind of wedding it is as long as I marry the man of my life it will be okay. Either small or big, I' m okay with that.
**Do you have a math brain?**
Sad to say, I don't have and I don't know what I ate so I took a course related to math.
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One four of reality
Date: June 25, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
Yesterday was the first day of my reality where I found myself in the long queue longing to achieve a certain goal. I hesitate to believe that I can do it and that I am capable of doing it. Yesterday's event was a wake up call. I am really into reality. I wish I'm in those four corners of the classroom thinking how to survive every subject but I know this is just one fourth of the whole reality. Also, yesterday was another day where I was inactive again. Though I don't want to, my body is the one who surrenders due to tiredness and until I endure pain.
Yesterday, I woke up early co'z I had to go somewhere that my friend and I had planned. We went to the city carrying our sample resume and headed to the job fair event where I've seen tons of job seeking. Standing there makes my heart beat so fast that I wanted to go back home where I could find my comfort zone. Before starting the interviews, the coordinator lends a small speech as a guideline of do's and don'ts in the interview. I'm very keen with the surroundings while holding the shopping list paper where we need to list down the companies and positions of vacancies that we want to apply for. I've just listed four companies with the desired position related to my taken course.
My first stop is a known incorporated company. While standing I started to sweat and was nervous that I couldn't help it while looking at the interviewer though I could sense that she was as approachable as I looked. Reason why I found myself in the queue was because of the interviewer's expression , though I was nervous thinking I am not good at speaking English. When it is my turn, I try myself to calm and I big relief when the interviewer asked me if I can speak Bisaya but which I decided to answer her speaking Bisaya and English as she don't minding what language I speak.
After minutes of interview, the interviewer wrote in the shopping list of "further evaluation" as the company needs to do a background check before being hired because they have the policy that no relatives or same surname work with them. Sadly, my friend "failed" as she has a cousin working in that company which she already know ahead. Three more companies before we're done but we ended after the first interview going home. We ate our lunch in small eatery and afterwards we do a long walk just to reach the mall and so happen they are hiring for random position and we decided to leave our resume to the guard as he will submit it to the admin. In our long walk we shared the same thoughts of how our neighbor viewed and thought about us. And it a big deal for them seeing us in working outside with our taken course as they thought "having a degree grants more easy work" but it is all about working hard and perseverance.
Wth the yesterday event makes my energy drained especially the long walk under the sun that made my feel that my feet leave me as I can't feel it any longer. Today is another day to hunt for another job opportunity.
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Weirdest among the rest
Date: June 23, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
I'm at the nine cloud as I stare at my graduation pictures that are being sent by the studio. I am so overwhelmed and teary eyed that I finally made it. I survived those rough years. I'm a bit busy because I'm still looking for a job. Thanks to @Usagi article for giving me an idea of what to write. https://read.cash/@Usagi/a-quick-overview-about-my-personality-d699b2e2
**Are you more organized or messy?**
It depends on my mood co'z there are times I let things mess like I don't care the surrounding if it is our house. I can sleep even in messy in our house but if other house is messy I can't sleep I don't know why. Most of the time, I'm an organized person, especially my things that I don't want to scatter around as I find it hard to find something when I need it. My mood is ruined because I can't find what I need.
**Would you like to have a job or be an entrepreneur?**
This is my situation recently as I find it hard to decide either to proceed in the real world or just rest a little bit before entering into the corporate world. I really wanted to be an entrepreneur because I want to be the boss of my time but I know I can't be one at this moment because I need enough capital for my business. To accumulate capital, I need to find a job and save money in the long run. Short term goal is to work and my long term goal is to be an entrepreneur.
**What is your weirdest trait or habit?**
Loving someone who can't love me back is my new habit, lol. Seriously, my weirdest habit is frequently wanting water. Gosh, I find it hard to explain. Every single minute I need to feel some water in my feet. If not , I will suddenly feel goosebumps. It is different in hydrosis but I also have this one.
**Are you religious/spiritual or an atheist?**
I am Christian and a spiritual leader in the church. By the way, my parents have different religious beliefs and in our family I am the only one who follows my mother's religious beliefs as Mama's side asks me to be. I became an atheist when Papa died as I blamed Him for everything which was not good.Later on when my anger fades, I regretted it and decided to follow him.
**Are you close to your family or any particular family member?**
I could say we are close but not an open one where I can open up my feelings and burden. I'm still happy with what our relationship is because honestly our relationship before was too complicated. Hatred after hatred and full of unforgiveness. Thank God for the restoration of our family relationship.
**Do you prefer fame or money?**
I need money, I prefer money than fame because I don't have attention from anybody. As long as I fulfill my small dream to have a refrigerator full of foods then I'm okay with it. Money can buy things that can make me and my family happy. I'm super oaky with it. No matter how famous I am if the people around me are fake it is still useless. Also it is vice versa, having fame can gain money and having money can gain fame.
**What is one thing you would like to change in the world?**
It would eliminate or decrease crime that is so rampant today. Rape, killing, abuse, drugs and all that can cause human life destructive or loss. I think if only drug lords are arrested, crimes can be lessened as I believe illegal drugs is one of the reasons why people can do crime.
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I want both
Date: June 22, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
Finally, I'm done processing my mistake requirement regarding my middle name which I submitted earlier to the school. I just went there to pass for minute and travel for hours which id a tiring day for me. Thanks to my kabit @Probinsyana for saving my Wednesday with her "let's talk". https://read.cash/@Probinsyana/lets-talk-6800ee86
**KNOW MARTIAL ARTS OR HOLD A GUN?**
I want to learn martial arts while holding a gun as I am a fan of action movies and action genre books. Let me share with you my silly dream, before when I was so addicted to pocket books, ebooks and wattpad my dream to be in action scenes started. I always see myself holding a gun and do martial arts fight like what I've read in wattpad when gangster or mafia war happen. In reality, I tried to learn martial arts through taekwondo but I backed out after I saw their training and my bones might crack. Maybe if I take the offer of my auntie to proceed in criminology, I will able to hold a gun but for now it is not my priority.
**WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACT LENS?**
I wanted to wear contact lens but everytime I see videos on how they put the contact lens I always feel cringe and pain that I think I can't do it for myself without crying as my eyes are quite sensitive that is why I prefer to wear glasses though some people think it's a hassle. I find eyeglasses more comfortable and friendly on a budget that can last more years like Mama's eyeglasses.
**TO LIVE IN THE CITY OR PROVINCE?**
I always chose to live in the province. Though we can't access more advanced technology, we can access more foods like vegetables and fruits that we can freely ask our neighbors. Every move and crave in the city needs money and the foods are quite pricey than in the province. I find peace in the province as no night outs.
**HAVE WORLD PEACE OR STOP WORLD HUNGER?**
I wanted both world peace as we needed peace and no war for the lives of the next generation and stop world hunger seeing people hunger especially a child makes my heart cry. Maybe if we have world peace our government can address that issue in each country.
**GO OUT TO BREAKFAST OR DINNER?**
A dinner does not need to be in luxurious restaurants. I'm okay with street foods or maybe in a night market where everything is on a budget. Whatever the dinner is but the important thing is the person whom I am with. I even wanted to have a night picnic where we can see an overview while eating the foods we take out from somewhere. Simple yet intimate supremacy.
**BIG WEDDING OR A SMALL ONE?**
Weddings happen once in a lifetime. If my partner and I can afford a big wedding, then I'll go with the big one. If not, I am okay with a small one. Small wedding is for partially aanhin ko ang big wedding if after the wedding ceremony we don't have any cents left dahil naubos sa kasal. I'm okay with both as long as I marry a person I love.
**TO EAT FRUITS OR VEGETABLES?**
I will eat both fruits and vegetables, not all the fruits and vegetables as I do have certain fruits and vegetables I hate to eat for some reason.
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Be My Random Guest
Date: June 21, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
If yesterday was a tiring day but today is a happy day because my form request in my previous school is already given. I am happy that they didn't make many delays though they have installed a new principal. I am so overwhelmed by how my previous school valued immediate requests as opposed to other schools that delayed getting the request as my classmate experienced. Also, some teachers still know me despite the fact that I am an average student who didn't excel so much academically. My math teacher at grade 8 still knew me was so unexpected because he despises me for being hardheaded and I am also the reason when he is about to collapse and have a mild attack. I am so sutil way back at grade 8 which I am so happy that once in my highschool I experience those things co'z honestly the following years are more focused on academics as I am at the first which I don't want.
It is just me who thinks being at the first section is a battle of the brain where students are more focused on academics and the competition to be on top is there. I don't know why but I really don't want to be in the first section. I have this feeling na cast out ako at hindi na enjoy unlike in other sections where I can learn lessons both academically and in life as I will experience things. Above all, the perks of being in the first section is I don't need to focus myself to answer group activities or even to present reports. All I need to do is pay for the materials needed and cooperate as everyone is ready to be a leader.
Some point, I do have this one classmate that I really hate for some reason which is still vivid. We were having a math examination, specifically a final exam where our teacher arranged for us depending on her. I am confident that no matter who my seatmate will be, I am able to answer the exam without cheating or asking co'z I studied during the night. Suddenly, our teacher changed my seatmate to this particular classmate. At first it was so smooth. I am not even looking around because that teacher is a strict one. Minutes after, this seatmate asked me an answer which I gave instantly but when I was about to approach her she became mad and told my teacher that I was asking a certain answer which I didn't do because I already finished the exam. I was so embarrassed and ashamed at that very moment and told myself never ever extend help to that person again. Luckily, when my teacher got my paper I didn't get an instant zero co'z if I do I will still make a scene even if I go into the office pero good girl naman ako kaya huwag nalang hahaha.
It happened again in different scenarios and people where I also told "I will not help her" but I still ended up helping her out. I do have this attitude of willingness to help yet when I am the one who will ask for help and he/she will not help me though he can help I will keep it and take revenge by not helping when he is in need. My best friend also told me not to be soft hearted all the time because they will take advantage of it which I slowly practice when someone really abused my soft heart.
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Thanks for the $4000 a week
Date: June 20, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
What an exhausting Monday yet a productive one. I went to school to submit my remaining requirements that the registrar told me and I processed last week for me to submit ahead of time. I was overwhelmed and happy that I am finally done but something happened as they noticed my middle name instead of "dash" like what it is supposed to be and what we use when I fill up something. It turned out to be "underscore" due to wrong typos of the one who processed my birth certificate. As soon as I contacted Mama and Ate they reviewed all our birth certificates and confirmed that I am the only who's using "underscore" as they all have the "dash". Afterwards, I went back to my previous school to ask for a new transcript using the "underscore" at yan na ang gagamitin ko to follow what's in my birth certificate. I am tired of traveling back and forth with traffic under the sun which I decide not to publish again but thanks to @Usagi article that gives me an idea of what to write. https://read.cash/@Usagi/100-or-a-bitcoin-2dcb29e4
**Adopt a puppy or a baby?**
I'll go in adopting a baby as I love babies and I even want to have one though it's too early for me and I am not yet ready, especially financially. I really love babies, I love how they giggle, I love how adorable they are, I love their smiles and I love everything about them especially their chubby cheeks. Nakakagigil ang baby.
**Be constipated or have diarrhea?**
I'll get constipated more than diarrhea. No to diarrhea especially when I am about to go somewhere or be outside the house kasi talagang risky hahaha. I'm used to being constipated as I am constipated most of the time.
**Be born in the future or the past?**
Maybe born in the past as I love to experience wearing Filipiniana as daily clothes and where people called a girl a "Binibini" and I love their way of courtship na talagang gagawin ang lahat makuha lang ang matamis na oo.
**Be utterly heartbroken or single?**
I love to be single and always ready to mingle. No one will restrict to me whatever I do and I can be close with anyone without minding that someone might be jealous. Hindi madali ba broken hearted no kaya no thanks na lang hahaha.
**Beauty or Intelligence?**
Of course, intelligence is like beauty if my brain is empty. I may not have the beauty that society looks for but I can have intelligence as my asset.
**Get $4000 a week for the rest of your life or $3,000,000 right now?**
$3,000,000 is a huge amount in an instant I can grab it if only I can able to handle and manage it until it grows but I know my capability that I cannot manage it which I go to $4000 a week which is more controllable at kung maubos ko another $4000 for next hahaha.
**Immortality or infinite money?**
I want to choose immortality but I know I will be alone if I go with infinite money where I can use it to spoil my family in many ways without thinking about the budget.
**Speak any language fluently or be able to talk to animals?**
Speak any language fluently, I'd love to have this kind talent. I want to learn how to speak Korean, Nihongo, Mandarin, French and many more.
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Date: June 19, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
To all the fathers out there a happy, happy father's day to you. Earlier before the Sunday service ended, we made a special moment where a wife and his children were able to give some special presents such as a gift, flower and even a cake and pray with them. I couldn't help but to shed tears by thinking my father is no longer with us and I miss him a lot but I know he is so proud of everything I unlocked and how our family looks like. Before I keep asking myself why my father is not showy to his love that sometimes I think they didn't love me. Later on, I realized that his love speaks in a sacrificial way that he could always do. I am so proud and grateful that my father never did something just to break my heart. If only I could find someone like him, I'll definitely marry him right away, lol.
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**Talk about life and cry**
I've done this one with my best friend talking about life and crying as you know I am a crying baby. When I am with her, I am able to open up my burdens as I know I don't have any judgement in her eyes and same as with me. We are an open book and transparent na kahit I will burst into tears she will never leave my side.
**Dance in rain**
I've done this one with my childhood friends where dancing and playing in the rain is one of our favorite things to do. We don't care about lighting and thunder as long as we enjoy the rain and I missed this moment. I think it's been a year since I didn't feel that feeling again.
**Got drunk together**
I have never done this one because I only drink once with my cousins and I/we never get drunk. If I get drunk I will make sure no one knows especially my family kasi hindi papayag si Mama.
**Skipped class/work together**
Suki ako sa skipped class noong high school with my classmates but I never did it again since I went to college and I felt it is crucial to miss even one subject. I tried to experience a summer job where me and my friends work together as we find it more exciting and happier when it really happens.
**Get lost in the place together**
It was our first time going into the city with my church mate because we attended a conference that time. Suddenly, when the event is done, we don't know our way home on the kung anong sasakyan na route. Good thing, someone help us by giving us directions and where to stop.
**Went to the gym together**
I have never been to the gym though I wanted to. Here in us, there is no gym where exercise equipment can be found.
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Numbers to Reveal
Date: June 18, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
It's been overloaded in my plate that I barely find it hard to handle things that seem out of control. My situation is hard to explain as I don't know where to start like I am a lost kid in the middle of the crowd. It becomes more complicated as I am about to face reality. I am in between working or resting before I finally face life but my family expectations have become my burden and I can't open my side with them as I am afraid to disappoint them. This baggage I've carried affects the entire me which I think I become more unproductive. Gosh, handling this kind of thing is my weakness and right now I'm still thinking and balancing things to cope up with the best outcome.
Anyway, my apologies for being inactive yesterday due to my situation but I will do my best to catch up with you guys. Many thoughts that I can't put into words and bear with me with my kind of writing to today as I just saw this one on facebook and I just chose some numbers to reveal.
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**10. Dream**
I do have dreams, namely a two storey or even a simple house but what's important is there is peace and love that bind us, dream to be successful to spoil my family and many dreams. Above I do have this simple dream to have a refrigerator that is full of foods as I wanted to spoil my family and food is life.
**11. Age**
I'm 22 years old if you don't but I'm turning 23 this year. Hello, 1999 babies out there👋.
**14. Person that I hated the most**
A person who is arrogant, boastful and rude like looking at others dahil nasa mataas siya. Also, those who don't share but love to ask as I met a lot of these people and I hate them to the point it irritates me every time they ask something.
**15. Person that I trusted a lot**
I trusted the people who witnessed not just my ups but also my downs who helped me to stand up again and be back on track. Who motivates me when people think I am okay though I'm bleeding. Above all, I trusted God who is always there to lift me up.
**16. Person that I rejected**
I think of him - my ex suitor for 2 years and a half years. I've already shared the reason why I can't say yes but as a quick recap. I fell out of love in the middle of saying yes and I can't stand to see him hoping that there will be ud in the end and I'm guilty that is why I told him to stop and totally reject his feeling and put an end to it which he understands that I am also grateful for.
**17. Partner in crime**
It's him that will always be my partner in crime. We had this kind of look that understood each other without saying words. He can stand me tupak and trip in life and I do to him also. In short, we have the same vibes.
**20. Person that made me cried**
Gosh, I am a crying baby and a soft hearted one that even when I see someone who cries I cry also. I can't figure out the reason for my last cry.
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No to Ghost: Yes to Ghosting
Date: June 16, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
I am still in the process of wondering if I will continue looking for work or apply co'z I know I am not yet ready and I wanted to rest for awhile before facing reality. I am not ready for this kind of struggle and it really stresses me out. Thanks to my kabit @Probinsya article who saved my Thursday. https://read.cash/@Probinsyana/do-ghosts-exist-9f677193
**Are you superstitious? If so, give examples. If not, explain why.**
No, I am not but my parents are the superstitious believer but I slowly adopt believing that every time we/I go in vigil. We should not bring any food from the vigil, step ash before entering the house and change my clothes before getting into bed to make sure the spirit didn't follow us. Aside from that, my parents told us to always say "tabi-tabi po" as a sign of respect to those unseen creatures that we might encounter but now I never apply this one. If you only know that Filipinos have tons of superstitious beliefs from our ancestors and I am not even familiar with others.
**Who's the most superstitious person you know? Talk about him or her.**
It could be my father and his side because of the influence of my grandmother who is a semi-albularyo or a herb doctor that is known in town. All the beliefs she believed are still in practice today, especially her daughter, who is my auntie on my father 's side. While on my mother's side , it is a different thing because of their unique beliefs.
**Have you ever visited a fortune teller? What did he or she predict?**
I never did but way back in my senior highschool one of the school takers was a fortune teller which we didn't know. In the middle of our conversation with my friends, she interrupts and we become curious about her life and suddenly one of my friends offers her hand and tells me things but I never give mine because I don't believe it. Still, she tells me based on my aura and hand saying " I will marry someone who is able to provide my needs not that rich but in average living status and if I enter business it will succeed" upon hearing it overwhelm me but still I don't believe it because everything will depend on our hard work.
**Do you read the horoscope? Do you believe in it? Has it ever come true?**
I never read one co'z I am not interested in horoscopes and if I read I also don't believe in them.
**Which sign of the Chinese zodiac were you born under? How many do you know?**
I am proudly the present year of the rabbit, 1999 babies labas hahaha. I knew my Chinese zodiac because my siblings like to tease me by calling it a "crazy year" because of the triple 999 on it. And I try to explore with my siblings and parents the Chinese zodiac to figure out if it reflects their attitude, lol.
**Have you ever eaten in a Chinese restaurant? Did you get a fortune cookie?**
Yes, last Tuesday after our graduation pictorial. My classmates contacted our previous professor who made a promise to treat us and he chose a Chinese restuarant and I must say they offer very delicious foods but I never taste a fortune cookie.
**Do you believe in ghosts? Have you ever seen one? Talk about it.**
I don't believe it unless I witness it with my very naked eyes. So far I haven't seen one but I experience ghosting, lol. Are you a believer in ghosts?
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Rest in giving up
Date: June 15, 2022
Author:JustMaryel
For almost ten months of my journey since I started this is the longest day that I did not visit, publish and even make a short post that I usually do when I am not around. If someone noticed I was inactive and nowhere to be found for three days I would like to say that for three days I took my rest having continuous writer block, rest from pressure, demotivated or due to busyness just to make an excuses but I couldn't find exact reason why I am inactive those days but one thing I'm sure, for that three days I missed all of you guys walang halong chemical talagang I come to point laziness wants to eat whole and even to end my journey maybe one of the reason the market is crashing down drastically that we/I never expect to come.
Frustrated, how indecisive I am even though I grab one chance but I missed the one who is much bigger if only I could turn back the time so I could feel this frustration and regret. Remember when I decided to buy a new phone as my souvenir for this site as well as a self-gift graduation for not giving up those difficulties and I really saved that money for months. So, I made a halfway transaction by sending all the amount from Bitcoin.com to coins.ph though someone advised me if I made a transaction in that kind of amount I better use Binance but I am not familiar with the process you know I am slow learning in words term that is why I need demonstration to better understand but he was busy that time which I ended up in coins.ph. By the way, I made a transaction when the BCH was pumping to $206 overnight. Immediately when I saw my losses recover I made a decision but I regretted not making it into a full transaction where I needed to convert it into our fiat but I didn't because I believe it will pump more but otherwise happen and even more regret when seeing the market drastically dip.
Other frustration is about our school co'z they will not grant us a face to face graduation even the covid19 is not that high risk anymore. Gosh, government even allow the face to face rally, election and more events that is more crowned and didn't follow distances dahil sa sobrang dikit. Even Davao City permit to celebrate kadayawan face to face and also other schools celebrate a face to face graduation. Sadly, the school cannot didn't want a face to face graduation which make us frustrated. We wanted our parents to march with us wearing a black toga and witness receiving our diploma on stage. I believe it's their pride seeing us paying off all their sacrifices they made for the past year but the school hindered us from experiencing that experience. We were even initiated by the department to make graduation pictorial as we felt the school abandoned and didn't care for us. Ewan ko nalang talaga sa school.
Too much thoughts and frustrations aside, the weight of pressure makes me want to shut down for days to think about nothing. I think my three days inactive helps me to think and recollect myself. So, here I am ready to fight life again and again. There is no room for giving up but there is rest.
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I'm into Vampire not in Avocado
Date: June 11, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
I'm just quite busy earlier, so I didn't have time to visit the site or even reply to comments and read articles. I'm sorry. I just got home from church where we just practiced for tomorrow's services. Due to tiredness I plan not to write but nasasayangan ako and thanks to Profe @meitanteikudo for his article. https://read.cash/@meitanteikudo/random-qas-817cd8f6
**What Animal Do You Think You're Most Like?**
I think I will be a cat id I could be a animal because I love to cuddle and I am a clingy person like a cat who love to near or beside with his/her owner. I want to be a high breed type not an astray because I know how stray animals suffer from starvation and being mistreated by people.
**What Are Your Favorite Fruits?**
All fruits are my favorite except avocado. I don't know why I am not into avocados even when Mama told me that it was my favorite way back before. Maybe seeing avocado makes me think of something, especially when it was mixed with milk and crashed down into pieces, I'd view it as the poop of a baby. Sorry for the word. My top favorite is grape, though it's a bit pricey.
**What Color Are Most of Your Wardrobe?**
I do have an assorted color but the black domain. Though Mama didn't want me to wear something black because of my skin color, she can't do anything as I am into black one. I prefer black because dirt cannot be seen or noticed unlike those light colors. Mama has always had a way with it, as she always bleaches my black which turns into white and other colors.
**Favorite Fictional Character?**
Plenty of fictional characters that I lost count not in movie characters but in the wattpad world where I have dozens of husbands with different kinds of occupations, some are businessmen, doctors, pilots, gangsters, mafia bosses, seamen and many more. Above all, vampire character wins among the rest.
**Do You Take a Lot of Naps?**
Nope, I will not take naps because when I nap I find it hard to sleep during the night which I avoid napping. Sometimes when my body really needs some rest I'm glad to take a nap. Did you experience pretending to take a nap that leads to a deep sleep co'z many times I experience it when I wake up in the morning?
**What Did You Dress Up As For Halloween Last Year?**
I have never experienced dressing up during Halloween but I wanted to try. If given. chance I could choose vampire attire to portray my favorite character. Also, I live in a province where customers like Halloween, unlike in the city.
**Do You Have Any Kinks?**
Kinks like you know? Hahahaha sadly I don't have and never come into my mind any kind of kinks because thinking or imagining I feel hurt with those things. Gosh, it can be done with normal acrobatics hahaha.
**How Tall Are You?**
I don't know but some people as well my relative told me my height is qualified in military or in criminology course and they even encourage me to follow that steps but it is not my fort. I'm the average height of a girl , not too tall and Hindi rin pandak , though some people tease me that I am.
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It makes me happy
Date: June 10, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
**A happy Friday read.cash❤** My kind of happiness is seeing my laundry basket being empty, seeing sort of grocery, organizing clothes and of course enough money in my wallet. Today, I am so happy that the weather is sunny as my laundry is drying and I love my clothes being done under sunlight. I don't know but I love the smell of the finished product. In laundry, I did hand to hand laundry though my sister suggested that I could used washing machine but I ignore because I find my clothes being stretched when it is done in machine and I stain didn't remove unlike hand to hand laundry where I could see edge to edge to make sure it is well done though back pain afterwards.
Sort of groceries which I didn't done this month due to I am financially broke literally zero balance as I need to pay bills and fees and I even sacrifice my goal to buy a new phone because I need to prioritize those bills. Seeing our grocery basket empty as well as our rice container being totally empty gives me a headache. It has become my responsibility to shoulder our grocery month, especially rice, as rice is life talaga basta Pinoy. I decided to shoulder to lessen my sister debts as she will lend sack of rice every month which I wanted to shoulder and sometimes when the market is flying and I earned bigger I will shoulder electric bill for a month worth $30 above thru e-wallet payment. Sadly, I cannot process coins.ph co'z they didn't offer a wider selection than Gcash which I decided to make a Gcash account for but I deleted it. Multiple times, I was denied in the verification process but now that they are under upgrade version hours after I got fully verified. Anyway, I hope the market will fly unto the moon to solve all my financial problems today and I know God will provide.
Other one that makes me happy is when I have money in my wallet both digital wallet and physical wallet. Money is what we need today especially with the high price of the goods seen in the market. Grabe ang inflation na nagana at ang sakit sa bulsa makita ang nga prices ng bilihin. Vividly, a $20 or 1000 pesos before is already a big amount that can buy plenty of groceries or items but compare now personally that amount can only afford few groceries items and it seems like a 100 pesos. It become more less when you are living in the city that every move counts and every crave needs money before eating. While, in province we can ask some veggies in our neighbor and I usually crave green mango where I can also ask free in our neighbors. Between the two it has a reverse situation because in the city food is more expensive than things, specifically clothes, while in the province clothes and other sorts of things are more expensive than food because we are closer to gardening and farming. Seeing my wallet empty also a headache and sometimes a heart breaking mostly when I wanted to buy something and no matter how low price is I couldn't afford because I have no money like today.
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Date: June 09, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
The weather is too hot that really sweat dropping and I felt like I was inside in the oven leads into headache and thankfully drinking plenty waters reduce a bit. I'm totally drained and have no ideas coming out of my head as I catch up twice as much. Thanks to my kabit @Probinsyana for her "I'm done" that really saved me. https://read.cash/@Probinsyana/im-done-811ac400
**I always carry** ****my phone and handkerchief**** **in my bag**
All of us can't leave the house without our phone as the phone has become part of our life especially when I meet read.cash. Every available time I have, I always check the site to interact with one another. Phones can help to ease bored time especially when I was in a long queue. If you read my previous articles, I've had ample time to realize how important my hand is that I can't leave the house without it in my bag or in my hand. Hanky always saves me from vomiting when I smell perfume and wearing a mask really helps me also.
**I wish I could** ****be independent****
I really want to be independent but when I attempt to be independent, Mama is always there to stop me and makes me dependent on her. I do understand her because she doesn't want me to leave her alone and it is not my plan to leave her. I am always dependent on her but my reason to be independent is to prepare myself for future events because reality says all of us will die.
**Sometimes I** ****daydream****
Daydreams make me escape from reality. I usually daydream when I am in trouble or sad to enlighten my mood with positive and good things. In daydreaming, I can do whatever I want, I can eat whatever I want and I can make everything possible if I prefer to do so. Daydreaming is the best way to escape aside from sleeping.
**I'd eat** ****chocolate**** **everyday if I could**
I can't resist chocolate as I am a chocolate lover. Few weeks, I really crave chocolates to the point I went to mall and grab chocolates and eat them all entire night. Next morning, I went again to mini store and bought again packs of chocolate and eat whole day. I am so addicted with dark chocolate, sadly I am not into milk chocolate.
**A talent I have** ****is being everyone friend****
I am everyone's friend with loyalty to it as I do have a friendly smile and approach but not the look as I possess a strict look. I can be in all groups. Maybe being ambiverted also influences my personality.
**Everyone says I'm** ****kind****
I don't see myself as being kind or possessing kindness. Maybe they say I am kind when they can easily approach me, when I always share what's in me, when peace is all I want and so much more. Honestly, all of us are kind but it depends on how we show it to others and whether people are kind to those people who treat us kind.
**Today I will** ****rest my exhausted being****
All I want is to rest my tired body and mind from all the struggles I've been through these past days that really drained and exhausted me. Too much tiredness is not healthy to our body and everyday we need to rest and gain enough rest to avoid abuse of our body.
**A talent I wish I had** ****is a drawing****
In drawing I find it enjoyable and profitable. I always see how people can make money through drawings which I already expect. And, I can express my emotions with drawing and let my creativity introduce my name. I really admire those people who are capable of drawing.
**Currently I am** ****neutral****
Neutral in every aspect of my life. I am not too happy nor too sad like I am at peace balancing the situation.
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Hopefully, it will never end
Date: June 08, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
I was not able to be active nor publish yesterday because I was busy with something and it's too personal to share. Sorry for the inactive but I'll catch up with you guys today by visiting articles as much as I can. I wanted to clear my notification but I couldn't do it because I also need to take good care of my eyesight which I quit in the past days. In one day inactive, I felt something missing because visiting the site is one of my routine for almost 10 months since I decided to register. Aside from being busy, I'm a bit discouraged and unmotivated with so much writer block as something bothers me. I am very grateful with all the users who continually supports me by visiting my articles, leaving comments and to all the sponsors I have, a big thank you to you. Above, our green bestfriend "Rusty" who is with me since I started. Thank you for your generosity not just to me but to all the users. As we noticed he is a bit distant but let us not be discouraged as I believe he's doing his best to generate the fund a bit longer by maximizing until someone adds more funds that all of us will surely enjoy.
We've been through a lot in just in personal matter but also how the market moves that most of us are in the situation of losing investment as I do. With the happening, I really understand the essence of "investment what you afford to lose". Personally, the moment I invest my mindset was all about gaining but later on I faced losses that stress me out at first which change my mind into "accept ahead of time that I loss" especially when the market drastically crashing. It's been part of journey how indecisive I am, I was at the moment of selling as it price flies but small portion of me telling " it will fly more higher" which the otherwise happen. I didn't consider it as a failure nor did it serve as my advantage to think more wiser and don't let my overwhelming emotions maneuver me.
Every charge experience,I become more firm though it sound indecisive but I grab it which I am happy that I am able to with it with so much courage and doesn't think any regrets. Honestly, I am so happy with the result of my decision. I'm in need so I really put in my mind to monitor the market, first I missed the opportunity when the market reached $200 but the next day I totally grabbed it as it reached $206 though I want to keep it intact until I reach my first ever 1BCH. https://read.cash/@JustMaryel/it-sounds-indecisive-but-i-grab-it-6d84ac1d
Days after I am totally financially broken, literally zero balance left and unlucky I need financial for my school and I don't know what to do. Thanks to all the users who extended their help (too many to mention) as well as Rusty. Words can't express how grateful I am that once in my life I met this kind of site along with the users though we didn't meet personally but through reading I felt that we already met. Hopefully, it will never end. Pwedeng pang forever na🙈. https://read.cash/@JustMaryel/i-dont-know-what-to-do-46c7b67f#comment-d573f06a
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How much your pocket money?
Date: June 06, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
My neighbors are very vigilant and alert because of the existence of the thief in our community na talagang nakakatakot. We make sure all the doors are locked and secure for our safety. My mind is not in the condition right now, which obviously I don't have a topic and thanks to my kabit @Probinsyana with her "money stolen". https://read.cash/@Probinsyana/money-stolen-8e8c4db3
**Do you have a job? Is it full-time or part-time? Do you make a lot of money?**
I don't have a job but I consider read.cash to be my part time job where I can provide something not that big but enough to survive for a couple of days. I think both sites - read.cash and noise.cash are the part time jobs where we visit when we are available which is a good thing compared to other part time jobs because we handle our time. Also, I think it is better if we didn't think of both sites as our main source of income because whether or not it has a time span especially now that we're running out of funds. If we notice how aloof Rusty is, maybe because to minimize the fund a bit longer.
**How do you usually pay when you go shopping?**
I don't have any card, so cash is a way of payment. How I wish I had a card so I can just swipe it. maybe soon. Every transaction I make both physical and online shopping, I'm into cash, though online I can pay by e-wallet or shopee to avoid scams which commonly happen nowadays.
**What was the thing you bought? Where did you buy it? Talk about it.**
My last purchase in physical shopping was when I brought a design namely curtain foil, balloon, number candle and more birthday designs for Mama's birthday. While online shopping I bought a couple of boxes of black masks that we can use when we go out together with a phone stand. So far, I haven't had any transactions lately.
**Have you ever had any money stolen from you? If so, how did it happen?**
Probably yes, not in a school incident but in our house but not that big a deal because it's all the coins that I usually put into the box and I didn't count it. Every time I get some coins it is less than what I put in which indicates that someone got it.
**How much pocket money do your parents give you? How do you spend it?**
When I was a high school student my everyday allowance was 20 pesos and for the whole week it was a total of $2 talagang tudo tipid ako because my fair back and forth is 10 pesos. And when I am qualified as a provincial athlete my pocket money is around 150 pesos or $3 for three to four days, our meals are all free as well as the fair.
**What's the most you have ever spent on a gift? What was it? Who was it for?**
Probably around $50 last Christmas when I decided to bring a gift for my family. By the way, it was my first time to give something from my hard work and it is all because of read.cash. I gave what I could afford to not just for my family but as well as for myself and luckily I won various challenges and prompt writing which also helped me to accumulate more.
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Date: June 05, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
**A gloomy Sunday read.cash❤** I am so happy that I am able to attend Sunday service despite the rainy morning we've encountered but it didn't stop us from coming over and worshiping Him. As I heard the word of God it's a confirmation for me like it was made for me. There were two Sunday services that I couldn't make because I woke up late due to late sleep and today I look like a walking zombie co'z I find it hard to sleep. Imagine, I woke up at 1:00 am, and woke up again at 2 o'clock together with Mama who decide to watch random videos while me still finding best position that I can able to sleep but I woke up again at 4:00 am and lastly 6 o'clock when Mama inform me that time so that I can able to attend church service but I neglect it and sleep again as my eyes wants to sleep again but it didn't happen which I ended to waking up. I do the household chores while my sister does the cooking and Mama still does the scrolling on social media as I give her a load constantly so that she can be entertained watching tik tok videos. Mama always makes my day co'z most of the time I witnessed her multitask while watching tv while her phone playing some videos hahaha. I confronted her but she told me her eyes were watching the movie but her ears were listening to the video, that's how good she is hahaha.
My favorite scene with her is when she complains why the video can't play, why she cannot access facebook and why it is loading. Sometimes ako ang napapagalitan if it is loading. When she can't fix it she will enter my room and murmur those things but when I try to figure it out it always ends up not turning the data. I always told her to check the connection before browsing co'z it might be that she never turns on but there are times she really forgets. I find it cute and sometimes annoying, especially when I am at online class. Does anyone relate with that scene? It is one of our bonds. There are times I forgot to send her a load which she will emote minutes until I remember to load her. She's kinda spoiled in terms of load because of her. I always make sure I have balance in my wallet in case she's running out of money.
Anyway, at exactly 7 o'clock I finished the chores and time to take a bath co'z 7:30 am the service will start. When I was about to go the raindrops tried to stop me but I persevered to attend even though the path became muddy. I decided to wear summer sandals and bring an umbrella. I didn't wear dresses because all my dresses can't fit anymore as I gained so much weight and I always failed the plan to lose weight.
My June plan is to lose weight specifically this week because of the graduation pictorial. Starting tomorrow, I will stop eating sweets, junk foods and chocolates. Though it was my favorite, I know I can do it like others did. I will set a schedule of 30 minutes to 1 hour of exercise to lose and lessen the consumption of kahit rice in my life. Hopefully I can lose weight this week, especially in the belly and thigh area.
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It kills me
Date: June 04, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
I don't have a topic as my brain is overloaded with something and my head spins again unstopped, maybe because of radiation. That is why I really need to rest my eyes for a while. I don't want to abuse it again and again. Thanks kuya @ARTicLEE for saving my Saturday with your article. https://read.cash/@ARTicLEE/i-havent-really-asked-myself-these-at-least-most-of-them-a154f5ab
What would I truly regret not doing if I died tonight?
Giving myself a peace of mind and what I truly deserve. I will not go deeper but lately something really bothers me which I constantly question myself and put doubts on. Overthinking a lot is not good but I can't control it and I even thought I died days ago because of some reason. I thank God that he didn't take my breath.If I died I wanted it in a peaceful and painless way.
What advice has someone in my family given and that I have taken just in time?
Mama's advice is to give when I have something to give. Her generosity influenced me and I witnessed it several times. When someone is in need and she can lend something she always gives and when someone can't pay because of circumstances she understands and says " I know the feeling of nothing". I always take this advice because the more we give, the more God will bless us.
What would I do if my biggest fear came true?
I'm very vocal about how afraid I would be if I lost Mama, even though it is a reality. When the time comes my biggest fear will come true. It will be the time of my devastation but I can't do something about it because it is part of human life but I wish for more years for Mama so I can spoil her like she did to us. When times come, I can't accept it right away but slowly I need to accept and be independent of my own.
Have I done something recently that I could be proud of?
Giving myself an award and for surviving those days I think I couldn't make it. I am proud of myself for fighting those battles of life that no one knows how hard to survive. I was at my end point but I chose to crawl and push myself harder to survive because no one can get me out there but myself alone. I need to be stronger than I could, which I am proud of.
What would I do with my remaining days, if I only had a year left to live?
I'll do whatever I can, including travel, family bonding and give myself the best as I can. Each day my goal is to put a smile on my face together with my loved ones so that they cherish the memories we build together.
Why am I afraid of being true to myself when others are around?
Afraid to be judged by them that is why I set boundaries and limit myself doing things as part of my introvert personality. I'm hesitant showing myself when people are not so close with me but when we are close enough and I am comfortable then I will show myself genuinely.
What do I really want from life?
Simply live a simple life where peace and love unite us. I don't need an extravagant life. All I need is a responsible and faithful husband and children whom I can call mine.
What aspect of my personality still needs improvement?
Appreciate myself, cheering myself, trusting myself, nurturing myself and loving myself. I gave what others wanted but I couldn't give it to myself. So, this time I need myself.
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I don't know what to do
Date: June 03, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
No words can describe how painful my head is right now, it spins unstopped as I say it will spin, I laugh it spin and I move it spin. Gosh, I don't know what to do just to make it stop as it aches no matter what I do. I already take medicine but nothing happens and I even sleep all day to ease the pain but still nothing happens. Now, I really don't know what to do. I don't even have the courage to write today but I don't want to miss a day because I badly need money for my graduation fee and expenses worth $60. I will be the one who will shoulder all the expenses but I don't have any savings left as I made a transaction before the announcement was made. And now, I am totally finally broken and I still have days to accumulate that amount and I know I cannot make it, especially with my health these days.
I am a graduating student next month, taking up a Bachelor of Science in Business Administration major in Financial Management. I barely don't know why I took that major because I hate mathematics and analysis. Maybe I was sleeping when I enrolled, lol. My mathematics teacher before advised us to choose a course that we hate for us to love. Afterwards maybe I followed that advice. When the pandemic starts, online modality is introduced to us as a way of learning which everybody thinks is easy and assumes that I am ayahay accusing without knowing the hardship I've been through. https://read.cash/@JustMaryel/i-am-not-ayahay-1df8e4dc
Online class is so hard aside from the poor connection barrier, my main struggle is making projects, assignments or requirements that need to be done using a computer or laptop. Glory to God, I made it though there are times I really want to give up and leave everything behind. I even cry in front of my family saying "I'll give up" but what hurts is they just ignore it. All the sleepless nights are worth it and soon will be paid off. I am thankful for my phone, though it's a lag and delay, it still survived and was with me for the entire online class. One time, I wanted to throw away my phone because of the delay. Imagine 5 minutes before the time everything went black that made me shake and cry cuz I got zero and my professor can't accept my reason. In spite of everything, I made it but part of me doesn't want to graduate because my family expectation is too heavy that I can cope up with that thought. Honestly, I am not ready to face the reality of life.
I sound too much but I want to take this chance at talagang kakapalan ko na mukha as I mentioned I am totally financially broken right now but I am not begging, okay😊. And unlucky, the site is in an upside and downside situation and Rusty is aloof with me but still thankful that he is with me.
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Definitely a no to ex-friend
Date: June 02, 2022
Author: JustMaryel
My Thursday went too hot as Mr. Sunny shines so bright that it can cause heat stroke. I was overthinking something important when I had no topic and ideas when I stared at the blank white paper. To save my Thursday I crossed to my kabit @Probinsyana "Can you marry your friends ex" article that gives me ideas on what to write. https://read.cash/@Probinsyana/can-you-marry-your-friends-ex-d7db6136
Can you continue your relationship with someone that slept with your best friend?
Absolutely no, why would I? I'm not that martyr to endure all the pain after witnessing the scene. Seeing them in bed cuddling in each other's arms is a horror to me that surely haunts me every night until I totally move on with that scene. I don't need their explanation as the scene gives enough explanation I needed. I'll both cut off relationship - romantic and friendship because if she truly is my friend and he loves them they will not sleep with each other no matter what. So, no need to be a martyr and I'm enough of it in movies.
Can you get married to someone you are not compatible with medically?
Medically? Like can't produce a child? It's okay with me as long as he loves me so much and is faithful towards me though being a mother is one of my dreams to complete my dream family. If we are not compatible medically we can do the adoption and fill our home with love as one.
Can you marry an abusive partner?
No way and never will because if he raises his hand once with no further explanation I'll leave him afterwards. My mother always taught us to fight back when we have a partner who is abusive because when they know that I can fight back he will never think me as an easy piece. I love you but I will not tolerate abuse act co'z every abuse incident it will leave a trauma that I can carry lifetime.
Can you marry someone with no source of income?
It depends but a big part of me is a yes while there is a no because we all need money to survive. To answer yes I can as long as he is not irresponsible because I do believe money can be earned everywhere it just needs hard work. He is hardworking and responsible. I can marry him co'z we can earn money with our hard work.
Have you ever fallen in love with someone at first sight?
No and apparently I don't believe in it. Maybe I could like someone at first sight but not love because I believe love is something that must need to go deep like knowing his character and a bit of background.
Can you ever imagine yourselves in an homosexual relationship?
I'm 101% straight. I can't imagine myself being in a relationship with the same gender. Don't get me wrong, I hate them but I can't really imagine being in their shoes. I do appreciate beauty and I even admire some homosexual relationship because of their bravery being together no matter what people say.
Can you marry your friend's ex?
Gosh, a tough question as it depends on the situation. I go for no especially when I know my friend still have feeling towards him. Above all definitely a no when something happen towards them. It's so awkward and I can't help to think that he and my friend do the same thing. She saw what I supposed to see first, so big no no for me.
Are you currently in a relationship?
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