This is a real-life story and was originally written in black and white dated July 2013 - (Author: My Husband)
Disclaimer From The Author:
"This post may be met with some objection I am sure, but the facts are that what you will read is true and are about my personal history with drugs. I am neither proud nor am I ashamed of my past. I do not condone drugs for others, yet I will not lie and say a part of me does not miss some of the recreational behavior I was involved in." - (my husband)
The Edge Of Good And Evil
"I have always lived on the edge of good and evil, right and wrong. I do not know why really, but if someone said "forbidden", I had to either challenge it or prove why it shouldn't be forbidden I guess. When I was 17 years old, I joined the U.S. Navy and was stationed in San Diego, CA. I did what always seemed natural and made friends with all the wrong people. Over time drinking became a bit of an issue and along with that, I added drinking while taking pain pills. This never presented a problem until a night of depression where I drank maybe my 3rd pitcher of beer and downed half a bottle of pills. Fortunate for me, all I ended up with was being wiped out physically for about 24 hours and left with a sick stomach."
LSD (Acid): Overdose
" During my naval period, I found some friends to hang out with regularly at Mission Beach and Fiesta Island - 2 big party spots in San Diego and discovered something my artistic side absolutely loved called acid. It comes in paper sheets and is about the size of a tic-tac when torn off the sheet. Each one has a drop of "acid" on it that causes you to hallucinate. You see crazy things, and for me, I was obsessed with watching my face melt while I looked in the mirror, or I would draw pictures and watch them come to life, or change shapes while I was drawing. Pretty crazy. One night I went out with some friends and I bought all of us a partial sheet of acid called "purple half-smiling moon - double dropped". I gave everyone a tab and kept 4 for myself. I took 2 and then did not feel the effects fast enough so I took the other 2 making a total of 8 since they were double dropped. HUGE mistake! I was looking at my friend who was in the backseat of the car with me and he was turning red and had horns growing out of his head. We call this "tripping hard".
Then the worst thing happened, I began to feel the effects of an overdose. My muscles started constricting and I was curled up in the backseat with my jaw locking open. Literally, I couldn't close it and my tongue being a muscle was constricting back into my throat and I was choking on it. Next, I peed my pants because I had no control. Scariest drug moment of my life. I was fully aware of everything happening and could not stop it. My friends dragged me out of the car, forcing me to stand and straighten my body, while slapping me across the face repeatedly. I'm not sure why, but it worked and after that I never did acid again."
Crystal Meth Here And There Socially
This brings us to crystal meth after that experience I was still going to the beach to at least drink, which in the sun is absolutely draining. So a friend suggested snorting crystal meth. Me turning down something new? Never! I found myself staying up for 3 days straight! It was a lifesaver when tired. I was a cook working on a ship and worked alone during the night. I prepared all the breakfast for the morning shift and was responsible for starting many of the afternoon meals, as well as keeping the kitchen spotless. Then when I would get off I would go to the bunk area to sleep, and couldn't because the lights were on and people were down there talking or slamming lockers and me having insomnia issues couldn't sleep. So back to the beach, I went and subsequently bought more meth to carry me through the day as well as when I was working. Revolving circle of addiction and justification. I am 6'3" tall and my weight dropped down to 155 lbs. I looked sick, my skin was yellowish and the back of my arms had a tint of green. My eyes were sunken in and my shoulder blades looked like machetes. People kept asking me if I was sick, so one day I looked in the mirror (literally) and said to myself "you're dying". I stopped cold turkey.
Many years passed and I had in and out several relationships. In those relationships, there were times where the party life was present and I did what I had always done - joined the party... Ecstasy, Cocaine, Marijuana (makes me sleep, hate it lol), Crystal Meth, Hash, Pain Pills and even Crack (strained cocaine and 5 times stronger). I always kept in my mind that these occurrences were social and never chased a need to do more. I was under control and truth is I was."
(to be continued........)
Good afternoon everyone. Just done tutoring my daughter with her modules, and I'm literally feeling very exhausted, tired and lightheaded. And speaking of feeling lightheaded, I ironically found my husband's letter/article which he wrote in black and white a couple of years ago.
Anyone has the same dark past and experiences? Were you a drug user before? Have you tried taking drugs at any point in your life? You have the right to keep it yourself or share it with us. You will not be judged.
Anyway, I hope everyone is having a peaceful day. Time for me to go get some food and I am hungry as well. Talk to you in a bit. Xoxo.
One love
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September 09, 2021
12:35 pm
Philippines
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Wala nman masama kung ano ung nkaraan sis ang importante ay yung ngaun nagbago siya.gabda ng story abangan ko ung susunod niyan hehe..makapupulutan ng aral for sure..