Childabuse

@wakeupkitty · 1 year ago

The teacher doesn't like me and that will never change. He looks at me like I'm the dirtiest person he's ever seen. He's not nice, yet I keep going back to class and pretending I don't hear how he kee...

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@wakeupkitty · 1 year ago

The Prof.

Dad... He's in the room next to my bedroom and I haven't seen much of him today. Now I know what he does there. I also know what the old man with the heavy voice is doing with him. That old man is a p...

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@wakeupkitty · 1 year ago

Babysitting

Sometimes I babysit. I look after the neighbour's baby. The neighbours are old but have a little boy. His name is Edwin. They are happy with him but every now and then they go away. I don't know why m...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Yelling

I'm tired of the yelling, my mother's yelling, cursing, scolding, the fights. I want her to be quiet or better go away. It's hard to live with her and I don't think I can handle it any longer. No on...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Stay informed

If granny walks she looks as if she's in pain. She walks with a bent back and it is as if she's always in a hurry. Granny rarely talks with people outside on the street. Perhaps she know no one or peo...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

In pain

"Okay, Granny, close your eyes and hold on to my arm." Granny did like she always did and played with me. She had things to do but in a way she managed. She is the best granny one can have. I could...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Spartan

Spartan, that's how dad calls something that is difficult. Sitting in the cold is Spartan, eating dirty food with mould is Spartan and so is sleeping on the floor. I don't think Dad is a Spartan or ev...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

No future

January 1st, 2022 we left grandmother's house after dinner which was at noon. My mother fought with her and auntie and uncle left after coffee at 10. They can leave, at least they can leave. Will gra...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Why?

Forgotten, dead and buried. Out of bed at 6 am and cleaning my room. Why do I have to push the bed in the middle of the room and lift all small furniture on it every day so it's easier for her vac...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Daily routine

Saint Nicholas didn't visit us but there was a bag full of presents. I had hot chocolate and as the front doorbell rang and dad opened the door pepernoten and candies were thrown inside. I think that...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

The face in the mirror

My face hurts and I feel something is wrong. If I feel what I feel now I know it will be swollen soon. I'm in bed and that's the only good thing. On the hiking trip, I still felt fine. It started at h...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Christians & slavery

If you are a Christians you do not all believe the same, share the same Bible, Church, reverend, culture or faith with other Christians. It would be good if that was the case if shared what we have in...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

My wish list

If you keep a diary you have to write every day. Is a diary still a diary if I write once a week or a month? Sailor, captains write daily. I wonder if it is to kill time or more like the black box of...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

One, two, three, four, five, six...

Autumn holidays are good for cleaning. It's me and my mother. The housekeeper is at home. My mother takes all the boxes out of the ceiling. Everything that is stored inside has to be cleaned. Can some...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Bad memories stay

Today it is... It is October 20! I woke up. My head hurts. My ear hurts. My eyes are swollen. My throat hurts. I am not tied to the bed. It's grey outside. I feel the cold. Did it freeze? I tried to...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Promises

People who make promises lie. It is better to say no instead of making a promise you will not keep. The teacher makes false promises, my family does. The king of false promises is my dad. He never doe...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

I am a burden

I try to act normal want to be normal but I don't know what normal is. Isn't normal the place where I live? Aren't my parents normal? If what I am surrounded with is my normal why doesn't she likes...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Trapped

Trapped, that's how I feel if children look at me. I can feel they don't like me, avoid me and talk about me. The housekeeper said I am not ugly or fat. My mother says I'm ugly and children say I'm...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Thor fights back

It's my mother's birthday. Good enough to skip church for my parents and Sunday school for me. My mother expects breakfast on the bed in exactly the way she orders it. No one brought me breakfast on...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Me being born made her hate me

I went out with the hiking club again. At the time I arrived at the bus I felt exhausted. Waking up early is hard, next to cleaning the house. Everything needs to be finished before I leave. I feel li...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

The truth

Your truth will never be mine because we are raised in a different world and our eyes are coloured if not blind for each other's needs. "I tell you once you get older." I wonder why I need to be...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

They scare me

I am not fat but the scales told me I am heavier than the bully in my class. "Don't listen to hear," the housekeeper said. She usually does not talk to me. I feel sad and wonder how this can be. H...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Tomorrow everything is back to normal

Grandmother is angry with me. She says I have to eat everything she gives me. I will never grow if I refuse to eat. I can't eat. The food is too much. First soup, next potatoes, vegetables and meat an...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

I kill you!

July 24, 2021 , was the last time I wrote. A lot has happened but if I think back it's not worth writing about it. My Summer vacation is nearly over. It started with my stay at granny's house , I jo...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Message in a bottle

Today isn't the best day of my life. I woke up I did and it's me who has to live with the damage done to me. I am in pain, I still feel tired. I heard the nurses whisper together while they looked a...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

That terrible voice

I clean and clean and clean . My hands are wounded but my mother doesn't care. She knows I have allergies, she knows I have to avoid water and so much more. She says she has to clean because of my all...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

You can't trust her

I went to school ... again but we didn't do much. It's more like killing time because the school has to be open and the teachers... They want to finish everything before the holidays start. I received...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

Not in the mood

That's how I feel. My mother would say I am never in the mood, always look grumpy, ugly, am lazy and have a crinkle in my head. She means my brains are sick. I saw photos of brains and brains look cri...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

She taught me a lesson

Cars I never liked cars. Cars make me feel sick and they do not smell nice. Dogs make the car feel smell worse too. If I sit at the back the dogs sit behind me. Why do dogs always smell out of their...

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@wakeupkitty · 2 years ago

It in't gold for real

The queen has a golden car. They say the people gave it to her. I don't know who exactly those people are but it wasn't me. I only have a little bit of pocket money and can not even buy a pocketbook....

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