My Older Sister Spoiling me when I was on the vacation in their house
In this article, this is the second chapter in my recent article: **What did I do Yesterday?** This was supposed to be publish in the past few days but I have a cold until now. So, this is just my free time to write. I want to focus in healing because i really hate myself being sick and I'm sorry. https://read.cash/@Reo/what-did-i-do-yesterday-0291a789
Anyway, After we registered and fill up forms to create my NBI clearance ID, I'm already hungry and we did not eat breakfast so we decided to eat in McDonalds. She asked me first if what I want to eat and it's been a while since I go out and eat some fast food in malls so I decided to eat in McDo, yay!
Their stall is in the first floor so we need to go down. Actually, I like riding escalator since when I was a child so I'm enjoying when we going up and down. If you just with me before, you can't stop me riding it but now that I grow up, I can't do that anymore. Which is making me sad lol
Anyway, my sister ask me if what I like to eat and I choose my favorites to eat like Mc chicken, mc float, and fries. I also want to eat some of their Footlongs because it's her treat and I like her to be broke but I am in the public area. You know when traveling, i don't like to eat some many foods because it's makes me throw up when I am very full and sometimes it makes my stomach angry so I stop myself. I just can eat more when I was in the house.
My sister told me to find a sit, and then I go to the beside of their glass window. I don't like to sit there because i don't like someone looking at me, eating like a pig. Charot. It makes me feel shy but anyway I don't have a choice because that is just the only sit that available.
While I'm sitting and waiting for my sister because she is in the cashier and to order our food.
I just taking selfies and looking around if there are some handsome passing by since I am at their glass wall din lang naman, Sulitin ko na at ng ako'y nabigo I decided to fix my things in my bag because it become messy and while I'm doing that my sister just got back and wait for the call of our number and while waiting we are just chitchating. After a minutes of talking with my sister the casher call our number so she go back again to get our foods.
Anyway I'm so angry to them because they give me a fried chicken but it just have a small meat on it..if you will bite it, 'Unang kagat, Buto agad.' and my sister forgot my french fries too but it's okay, I have eggs naman which is good because it's our breakfast and i don't eat more heavy meals. Anyway, She doesn't like fried chicken anymore, naumay siya. Ganyan talaga pag nagtatanda na nakakaumay din kasi, lalo na at yan palagi ang kinakain natin pag lumalabas tayo. I also relate to her because I don't like to eat in Jollibee anymore.
We just take some pictures, eat while chating and she told me that we need to go to her School to enroll. After we finish eating, we just take a rest and go for walk again. She look at my foot and she noticed my sleeper. She told me that my sleeper is already look like a sleeper of a beggar because it's have a small hole and anytime, bibigay na yung sleeper ko. You know, I don't go out so I don't have some time to buy some things for myself. So she decided to buy me some one sleeper however, she likes a sleeper that I can use to go out too. Just like when we have some occasions in some house of my cousins and unexpected travelings. After we buy my sleeper, I wore it and after a while, I wore again a sleeper and comfy my feet.
After we buy some sleeper, we go out to the mall to go again to another mall. It's not look like a mall like Sm and others that have a aircon. We just walk since it's just near and to save a fare and then when we arrived, we just go up to the second floor using their stairs and go to the stall of phone cases. She need to buy some new case to her phone and tempered glass to protect from breaking because her tempered glass and phone case is now old. After we buy, We go down and find a motorcycle to go to their school.
When we arrived to their school, It's just look like an Ordinary School. But their window and door Glasses are all mirrored glass you know the glass in the windows that when you are inside, you would see what happening in the outside but when you are outside, you would not see inside. It's a good and very beautiful school that I can't imagine and Their place is also clean. Their principal is very Friendly too, he always smile and look to me and he look like he is not a Principal because his clothes are not in the Uniform maybe he is very humble person?
After my sister get her class card. I noticed that she is happy because her grades is not low. Her grade is 88 and 89 in the two subjects that she is holding. That moment, I ask her if she really likes what she is doing right now and she answered me Yes and It much better than what she is doing before. Which is making me happy because finally, she don't have pressure, and she is now living in what she likes and it doesn't have some other people's opinions.
We just wait until we get some Form that needed in enrolling however, the weather is very hot and I can't take it anymore so I told her that i like to drink some MilkTea and she can't wait anymore too and she go inside to told to her proof that she will just go back in Monday which is to be this day.
Thankfully, Her Proof allowed her and we ride again some Tricycle to go to the SM mall and before we go to the Macau, she decided to go to the watsons store first to buy some skin cares. Because she doesn't have some stock anymore and it's been awhile since she buy some stuff for herself. After roaming and she buy some stuff, we already go to the MilkTea Shop
We just ordered a Medium size since we are not really thirsty. Plus, their milktea is really expensive and we can't afford that much. We just drink, take a picture, talk again and after we finish our Drinks, We decided to go home.
When we go home, we just rest in their room and watching some movie. It's already 3pm in the afternoon and I am hungry again, she told me to go downstairs and go to her shop and get some Fries that I want.
While staying there, Everytime when I am hungry, I just go to get some fries in her shop. Well not all is it's for free. When It's my second order and I think it's not enough, I buy and give some fee. Not Just because I'm her sister I would not give some fee anymore. There is Give and Take words right?
I know she is struggling too. Because she is my older sister, She wants to better take care of me and as a young sister, I don't like to become a burden to her.
So I decided to go home to our Grandparents yesterday, it's hard for me because i'm lonely here. But I don't like to become a burden to her anymore.
While I'm vacationing there, I feel her love for me as a older sister. She is taking care of me and giving what I like or wants. She is Spoiling me but not all of the times, she is also scolding me if she thinks that it's not right and I'm at tantrums too Haha
Even if I or we become older or grow, we don't change the fact that I'm her Younger sister and I'm still my Mom and her Baby. 😜
Thank you for reading!
What did I do Yesterday?
Today i will share you what I did do yesterday. That is a very a tiring day for me because I travel and travel a for how many times and the reason why I did not write some Article yesterday because I knock out already. I don't have Energy to write because i'm already tired.
I really need to travel and go somewhere place that it is very important because I badly need it. You know that having a valid ID is our one of the most important for verifying our account in some applications that needed to transfer our money right? And because I don't have ID, I need to have one because If i don't have it, I can't transfer my money in Bitcoin.com to my Coins.ph account.
Actually, I already did told my mom about it before that I need ID and of course, not just because it's for my transferring money but for some important purposes that I can use/need in the future too. Because I'm already 21 years old this year yet I don't have a Valid ID. You know, it's better to have one than no have and just borrowing some to your Family members right? So that I don't need borrowing their names, who knows? Maybe they will get it or Open my accounts so I decided to it's better to have my own.
Anyway I start my story telling in How I start my day yesterday. So first, My sister did chat me and she told me that I need to wake up early in 6 am in the morning. She also told me that if I did not awake in that time and I did not take a bath, I can take a bath in their house where she is living right now at pinasundo niya lang ako sa boyfriend niya. Because they are already a Live in Partner (btw. i did mention about them in my Recent Article Yesterday and you can read it HERE). https://read.cash/@Reo/my-relationship-heart-break-story-with-my-first-boyfriend-0a46c515
So in the Morning, I did not wake up early. haha I'm so very lack of sleep because like I said, I'm not good at waking up early in the morning even if I don't stay up late at night, I still woke up late. So someone is waking me up and when I open my eyes it's my Sister's boyfriend.
After waking up, I just go to the kitchen, Mouth wash my Mouth using Listerene mouth wash and I wash my face with Water. After that, I go back to my room and prepare my things that I needs like Clothes for going out and skin cares. I just ponytail my hair into bun and Clean all my mess in my room before living so that our Grandma will not scold me. I also put some alcohol in my hand and to my facemask before wearing it to protect myself from Covid and I wear a jacket because it's cold in that time and we are just going to ride a Motorcycle from house to their House which is located to Pozorrubio. I just say bye to my Grandparents and to my pets and then we already go.
Riding a motorcycle is very fast than riding a Bus. Because if we ride a bus it takes a time to reach our destination. Good thing that my sister's boyfriend is have a Motorcycle, We can just ride there and we don't need to spend a lot of money for fare plus we can save a time. However, If I ride motorcycle at that time i feel like anytime i will fall because I'm sleepy lol 🤣. Good thing that I hate cold wind and he knows that I'm scared of cold wind so she drove her motorcycle fast and the reason why I'm so awake during that ride 🙄.
When we arrive in our destination and when I go down to her motorcycle, My Feet is very numb because of the long long ride! It's 3 hrs of riding and it's so very tiring siting in the motorbike my gosh! Anyway, I don't mind and endure it as long as I could because it's just normal pero alam niyo naman na pag ganon sobrang sakit sa paa diba? i don't like to let inform it to my sister because she will just hold it and make me more suffer because of it lol. So when I arrive to their room, I just say Hello to her and she told me that I need to take a bath already. So I just did what she told me to do. Anyway, I just prepare myself. I just take a bath, do my skin care routines and I'm ready to go. I just wait my Sister because she is preparing herself too.
It's already 8 am in the morning when we already go out. Her boyfriend just sent us to the terminal where we can wait some vehicles to ride. It's ethier we can ride a bus or Van but I prefer Van with Aircon because it's so very nice for a hot weather. You know, I became I irritated when it's very hot plus the bus is messy because we should follow the rules like social distancing and there are a lot of people plus, it's very slow unlike Van, in just 5 passengers it's already ready to go and the driver is a fast but a careful rider.
Usapang sakayan lang din naman, I have a Kwento. We are the first passenger of the van we ride right? We sit on the front and we are at the side of the driver so, while we are at the middle of our departure, I saw a motorcycle in front of us at first, I find them so sweet and clingy to each other.. I was like, *"Walang Forever mga brad, magbrebreak din kayo!"* In my mind but after we pass them because we were ahead of them already, i glance a little look to them but I thought the driver of motorcycle in front of the boy that I saw is a Lady but i'm wrong it's a guy too! OH my gulay! i did not know so I was thinking of *"Minus points ko nanaman sa langit"* again and I look away.
Fast forward, when we arrived our destination, we go fown to CB Mall it's located to Urdaneta City, Pangasinan. Because at that Mall, We already have a lot of things that we needed in creating our ID's. Like if you will need a photocopy or zerox of your documents that needed, they have it in the third floor near or in front of the Philhealth position. But you will need to line up because there are a lot of people. I did not imagine that there are a lot of people lining up during this days. I don't like waiting for so long pa naman. So I line up and just follow the rule of social distancing. I forgot to tell you that I'm also wearing my Facemask and Face shield because you cannot enter in Malls here without that.
While waiting and I'm spacing out, I'm shock when the one guard blew to his whistle, I was like *"Ay Kamarya!"* and look around. They are now looking at me and some of them laughing because I'm at a big shock and I'm still holding my heart. Then I found out that we are just needed to stand straight and sing our Philippine Anthem. You know, to respect our country in public and important places.
After I got my Photocopy and Zerox of my documents that I needed, We go to the National Bureau of Investigation or NBI. Yes! They have a Office position in the Mall here. But it's not really a police station but it's for printing and Register for Police Clearance ID's.
I just go inside and ask the lady in front. I just read the banner above that have number 1, 2, 3. It's just a guide just like how you do your account in Coinsph, you need to do the step 1, step 2, 3 and so on.. i just ask the crew in line 1. This is just for asking if where we should start and I said that I'm new and she said that I need to go to the cube 3, which is where I can register because that is for beginners and her place is for renewal. The lady is so nice and beautiful and she always smile so I smile to her too.
Then again I need to line up and follow the social distancing. In their office, it's just very simple. You don't also need go inside to take a picture because there are a already a small camera and a white stand that you can need for the back ground. Good thing that there's no many people. Just a few so I don't need to wait again for how many minutes for my turn. While waiting for my turn, I just observing the person doing, yung mga ginagawa niya. Because my sister is in the outside waiting for me. She did not go inside to help me because I need to learn doing this kind of stuffs because I'm already old now.
I'm very nervous of course but I need to finish this early because I'm already hungry, we did not eat breakfast lol. So when it's my turn I just ask the someone who is in charge of registering that I made a oppointment via their website where I registered my Name and other needed and he ask me for the number. The funny thing is..the first thing that I heard that, I thought he is asking for my number so I need to ask to repeat what he just said and he laughed because I misinterpret him and he explain that he need the number of my file and I did just give him the code? *(I don't know if it's that what they called)* but that is needed to search the file that I fill up. After that, he told me to go infront to take a picture for my ID at first, I want to take a picture with a peace sign charot! Joking only. I just take a picture and when I look to the monitor, I'm veru beautiful and perfect! Choos. I'm satisfied. Anyway, after that taking picture, they need my finger prints. I just follow what the previous girl yung nauna sakin kanina kung ano ginawa niya. It's very simple and I learned by observing what the others do and I don't need to ask what to do anymore and after the process, he give me a small paper and I thought again that it's his number but when I look at the paper, it's the date where I can go again there to get my ID. I'm dissapointed sir! Joke.
After that, i told my sister that I'm already hungry so we already go to the Mcdo to eat.
And for the next Continuation what Happened and we're we go I will write again another Article about this for part ll.
Thank you for reading! I hope I'm not late for Registering my Coinsph account.
`This story was happened yesterday, MAY 20, 2021 and Wrote today, MAY 21, 2021`
My Relationship Heart Break Story with my First Boyfriend
When I was 12 years old, I was first year high school that time. I have a Crush and he is my Older Sister's Classmate. That time, they are already third year High School. I don't have experience in relationship before because you know that I have a First Love but we never become in a relationship.
I don't like to tell this story because I don't like to remember it anymore but since I don't have something to write, then I have no choice.
Okay, So I am First year High School and He is third year High School that time so obviously, he is my Senior and I am his Junior. My sister did not know that i have a feelings to her trope lol but she did notice it before because of my behaviour when I was in their front and since I'm still young that time my behaviour is easy for them to read. However, they did not care because for them it's just a puppy love but they always tease me however at that time i did not know if they told that to my crush. I like him because he is very handsome and I admit that. I feel inlove to him by his looks because I'm still young and I don't know much about love unlike to my first love which is became my Bestfriend when I was Grade 4 and you already read about that because I'm always mentioning him when I was writing a story about my life. Anyway, he is also a great dancer and very famous in our campus.
There is a time that my Mom buy me a phone and it is just a Nokia keypad and I just use that every night to chat with my friend. She open up to me that there is someone who courting her. That night, I did not ask if who is that but to my surprise is it's my Crush who courting her. It's hurts me that time because she did know that I have a feelings to her suitor yet she allowed him to court her? However, I did not response and I let them until they become in a relationship. Why? Because I don't have confidence. The girl she likes is very beautiful, smart, and kind. I am nothing compared to her. Who I am to fight my feelings right? So I support them even if it's hurts.
But something happened, there is someone who likes her too and that is our classmate. Which is older than us and he is a repeater. That time, it was our vacation and my friend need an advice she is vacationing in her Aunt house in the beach. She told me a story that our classmate is pestering her because he already know about her relationship with my crush. He told her that if she will not break up to her boyfriend, he will die. Actually, I became a messenger to them that time. The boys get my number to her and that is the time that I became a Advice and Messenger to them lol. But, I'm happy because my friend give me time to chat with my crush even if our topic is to let stop my friend breaking up to him. Actually, I did everything to stop my friend for breaking up with her boyfriend. I advice her that she should not believe to our Classmate to his whatever nonsense but she did not listen to me and she broke up with my Crush which is obviously, their relationship did not last long.
However at that time, after that happened and days pass, We are already Second year High School. I hate my friend because of what happened but I still her friend. Anyway, that person who ruined her relationship with my crush did not stop pestering her. Actually many people esp. girls hate her because of being with that person and there is worst more than that *(I can't tell it to you guys i'm sorry because it is against in our rules in law so I will not include it because I respect her).* Untill they become official and My relationship with my Crush is become close or should I say that we are already in courting stage that my sister did not know about it and other people. Until I answered him and we already become in a relationship that time. It just a secret relationship and not official because I want it to be private so that there is no someone ruining our relationship together just like what happened. Plus, I don't have confidence too because he is very handsome and many girls like and they admire him. I know, he deserved someone who is beautiful unlike me.
Everytime, I will walk to go to the School, their classroom is just beside in our gate of the School so I need to walk in front of their room. Actually, that it's my fear of going to school alone because I was going to walk in front of their classroom which is I will always see him in their front because he is one of the members in clining in the front of their room. Another reason why I don't like walking or passing by to their Classroom is because of my Sister she only see me as a ugly duckling sister and she always bully me. Which is the reason why her classmates became a bully in my life too. However the close girl friends of my sister is very nice except for their boy troops except him of course he always sometimes stop them and disobey them which is they always told him that he is a kill joy but he doesn't care.
My relationship with him become perfect. When I was passing by to their room he always smile to me but in the way that it is not obvious. When I was going home we are in the same way so he is in my back walking slow so that it is not obvious to others. But sometimes we have some time to walk together that is when there is no people around and when someone is with us, we should call our self, Kuya (brother) and Ading (nickname for younger than us) when we are talking which is we find it both funny.
He also give me some food like softdrink , bread and chips using his bestfriend and he is very supportive to us. When we go home sometimes i was in the field where they are playing volleyball. I always watching him playing with some Juniors and Seniors and I was with my friends because we have this feeling that we don't like to go home early lol and if he is not playing, and it is still early we are hiding in the back of the Elementary room. Hanging out and talking. He really likes to hold my hand when I was with him and he is always playing my fingers which is i'm very shy because I'm thinking if my hand is very wet kasi pasmado lagi kamay ko. Lol He also likes to surprise me every our Monthsary with small gifts. Like matching bracelet, ring, and necklace. There is a time that I also gift him during our 7th Monthsary a T-shirt but it's just a simple shirt and it's a blue corner shirt lol it's a plain fusia pink colored shirt and matchy matchy kaming dalawa haha. We likes to collect blue corner color shirts and we always wear it every friday. However, It's different colors lol to be safe and not obvious. Just like for example: I'm wearing Pink and he wear his blue shirt. He is wearing black and I'm wearing white and Actually , we are doing that because we like to do the things that we cannot do when he will graduated in High School. So sinusulit ko na yung araw na makakasama ko siya habang Fourth year palang siya. Except for kissing in the lips lol If he will kiss me it's just in the checks and he will ask for my permission and in my forehead and head only.
Our Relationship become perfect. We stayed for being secret relationship for 3 years. Some people noticed that we are in a relationship and one of that people is my bestfriend, K and My sister too. Yes! She finally know about us because he told it to my sister so that he will know if i'm cheating with someone or not lol as if that time i know how to cheat? Hello I'm younger than them. Anyway my sister is very surprised to know about us but she did not angry and she did not told to my parents in short she is very quiet. I don't know if she told to their friends about us but I do know that they already know about us because everytime, when I saw them in the school hanging out even if they are now graduated, they always call me by my boyfriend's name or surname which is made me shy and laughed. But when someone ask me in the school if He is my boyfriend, I refused to answer it. I just like a quiet and peace relationship with him.
When I become fourth year High School, we are still together. Our relationship is still like that but the other is changed and have a improvement. Like when I will go to Urdaneta and it is weekend. You know that college have a School in Every Saturday right? So my Mom wants me to go with my Sister too in their campus. My sister is a big liar too sometimes. When she feel like going out to meet with his lesbian boyfriend, her alibi is she will go to their campus and she need something to do but the truth is she will just meet up with her lesbian boyfriend and go to the mall to have a date lol. So when she going to their school during weekend, she always brought me to be with her and she know that I misses my boyfriend lol because my boyfriend is already studying in College at that time. He is now a Second year college and his course is HRM.
Anyway, I did not tell or told my boyfriend that I was going to Urdaneta with my Sis. I want to surprise him because it's our 3 years and 2 months relationship. I save a money for buying him a watch in the mall so I told my sister and his lesbian boyfriend that I want to go the mall first because I need to drop by to buy some gift for him. Actually, our relationship starts to became blured when we are 2 years and 9 months but i did not think about that and I'm still possitive. I don't like to think negative thoughts that will ruined our relationship because I love him.
That time, When we reached the mall, the lesbian boyfriend of my sister is already in the gate of the mall and I don't know that he is already there. However, I told them my plan that I will surprise my boyfriend but they said that they need to buy some food first because they are now hungry. I have some many time pa naman that time so I agree to buy some food since I did not eat breakfast. We go to the Jollibee and they told me to find a seat. By roaming my eyes so that I can easily find some space there is two people who caught my attention that time.
I caught them while they are happily smiling in the camera of my boyfriend's phone. They are very close to each other like a boyfriend and girlfriend thing and I'm not dumb because I notice their hand in the table, holding hands. I smile bitterly and walk until i reached their front and sit in the available seat in their front and I put my sling bag to their table. They both look at me and I smiled to them bitterly stopping my eyes for crying because it's hurts esp. when I look down to their hands and he also grab his hands and removed it to her but I did not mind it and told to them that we need some seat because there is no seats and space anymore and My sister and his boyfriend wants to eat there.
At that time, I did not look to my boyfriend--I mean Ex boyfriend. Because the moment when I caught him cheating, I already broke up with him. All I know is I did my best to become his better girlfriend but I did not know that I'm not still enough. He did not tell or told me that he doesn't like me anymore. That time, My sister told the girl if she will go home first and they need to talk to his boyfriend which is my boyfriend too--I mean Ex. Good thing that the girl already go out to the shop because If not, maybe I will slap them both.
My sister told me to sit beside him but I don't want to so siya ang lumipat sa tabi ko pero lumayo ako sakanya. He is trying to grab my hands below the table but I always remove my hands because you know it's very dirty. I thought that time that his kabet or another woman have a germs lol
Anyway. After what happened, He is with us when we go home. Because he is always going home to their house every weekend and back to their dormitory every monday. However I did not talk with him and I just told him in the bus before we will separate *(because we will go down to the Tricycle terminal while he will go down to the market where he park his Motorcycle)* whispering to the air "Let's break up."
I end my relationship with him in the month of February, day 16th of the year 2016.
Wala talagang forever sa Jollibee guys. Thank you for reading my story! There is no forever and I'm a bitter.
My Journey as a Writer
You know I am writing in here in read.Cash for almost 9 months now. However, I did stop before like I told you in my Previous Articles related to this.
Well, I really like writing since I was Grade 10. I discovered my talent of by writing story in a Notebook because I don't have a nice cellphone before. The first readers of my story that I write and become a fan is my Classmates. Because I write a Fictional story which is the characters is also my Classmates and of course, My Crush. The story that I did write before is about Love story between me and my Crush but just an Imagination that I know it's never gonna happen in the reality. I don't know if he also read my work because my notebook is missing for almost 1 month pinagpasa-pasahan kasi nila noon kaya ayon ewan ko kung naka kanino na.
Some of my classmates likes the story that I write. They did give some comments what happened and we are talking about it when we have time. They also shocks in the Kissing scene in one of the chapters and oh my gulay! I'm embarrassed because they read that and I forgot that I also write a scene like that which is the reason why they are teasing me and my crush for a whole day and all that I could do is just isubsob yung ulo ko sa lamesa ng upuan ko sa hiya and my Crush did not give any comment about it. He did not give a disgusted looks or what he just quiet that time and did not mind. Nagtataka na ako ha, baka may feelings siya sakin non! Charot. Anyway, so after that happened, I always write a stories. I also buy some notebook because every story that I write, sometimes one notebook is not enough because of my ugly hand writing.
It become my hobby writing stories. When I have some free time, I updated some chapters and it takes some time to finish it. My friends also likes to read it even if it's not finish. 🤦🏻♀️I write and write until i did not notice that I write for almost 4 stories in 1 year. Of course, it's not only one genre. I'm trying to write a different genres of a story so that I can learn to write. Like Horror, Mystery, Romance, Fiction, Non-Fiction...like that.
In my secret of writing a story, I just think or imagine something. For example, in what happened in reality i will change it what happened in the story and sometimes it was based on others experiences just like when I go to the mall and saw a couple doing this and that. However, some professional writers are writing story based on their experience in their life. They need to have a romance experiences so that they can describe the details of what happened. Because they can't write a scene without a feeling and the readers will not feel or imagine the scenes if they did not explain better.
And because of that, I once like to become a writer before. When my mother buy me a nice phone, I become a Reader at Wattpad. Which is where some many people writes and publish a stories. I envy those people who is very nice and good in writing. They are a creative and talented person which is become my Idol and inspiration in writing. So, I decided to write a inspirational story in my Facebook before where I discovered a 'Notes' button where you can write and publish a story, everything you like. If being a writer, I choose to write a good story where it contents a good moral and a lesson for everyone. I don't like just to focus in a genre but I also like to focus in what happened.
So, When I discovered this Platform, this is a big opportunity to me. Even if I don't know how to write an Article. Well, it become also a reason why I joined because I can learn to write and discover some lesson by reading some Article work by many users and I found out that there are some users here since I joined, that they are good at writing and i envy them. However, we can have some different state of life. We can write in different way because not everyone have this and that skills. We have our own ways of writing and it depends in someone.
Yesterday, I told my mom that I found a platform where I can also use my hobby in writing. Because she ask me if what I am doing for a whole day. I just simple answer her that I'm busy thinking some ideas and topic that I will write here at this platform and she told me that it is my hobby before to write and write which is nice because I can able to use again my skills in writing. Not just in skills but I also can train myself in thinking and learning how to speak in english by writing here. Which is good because I can able to find a work related to writing someday.
She also told me that she is supporting me in Writing ever since she read the story that i did publish in my Facebook before.
I'm also thinking of writing in wattpad and I do the try it before and here is my works, you can read it in Wattpad and here is the link **Authorious Story of Reality** https://www.wattpad.com/story/119255404?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=grayeousialseona&wp_originator=7lMt2ax97cvkeaZCtQBpGvNd2MiY3O3oxIQnoyTMNsI4rVFDLxaUuS0h2IMFJbdG0t4j1X10bde690KSP%2F4zBT%2FkYFugIeoN7bmfjG04xFMPFFankM3TNtQB0hSquIrI
I just saw this in Wattpad recommendations when I'm trying to find short stories to read. Which is I'm in shock mga be! Because this is my old wattpad account. You know that I create so many accounts in wattpad because i'm always changing my phone and I forgot my emails and passwords and I can claim that this is mine because I posted the stories that I write in that book in wattpad in my facebook account.
It just sad that I can't open my old Wattpad account now. Maybe, I posted a lot of story there and I can able to continue what I start. But then, I'm thinking of writing in Wattpad again which is I decided before. However, I can't think of genre and scenes that I will write because I don't have experience in romance. Lol I'm scared that my readers will not able to understand that toot scene if they have. It's boring when the story did not have that right? Haha because some of the stories that are very famous right now is Romance and have a toot scene. However, I'm trying my best to write some and If you like to Read here is the link of my new publish Work but it's still on going **Begging, Loving, and Ending: Why not Me?** https://www.wattpad.com/story/259740750?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create&wp_uname=grayeousialseona&wp_originator=yfzIFgJ%2F2f8fOz2IYcHRuzJp3TC9sCzy9ay8afoyKNP3nSPSW66UipTThUtbfZY%2BKDwls6xvZbyrNZhI6CD%2BryCcRdqkgExndXczz8L%2BYMHsVGw6FEx%2BKWJvFCNuetxM
This is my second story that I publish in Wattpad however i just post 3 chapters and I don't have a reader yet. I'm scared to post it in facebook and invite some people to read my story because for me It's not that good, I don't have a confidence. But I will share it to you first and so that if you read it, maybe you can leave a comment about it and say what your opinion.
I'm trying to experience the things that I did not do in the past maybe I can do it again and start again using my hobby in writing right? I just hope that everyone who will read my works will appreciate and like my works in the future.
Thank you for reading and always supporting me! 💫
**My Previous articles:**
**My Throwback pictures during my high school days** https://read.cash/@Reo/my-throwback-pictures-during-my-high-school-days-with-my-sister-3bb6f880
**Our long trip in Dasol, Pangasinan** https://read.cash/@Reo/our-long-trip-in-the-beach-of-dasol-pangasinan-623fe15
**I think this as a reason why BCH is a big help to every one** https://read.cash/@Reo/i-think-this-as-a-reasons-why-bch-is-a-big-help-to-many-people-51c6da53
**Filipino eat this things and you won't believe it** https://read.cash/@Reo/filipino-eat-this-things-and-you-wont-believe-it-b873813f
My Throwback pictures during my High School Days (with my Sister)
For today's Article, I will show you how ugly I am during my High School days. You know that I'm not the type of person that is shy in sharing their old photos. In fact, I really like sharing to everyone my memories because it's very unforgettable for me and i love my self for being who i am in the past. Even if I have a dark skin, Jejemon, and funny in the pictures I won't regret for being like that because that is who I am and I hope that everyone will accept me.
So let's start!
This is who I am in my High School days. This is not our official Uniform huh? This is just our costume for our Field demonstration in fiesta in our Bayan. You know that I like dancing since when I was Elementary, so you won't be surprise if I join to an occasion like this and yes I have a dark skin because of that too. Dancing in the middle of the sun and walking in the street.
The first picture is no different for how I look. I'm still tin even if I eat a lot and I don't know if why, maybe because I'm not drinking Vitamins at that time so even if i eat a lot, I'm still the same and I'm not a fan of Kojic soap and other whitening Skin care before and I do like simple kind of outfits too.
Like I said, I like ruining our photos right? I'm so very Emo here lol HAHA because I'm so very stubborn to take a picture with my Older sister by the way, this photo was in the time where we are at the Baguio City that time. In the burnham park we are having a happy moments because my Mom want us to enjoy.
This one is also taken when we are in the Baguio City we are at the SM City Baguio that time and I remembered that I'm scared of looking down because we are at the 3rd floor and even until now.
This is me when I am Fourth year High School and of course who did not take a selfie or photo using filter at that time? Even if my phone's camera is very blur because we are just poor and you can tell it by looking in the background.
And before I forgot to tell you... Do you know how much I like to become a model before?
This is the time when I was in third year high school. My older sister really likes to take a photo of me so then when we are going home that time, I remembered being a crazy model when there is no Motorcycle or other people passing by because we are at the side of the small high way in our Barangay a way where we go home to our Grandparents house.
I don't mind being a crazy or funny person before. If other people would say that this is very embarrassing but for me it's not. It's just a natural picture of me enjoying the moment of creating a happy memory in my life and that is who I am.
`Thank you for reading My article today! I hope you like it. Leave a comment and tell me what your reaction! ❤️`
**My other Articles:**
**Our long trip in the Beach of Dasol, Pangasinan** https://read.cash/@Reo/our-long-trip-in-the-beach-of-dasol-pangasinan-623fe15
**I this as a Reasons why BCH is a big help to many people** https://read.cash/@Reo/i-think-this-as-a-reasons-why-bch-is-a-big-help-to-many-people-51c6da53
**Filipino eat this things and you won't believe it** https://read.cash/@Reo/filipino-eat-this-things-and-you-wont-believe-it-b873813f
**Things that other people have and I don't but I'm still contented** https://read.cash/@Reo/things-that-other-people-have-and-i-dont-but-im-still-contented-4a480b11
**No cellphone for hours challenge for today, did I survive?** https://read.cash/@Reo/no-cellphone-for-hours-challenge-today-did-i-survive-a8fb0549
Our Long Trip in the Beach of Dasol, Pangasinan
Last Month before my Grandma's birthday. My Aunt and Uncle's set a simple Trip for us. It is our trip to early celebrate our Grandma's birthday because she did not know about the surprise in her birthday celebration and since my Aunt *(which is her 5th Daughter)* likes to travel and swim a lot, she donate a amount of money for this specail trip and of course, her other childrens including my Mom give some amount for this travel too.
Good thing it's summer and it's very hot in the house so I decided to go too even if I'm very worried to my childrens *(referring to my pets)* because there is no someone who will look after them but my Grandpa says that they all know how to find their own foods and they can take care of theirselves. Since, I don't go out in the house and I don't remember when I the last time that I go to the beach maybe i can give myself a rest and relax too? So I pack all my things that i needed in traveling in the night time because we will wake up early because the trip is so long.
We woke up around 3am in the Morning. Good thing my Grandparents wake me up because I am a human-sleepy-oil you can't wake me up many times but since I'm really excited to this trip, I decided to woke up because our service is already in our plaza and I don't like to become a VIP and ruined this day for my Grandma.
I just toothbrush my teeth, Doing my skin care routines and all but I did not change my outfit lol. I ust wear a pajama, oversize shirt, and jacket because it's very cold in that time and i'm very lazy to change and I also decided not to change my outfit since I'm planning to sleep to the long trip.
Since we are the first persons that they fetch, we sit in a long ride to go to the Urdaneta. We fetch our Aunt (3rd in the childrens) and her kids we stayed there while waiting for them to finish packing the foods that she cook and also my cousins who are still sleepy and I'm busy convincing my bestie which is our fourth to the cousins. She did not like at first but since i told her that she will not go to swim and she will just sit and eat, I convinced her. She did not like going out and she is scared to be tan lol. While waiting them, my Aunt cook a Sopas so that we can't be hungry on the way.
After that, we also fetch our another Aunt which is our grandparents youngest child and her houseband and their only Daughter which is she is the person who I mentioned to my previous article: **Seeing how fast the year changes****.** https://read.cash/@Reo/seeing-how-fast-the-year-changes-1e66228c
We spent the rest of our time on the trip. I did not see the scenery in the way, since I'm so very sleepy at that time and I just woke up around 5 am in the morning
while my Grandparents and my Aunts in the ride is very active lol they are chit chating and they also wake up us who sleeping in the back to eat something like bread and coffee because the trip is so long and we need to eat in the van.
The trip is so very Long and my back and butt is very hurt at that time when we arrived to our final destination. I check the time when we arrived in the place and it's already 7:30 am in the morning. When we arrived, I changed my Outfit because I'm very shy to look like I Am lost because of my outfit, they will think that I go there just to sleep in the white sand lol Haha
Anyway, We just eat our breakfast again this time, we eat rice and hotdog it's just a simple breakfast since we already did eat in the car while we are in our way and after we eat, I told my cousins that I want to go for a walk in the white sand and they also want to go too so we decided to go so that we can take a picture. I want to picture myself with a nice shoot but my cousins did not know how to take a nice photo. Reason why I'm crying inside of my heart lol .
So I just decided to capture some beautiful scenery that time and post it to my Instagram account. I'm very sad because I can't have a picture that I want because i don't have photographer. After some minutes of just sitting and exploring, we decided to go back where our family is plus it's very hot there too.
In the Lunch time, we just sit and eat while talking something that we like to talk too. Some experiences like that so that we will not bored eating and we have something to chitchat.
And here are **the lists of Dishes that we eat during our trip in the Beach**:
And this is all of our foods that we eat on that day. Of course, when we go to the trip it is just an ordinary Food that we always cook and eat just like Seafoods and fruits.
That day is very memorable and unforgettable occasion for me. Because I enjoyed and relax with them however, my face gets sun burn because i soaked in the water from in the morning, after we eat lunch, and afternoon but still I enjoyed the moment that i swim and having time playing with my cousins.
I just Hope that we can enjoy again and go travel. Because I do wants to travel some different and beautiful places around the world but for now just in the Philiplines only because I did not still go to some places that I want to visit.
Thank you for reading my Article! i hope that you enjoyed reading it. ❤️
**Previous Articles :**
**I think this as a reason why BCH is a big help to many People** https://read.cash/@Reo/i-think-this-as-a-reasons-why-bch-is-a-big-help-to-many-people-51c6da53
**I feel like i'm in hell everyday because of the hot weather** https://read.cash/@Reo/i-feel-like-i-am-in-hell-everyday-because-of-the-hot-weather-ff27f797
**The Juice of selling bottle of liquor and cans** https://read.cash/@Reo/the-juice-of-selling-bottle-of-liquor-and-used-cans-c0d71b5c
**Seeing how fast the year changes** https://read.cash/@Reo/seeing-how-fast-the-year-changes-1e66228c
**My Embarrassing moments but Unforgettable memories** https://read.cash/@Reo/my-embarrassing-moments-but-unforgettable-memories-5beeb8d2
**Reasons why our Parents want us to study hard but at this situation maybe childrens will give up** https://read.cash/@Reo/reasons-why-our-parents-want-us-to-study-hard-but-at-this-situation-maybe-childrens-will-give-up-330e2a28
I think this as a Reasons why BCH is a big Help to Many People
**Some Reasons** *(not all are fact)* **Why Cryptocurrency is a Big Help to Many People**
**Disclaimer:**
`Before I will start, I would like to warn you that this topic is just based on my opinions and what i see in other people's experiences in using Cryptocurrency.`
`I'm not a good, well-experinced writer about crypto so you can correct me if I said it wrong.`
Before I joined read.Cash 9 months ago or 10 months ago, I did not know that this kind of platform exists in the world. I thought that some investments is just for Businesses in some companies of rich people but I become enlighten when I read some articles here about how Cryptocurrency work to earn money around the world.
Since i started to join, I don't know how is the right thing to do to earn money here. I become greedy of tips and I admit that but I also have other reasons why I like staying here before it's not only to earn but also to learn how to write article right by reading some others works. I did not know how to Write so I just did my best and give it a try.
Maybe the other new users here in @Read.Cash think that this platform look like this *(in what they are experience right now) .* They did not know that there are some things that they changed to this platform just like before @TheRandomRewarder created by the admins *and or* creator of this platform, tips are not like this. The tips are auto add to your wallet and some higher up people in read.cash if they like your work they can give you some too and not just the higher up people but also the other people who enjoys reading your article work. But now, you can still recieve some tips to your subscribers and or readers who like your works.
Before, You can write many articles as long as you have ideas or topic to write. You can also comment anything you want and even if it is short. You can even write an any games to gain more subscribers because of the mechanics and win a lot of $0.50-$3.00 depends in how the author give to the applicants.
But now, This platform change and it starts when many new users commenting nonsense to the articles of other people works which is why other higher up users get irritated and send a petition just so spammers can get penalties and removed to the platform and The Random Rewarder who is someone who gives tips to our works come to our life here which is the reason why they prevent many people's evildoing.
The reason too why I stop writing before is because our account get affected by it. We marked as a Spams and we did not recieve some tips even if we write and after how many months, Good thing that I came back again because when I decided to comeback i realize that it is good thing to happened because this platform become more better than before and I will explain you why i told you that.
First, many People who use this platform and even other paying website that using Cryptocurrency learned how to earn money using Cryptocurrency. Before, We just send our tips to our Coins.Ph wallet and convert it to the peso and we just did that and we don't know how to Buy and sell money in some applications that we can used to convert money into peso or in your country cash just like Bitcoin.Com , Coins.Ph, Binance, and etc. Which is a method to earn more and not just the tips that you recieved even the thing that others who earn a lot using cryptocurrency right now, called hold.
We did not know that this things can also be done in earning money in a cryptocurrency world. But Good thing that many people shares a lot of tips and experiences in earning because they are sharing their thoughts about earning BCH,BTC, ETH, XRP, and others. You just need to understand and learned How they can do (did) that.
And that's the reason why many people earn a lot of money thanks to BCH and other Cryptocurrency and to the business mans and founders that creating a better platform to earn.
Because of this kind of work in onlines, Read Cash help a lot of users. They did help their parents in financial needs just like buying medicines, their hospital bills, the needs of their childrens because of the pandemic and parents works affected, and of course! even to me Read.Cash help me in a small help, the other money that I earn here before I quit and just got back, I send it to the people who is in need when the Typhoon Ulysses come and destroy some of the places in our Country. That is thanks to the Read.Cash for the help and i did send a amount of money for relief goods that some of the victims need.
In earning BCH and other cryptocurrency, all of the dreams that many people become true and the people here who earn a lot of money now become my inspirations in earning and to save money.
I don't write this article to beg to give me some. I post this because I appreciate this platforms aim to many people since then I joined here and because I realized that many people grow and change a lot because of using, earn, save BCH.
And my question right now, **WHAT IF PEOPLE DID NOT DISCOVER CRYPTOCURRENCY AND THINK THIS WAY TO EARN AND SAVE ?**
Thank you for reading! I hope that You understand me writing this 😅
**My Other Previous Articles that you can also read:**
**Filipino eat this things and you won't believe it** https://read.cash/@Reo/filipino-eat-this-things-and-you-wont-believe-it-b873813f
**The Juice of selling bottles of liquor and cans** https://read.cash/@Reo/the-juice-of-selling-bottle-of-liquor-and-used-cans-c0d71b5c
**Seeing how fast the year changes** https://read.cash/@Reo/seeing-how-fast-the-year-changes-1e66228c
**Things that other people have and I dont but I'm still contented** https://read.cash/@Reo/things-that-other-people-have-and-i-dont-but-im-still-contented-4a480b11
Filipino Eat this Things and you won't believe it
In the country of Philippines, Many people affected by the Governments corruption. Since then the time that Philippines borrow moneys in different countries before, Philippines life change.
If its not because of the Government, they don't know how to manage or do their jobs properly. Many people is starving to death and their places is located in you can't imagine but what we can do? If you will living here in our country, you would know how dirty the Government handle their works.
Because of the Government's corruption, many people affected by it. That's why when you travel in some places in **Manila, Philippines** you can see many people like this: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manila
And they are the affected of rotten governance.
Because of this, many children affected their study they cannot study because of lack of money,their life become miserable, they did not enjoy their life having what the other people have.
If you question if **why don't their Parents work?** Obviously, they don't get a proper jobs because Philippines requirements in getting work sometimes in those proper jobs is you need to be a College Graduate and *or* have a bachelor degree. It's also hard finding works that can qualify what you can do and if you find a job, the salary is low which is why other parents who did not study or they just finish Elementary and High School cannot afford the education and what their childrens needs.
Also, Government is very selfish. They are just doing their jobs helping many people if it's Election time comes and they also need medias and cameras while doing it just so that many people will vote for them. That's why I don't like voting when the election comes.
**Can I tell you a Secret?**
When the Election comes last last year, i experience of voting because I'm already 18 years old that time. To my surprise, some elected for running in a position do this dirty things just so they can win. **They give money in private to the people just so they can vote them.** Actually, for the people here, they don't care about the money. Yes they did paid them but they still choose the people who is right into that position and some of us are the *'Kabataan'* or Youth who study, and choose the right. Which is we did not regret to choose them because their are a lot of things change in our town (*bayan).*
Anyway, Since our Government system here is morally corrupt, citizens experience those things that you cannot imagine and you cannot even experienced it in your country and even I experience that.
**1.Living in the Houses made with just a bamboo and Wood**
Just like what I told you in my Story in my previous article **Things that other people have and I don't but I'm contented** , I experienced living in a simple house and just made with a simple things too. I experience not having a Cr or restroom and we just pooping in some places. We also just taking a bath in a small lake and that is when I was young. Our House is very messy too because we don't have a proper cabinet to place our clothes and they are just hung everywhere and just in beside. https://read.cash/@Reo/things-that-other-people-have-and-i-dont-but-im-still-contented-4a480b11
**2.Writing and Learning without a Lamp and Current**
When I was in Kindergarten, I remembered that mom teaches me early. I don't even spend time playing after go home in the school. We are just half day and we just go home in lunch time after that we go home and after eating lunch we just sleep in the afternoon and when it's 4pm mom teach me in that time and we also eat early for our dinner. We also don't have current in the night, so that we don't have electricfan so that we can sleep properly. I realize that mom couldn't sleep properly because she is just using a fan and she is fanning us overnight.
And this is the most experience that i can still experience until now...
**Eating dish that you don't even want to eat or you did not experience in your childhood**
In our country, since we are just poor in money and very different in other country, we experience Eating dish that you just find it in your kitchen. Since we don't have a lot of money to buy a delicious dish, we just have finding something in our Kitchen to pair it with rice and yes! You read it right.
When I was young, when we don't have dish to cook, our Grandparents teach us to eat what we just have they always remind us that even if we don't have dish the most important is we still have rice and foods to eat and it doesn't matter if what food is laid out to our table. Which is i still doing it when we don't have dish to eat when we don't have money. Because i don't complain to anything and i'm not a picky in dish.
**So here are the list of foods that you can find it in your kitchen that we always consider it as a dish :**
**Soy Sauce with Oil**
This is what we always do in Soy Sauce. We are just mixing the rice, Soy sauce, and oil. Actually, It doesn't taste different from the filipino dish *'Adobo'* because this dish is made with soy sauce and oil right? So when we eat dish like that we are also imagining that our food is adobo. We can also make it more yummier when it soy sauce was pair with Calamansi. Yum!
**Salt**
While the Salt is same with what we do in the soy sauce because we are just also mixing salt and rice. I remembered that we always pump the rice with salt with our palms and make it look like a Rice balls so that we can enjoy eating it. Because as a kid we like some small plays when eating so that we can have appetite to eat.
**Coffee**
Our childhood is unforgettable when you don't experience eating rice in coffee. When I was hungry in the afternoon and we don't have dish anymore, I'm eating this. Just a simple make your black coffee and add with rice. It's very delicious to taste because i'm a coffee addict!
**Milk or Milo with sugar**
Milo or Chocolate powder and Milk powder is very famous among to childrens. They like eating this kind of dish here because of the sweetness to pair it with rice. We grow up eating like this and until now, I'm still doing it. Even if I grow old, I don't forget to eat a dish like this in the afternoon. If we do have a stock in the kitchen.
And since we are talking about Foods that filipino eats and experiences why can't we talk about another foods that some Filipino esp. provinces eat that you can't also believe?
In Provinces, some of the Farmers finding and exploring things that they can eat. Esp. to the provinces that has a lot of forests and they are near in the mountains.
If you are living in the forests and Mountains, Would you eat bug? worms? And other exotic foods that you can find everywhere and you don't know that it will also can eat? Hmm..
Are you familiar with These kind of insect?
**Mole Cricket**
In our Country we call this in a Ilocano dialect as a *'Ararawan'* and in tagalog they call it *'Susuhong'* and in kapampangan, they call it *'Kamaro'.* They always fried this and they also can cook this in different kind of dish and some farmers who always in the farm eat this and they are always making it as their pulutan or snack when they are drinking alcohol.
According to what I read, Reason why It's safe to eat is because Crickets are extraordinarily protein-rich and you can collect them pretty much anywhere. Most types of crickets are edible.
**Where to find it?**
According to my uncle when he is finding crickets in their place he always look for crickets in damp, dark places first. Under rocks, logs, and other large objects. Also he included to check in tall grasses, shrubs and trees. Try shaking branches above a shirt, sleeping bag or other piece of fabric, and see if any edibles fall onto it.
I still try to eat this kind of insect but according to my cousin who like to eat this fried, when her father cook this it taste like a head of a Shirmp but i don't eat head of shirmp because I just eat their body. They always wants me to taste/eat that and i like to try some too but my stomach cannot stand it so I envy them for having a strong stomach lol.
Actually, there are so many kinds of edible exotic foods that you can find in farms and other places that are also a healthy to eat but we don't eat them because our mind cannot imagine to eat those things and we get used to eat some delicious foods from restaurants and other places that are selling some foods.
But if we are talking about food. Always put on your minds that Choose the right food and be careful in eating things jut because other people eat it, it doesn't mean that you can also eat it. Your health is your priority.
Another thing that we should also consider, to thank God for the food blessings. Even if it costs small amount and just a simple food at least you could eat and alive and don't be picky in foods that what is laid in the table think and mind the people that are suffering from the streets, no house and no foods. However, I just hope that we can also help them in the future.
Thank you for reading! i hope you enjoyed reading it!
**My Other Previous Article that I write:**
**Things that other people have and I don't but I'm contented** https://read.cash/@Reo/things-that-other-people-have-and-i-dont-but-im-still-contented-4a480b11
****No Cellphone for hours Challenge today, Did I survive?**** https://read.cash/@Reo/no-cellphone-for-hours-challenge-today-did-i-survive-a8fb0549
****The juice of selling bottle of liquors and can**** https://read.cash/@Reo/the-juice-of-selling-bottle-of-liquor-and-used-cans-c0d71b5c
****Seeing how fast the year Changes**** https://read.cash/@Reo/seeing-how-fast-the-year-changes-1e66228c
****My embarrassing Moments but Unforgettable memories**** https://read.cash/@Reo/my-embarrassing-moments-but-unforgettable-memories-5beeb8d2
****A sad mothers day story today**** https://read.cash/@Reo/a-sad-mothers-day-story-today-7fcf1467
Things that Other People have and I don't but I'm still contented
All of us have a different kind of status of life. We born in a life where we don't imagine to have it when we still a baby and we don't know that it is our destiny to have just like what we have.
Just like me, I'm just born in a simple family. We are not rich because me anontentedd my sister just grow up in a simple house made with a bamboo tree and rice stalk and our house is just located in the middle of farms. But before we have that house, My sister told me that when she is 4 years old, it is not our house. We live in the other house where my Grandpa's farm is located but it's not far away in our house where we are living when I was born.
The old house where my older sister born, is not different to our house when I was born it is still the same but the difference is, we just have small kitchen and the walls is just made with sack and bamboo. The other body of the house is made with sack too and the chairs that we use outside is just the body of the tree. We also just have *'Papag'* or wood bed and a simple pillows and blankets. There's no difference in the house when I was born it's still the same but we upgraded because the walls are not covered with bamboos and metal roof, the windows is made with wood with a thick wooden. The roof is still made with rice stalk but the other parts is made with metal roof our floor is also have a small cement but have a small stones because of lack of cement. Our bed is also still a wooden bed but long which is good for 4-5 persons.
Just like this Image:
Our life is just simple and we are just poor unlike the life of our cousins. Their parents is more richer than us because they can buy what they likes and they are living in different places. My other cousins is living in Urdaneta City, Pangasinan and the other is also living in Umingan, Pangasinan before. While me, my older sister and my parents just living in the same Barangay where our grandparents house located but we are far away from them because we are not in the same Purok or street. We are just 5 cousins back then. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Urdaneta,_Pangasinanhttps://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Umingan
Even if we are just in the same Barangay, We are not going in our Grandparents house *(which is where I lived right now)* before. We are just going when there is an occasion and my Grandpa always visiting us in our house because his farm in our old house which is near to our house before and while i'm typing this, I miss our old house now and I miss having a complete family. I already forgot how it feels laughing while we are eating our foods and we were all complete in the dinner table. We don't mind if our Food is simple as long as we are full and happy.
Even if I'm living in My Grandparents house now which is very big than in our house before, I don't brag to everyone or I don't tell to others that we are rich and I have Aunties and Uncle who are living in the abroad before because I don't have something I owned here and everything that my family have is it's not from my own sweat and I just living here.
Anyway, sometimes I feel very envious to others because they have the things that I don't have. Like their Family is have a beautiful and big house. When I'm visiting my friends houses I'm very envious to them because they have their own room, they can decorate it in their own and they can do everything they wants.
They have PC, they have laptops, Wifi, branded bags, dresses, watches, and shoes. Their parents giving them everything while me and my sister wearing the same dresses and clothes in going to school. We just also buy a shoes once a year but my sister is always have a new shoes and clothes twice because she is attending her graduation she is have a top honor and i don't envious to her because of that because she deserved it while me, I don't have honor before but my grades is good which is i'm still satisfied because education is it's not about medals, and having a honor as long as you are studying well.
However, my life mind change when I was High School. I just think that even if I don't have the things that other people have and going always with the trend, i think I don't need new clothes, new watch, new shoes, just to brag to others that I have this and that. I don't need to buy expensive things just to wear and go to school because we are just in a province and wearing expensive and new clothes will just ruined because we are have a TLE subject lol which is cleaning and do gardening in the middle of the sun. It's just ruined my outfit. Actually, my Aunt sending us a package always during Christmas so I do have a little new clothes but I don't have usually use it because my Mother thought me to use my new things slowly like if my Bag pack is still okay and not have damage, I can still use it in my next School year.
I just use my new things when there is an important occasion and gaterings like when we are invited to our relatives Wedding, Birthday celebration, going to the church. But when I'm traveling I just wearing a simple clothes like pants, oversized shirt and a bagpack. Sometimes when I don't feel like it wearing shoes I'm just wearing sleepers especially when I'm to the Mall with my sister.
My Jewerlies that my Mom give to me is just in my cabinet too. I don't use it even if she wants me to wear it when I'm going somewhere. Well since I don't wear those things, I'm get used to it to wear a simple clothes and I don't like dress and hells.
But i thought of something last month. When I saw a sling bags in Shopee application. I want to dress like a lady too. Because my outfits is not match with my age because until now i'm into my High School outfit. So I'm adding to cart some sling bags from many shop https://apkpure.com/shopee-no-1-online-platform/com.shopee.ph
but I don't buy those they are just staying in my cart because I don't have a budget and i think i don't deserved buying those kind of things when my Mom is in overseas and working hard just to give me money. But her money/allowance tgat she always give me is just staying in my coinbank and I don't use it. I just use it when i need important esp. foods.
Maybe I will buy that kind of things when I save a lot of money and when I already done helping her in building our house as for now, I'm contented to what I have and it's still pandemic so what is the purpose of buying new things if I don't go out right? It will just stock and displayed to my cabinet.
The most important thing right now is Food. Because even if you will buy your new things if you don't have food for everyday. You will starve to death!
So I'm still happy to the things that I have right now. My goal is to build a House for my mother and i will buy my own stuff when I'm done helping her and when I become stable.
Anyway, I don't question my Mom and or my parents why I'm living or born in a simple life. To the fact that even if I feel jealous or envy others before because they have expensive things this is also good because it make me learned how to struggle in life, how to achieve the things that i like in my own and not dependable in others. It's hard living without more money and i know that but even if we live like this, if my Mom and our God love love me that is enough I feel like i'm richer than other people who have a lot of Money. I'm still rich because the most important people in my life, love me. ❤️
And I learned that no need to envy or jealous to other because they have that things, because things can be damage and you can replace it but the happiness that you feel in your everyday life and Love that you recieved from the people that you love will never replacable.
Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed reading my Article. 🙂
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No Cellphone for hours challenge today, Did I survive?
For today's article. I will just write a blog about what I did today. I will tell you everything that I did except yung pagtatae at ihi syempre ano ba kayo Hahaha
So since my Grandma is not here since yesterday, because she go to the long trip in the Hundred Island with her older sister and her Daughter which is my Ninang or God Parent, I'm just living here in the house with my Grandpa. Actually, she woke up in the 3 Am in the morning yesterday and I woke up too. I asked her where she will go and she said blah blah because I did not understand what she said because I'm still sleepy and lutang pa ako nong oras na yon at nakatulog ulit ako. I'm very shock to know it from my Grandpa where she did go when I woke up again and asked him if where is Grandma. Like, My grandpa also said that my Grandma invites me to go too that time but I sleep again. Which is making me feel yesterday that I regreted that I sleep again because I really wanted to go there too. I wanted to cry that time! I'm still a cry baby because when they travel in to some long trip without me it's making me *Tampo* sometimes and cry too. Esp. when my older sister is going somewhere places that diko pa napuntahan and I did just know it when I saw her pictures in her My day *(story in Messenger)* where she is. Just for example, When they go to one of the white beach in Dasol,Pangasinan and they did over night there with our Aunt and my cousins. It's making me feel envious that time and I chat her that why they did not invite me that time. However, It's making me feel happy after the day when I just know that their phones got wet because of the water and they where broken. Lol like I'm very happy because it's their Karma. Haha https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dasol
Anyway, let's go back to the topic! So just me and my Father is living here in our home. So since my Father is needed to go to the Farm early in the morning, I needed to wake up early. Usually, I'm waking up around 9 am in the morning but even if I'm waking up in that time i did not forget my work here in the house and my Grandma is used to it to my hobby of waking up in that time but since my grandma is not here, I needed to wake up early and I woke up around 7 am.
Since lutang pa ako that time, It's my habit of just staying in the bed for a how many minutes and getting my phone beside me and opened it and checking some messages because yesterday night, I slept my phone open and not checking my messages after I woke up again and just charge it lol. So the First messages that I usually open is the messages of my Mom but she don't have chat she just sent me a Kiss emoji which is the like button of our Conversation lol so I just greeted her a Good morning and next that I check is our Read.Cash Group chat with my ate @Cristy , @Ruffa , @Akhoxiimj, @Cold3ndice , and many more.
That is our conversation in the morning and that group chat start last year when I joined Group chat with Read.Cash so that we will become updated anytime but since the owner become not active anymore even us before, we did not updating anything we just talking anything there asking that and this. Me and Ate @Ruffa is just the only talkative sometimes here. I missed my other friends in that Group chat too. 😭
Anyway, after I check my phone, I already decided to stand up because I have many works to do. The next thing that I always do is to fold my bedsheets, blankets, pillows because I'm sleeping in the living room and not to my room because the window is still not okay.
After I fold my blankets, and things that I used to sleep I need to pick my four pet kittens and lock them all up in the small basket where they are staying if I need to lock them of course I'm giving them foods so that after they eat they can sleep they did not even sleep at night because they are playing and i have a lot of kalmot na tuloy pag gising ko and then I can't sleep properly too because they are just tinatapaktapakan nalang ako parang di ako amo. My Godness! 🙄 Well, I need to lock them up because they are always playing and i can't do my work properly and they may be trampled on when they are anywhere.
After that, I need to cook rice and our breakfast even if I'm scared of oil, i need to cook our food because what I can do? It's work our work to cook foods because we are women. We need to work in our house and that is our responsibility and I also need to work because there is no one else in our house and I'm just the only one here and if I don't do that, we don't have something to eat. So I just cook cheese hotdog and egg in the morning. I cook a lot of hotdog because it's my favorite breakfast and I'm very spoiled of food when I'm just alone. After I cook and eat, I set aside the food of my Grandpa so that he can eat when he go home and after that I wash the dishes that i used.
I grab the broom and i swept inside the house like what I usually do in the morning. Because I really hate it when i step on dust and soil left from outside. After I swept using broom, I mop the floor too from the living room, to the kitchen and to the living room outside. I cannot mop the floor in the rooms because like i said, our windows are still not okay and there are a lot of left small hallow blocks that they broke and theres a lot of dusts too. I also cleaned all the messed in the living room and kitchen since that is the important part of the house that I need to clean. I can't stand seeing messy house and i always get mad to my cousins if there are a lot of mess in the living room. I usually tell to them that it's not allowed to play inside
After i do that, I go outside so that I can clean our front of the house. I sweep all the time outside from our front including the front of the houses of my Aunts because they are all so lazy to clean their front esp. the wife of other Uncle (first from the children of my grandparents) she is so very lazy and I hate her the most because all she just care is their own house and she is not going out outside everytime in short nasa loob lang siya ng bahay nila at nakasarado pa ang bintana at pintuan nila. They are just the only family that I hated the most because when I was young when i started to stay here with my older sister, he is very like she owned the house. I know that he is the chef in our house but my Mother is also sharing money for our foods before If my sister just allowed to cook because she know naman she is the one who will cook our food for breakfast when we will go to school but they did not allow us so we cannot do anything about that. However, I hate his behaviour even when the time that i needed someone to teach me our lesson that i don't understand but my sister refused to teach me, he get the book and slap it to my head and I will never ever forget that happened to me (I will write/tell the whole story about this in my next article).
Anyway, after i swept the front of our house and in the ground of the garden of my grandmother, I watered her plants it's not my work but i remembered that my grandma always watering her plants in the Morning. So because she is not here you know I included it to my work and I realized that time that i like the feeling of watering plants with the mood of humming a song. Actually i'm not a plantita or plant lover. I just like nature but I don't know how to plant flowers i only know planting trees. Like some flowers that needed to cut or plant it with seeds, in trees i just know how to plant Mango trees and other trees that have fruits when it grow big.
After that, I got bored so when my grandpa is just got home i told him that i will wash our clothes because it's so many days after they fixed our well because it's lack of water and i needed his help to fix the outlet because it's very dangerous to plug the socket in the outlet in the outside where we always plug the outlet that needed in our washing machine. After he finish he just eat and left again to go to the farm so I just left alone here in our house earlier.
It's very exhausting washing clothes because you need to mag gawgaw ng dalawang beses tapos pipigain mo pa. My back is very hurts but i need to finish it because i don't have some clothes and my grandparents need it their important attire like slacks. I also hang on the clothes outside and thankfully it's not cloudy and raining it's easily to dry all our clothes.
I did not finish early washing our clothes because I'm very tired and I needed cold beverage to cool myself because it's very hot so I decided to go outside and go to the canteen near to the school to buy. I get my umbrella, bagpack with bottle of pepsi inside for the change, my wallet, and of course, i wear facemask too. I buy two 1L Pepsi, Ice, and our food for our launch. I don't know if what ulam did my grandpa likes but i just buy fish but I don't know how to cook it so i just let him cook it nalang pag dating niya, and I also buy bread for my meryenda.
I'm very tired when I go home and my back hurts a lot because it's hard carrying all of that plus it's very very hot outside so i'm very wet of sweat. When I go home, I just opened the one 1L pepsi so that I can eat my meryenda na. Gutom at pagod is equal to malapit na matumba. So while I'm eating i'm checking my phone again if I have messages. I just talk with my Mother and updating her what i'm doing that time because she is asking me how I am since i'm just left alone. After that, I continued to wash the clothes that i left before i go out and hang it outside.
So when I finished i look at to the clock and it's already 2pm in the afternoon lol. I thought it's still 12 nn. I just go to the kitchen ,sit there and rest a little until my sweat is dried. Thankfully, My Grandpa just got home and i told him to cook the fish that I buy and he cook it. I left him there and Go to the my Room to grab some clothes because i need to refresh! Take a bath I mean because it's so very hot.
After I do my things and eat launch I go outside and sit to the swing thinking something. Because I'm bored and I don't know what to write, i decided to challenge myself. This is very impossible for me to do it but i want to try.
I decided to challenge my self in **NO PHONE FOR HOURS CHALLENGE** while thinking it, I think i will not passed. Because you know, like others i will be crazy if i don't have my phone with me. I don't like to do it but when I look to my phone batter percent, It's 33% percent which is i needed to charge it for emergency. Because usually in 4pm or after it is start raining just like in the past few days and sometimes we don't have current so I need to charge my phone and i decided to do the No phone for Hours too even if I have a extra Phone, I will also not to use it.
So when I charged my phone, I just go outside. Thinking what i will do while i don't have phone. So that to avoid being crazy because of boredamn. I decided to go to the kubo but when I go there, I decided to change my location because my back is still hurting and the backrest of the chair in kubo will make my back hurt more so I decided to go the swing under the Aratiles fruit tree.
Thankfully, it's not hot there because it covering me by the other tree body which is nice because I can lay to the swing i just lay and look up to the branches of the tree and thinking anything like how I can build our house in the next year and what I can do to save money except for writing article. I just hoping that this pandemic will end so that I can find a work. I also imagining the look of the house that I want to build. I just like to look like simple. Have 3 rooms for me, for my sister, and for my mom. Small kitchen that will fit us and a small living room too. I don't like big house because we don't need a big house so that we can call us by the ther people, rich. I like simple house but we are complete and happy family. I don't also mind our foods for everyday just a simple filipino foods is okay because that is also delicious. Thinking how my mother happy when I build our house makes me smile while swinging my swing and looking up. I just hope that I can achieve to build our house so that my mother will go home now.
After that I don't know what happened but I just woke up with the noise of my grandpa. Calling me to wake up because I need to move our clothes that i hang outside to the safe place because the rain is now coming. So I got up and do that.
After i finish that, I go inside and look to the rice cooker if we still have rice and i don't need to cook because it's still a lot and we can't finish it and we still fave a left over food the fried fish from lunch so we don't need to buy new ulam. It's okay I'm not choosy in food plus buying again is just wasting money and food. And food right now is very expensive.
I open my phone earlier and check if what is the time and it's already 5:45 pm in the evening. I think I just sleep doing my challenge lol 🤣 The answer if what I can do if I don't have phone for us is just sleep haha
Thank you for Reading my Article! I hope you enjoyed reading it. Sorry for the Late update! I'm busy for the whole day.
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The juice of selling bottle of liquor and used cans
For today's article I would like to share you my experiences in saving money. When we are young, Parents thought us how to save money and how to spend our money wisely right? So that we can earn money.
When I was Elementary, I learned how to save money before. Because this method is very famous to all children before and that is
Saving money in a used bottle of baby powder. This method is very effective in saving money before. If I don't have a wallet, i use this kind of thing to save my money.
**How can I save money using this kind of thing?**
When I was Grade 3, When we are still living in our old house, I have a habit of collecting liquor bottles. I really like to collect liquor bottles in different places just like where the occasion located and after the party, for example is after the birthday party in my Uncle's house which is our neighbor before I'm asking their permission if I can get the bottle of the liquors and they always give me that. They did not mind if i will get it because they did not even use or sell it just like what I always do.
And Yes, I always sell those bottles including the cans of sardines and other used canned in the garbages. Well I don't mind if what the others think of me before and I'm not the only one who always did that and I have my bestfriend who is my childhood friend with me in picking some of these things in some places. It's so much fun being with her during afternoon time to go out and find some things like that and have a bet with her if how many Cans and bottles of liquor we can get and The person who have a lot is the most beautiful in that day.
Anyway, I'm holding stick in finding because I needed it so that I can fight something strange when I need to go to the places that have a big grasses. Because sometimes there are a lot of cans in the Canal besides the houses which where our neighbor used to throw that things. They did not know how to clean their mess and it become the reason why it's very stink beside their houses. Everytime I visited their place if my sister and we need to go to attend some birthday parties it is still the same. Which is sometimes I don't like to go there anymore.
Not just stick that we always holding during that time but we also use 'Sako' or Sack in English. That is our bag where we will be placed those. It's very heavy when i carried it because i'm just small and tin before lol.
So after that, when the *'Bumibili ng mga lata at bote'* comes to our place. I'm very excited! Because at last, I can get my money. Because I'm selling those to them and before I don't know why they are buying those things that cannot needed anymore but I learned that they are using that to recycle. It still can used it and that's the reason why we have separate trash bins the Non-Biodegradable, Biodegradable, Recyclable and we also have a logo ♻️ which means Reuse, Reduce, and Recycle.
Anyway, when I'm selling those things before, I earned extra money for example 1 bottle of liquor is equal to 1 peso or $0.021 usd. If I find 30 bottles i will have 30 pesos and for the cans 50 cents each. And If i find 10 i will have 5 pesos in total or $0.10 usd. So after I get my money, I save it to my *Alkansya* or used powder bottle bank.
My Mama (Mother) is not angry if i do this kind of things before because I learned this method to my Grandfather. If he sell those things when I was child he always give the money to me and to my other cousins so that we can buy it to the canteen or dagdag baon pag pumasok kami. However she will mad if i go to the canal because she always told me not to go there because we don't know if there is a big snakes or other kind of things that can kill me. So when I go there and she will know she will spank my butt lol.
The money that i saved when i'm selling bottles of liquor and cans, I always use it if i'm lack of budget for buying things that i need in activities and or Assignments. Because we have 2 recess or time break before (morning and Afternoon) i don't have much baon so I don't have budget to buy things so i needed to use it. Which is good because i don't need to go back to school to go buy those things that i need because School is so very far away to our house.
And last last month, I decided to sell bottles and cans again. I was in our sala behind the gate before and someone comes and shouting "bote, lata" and guess what? It is the *'Bumibili ng bote ng alak at can'* they are riding motorcycle and they are wet that time because of the rain. I look around if i can find something to sell and i find a kinakalawang na na yero or Metal roof but it's very old na. That is our old Roof of our Restroom because butas na butas na siya at need na talaga palitan.
I called them and go outside to get that thing and i remembered that I saw a sack of canned goods but it's not many it is in beside of our 'Kalan' where we always cook so I also get that so that I can sell it and my Grandma also call me that there is a lot of bottle of liquors and it is the bottle of Two by two or 2x2 in the silong of the kubo. So I get that too! Of course, There is no someone who sell it so then I will get it so that i have money lol.
I asked old brother if how much per bottle and he said that the bottle of liquor cost P2.00 pesos each or $0.042 in usd but the cans and metal roof is depends in by kilo in grams. So that time, I have 10 bottles of Liquor and 13 cans and 1 folded of metal roof. So they give me 20 pesos or $0.42 usd for the bottle of liquors and for the cans and folded metal roof is 15 pesos or $0.31 and total Php 35.00 or $0.73 usd.
After that moment, I started to collect some cans, water bottles, and even liquor bottles. My Uncles are always drinking after work if they want to and they are also good drinker if we have an occasions so I always collect their liquor bottles after they drink so that i can sell it.
As of now, I counted my total earnings and I already have Php 500.00 or $10.46 usd but not all of these are my earnings in doing that. Because the other coins are the exchange coins and also the other old coins is just i find it in anyplace around the house lol. It's very hard to Earn peso coin so i always pick up those left behind coins even if they look like old now.
However, I don't use it. I just save it in my peso bank because it's still not full. I need to save a lot of money more before i will used it. Maybe i can use that in buying if i dont have money and I really badly needed or for emergency purposes. But as of now, I let that set aside first and i will add/save more coins.
Thank you for reading, How about you? Do you save money too? ☺️
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Seeing How fast the year Changes
So today, It's already afternoon 12:18 pm. I like to write earlier but I don't know what will be our next topic so I will write it late but it's okay.
While I am thinking of topic that i will write to my article, I decided to go outside in the *'duyan' or* swing below the Saraisa tree. You don't know the saraisa? well this is a kind of fruit too they called it Mansanitas or Kerson fruit and it is very small and the shape is like Apple.
It's very sweet fruit if you taste it and I read in one article in Facebook that there are a lot of health benefits that you will get if you will eat this fruit like it can cure illness such as lowering blood sugar, preventing cancer, etc. And you can watch it in Youtube for a legit check about this information.
Anyway, the elders here is always eating that fruit because it's so many and like everyday, and how many month pass and it's still has many fruits which is good because they can eat an herbal fruit anytime.
So while I'm sitting in duyan i'm thinking of my topic too and it's very nice to sit there while thinking because of the fresh air however, it's still hot because of the sun and it's making me feel like I'm a roasted pig huhu
And this goat is making me angry because she is flirting with the other goat my gosh, Hope all may kaflirt.
Anyway, The sun is making me irritated so I just change my different place and I go to the kubo even if it's hurts sitting there because of the backrest of the chair. Magtitiis nalang ako kesa sa loob ng bahay ang init doon buti dito presko ang hangin.
Then after many many hours of thinking something is pop out to my mind like a bulb! I remembered the photo of my favorite younger cousin. I decided that since I like her very much as a older cousin even if I hate her mother, I like to share to you our bond together.
She is the cousin that I took care since she was young because her parents is busy to their work. It's our vacation at that time so it's okay if we will take care of her while her parents is doing their job to earn money for her. Me and My oldest Sister is in the position to take care of her because our grand parents is also doing their job in the farm. As an older sister, it's our responsibility to take care our cousins and another reason why I'm taking care of her is because since her parents become boyfriend and girlfriend they are making me as their child when I was young, they let me go to their trips like going to fiestas and travelling. Because i'm a nice niece to her during that time.
So when she was born, she became my most favorite cousin because she is very cute. Even if she is very heavy to carry i still carry her and when she became 3 years old, she changed her favorite 'Ate' or older sister my gosh I don't know why. I never did bad things to her and I always giving her a '*pasalubong' or* present in english everytime I go home after my school so I ask to the air, bakit nag iba ihip ng hangin? 🙄 she became spoiled and bratty i don't know maybe it's because that is how my Older sister teach to her because my Sister and I did not have a happy memories during that day. Like you know being a siblings di mawawala ang bangayan at away diba?
So while is growing, her attitude to me is changing too. She don't like me to carry her and she want my sister to do it.
She don't like to take a picture with me too and when we do it, she is just doing like that.
And this too. I was 12 that time and she is already 4 years old or 5? I don't remember. She just smiled that time with sama ng loob because I told her that i will buy her a candy lol but even if her attitude change to me she is still my Favorite cousin even if her mother and I is in a bad condition before..
While the time is changes she changed a lot too. I saw her how she become a maiden little by little time.
I don't know if I already did share this photo to you all in my previous articles but I will share it to you again as a inclusion to this article about our bonding and I capture this photo when she was here before and she is visiting because she is not living here anymore.
Seeing how she smiled to the camera at that moment, I want to cry. I can't believe that after a year she is growing up so fast.
And she is now a maiden but i still want her to be my baby even if she is now growing as an adult like me.
She is now 12 years old and I'm 21 this year.
And looking her how she smiled I remember those memories that we share together. Her first cry, laugh, smile, hug and everything.
How i wish I will still guide her until she become successful. There was a time that I told her that I don't like her to become like me because during that time that I can't find myself she witnesses all of that she is very young and curious back then. She is easy for her to say the word 'Inom' and 'Alak', she also witness how drunk I am and she go to me that time and cuddle but i just pushed her away because I don't like her to smell how bad i am.
I always teaching her a lesson in life. I also teach her to use Po and Opo as a manner to elders. I also told her to spend her money wisely and how to save money which is she still doing it right now and she use it to buy her own Mobile phone for her module.
While she is growing up. I want to be not just her Cousin but still her Ate, her bestfriend, her someone who can talk to during the days that she is having a good and bad times. I want her to be a good and not a bad daughter. I know it's her parents responsibility but I'm also her cousin and her Ate.
Because being her older sister, she can easily tell to us what is happening to her. What's her problems and concerns. Because being at that age before, I don't have someone to talk to. I'm being myself and I don't like that happen to her.
Not just to her of course. I like to be open arms to all of my younger cousins. I'm patiently waiting for them to talk to me and i do everything to comfort them. I'm just waiting them to go to me because i know it's hard for them to tell to us their problems but I do let them know it chats that I am one call away but if they needed money, I don't have money pa. HAHAHA i don't have work because of this situation but I promise to myself that I will find one after this
And while I'm growing old...I find how the fast time changes.
Thank you for Reading! I hope that you can share your experiences as a Older cousin too!
**My Other Previous Articles:**
A Sad Mothers Day story today https://read.cash/@Reo/a-sad-mothers-day-story-today-7fcf1467
My embarrassing moments but Unforgettable memories https://read.cash/@Reo/my-embarrassing-moments-but-unforgettable-memories-5beeb8d2
Mothers Day prank to our grand mother gone wrong https://read.cash/@Reo/mothers-day-prank-to-our-grand-mother-gone-wrong-a77049d7
I feel like Im in the hell everyday because of the hot weather https://read.cash/@Reo/i-feel-like-i-am-in-hell-everyday-because-of-the-hot-weather-ff27f797
A Sad Mothers Day Story Today
So I did not post any articles earlier because I'm planning to post one at this time because i have a surprise for my Mother and I want it to be my content to my Article today.
In the morning, I think some plans how to start my surprise to my Mother. This is my first time to do it because i did not know how to surprise and make an effort before because I'm still young and immature okay? So like i said this is my first time to surprise my Mother in mothers day celebration. So I will make it easy and simple but memorable for me and for her.
I decided to buy some foods for what I will use and needed in the afternoon since it's very hot outside and the Canteen is so far to our house. While I don't writing articles earlier, I just watch a Thai Series the one that familiar and famous Thai Series in thailand and in different Country and the name of that series is Nanno it is very nice Thai Series since 2 years ago and the second series just aired this month which is why it's very trending. Anyway, I just also trying some different earning applications that @Akhoxiimj recommend to us you can Read her article about that just visit her account. And I'm just chatting with @Ruffa and others to our group chat too and I'm asking about how to earn in binance because I really want to learn about it and I already have an account but I did not still trying anything yet and I also nagtatambay lang sa Noise.Cash nagtitingin tingin ng posts you can search my Account: @ExpertWingman and let's be friends there!
Sobrang daldal ko na kaya back to our main topic, so 4 o'clock pm I start my Time to prepare. I also get permission to my Grandmother to go outside to buy because I don't like her getting mad if I go without her permission and It's so very hot outside but not that very hot just like in noon time but I still used umbrella to cover myself from the sun.
Look at the sun it's still hot right? But I endure it because it's for my Mother so that I can do a little effort for her.
So after I buy what I need to prepare a little Do It Yourself (DIY) cake, I decided to go home so that I can finish it early because I know that it's not easy to do it. How I know? Because I already done trying doing it before when I'm High School when we are surprising our Friend/schoolmate in her birthday but that friend is so very choosy.
Anyway, so when I go home. I already start doing it so that I can think of how I will say it to her my message in video.
And Tada! I finish it in 6pm because It's very hard to do lettering in plates using just a Cream stick and i'm so very messy right? Because of the chocolates and Choco Knots. Honestly, I don't know if it's very beautiful because i'm not good at cooking and doing baking it's just that I buy what I needed in the canteen the chocolates, cupcakes, and others. I just do the design lol
So after doing that I decided to take a video greetings and at first I don't like it but my Sister and my grandma is pushing me to do it so I decided to do it it's my first time to make a video greetings to my mom and I don't know how to start
So I just did a selfie at first to send it to my friends and to my sister. I told them that I will do a video greetings to my Mom and the others wishing me luck and I can do it because they know that I'm very shy to say sweet messages like 'I Love you' lol.
So after I did a Video greet I already send it to her and this is her response:
At first she is very excited that i will greet her a Happy Mothers day lol but when I send the video, That is only her answer haha
This is the cupcake that I designed and I send the photo to her.
I also posted a post in my family facebook account and I greet my Aunties and my Grandmother and my Mother however they did not appreciate my effort ☺️
My mother removed her name in the Tag and my Grandmother I saw her that she already did see my post but she just act like nothing and she even act a fake cough and go to the kitchen to drink water while holding her phone.
I know that i'm poor. I know that my effort is just very simple and I don't do the things like my other cousins do to her. Giving her some bags, money from her parents, and all. I don't have that because this is just me that is just the only thing that I can do because I don't have money and I don't have work.
So I just removed my post because I felt like everytime I post about them, i feel like it's very shameful. They did not support my post they didn't even react just my Mother and sister so I became less active to that account and that's the reason why i don't add them to my Public account which i used to get many friends in social media because when I'm using my family account, There are a lot of stricted things. Like if you will comment to your friends post, they will read it and tell it to the family members. Like that which is I really hate it the most because I don't have privacy.
I wish I did not make an effort so that I will not experience and felt this way again. I'm very excited to greet them but this is all i got depression. I'm just very quiet beside and I don't talk just writing this while hoping that my tears will not go down and i'm stoping it. My sister that I thought that she is supporting me to do the video greet it turn out to be like this:
I thought if they will see the video they will turn to be surprised, thankful, and they will appreciate it. It's very hurts for my part that the only person that will support me and will cheer me up is the person that will drag my confidence down.
So next time, I decided not to do an efforts again. I never do it again because I know that this became one of my Trauma.
Happy Mothers day to all mothers Around the world! 🙃
**My Previous Articles:**
My Embarrassing moments but unforgettable memories https://read.cash/@Reo/my-embarrassing-moments-but-unforgettable-memories-5beeb8d2
Mother's Day prank to our grand mother gone wrong https://read.cash/@Reo/mothers-day-prank-to-our-grand-mother-gone-wrong-a77049d7
Mother's Day Prank to our Grand Mother Gone Wrong
Mother's day Celebration is one of the special day of our Mothers and our Mothers is our the best Hero all in our life. Celebrating Mothers day is how we celebrate how strong woman they are to rise us as a good children and how they are patiently rising us as a Woman.
So today, It's not the day of Mother's day yet we as a grand children set a plan to our Group chat in messenger *(but we did not include the younger siblings because they are still young and they can't understand)* because we want to surprise our Grandma tomorrow so as a second older grand children, I ask my younger cousins what they want to do or they can suggest what ideas so we can all agree and our plan will not messy.
However, My younger cousins did not know what to do at first since they are still young and this is our first time again to communicate but not as a younger cousins before that always playing outside but as an adults now. Let me tell you that I still cannot get over how fast the time changes because we are all now matured and change a lot. We cannot communicate just like how before but when there are a occasion in our house just like this, we still communicate yet just sometimes because we are still shy.
I just remembered what happened in the Birthday Celebration of our Grandma. We are not complete at that time because the 3th older in Cousins is busy to her exam because she is now a College student
This is the photo of Oldest cousins o the right she is our Ate or most oldest to us in her side, he is the fourth oldest, in the middle she is our fifth oldest, and her side you don't need to know joke! I am the second oldest here and in my left side is our sixth and the first youngest in our first batch. If you will finding where is the third? She don't like going outside and she is very rare to attend in our familu gatherings because all she just thinking is her beauty. She did not like to exposed to the sun lol
Anyway, We do all have a similarities and hobbies like playing Mobile Legends so everytime that they are visiting here in our Grandparents house, we always play as a 5 man however our Aunties an Auncles get angry because we always playing everytime that we have a celebration and that is the first time that they did noticed our behaviours lol so while my Auntie and Auncles are talking in Video calls they did do a condition for us. They told us not to Play Mobile games and or not holding our phone until they will go home but we don't like it however they told us that they will confiscate all our phones in return they will give us 500 pesos or $10.46 in Usd. So like I said we are have a similarities and we are talking about money so makakapal talaga mukha naming magpipinsan pagdating sa ayuda Haha so we give our cellphones to our Auntie at first I dont't like to give it to them because I have a trust issues because they are all scam when we are still young because madali lang mauto ang mga bata diba? 🙄 But I still give it to them so that I don't regret that I don't have a money later. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mobile_Legends:_Bang_Bang
So here is all our Phones that Confiscated by our Titas and here we are during that time
Lol HAHA we don't have much to do and we are bored because we don't have phones kaya manungkit nalang ng mangga sa kabilang bahay para kainin then we will talk and talk about somethings that's all.
However it's okay we realize not having a phone in hours at least we enjoyed that moments because we are satisfied in the out come. Our Tita(s) are right we don't have much closure and bonding as a cousins and we are just doing Phones during this special events which is not good for us because we are now lack of having happy memories and if we still continued being like that we didn't know what happened in the future and this become a lesson to us.
Anyway, back to our main topic. So we did chat in our Group chat in our messenger right? We plan to surprise our grandma tomorrow so we decide to plan that we will create a video greetings for our grandma and to our Mothers. Since they are not sure if our Aunts and Auncles are have a plans to go here in our house again. So that's our decision that we will make a video greetings for them however our plan is not just to greet them in Video because my older sister is not satisfied to our plan because it's boring and there's no trill. So she said that it would be better if after we will give the Video greetings to them, we will prank our Grand mother first and again we set an another plan about the prank and it is good idea because our Aunt told my older sister that they will go home in Mother's day so we can celebrate it again as a Family
This is our prank idea! We should prank her by planning to have a banner of Happy Mother's Day with a cupcakes that cost only 6 pesos and I will be the one who will design it using krimstick and stick-O because we don't have a budget for cakes and My Older sister assigned us a different work because it will not complete if we don't have a props right? The 3 Older cousins will assigned to be the one who will cut letters and design it to a coupon bonds 3 person will be assigned to do that since there is a 3 words in Happy Mother's day. My sister will be assigned in balloons because she is now leaving in Pozurrubio, Pangasinan and markets are so very near to their house and the cupcake will be designed by me. All our funds that we will needed to buy materials will be *'ambagan'* naming lahat. We will give 15 pesos per each person and we are all 13 Grand childrens. So the plan is when they will go here in our house, We will surprise her with blindfold we cooperate to our Another aunt that she will be the one who will guide our Grandma to go out of course i told her in chat that she would tell her that there is a special visitor outside but she won't tell if who is that it is part of the Prank time and We will prepare it in the plaza to combine all our banners, baloons and get ready the cupcake that I designed in her father's house and when she will go out, then tada!!!
But!!! Oh my gosh in the morning I almost faint because of what I just hear! Our youngest cousin who is our bunso sa magpipinsan telling the secret and plans to our Grandmother. Oh my gulay! I did not expect that she will so very talkative that I almost want to cover her mouth earlier but I'm too late to do that. My gosh, so I just rushed to get my phone and told them what I just saw and hear to our Gc and they are all dissapointed and we will not do our surprise. However, we still plan and continue to do it and i cheer our younger cousins because they did all their best just to make our Grandmother to become Happy. So we will still continue it But it is in a different plan now. We decided to greet her in a Video Greetings but in one by one and tell her our messages but we will send it early so that she can opened it when she will wake up. It's still a surprised right?
But now, we are now celebrating it in just a simple occasion and we are not complete and We just eat lunch time with seafoods and home made inasal chicken. We are not complete but we are still happy because we celebrated it in peace.
We are just hoping that we will make our Mothers happy tomorrow esp. our Grandmother. If just our prank is not destroyed oh my god we are not in rush. 😭 Thanks to our noughty young cousin lol she is so very talkative but cute I know. She is just became excited to prank her grandma so she did that and it is very understandable because she is just young and still a kid.
Thank you for reading My Article! I just hope that you will have a plan to in how to great your Mothers in the special day tomorrow in a simple and easy way but a memorable and special day! Goodluck! ❤️
**My Previous Articles:**
My embarrassing moments but unforgetable memories https://read.cash/@Reo/my-embarrassing-moments-but-unforgettable-memories-5beeb8d2
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Reasons why our parents want us to study hard but at this situation maybe childrens will give up? https://read.cash/@Reo/reasons-why-our-parents-want-us-to-study-hard-but-at-this-situation-maybe-childrens-will-give-up-330e2a28
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My Embarrassing moments but unforgettable Memories
Some other people did not think every embarrassing moments again. Because while they will thinking that again it is sometimes will makes them shy and sometimes it making them depressed because of the mistakes that they did. Because I, myself is the same. While thinking my embarrassing memories, sometimes it makes me feel depressed and telling words in the air like when while I washing dishes and doing chores, i spacing out then my embarrassing moment before pop out to my head reason why i yelled and I ask my self why I did that? 🤣
However, Even if I think my embarrassing moments I just think that *'It's okay it's all in the past and past is past.'* and not all our memories can be embarrassing to share to other people because I am not shy or embarrassed to share to my friends what happened during that time that I did mistakes and or even my embarrassing moments during my childhood time.
So today, because I'm bored and I don't have much things to do because it's very hot in our place and i don't have someone to talk to, I am thinking of ideas of what i will write again while sitting in our *'bahay kubo'* because it's very hot inside of our house and i can't focus. I would like to use electricfan but the current bill is toooo much expensive! So to save bill i will just go outside and inhale fresh air baka ngalang may utot na kasama anyway i'm very talkative now let's straightforward to the main topic.
So I think of sharing to my readers how lokaret I was. Wala lang gusto ko lang naman ishare! So that I can read this article again in how many many years later if this website will not deleted after those years. It's not really funny because you will just see my ugly face during that days. But it's really embarrassing moments for me while thinking what happened to that scenes. So here we go!
So the first moment that I will share to you is the photo where it's my first time to ride a Horse. I'm 13 years old at that time when we go to the Baguio City, Philippines to enjoy and have a family bonding. In that Photo, I'm so very crazy! I remembered that I act like i can't climb up to the horse that time and as you can see, i look like i can't go up but I remembered that it's just an act to the camera so that I can have a funny or we can call now as a 'Meme' photo. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Baguio
The second photo is when we go to the San Fabian Beach this is also our Family bonding however this photo is the most embarrassing to share about. All of my cousins smiling in the camera as a remembrance of a happy moments while you can see me doing that kind of pose lol 🤣 and I have a reason Its because I do like destroying our selfies before. I also remembered that before I pose like that i act like a pro ice cream model but I didn't know that this is how they captured the scene which is making me laugh and also my cousins hard by looking at this photo. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/San_Fabian,_Pangasinan
This photo take when my younger cousin celebrate his Birthday. When I was at that age, i do like surprising games so I always joining this kind of game in every birthday celebrations before until now I like to join hehe but the elders are against to it because i'm already old. Do I look old now? The last time I check to the mirror is i'm still baby face. 🙄 Anyway, this is really embarrassing photo for me you can tell that it is not because it's just normal photo but the story behind it is so embarrassing because I'm just the only older one who joined. Oh my gulay! But I have a reason again Haha i like to join not because I like candies and sweet prize but because I like to be someone who can beat them. I really like hitting the pot with tons of candies inside and that's all not because I like candies and prizes.
Like I said, I like destroying our photos because I always spotted the cameras even if my Auntie who is always taking pictures is in a long distance. She did not count 1,2,3 when she take pictures of us. She just take and take if she want. She did not even deleted my scene like this and she still include it to the photos that she will upload to her social media accounts. It's embarrassing for me because I'm just the only one who smiling in the photo which is made my Aunties and Auncles commented to the post and in this photo they laugh and tease me a lot because this photo look like it's my Birthday and I look like a birthday celebrant but i'm not lol Haha
This is the last Picture that I will share to you at that time, I'm just doing selfie and I don't know that the camera i used is messenger camera and not the camera app of my Phone and then I click accidentally to send and to my surprise is I send that picture to my Crush oh my gulay! I almost got heart attack because of that I want to delete it but the removed to everyone button in messenger before is not available so I don't have a choice but to accept that I already send it to him and to my relief, he just laugh to me and asked why I did send a photo of myself to him and I just answered to him *"Pang paganda ng hapon mo* 😭" to survive because i'm nervous. Omg, If I could go back to that time, I will spank my self many times because I'm so stupid that I send my selfie to him buti nalang talaga maganda ako dyan kahit wala namang connect sa sagot ko sakanya bat sinend ko yan Hahaha
Anw. Past is past but that is my one of the most embarrassing moments that I can't still forget until now. The time that I send a photo to my crush I just wish that he already forgot that because if not, I'm embarrased. Lol
So what is your most Embarrassing but Unforgettable moments? Can you share it to me too?
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I feel like I am in Hell everyday because of the Hot Weather
We have a different types of wheathers needed in everyday living. The **Cloudy, Windy, Snowy, Rainy and Sunny.** However, People don't like some of them and that is including me.
We have some different kinds of likes and dislikes depend on experiences on that something. For example is trying the food that you don't taste before and when you taste it you will never eat that food again because you don't like the taste but for the other people, they like it very much and that is the same for me the different is I don't like the Sunny Weather! I prefer rainy and windy than Sunny since we don't go out din lang naman kasi may Covid diba? Anong purpose ng may magandang panahon na tirik na tirik ang araw kung andyan naman sa labas yung mga nagbabantay ng barangay nyo edi wala din. Lol
Maybe for the other people they like Sunny Weather because they want traveling because of what happened to us, they haven't been out for a long time because of the pandemic but for me I don't really like it because it's killing and torturing me and i feel like anytime I will throw up because of the hotness that i always feel. There is also a time that I almost cried because of the irritation because after I take a bath, It's starting to roll down one of my sweat in my forehead again. Jusko!
So yesterday's night i decided to buy a Ice cream to cool me. My Grandma ordered two Ice cream so that we can eat it if we needed. However even if I eat ice cream it's still hot! Trust me, I also opened my Electricfan and it's in Lvl.3 I even solo that electricfan because I can no longer stand the heat of the weather but it's still really really hot mga dear! Na halos paiyak na ako kasi ang init talaga sobra!
So today, I'm planning to soak to the batcha o tawagin nating Low budget Swimming pool pero syempre sa banyo ako magbababad. We have two bathroom here in the house of my Grandparents so It's okay if I will stay in the other one in long hours because they can use the other one bathroom because I really can no longer stand the heat!
I also like to go to the outside and go to the back yard where the Mango tree located para makatambay doon but there are workers who fixing the window outside so i decided not to go.
I remembered something that while I am sitting, thoughts comes to my mind that maybe because it's really hot here is because I'm sexy? Hot? Beautiful? Or maybe because madami na akong minus points sa langit? I don't know but I'm sure the answer is because I'm Hot and sexy and I know it but you don't know.
There's also some nonsense thoughts to my mind like this
Sometimes I think that I want to go to other country because in their country their weather is different from here. If it's just easy to travel, why not?
And here is the other nonsense thing that i thought
Or I just go and travel to the universe and play with the aliens as an Impostor in the space because in their place there is no heat, or other weather and or pollution.
I cut the nonsense things that I thoughts while sitting and stunned in absence because it's making me more greedy to go there even if it's really impossible and I blame heat because of that.
Anyways, While this kind of Weather, what are the Foods and beverages that we can eat and drink during Summer?
**Halo-Halo**
Halo halo is one of the most Famous food here in our Country even if it's not Summer, to fight the heat we can still eat this. It is the type of foods that have a fruits, gelatins, crash Ice (not your crush okay?) and you can also add ice cream and Ube ingredient(s).
Ice Cream
Ice cream is also one of the frozen foods that we eat during or not summer Sometimes we don't need to buy one gallon of ice cream and we are satisfied just buying in vendor. In our country, there is we called victory Ice cream and Sorbites *(sor-be-tes)* ice cream they are one of the famous vendors of ice cream here in our country because it is very delicious even if it is just simple not like the other branded ice cream and everyone still what to find this everywhere.
Fresh Fruits
Fruits can be also a nice beverage in this kind of weather. If you like some juice that can beat the hotness you can create your own fruit juice. I recommend the Pine apple juice because for me it is very sour and it is very good when it is very cold.
Buko Juice
Speaking of Juices, I don't like to forget how buko juice is also in our number one list in beverages during summer. Unlike the other fruit juices, fresh buko juice with ices is very nice during heat and you can find this in every market everywhere because it is really need to beat the heat and even if you're exhausted.
Here in our barangay, we used to Drink this after buying groceries in the market because there are a lot of vendors selling this kind of drink and even street foods in the outside of the market which is they know that it is very tiring to pick and walk inside and it's very hot too.
But at this time, since Milk tea become famous it become the new beverage that what most of the other people drink in this kind of weather. If they do not have buko Juice they will replace it with Milk Tea and softdrinks.
Anw. It's still very hot in our country because it is Summer already and not because of me okay? I know that I'm sexy and hot but that is another topic but How I wish that it's Rainy days again so that my body can leave in peace. Because i can't really stand the heat.
I don't like to go to the beach but..
That's only in my imagination. I don't plan to go to the resorts and beaches anymore because I don't like to soak in heat.
Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoy reading my Article!
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Yesterday, I post an article about my life and I realized that it is very immatured but I really meant all of the others that i said. However, after thinking a lot at night I realize an another goal not for myself.
I plan to earn all my earnings here at Read.Cash for something that it can help my Mother who is working overseas.
Because last night, I think that i am wasting my time for nothing. I realize too that i'm already 20 years old but I haven't been able to help my Mom yet and I disgusted myself for that.
After those years, I'm just thinking myself. I do want to help her I always planning to get work but I don't know how because of this situation.
I just hope that I will succeed to this goal and this is I plan to earn money here at Read.Cash to help my mother to build our house because we still don't have our own house yet. We are just living in my Grandparents house.
We have a talk with my Mother last time I talk with her that she will not sending money to us starting this month and I agree to this because I don't want my mother give burden anymore. She is planning to save money for our house and I don't tell her that I'm planning to save money too for that goal because I know that she will not agree to that but I know that her salary is not that much so by writing every days article here at Read.Cash but I'm not sure if bot will give me tips plus I don't have that much many friends here who will support me just like what I always saw in others articles *(which is making me jealous)* how I wish I know a lot about BCH.
Anyway, I will do my best to write to earn money because this goal is very important to me so that my mother will going home after we build a simple house and she will not working anymore and I will replace her to work overseas after that.
I know that it is very impossible for me to earn because of this situation. However, I will do what I can do and I will never give up because giving up will just lead us to become a weak person when we are achieving something.
I know that i'm a useless daughter because I let my mother do everything and I know that i waste my time after those years for nothing. If I just find a work after I failed in applying scholarship, maybe I help my mother to build a house now.
But I know that this is not your problem anymore because this is my problem and I don't blame you if you will think the 'what ifs' question just like *"What If I did not waste my time?", "What if you did find work then you will not suffering and you did ?"*, Etc.
But all I want is I just hope that everyone will support and help me everytime I will write. I know that I am not good at writing articles but supporting me is a big help.
But don't misunderstand me. I don't want to be a burden to anyone. I just like your support that's all. Because I know that we have our own goal here esp. that we all need a money for living and I also want you to achieve what you are dreaming right now because we dream to become successful.
And I learn that maybe we failed that is natural because if we don't experience failure we will not learn to stand up by our own and do it again and life is not easy.
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My Life Story: Then and Now, which is better to be me?
Before Me, Myself, and I become Who Became me right now just like others, I experience a lot of things-A Different kind of feelings that everyone also experienced in their life. Because I am a Human too..Like you.
Before Writing my story to be share with everyone, I think this topic is better to write to understand myself and to think and looking back to my past.
Looking back to the old me, I'm just a little person without knowing anything. I'm just a little girl who became the favorite of My Grandfather and My neighbours. I just have a simple life with my parents because we are just living in a simple house and I do everything I want *(playing outside with my friends, singing in the neighbours yards like a pro singer, doing acting with my friends, and I don't mind what others will say to me aha lol).* I don't call myself as a spoiled brat because I don't tell my mother what I want she just giving what she think that I need and I can tell that for me, she is the best Mother in the world until now.
Before I have two bestfriends and they are Boy and Girl. My Girl bestfriend's name is Jane she is my childhood friend she is the daughter of the bestfriend of my Mom so we are always together because we always play and also I always give her what I have and unlike me, her life is more misserable than me because her parents divorced at her young age. So I became her only family when she is crying, down, and she don't have things that she need, I share it with her. But things change when we graduated in grade 3, she transfer to her Father's side and she told me that it is her Mother's decision because her Father can give everything that she want and she will have a better life so I let her go even if I don't want it because I don't have many friends and she is just the only person I can be with but I realize at that time that `'We should learn to live by our own and not depend on others'.` So after she left when I turned Grade 4, I became lonely not after we became close with the person that I rival the most because we studied both the same Day Care and we became our Teacher's favorite. We both became rival because of our Teacher we always both want his attention to us. However, when we became school mates in Grade 4 we become close to each other until our school mates think as both as a couple. Well I do admit that I want to become his girlfriend too at that young age because I fall to him-I fall inlove to my bestfriend and i don't know if he did because we didn't talk about falling in love at that young age but I do think that maybe he liked me too before because he didn't push me when I am very close to him, he didn't say any words after we scold by our Teacher when we play during class. Actually, he is the reason why I learned arts he thought me how to draw things and I did cherish that talent until now. We became perfect friends and I do think that maybe someday he will become my First Boyfriend that he will fall inlove with me too just like how I am at that time. But time changed when we become Grade 5, the person that I like change his attitude to me and I don't know why maybe because he become matured and I realize at that time that `Time will Change someone`. I do always want to go back to the time where we are *(and while typing this words to this article it's making me become emotional because It's really hurts...because I'm still affected and I'm still falling in love to him until now even if I never reach him now.)* but fate never allow us again to become the same person just like before. In one year of being close friends with him, `we have the best memories in my life that I don't want to forget until I die.` I never forget him, I still include him to my prayers and I wish that he will become successful someday even If I don't keep my promise to him and that is to become a successful architect so that we can work together because his dream is to become a successful Engineer.
My life become miserable. My life is different from what I am when I was a kid because when I become Secondary, My Mother need to work to Manila so that she can give money to our everyday needs so We, My Sister and My Father need to transfer to our Grandparents house so that My Father have a accompany to take care of us however, my Father become a alcoholic and our Family here hated us.
My Sister change her attitude to me she didn't consider me before as her sibling she didn't like me and she bully me infront of others. Sometimes, when I'm studying and I don't know our subject I want to learn to her but she refused I also remember that during that time my Auncle come to me and my book slap it to my head. The people here at this house become the reason why I live like this. I change my attitude to others and I become strong because I do don't like to hurt anymore. Because I experienced a lot of pain, the old version of me did not know how to fight the people who always hurt her.
I experienced bullying to the fact that every night I always killing myself. They did not know my pain and they never ask me if I'm okay because they are the one who become the reason why I experience those things because bullying me is their happiness. `I feel sorry to myself because I didn't know how to defend myself from those people who hurt me` and all I can do is to cry and even if I told to my parents what i experience they just give a words and after that it's okay again. People around me just think my pain and experience as a joke no one did even hug me or comfort me and during that time, I'm just being myself until now but it's okay to be just only yourself because `I learned that only yourself can understand you and you are your own ally.` Which is until now I always think that because it's very true because people just act as if they will be your family and they will be on your side but when you turn your back they don't consider you as one. Am I right?
The old version of me experience the things that it should be not to do. Like drinking alcohols, taking cigarettes, cutting classes and go home drunk and I do those things because I don't like to live anymore in short, I lost myself and That is not the person that anyone even me, know in the past and you can't blame me for doing such things because anyone even think to rebel because of the pain that they experience and feel. I'm still imatured at that time.
Well, but after how many years this is the new version of me. Even if i feel a lot pain I'm thinking a lot of possitive than before however, Nothing really change i just become strong and learned to don't mind people around me however I'm still not okay because I still feel depression and anxiety, but not anyone did know about it. Maybe, I feel okay when I'm with many people, talking with them but you can tell in my eyes when I take pictures that I feel sad and I'm really not. So, I just at my room so that I can feel less depression because people around me still giving me a trauma of what many things I experience before and sometimes my actions don't know how to act by own myself because they still control me which is very strangling to my neck. I become worse because I admit that i'm thinking of killing those people sometimes which is also the reason why I want to be by myself if I'm angry because I don't want to turn into a monster.
I tell you this because I want to let this out to my mind.
*To Everyone who read this article , I want you to know that I'm not okay and I need someone to help me from drowning and anytime I will kill myself by suicide to end this pain because I don't want to suffer anymore.*
I don't know how to save myself now. I also pray to God to guide me now but if I someday, I will die everytime I'm okay because I really don't like to feel the pain, i don't like to suffer, I don't like to live by this kind of world but I'm thankful that I experience a lot and I learned something in this world. I met a lot of people esp. my Mom who loves me and doing her best so that she can give me a better life.
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Reasons why our Parents want us to Study Hard but at this situation, maybe childrens will give up?
There's no parents that they do not like their child ruined their future and they are giving and doing their best to their children just so they will give them a better life and future.
One of the only way that they can give to us is to Study Hard, All of the reasons and only way that they can think so that we can be succeed is studying because they consider Studying as the key to success.
However, NOT all graduated students become succeed after they graduate with a degree in college because even if you will graduated in a college, your life is still NOT in a different position of the other people who did not graduate or they did not finish studying.
So the Question here is Why?
Let me tell you the reason why I tell you this. It is because I saw a lot of graduated in college just like for;
**Example:** Someone graduated in a course of accountancy, but did not even have a proper work. That person never get or enter a proper work that she can applied using her course and that person is just working as a cashier in a mini store right now.
Now Do you think studying hard, being summa cum laude, valedictorian, salutatorian, and getting higher grades, graduating in college can be the only key to become a successful?
And now that many students still continued their life to studying at this kind of situation and they are now under fire in social media because even if they are studying, they did not get the lesson that their professors and teachers give to them.
**So How they will survive to their study right now?**
Someone told me a story in how they are studying right now. This is based in mh friend experience to their school which is she found out that not just in their School but also in the other school's students experience the same thing.
Their Teachers or professors just giving some modules for their online classes and after that, their professors did not give any lessons of key for the lessons and just let their students studying by theirselves and just updating some things like what they will do (activities, project, quizes, and needed etc.) in their group chat. The problem here right now is some of the professors or teachers are have a guts to drop their students grades. And all I can say is **"They are all cruel!"**
**There are a lot of Teacher here in the Philippines doing that kind of shit of Job.**
And this is the main reason why many students protest again in social media to have a academic break because of some Teachers that not doing their job properly to teach them to their lessons. Of course they are lazy now to teach and they are giving some excuses like this and that just to so academic break can be not approve by the government.
*"They will Protest not to have academic break because they will lost their jobs at this kind of situation and of course the reason is they are just aiming their pays and not minding what the students feels."*
They don't have mercy! They don't even care if the students will feel some stressful and depressing things and you do know how big impact and how hard studying is plus the pressure of your parents is equal to death and you do even know how many child end their life because of this and yet the Government did not do anything but just continue this kind of thing.
You know that Studying can wait and you can study after this situation end. If they will learn and study a lesson just in the online and without the teachers guide, I think the future will be in a danger because of lack of study for example is some Doctors and Nurses in the future will failed to save someone's life because of lack of studying in how to cure and prepare in a operations. The Engineers and architect will never think of better plan in how to build something or fixing some dangerous things in places.
Now, do you think studying at this time will be still a big help for us in the future? Do you think that this can be a better time to study? Or government will still continue to let Education still continue during this kind of situation?
`I need your Opinions Just comment below! Thank you for reading please do read my Previous Articles!`
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I encounter a Cyber bully Streamer and I do the right thing to stop him, friends and his Lover
In this year being a streamer is also a job. I did not mention it to my previous article yesterday because I forgot. Being a Gamer (if you play mobile games or any games) you can be a famous streamer even if you are not a pro-gamer.
This job, you can also earn a lot of money and many students right now is doing that kind of job to earn and I saw a lot of them being successful now.
The benefits of being a streamer can lead you to become a famous person. In this time, you will not just becoming an Artist in acting but now you can become one if you are a famous streamer. You will have a many fans and supporters, star senders (which will be converted to be a money), and you can be also cast as a MPL player.
How to become a STREAMER?
You should have a computers or material set ups on how you will take a video of yourself while playing. This will be needed in streaming so that they can see or watch you play. However, you will can also be a streamer without those and just using your phone and the **Omlet arcade application**. You can find this in google play appstore and apple appstore.
If you like to become streamer, you should have a *page in facebook* and your name will have a *'gaming'* at the end. This will consider as your nickname and how they will call you and this can be your extra name if you don't like to public your name. They will followed you here and this will be the account you will use where you can upload the videos or updates of your games.
Before starting to your streaming, you should consider and think a way on how you will gain fans and followers in the beginning until people will recognized you as a famous gamer or streamer.
So now, this will be about the Streamer that I encounter in social media.
This cyber bullying start when I am new to their Group chat. I avail a supporter badge and one of the benefits of being a supporter is you will add by the person you are supporting and they will add you in the group chat. The group chat will be consider as where you will talk with that person and having time with your co-supporters at first that entered to the Group chat, I encounter a lot of young people there and they keep mentioning the *'victim name'* they did not even take a time to welcome me just only the one moderator and him however after that, you will not be notice by that streamer even the other new beginners after me experience that thing too.
After days of being there at their group chat I feel like I am a lost person. I just want to get close with them but they don't like to talk with me? Well it's because I don't join to *'how they will bully the person'* thing. I asked the moderator if why they keep mentioning the victim's name and why they are bullying her and the moderator did answer my question and to my surprise it is the friends of the streamer who start this thing and actually, this matter of cyber bullying issue of them reach the school of the streamer. There are two friends of the victim report this at the school and the talk with the parents of the streamers friends, the victim, and the school is not over yet BUT the people in the group chat including the friends of the streamer keep continued to bully the person. If you will ask where is the victim she left in the group chat because someone told her to leave to stop the people to bully her however even if the victim already did leave, they keep on what they are doing to the victim.
So as an older, I don't tolerate people like that. After days of being in that group chat sorrounding with toxic and immature people makes me trow up.
So last night, I did do what I can do to lecture those people. I am not superman or batman or any hero but I would like to correct what is not right because I don't stand reading those words that they always throw to the victim anymore. The other words is BELOW THE BELT which is very mean and not good to read.
So I did take an action and take the risk even if I know that my name will become their topic too after. But It doesn't matter to me I just think to speak because no one speak the right thing and they also join to bully the person too.
I post on my Facebook and expose the things that they do and said to the victim *(but not all because I am lazy to screenshot those because it's too many)* with a very long caption of course I did mention the bullies name on my post including the streamers name so that everyone will be aware of this matter so that they can aware where they will support if ever they know that person.
After lecturing the Girlfriend's streamer in her group chat she is very scared to comfront and answer me. She did not answer and remain quiet even the other people who join to her group chat become silent and the other leaves maybe they realize what they do or they don't want to include to this matter which is good but except to the bestfriend or friend of the gf. Lol which is she recieved a blockage from me. I don't know why she did not answer me properly? Maybe because I'm older than her or i have many proofs if ever she will talk and report me to her parents and if ever she did that, I will exposed what she did to the victim to her parents too. If ever the parents tolerate their child and sided their child, you know what it means.
So after I post and expose them to my Facebook acc. Someone chat me to take down my post like of course I do know that they will do that because they know that the cyber bullying matter in the school is not over yet, but there is another proof again that will ruined their future. At first, I don't like to take down my post but they keep begging and saying sorry to me for what they did. When they said that they say sorry to the victim and they send me a picture of proof..I deleted my post.
I do not have a mercy to those bullying people and i will never stop until they will experience the pain and consequences of what they do but in a nice and in a law way.
I post this article so that everyone who will reading this aware that being a target or victim of any kinds of bullying is not a joke. Because I do experience the same thing before and no one come in front to defend me and I as a victim before, I said to myself that when I grow up that I want to defend people who will experience the same i experienced and do the right thing.
But this is the joke I saw in the morning:
Someone reported my post as a Bullying. I do not bully anyone and i just defended the victim of bullying yet they have a guts to report me as a bully? I just did the right thing. It is not consider as cyber bullying because I just said what I want to say and those words are facts. But yeah, I know that they will just laugh to me because of course they did not experience being victimized of cyber bullying because they are the bullies.
However I will stop now and just let the lord God to be take care of those evil people and makes them paid what they did to others.
`Thank you for reading! I just hope that everyone will be not a bully because you know how much someone suffered in this.`
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Young People new ways of earning Money in this kind of situations to not struggle
Many people struggle a lot in this kind of situation. Last year in our previous articles, we are talking about the pandemic and how much we losts during at that time.
And this year, it is still not end of how many people life's suffering and struggling just to live. Of course, to fight this kind of situation many people think a lot of ways how to survive and how to live again in a normal just like how they live before the pandemic start.
In this situation i saw a lot this year that many young people is thinking in a possitive way. Which can help their parents to survive in this situation. Who says that oonly older people can work? If money and ways to survive is the basis to to live, we can fight this if every family members can help with each other.
In this article, we will talk or I will share you this. This is one of the ways how you will earn money and how the youth childrens fighting against this kind of situation.
What are those Works, you can?
If working is the source and how we earn money, we can find a different work but in this kind of situation, WE CAN'T go anywhere we want. Esp. the young childrens below years of age is prohibited to go everywhere esp. to those LISTED areas that has still Covid-19.
In Philippines, Many Young children who still studying in the Grade schools and middle schools will you can find them in every social medias.
And i heard you and your question is, **"What are they doing?"**
In social media, if you open facebook you can find a *Live online selling* and this is one of the new strategy in how to earn money.
**What is live online selling?**
Live Online selling is a work where you can sell things or items that you will sell but you will do it Live in your Facebook account.
**How to earn or the live online Selling works?**
Your buyers can comment *'Mine', 'grab', And 'steal'* if they will want to buy the items during the live.
You will meet up with your buyers to pay and get their items.
If you have a preloved things like dresses or clothes in your closet you can sell it in the cheap prices because fashions can also for sale and many people here in the philippines is interested too esp. if the item can be used and the price of your items is cheap.
**Selling plants in Facebook can be the source to earn money**
Not only clothes you can also sell because here in the Philippines, you can also sell Plants. If you are good at planting plants, you can sell it! Plants is a good business here in the philippines because many mothers really like to plant flowers during this kind of situation. (They also don't like their kid ruining it and many children also complain to their mothers that they do love their plants much better than them.)
Due to the pandemic, my cousin can't teach in school. So to earn money or to have a business she buy and plant many flowers until her plants grow and bigger and become her business in facebook and because of that many people from the other barangays Visiting her home where her flower farm located and buy to her which is the reason why she always earn a lot of money in a simple way. **'Just plant and you earn'.**
But do you think this kind of situation is easy to earn money?
Of course not. Many online sellers still dealing with many scammer people. This kind of people making jokes of the businesses of the other people which is leading to ruin the business.
The thing is live selling is not a easy job too because all jobs is not easy and this kind of job is not excluded. In live selling you will talk and talk and negotiate with many people until they buy your item. Sometimes there is still an item left and they don't want it. The income is low because your item is in a cheap price because the item is only cheap too.
However it is still a good job because in this kind of way many people is still earning despite of how hard this work is and it is helping the people to survive in a hard but a helpful way.
And even if we are struggling in this kind of situation, we should still think to help others by supporting their small business and help them.
Thank you for reading my article!
Iphone 5s review still Worth it to buy this year of 2021?
Many young people always choose to buy a high and nice mobile phones and if they will buy, they will need to choose the right and have a good performance of phones.
If we will talk about mobile phones and gadgets, one of the most famous luxury brand or gadgets is the iPHONE. This is one of the most favorite brand of rich people and a dream phone of everyone.
The most common reasons why they like it is because it is different from android phones BUT still their is still a pros and cons in buying and Iphone than Android phones and we will discuss that.
One of the most beautiful iPhone is the iPhone 5s. It is not new or brand new unit of phone and it is now old but i find it still want to buy by many people because I watch many reviews about this phone in Youtube.
This phone is just small not unlike the new iPhone 6, 6s, 6+ and so on but it is still fits in your hand. Well, i can tell that this phone is good for kids esp. if they want iPhones and i can't tell that it is good for everyone that has a big hand.
So now let's answer the questions.
**Is the Iphone 5s is still worth it to buy this year of 2021?**
My own Opinion is YES. You can still buy this phone and it is still good (for me). Here is the reasons why I choose to buy Iphone 5s than the big and new units.
**Because of the size.** I like it when I play mobile games because the characters and the buttons are very small which is I find it cute and the phone if I hold it in my arms is very fit and easy to hold esp. it is very small and it can fit it in my small bags so that i can easily carry it when i travel. I like smaller phones because it is very hard for me to carry a big or tall phones in my hands and pocket unlike the Iphone 5s i can handle it in my small pocket but i just hope that it will not lost lol.
**It is no different from new Iphone units.** For me,you don't need to buy a big or taller phones when you buy Iphone because Iphone 5s is NO different from the other units. The camera is still the same, and all of the styles.
However, the Iphone 5s' IOS version update is different from the new units of the Apple phones.
The latest system update of the iphone 5s is iOs 12.5.2 only which is very different from the new units and doesn't have the new features of the latest Iphones because it is now old unit.
But it doesn't matter for me as long as i can use the camera, Messenger and other important apps that can be used for my daily needs.
**The Finger print.** This is one of the reason why I buy the iphone 5s than the new units of apple phones. Because it is very small phone yet it has a finger print too like the new iphones and which is i like or dream to have a phone like this. Small and cute plus it has a finger print is equal to I'm satisfied. It is also fit for me because one of my problems is I always forgot my passcode sometimes so I need to remember two numbers or digit so that I can remember it again lol.
**What I don't like to the phone?**
And like i said, this phone is not different from the other iphones because the battery performance is the same to the other units of the apple phones! I cannot use it in a long hours (Panandaliang gamit lang) but if you will just use this phone for just taking pictures esp. when you are traveling and you are finding a good camera you can use this for selfies naman.
If we will talk about the camera of the Iphones you can also find in the iphone 5s the things or features that you can't find it in android phones. For example is the *slow-mo*. Which is you can slow mode the video you are taking this is really good if you are taking a sea water, winds and if you would like to create a video clips of your ideas.
Another thing that i don't like in Iphone 5s is the battery heat esp. when I am using Wi-Fi. But if I am using a hots pot it is not heating so I will just use hotspot instead.
So guys, if you will buy or planing to buy Iphone 5s, I will tell you that it is still a good phone for not choosy people like me. Esp. if you just need a mobile phone that has a good and very beautiful camera to capture your selfies during your travels. Like I said, it is very small which is very good and easily to carry it to our travels.
Very very old unit of Apple phone but still very good phone for me and I don't regret buying this because it is very cute phone and I can use if I needed.
I forgot to mention that my Phone is just second hand only and not a new phone. If you like to buy a iphone you can buy a second hand but original units in AZ iphone shop in SHOPEE app (Philippines) they sell a good and original phones.
Thank you for reading my Article! I hope that you will follow me and let's be friends!
The Goals of the young girl that Ruined by Selfish People
Yesterday, I Take some photos of flowers. I don't know but it's been a while since i go out of the house and look for my sorroundings.
It's been a month since I didn't post anything here. So if you are wondering why, I will explain what happen to me. Even if you don't want to know I will still explain it so that you will learn some lesson because this will make you think about success, happiness, motivation, and educatipn thoughts from me..
After bot didn't give me some tips, I tried business. I use my money i earn from platform so that i can earn again, but i failed. I failed because there are some people who are making me fall down they are ruining my business by telling some people that my product is not good. I am sorrounded of people who didn't like me to earn. Actually, they have their own business too and I always support them by buying however, I wonder why they don't buy to me too? All I want is just to earn money so that I can save money and I don't asked money from my parents.
So because of that, I thought I don't deserved to earn. I give up writing here because I thought, 'What is the purpose of writing, achieving dreams, and helping if there are a lot of people didn't want me to become success?'. I...don't like people hating me. So, seeing them being happy because they are earning money and continue their businesses makes me feel bad for myself.
I like to earn too. I like to grow up myself. I like to become success by writing here just like my Friends who are still continuing their success here but How? How I start again if I can't build up my self confidence in Writing again? I can't focus and think of topic just like before because of them.
But then looking to this photo, just like this flower, I want to bloom beautifully. I feel like It's not bad to be bad at least I'm not compitating to anyone. It's not bad to become bad because you want to become successful. I don't like to think anyone who didn't like me to become successful now. I want to shine, not just them. I want too achieve my goals and I miss writing.
So starting from this time, I will continue what I paused. I will start again and I want to achieve many things just Like what you are doing right now.
Seeing my friends how successful they are now, I'm thinking myself too. The 'What if's' in my life after I stop writing is still in my mind and I always smile bitterly. But I still want to Congratulate my friends here who are became successful by writing. I would like to say that, You deserved that and I would like you to be one of my inspirations. Thank you for motivating me in the times that I would like to but I give up.
Looking to this photo, I'm thinking of many people around me. It symbolizes of many people incouraging me. Even if they are not in my side, I feel like they are the people who I need. So everyone, Pick one of those flowers as my thanks giving! Especially to @Ruffa and @Cristy .
And I would like to tell you that I'm starting to make story in Wattpad Application. However, I'm still starting the story so I can't publish it right away.
This is one of my goals in the year of 2021. I will be brave and I decided that I would like to Continue to achieve all of my dreams in this year so I hope that everyone will cheer me up and Leave some comment down below and inspiring letters to me. Boost my self confidence please.
I also decided to Write some Stories here. So please support me and look forward to what I write.
Thank you very much!
Hey guys I have a Concern. This is bothering me a lot. Well everynight I can't sleep well. I am hearing a rain drops but if I go outside it's not raining... It starts when everytime some of our dogs and kitten here died and the weather is always raining.
That's why I hate raining.. I can't sleep. I always blame myself because I can't do anything when my Auncles are killing dog for alcohol drink purposes..
I couldn't sleep well like I don't like this kind of feeling everynight. That's why I am still awake even if the time is already late. I couldn't feel right and it's always making me feel like I'm a useless human.
What doctor should I need? I bet I'm already Crazy.
Netflix Series: The 'Sweet Home' and 'Alice in Borderland' reaction
Are you a fan of Horror, Suspense, Thriller, Mystery, Fantasy, Survival genre of Movies? Then you can try to read this Article! Because this is all about the two new Movies of 2020, based in the Webtoon and aired in Netflix.
Did you done watching **Alice in Borderland** and **Sweet Home**? If you are still watching it, don't Read my article and focus to watch the series first and comeback if you done watching it to avoid spoilers!
Okay so Here we go!
First I would like to talk with you about **Alice in Borderland.** https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alice_in_Borderland_(TV_series)
Alice in Borderland is a Japanese science-fiction suspense and thriller genre of Drama TV series and it is based from manga of the same name of **Haro Aso** and it Aired the episodes in Netflix (*but you can also watch it in Facebook and other platforms that posting Movies/Dramas)*.
Alice in Borderland is very the best for me not just because my favorite Japanese actor, Kento Yamazaki's role will be the Lead of this movie but because I really like to watch some movies that have the same genres like this. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kento_Yamazaki
Reasons Why I Like Alice in Borderland?
**I feel the Same vibes of Death Note**
At First Episode, I think that this will be boring because it's like Death Note. Because when I watch the trailer, this is giving a feeling like when you watch the Death Note (*If you still didn't watch the Death Note search it and watch it first before jump in Alice in Borderland. (They didn't have the same story line but I recommend you to watch it too because it is so good to watch too especially at night).* https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_Note_(2015_TV_series)
**Famous Character lines that make us Relate**
This is also one of the reason why I stan Webtoons, Manga, Anime because the writters are giving us some lessons by the life of each characters in the story. Which is making us feel relate to it.
**Story Lines that make us feel different Emotions**
Not just brutal scenes can be watch but because of the roles and missions of the each characters in the story. It is making us feel different kind of emotions in each episodes. Which is very nice because *'I realized that in every bad things that always happens, there are stories behind why it need to be happened'.*
Another one movie that I watched is the **Sweet Home****.** This is the first Netflix Series that Korean performed which is makes me feel amazed watching it because I can't believe that this Movie is very interesting. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sweet_Home_(TV_series)
**Sweet Home** is not a little different from Alice in borderland because they have the same kind of role of scenes but in a different kind of way. It is also make me feel the same kind of feelings in Alice in borderland. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sweet_Home_(TV_series)
Reasons why I like Sweet Home?
**The Director is very skilled and talented of making this movie** which is very nice because I didn't expect that they can make this kind of movie-Very real (*If you watch Sweet home, you will know what I mean*.) the Monsters, the City Views of the location, all of what happened in this movie feel like I am in the scene too (*I didn't imagine myself before being in the scene of this kind of movie lol , only in Sweet home).*
**The Story is Relatable**
Just like what is happening in our situation right now, Sweet home is not a little different from our situation. Because if our Situation right now is about the Corona Virus, The Situation in Sweet home is also a Disaster of getting an ill of becoming a Monster. Because people in Sweet Home turning out to be a Monster if they will infected by the disease of others but it turn out that it is a Cursed which is much worst than in Corona Virus because no one will survive in that kind of situation even some nurses and other Government officials will infect in that kind of situaton.
**The Characters are very talented in acting**
I didn't know that Korea can act their roles. They are not bad at acting which can caught some viewers. They act their roles very well which is very difficult to act scene this kind of genre is very difficult to Film. Honestly, I didn't thought that they can film this kind of Movie like how many Days, months, or time they need to Act and film this kind of movie? Because for me, this is the most beautiful Netflix Series that I watch in the end of 2020.
Sweet Home or Alice in Borderland, Which is the Most Best for me?
They are have the same similarities in what they are like to conve to their audiences. The both stories in the both movie is aiming the same goal to everyone in a different way so I don't think that I can choose one of the best.
If we are going to talk about the view of each Movie, Character's Role or act, and Story line, the both movie also have same impact to me. Since they are both have a relatable story line that can be put to the audience life and or self-experiences.
But if we will talk scariest/brutal things that happened in the movie, like i said, the both Movie series is have the same kind of role scenes but in a different kind of way the ***Alice in Borderland*** is have a br*tality of k*ll*ng human to human while the ***Sweet Home*** is Human turning to Monster and k*ll*ng Human. I bet Sweet home is the most scariest because it have a possibility that it will happened to this world but We Don't Know in the future.
**What Episode Scene in Alice in Borderland and Sweet Home is My favorite?**
For me, In Alice in Borderland is the ***Episode 3: True Friends*** in this scene I can also relate to them. Because it is about Death and the life of your Friends will depend in the game and only one person can be successful so it is need to sacrifice life. If I have a chance to be in that position, I will also sacrifice my life just to save my friend. I don't like to be selfish especially when that friend is very special to me and this episode is very sad because Arisu's friends sacrifice their life so that he can continue to live.
While in Sweet Home is the ***Episode*** scene when the Lady that lost her Child is infected but still continue to think about the life of the children that Hyunsu saved. Before she become monster, she cooked some foods for them and also make a scarf for the both kids and lock herself in the bathroom so that she can't harm them and another Episode scene that I like the most is when Yoon Jisu play the guitar and it is giving me a saddest expression in that scene like that will be the last moment that she will play a guitar because they didn't know if when or what will happen next and tthey are not sure if they will die in that moment because their life will depend since the illness is very dangerous and they will infect in anytime and they didn't know if the people around them is safe.
If I will be in that Movie: In Alice in borderland or Sweet home?
If I will Choose Sweet Home, It is not my thing since I am scared like a Cat even if the monsters are not true and just an Edit, I am still scared of them and I can't watch myself being in that Movie but If the director will choose me to be in that movie well maybe I will be the Dog of the one of the Tenant and just Bark.
While in Alice in Borderland is not also my thing. I am not genius just like Arisu maybe if I am in the Movie, It is just the start of the game but I already died because I don't know what to do. But If the director will give me a chance to be in that Movie, I will choose the character that will be with Arisu in the end. Because Kento Yamazaki is my Crush (Sorry I'm so very flirt to my Kento). Char
So this is the end of the discussion about the new two Movie Series in Netflix. If you didn't still watch them and you already spoiled, It is not my fault since in the beginning of this article, I already warned you and to those People who done watching them, You can comment and express your thoughts about the movies.
Thank you for your time reading to my Article! I'm Back again to Read Cash. Belated Merry Christmas and Advance Happy New year to us!
Ano kaya pakiramdam ng may Kita no? limot ko na kasi @TheRandomRewarder
Nagsulat ako ng articles pero lahat yun walang kita. Inaantay ko na dumalaw ka sakin pero bakit ayaw mo na ata sakin? 🥺
@TheRandomRewarder I write Articles but you didn't give me some upvotes. You didn't like my Article? It's been almost 1 month and yet you didn't give me upvotes. 😭
She is that Girl, I hate the most
Fourth year High School na ako ngayon at may isang babae na pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat. Bukod kasi sa baduy siya, hindi din siya kasing ganda ng mga babae na nakikilala at pinapakisamahan ko. Ayoko ngang dumikit sakanya kahit tingin hindi ko siya matignan. Ayoko kasi talaga sakanya, hindi ko siya kayang titigan ng matagal sa mukha kahit kapag tinatawag kami ng aming guro para mag bigay pahayag sa harapan. Sabi nila, may gusto daw sakin yung babaeng yun. Sabi ko naman *"Eh, ano naman kung gusto niya ako, hindi ko naman siya gusto".* Nung mga oras na sinabi nila 'yun sakin, alam ko na...Matagal na. Bukod kasi sa lapit siya ng lapit, tingin siya ng tingin sa'kin, tat kung ano-ano ang binibigay niya sa'kin dahil pagbukas ko nalang ng bag ko may mga chocolates candies, flowers, at teddy bear palagi.
Isang araw, may gustong ipakilala sa'kin ang mga magulang ko. Kung babae yan tatanggi ako at tama nga ang hula ko dahil babae nga ang nais ipakilala nila sakin. Tatanggi na nga sana ako pero ang Mama ko na mismo nagsabi, *"Pag dika sumipot sa oras at araw na 'yun sinasabi ko sa'yo, Wala kang baon ng dalawang linggo"*. Kita niyo na? Ganyan kahigpit ang magulang ko pag aayaw ako sa gusto nila. Kilala na kasi nila ako alam nila na hindi ako papayag at aayaw ako sa gusto nila. Umirap nalang talaga ako sa kawalan dahil hindi naman ako pwedeng hindi sumipot doon dahil kailangan ko ng baon para sa project. Puro kasi ako aral, at barkada 'yun lang gusto ko. Ah! May gusto pala akong babae o may jowa ako. Kabaligtaran siya nung babaeng ayaw ko. Bukod kasi sa Matalino, Mabait, Maganda, Masipag, Matulungin, lahat lahat ng katangian na gusto ko asa kanya na. Alam naman ng lahat na may jowa ako pero ang nakakainis kasi inaasar parin nila ako dun sa babaeng 'yun.
Dumating yung araw na kinaiinisan ko, pinagsuot pa ako ng pantalon at magandang damit, binilhan pako ng bagong sapatos kahit meron parin akong sapatos, tapos bulaklak? Napatingin ako sa binigay ng Mama ko sa'kin at sinabing, *"Pati ba naman 'tong mabahong bagay na'to ipapabitbit mo sa'kin Ma?" .* Tumingin lang siya sa'kin ng masama kaya wala na akong magagawa *'Ano pa nga ba?' .*
Pagdating na'min sa kung saan, bumaba kami ng Tricycle. Hindi naman kasi kami mayaman. Simpleng pamumuhay lang pero masaya dahil puno ng asaran namin ni Mama pero mas nangingibabaw ang pagmamahal namin sa isa't-isa. Nag-iisa lang naman akong anak kaya hindi ako nakukulangan sa mga bagay na gusto ko dahil binibigay naman nila kahit hindi ko kailangan pero may mga oras at araw din namang kakailanganin ko ang mga bagay na 'yun. Nilibot ko ang paningin ko sa paligid, teka? Diba ito yung Barangay kung san nakatira yung jowa ko? Napalunok ako at tumingin sa paligid kung may nakakakita ba sa'min o sa'kin dito na kakilala ko at nakahinga naman ako ng maluwag dahil wala. *'Buti nalang! Badtrip kasi si Mama at Papa hay'.*
Kumatok si Papa sa pintuan at habang inaantay na'min ang may-ari ng bahay ay inaayos nila ang kanilang mga sarili. Tumingin din sa'kin si Mama at inayos ang damit ko at pati na rin ang hawak kong bulaklak *"Ayusin mo Anak ha?"* Isa pa sa pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat ay yung plastik na ngiti ni Mama sa'kin tila nang aasar ba? Hay nako. Bumukas ang Pintuan ng bahay at naglakad ang isang babaeng kasing edad ni Mama hindi pa lamang siya nakakarating sa pwesto na'min ay nakangiti na siya, *"Maraming Salamat, Mare at sumipot kayo."* At doon na nga sila nag tuloy-tuloy ng kwentuhan. Pagdating namin sa loob, nilibot ko ang paningin ko. Unang-una mong makikita pag bungad sayo pag pasok ay ang mga larawan sa may lamesa kaya napadako ang tingin ko 'don. Puro larawan ng isang batang babaeng nakangiti at masayahin titignan ko pa sana ang iba pero bigla akong tinawag ni Mama para umupo. Habang naka-upo ay ipinakilala ako ng aking mga magulang sa Babae kanina. Alam niyo na, palaging papuri kapag may kumare ang mga magulang na'tin kaya nagpapasalamat nalang ako sa mga papuri nila sa'kin kahit alam ko naman na yun. Ilang sandali lang at Dumating ang asawa nung babae. Ibibigay ko sana ang bulaklak sa kumare ni Mama pero kinurot ako sa Tagiliran kaya napamura ako ng konti sa isip ko at plastik na ngumiti kay Mama. Bumulong sa'kin si Mama ng, "Hindi sakanya yan, para sa anak niya yan baliw."napairap nalang ako sa kawalan apaka arte ng mama ko promise.
Maya-maya ay biglang bumukas ang Pintuan, hindi ako nag-abalang tignan ang kung sinong pumasok dahil umiinom ako ng tubig, nauhaw ako bigla eh sabay ng pagtingin ko sa pumasok ay tila nasamid ko ang iniinom ko kaya nailabas ko ang tubig at napaubo ako. Patuloy parin ako sa pag-ubo at tila nawalan ako ng hininga sa nakita ko at nung medyo umookay na ako ay pinilit kong masalita at tumingin kay Mama "Ma?" Pero tila parang wala siyang naririnig at nakatingin lang sa babaeng pumasok at lumapit sakanya. *"Happy Birthday Iha!"* Nakangiting bati niya sa babaeng pumasok
Kung nagtataka kayo kung sino 'yun siya lang naman yung babaeng pinaka ayaw ko. Gusto kong mainis pero napatingin ako sa Cake na nilapag ng mama ni *'I hate that girl'* Birthday niya naman kaya mag babait-baitan tayo di naman kasi ako ganun kasama. Teka, Paano nga pala nagkakilala mga parents ko at parents niya? Isa pa, alam ata ni Mama na ayaw ko sa babaeng to. Kaya napakunot ako ng noo pero gaya ng sabi ko, papalampasin ko muna 'to mamaya ko na aalamin kakausapin ko si Ano nga ulit pangalan nung babaeng pinaka ayaw ko? Ah basta yung babae na 'to. Kaya pagkatapos naming kumain, tumingin ako kay I hate that girl dahil alam kong nakatingin siya sa'kin at nakangiti*, "Tara sa labas."* Ilang letra, ilang salita 'yun? Pero sapat na siguro sakanya dahil nakangiti siya ng may pagkalawak-lawak pero bago pa man din ako makakatayo ay hinawakan ako ni Mama sa kamay at tinuro niya ang bulaklak na asa tabi ko gamit ang mga mata niya at nakikiusap na ibigay sakanya 'yun. Napapikit ako ng madiin at kinuha ang bulaklak at binigay kay I hate this girl *"Happy Birthday"* yun lang sinabi ko at binigay ko sakanya yung bulaklak at tinanggap niya naman 'yun ng nakangiti kaya umiwas na ako ng tingin at umupo. Nalipat ang attensyon ko kay Mama ng bigla siyang magsalita *"Kelan ang Kasal?"* Bigla akong napakunot ng noo at tumingin kay mama at ganun din siya sa'min ni I hate this girl. Bakit may Kasal na binabangit 'to? Wag mong sabihing.... Tatayo na sana ako kaso eto nanaman ang hawak sa kamay ng madrasta kaya *"Wala sa usapan yan Ma."* Saad ko ng kalmado kasi ayoko namang mambastos sa harap ng ibang tao at ayokong bastusin si Mama kahit ganyan siya sa'kin. *"Akala ko ba sinabi mo Pa?"* Tumingin si Papa sa'kin at kay Mama ng nagtataka *'Alam ko na kinukumbinsi nanaman ni Mama si Papa jusko'.*
Nung araw na 'yun wala akong nagawa kundi pumayag sa kasal na sinasabi nila. Bakit? Malamang kontraldo nanaman ako ng Parents ko pag di ako pumayag. Naka ready na lahat sila na mismo nagbalak. Inis na inis ako sa araw na 'yun pero wala akong magawa. Tumingin ako kay I hate this girl na nakatunganga lang sa kawalan jusko. Naramdaman niya ata na nakatingin ako sakanya kaya ngumiti siya sa'kin pero diko yun pinansin at sininyasan siyang lumabas nauna akong lumabas at sumunod naman siya ilang sandali. Doon kami sa may Bodega nagtatago para di kami makita nakatalikod lang ako sakanya *"Kumbinsihin mo Parents mong wag ituloy ang kasal please."* Pag mamakaawa ko ayoko kasi talaga maikasal sakanya eh as in ayoko talaga bukod sa mas gusto kong eenjoy ang High School life ko at may girlfriend din ako. Narinig kong may humihikbi kaya tumingin ako sakanya, aminado akong gwapo ako pero diko deserved ang mga luhang yan kaya *"Wag kang umiyak. Alam kong gusto mo ako pero hindi natin mapipilit yung.."* tinuro ko yung puso ko *"May girlfriend ako at alam mo naman siguro 'yun."*
Pagkatapos ng araw na 'yun di ko na siya nakausap pa. Ilang araw din siyang hindi pumasok at hindi ko maitatangi na nag-aalala ako. Hindi ako pinapansin ni Mama at Papa at lagi silang wala sa bahay lalo na si Mama. Ano kayang nangyari? Di naman siguro sila busy lagi sa work diba?
Isang araw, pagpasok ko ng classroom nagulat ako. Ako palang kasi ang tao sa classroom at si I hate this girl. Yung kaba ko at yung pag aalala nawala dahil sinalubong niya naman ako ng ngiti pero napansin kong nakajacket siya eh hindi naman malamig at yung labi niya may liptint? Hindi naman siya gumagamit ng ganun ah. Pero hindi ko nalang pinansin at umiwas ako ng tingin pero umalis siya sa upuan niya at pumunta siya sa pwesto ko nagulat ako dun kasi hindi lang yun ang ginawa niya kundi pagka upo ko ay nilapit ang mukha niya sa mukha ko. Kaya napatitig ako sa mga mata niya at masasabi kong hindi ko mabasa ang mga mata niya pero napahanga ako sa kulay netong kulay brown at napatingin din ako sa mga labi niya kaya napalunok ako dahilan para ngumiti siya kaya binalik ko ang attensyon ko sa mga mata niya at umiwas ng tingin at napakunot ng noo at inilayo ko ang ulo niya gamit ang isang daliri ko *"Sira kaba? Baka may makakita sa'tin."* Dahilan para mapalinga-linga siya sa paligid *"Wala namang tao ah. Tss ah nga pala, gusto mo mag absent?"* Tanong niya sa'kin kaya nagulat ako at tumingin sakanya good influence ba'tong binigay ng mga magulang ko o bad influence? Kaya napatampal ako sa noo ko at umiling *"Bala ka mag aabsent ako ngayon. Gusto ko maglibot. Itour mo ako sa mga ayaw mong mga lugar tutal naman ay ayaw mo sa'kin."* Napatingin ako sakanya, yung pag aalala ko biglang nawala dahil nagbubulakbol pala 'tong isang to. Kaya napatingin ako sakanya ng masama at di umimik *"Oh. Chill, kung ayaw mo di naman kita pipilitin."* Sabi niya habang nakangiti at tumalikod na *"Pero kung gusto mo naman akong samahan eh, mag aantay lang ako sa playground ng Elementary."* Pagkatapos niyang sabihin yon ay umalis na siya at naiwan akong mag-isa sa classroom sabay sabay na nagdadatingan ang mga kaklase namin at heto ako't hindi mapakali pinagiisipan kung pupunta ba o sasama sakanya o hindi. *'Ngayon lang naman kaya sige na'.* Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi bigla ko nalang namalayan na tumatakbo na ako dala dala ko ang bag ko at dinala ako ng mga paa ko sa may playground ng kung saan siya ay naglalaro sa swing pinagmasdan ko siya na naglalarong mag-isa tila bigla akong napatigil at napatitig sa masaya niyang mukha. Nakangiti siya habang naglalaro at dinadama ang hangin tumingin siya bigla sakin kaya nawala ang tingin ko sakanya at napalitan ng kuno't noo. Tinigil niya ang paglalaro sa swing at kumaway sa'kin at tumakbo papalapit sa'kin *"Sabi na eh haha so san mo ako dadalhin?". 'Kahit saan kung san ka masaya'.* Napairap ako sa naisip ko at nagisip kung saan ba ang pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat at tumingin sakanya *"Tara"* yaya ko sakanya
*"Dito?"* Gulat *na* sabi niya sakin. Tumingin siya sa paligid at ngumiti, hindi ba siya natatakot kasi dinala ko siya sa sementeryo? *"Bakit ayaw mo dito? "* Bakit ngaba? Wala namang dahilan dinala ko lang siya dito kasi akala ko natatakot siya. *"Ayoko dito kasi dito maraming mga malulungkot na ala-ala. Kung san hinahatid yung mga tao na mahal natin sa buhay sa kahuli-huliang araw na makikita natin sila. Ayoko dito kasi natatakot ako.."* nakatingin lang ako sakanya habang sinasabi yun *'Na baka mawalan ako ng isa sa mahal ko sa buhay ko.'* Tumingin ako sakanya ng bigla kong narinig na sumisinghot siya umiiyak ba siya? Pero nakatalikod lang siya sa'kin at pinupunasan ang mga luha niya pagkatapos ay tumingin siya sa'kin ng nakangiti at sinabing *"Gusto kong Iukit ang pangalan mo sa punong yan."* Turo niya sa punong nasa tabi ko kaya napatingin naman ako sa puno at sakanya na kumuha ng batong pang-ukit at inukit niya ang pangalan ko tinitignan ko lang siya habang ginagawa yun.
*"Bakit mo inukit yung pangalan ko don? Baka magmukhang patay ako at don nilibing"* natawa siya dahil sa sinabi ko at sinabing *"Patay na patay ka naman sa'kin eh"* minura ko siya sa isipan ko dahil sa sobrang hangin niya jusko kababaeng tao diba siya nahiya? Pero napailing nalang ako. Ilang minuto ay walang umiimik sa'min at Hawak ko lang ang strap ng bag ko samantalang siya'y wala siyang dala. *"Bakit wala kang dalang bag nung pumasok ka?"* Napansin kong nagulat siya dahil sa tanong ko pero ngumiti din siya agad *"Tinamad akong magdala."* Luh. Nagulat ako at napangisi nalang ako sa cool side niya at napakagat ng labi. Napatigil siya sa paglalakad at tumingin sa gilid kaya napatingin din ako sa tinitignan niya at nagulat ako sa nabasa ko *'Motel?'* kaya agad agad akong napatingin sakanya at umiling *"Tara na, Uuwi na tayo. Isusumbong pa kita kay Mama."* Hinala niya ang damit ko kaya napalapit ako sakanya *"Ikakasal naman na tayo kaya tara don. Ayaw mo don diba?"* Napamura ako dahil sa sinabi niya *"Sabi ko idadala mo ako don sa mga lugar na ayaw mo at base sa mukha mo ayaw mo pumasok don kaya tara don."* Hindi ko alam kung seryoso ba tong kasama ko pero hinihila niya ako kaya wala akong nagawa. Sa una ayaw nila kaming papasukin dahil Minor pa kami pero nung ako na nagsalita na wala silang pame sa gagawin namin ay ayun nga wala naman silang nagawa. Yung kasama ko naman magbabayad eh, libre din kaya okay lang sisiguraduhin ko lang talaga na walang mangyayari saming dalawa. Dahil kahit ganito ako, aba.. may respeto parin ako sa babae 'no.
Pumasok kami sa kwarto. Napapalunok at napapakamot nalang ako sa kalokohan ng isang 'to. Binaba ko ang bag ko at napabagsak sa kama dahil sa pagod. Di kasi kami sumakay sa kahit ano at naglalakad lang habang nag aasaran. Napadilat ako ng mga mata ko ng biglang may dumagan sa'kin at napalunok. *'No. Wag mong balaking humarap'* ano bang nangyayari kay I hate this girl at ganyan diya umasta ngayon? Nakadroga ba siya? Kaya napabalikwas ako ng bangon at humarap sakanya dahilan para mahalikan ko siya.
Sa susunod na araw wala nanaman siya. Naiinis din ako sa sarili ko kasi lagi ko siyang hinahanap, nagising ako kinaumagahan nun na wala na siya sa tabi ko. Gusto ko sana magtanong sa magulang niya kung umuwi ba siya? Hindi ako mapakali parati dahil nag aalala ako. Pano kung nabuntis ko pala siya at di na nagpakita? Tinatanong din ako palagi ng barkada ko at ng girlfriend ko kung napapano ako pero sabi ko wala lang naman may iniisip lang ako at yung babaeng yun. Jusko baka may alam ang mga magulang ko kaya napag desisyonan kong sundan sila mamayang gabi. Buo na ang pasya ko kaya pagsapit ng gabi nakabihis na ako at nagpaalam akong mag oovernight sa isa sa mga tropa ko tutal naman ay walang pasok bukas at pinayagan ako ng mga magulang ko. Pero ang totoo, nakatago lang ako sa puno sa tapat ng bahay na'min. Kasabwat ko si Manong driver ng taxi na asa malayo nireserved ko siya para lang sundan sila. Kaya pagkaalis nila Mama ay sinundan ko na sila.
*"Hospital?"* Basa ko sa letrang nakaukit sa taas ng building kung san ako nakatayo at tumingin kela Mama na papasok ng entrance ng Hospital kaya dali dali akong tumakbo para maabutan sila at itanong kung saang room sila pupunta. Pagkatanong ko sa Nurse na andon ay dali dali akong sumunod at habang sinusundan sila ay tila bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko at ramdam ko din ang kaba ko. Bakit ganun? Parang ayoko na ituloy gusto ko na umuwi at baka kung ano pa itong kaba ko. Maglalakad na sana ako para magback out pero may parte sa'kin na gusto ko malaman kung bakit. Kaya naglakad ako patungo sa pintuan at hahawakan ko na sana ang Door Knob ng biglang magbukas ang pintuan hindi iyon ang mas nakakagulat dahil ang mas nakakagulat ay ang babaeng pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat ay nakahilata sa kama at andaming naka kabit sakanyang kung ano-ano. Tila nanlambot ang tuhod ko at napa upo ako sa sahig sa nakita ko pero ang mas nakakamura ay hindi ko namalayan na pumapatak na mga luha ko sa sahig. Pinilit kong tumingin sakanya pero iniwas niya lang ang tingin sa'kin na umiiyak.
Yung labi niyang maputi na, yung mga ngiti niya palaging nakikita ko ay napalitan ng lungkot at sakit. Gusto kong mag-wala sa mga oras na'to. Nahulog na ako eh, nahulog na yung puso ko sakanya. Pero bakit ganito? Bakit? Bakit ako pa yung pinili niyang masaktan? Halos hindi ako makahinga at tila lahat kami sa kwarto pati ang Nurse na nag aasikaso sakanya ay napaiyak na din. Tumingin ako sakanila isa-isa at sa huli ay sakanya at napailing ako at tumalikod sinuntok ko ang pader dahil nasasaktan ako. Nasasaktan ako kasi bakit ganun? Andami kong gustong sabihin pero puro iyak lang yung lumalabas at may mga yakap akong naramdaman at ang mas kinabibigla ko, Si Mama ang yumakap sa'kin at pagtingin ko sa paligid nasa Kwarto na ako.
*"Ma, Panaginip lang ba ang lahat ng nangyari?"* Tumingin ako sa itaas at pinapakinggan ang hikbi ng Mama ko *"Anak, sabi naman niya sa'yo diba? Kalimutan mo na siya.. Sapat na 'yung kinasal kayo."* Napailing ako sa sinabi ni Mama dahil paano ko kakalimutan yung taong nagmahal sa'kin? Paano ko kakalimutan yung kauna-unahang babaeng naglakas loob na mahalin ako kahit ayoko sakanya? Paano ko siya kakalimutan kung nangako akong siya lang ang huling babaeng minahal ko kahit hindi ko naparamdam sakanya ng sobra-sobra. *"Ma, pwede bang wag nalang magmahal ng iba? Kahit wala na siya...kahit tumanda akong binata sa paningin ng iba..siya lang mamahalin ko ma."* Tanging iyak lang namin ni Mama ang naririnig sa kwarto ko.
Nakatunganga lang ako sa kawalan at nakatitig sa isang malaking kahon. Tumayo ako at pumunta doon binuhat ko ang kahon at nilagay sa kama ko. Umupo ako sa kama at binuksan ko ito. Napangiti ako sa laman, mga Teddy bears, lagayan ng chocolates at mga pekeng bulaklak inipon ko lahat ng binibigay niya sa'kin. Hindi ko alam pero siya lang kasi ang kauna-unahang babaeng nagbigay sa'kin ng mga ayaw ko na nagustuhan ko dahil sakanya. Hinawakan ko ang isang teddy bear at aksidente kong napindot at nagulat ako ng mag-salita ito ng *'I love you'* at boses niya pa. Tumulo nanaman ang mga luha ko sa mata at pinindot ulit ng isa pa *'Please open the Zipper'* tinignan ko sa likod at may zipper nga kaya binuksan ko ito at mas lalo akong nagulat sa nakita ko mga picture namin nung bata pa.
*This is the last teddy Bear that I will give to you so please take care of my baby. Importante sakin to. Bigay mo to nung bata tayo eh, hindi mo iyon maalala kasi naaksidente ka. Sabi mo sakin papakasalan mo ako, pero bakit nag girlfriend ka ng iba? Ang daya daya mo. Sorry, kailangan kong ibigay sayo yung puso ko. Kaya ako na mismo ang umako sa sakit mo sa puso. Nagkapalitan tayo 'eh, pero desisyon ko naman kahit di sang ayon ang parents mo sa ginawa kong desisyon kaysa naman makikita kitang nahihirapan. Hindi ko kakayanin 'yun. At least, siguro sa pagdating ng mga araw pag nabasa mo'to wala na siguro ako sa tabi mo. Pero, alam ko ramdam kong kasal na tayo 'nun. Bakit ba? Nangangarap akong ikasal sa'yo eh. Dati-dati di ko 'yun pangarap pero dahil nga nagbago ka naging pangarap nalang ang lahat.*
*Kapag dumating yung araw na mabubuhay ulit ako sa mundong 'to, sana mabago ang ending, yung magkakaroon naman tayo ng pamilya. Yung masaya tayo dahil natupad lahat ng pangarap na'tin sa isa't-isa. Sana, sa susunod na buhay na'tin... Ikaw parin at ako.*
*Wish ko, ingatan mo ang puso ko. Ingatan mo ako kahit wala na ako sa tabi mo ha? Lagi mong pindutin yung teddy bear kasi andon yung words na gustong-gusto kong sabihin sa'yo palagi. Mag iingat ka, Mahal na mahal kita.*
-*Rea.*
Nanatili lang ako sa kwarto magdamag habang nagflash back lahat ng nangyari noon sa utak ko. Hindi ko alam kung san ako magsisimula. Ngayong naging patibong ang lahat hindi ko alam kung san paba ako kakapit? Hindi ko alam at dahil naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil sinaktan ko ang babaeng mahal ko at hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko kaya
*I end my life with knife. I kill myself and the last words that I hear before I die*
*'I love you.' and I smile.*
End of the Story.
So All of the Money that I recieved here at @Read.Cash , I already Donate all of them. I have P2,000 pesos or $41.54 USD in my Coins.Ph account that is the payment that i recieved here and that is the only the money that I have, Actually that money should be add for the money that I can use to buy for my Camera cause I like to buy some on December but I decided to help others than for what I need so I hope that is enough and I already did a great job to help my 'Kababayans' who is suffering from the Typhoon Ulysses.
Well, I am not just the only one who donate a money but also the my other Family members. I just transfer my money to the Coins.Ph account of my Aunt and they will do the rest because I can't withdraw my money since my account in Coins.Ph is still not verified.
So, since I don't have some upvote here and @TheRandomRewarder didn't visit my Works anymore, I decided to not stop writing. The Rewards, Hardwork, Pays that I recieve in writing in this platform is worth it. So I would like to thank everyone who support me always to read my Articles, The Random Rewarder and the CEO or Owner of this platform because all of the money that you give to me is I already Donate it as an help for the People who are in need.
I will stop to Write in this moment but I will continue to read some articles here and I will be back again if there is something interesting topic that I would like to Write.
In the Time of Loneliness: The path where I walk
As a Human, I commit mistakes too. Me, You, or us can experience many things like **you should,** or **you should not**. This is the first time that I realize many things that I did in my life and I am thinking of many questions, I ask myself *"Why I do all of these things?"* Of course, We do and we did anything and everything with a reason and It happened with a reason.
It is my hobby to talk to myself when I am lonely and I do stupid things that may cause other people blame me. I don't know why I do that but, it is my way to comfort myself from that things that make me feel down. Because, I know that to myself that I don't have someone that can comfort and understand me. Me, Myself, and I am just the only one that I need in that kind of situation.
As a young and immature person in the past, I do the things that I should not do. I can't believe that I do the things that make my life misserable. It is because of the darkness around me that cause of *'I see the dark and not the light'.* I choose to walk in the path that it is not part of my dreams. I struggle, I stop in the middle of the road and look back where I walk... I look with a eyes of loneliness and I said to myself *'Where am I?'*
In continuation of that Night.. I am in the middle of that Road and I am shock because my sorrounding was change, it became more darker than I expected and there are many sword in the path that I am walking and looking down in my feet, there was a sword and my feet it--wounded and I don't feel the pain and there I am again asking myself, *'Why I don't feel the pain?' .*
I am confused at that moment! I don't know what to do! I am in the middle of thinking If I will continue to walk in that path or turn my back and walk to the path where I walk before but in the end, I decide that I will turn my back but then... There are many big thorns in the road and it is not clean just like where I walk before. I am doomed!
I sit in a little time while I endure the feeling where I feel the difficult moment what's happening. Because, that how I supposed to do the endure, endure, and endure. I shout *'Yes, I am like that!'* I release breath then talk like there is someone beside me who is listening but there is nothing *'...I endure those things that's why I feel alone'.*
I am good at pretending so I laugh at that moment while I think what to do because that is I supposed to do, when there is a problem-Just laugh and think that It is just nothing compare what I feels in my sorroundings.
I stand like a brave hero because I think that there will never happened if I just sit like an idiot and endure the pain. I rolled my eyes of how many big thorn in my way but I didn't care and I just walk in the path and I didn't also care if I will hurt because *'Why should I be afraid of those if I am get used to it?'.*
I consider **The way of big thorn as a way of the past** and **The other way is the way of sword of beginning.**
What I choose? Nothing, I just walk in the way of the big thorn because that is where my feet *walk on their own.* Well, I think it is also good to walk in the past to face all of those things that making me weak, enduring the pain, and making myself suffer and not running away. I don't like to begin my life without solving and facing those pain and problems. Realize the things that *I do that it should to be not*. I don't like to see myself continue to walk the path of beginning and continue to do these things. *'I should...learn and make myself strong so that I am not weak when I will face the new battle of life'.*
And here I am. Walking the Path where I choose and I know that I am not done because I am still in the way of solving the things that I did. The other things I already learned, there's more and I am prepared to walk in the thorn even if it is hurts at least I am learning to my mistakes. I wish, I will walk in my new beginning soon but I am not still that Strong and I wonder if what will happen, if I will still weak then I can't face the new begin of my Life.
Let me tell you at this end that I am trapped because *I still commit the things that I do that It should supposed to be not to do.*
Thank you for reading I hope that you understand it.
@Reo
