by Gracee / Sunday / May 30, 2021
I am not certain of many things as well as about myself. Most of the time, I am confused about who really am I. Do I really know my inner self? Well, I am not sure about that but let me try to share with you the thing I know about myself.
I am inspired to write this article after reading the work of @Jane entitled Know Yourself Better Than Anyone Else and@Ruffa's work entitled I know Myself and I Know that Pig Can Fly a few days ago. I am not taking this as a challenge but doing it to see how I am certain of myself.
Things I know About You - YOU, I am referring to myself here just like talking to myself in front of a huge mirror. I usually see myself in the mirror after taking a bath and look at how nice my face after putting on face powder and a little lipstick but I sometimes talk to myself in front of it when I was crying and felt too sad for that is one of my ways in cheering up myself. Weird, right? Then, realizing how ugly am I when crying. haha.
If my mind serves me right, I have not yet ask myself who I am in front of the mirror. I wanted to believe that I know myself better than anyone else yet there were times when I questioned myself when I heard some judgment from the others that makes me anxious for it is far from what I really know about myself. Besides, they only see my outer self and not my inner self so, I still do my best to ignore those who always criticize me based on what they just see physically.
Today, I will try to share with you the things I know about You (Myself).
I hate it when.......................................................
I can't express myself in words, especially when I am pissed or puzzled;
I suddenly feel empty
I see my parents crying and could not do anything to ease the pain they have ( especially when my parents had too many arguments because of a third party. This makes me sad every time I remember it)
I do not like someone who .......................................................
bullies and downgrading others especially the unfortunate one (matapobre?)
is always showing off his achievement in a boastful way because I believe that being humble is better than bragging about everything, fortunately, on this platform, most of the writers are humble in their own ways so, I do not need to unsubscribe someone.
has a disrespectful attitude
is not considerate especially at work
I am afraid ......................................................
of dead and ghost
of leaving my parents with uncomfortable lives ( I wanted to pay them back before leaving this nice yet complicated world)
of having the feeling of loneliness
of being the weakest ( I do not like to be at the bottom though I still believe that being part of the bottom group may give me the courage to work hard to be better and improve my current situation)
criticism ( I accepted constructive criticism especially at work but a negative criticism to the point that someone blames me too much for just a simple mistake and makes me feel so bad about myself)
I feel happy when......................................................
I see my family happy and can provide for their needs (they are my happiness despite having misunderstanding)
I feel satisfied and worry less. ( for I do not always feel this because of too many responsibilities and pressure I have)
I and my friends have a food trip to catch up
I and my works are appreciated. (This makes me happy, inspired and motivated)
MY biggest regrets are.......................................................
not used to express my thoughts that is why I am having a hard time explaining and sharing my opinions/ideas and even my feeling to others.
not telling my parents what I would really like to take in College for I thought before that obeying what they like can avoid conflict between me and my father but I regretted it because now what I am not certain of the things that I really wanted to do for the rest of my life. I do not know yet what my purpose and calling. All I want is to have a nicer job (do not know what specific job) to provide for my family's need.
not focusing on studying when I still had a chance. ( Maybe if I had just focused on studying I have a better job now that I enjoy and no feeling of regrets.)
not prioritizing myself. (Even though I could not give all my family's need at this moment, I am certain that I always think about how to give them a better life than thinking about my futture though I still sometimes manage to buy myself the things I want especially the foods I like because those foods are just cheap compared to the goals and dreams I have for my family.
These are the things I know about myself and I am certain about these. Also, one thing I am certain about is that I always make sure to treat others nice, especially when they are nice to me too. Moreover, I am not good at entertaining others and starting a good conversation. Fortunately, I have these two platforms (noise and read.cash) to improve my interpersonal skill.
Inner self is to know the purpose, motivations, values, vision, goals and beliefs of a person in life. I am still working on all those things but at this point, I am sure that I know myself better than the others, and that what is matters.
-the end.
Have a nice day! 😊
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