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@Janz 14 November 2022

Good day!!! how are you everyone? I don't know if its still okay for me to be active again in this account knowing that I haven't published anything for 6 months already. But, I missed writing so, I will try to be active again here. Hopefully, you'll still accept me here again.

@Janz 5 May 2022

Thanks God, He's finally fine `May 5, 2022 THURSDAY` Thanks God!!!! He's finally fine. Now, he's back to be super active and even hyper active. Actually, this was the continuation of my previous articles which was published 6 days ago. See? How I became so lazy making articles for I'm kind of having hard time managing my time and always end up so exhausted and tired every after work though I only have worked in front of my laptop but then it seems to made me tired as always that's why I can't able to make an article for my mind won't work anymore. Anyways, I'm just glad that despites the fact, I still able to have 5 or more articles from the previous months. Hopefully, I can have more for this month. Anyways, I just want to share this time how happy I am as a mother knowing that my son get easily well after we went to a pediatrician last week. My last article I shared a week ago was about the **painful feeling I felt being a mother** seeing how my son suffers from his sickness. In that said article, I shared that my son weren't feeling well for almost 3 days and of course being a mother I was so worried on what to do as in I'm totally in pain seeing my son not in his good condition. https://read.cash/@Janz/painful-feeling-as-a-mother-20bb5fcc Therefore, last Friday I really tried to seek for money to where and whom I can borrow because I don't have money for its not yet our salary release time. As I really wanted to bring my son to a pediatrician for I was afraid that his on and off fever were symptoms of dengue virus because the said virus as well were rampant now in our area. I was afraid for my son after his fevers subsides there were some rashes that appears on his chest and face. That is why, even though he doesn't have fever that last Friday I still urged to borrow some money to my colleague and my partner also borrowed money to his sister because we really can't just let it go without consulting to a pediatrician for in case his fever came back. That is why, last Friday I and partner logged out early at our work so that we can still have much time to bring our son to a pediatrician. But before that, I did chat first to my friend about where is the clinic of the pedia that she knew and also same pedia of her son. So, she gave the number of the Doctor and I first confirmed if they have clinic hours that time. Good thing that they are open until 4:30PM that day. After lunch, I and partner went home already and at 2pm we then brought our son to the said Doctor (pediatrician). When we arrived there, our son seems feeling well for he was amazed by lots of toys in the clinic. Somehow, I felt at eased for at last my son will be checked and will know of what really his condition that time. `As you can see, that's our son who enjoyed playing in the pediatrician's clinic.` Almost 4pm, my son were checked already and the Doctor said that my son's throat were so red which is why he won't eat properly and even not drinking much water. Also, one of the causes why my son got fever. Also, the rashes that came out from his chest and face were the usual rashes that came out every after fever as what the Doctor said. Actually, the Doctor named what kind of rashes it was but can't recall of what it is already but all she said it was a viral bacteria and will just fades out . Then, the Doctor gave her medications for my son. Then told me that if my son's fever will return a day after he got checked up we will undergo a laboratory for urinalysis and blood count to know if my son really got infected by dengue. After hearing it, all that comes in my mind is that I'm hoping that my son's fever won't come back and he will be totally fine because I can't afford to see my son suffers from said virus. So, after checked up we immediately bought the medications and went home already. I also bought fruit for him for he asked banana and orange fruits. By then, I observed our son and a day passed by his fever never came back and even up until today which is already a week ago he was totally fine and came back to a super active kid. As a mother, this kind of situations somehow made me realized that its totally not easy to be one. Especially seeing my kid got sick. Also, as a mother and as parent we are going to do our best to find ways how can we make our kid felt fine again. In my case, as what I've mentioned, I really borrowed money from my colleague even if its so shy to borrow money from them but for the sake of my son that shyness automatically fades away. Same goes also to my partner who also borrowed money. So, I was very thankful to those having good heart and helped me without any hesitations. That is why, we should always do good so that there will be someone in the future that will do good to us as well even in just simple way or manner. That's all for this article. Seeyahh!!! ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz

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@Janz 28 April 2022

Painful feeling as a mother `April 28, 2022 THURSDAY` **WORRIED!** A big word for me as of this moment. I don't know I somehow overthinks on things nowadays. Maybe because I'm in the middle of complying on some papers or documents that are in need for the upcoming evaluation here in my workplace. I'm worried that I might not able to make things done accordingly. I also knew the fact that worrying is part of our emotional being. ***But when it comes to my little, worrying for me is already on it's peak level.*** Today is the third day were my 2-years old son were not actually feeling well. That's why I don't know, as his mother I can't sleep well knowing my son isn't in good condition though I have with me my mother and father who helped me in taking care of my son. Still I can't stop on overthinking. Last Sunday, when I and my partner went back here in my parent's place because of work our son were so happy seeing us both because according to my mother our son were always seeking for our presence and she said there was one time my son were looking at me and my mother just said that I was on work and that's why I'm not at home then suddenly after my mother says that she said that my son almost cried for he was looking at me for almost 2 days. Since, I and partner went back home in our house which was more than 100 km away from my parents' place. We went back to our home because it's also been a month that we haven't went home because of our works. Then, we went back here last Sunday afternoon in my parent's place where our son is. That's why as I've said when our son sees us, he was so happy and its really visible because our son keep on saying *"nanay", "tatay"* or in english "mom" or "dad", then he keep on jumping, hugging us both as well as kissing us. That time our son were still feeling good. Seeing him which was so energetic and hyperactive I really can't noticed any sickness. He's still super active at this moment. When Monday came, early morning. My son was the one who wakes me up because Monday its a work day for me and my partner. So, my son woke me up that morning and when I hugged him I felt my son's temperature isn't normal because he kind of having high temperature. But at this moment, he's still super active. So, when I and my partner got home from work. We've seen our kid lying already while calling us "nanay" "tatay" in his soft voice. In this case, I new already that our son weren't feeling well. Because he's usual approach to us every time we got home were so lively unlike at this moment were he was just lying in bed while keep on calling us. Then, my mother told us that our son were like that since afternoon and then he even vomits two times because of a high fever. For his 2 years and 4 months now, this time was I guess the third time he got fever which was so high and this time was his highest temperature ever which became 40 degrees celcius and as a mother of course I'm so worried of what is the caused of his fever for why it became so high. Because most reasons why he got fever its because of his super hype actions which somehow leads to having some sprains in his waist and somewhere in his armpits. But what worries me is that, were far away from his therapeutic massager since his massager were at our place and not here in my parents' place because before once he got fever we are just going to bring him to that massager and the day after he got he massage he'll be fine again. But for this time, that wasn't the case because even if we brought him to a massager my son were still not okay. This morning, I was somehow relieved because his temperature went down. But of course, the worry as a mother is still there. I'm just hoping that when I get home today, I'll be fully felt unworried and my son will be fully relieved from his fever because I really can't afford seeing my son sick. I just wish its all on me, his sickness will be on me than seeing him suffers from it. That's actually the aching part for me as a mother and maybe the most painful feeling seeing my son got sick. That's why being a mother isn't that easy because in this kind of cases, I as a mother and even we as parents felt the most painful one. ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.parents.com/news/moms-simple-trick-for-sibling-rivalry/

@Janz 19 April 2022

Would you rather: Food Edition `April 19, 2022 TUESDAY` **GOOD DAY!!!** How are you doing everyone? Anyways, this article is my 4th article of this month. What a waste month for me. Well, this month maybe the worst month for having a few articles being published knowing that its already sec0nd to the last week of the month. I was very busy and also the internet connection here in my area made me lazy as well for its so super unstable and most of the times its gone like your crush. Anyway, for this article I'm going to write my thoughts and just have a fun response about a would you rather questions but its now on the food edition. Of course, I love foods and also I've seen some who published articles about this or that edition on foods. Maybe, I'll have that edition too tomorrow or the next day. So, without further ado. Let me start now my WOULD YOU RATHER: FOOD EDITION... Well, since I love chocolates more than cheese. So, **I would rather give up cheese forever than giving up my favorite sweets.** I remember when I was still in my first year college, I had always a different kind of chocolates that I bought in the supermarket every Sunday when I went back at my boarding house. I really never missed buying such stuffs but I would just get shocked every time I checked my tupperware full chocolates that it lessens from time to time. Then, to find out it was my board mates who secretly ate my chocolates without my permission. Anyway, that's okay for me though. I just thought of it as my donation for their hunger. Haha I don't have any idea of what is a ravioli. I'm not familiar with it. So, I'm gonna go with the food that I'm familiar with. Therefore, **I would rather only eat the dumplings that to eat the ravioli.** Well, I don't know yet what a dumpling taste but I am familiar with it and I love to taste it. One day, I will try to explore this kind of food. **I would rather eat every meal with ketchup** because I like ketchup than a mayo. I can dip any fried dish with a ketchup. For mayo, I just loved it when I pair it with a bread. But talking about meals, the I'll go with a ketchup every meal. Woaahhh, **I would love both.** Hehe I like pizza most especially if its more cheesy and just have a thin dough. Also, I love pancakes as snacks or even for dinner. So, that's okay for me if I eat pizza every morning and pancakes every night. Probably, **I would give up the salt.** Haha Knowing that I'm into sweets, so I can't give on sugar easily. But of course I knew its not good to consume more of it. There's always a limitation because of there's none. Then, goodbye healthy body and welcome diabetes. Hehe Ohhhh, I love French fries especially filled with cheese. So, **I rather be in a world without onion rings.** I don't care with onion rings. What I care much is the fries. Hahaha French fries actually is one of my favorite snacks. So yeah, I'm okay with a world with full of fries than full of onion rings. I'm not actually into cheese. So, **I would rather not eat either grilled cheese or mac'n'cheese.** But not totally hated cheese because I also loved cheese to be put in a pasta or pizza. Maybe **I would rather give up the pasta for a year than bagels**. Because I'm not really into pasta. Well, I like pasta but consume it for only like once a week. So, consuming more than that isn't actually my type. I just loved it during especial occasions like birthdays. I somehow can't imagine consuming it for a year unlike those bagels foods. I guess that's more okay for me. I guess, **I would rather give up the cake.** Haha Well, they're both sweets and my favorite. But I much into ice cream, I can give up ice cream though but only for I guess a year but not forever. Haha Because sometimes my taste buds would prefer more on the ice creams than the cakes. **I would rather eat the cup noodles every day for a year** but of course its not healthy to consume it every day though, but between the two, I love the cup noodles especially if its hot or spicy. I'm already hooked with the Hawaiian pizza since its also the common. So, **I'm gonna go with getting the salad pizza every time I order pizza** since I also love pizza with lots of green leaf and veggies. I guess, **I would rather eat the onions every meal.** I just put it or dip it in a soy sauce paired with tomatoes. Then, I'm already satisfied for sure. Ooopppsss.... **I think I can't give up them both**. I loved them both though even though I just tasted twice the Nutella than the peanut butter because you know Nutella is kinda' pricey than a peanut butter which is so affordable. That's why I always purchased the peanut butter than a Nutella. Maybe, one day I will no longer hesitates buying the Nutella. But as I've said, it's hard to give both. Hehe Hmmm... **I would rather choose a life mashed potatoes** because that's totally fine with me knowing that I still have the tater tots. In fact. they're just both potatoes and I'm somehow not into a mashed one. So, let's go with tater tots. Yeeyyy, the last one to be chosen. So, **I would rather give up soda for a year than the candies** especially the gummy candies which I love. I don't care if I give up the soda. In fact, its much better for the health. So, that was it everyone. My version of this would you rather but on food edition. All images attached were snipped from Google and if you want to try this type of would you rather questions about foods then feel free to visit **this link.** https://www.buzzfeed.com/hannahloewentheil/would-you-rather-food-game That said **link**, is the source where I also got this type of would you rather questions. https://www.buzzfeed.com/hannahloewentheil/would-you-rather-food-game **HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!** ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.google.com/search?q=would+you+rather+food+edition&rlz=1C1BNSD_enPH999PH999&sxsrf=APq-WBvmEqwYqB-tCHMAWhjBdT_FIT_OTg:1650332590279&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&sqi=2&ved=2ahUKEwju67f-_573AhUkREEAHWDOCbgQ_AUoAXoECAEQAw&biw=1366&bih=568&dpr=1#imgrc=KPCRuvtiNJx3tM&imgdii=scP0J2XuitGr2M

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@Janz 14 April 2022

Thursday come, weeks gone: An update `April 14, 2022 THURSDAY` **It's Maunday Thursday everyone! ! !** How are you doing today? Well, here I am again, back in this world of writing articles for the sake of BCH. Then, for the many times that I wasn't able to cope up my duty here it's again another lots of things that I missed. I don't know, I really can't manage my time well this time. It always ends up that I tend to set aside one thing and that one thing is my tasks in here, in this read.cash platform. I was really bombarded and tired for my daily routine which includes my works that somehow I can't manage to think an article to write for I was drained and tired. That's actually driven me to not able to make all things done in a day and not able to manage time well. I really hate when I felt tired for as I've said I can make things done in one sitting as if I really want to but this tiredness I felt will always wins and dominates my entire body and soul. Anyways, there's one thing as well that motivates me to get back here. If I don't have penny left in my pocket. That is why, I always think that I don't have money anymore for I'll be always active here but again tiredness dominates over money. Therefore, it's been a week or more that I haven't checked my account here and I'm so mad at myself because of that. As I've wanted to be active here even just for 3 to 4 hours per day but sadly its kind of hard for me to do it. As I've always felt blank every time I attempted to write articles for I can't start my article for my mind were stressed from different things and that made me felt tired too. Maybe I just need to learn how to control this type of me for I know it's no help for my productivity instead it made me lazy and worst unproductive. Maybe, the main problem for myself why I somehow felt like this is my mindset and I always let my negative self wins. Therefore, I guess I need to fight for this for myself. Anyways, so much for that. As I've said, I've been away for a week in this platform. So, here' s some updates. **First, the heartbreaking scenarios on the aftermath of tropical depression Agaton that hits Leyte areas.** The said typhoon were actually not that strong in fact its just a tropical depression. But it brought heavy rains to places where it hits. That heavy rains brought by it is the reason why the said tropical depression lefts huge casualties. Because, severe flooding, landslides even mudslides were happening all over Leyte provinces. Due to flooding and landslides a lot of people died even children. That really is a heartbreaking part. As you can see, the images I attached which I screenshots from a Facebook post. That images were showing the casualties left by tropical depression Agaton. A not so strong typhoon but then it lefts our hearts empty especially seeing those families dies, children died knowing that they still have brighter future ahead of them but then in just a flash they'd never expected that it was then their last breaths. Therefore, my faithful prayers to all victims of the said calamity. That's the least we can do for them aside from giving them some needs they need like clothes, foods and other necessities they need. So, that's actually a not good update. **Another is that, an update for my pregnancy. Is there a second baby?** Well, I guess I need to write a separate article for this. But, just to give you update I'm actually not sure yet if there is a second one. But, I have thought there is for I'm now in my second week menstrual delayed. But let's see. Again, see you for my next article for this. Haha Now, for this instance. I need to end this here for I and partner were now going home since were here at my office just to charge our gadgets for still we don't have yet electricity after Odette's wrecked our places. It's been 4 months already that our electricity isn't back yet. So, that's why were here because I'm also editing my modules for my students. So, that was it. Hope to see you gain in my next visit. Have a fruitful holy week everyone... ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz Lead image source https://quotefancy.com/quote/1234809/George-Herbert-Thursday-come-and-the-week-s-gone

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@Janz 2 April 2022

My FIRST intimate experiences `April 2, 2022 SATURDAY` As I am wandering all over this platform just to have or get an idea on what to write for I have nothing in mind. I bumped into articles of @ThisisGrace21 and @Yzza0625 about recollecting their memories on their ***first CRUSH***, ***first BOYFRIEND*** and ***first BREAK UP***. Then, here I am. Good thing I was able to read their articles and I have an idea on what to write before this day ends. I just hoped this signal connection will be good to me so that I can publish this. Otherwise, I just end up this day without entry. Actually, I'm writing it as fast as I can while the signal is still good. Good? Well, maybe not because its on and off and it really tests my patience. Hahayysst.... Well anyway, I just hope I ended up publishing this one for as of writing sadly the page is now reconnecting. Time check: 10:40PM, Its the time right now that I was able to get back here for the signal were gone a while ago. *So, I will now start* ***my first intimate experiences*** *while signal is back.* First CRUSH To have crush/crushes is actually just a normal feeling more especially in our teenage life. I myself have felt to admired someone's looks, attitudes, and the way they wore clothes. But I was able to really or shall I say super admired on someone when I was in my 2nd year high school. I really had a secret feeling of my classmate or I really had a crush on that guy. He was my first crush that I secretly admired and tried my best to not let anybody know that I had a crush on him knowing that were just classmate and aside from that we are also closed to each other. It's very shameful if someone knew about it. But even if I really did my best to not let others know my feeling. Still, there is this someone who accidentally knew and what's more worst and shameful is that he/my crush also knew about it. Someone knew about because of such one time that I wrote my crush name and my name and put it in a heart and that someone was on my back without me knowing whose watching on what I wrote. Then, that someone is also my classmate and cousin of my crush. I was totally shy at that time to the point that I crumpled the paper and throw it outside. To found out that my classmate didn't saw what I wrote on that paper properly and was shocked when she went outside and got back the crumpled paper that I threw outside even if its raining and then she opened it since it wasn't yet totally wet from the rain. Then, there she found out I had a crush on her cousin. I really begged her to not tell anyone especially to her cousin. Still, I was glad he never told anyone about it. Years passed. I was already in 1st year college and that time I saw again my crush because we are on the same university as well as we found out that we are just neighbors for our boarding house were just near from each other. But this time, I already don't have that feeling of admiring him. In other words, that crush feeling were gone already and when I saw him again I just felt nothing as if I just knew him from before. So, during this time we tend to always hang out after class, we seen each other after class but eventually he just confess on me which left me to have nothing to say because first and foremost I just hang out with him as friend and nothing more. Then, to find out he just actually grabbing the opportunity for he said to me that he knew and his cousin told him that I had crush on him before so that's why he courted me expecting to say yes to him. I was actually quite disappointed on him with what I know because I felt he just courted me because he was confident that I would say yes knowing his my crush. Like what? Why shouldn't he asked if I still have a crush on him or not before courting? That was it. Somehow, my first crush ends up a memorable experienced for me. First BOYFRIEND My first boyfriend actually was my relative. Well, I never knew he was still my relative. That is why when I knew it I automatically cut off the relationship even if he doesn't want to cut it off. My first boyfriend were actually my long time text mate before when I was still in high school. We were text mates for 3 years as in we were so closed as text mates but I don't know why that if we saw each other in person as if we were strangers. Lol Yeah, that was our set up. Until such time that he asked me a favor that he wanted my help for he liked someone but his afraid of the parents because it strict that's why he had hesitations of courting. Then, to find out it was me he's pointing about the girl he liked and courted me because I actually advised him to why not try. Haha So, it ended that he really tried courting the girl and that was me. Since, I was somehow attached by him maybe because were a long time text mate. I accepted him. But we just last for 1 month because as I've said I found out that were just relative and I hate that. Actually, I was somehow felt pity for him because he really did begged me not to leave him but I'm really firmed to cut our relationship because were just relative and I don't like it. First BREAK UP Actually, my first break up is what I mentioned above on my first boyfriend. Break up because were just related to each other. Somehow, this affected me but not that totally broken hearted because that time I was still so young and also that time I still don't know what really love is. Somehow, I must it was just a feeling of what we called a "puppy love". That was for me because I'm still that young. But its actually different feeling for the guy that time because a week after I broke up with him, I just found out that he flew to Manila which is so far our province to find a job even though that time he had already a job. Then, I confirmed it that I was the reason that he went to Manila because he texted me that he wanted to forget his feelings from me and he can't do that if he would always saw me. So, that's why he went there. Well, anyways with such first intimate experiences I must say that I had really a long hair. Haha ***Time check:*** *11:25PM. I'm done writing but I don't know if I can publish this because the signal were freaking gave me a head ache.* ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.google.com/search?q=first&client=ms-android-oppo-rvo2&prmd=vimn&sxsrf=APq-WBs5auQWKDTqivTuRUBcGWT5q5q87A:1648913418839&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwioh-GU2fX2AhUEhMYKHYfLDB8Q_AUoAnoECAIQAg#imgrc=u-SXI8VrS_GjXM

@Janz 1 April 2022

Am I fooled by some foolish questions? `April 1, 2022 FRIDAY` It's now the start of the month April and they said that April is a fool's day month. I don't know of what's its basis but that's what I usually hear and seen on Facebook trends about the said month. Actually, fooling someone isn't an ethical manner or behavior. For me, its actually one of a toxic virtue an individual has, But it will be just a positive behavior or manner if and only if the purpose of fooling someone is for the better and not for degrading, for humiliating, for spreading negativities, for false information and other negative impacts of it. `Disclaimer: Anyways, this article by the way is not for an intentions to spread negativities but I just want to have fun responding on some questions that are somehow fooling us on the reality and on what's not real. In other words, this questions that I'm going to share and somehow answer in a way I can are questions that will made us think of how come and why not? In short, I just want to have an entertainment on this fool or dumb questions and just my own opinion. No other negative intentions. Just to have fun. No more No Less.` In addition, this questions are not mine and I just searched it on Google. So, if you also wanted to be fooled by some fooling questions, then here is the **link.** https://questionsgems.com/dumb-questions/ Just simply click that highlighted word link, then you'll be directed to the questions I'm talking about. Definitely, I will just choose some of it and answer it my own way. Here we go... **If corn oil is made from corn and vegetable oil is made from vegetable, what is baby oil made from?** Well, I just go along with the questions. Maybe from baby as well just corn oil from corn and vegetable oil from vegetable. So, why would I think for more when its obvious in the question. Lol **If money doesn't grow on trees, then why do banks have branches?** Certainly, I also wondered why? Haha Maybe because money grows hand in hand. What I mean is value of money grows bigger and bigger and somehow one bank can no longer accommodate the weight of the money when it became bigger from time to time. Therefore, banks have no choice but to think same way like a tree and adapt branches just like a tree, and I thank you. Haha **How come you press harder on a remote control when you know the battery is dead?** In my thought, probably there's really a big problem on a person's psychological manner if this is the sense. Because how come he/she kept on pressing it when he/she know its battery is dead? Right? or Maybe because he/she just loved pressing a remote control for maybe it his/her stress reliever. *(haha, may pa segway na stress reliever ehh wala lang talagang masabi Haha)* **If an orange is orange, why isn't a lime called green or a lemon called a yellow?** Simply, because lime and lemon is not an orange and they were absolutely a different word more so they have different spelling. So, that is why they can't be called like as what an orange is called. *(philosophy 101, HaHa)* **If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests?** Quiz and tests are of similar intentions. Both were for giving an assessments to what is need to be assess. In other words, why not? Why not a tests be same as a quiz. So, I can say, a tests can also be a testical just like what quizzes are quizzical. **Can a blind people see their dreams?** Definitely YES. Blind people can really see their dreams. Dreams are beyond imaginations and also beyond our control. If that so, why can't a blind dreamed that there not blind? Right? **If the #2 pencil is the most popular, why is it still #2?** Oucchhh, I don't wanna be like the #2 pencil. I want to be always the #1 in his heart. *(hahaha drama)* Anyways, here we called the #2 pencil as *"mongol 2 pencil"* and definitely a *"mongol 2 pencil"* is the best pencil among other type of pencils. In fact, since elementary up to now I'm using a *"mongol 2 pencil"* for it's quality is good. But yeah I wonder, why is it not a #1 pencil or a *"mongol 1 pencil"* when its the best. Anyone, knows? HAha Now, for the last question because my colleagues here are already going home and I already left alone here in the office. As I really wanted to answer more, I just answer one last question since the unseen people are now coming in here in the office. Haha Here, the last question for this article... **If you mated a bulldog and a shitsu, would it be called bullsh*t?** Well, its not necessary to combine names for its not already popular nowadays. Therefore, I tend to disagree. If we mated two different kind of dogs then we have the right to name their puppies anything we wanted. That would be all, THANK YOU!!! Hope you'd enjoy reading.... ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.google.com/search?q=dumb+questions&rlz=1C1BNSD_enPH999PH999&biw=1366&bih=568&tbm=isch&sxsrf=APq-WBufdMze7unfEWnow0Asgoq3nW_lDw:1648802050659&source=lnms&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwj606KkuvL2AhXMqFYBHYeNAdsQ_AUoAXoECAEQAw#imgrc=btb5gLnMipmlAM

@Janz 31 March 2022

At last, it was delivered safe and sound `March 31, 2022 WEDNESDAY` It's definitely the last day of the month. Another month to be faced and of course another goals that needs to be achieved and done for the following month. Anyways, I just want to write the happenings last Tuesday wherein I was so happy seeing my delivered parcel. So, last Tuesday at 2PM, my most awaited parcel from LBC has been successfully delivered and received by yours truly. I must say, **at last it was delivered safe and sound.** With no unnecessary problem from it. What I'm talking about is my ordered laptop. Last Tuesday, I was able to sees and checked my ordered laptop if it functions well and if the specifications were really is the exact specs I ordered. Definitely, I was so glad and happy that everything were in good condition and all were functioning well. Overall, I was happy that I wasn't scammed and truly the seller were legit as well very responsive. Because we all knew as well that purchasing online is always a risk-taking part knowing that I purchased a laptop and somehow its price is a pocket loss for sure and that is one thing that I'm really afraid of and have built some hesitations. But yes, its a good thing that I was able to be in a legit seller that really provides me the item I wanted with no errors and everything is functioning. Since, I really aimed to have my own laptop because of my field of work which is teaching and everything now is online due to pandemic. Truly, laptop is definitely a basic need in terms of my field of work. As I've always shared in here in my article that I was really aiming to have one because when I start working here in the university I don't own a laptop. Actually, we have a computer set before but I and my partner agreed to just sell that computer set because we need immediate money that time for that's the time that we separate from my partner's grandma's house and just rent a house. Also, we wasn't able to purchased immediately our own laptop because of some important priorities to be prioritized first. Therefore, that time I just borrowed laptop of my partner's sister instead. Then, this semester my 2nd semester in this kind of work. There were lots of paper works to be done and if I don't have my own laptop of course there limitations on until when I can borrow it because the owner also have things to do and I understand that. That is why, as I've wanted to work on my paper works anytime I can't able to do it. So, with I really pursue on buying my own at least I can now able to do things anytime and anywhere and does things I ever wanted without minding that I need to return it to its owner because I am now the owner. That actually triggered me to purchased my own and yesterday as I've said it has been delivered successfully and I was amazed by the way they packaged. I can say the laptop has been secured hundred percent knowing that it was shipped from Luzon to Visayas. That is why it took 7 days before it arrived. They secured the laptop with that blue thick plastic cover then the laptop inside were also being doubled bubble wrapped. So, it was truly secured and safe. The laptop is an HP brand with core-i5 4th generation also with 8gb RAM and 700 SSD as its specifications. No regrets, because it all functions well the fact that this laptop isn't a brand new one its just a second hand laptop but still works so fine and new. I chose to have this instead a brand new because the main reason is that my money won't be enough for a brand new one knowing that I needed a laptop immediately so I can't to save money just to have brand new instead I have this second hand since it also looks brand new and it is still running smoothly. So, I thought of why shouldn't I, right? At least, I have something to used right away. Overall, as buyer. I am satisfied with what I purchased. I am happy with the laptop they sent to me for. For everything functions well. Just hoping it will last longer. Great day everyone! ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz

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@Janz 28 March 2022

Pampering self thru beauty health and wellness `March 28, 2022 MONDAY` Rainy Monday everyone!!! Yes. It's raining hard in our place right now as of writing. Maybe there's a typhoon again for they said there's a typhoon that's hits near our province. I'm not sure because we don't have television yet for still we don't have electricity after 3 months of super typhoon Odette. But, maybe there's really a typhoon or maybe low pressure because the rain poured so hard as of the moment. Good thing we don't have a duty at school today. Well, speaking of duty. Today which is Monday is actually a rest day for all of the employees in the university I worked at. They called today as our ***wellness day.*** We are given the privilege to rest for a whole day in response to all the negativities, shocked and calamities that was experienced by all of us. It is the day given to us, to at least enjoy the day without any work in mind and just choose to rest, reflect and pampers self in any manner we like to do. Last week, the school celebrated the ***beauty and wellness summit or the health is wealth summit.*** We did a program for a whole day last Tuesday which was also being in lined with the celebration of women's day and the employee's day celebration. The program which was spearheaded by the school specially the organization called FAST focused on the beauty an wellness. The said program last Tuesday last week at school started with a so-called *"Juana' Banjak"* which all employees are encouraged to joined the early biking. It was followed by the *"Juana' Dance"* which was the zumba for all employees or they called it the *"Zumbathon".* After such activities, the program proper started at our school's theater. We all employees are required to halt on all our works and it was a compulsory to all of us to attend. So, of course we all attended the said program. The program as I've said focused on beauty and wellness therefore, there were 5 types of talks from different speaker and all their talks were all about **beauty, health and wellness.** It was because for us to be aware on how relevant to us is beauty, health and wellness and not just to all women employees but also to men. The said activity were letting us be aware as well that health is not just of our physical appearance but it dwells to all aspects of our well being. So, not just in physical aspects but also in our emotional, social and spiritual dwellings in life. That we shouldn't be complacent on things that we thought are still healthy for us but rather we should be mindful on things that made ruined our life and that includes everything. Everything on how we dealt with our daily survivals. In our field of work, stressors were here and there and always just surrounded us. That is why, the said program somehow gave us the time to pamper ourselves and to have relaxation from all the hectic schedules and all the deadlines needed to meet. It was such a great day for us all to somehow reflects on different things and realized on such things that brought us negativities and made out heath at risks. All the talks given be different speakers really enlightened us in a way that we somehow realized the importance of health and wellness because from some point because of the nature of our work we tend to somehow neglects things that already made our health at risks. We overdosed ourselves with work without minding that it also eventually making our health into risks. The program somehow woke us up that it's really not good for us if we just neglects those things that made our health suffer. It's not good that we let ourselves be drowned by stressed. It's not good that we eat everything we wanted without any limitations. It's not good that we don't exert effort and have disciplined on exercising ourselves to be physically fit. All aspects must be given importance and not just given importance on physical, on just for our emotional aspects, not just on our social relationships and not just in our spiritual being. But, for us to be healthy and felt the wellness in life then all aspects must be given importance. All must be given efforts. All must be given time. **Then, for sure life that engaged through healthy lifestyle and wellness is truly and definitely a happy life.** That was actually what I've learned from all the talks on the said program **health is wealth summit.** Aside, from the awareness talks. The afternoon engagements were already the pampering time. We all employees are given free pampering moments. The said pampering moments were as well in accordance to what our program is all about. We are given free manicure, pedicure, foot reflexology, all types of body massage like half body and whole body massage, ventossa massage, foot spa and many more. I just had the foot reflexology that time and I must say it was really a relaxing moment not just for me but to all of us employees. Therefore, such moments like that really is in need and timely knowing that we are been to such tragic moments of life for we experienced that hardship of this pandemic and also the shocked moments when super typhoon Odette also hits our province which was wrecked everything mostly our shelters. Lastly, I'll end this article with one of my favorite quote of Mahatma Gandhi. `"It is HEALTH that is REAL WEALTH and not pieces of gold and silver." ~ Mahatma Gandhi` Have a great everyone!!! ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.google.com/search?q=health+is+wealth&client=ms-android-oppo-rvo2&prmd=inbv&sxsrf=APq-WBudwb4sXpYnsnoPDhDGSkfaR-JQ9Q:1648432425682&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&sqi=2&ved=2ahUKEwi726yp2ef2AhXVMMAKHZrwAxkQ_AUoAXoECAIQAQ#imgrc=vF_AeIn2XlCqgM&imgdii=fO9XPGVwpLfrFM

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@Janz 25 March 2022

What's with me? `March 26, 2022 SATURDAY` There's again another side of me dominates that I never controlled which I hate much. The side of me that I wanted to get eliminated for its one of the reason or maybe the main reason why I can't able to make things done. **What's with me?** My last upload article was already a week ago. Therefore, it's been a week that I haven't done any productivity in this account or in this platform **What's with me? What's wrong?** This past days my mind were bombarded with so many things that even those impossible things to occur ruins my mind. I'm stressed out and I felt it so much for I everyday my head's aching like it will explode anytime. I had many things that are yet undone which is needs to done immediately. I have many problems in mind that somehow stressed me all day. I always over think again. Everyday, I felt like I'm walking without any gravitation. I'm walking as if, I'm not breathing and even while writing this one me head were aching for I never knew what to say or to write for my mind were full and somewhat dictating me not to finish this piece. **What's with me anyway? Why am I like this again?** This past days, my every day were so busy. Busy from work and somehow all my time were focused on my work. We had lots of deadlines already that needs to meet up. That's why my most times were on the retrieving of outputs, checking and recording students outputs because deadlines for grade submission is approaching. In fact, deadline for graduates students was just last week and I really work out for it since I have handled graduating students. Actually, I already submitted the grades of my graduating students but it was still lacking for there were some of the students that don't have grade yet for they haven't submitted their outputs. That fact really made my head bangs since we are required to submit a complete grade sheet but what can I do some students really aren't submitting yet even if I already direct messaging all of them. I just don't like the fact that some students of mine were all time active on facebook but never submitted their outputs and if I message them they'd just said that they don't have stable signal. Like, really? Everyday your online and even posted updates on facebook and still have unstable connection? What an alibi? Therefore, I set them a deadline or else I won't gave them grades. ***(strict si maam, haha)*** I'm not strict actually if they only knew that as students they should comply on what are the need to comply in their subjects because if they don't have plan to comply then why are they still studying? Right? But, yeah some also have valid reasons and those just alibi's I just tend to understand them that is why I just leave blank on their grades and submitted an incomplete grade sheet instead of failing them of giving them passing grade of 75. Another thing that somehow annoys me as well is the fact that some students weren't satisfied on their grades kike if they have line of 8 grades they will questioned their teachers on why it has to be like that. They never knew that the grade they received were already pulled up by their teachers. Also, some students would say that why not there teacher won't just give them a fair grade of 75 the fact that they never submitted anything. Like, how come they're so demanding. How come that a teacher will just give such passing grade without any outputs? Where is the efficiency and effectivity of that? Aside from making of grades last week and even up to now, making of modules and syllabus deadlines were already approaching and what made me so stressed is that I still don't have my laptop and I can hardly done it my own. What I did on other grades is I did it manually which also caters lots of time. Unlike when, using laptop e-class record is there and just easy to grade for you just inputs their score and automatically their final grades will be computed. But yeah, I don't want to make myself hassle on borrowing laptop everyday for I also have negative feelings everytime I borrowed it. Also,So I don't want to bother the owner of it anymore for she has also lots to do. Therefore, I just decided to stop borrowing and did all my things done manually. That somehow consumes my whole time and bombarded my mind that ends up without no published articles and even never have interactions here for a week. I'm actually purchasing a laptop for in my field of work laptop really is the basic need. It's truly hard working without it because my work will stop if I don't have it knowing that I'm racing towards the deadlines. Hopefully, this week my laptop will arrived so that I can already work my things done. Module making, syllabus making and grades continuation. Also, working here as well through writing articles easily. That's really made my week busy to the point that I can't able to write anything for my mind were blown out with all paper works. I want to get back on track and hopefully I can maintain it this time. ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.google.com/search?q=what%27s+wrong%3F&client=ms-android-oppo-rvo2&prmd=ivmn&sxsrf=APq-WBvQJkM8x4QrXqeMstjN8Yik83iWAg:1648189540942&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjWzPDA0OD2AhU0slYBHcDdCh4Q_AUoAXoECAIQAQ&biw=360&bih=668&dpr=2#imgrc=pDAnJ8w0T5YBtM&imgdii=ncYQAgXyp7QugM

@Janz 16 March 2022

Knowing who I am by reflecting myself in some deep questions `March 16, 2022 WEDNESDAY` I believed that all of us has our individualities in terms of how we reflect ourselves on every situations we've had and been through. We learnt from it but some also still doing it even though it can harm them. Maybe in the case, they didn't learn anything. Reflecting on ourselves is one of the key on how we able to know our inner self. Of who we really are. Because some attributes and attitudes that we had are unrecognizable in our part others would know. Some, that we know but others also doesn't know. So, the way how we reflect ourselves and the thought on reflecting on ourselves is one that leads us to know better our true color or to know who we really are. For this article, I'm going answer some questions which are related of knowing who I really am and what are my views on some points. These questions actually are taken from one of@Zhyne06 article's about self-actualization. *First question,* **What are my strength?** First and the most strength I have right now is my son. Aside from my family, my partner, my son is the number one strength I have. I can do everything even beyond my capabilities because of my son. Everytime I felt weak, I immediately thought of my son's future and I became alive again. Everytime I'm so weary, I looked at my son and suddenly all the weariness my body and mind has fades more especially when my son shows affections to me. Everytime I have lot of problems in mind, my son is my inner peace. I felt calm when I'm with my son. Cuddling with him all day. That is why I can say, that most of my strength were because of my son. When he came to my life everything changes and that includes my perspectives in life. *Second question,* **What are my values? (considering politics, religions, social issues)** Values has different interpretations depending on different aspects. But for my case, values were so vital in shaping of we really are. I admit that I am not totally having a martyr heart, a kind heart because there were times that I became the not usual me. My attitude sometimes is not what you think is good because were just humans and despites being kind there really are times that our kindness can be change into the opposite one basing on the situations that triggers me. In terms of politics, well I really have nothing to say about it but in terms of values towards politics I think I'm not a type of person who dwells on debating on who to choose and even fighting to someone with different parties as mine. I'm not actually like that. In fact, I just stay quiet about it and respect others to those who they choose for I also value respects. That goes the same as well when we talk about religion and social issues. *Third question,* **What or who gives you comfort?** Well, it's my family. The best comfort I have ever received came from my family because they never let me feel that they were disappointed in me. In fact, I am glad to have such family that are understanding and helped me reached my goals in life and never abandoned me along my journey. More specially, I am very grateful to have a son and a partner that is really very supportive and understanding and has high or long patience in me. *Fourth question,* **What is my biggest failure?** So far, the thing that I considered biggest failure is the fact that I wasn't able to achieved my promise to my parents that I will have a better and stable work first before I'll be settling down to have my own family. Somehow I felt that I made them disappointed on me but it's just my thought because my parents never let me feel that way. Instead, they were there for me 24/7 supporting me when I made the wrong way which is getting pregnant after graduating college. Maybe its not a failure for my parents but for me it is. But of course as long as I'm still breathing even despites what happen I can still make my dreams for my parents come true. They said, its not yet the end of the world for me. In fact, its the start of what really life is to me. The real life that I may face along the way is just started. *Fifth question,* **What does my inner critic tell me?** Well, my inner critic always tells me and reminds me on why am I not like the other brilliant people who can solve mathematical problems easily in just a minute or even a seconds. Haha Yeah, I really admired those intelligent people who can easily solved all mathematical problems. That really is my dream that why not I am not like those brilliant people that can produce a research paper in one day or can published a book in small range of time. Why not? Lol *Lastly,* **What do I do to show myself a self-compassion and self-care?** Since I'm totally fat from 75kg I'm now 81kg. See? I get bigger and bigger. So, maybe for me to have self-compassion and self-care I should start with a healthy lifestyle a healthy body and mind. But the problem that I'm suffering now is HOW. How should I start it? Maybe, I should start it by disciplining myself for honestly I really don't have a discipline in myself and its totally my struggle. So, yeah that was all for today's blog. By the way, thanks to my friend Zhyne, for the questions and for her article and I was able to surpass a day with having idea in what to write. See you in my next publish? ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were edited thru canva app.*

@Janz 15 March 2022

His OJT requirements slightly accomplished `March 15, 2022 TUESDAY` Hola! Hola! It's tuesday, 2nd day of the week and it's another productive day for me/for us. Well, as I've mentioned in my previous article that my partner will going to undergo his on-the-job training for his course this semester. Then, before doing OJT, all 4th year college students now and all those who were experiencing OJT that before the school deployed all the OJT students it is a need first for students to comply all the required documents prior to what the school required to them. That's actually what we are doing with my partner this week. Last weekend, we went home to our house in my partner's hometown and one of our reason to went home there is to supposedly get a ***Barangay Clearance*** but sadly we weren't to got the clearance because the *Barangay Secretary* wasn't available also there's no office when weekends. Therefore, were not yet able to have that said document. But we can't wait that document yesterday because we get back here in my parent's place early morning yesterday since my duty starts at 7AM. That is why, today my partner just asked his sister to get the said document for him since his sister went home as well in there place today. But I don't know if she can get such document tomorrow because if not we have no choice but to get back home there despites it's far from were we are right now for it's 2 hours of ride. Also, the fuel right now were highly arising and it's too expensive already. Barangay clearance is in need as well when my partner gets a ***police clearance***. Another required requirements for their OJT. Still, we haven't to get that second required document because we don't have yet the barangay clearance. Aside from barangay clearance that is a requirement for police clearance, 2x2 ID, documentary stamp, valid ID and cedula or community tax receipt is also needed. So, one of the document we able to get today is the documentary stamp and cedula from the municipal town hall. Another requirement needed for OJT is the ***medical certification.*** They ar required to have urinalysis and complete blood counts with platelete (CBC). That is what we actually do for today since I also have time to accompany him for my duty start 10:30AM. So, we went to a private hospital today that has available laboratory for the urinalysis and CBC. That is him being taken blood for the CBC. We were able to finished and got the result for the laboratory at almost 12noon. Therefore, the ending is that I got a 1-hour absent for today since I have 10:30AM duty but we finished the medical almost 12noon. Salary deduction for sure. Haha Anyways, that's fine though because what we did today as well is an important matter and that 1-hour was never wasted at all. To sum up.... **His OJT requirements were slightly accomplished.** `documentary stamp` `cedula/community tax receipt` `medical certification` were all accomplished. Hopefully, tomorrow his sister can able to get him the barangay clearance so that we can also get the police clearance for that's the only lacking for his requirements. Also, today. He was being recommended already to whom or where he undergoes his OJT. Then, maybe tomorrow or the next day he will already start his duty for OJT needs to have 600 hours of duty completion. So, much better to start earlier so that he will also ends his OJT early. So, that's it. The things that we did today. Of course, a productive day still for us. One step at a time. Then, everything onward will be realized in God's will as well. ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.google.com/search?q=ojt+logo&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwjb3af6-sf2AhUiS_UHHQX1ADwQ2-cCegQIABAC&oq=ojt+logo&gs_lcp=ChJtb2JpbGUtZ3dzLXdpei1pbWcQAzIFCAAQgAQ6BwgjEO8DECc6BAgAEBg6BggAEAgQHjoECAAQQ1DrGVjPPWCZSWgAcAB4AIAB7wGIAe4akgEFMC45LjiYAQCgAQHAAQE&sclient=mobile-gws-wiz-img&ei=dnEwYtvKDKKW1e8PheqD4AM&bih=668&biw=360&client=ms-android-oppo-rvo2&prmd=inv#imgrc=i4xm6HdI0exKwM&imgdii=CpN5LRip7zyFKM

@Janz 14 March 2022

Would you rather, The Prompt `March 14, 2022 MONDAY` This article is my entry on @JonicaBradley's latest writing prompt about WOULD YOU RATHER questions. In fact, I already had published articles on answering some would you rather questions the time when this type of article became trending here in read.cash. So, in case you are also willing to read my previous entry of this type of questions here it is. **Would I rather be or not?** https://read.cash/@Janz/would-i-rather-be-or-not-0e2af5a4 Anyways, the fact that I had that kind of entry already. Still, I wanted to accept on the said writing prompt and tried answering my version on the would you rather questions provided by Miss Jonica in here prompt. Now, for my point of view. I'm gonna try answering some of the would you rather questions. Lezzz goooo.... **get spanked or get slapped** Do I have a choice to not choose any of the two? Haha Anyways, I guess I have no choice but to choose. Well, I'd rather be spanked for I don't want to get slapped because for sure my face will be reddish after and its directly visible. Unless I'll be spanked instead, because if ever I had marks its not totally visible to anyone. **eat too salty food or eat too spicy food** I rather choose too spicy foods because I think I can endure it my taste buds can still endure its hotness. Unlike on too salty one, probably I'll just vomit everything I ate when its too salty. Also, I am one of those who loved spicy foods. In fact, I want to try those korean noodles that are too spicy for me to know if I can handle eating it. I'm really craving for it but until now I haven't tried some korean spicy noodles. **be in love or someone in love with you** As what I've always responded on this questions because I think I already able to answer this on my previous would you rather question. As always, I want someone to be in love with me rather that I'll be in love to someone because there are circumstances that we felt in love to that someone but sadly that someone isn't in love to us at all and that's an obsessing part. Unlike if someone will be in love with me them maybe or there's a chance that I can also develop that love and can gave that love to someone too. **hate someone or someone hate you** Honestly, as far as I can I tried my best not to hate on someone because I don't like that I have such hate feeling. On the other hand, I also don't like that someone hate me. But if I chose between the two then I'll just go with someone that hates me instead of I myself hated someone. I just instead don't care those who hates me. Well, its there choice though and I have nothing to do with that. **have a job you hate but make good money or a job you love but do not make good money** Well, practically speaking. I'd rather choose a job I don't like at least I can earn a good money. Eventually, I knew I would loved that job because I believed that there's no permanent in this world. When today we don't love our job then maybe time came or tomorrow came that we just woke up embracing fully our job. Unlike if, I love the job but I don't earn good from it. For me, its still useless because my priority is to raise my family well and provide them especially to my son which is my top priority for now. **be the caregiver or be taken care of** I'd rather be the caregiver than the one to be taken care of. I knew the burden of a caregiver but its not even on the tip of the finger on the burden of those who are being taken care of. Since, I also have this in my mindset that I'd rather be the one to help than I was the beneficiary especially when about health. **live alone or be surrounded by crowds of people** Maybe I chose to live alone but of course with my loved ones since my life will also be boring when I just leave alone by myself. That's too sad. Also, I hate crowdy places for I seems to get annoyed if there are so many people that surrounds me for I gets a head ache on that. I don't why. Its just that. **swim with sharks or alligators/crocodiles** OMG. I hate those both. So, I'd rather not chose on what I prefer to swim with. Huhu For me, its super scary. I don't want to get bitten or eaten by a shark and crocodile. Therefore, NO NO NO for me. **be too hungry or too thirsty** I guess its bearable for me to be too hungry. So, I go with too hungry. Because I for sure there's water when I can intake water my hunger somehow filled in. So, that's okay. Water is important of all. I guess that's all. Those actually are my response on Miss Jonica's would you rather questions. Also, if you want to try this said prompt. Kindly go through with Ms Jonica's article about the said prompt. You may or can check it **here.** https://read.cash/@JonicaBradley/writing-prompt-25-would-you-rather-fb526a93 Aja! ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.google.com/search?q=would+you+rather&client=ms-android-oppo-rvo2&prmd=ivbn&sxsrf=APq-WBu43CV9ESBwdq_wRf437lYuNtmzZA:1647250843308&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwix3fvKp8X2AhXdxosBHb3LD7IQ_AUoAXoECAIQAQ&biw=360&bih=668&dpr=2#imgrc=c5oGov6I82R51M

@Janz 14 March 2022

Yaahhooooo.... sis @Jane thank you for the renewal. Generous ka talaga sis superb. ☺️ More more more bch to all of us.

@Janz 13 March 2022

Things that I hate that made me pissed off `March 13, 2022 SUNDAY` Who among here never gets annoyed or pissed off? Well, I assume all of us gets annoyed sometimes or gets mad or was being pissed off by something that we don't like and want. Some even did worst thing when pissed off. Some will also calm. Some gets angry. Some will just became silent when pissed off and that was actually me. When I'm pissed off on something or to someone I just stop talking and became silent for I knew myself when I go through confrontation sometimes I can't control my words. So, I chose to be silent when pissed off instead of confronting. I am sure, all of us has this feeling. Because we all knew that the feeling that we may felt is not only one. In fact everyday, we felt differently and not that were happy today means whole day you were totally happy. What if, there's sudden circumstances happened and it made your happiness vanished? Right? My point is, its not all the time that things may seem to be in accordance of what we wanted. There really such times that we felt angry, we felt sad, we felt disappointed, we felt beautiful, we felt frightened, we felt confused, we felt annoyed or pissed off and a lot more. This are actually part of our emotions as human beings living in this gigantic but small world. Without further ado, here are now some of the things that made me pissed off immediately... **Cigarette Smoke** This thing really is the most thing that I hate and I'm get easily pissed off once I already smells its smoke. It really ruined my entire day once I bumped into someone whose smoking and I was able to directly smells the smoke. As if, I really wanted to kicked off or punch whoever that someone is. Lol There were one time that I was in a bus terminal sitting while waiting for an available vehicle then while sitting I saw someone coming to my direction having cigarette. What made me super pissed off that day is that when the man is nearly approaching and already in my front he suddenly exhaled or blew the smoke of his cigarette right in front of my face. I was like, what the f*ck! What are you doing? Don't you see I'm here? Don't you have manners? I actually said all of that to him because of my anger and even said to him to be responsible when smoking because we the second hand smoker are more on the risks. He just apologized though. Also, my partner before engaged in smoking and everytime he smokes he also make sure that he's far from me and he just came to me when he's done toothbrushing. Anyways, I'm just glad as well that it's been 3 years now that he stopped that said vices and I don't get annoyed at him on that matter at all. **Getting my things without asking my permission** I also get pissed off when someone ruined my things or getting my things without notifying me that they will borrow it. I don't know, I just hate that fact. Actually, I'm not selfish I just hate when I saw my things used by someone without even telling me. **My partner (Lol)** This sounds funny. But yeah, I also get annoyed and pissed off by my partner sometimes or even most of the times. Haha Well, not in the cigarette matter because he's done with that vices already. But on some things that somehow I can't explain. Or maybe I just want an arguments with him that's why I end up get annoyed sometimes. Ohhh, I just suddenly remember. One thing that I'm most pissed off with him is how he spent himself in the CR or comfort room. I totally get mad everytime his on the CR because my goodness he spent a decade before coming out that's why sometimes I really fought with him with that. Haha So, that's it. The most things that made me easily pissed off. How about you? What are those things that made you mad? ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were edited thru canva app.*

@Janz 12 March 2022

Supporting each other is one of the key to build strong relationship `March 12, 2022, SATURDAY` It's another weekend to all of us. I just hoped that all of us still hoping for our self betterment as well as in the betterment of our state of living for I knew all of us dreamt to have better life in all aspects. Anyways, I and my partner went home here at our rent house yesterday afternoon that is why I was able to check my account here in read.cash and was able to read some articles too. Then guess what, I really missed a lot of articles for it'd been a week that I haven't able to visit here. That is again because of no unstable connection at my work and at my parent's place where I and partner together with our little one temporarily stayed. So much for that... Let's go through with my topic this time. By the way, I was able to come up with this topic because there's something good came to us with my partner for despites the hardships we felt in this pandemic and calamity time. Still, both of us able to surpassed everything and I felt everyday in our lives as one family is a blessing for blessing really came in disguise. In lieu to that, I came up with a several questions that just popped up in my head last night as we are riding home here in our house. One thing that made me realized and made me reflect on is the thought about **SUPPORT** and **TRUST**. Let's start with SUPPORT in terms of relationship. I believed that most people out here are being or was involved in a relationship with opposite sex or even same sex. Now, do you agree with the thought that supporting each other is one of the key to build strong relationship? Well, in my point of view I do believed that there are types of support that is needed to have and to give. There were also unnecessary support or those support that can harm each other. Just like your partner were involved on something that is not legal but you supported him/her along the way. Does it build a good relationship? Do you think the relationship you've been into will have peace of mind? Well, anyway its still a kind of supporting each other but its actually a toxic type of support because you both harm yourselves by supporting each others bad acts. Therefore for me, in this case to really able to build that strong relationship and such relationship that isn't toxic both were or should have the support on each other for the betterment of both or for the good thing of both parties moreso for the relationship to grow and foster in a good strong one. Because not all types of supports are for the good. Others may just showed support because of some hidden intentions and that probably end up into a chaotic type of relationship instead of having a strong type of relationship. I and my partner from the beginning of our story, supporting each other is one of our strength as couple. He supported me in everything I do and will tell me not to do this and that if he knew it won't benefit me in a good way. That part of him is what I like because in terms of supporting me he really does but with limitations because as I've said he will not support me in things that are not on the right track and can just harm me in the end and of course this kind of support is a vice versa for its not effective if only one of you supported the other. It should be both of you who are in a relationship has the support system but of course, in a good way and the other way around. Because if it is, then its not a support instead its already toleration. Tolerating of partners bad acts. In accordance with the thought of supporting each other. This semester, since my partner still a student. I was so glad that he made it to that OJT (on the job training). In this matter, I totally supported him in all the requirements he needs. All the paper works and other things that he needs to have for his OJT. Of course I knew this kind of support is the betterment of our relationship and for pur future. Its not actually a waste support for me. With that support, I also believed that it is more effective if both have that so called TRUST. Trusting each other while supporting each other surely helped the relationship be more stronger as it is and to have build the strong kind of relationship that for sure we all aimed to attained or to have. For happiness and contentment will be one of those products of both support and trust each other in those good things. ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were taken from Unsplash.*

@Janz 9 March 2022

Pangarap o Kalusugan `March 10, 2022` ***"SA WAKAS,"*** *sa wakas ang isa sa nasa isip ko ngayon sapagka't pagkatapos ng ilang araw ay medyo bumalik na rin ang internet connection. Ilang araw din akong hindi naka access dito at hindi nakapag publish dahil yun nga nawala ang signal ni kahit ganitong mga oras 1AM-5AM ehhh wala talagang ka signal signal. Siguro dahilan na rin sa walang tigil ng pag ulan. Sapagkat naglalaro sa orange at red rainfall alert ang aming probinsya at talagang walang tiginna ulan. Mabuti nga ngayon ay wala ng ulan at medyo okay na ang panahon kaya't medyo naging okay na rin ang signal. At nagpapasalamat ako't sa wakas din ay naka access na ako rito sa read.cash. Pero yun na nga, isa sa mga consequence ay marami akong namiss na araw ma hindi nagkaroon ng interaksyon at ni hindi nakabasa ng mga artikulo. Pero, sige lang kahit papano ay hindi tuluyang nawala ang signal at may araw na bumabalik siya kagaya ngayon. Kaya lang kailangan talaga siya ng napakataas na pasensya sapagka't ang hina talaga dahil umuulan na naman. Hayyssttt.* *Maiba ako. Ito palang entry ko na ito ay credit ko sa aking partner. Kaya simulan na natin ang kanyang gawang artikulo. At sana'y kagigiliwan niyo rin ito. Pagpasensyahan niyo na rin itong Tagalog ko dahil ito'y may limitasyon lamang at kadalasan ay napulot ko lang sa tabi-tabi. Lol* ***Okay, tama na sa pasiunang pasabi. Ito napo ang artikulo na gawa ng aking butihing kabiyak.*** **Pangarap o Kalusugan?** *by: Junix* Paano kung dumating ang panahon na kailangan mo nang pumili kung ano ang ipagpapatuloy mo. Pipiliin mo bang sumugal kahat buhay mo pa ang naka taya dito alang-alang sa pangarap mo? O sumuko nalang sa kabila ng kaliwa't kanang sakripisyo ng ibang tao tungo sa pangarap mo? Ang pag dedisisyon ay ang pinaka mahirap na gagawin ng isang tao sa kanyang buhay. Kailangan nya itong pag isipan at bigyan ng oras, iwasang magka mali dahil hindi na pweding ma-ibalik kung ano ang nasimulan nito. Ako ay nasa ika-apat na taon na ng pag-aaral sa kolehiyo, sa wakas sa haba ng paghihintay ay umabot din sa huling taon ng pag aaral. Masaya kahit wala pang ka siguraduhan sa taon na ito ngunit mas nangingibabaw ang aking saya kaysa sa aking pangamba. **OJT** *(on the job training)* palapit na, at ako ay kabilang sa... Maswerte na mag kokumpleto sa 600 hours na ibinigay ng paaralan. Ngunit may malaking pagsubok na nakaharang at nagpapahirap sa akin at sinusubok ang aking sinsiridad. At ito ay ang COVID vaccine... Sapagkat akoy may problema sa aking kalusugan. Tayo ay may karapatan na ingatan ang ating mga sarili sa anumang bagay na ikakasama sa atin. Subalit sa panahon ngayon ay alam natin na bawat tao na may vaxcard o *vaccination card* lamang ang tinatanggap sa mga pampublikong mga lugar, establisyemento at mga ahensya mapapribado man o publikong mga kompanya. At kung wala ka nito ay pasensya nalang at ako ay kabilang dito. Mahirap dahil para sa aking dahil sa COVID-19 vaccination parang ako o hindi lang ako ang siya nakaranas ng diskriminasyon. Sabi pa nila hindi mandatory ang vaccine pero naging requirements naman sa iba. Gaya ng pag OJT ko ngayon, ang pagiging bakunado ay isa sa mga kailangan. Kaya't nahuhulog ako sa tinatawag na "no choice" dahil kinailangan ko ding maka OJT at para ako'y makapagtapos na sa kolehiyo. Kaya nga kahit may takot at kaba ako sa posibleng reaksyon ng bakuna sa akin ay kailangan ko pa ring harapin ang takot. Kaya't naisip at napagtanto ko.... Paano na lang ang ina asam na maka pagtapos ng pag-aaral kung magiging sugal para sa akin ang tagumpay at buhay ko naman ay nakataya. Ano ang gagawin ko? ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were from Unsplash*.

@Janz 3 March 2022

From 12 to 21 articles, not bad at all `March 3, 2022` From having 12 articles for the month of January, now I was able to have 21 articles for month February. From 12 to 21 articles, well for me its a great achievement already and its totally not bad for I only missed less than 10 articles or days specifically 7 days that I haven't published anything. Despites from my heavy schedule and sometimes tiring work for so many deadlines that I need to meet, I still able to make time here in read.cash and able to almost complete the month by publishing articles daily. Now, for a recap of my published articles for the previous month. **FEBRUARY ARTICLE RECAP:** First day of February I tried my best to **looked back and forwar****d** on the goals that I achieved and on what are needed to be achieved. Then suddenly, I was ****wondering how**** if ****read.cash has its value to**** me for I've been sailing for almost a year already in the said platform. Then, I found out that there were lots advantages that read.cash brought to me which made me valued much the platform. One thing that read cash can gave is the idea to have something to write by reading other articles from other writers wherein I wrote the ****Let's do it: The SPG Fast Talk**** because of @Micontingsabit. https://read.cash/@Janz/looking-back-and-forward-24bea27a https://read.cash/@Janz/wondering-how-fb33bf52 https://read.cash/@Janz/readcash-and-its-value-for-me-94510b0b https://read.cash/@Janz/lets-do-it-the-spg-fast-talk-52785dd4 ****A mother's heart is truly fantastic********,****this is one of the lesson that I able to learned by reading articles of those mommies that are here especially if they share about how are they as a mother. Then, as already a mother I somehow thought of ****would I rather be or not**** be liked them who has a beautiful heart. Then, of course I chose to have the beautiful heart as a mother. But speaking of motherhood, we knew its not an easy part of a women's life specially in my case that I am a neophyte mother. I still felt those times that I tend to reminisced things and I somehow realized that there are still ****things I haven't done during my single life**** but I never regretted those missed moments for I am now so happy and grateful that I am able to see my ****child's improvement which is worth watching********.**** https://read.cash/@Janz/a-mothers-heart-is-truly-fantastic-8488b33d https://read.cash/@Janz/would-i-rather-be-or-not-0e2af5a4 https://read.cash/@Janz/things-i-havent-done-during-my-single-life-51ef9a4c https://read.cash/@Janz/a-childs-improvements-is-worth-watching-d22f365c As time pass by, especially that I have already my own family. I really tried my best to have work so that I can gave my son's needs knowing that my son still needs assistance for he is 2 years old. When, I received a message from my head wherein I was ****re-hired**** I really jumped because of joy. Of course, because I still have a work knowing that nowadays its so hard to apply for a work. Due to happiness, I tried answering some fun questions as well which I took from facebook its a ****TagLish questions randomly answered**** by yours truly. Then, followed by answering again some questions in lined with my feeling since I felt the love that I need from the people who truly loves me its ****Let's do the valentine edition of questioning********.**** Then,speaking of love while I had fond answering such type of questions I then realized some thoughts about life, about my situation and about how I chose this kind of situation which is the start of my motherhood life. I realized that ****becoming a mother in a wrong time is still a blessing in disguise**** a blessing that I never expected to happen as early as I am 21 years old. Then, part of motherhood is also becoming a house keeper for I myself hates that my house isn't organized. Therefore, ****fixing everything before leaving to work**** is one that I always did. https://read.cash/@Janz/re-hired-97607d02 https://read.cash/@Janz/taglish-questions-randomly-answered-480b3ef5 https://read.cash/@Janz/lets-do-the-valentine-edition-of-questioning-552875e2 https://read.cash/@Janz/becoming-a-mother-in-a-wrong-time-is-still-a-blessing-in-disguise-e877dde4 https://read.cash/@Janz/fixing-everything-before-leaving-to-work-f1730b07 In addition, ****untold facts of myself**** were being disclosed here in this platform for I also wanted to share what are my hobbies and who I am beyond the virtual world. With that said, I was also able to share I am one of ****the wildest dreame********r****. A dreamer whom believes that ****self-care isn't selfish, its necessary**** ****.**** https://read.cash/@Janz/untold-facts-of-myself-f3b517e3 https://read.cash/@Janz/the-wildest-dreamer-eff0eaee https://read.cash/@Janz/self-care-isnt-selfish-its-necessary-d3b3381d Moreso, ****last friday flyday****. It's the best day for me because my work I can able to go home in our house and able to see my son after a week of not seeing him. It's one of my day fulfilment seeing my son a week which eased the tiredness I felt from what we call ****a day, a busy day********.**** My son is one of the reason that I had reflected that even there's ****no Sun, no Light, no Proble********m**** for me since everything fades away when my son hugs, kissed and smiled at me. https://read.cash/@Janz/last-friday-flyday-0407b7fa https://read.cash/@Janz/lets-call-it-a-day-a-busy-day-4cd2debe https://read.cash/@Janz/reflection-no-sun-no-light-no-problem-04825888 Lastly, ****bringing home wife at work but still no stable signal**** ****and**** ****my Brother, the one who broke my hear****t are the two last articles I've published for the month February. https://read.cash/@Janz/bringing-the-home-wifi-at-work-but-still-no-stable-signal-be64f64d https://read.cash/@Janz/my-brother-the-one-who-broke-my-heart-80e49567 I can no longer connect the two last articles anymore. Lol My apologies. At the same time, apologies on the thought of my article. I don't if I able to connect all of the titles of my February articles. So, that was it. The highlighted in blue are the 21 articles that I was able to published last month. Again, from 12 to 21 articles already a good thing and not bad at all. See you in my next article. ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were edited thru canva app.*

@Janz 28 February 2022

A Father's Note `March 1, 2022` Isang araw nag sabi ang isang Ama sa kanyang anak, wika niya. "Anak lagi mo'ng tatandaan ang tatlong bagay na ito" at sumagot ang kanyang anak "ano po ba ang ibig ninyong sabihin oh aking ama?" At sumagot ang kanyang ama. Kung ikaw ay kakain sikapin mong kumain ng masasarap na pag kain. At kung ikaw ay matutulog, matulog ka sa magandang higaan. At, Sikapin mong tumira sa pinaka magandang tahanan. Nag taka ang kanyang anak sapagkat imposible niya itong magawa dahil sila ay mahirap lamang. "Oh aking ama, papaano ako makaka-kain ng masarap na pag kain? Tayo ay mahirap lamang oh ama ko." "Paano ako makakatulog sa magandang higaan? Wala naman tayong magandang higaan gaya ng mayayaman." Paano ako titira sa magandang tahanan kung wala naman tayong sariling bahay na masisilungan." Naguguluhang tanong ng bata sa kanyang ama. Ang kanyang ama ay matalino (hakim) at sinagot ang kanyang anak ng simpleng sagot. Wika ng Ama sa kanyang anak. "Kung ikaw ay kakain, kumain ka lamang sa oras na ikaw ay nagugutom" at "kung ikaw ay matutulog, matulog ka lamang sa oras na ikaw ay pagod" at pang huli "sikapin mong maging mabuting tao, mabuti sa iyong kapwa at ikaw ay titira sa kanilang mga puso." Alam natin na kung tayo ay nagugutom, kahit anong ipaghanda sa atin o kahit ano lamang ang pwedi natin kainin ay atin itong kinakain at sa panlasa natin ito ang pinaka masarap na pagkain. Pag ang tao ay gutom wala ng dahilan para ang tao ay pumili ng pagkain lahat ay masarap sa panlasa niya. At kapag ang tao ay subrang pagod na kahit saan basta pwedi kang matulog ay matutulog ka at yun ang pinaka masarap na tulogan para sa iyo. Kahit pa ikaw ay naka upo basta ikaw ay subrang pagod na tiyak ikaw ay makakatulog. At kapag ikaw ay isang mabuting tao, mabuti sa kapwa ay tiyak maninirahan ka sa kanilang mga puso. At yun ang pinaka magandang tahanan para sa iyo sapagkat hindi ito masisira ng bagyo o lindol. ~ Junix Magandang araw sa lahat. Itong artikulong ito po pala ay gawa ng aking partner sapagka't ako'y sobrang busy pa sa aming modyuls dahil bukas na ang distribusyon ng mga modyul namin sa aming mga studyante sa hayskul kaya't dapat na matapos na namin itong maiprinta ngayong araw. At itong inyong lingkod ay may isa pang sabjek na dapat na matapos ngayong araw. Kaya, sige lang laban lang tayo sa buhay. Pero sa totoo lang, ang hirap pala mag time management. Hayyyy, kapag pala nasa kasagsagan ka ng maraming deadlines na kailangang tapusin ay hindi mo na malalaman kung ano ang uunahin hangga't sa sumakit nalang ulo mo. Kaya nga din sabi ng kasamahan ko sa opisina, *"take one step at a time"* at isa isa daw matatapos lahat. At totoo naman, basta wag lang ma pressure para maging tama pa rin ang nagagawa. So, yung fictional story ko na **"My brother, the one who broke my heart"** ay hindi ko pa masusundan ng next episode kasi busy pa nanay niyo. Siguro bukas o sa susunod na araw pag medyo okay na schedule. Sa mga nag aabang *(feeling naman meron hehe)* pasensya muna at hindi ko pa ma upload ang mga susunod na mga mangyayari sa aking fictional story. https://read.cash/@Janz/my-brother-the-one-who-broke-my-heart-80e49567 Ayun, ito muna entry ko sa unang araw ng Marso. Isang maikling storya ng mag ama kung saan ang isang ama ay nagbibigay ng mga motibasyon at inspirasyon sa anak na maging isang mabuting tao at mabuting halimbawa sa iba. Sana ay magustuhan niyo itong artikulong gawa ng aking partner. Yan na muna sa ngayon. Kitakits tayo sa susunod na artikulo. At, pasensya na sa aking Tagalog kasi alam kong masagwa itong basahin. Haha Bahala nalang kayo mag-adjust. Hehe ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were taken from Unsplash.*

@Janz 27 February 2022

My Brother, The one who broke my Heart `February 27, 2022` *"Let's break up." I said* *"No, please let me explain. You just misunderstood the situation. Please." He said* *"Misunderstood? I saw both of you kissing. You liar. You cheated on me. I hate you and I don't want to see your face anymore." I said before running away from him.* *I ran away from the man who deeply broke my heart into pieces. The man that I thought won't hurt me but still he did cheat on me. While I'm on a run I promise not love again for I was totally ruined and broken and I'm afraid I'll be experiencing again the heartache once I felt in love for the second time.* *I went home and fixed some of my things because I planned to go somewhere else that made me felt forget the pain. I want to relax and unwind from the pain I felt inside. I just leave the house without even asking my parents permission since I also don't want my parents worry about what I felt especially my mom is ill. Anyways, my mom is only the one worries about me. My dad, well his so busy in his works for he is one of the business tycoon in our town that somehow he forgets that he had a daughter.* *I left home without asking my mom's permission because as I've said my mom is ill and I don't want her to worry much about me since I knew my mom when she knows I'm not okay she will definitely won't stop worrying and if that so it may worsen her condition. That is why, I chose to left the house unnoticed. For my father also for sure won't be worried if I'm home or not since I never felt that he cared about me. All he cared is his business and he doesn't even care about mom the time my mom got sick. Yes, my mom had personal doctor and nurse but I never seen my father had time in taking care of my mom himself. My family really had enough but in terms of a perfect home, we really don't have and that's also one of the reason that my heart has already a hole and now it's totally broken for there's another hole being added to it.* *I want to at least eased this pain that this hole in my heart brought to me. I want to go to a place where all I can see is the beautiful scenery of nature. I want to inhale the fresh breeze of the wind and I want to released all my pains by mountain hiking. So, I was here now in the middle of this mountain where all I can see is the wide rice fields and all I can hear are the chirping of the birds. I've been here staying on top of the mountain for 2 days already. But what I hate is that, I can't forget the scene that I've seen between my ex and that girl. I want to erase this scene in my head but I can't. It always hunts me every morning, every night and everyday. It never leaves me in peace and I want the peace of mind that's why I'm here but then again its still useless. Even if I want not to think about it, the pain is still here in me and its really hard to forget. I'm a mess I guess and I hate it.* *It's my 2nd day here at this mountain and it's 3PM already. So, I took wine that I brought with me and take a sip on it while looking outside my tent. Then, suddenly my phone rings.* *"Hello!" I utter.* *"Whaaatt??? My mom!?" I said while in nervous.* *Then, I immediately fixed everything and went down from the mountain. When I was in my car, I then get inside and I turn on immediately the engine and went to the hospital were his nurse told me. The nurse was the one who called me told me that my mom had an attack. When, I was in a hospital I searched my mom's room and I was shocked when I saw that the doctor put a white cloth cover in my mom's body. I saw my father cried near to the bed where my mom laid. I was stocked at the door and doesn't know how to react or how to move for I am so afraid and just thought that everything was just a dream and that I am just dreaming.* *"Betty, Betty, Betty" . . . The only thing I hear then suddenly everything went black.* *Few hours later....* *I woke up, and roam my eyes around and noticed that I am in a hospital laying in one of there patient's bed. Then, I saw my father in front of me.* *"Betty, how are you feeling? "Dad said.* *"What happen?" I said.* *"You were in shocked a while ago that made you out of control and then you just falls down." Dad explained.* *"Mom? Where's mom, dad?" I asked.* *Then, my dad didn't answer instead he just nod down his head.* *"Dad, where's mom?" I now shouted. While taking away the dextrose that was connected in me and tried to get up to looked for mom.* *"Betty, please calm down first. Okay!" My dad said in his low voice.* *"D-a-d." I said while my voice is now stuttering and then start to cry because I figured out that what I saw a while ago isn't a dream but a reality.* *"Betty, I'm so sorry. Your mom already left us." My dad while hugging me.* *At this point, I really don't know what to do. I really don't know how move forward. My long-term boyfriend cheated on me and now my mom left me. I'm totally alone. I don't know how to live my life. I even wanted to end my life for I am very much in pain right now. It's been one month since my mom left me and it's been a month as well that I never went out of my room. I just here inside my room, very unproductive and all I did is sleeping and I never even ate on time. If only I don't have with me my care taker probably my dad will see me in bed already not breathing.* *And speaking of my dad, according to my personal care taker that my dad were already busy with another girl. When I knew it, I felt the hate of my dad but I never have time yet to confront my dad. For pete's sake, it's just a month my mom left but my dad already had another affair. What kind of husband is he? That's actually on my mind right now. But, well I just don't care anymore. I don't care of everything including my dad. I don't care of what is he doing in his life.* *2 months later.* I *want to change my life. I want new environment. That is why, I asked my dad that I will go to States for 5 years just for me to forget everything and to escape from the life that I used to have. Good thing my dad agreed. Well, why not? He can have more time with his new affair. I don't care anymore. So, right away I flew to the States and I start again my life in the States. I tried my best to forget everything for me to be able to move forward.* *Fast forward.* *5 years later...* *I now went back from States to Philippines. As I promised to my dad that I will be back here after 5years and that's what I did. When I am at home, I immediately went to my room and then my dad called me to have dinner. So, I went down to have dinner with my dad.* *While were eating...* *"Betty, how was your stay in States? Are you fine there?" Dad said.* *"Yes, dad. I tried modelling in the States." I said.* *"Ahhh, okay that's great. At least you'd forget in some way about your mom." He said.* *Then, suddenly I remember my mom. But my dad was right I was somehow forget the pain of my mom's loss. But there's only one thing that I can't forget about for the feeling was still in my heart which I can hardly forget about him.* *"By the way, Betty. Good thing you already went home because I want you to know your soon to be mother in law." Dad* *Then, I just nod at him. Because I already expected this to happen.* *"I actually invited her together with his son for us to have dinner and also for you to know her as well and his son too." Dad said.* *"Okay, dad."I said without hesitation.* *Now, just wondering. My dad's new affair has a son? Well, I was somehow happy in a sense that I may have a brother for I really liked to have a brother or a sister.* *Dinner time with my Dad's new girl came.* *I'm still at my room for I felt like I don't want to be in that dinner. I don't know, I have just this feeling that isn't right. Then, suddenly my care taker came and told me to go down already for my dad and his girl is already waiting for me.* *So, I went down. When I was approaching our table I noticed a guy's back setting beside a girl. Maybe that girl was my dad's new girl. Suddenly, while approaching my heart beats fast I don't know why because the guy's back seems so familiar to me. I stop approaching towards the table when suddenly dad called me.* *"Betty, come here." Dad.* *Then, the girl and the guy stand up looking at me.* *My eyes and that guy's eyes met.* *"YOOUUUU!!!!" I said in a shouting mode while pointing my hand to that guy.* Oopppsss.... Whose that guy? Why is Betty shouting like she saw a ghost? To be continue... I'll end it here it first everyone since it's a long read already. I just continue the next episode once I'll have a good feedback knowing that this is my first time writing a fictional story. Hopefully, you'd like my nonsense creation of my minds imagination. ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were edited through canva app.*

@Janz 25 February 2022

Bringing the home wifi at work but still no stable signal `February 26, 2022` *What's up everyone?* *By the way, it's dawn again. Good thing that I was able to wake up in my alarm which was set at 1AM. So, I was able to surf my accounts. But while writing this I felt sleepy and yes I slept without finishing this. Good thing again that my son woke me up at 4AM and I was able to continue this article. Hehe* *Anyways, for this article I just want to share my experience here knowing there's no stable signal yet.* *So, here it is....* You knew the feeling that you want to achieved multiple things in a day but you can't. The fact that you really can do it and because of some things that hinders you to do it, you can't able to do so. I always had this feeling and I hate it the most. Because I can't sleep freely if I had something in mind. I felt unproductive as well. When I started my work this 2nd semester I really thought that the internet connection there were good and I thought I can consistently visits my accounts that is connected to the bch virtual world or the bch communities I'm into but I was wrong. No data, no internet connection, no service. That's the usual phrase that always pops up in my phone. So, what I did since there's no data at school I also thought that the globe at home prepaid wifi modem will somehow have internet at least. Since, my parents have there home wifi, I brought it at school and just connect it with my power bank since I have a chord that can be connected to power bank from a wifi instead of plugging it using electricity. So, when I tried using at the office still it has no signal. When I put the wifi outside the office I was somehow happy for it shows a one bar of signal at least it has one. Then, I tried to connect and I was happy because I can able to access my messenger but I can't access facebook but at least I had messenger for important matters. When I checked chrome for my read.cash I was happy that I was able to at least access my account even if its somehow loading but still I can patiently wait for it. Now, when 10AM came and ahead. I notice that I can't already open my read.cash account it always says no internet connection and won't load as well. Also my messenger were already in connecting mode. So, I can say that signal really is unstable and only early in the morning until 9AM has a signal. Beyond that,there's no signal anymore. Then, I will woke up early as 1AM or 2PM because I can also have a signal 1AM until 5AM here. Just like now, it's 3AM that I'm writing this article. Therefore, this kind of set up really tests my ability on how I can manage my time properly. Like to wake up so early for me to be able to have interactions and can published articles everyday. So, I just tried my best to wake up early even if my head aches sometimes just for me to write and published article for I had a goal to achieved and without doing anything and finding ways to achieved it for sure I'll end up nothing and I don't want to end up nothing for I always looked up to have something achieved in the end. That's it. An experience of yours truly that I can share for you today. God bless! ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were taken from Unsplash.*

@Janz 24 February 2022

Reflection: No Sun, No Light, No Problem `February 25, 2022` *Waking up early again at 2PM because I wanted to scroll in here because yesterday at daytime there was no signal at all. As in, no service. So, I wasn't able to make my noise here at read.cash.* *Anyway, today is Friday supposedly a Flyday going home at our home but I planned not to go home there this week because the weather isn't good too and I had our son with me and it's not for our son to drive home in a motorcycle when it's raining. I just chatted my partner that we can't go home this week so that he'll know. Also, today I just stay here at my parents home for today also is a non-working holiday. At least I could rest for 3 days on my work because I don't usually bring my work at home for I wanted to have time with my family especially my son unless otherwise I'm making grades and it's already deadline.* **By the way, it's a** ***no SUN no LIGHT*** **for us here.** Last January 13, I looked on Shopee some solar lights because we don't have electricity. At least with the help of solar we can somehow see the light in our darkest moments. *(Hehe, jemmss)* So, I have found a good solar light from ***Yeelite LED Light*****s** https://shopee.ph/yeeliteledlightsonline?smtt=0.0.9 I purchased two types of solar panels from the same shop because by reviewing and reading their reviews I found the shop legit and can be trusted and also the seller were very responsive from my queries. When I asked the seller to send me picture first before packing and shipping it, the seller really send to me a picture. That's one of the reason why I gave them a good rate. So, first I purchased is the **GD- 8017 portable solar lighting system.** I was hooked in this type because it has three bulbs and that's what I'm looking for. Also, it's battery were the energy stocked after the solar panel were being heated by the sun also have a light that can also used as flash lights. As you can see, at the left side of the picture. That's the solar battery that has a flash light with two bulbs in its front and also a LED light in its side part. So, since it was also a portable solar we can as well charged the battery by using electricity but it has difference when charged at electricity and by sun. When it was charged by sun especially when it's too hot the battery will be full charged within only half a day only if the sun brights so hot. But when charge at electricity, it needs 12 hours to be full just to have a better light and will last until morning. That is why when it's raining or the weather isn't good I brought this battery with me at school just to charged it since we have a generator at school. At least I can able to charged it for 8-9hours. This is just because for us to have lights during evening because I have my son also with me and my son hates dark too. Next solar panel is a **GD-100 Yeelite solar panel.** I also bought this one because this kind of panel is intended for charging cell phones. Actually, the first one the GD-8017 can also charged a phone but the time of charging for the battery to be full changes. It may too much longer for it to be full when a cellphone is being charged at its battery. Therefore, I just ordered a separate solar that is only intended for charging and that is the GD-100. It actually has all the ports of different cellphones and that's what makes it more better. I ordered both solar panels from the same store as I've said last January 13, and I received my order January 21. So that's 8 days after placing my order. So, not bad already because it was being shipped out from Manila to Leyte. Expected it's a 1 week plus of shipping. Now, as a buyer. I was very satisfied with my purchased because it was truly legit and it helped us lights our evening. Were actually using it now, at the lights truly last until morning. So, again truly not bad. Also, I was planning another one after I received it. I planned to order the GD-8017 again. But when I checked the shop both were already sold out. Because aside from its good quality, its also has a friendly amount. For both items, I only paid 1,180 pesos or that's around $23. So, its actually not pricey for quality wise. *In times of darkness, we really made things possible just to see the light from that darkness. It's like when we tried our best to get up after every downfalls we've encountered and we make everything possible for our life to have the best comfort we've ever dreamed of.* But since, its a solar panel lights and needs always to have the lights from sun and knowing that sometimes the sun isn't available still we find ways for us to just charged the battery and even our cellphones. We tend to pay just to charged our gadgets in a generator. *The same in our lives, when opportunities seems don't have time knocking our doors we ourselves are the one looking for that opportunities to come to us and be with us.* *That is why, everything has it's reflection depending on how we interpret things around us.* *That's all for now. See you in my next article.* *Have a fruitful day ahead!!!* ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz

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@Janz 23 February 2022

Let's call it a day, a busy day `February 24, 2022` *First of all, I am again 3 days behind of not being able to get in touch in here as well as wasn't able to publish articles for 3 days already. As I've wanted to be online here everyday and as I've wanted to publish daily but the problem is my internet connection and sometimes my schedule of doing school works hinders me to do so. But what I hate the most is that during daytime the internet connection in my work area isn't stable at all. I can hardly access my chrome which I really wanted to have interaction in here on daytime but sad to say I can't. I can't read articles as well as comments articles. That is why, upon writing this it's 2:30AM. Since, this time I can able to have access here for the signal is somehow better than daytime. Actually, I can able to access here daily during this time. But sometimes, I felt so tired waking up this early and everytime I woke up my head aches so, if that so, I just end up sleeping again especially if I'm tired at school for some paper works I usually can't get up as early as 2AM. That is why, I'm really struggling because I thought rusty will already be consistent to me but sad to say he can't again for I myself can't be consistent here too. It wouldn't be this way if only typhoon Odette never wrecked our province. Since, the typhoon why our electricity and internet connection isn't back until now and it's almost 3 months ago.* *So, that's for my sentiments.* Now, for my topic today. I just going to share how my day went yesterday which is Wednesday. Due to the changes typhoon Odette brought to us, one of that is the unavailability of electricity in our school were I worked and also the unstable internet connectivity. Our mode of learning also changes for the meantime. Last semester, our mode of learning were through online wherein we conduct synchronous classes online by google meet or by zoom and asynchronous classes by sending modules through messenger or email. But now, it's a different approach because were doing what DEPED are also doing which is the modular learning where we are going to send a printed modules for our students since our school still don't have the electricity instead our electricity were still powered by a generator. Why it's a busy day for me, yesterday? It's because today is the schedule of the distribution of modules for college level. Then, mostly us teachers don't have have the printed modules yet. Anyway beforehand, the advisers of each year level and also on the high school and senior high level made a survey on the students about their module preference and mostly chose the printed module. That is why, all of us teachers are going to print out modules since most of our students voted for printed. Maybe it's because, they still don't have stable connection too and it's hard for them to choose online or some students prefer printed modules because they just liked it. So, we teachers have no choice but to print our modules. Now, the problem is our school don't have enough resources for it like the printer knowing that we are many that is in need of printer. That is why, what we did teachers were just waiting for the other teacher to finish but some teachers also brought their own printer so no problem with them. In my case, I went to school early because I knew our printer in our office will sure be busy and I target to print first while the printer isn't busy yet. Since, we only have one printer in our office. So, when I arrived at school, 10 minutes after the generator were already on. Therefore, I was able to use the printer first and was able to finished printing my module on my first subject in my first year college class. Since, there's only 16 students for my first year college and only 9 of them chose the printed modules that's why I was able to finished printing for that certain class. So, out of my 3 classes on college I had one down already. So, I now only need to print 2 types of modules. The other type of module which is intended for my other first year college but PE majors were just being printed by my co-teacher since she has the one who had copy of the module because she's the one handling the subject before. Therefore, when I asked her about the module she just said that we will just have to print the modules adding all our students who chose printed modules. The other subject I had for my IT first year college were not yet done encoded. Therefore, after I was done with the printing I continue encoding the subject for my IT students since I also need to print 13 copies of it. At 2PM yesterday, I'm done already encoding the subject for IT which is the Discrete Math and was ready for printing. But our printer in the office were already busy since the other teacher also is using it printing his module as well. What I did is that, I went to the admin building and searched for an available printer to with my co-VI as well. We've found a printer but we still need to wait for 5 minutes because it was still used by other teacher and she's almost done. So, we just waited. After a while, we were able to have a printer to used for printing but I let my co-VI print first her module since she also need to print 14 copies. I let her print first since she don't have a printed module for her all subject in college but I myself already had one. Since, the generator were only until 5PM and were not yet fone printing on that time. So, the faculties asked favored to the heads to extend the generator until 7PM. That is why, I was able to finished printing my Discrete Math subject. At 7PM, I was done but other teachers wasn't done yet. But have no choice, and just continue it today. But those modules wasn't done printing yesterday will not be included for distribution today and was just agreed that it will be distribute in the batch of distribution which is next week March 2. 7PM. I left the school but still not yet finished printing all the module because I still have Junior High School and Senior High School that needs to be print for there distribution will be on February 28. Therefore, I'll continue today what I haven't done yesterday. That's it. That's how my day went yesterday. A busy day. But what can I do, that's actually part of my job. Also, because the mode of learning changes. Actually, when our electricity came back. We will not be printing modules instead will just send to the students there modules through online. Because, other teachers also doesn't like the idea of printing modules knowing that the school is a university and also don't have enough resources for it. Why not the students will find a way to download their modules? Anyways, all proper areas of each municipalities already have internet connectivity. Because as what other teacher said especially those regular teachers that why do teachers in our university always adjust on the students. Because other universities even they knew there students can't access well on internet still they pursued on online mode of learning by just sending the modules through online platform. That's also the question that I reflected on. Because it does happen in many aspect as well. Just like in high school students. We teachers are required not to fail students from high school and even giving them an 80 grade is already a question mark for them. It's always minding on the what the students comfort is. Like what the h*ck? How can a teacher adjust to the students in this sense? Like, how can we marked passed the students that has no outputs being submitted? and how can we not grade an 80 if the students doesn't deserved to have a 90+ grades? It's actually a head ache for us teachers especially on the grading time. Because if we let students passed without submitting anything how can a student learn? and if were not going to grade we teachers are also being questioned. Why oh why? or being said that just put a passing grade on that student. I don't know already, professionalism and everything already conflicts and for sure learning isn't effective at all in the part of the student. *(Hayy naku, hindi ba pwede na student naman ang mag adjust at gumawa ng paraan para maka download ng modules at makapasa, kasi palagi nalang kami teacher nag a adjust sa lahat ng bagay. Yung grades pa ina adjust namin palagi. Pwede bang kayo naman mag adjust para sa amin. Chaarrr... e kasi this is for student's sake naman and not ours. For effectivity matter.)* That's all for now. Have a great day!!! ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz

@Janz 19 February 2022

Last Friday Flyday `February 20, 2022` Last friday grinds, so supposedly this article was intended for last friday but I don't have time and I was so tired as well that is why I wasn't able to do what I need to do here in this platform. But, I'll just share of my physical grinds last friday which also made me so exhausted which also the reason of why I'm so tired of visiting my account here. With that, apologies to all missed comments on your articles. By the way, without further ado. Last friday, I started the day by waking up early as 1AM. But when I tried to get up to set up my wifi broadband to check if there's internet connection during the time, my head's aching and I felt dizzy. So, instead of getting up I slept again. Then, at 3:40AM woke again then was able to set up my wifi and was surprised when there is a signal or internet connection at dawn. Therefore, I was able to surf my social medias and checked my accounts. Then, at almost 7AM I already ready myself to go to work. As always, my brother sent me to work then he was also the one who'll picked me up from work. At work, what I always do was making my module for my students since I'm not yet done and also I am still lacking of modules on my other subjects that I need to download. Therefore, I only made those subjects that I have a complete downloaded module. I edited it and make the module brief since for this time we are in modular learning wherein we are going to sent modules to our students. This is due to unavailability of electricity because electricity isn't back yet in our place after the hit of typhoon Odette 3 months ago. So, after work. I logged out 5PM then my brother was there already to picked me up. We hurriedly went home since I planned to also went home in our house at my partner's place wherein it's 2 hours of ride. Before that, I asked favor to my brother to drive me at our home then he said yes. That is why, last friday after work and after I fixed my things we then left the house at my parent's house to went home here in my home. We left at almost 6:40PM. Honestly, I have doubt to go home since riding during evening were somehow difficult knowing that there are no streetlights and the road were so dark. But then, I'm also decided to go home and just said to my brother that he just drive slow because the roads were dark. Also, one thing that made me decide to really went home is that I already missed my son so much. I wanted to see him right away. Good thing my brother agreed to sent me here and I was able hug and kiss my son. At 8:46 PM, we then arrived here at our house. Then I saw my son jumping around because he was so happy seeing me. Since he haven't seen me for 4 days straight. Everytime my partner chatted me that my son were crying because he doesn't see m everytime he will find me here at the house. I felt so sad knowing that my son searched me. That is why, today Sunday wherein I also need to go back at my parent's place again for tomorrow is Monday and a work mode week again. I'm definitely going to bring my son with me for I can't eased the feeling of missing him for 5days. So, I asked my partner that I will bring with me our son. Well, he can't say no as well because even if he said no I'll still bring our son and he can't stop me. Hahaha Anyways, I'll cut it here because I need to answer a module first because I need to finishing answering this one today for we are going to leave here this afternoon. See you again in my next article. Have a great day!!! ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were from Unsplash.*

@Janz 17 February 2022

Self-care isn't selfish, it's necessary `February 17, 2022` ***What's up everyone!*** *By the way, I wasn't able to upload an article yesterday night when I planned to because when I went in the place where I can have a signal unfortunately the signal weren't good. Ending was, this article that supposedly be published last night wasn't published. Hayyyssstttt, anyways I just published it today morning and will published another one tonight if there's a signal.* By the way, for this blog I'm going to share about self-care? ***Now, what is self- care?*** For me, **self-care** is all about how we cared ourselves in all instances through physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. So, if we were caring ourselves in any way we can, then are we selfish? Well, in my opinion were not because as what my title is, self-care isn't selfish, it's necessary. It's really not about selfishness and it's not only about considering our needs but rather self-care is about knowing what we need to do in order to take care of ourselves. By taking good care of ourselves, we then able to take good care of others as well. That is why it is really important that we should take good care of our body, mind, heart and soul for us to also be able to helped ourselves reduced those negative feelings we've had like anxiety, depressions and a lot more. With that being said, we cannot spread the negativity to other because we do self-care instead we were spreading positivities to them and that is one of it's benefit to others and not just in ourselves. **Self-care** is about how we knew the proper way of living like how to eat properly, to exercise regularly, how we able to reduce stress, to know when is the right time to paused in everything and do some unwinding or relaxation. Those mentions are just one of the touchstones of self-care and we knew all that is mentioned are all helpful for us. It may brought us to be healthy, to not be burnt out of stressed and also to be resilient. With all that aspects we've had that made us felt good because of self-care for sure we can able to cope up in any difficulties we may encounter in our journey in life. However, it is also relevant for us to know or be aware that not all things that feels us good is self-care. Because there are also such ways we humans can do to eased those challenging emotions we've felt and that's the unhealthy mechanisms like taking drugs, alcohols, over-eating, and those things that are risk taking. All this self-destructive activities we thought is the best remedy to faced those challenging emotions but the truth is this kind way were just temporary and not a long- term effect for us on self-care. Of course we always wanted the good long-term effect. This is really the difference of doing unhealthy mechanisms and self-care. Because self-care it's for a long-term effect on us since it builds in our inner faith the resiliency, the bravery, the ways on how we can definitely defeat those challenging moments that may come in our lives. We can also able to know how we can radiates those stressors into a positive way it can be for us to have a healthy mind and heart. Therefore, it's truly necessary that we do self-care in a right way and not just to do it in a temporary way by getting involved in those unhealthy mechanisms. Now, we able to do self-care in different aspects like in.... Physical self-care This is to be physically healthy. But how to be healthy? Others said that I'm healthy but I knew in myself I'm not because being healthy can't be seen only if your thin, skinny or fat. It's all about how we live our life in the physically fit aspect. The regular exercise, the right eating, proper sleep, and the amount we water we take everyday. But in my case, I'm sure I somehow to have physical care because I tend to do the unhealthy mechanism like the over-eating. When I'm stressed out I always do over-eating to just minimized the feeling but I know it wasn't right at all because at the end of the day stressed is there as always. That is why it's way is just temporary. Emotional care How to be emotionally healthy? Well for me, just ignore the bad vibes and the negativities but if it reall doesn't want to be ignored and we engaged on it then we should always know on how to cope up with it. By sharing it or talking it to a family, a partner, a friend so that you will somehow felt the better feeling of expressing the hardship you'd carry for yourself all along. They always said, how was your heart? Of course, it somehow affect us emotionally too. Heartbreak as well can affect our emotions but of course as I've said we should know how to deal with it. Social self-care This is how our relationship towards others. To maintain it's self-care we should know to to deal with different people with different attitudes knowing their individualities but of course it's always start within ourselves. We should know first on what are our social entities or needs them we will know how to maintain our good relationship to others. Lastly.. Mental self-care This is our way on how to dealt with our mind. To have self-care mentally one of it's practices to maintain a sharp mind is to answer some logic statements, doing some puzzle games and even playing some tricky and mind blowing games. This way we can able to have a genius mind. (Lol) So, that was it. My view on self-care and again **SELF-CARE isn't selfish, it's necessary.** Do you agree? ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were taken from google*

@Janz 15 February 2022

The Wildest Dreamer `February 15, 2022` ***When a dreamer dreams in a wildest way, do you think it will be into reality?*** It is said that it's not bad to dream big. So, we dreamed biggest. But we always had in our mind, can we able to reach that dreams. On the other side as well it says we can because we will do everything to change "we can" into "we did". We aimed the "we did" part. We always will. We have individualities when it comes to what we aimed in the future or the dreams that we dreamed for it may became a reality for us. But we also knew the fact that when we dream big we should know our capabilities or we should asked ourselves if we have all possibilities for it to be real. But as I've said it's not also a bad thing to dream the unbelievable. Why not? Right? But we knew as well that if a certain dream were beyond the reality then it will just remained as a dream forever. Now, as human being of course I myself had lots of dreams in life. I have so many goals in life and that all isn't not for me alone. I have dreams for myself, I have dreams for my parents, I have dreams for my siblings and I have dreams for my own family most especially for my son. I wanted all my dreams to be realized as soon as sooner. Life nowadays were so hard, harder than a stone and it stressed me out to death for I want all my dreams to come true right away because I'm totally depressed financially. When I'm out of money I don't know where I can have it by just a click of a thumb. When I heard my parents worried on their payments of the motorcycle, I felt guilty for I don't have any to give. Just like today, it's already the deadline for payment but they don't have money and I also don't have money and I saw my father were so worried where he can get the amount. Yes, I have a work but I just started my duty and my salary will probably be on the 2nd week of March because my salary were always get delayed too. Since I'm not a regular employee and that means it's a no work no pay for me. It's truly hard and became more harder when the typhoon hits our place because if it's not with the typhoon then everything will be okay today. My parents may not lose their living because as of now my father don't have any income for he has no work since his tricycle were also damage by the typhoon. You know what, I get so emotional while writing this. I don't know my tears just fall for I felt so down for myself on why I don't have anything that I can share to them so that they won't worry anymore. I'm sad for my parents were already old for a heavy work. I really wanted to just give them a small business that they will managed so that they have at least an income and not a heavy work anymore. But I know in myself I can't gave it to them today for I myself don't have regular job. That is why I'm now dreaming a wildest dream for I want my dreams to come true right away because I wanted to get away from this burden on my shoulder. I want my dreams for my parents to come true immediately because I now felt their hardships. Am I daydreaming? Because I now felt the feeling of frustrations. Frustrated because of the hardship life brought to us nowadays. I even thought that I'm dreaming now. That this hardships are just a dream. Someone slap me please!!! Oppsss... I'm not dreaming. It's real. The hardship is real. I just hoped it will end soon. That's all for now. By the way, I get this article idea when I had read the article ***"My wildest dreams"*** of @Unity. You can also check his article. https://read.cash/@Unity/my-wildest-dreams-a584dd5f ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were taken from Unsplash.*

@Janz 14 February 2022

Untold Facts of myself `2nd article of Feb 14` What's up fellas! ! ! Let me ask you? How was your day today? Are all have a date? Hopefully, you'd enjoy your day today everyone. Anyways, I am here already at my parents place. I started my duty today and our first duty was a photoshoot. Yes, we all the employees are being sent to the main campus for a photoshoot for I guess that's for anniversary photoshoot or maybe for organizational photoshoot. Not sure. But what made me so dismay today is that my workplace still don't have stable signal. As in the connection were crawling like a turtle. I really felt sad coz' I thought the connection in my workplace were already good but sad to say I can hardly access my read.cash and I'm totally dismayed for I have a target goals to be active everyday and to publish everyday. But it seems I can hardly made it a success. Right now while writing, I am here in the upper area of my parents barrio just to have signal and can interact with you all and can write and publish this one. But what if it's raining? So, I may not be able to do my goal to be active everyday and that was the sad reality for me. What can I do? It's part of the aftermath of super typhoon Odette. So, I just maybe endure and have patience. Anyways, in this article I want to also share my ***"ME" version*** for you to have some background about me. I came up with this idea after I bumped into AlphaCron's **article**. https://read.cash/@AlphaCron/ask-me-random-stuffs-version-72520d7d So, I'm going to share with you my answers on some questions given in Alpha's article. Here's the questions in his article and I just took the screenshot of it. First one... **What does your name mean?** All I know, when my mom was still pregnant at me. She totally admired one of the Philippine actress named Janice de Belen. So, obviously my name has no exact meaning it's just taken from the name of the mentioned actress where my mom idolized that time. **What's on your mind right now?** My son. For I missed him a lot already because I am away with them right now and I already missed my son so much. I thought of hugging and kissing him right now but I can't coz I'm far from them. **Where do you see yourself in the next 10 years?** In the next 10 years, I see myself stable enough. Enough that I already able to fulfill all my goals for my parents, my siblings, and with my own family. I was able to have our own house and was able to gave my parents a house and a business. Also, I see myself as a more resilient women, more courageous in facing future problems. Last thing, 10 years from now I'll be 34 and my son is 10year old at that time, so I see myself providing everything for my sons needs in his education. I just hope and pray that all this may truly come for me in the near future. **What are your recent hobbies?** Writing, reading and commenting. This is because of my addiction of this platform read.cash which gives me new hobbies in life and that's writing articles, reading articles and commenting on an article. **What do you think of yourself?** When I became a mother, I definitely change my thoughts about myself. Before I always thought I can't able to accomplished anything in life but motherhood truly changes my mindset and I thought differently already. I now think of my self as a goal seeker and catcher mom for I tried my best to achieved everything I aimed in life and that's all for my son as he was my ultimate inspirer and motivator. I guess I will end it here for we still need to go home and rain is already showing here. See you again for my next blog everyone. Have a sweet dreams. ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were the screenshot I took at Alpha's article.* *Apologies anyways because I can't easily attached pictures because of the unstable internet connection.*

@Janz 13 February 2022

Fixing everything before leaving to work `February 14, 2022` First of all, I want to greet my read.cash family. **HAPPY VALENTINES DAY** everyone. I hope you'll enjoy the day with full of love not only to those couples out there but also to all single because we can spread the love everywhere for our self and for the people around us. As for me, today I can't able to somehow make the day special with my partner because I'll start my duty today in school. Working, working mode activated again. Today also is the anniversary of the school I'm affiliated with, so I may have my valentine at school or celebrate it together with the anniversary celebration held by the school. By the way, since today is the start of my work mode and my workplace is far from where am I living now our rent house here at my partner's hometown. Therefore, I need again to endure a week or more not seeing them my partner and my son because I can't able to go home here everyday for my workplace is an hour of ride from our place here and I don't have my own vehicle and if I do commuting everyday back and forth I need to have almost $16 per day times 5 days in a week so I can spent a total of $80 a week and that's already too much for me and very pricey. Therefore, with the given situation I chose to just stay at my parents place during weekdays since my workplace is near at them and I tried to go home here every weekend. But if our money isn't enough so sometimes it's 2 weeks that I can't able go home. It's hard for knowing that I'll be away with my 2-year old son but what can I do I also need to work for him for I can provide his needs. Enduring the missing moments is what I can do. My partner also is still a student a 4th year college now, and I'm the one whose already have a diploma and a licensed teacher. Among for the both us, I am the one can have the highest possibility to have a job that's why I'm still the one working for now and he was the one taking care of our kid. ***Fixing everything before leaving to work...*** Now, it's really my routine that before I left here at our house I tend to fixed everything first. Fixed everything means, I clean first the entire house, empty first the laundry baskets, sweeping outside the house and etc .Since I am a person that hates unclean house, the things are disorganized since I want a house that is neat and well cleaned because I felt the ambiance of the house is refreshing even just a simple house but I always make sure it's clean. When I just left the house unclean, lots of things are still unorganized, baskets are full of laundries then I felt like I can't stop thinking here at our house and I am not comfortable leaving knowing it's state. Therefore, I always make sure that before I leave everything is fixed. Just like what I did yesterday, and the other day. I clean the entire house, getting the cobwebs, sweeping, cleaning the CR, fixing the dry clothes and put it on it's respective drawers, and lastly is to washed all the laundries including curtains, bath towels,and bed sheets and blankets. I was able to make things done yesterday and was so happy seeing the basket of laundries empty because I know my partner don't have time to washed it when I'm at work because his looking 24/7 to our son. So, I choose to washed it all before I go to work. Now, that everything is fixed I can able to leave here today peacefully. Lol By the way, I woke up today 1AM and I can't sleep back so I decide to write this article instead and I planned to write two article as of the moment because I knew I don't have much time when I'm already on working mode. I just hope that the internet signal there in my workplace were now better because after typhoon the signal were not good already. I just hope it's good now so that I can still stay active in here. So, that was it for this article. I'll end it here for I need to write another one. God bless!!! ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image source* https://www.google.com/search?q=cleaning+the+house&client=ms-android-oppo-rvo2&prmd=ivnx&sxsrf=APq-WBsKQcjy6ShdWXw3kxAwLQbfywhcQA:1644775405833&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiP5LLuof31AhVdw4sBHc6yDDMQ_AUoAXoECAIQAQ&biw=360&bih=668&dpr=2#imgrc=mL2XbatBWA79nM&imgdii=hE7viw0Lg2TkqM

@Janz 13 February 2022

Becoming a mother in a wrong time is still a blessing in disguise `February 13, 2022` **Blessing in disguise?** Well, for me these are the things that we unexpectedly thought of coming to us or to our life. The things that we thought won't happen to us but it did and the best part is that it brought us the blessings that we as well doesn't expect. We had lots of experiences in life as we sail on the wave of life. We tend to fall on the boat that we are in while sailing but failure or bitter trials while on our way toward the endpoint of the ocean are also often blessings in disguise. As what @Jane said that ***bitter trials are often blessings in disguise.*** And I definitely agree with it. As long as we tried our best to open our eyes from the positive point view of life then those hard trials that we are facing right now were surely be resolved and with the help of light by opening our eyes we can able to see on how we can surpassed problems and reach our goals. https://read.cash/@Jane/bitter-trials-are-often-blessings-in-disguise-3c3c7466 We actually have this so-called blessings in disguise that we may named them as our blessings in disguise. For it maybe change our point of view in life, it may thought us many learnings that we able to apply in ourselves and we became better from it, it maybe helped us reach our goals accordingly and many more. Those were we can say that such exact happenings in our lives are truly the blessing in disguise. But in some point, we may somehow neglect those blessings for we have that pride that ruined us in embracing such blessings. In this case, we disallowed those things that may be the blessings for us. But I guess, as I've said if we are going to open our eyes for the positive things it brought then we can able see the blessing it give to our life. Then we can barely say, it is definitely the blessings in disguise. Becoming a mother in a wrong time is a blessing in disguise. I consider it a wrong time because first of all I became a mother that I and my partner were both financially unstable. He's still a student and I just graduated college so I still don't have a job. At first, I didn't tried to open my eyes on the positive things. I always looked down myself, felt the regrets that I somehow disappoint my parents even if they never felt me that way but still know I disappoint them. I looked always on the negative sides like how can we be able to become a good parent if we can't able to provide our kid. Those were the common things I thought when it happened to me. Of course when I engaged on intimate love I never thought of such possibilities because what I only have in my mind is the pleasure it gave to me and I know in that sense I'm totally wrong. Until such time that I became pregnant, then I started to think on its negative consequences. I totally closed my eyes for the positive things and never thought of considering it as my blessings in disguise. Not until I passed the LET (licensure examination for teachers). I was still pregnant when I took the exam and others said that the baby inside my womb is a blessings for it helped me passed the LET. Then, I started to think that maybe? Maybe it really was a blessing for me because I knew that time I don't have a proper review, I just reviewed less than a month for the exam and that's the week before the exam and also I knew that my time that I focused on my review wasn't enough for me to passed but still I passed. So, yeah maybe it brought me the blessing that I never thought. Another is when I already gave birth and saw my son. I then thought of another blessings that come my life and not only in my life but to my parents for they were so happy and excited for my son and of course to us as parents whose excited to see our son grown from time to time. When I start to witness all the developments of my son I always felt that being a mother is a blessing in disguise for being a mother I was able to learned many things in life and will do everything to provide my son and my family. I learned how to be hard working in all ways as I can in all the possibilities. I able to somehow know my real purpose and what's my greatest goal in life. All those made me think that becoming a mother really is a blessing to me for it made me better everyday. My life already sailing straight to mya target destination that despites all the challenges I faced I really tried to get up because I had my son that motivates me when I felt that I'm falling on the boat I'm sailing. I even meet this read.cash in my life when I became a mother and also this platform brought me blessings to especially on financial things and aside from that I became true to myself in here for I can able to express all my thought freely. **Therefore, becoming a mother is what I considered my blessings in disguise.** Now, how about you? What are those things that you considered your blessing in disguise? ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were edited through canva app.*

@Janz 11 February 2022

Let's do the valentine edition of questioning `February 12, 2022` Hola, Hola everybody. Here we go again. Another type of questions that needs to he answered in our own way, in my own way. This type of questions were in lined with the upcoming valentines day because this month is a heart or love month as well. This questions were taken from article of @Micontingsabit regarding such matter and in her article she said the questions were also taken by her on one of the article of @Usagi. So, I'm also answering the same type of questions. To start with the first question: **Never have I ever had a Valentine on February 14th** Actually, 14 is the start of my duty at school. So, my valentine date at that time is my work. Anyways, I don't actually celebrate that day. For me, it's just a normal day though because as what my partner said everyday for both us is a valentine day. Therefore, everyday is a celebration. Lol **Never have I ever asked someone out** I haven't. Because I was the one being asked by someone to go out and not I myself. I am also not into doing the first moves because I'm a shy type in terms of that and not my forte too. I will always let that someone to do their first move if they wanted to have me. Chaarrooott... **Never have I ever broken up with someone** I have. In fact all my exes I actually broken up with them. The reason were long distance and I can't long distance relationship before so I just broke up with him. Another is that, eagerness. One of my ex were so eager already. Eager to settle down knowing that I'm still studying and were not yet in a month of relationship and then he's already so eager. Therefore, I just broke up with him too. Another is, I don't like there company so I chose to broke up too. Because you know in my case, if someone is courting me and I said yes that doesn't mean that I love them. I just said yes because I want to know them more if I don't like the way they are then I just get away from but if I like how they are then I'll stay and eventually I'll just love them truly just like what I did with my partner now. **Never have I ever broken up with someone but then got back together with them** I have with my partner now. There was this one time that I broke up with him. But he insisted that I wasn't because it wasn't real as what he said because I was in the middle of my anger when I broke up with him. So, he said it wasn't a real break up. But for me it was, I did broke up with him because that time I get angry and annoyed for his ex were doing a lot of experiments to win him back and one time I was able to know that he was also flirting back with his ex through chats. His reason on flirting back was, he just want a revenge because he was cheated by her ex he just want her felt the feeling of *(umaasa)*. But of course it's not right for me and I let him choose that time if me or his ex. But he did blocked her ex on facebook and broke his sim card for his ex can't contact him again. But still I broke up with him in a week that time to test him if his thoughtful by his words. But since, were together now for almost 4 years so he is. **Never have I ever been in love with my best friend** I haven't. I don't want to ruin the friendship we've had. So, I haven't felt in love my best friend. Well, I felt love but as a friend to them and not more beyond that. **Never have I ever received a love note** I have when I was in high school. But I just ignored it because I knew who sent me that love note and it's my classmate before that always says he wanted to court me and just whispered *"I love you"*. But since having a boyfriend wasn't on my mind that time so I just ignored him until we graduated I never eyed on him. That's all for now coz' it seems long already. I still have more questions to answer but I doubt you'll get bored when it's too long already. So, I'll just write my 2nd part of this valentine edition type of questioning. Well, have a fruitful day my read.cash family. ***"For my sponsors and those who upvoted my articles. I would like to say my deepest gratitude and happiness for you all since you always keep me inspired and motivated. Thank you so much. More blessings to all of us here. Love you all :) -*** @Janz *Lead image were edited through canva app.*