Rest in giving up
Date: June 15, 2022 Author:JustMaryel
For almost ten months of my journey since I started this is the longest day that I did not visit, publish and even make a short post that I usually do when I am not around. If someone noticed I was inactive and nowhere to be found for three days I would like to say that for three days I took my rest having continuous writer block, rest from pressure, demotivated or due to busyness just to make an excuses but I couldn't find exact reason why I am inactive those days but one thing I'm sure, for that three days I missed all of you guys walang halong chemical talagang I come to point laziness wants to eat whole and even to end my journey maybe one of the reason the market is crashing down drastically that we/I never expect to come.
Frustrated, how indecisive I am even though I grab one chance but I missed the one who is much bigger if only I could turn back the time so I could feel this frustration and regret. Remember when I decided to buy a new phone as my souvenir for this site as well as a self-gift graduation for not giving up those difficulties and I really saved that money for months. So, I made a halfway transaction by sending all the amount from Bitcoin.com to coins.ph though someone advised me if I made a transaction in that kind of amount I better use Binance but I am not familiar with the process you know I am slow learning in words term that is why I need demonstration to better understand but he was busy that time which I ended up in coins.ph. By the way, I made a transaction when the BCH was pumping to $206 overnight. Immediately when I saw my losses recover I made a decision but I regretted not making it into a full transaction where I needed to convert it into our fiat but I didn't because I believe it will pump more but otherwise happen and even more regret when seeing the market drastically dip.
Other frustration is about our school co'z they will not grant us a face to face graduation even the covid19 is not that high risk anymore. Gosh, government even allow the face to face rally, election and more events that is more crowned and didn't follow distances dahil sa sobrang dikit. Even Davao City permit to celebrate kadayawan face to face and also other schools celebrate a face to face graduation. Sadly, the school cannot didn't want a face to face graduation which make us frustrated. We wanted our parents to march with us wearing a black toga and witness receiving our diploma on stage. I believe it's their pride seeing us paying off all their sacrifices they made for the past year but the school hindered us from experiencing that experience. We were even initiated by the department to make graduation pictorial as we felt the school abandoned and didn't care for us. Ewan ko nalang talaga sa school.
Too much thoughts and frustrations aside, the weight of pressure makes me want to shut down for days to think about nothing. I think my three days inactive helps me to think and recollect myself. So, here I am ready to fight life again and again. There is no room for giving up but there is rest.
Thanks a lot❤
Lead image is mine.
Gina pasagdahan naman jud ta nila, hayyyysstt bisan unsaon pa nato nag ingon na mag face-to-face dili jud na sila