by Gracee / Thursday / June 17, 2021
You maybe have an idea what this article is all about. Well, what you think might be right for I am going to talk about a feeling of sadness in this article.
Tonight, sadness hit me again. I just felt this a few hours ago when I was alone in the kitchen while cooking our dinner and resting as well for I was tired fetching water.
You might do not know but I am a person who does not want left behind. What I mean is, I do not want to see my loved ones and friends leaving and left me alone even when they just go back to work. I like being alone at home yet not all the time and seeing our house empty after their visit and stay for a few days or even just a day makes me sad.
A few weeks ago, my youngest sister said that she is going to use her 2-day vacation leaves (Monday and Tuesday), taking her 1-day suspension (Wednesday) and her day off (Thursday). In total, she gets a 4-day rest and decided to come home to enjoy it with us.
My sister is one of the supervisors in one of the biggest supermarkets here. However, she cannot come home daily for the branch where she works is quite far so, she decided to live in a boarding house near to their branch with her colleagues. She just comes home once in a while and I can even count it on my fingers. She is like the others who are too lazy to come home on her days off. Fortunately, she was forced to use some of her VL (vacation leave) so, she chose to come home.
Finally, she came home on Monday this week.
She arrived early in the morning with my brother who fetched her and my two nieces whom they fetched before they came home. Later on, my brother fetched my sister-in-law too.
Monday was an extraordinary day for I was able to enjoy the day with them and the house was filled with noises and laughter. This extended until this Thursday afternoon. We were so busy together doing household chores and taking care of our nieces as well as my classes. These are the reasons why I was not able to make some noises and interact with others on both platforms.
Around 3 o'clock in the afternoon, my sister decided to went back to their boarding house. Then, my brother and his family went home too. At the moment I saw my living room messy and empty, I suddenly felt a bit sad so, to ignore it I played loud and fun music until I finished cleaning our house. That lasted for an hour. However, after I stopped the music and cooked our viand for dinner I felt again the emptiness and sadness. Fortunately, my boyfriend visited and joined me for dinner so, the sadness I felt lessen yet there still a little until now.
A Snap of Sadness
The sadness I felt earlier was faded little by little after I was accompanied. In addition to that, I realized that while we are getting older, there are too many changes that happen. For instance, from treating our siblings as an enemy to best buddies/friends and being together at home daily to seeing them once in a while.
Changes are one of the permanent things in this world that we must always accept. However, I am one of the people who are having a hard time accepting it that is why I always feel sad every time a change happens from the things I use to do, see, and feel.
On the other hand, I know what to do to avoid the feeling of too much sadness and emptiness which is accepting the fact that nothing is permanent in this world including our families' situations. We could not stay with them forever. It may be because of having jobs somewhere, own families or death.
I may be having a hard time accepting that fact yet I will do my very best not to swayed too much with the sadness I feel every time someone will leave me.
-the end.
I wanted to apologize for the comments and replied I wasn't able to read and reply for a few days. I was just too busy at home.
Have a good night! 😊
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Separation anxiety yan sis. Yung kahit na sanay kana mag isa sa bahay pero after nong umalis ang bisita, nalulungkot ka. 😞