by Gracee / Monday / July 12, 2021
This should not be the article I am going to publish now, however, I could not finish the one I planned to publish today for I lost my concentration and focus on that specific topic and the word "PISSED" often came out of my mind today because of the incident this morning.
Having the feeling pissed off is not really good for it can ruin our mood and even our whole day.
When I feel too much pissed, it ended me crying though I am not sure with the others. They said tears will fall when you cannot explain or say what you feel inside. I think that is true because every time I am too much pissed and could not express myself my tears suddenly fall and seems like saying "stop, breathe and calm yourself".
In this article, I am just going to share with you some of the things that make me pissed these past few days. I should not write this for it so negative though I think I need to do it to lighten my mood. Not sure it if really lightens up my mood though.lol.
First, criticizing my work without valid reasons and proof. One of our staff often observes my online classes, especially with kids. I do everything to make the lessons easier for the students' sake and do my best to be enthusiastic from the beginning to end of the class yet she was still not satisfied. She even talked to my team leader and said to observe my class but every time my TL asked her why she could not say a specific reason and just say " I think something is not right on how she teaches the lesson", yet she could not say what it is. So funny right?
I mean, I know I am not as good as my team leader or the other teachers but I deserve to know the problems or things she does not like in my classes or teaching style so that I can correct or change them for my students' improvement yet she could not even point out what those things that made me pissed. I am really puzzled and get pissed with that staff but yeah, I chose not to confront her and let it pass because my TL said that there are no problems with me. Besides, no complaints from the students and parents about my classes.
Second, blaming someone because of the others' fault. Why blaming someone who does not have control over people who are capable to decide on their own? Thinking this situation making me pissed off while writing this. I just do not understand why people especially my relatives and maybe yours too have that kind of attitude. This kind of attitude does not help grow a good relationship. Besides, it can make a gap between the people involved.
My father was blamed this morning by his relatives for not showing himself and his siblings on their aunt's birthday a few months ago. They were blaming him just because no one showed on that certain occasion when they just invited us on the same day and it was weekdays which everyone was so busy and was still pandemic. I believed my father is not accountable for that because his siblings are old enough to decide for themselves. This is the specific reason why this article was written.
Lastly, Obscuring the truth. Hiding the truth just to cover up your friends is never ever be okay especially when someone hurt.
A few days ago, my father had a verbal fight with a person he just met at a birthday party of his friend (kumpare). According to the people who were there, my father did tell unpleasant things to that person before he went home. Because of that, my father was hit by that person and got a cut on his eyebrow. I and my relatives knew my father's attitude when he is drunk but I believed that he does not deserve to be hit.
My brother and I went to the party where my father hit and asked what truly happened but all they just could say was, they do not know why my father hit and they could not even tell the name of the person who punched my father which got me pissed yet still managed to compose myself and talked to them politely. But in my mind, I was saying " Duh you were there but you did not know what happened or even tell the name of that person, are you serious? ". Fortunately, one of the people there accidentally dropped the name of the guy. Then, tomorrow, they will go to the barangay hall to talk about the incident and how to solve the problem.
After writing the three things that got me pissed these past few days, I noticed that my father was involved. OMO! I just wish my father to stop drinking alcohol with others and just stay at home but for now, that will remain as a wish for my father is hard-headed and does not like drinking alcohol alone at home.
On the other hand, these are the things I do every time I get pissed.
Breath in, breath out
Listening to music
Do household chores ( at home), keep on silent (at work)
Eat something sweet
These are just some of my ways to calm down myself to avoid uttering unpleasant words towards others. I still wanted to be understandable and at the same time to be humane even though I am so sick and tired of it (a little) and sometimes wanna scold those people who got me pissed.
We easily get pissed for some reasons that make us so furious and raging yet we must learn to control our emotions and calm ourselves before doing any actions becayse if not, it might be ended to more problems and misunderstanding with others.
Have a nice day!😊
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MY OLD ARTICLES:
A Simple Girl's Birthday Celebration
Catching Up in the Middle of Black Out
A Sacrifice from Parents' Lies
Hah, the last one is super annoying. Nakakakulo ng dugo. Lies, lies and more lies, or white lies. Baka nakakalimutan na nila ang nasa 10 commandments. Hay jusko. Lord have mercy on us all.