Of course, I Do
Date: May 31, 2022 Author: JustMaryel
Here I am again having writer block, writing a few sentences and erasing them again. Writing and erasing is what I do hours of staring at the screen phone. Saved articles really save me a lot in this kind of situation and thanks to prof @meitanteikudo "Have you ever" for saving my Tuesday.
I have been in love and always been in love, not in a romantic aspect. I have not always been in love with myself. If you're asking about my relationship with him, I am also in love with him. Apparently, it's been a year but we keep it a secret and be private as much as possible because in private walang nakikisawsaw and I find in more intimate no need for me to flex in social media just to announce or let others know what I have right now. Of course, we both agreed even at first he didn't want to but later on he agreed because he understood my point of view.
Of course I do, I feel lonely when something happens and no one is there for me. Loneliness eats me so hard that negativity starts to enter the scene. I think the more we dwell in loneliness the more lonely we feel.
I did not but it is one of my plan when I do have enough saving to spend on. I really want to visit Israel first because I want to visit Nazareth and see those ancient buildings from a thousand years ago. I really need to save and save to acquire this plan of mine.
Of course I do, I remember one incident that really shook my world. I was walking in the street that night suddenly motorcycle stop and ask me about someone which I answer I don't know and I walked faster as I could co'z it follow me afterward. When I noticed I ran faster and approached my brother and told everything that someone had mistaken me. From that moment, I barely talk to strangers during the evening.
Of course I do, ice cream is one of my favorites, especially double dutch flavor or any thing that has chocolate. Lately, I haven't eaten ice cream because I try to avoid sweet foods as much as possible.
Of course we do despite our age gap. Every fight my parents favored me as I am the youngest of the family but what really annoyed me was when they called me "ampon" ( adopted) and narrated a fiction story that Mama and Papa just picked me from garbage. Gosh, it's good to reminisce about those days.
I have never been, thanks to my strict aura and being an introvert that I barely don't want to be in a large group or meeting new people because two or three is enough for me but I never close any door. I was not in a relationship for fun because I believe a relationship is something that needs to be serious co'z it is an investment of time and effort.
Busted considering a dump? I just told him to stop waiting and end what we have because I am not yet ready and I fell out of love all of the sudden so I decided to talk to him and move on. Though I feel pity towards him but that is the best thing I can do and now he is happy with someone else and I do so.
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