Self awareness
This article is inspired of the article that I read written by Darius Foroux. I spend most of my time reading today since I skip work to relax since I've got a headache earlier this morning. I have saved 3 articles of Darius Foroux. I Google about some inspiring articles and I am stuck with his, and save some so I have something to read during my me time.
He has this 27 deep questions that will improve your self awareness. And I try them because why not?
****What am I good at?****
*Hmm, I’m a good eater, I won’t deny that. Hahaha. In fact I eat a lot more than my partner, I have such a good appetite 😂*
****What am I so-so at?****
*I am so-so at cooking. Sometimes good. But of course I have to cook for my partner and kids 😂*
****What am I bad at?****
*Hmm, I am definitely bad at pretending. Hahah . I eventually get caught 😂*
****What makes me tired?****
*Sitting all day at work because it triggers my scoliosis. Half of the day at work, I already feel back pain.*
****How much sleep do I need?****
*Oh myyyy. A lot, but not forever yet. Hahah Well I have insomnia, and if I cannot sleep at 8 or 9 pm in the evening I would be wide awake until the next morning. I don’t know why but that is my sleeping cycle and worst is I suffer from it for almost a week. That is why as much as possible I have to sleep early so insomnia won’t visit me.*
****What is the most important thing in my life?****
*Thing, I thought first of my phone so maybe it’s the most important thing for me. We have to accept it that our phone is one of our basic needs today because aside for communication we are more on online transactions today may it be banking or paying online, due to pandemic to avoid crowded places.*
****Who are the most important people in my life?****
*No doubt, my family. ❤️*
****What stresses me out?****
*Hmm, my insomnia. When it hits me.. I would expect that the next 3-5 days would be stressful.*
****What motivates me?****
*My kids. They are my inspiration every single day. Our goals and plans are for them.*
****What things or actions can help me regain motivation after I lose it?****
*Just a kiss and a hug from my two little boys. It would wipe all those stress and worries.*
****What relaxes me?****
*I am relax when I was able to pray and talk to God. Maybe all of us. After we talk to God, our heart is so happy. We've got the assurance that everything is okay and gonna be okay. Talking to God makes my heart at ease.*
****What’s my definition of success?****
*Success for me is being contented and happy without having it all. You can’t have it all, that’s reality.*
****What type of work would I also do for free?****
*Community service and I always wanted to teach. Kids from neighborhood ask my help about their modules when the time that I don’t have a work yet, and it feels so light that I was able to share my knowledge. Aside from my younger brothers and my two little kiddos of course because that’s given.. they are the priory 😁*
****What are my most productive hours of the day?****
*Well, 24 hrs a day is productive. I’ve spent 8 hours at work that will give me a salary every 15days. I eat my breakfast, lunch and dinner which gives me an energy to survive the whole day. Sleeping 8hours at night is productive as this will be my fuel for another morning to come. Giving time for the Lord before and after sleep is productive. Anything in between, I spent time for my noisecash and readcash, of course it makes my day productive as well.*
****What’s my favorite way of learning?****
*Reading your articles of course. Since I joined readcash, I’ve learn a lot. I have read articles that is inspiring, creepy, sad, happy, and about God. And visiting my readcash becomes a habit.*
*But real life experiences is still the best learning.*
****How do I want others to see me?****
*I wanted them to see me that I am not a person to be taken for granted, I am very kind before to every single relative not until that time I realize that I am taken for granted. That’s why I choose people to stay in my life, may you be a friend or a relative. It doesn’t matter if I have a few one as long as they are the ones who truly care, value and love me.*
****What behaviors do I not like about other people?****
*Just like the above question, I don’t like people who will take you for granted, just because they want or need something from you, they are great pretenders. Lying and insensitive ones are a no no for me too.*
****What makes me sad?****
*When a family member is sick.*
****How do I manage negative thoughts and feelings?****
*Prayer. It really is powerful.*
****What makes me happy?****
*My family. They are my source of happiness.*
****What makes me afraid?****
*Losing someone I love.*
****What makes me angry?****
*I get angry when someone or something disturbs me in the middle of my me time and I hate waiting. But "Filipino time" is a thing to almost everyone.*
****What type of friend do I want to be?****
*I wanted to be a supportive friend, because that’s what it should be. But of course, with a limit.. I don’t want to support you if I know if it is not good for you.. I’ll give you advice and precautions of course.*
****What do I think about myself?****
*I have the perseverance and a positive attitude.*
****What things do I value in life?****
*I value my health, my family, my reputation and I value my relationship with God. These are more of values than money.*
****Is there something in my life that I’m taking for granted?****
*Yes, sometimes I take time for granted. Not until I dreamed of my partner dies that I realized to make the most of my time. Showing my love to the people who are dear to me., appreciate the littlest thing in life.*
****What do I respect about myself?****
*My reputation, values and my relationship with God.*
Thank you everyone for reading. I enjoy answering these 27 questions from Darius Foroux. I hope you will too 😉
Have a great day!
P.S. please give your self a time to relax if your body needed it to. I am glad I took a leave today because I was able to relax.
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A bad dream
*Dream, a series of happenings or events in our minds while we are sleeping.*
We sometimes dream of a happy scenarios, sometimes a scary one where you are being chase by someone or something and you can’t run for your life because your trembling knees won’t allow you to. There are also scenes that you are flying and it felt so good, some are life and death dream that you know you are in your dream and just wanted to wake up to escape from those evil creatures. But what if you dream about someone you love die? Yes, I just experience this one last night. And I wanted to share it with you here. It was just a quick dream but I cried a lot when I wake up.
Me, my partner and his Mom who just passed away last July 16 this year were in my dream last night. We are having a video call, my partner was in his work, I am in my apartment and Mom was abroad and we are having a fun chitchats when suddenly someone came to my partner and shot his head with a gun twice. I was able to witness that scene in my dream. That dream was quick that I was able to wake up holding my breath and crying. It seems real and I can’t take it. I quickly sent a message to my partner, it was 1:29 am when I woke up with that bad dream. He was active 1 hour ago as seen in my messenger and he was not able to send me a goodnight chat that made me feel worried. I was not able to get back to sleep and since I am really affected about my dream I tried to research about its meaning while also waiting for my partner’s reply since I sent him a message in regards to my dream. These are some of the meaning about dreaming of your partner die.
• Dreaming about your partner dying can represent a deep internal change, transformation, self-discovery and very good advancement in your life. You are going through a transition phase that makes you more receptive and spiritual. Great changes await you. You will make a new start by leaving the past behind. You may dream of your partner dying if you are about to get married or divorced, get a promotion or move to a new country.
• Dreaming about your partner dying: a symbol of immaturity
• Metaphorically, dreaming about your partner dying can be seen as the end of your old habits, eccentricities, destructive behaviour or other facets of your personality. Dreaming of your partner dying is therefore not a physical death, but rather the end of something. In these dreams, the thing that dies is represented by one of the details surrounding you.
• Dreaming about your partner dying: a wake-up call
• The scary nature of death in a dream can be, by itself, a warning. Dreaming about your partner dying is your unconscious mind’s way of getting your attention. You are having a problem in your waking life that necessitates your complete attention. No need to run away, it is time to take responsibility.
Source: http://dreamyobsession.com/what-does-dreaming-of-your-partner-dying-mean/
These are some of the many meanings I found during my research last night because I was too afraid. I was able to sleep after research and was able to wake up again at 3am and receive a chat from my partner, it was a relief. We talked about it in the morning and he said there is nothing to worry about because he is okay and that it was just a dream. And since Mom who just passed away was in my dream too, my partner said to offer a prayer for her and I agreed. I’ll drop by at the church this afternoon after work to offer my prayer for her.
That was indeed a scary dream. Imagine seeing the one you love die? I know death is irreversible and I believe that God only knows when, where or how will your life ends. But dreaming about it scared me to death. I just can’t afford to lose someone I love.
Thank you for reading everyone. I am feeling okay now. This dream made me realize to not take advantage of everything. Time, someone’s effort and love should be appreciated. Tell someone you love how you love them their dearly everyday, be kind to anyone. Because you never know how much time left we have in this world.
A recap
It’s been five or six days since the last article that I published hear in read. I can’t really think and focus in writing article that is why I spend more time reading.
Anyways, since I cannot think of what to write, let me just share you about anything in between my 5 days absent here in read. 😂 Please bear with me for I will only share those that I can clearly remember. 😁
*Allergy Attack*
Earlier last week, I’ve been dealing with my allergies. I did not take citirizine for my allergies kaya no to chicken and any food that can trigger it. Huhuh I can’t live a day without chicken. Hahahha. Tiis tiis muna. Kaya on the go ulam ko is hotdog, fish, pork BBQ and sometimes fish crackers (chichirya) 😂.
My daily weekdays routine is to go to work and get back home. Hahah nothing special in between. Of course my work is really stressful, hirap mag back office, nakaka trigger ng scolio 😂
Saturday is the most exciting day of the week since uwian na ng province. Wala muna pasalubong sa mga kiddos, wala pang sahod 😁 My partner and I got home at around 9:30 pm, and kids were sound asleep already. The eldest is in my aunt’s house while the younger one is in my mother’s. My partner get them so they can sleep with us. Of course 2 nights lang kami magkatabi matulog sa gabi in the whole week and that is Saturday and Sunday night, wa have to make it sulit.
In the morning, I really tried to make an article but I cannot think of any, maybe because my mind is set to “family time” during weekends. Yes, since it’s the only time we have for the kids, just a day during the whole week, so we make the most out of it. So, the ending is I was not able to write again. And just having fun with the kids. We let them play outside with their bike. And I teach them for at least 1hour in the morning, just a recap of the basic like ABC's, colours, shapes, vowel letters, etc. And of course writing their names. I am confident with kuya since attentive siya sa lessons and eager to learn. My problem is my youngest since he is really into playing, and will just say he is tired when it's study time but of course I won't tolerate such. He has to study of course. The reason that I only allocate 1 hour for their study because kids easily gets bored.
Balik eskwela na Naman. My eldest son is going kindergarten already and we are really stuck in the decision whether I stop working and give time for the kids since they really need guidance for their modules. Hirap ng panahon ngayon, iba Kasi talaga kapag may teacher na nagtuturo sa mga bata. And 1 day a week is not enough time to do the modules, as much as possible I want my son to learn kaya it’s either I have to sacrifice my work. My partner and I have talked about it already and we are considering to just end my contract at work so I can focus on kids education which I think is worth it. Since madiskarte din Naman akong nanay, hahahha negosyo muna siguro para at least may pagkaka abalahan din. I have done online selling, sari sari store, loading business, at kung ano ano pa basta hindi lang illegal, eh ‘yong ice candy ko nga miss na ng mga kids sa amin 😂 And aside from that, I really need a therapy for my scoliosis. This is also one of the reason to stop working, sitting all day at work triggered it. I have to do the therapy that my cousin offered me months ago. It’s free kaya why not?
Maybe that’s for today mga ka read. Thank you for your time. I promise to do better.
Stay healthy and God bless us!
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Blessings and Hopes
9/08/2021
It's midweek and Mama Mary's birthday. Happy birthday Mama Mary, thank you for all the blessings and new hopes everyday. I may not be able to visit you this time of the year, but I reminisce those memories when I was able to visit you on your birthday when I was still in my previous company since we always offer a prayer for you and we believe in your miracles. Gotta watch live mass later.
Since it is Mama Mary's birthday, I just wanted to write about blessings and new hopes ❤️
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
Lyrics from: Blessings (Laura Story)
*Blessing*
Blessing happens everyday. From the time we wake up in the morning. To be able to get home safe from work, a 3x a day meal, having a work that can feed your family. Having a good health knowing that we are facing a global pandemic is a blessing. Having a few friends but genuine ones is a blessing. Having a partner/husband who is very supportive, caring and loving is indeed a blessing. Having a supportive extended family, having a sister and brothers who you can laugh with over silly things and to whom you can share your problems is a blessing. Having a perfectly imperfect parents is indeed a great blessing.
Everyday is a blessing that we sometimes forgot to thank God for it. Writing this article made me realize how blessed I am. From now on, I will be counting my blessings rather than the problems I will be facing today and in the future.
What about you? Are you counting your blessings more than your problems? I admit that I forgot to pray sometimes before I go to sleep. I was not able to thank God for my everyday blessing and I was not able to talk to Him in silent this past few days. This article will be my reminder to be grateful every single day.
*Hopes*- e feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen. (Definition from Oxford Languages)
Of course each one of us have hopes. We have ambitions and desires. We have dreams that we wanted to achieve. Let me share with you my hopes before we bid goodbye to year 2021:
*****House roofing*****- my partner and I plan to save money for our house this year. At least for roofing so we can have a comfortable space to sleep. Our living area is our on the go sleeping place as of this moment. Since we really are in a tight budget right now, I thank my family for their support emotionally, spiritually and financially especially their help with our kids.
*****Redeem my jewelries*****- 😁😁😁 yes this is one of my goal. I have my necklace, earrings and ring guarded in the pawnshop 😂😂😂 nakakatulong po talaga ang mga alahas sa oras Ng kagipitan 😁 a good investment indeed. These items are my reward for myself, so I won't give them up. Hahahah.
*****More BCH and sponsors to come*****- yes, hopefully. 🙏
Read more articles everyday is also one of these. For the past few days, I enjoyed reading than writing articles and I don't know why.. hahahah maybe because I am inspired and I enjoyed the articles shared by these amazing writers.
Anyways, thank you soo much to my sponsors @Bloghound @BreadChamp @MissJo you really are my inspiration to write more and of course read more. Thank you soo much for your support and God will fold your blessings a hundred times because it's a well deserved.
And the last but never the least, this is all what we are hoping for, for the better days to come. We are all hoping for *****healing*****, for this pandemic to end so we can enjoy life without precautions just like before. Better days are coming, not now but I believe soon. I have hopes in God and I trust Him. His ways are better than ours and there are reasons why we are facing this pandemic today.
Thank you for reading and may we be reminded to count our blessings and to have hopes for better days.
Monday blues
Hi mga Ka read.. It’s been two days I think that I was not able to post since it’s weekend and as much as possible I would love to spend my time with my partner and my kids because it’s the only time that we can hang out in the whole week. One day day off lang Kasi Kami ng partner ko which is Sunday. And about the swimming plan, sadly we were not able to do it since it’s raining early morning on Sunday Kaya stay nalang sa bahay the whole day. We’ll try this coming Sunday if the weather would allow us to go swimming ☺️
And it’s Monday once again! This is my busiest day of the week since I have to wake up as early as 3am because my partner will be off early for work since he’s going to city which is 2 to 3 hours away from our province depende sa traffic. He’s already off at 4:30 am and I took a nap and wake up at 5:30 and prepare my stuff for work.
My Monday duty is a bit exhausting, I updated 5 books of accounts this day and my hands are really tired and my back hurts so bad. I’ve been really struggling with this back pain for the past weeks and I just don’t mind it thinking that I have this dextroscoliosis that caused this pain. But sometimes it really hurts soo bad that I wanted to just lay in bed the whole day so my back can rest. I just found out about my scolio last May when I got my medical as one of the requirements at work. I posted about it on my Facebook account and I have this cousin who is also a certified physical therapist offered for a free treatment but I declined since I already started working at that time in which I regret today because I think my back pain is getting worst. Some informations about scoliosis below for your awareness.
Source: https://www.eihmd.com/2020/01/21/types-of-scoliosis-which-one-do-you-have/
• Thoracic scoliosis: The curve is located in the mid (thoracic) spine. This is the most common location for scoliosis to develop.
• Lumbar scoliosis: The curve is located in the lower (lumbar) spine.
• Thoracolumbar scoliosis: Vertebrate from both the thoracic and lumbar spinal sections are involved in the curvature.
• Levoscoliosis: The spine curves to the left forming a C shape. This type of curvature moist often develops in the lumbar spine.
• Dextroscoliosis: The spine curves to the right forming a backward C shape. This is the most common type of side-to-side spinal curve. Dextroscoliosis usually forms in the thoracic spine, though a second curve in the opposite direction can also develop in the lumbar spine, creating backward S shape. This is an example of double scoliosis.
Symptoms:
• Difficulty breathing and shortness of breath if the lung is compressed
• Chest pain
• Back pain
• Leg pain
q• Changes and difficulties with urination or defecation
So far, I experienced the first 3 symptoms. 😪 I really need a treatment already.
That's all for today mga read. Thank you for reading.
Stay safe and healthy po tayo always ❤️
Excited for weekend
Happy weekend everyone!
As much as I wanted to spend some time here in read, my work schedule does not allow me to. Huhuhu my works starts at 9 and end at 5:30 and I only got 30mins lunch break and of course no cellphones allowed. That’s why I can only read and reply to comments when I get home. And struggle is real din sa pag co commute beshhh. But I wanted to read as much articles as my body and brain would allow and would love to spend some time writing articles. And of course in between those I spent time with my partner and kids through video call that is why very limited ang time ko sa read.
And now, another week has ended and I am So excited todaaay, last kayod for this week and I’m gonna go home. Though I only got 2 or 3 hours of sleep I think, because insomnia attacks na Naman but my excitement is to the highest level because I’m gonna have some Lablab time with my kids finally after days of stress sa work 😁 definitely they are my stress reliever ❤️ My partner and I planned to go swimming., let’s see if we can. No worries sa pag commute in going home to the province today because my partner will reserve a seat for me since he’s at the city. Sweet di vha.?? Hahahah so stress free ako ngayon and I am so happy because struggle is real talaga ako sa pag commute every Saturday Kasi Puno na mga bus. Huhuh. One time I was able to grab a ride at 10pm, grabe talaga ang struggle just to get home in the province especially weekends where mostly sa mga nagtatrabaho sa city is also going home sa province.
I gets busy early in the morning because I have to wash my dirty clothes and towels since I’m going home to the province after work today. I have my breakfast with my friend. Pakbet, egg and hotdog for my breakfast and I’m so full. As much as possible, I wanted to eat veggies in a meal. What about you? After breakfast I prepared for work and of course my pasalubong for my kiddos. Excited to see their happy faces later ☺️
Today’s gonna be a relax day at office also though may mga daily works Naman, but since I’m all done with my monthly paper works and for the BIR yesterday, I’m just gonna do some inventory today. ☺️😁 It’s already 8:30 at this moment, 30 mins. Before I start my day at work and I am currently waiting for a jeepney 😁😁 Sooo, may you all have a great day and a great weekends with your loved ones. Stay safe mga Ka read ❤️❤️❤️
Just have to add these pics. Hahah my workmates who are happy with those mangoes, they can get as much as they can 😂
A glimpse of yesterda y
Hi everyone. I was not able to write an article last night since my body and brain are really drained due to work. I have a lot of reports to finish because the deadline is 2 days away nalang. And I have one last report to do today and before I get back to work I jut wanted to share a glimpse of yesterday’s experienced.
This was my morning view yesterday, and I am soo happy because of the good weather. It’s been several days of rains and I am glad to see Mr. Sun ☺️ and easy for me to access jeepneys in going to work. I have a great breakfast with a friend and after that we went to her office and I make a tambay there for almost 1hour since my work is at 9 while hers is at 8, so I spend much of my time in the morning before going to work at her office and read some articles in read and noise. Well I enjoyed much because of the free WiFi 😂😂😂
Just before lunch time, the sky is so cloudy which means that a possible rain is coming and yes, it did. Before that heavy rain I went out to buy some for lunch when the rain starts pouring and it’s really raining so hard that’s why my jeans is so dirty. I didn’t expect that it will rain because the sun is soo bright in the morning that is why I wore that dirty white jeans, and yeah literally it gets dirty. 😂 But of course it’s okay since I was able to grab a lunch, my favourite siomai sa tisa 🥰 it’s worth it. See the photo below from Google 😂
Everyone in the office laughed seeing me in those dirty jeans, most of them teased me 😂 but no worries, I was able to clean them. And yeah, aside from those dirty jeans that stressed me a bit, workloads hits me so hard that day.. not complaining anyway ☺️ this is my monthly routine, making month end reports and I am used to it but sometimes my body and brain is not cooperating 😁 The day ended well, and my brain is literally drained yesterday.
I went home (apartment) with heavy body and my friend noticed it. Hahaha. We buy some foods for dinner so we can relax and sleep early and I’ve got a spare time at readcash and read about 3 articles because my brain is literally not cooperating. After dinner I saw this shared video of my cousin about Tito Boy Abunda’s interview with LJ Reyes and I gave some time to watched it. Hahahha.. chismosa lang ang peg. But I slept after that and yeah, I was not able to write an article and I am doing it today before I go to work .
And I still have a lot of articles in my notifications to read after work today. I will surely enjoy your stories, I'm gonna spare some time when I get back home.
Thank you for taking some time in reading this one. May we all have a great weekend 🤠
Oh "BER" months, my birth month!
Did you feel the spirit of Christmas? I believe we as Pinoy can feel it since as early as the month of September we are excited to hear all those Christmas carols. And yes! The spirit of Christmas is really here, especially at our office earlier where Jose Marie Chan’s song was a thing. And it is a great feeling to see the customer’s happy faces hearing those Christmas songs. It just feel so light and excitement for Christmas is really obvious in everyone's face. 💕
I can still remember my younger years where me and my friends plan for carolling almost every night during the month of December. And of course those Christmas gifts from our loved ones and from our ninongs and ninangs, and will you forget the exchanging of gifts that your neighbor prepared? That what makes us excited as a kid❤️ So sad that we cannot celebrate Christmas the way we celebrate it back then. For now, health is wealth so we should distance ourselves from big events and gatherings so we can celebrate more years of Christmas with family and friends in the future where covid exist no more.
Aside of Christmas which is still 3 months away, I am excited for this month because it is my birth month and also of my partner. What makes this year’s birthday special than the previous years is that we’re gonna celebrate it as a complete family. This year is very special to us because we're gonna celebrate a lot of firsts as a family. First, birthday that we are complete, Christmas, New year and of course finally we've got a complete family picture 😂😁 Yes, since my partner works abroad for 4 years, and that time our youngest was 4months in my tummy pa Kaya excited much kami 😂 that 4 years we celebrated it through video calls and finally we can totally celebrate it with everyone's presence. The plan is to celebrate it with family and a church visit since aside sa tight pa ang budget, bawal pa ang gatherings due to covid. The kids are excited and happy too, as if it’s their birthday 😂 I love their innocence. 🤗💕 I am just thankful for the life I have right now, God blessed me with adorable kids and a loving partner. What more I could wish for? Well, of course I wish for many many more years to celebrate with family and for this pandemic to end so we can enjoy life without precautions of getting the virus.
We may have faced a lot of troubles and difficulties and of course I know we're gonna face it in the future because that is life, we just have to hold on our faith in God. Christmas is fast approaching and we're gonna fold another chapter of life soon. So let's make 2021 a fruitful year, we still have months to do so, and with God's grace and guidance we can do it.
Let’s face this month with positivity and faith. May this month be a month of success, blessings and healing. Whatever circumstances we are facing right now, we should surrender it to God and trust Him.
Have a goodnight everyone! Tomorrow is another kayod day. God bless!
A Happy heart
Do you know someone who’s always happy and thankful in the midst of all the circumstances he/she is facing? Well, I know one. Let me share this with you, since I admire her personality 🤗 might as well we will learn from her.
*****A happy go lucky*****
• Hap·py-go-luck·y
( definition from Oxford Languages )
- Cheerfully unconcerned about the future.
- “a happy-go-lucky, relaxed attitude”
Yes, this definition fits her personality. I’ve known her for years since we are workmates and up until now, we live in the same apartment even if I worked in other company. She was like a sister to me. I’ve never seen her frown over something which is for us is really stressful. For instance, at work, her previous partner was proven guilty of stealing a large amount of money and was terminated. She’s not involved and is still working in the company up until now but still suffer of paying half of the money stolen by her previous partner. Like whaaaat??? Thats a big No No to me. I’d rather leave the company girl!
*****A generous girlfriend.*****
As in GENEROUS to the highest level! They’ve been together for over 3 years. Her partner was a van driver in Manila but decided to be with her here in Cebu with all of my friends expense. My goodness! They started living in. Since then, I seldom see her joined us in dinner every weekend after work because she’s always in a hurry to go home. And as a friend, I understand since she has a partner waiting for her at home. She even get a motorcycle for her partner, yeah again all expenses came from her. Until last quarter of 2020, I smell something fishy over their relationship. His partner joined this “rides thingy” and yeah.., you already know what happens next. That cheating thing you know. She never told me until the end of the 1st quarter of 2021. She slowly shared it to me. Everything. From the beginning until the end of their love story.. charoot. What makes me admire her because she just laugh out of it. I know that it “hurts” so soo bad, but her heart is just too big for anyone that is not worthy. 😏
*****Lessons*****
There are some people who have a vulnerable heart just like my friend. But please know that they are for keeps rather than being taken for granted. We cannot blame their personality because that’s what they are. We can guide them but we can’t change them. They are the happy ones because they never keep hatred in their hearts. I will never forget what she said the moment she opened it to me. She did her best to save the relationship, she holds on even if it hurts. Until the time comes that it hurts no more and she has to let go. That it is okay to let go of someone that is not worthy anymore, and that she already forgave him. Amazing isn’t it? Forgiving is hard for us but for her, it is not.
P.S.
For me, she has a happy heart because that is what I saw every single day that I am with her. But that doesn’t mean that she didn’t struggle. I believe she cried for nights in silent, but she managed to stay happy and positive and no doubt she has a forgiving heart 💓 💖
Thank you for reading! I hope you learn something.
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MOTHERHOOD: Where true love begins and never ends
`Juggling with yourself`
To all the Moms out there, do you still remember those hardships you encountered with your morning sickness? Luckily, I never experienced that with my two angels but what about those cravings??? Nah! I really love eating chicken feet when having my 1st born. As far as I can remember, I could eat all day with all the cravings and never vomit just like others. Probably enough reason why I gained much weight. While on my youngest son, it is really weird😂 I really love washing my undies EVERYDAY when I get home after work Hahaha .I was addicted to it. It makes me laugh every time I remember that weird act. And about food, I hate eating ground corn which in fact this is my favourite paired with (otan bisaya). All mom’s probably can relate regardless of whatever their weird cravings are. So much for that, whatever Mother goes through from the beginning of its pregnancy journey is never easy. With all those morning sickness, cravings, emotions and all. A pregnant woman needs your love, care and understanding.
`Contractions and Labour`
This hurts A LOT! Being on labour is never easy for a woman. With all the excitement to see your little angel, you’ll have to go through a lot of pain. You’ll cry and experienced probably the most painful thing. Actually, I vomit a lot during my labour with my second child, which the midwife say is just normal. But nah!, It really sucks vomiting while juggling through that pain. When I feel I was about to poop, I told the midwife that the baby is almost coming out, I can feel that! Hahaha. And yeah, here he comes!
What makes me happy during that unbearable pain is that my partner was with me, during my labour until I gave birth to our son (1st born). He was there when I go through that pain, he saw my face catching breath and all my hardships just to bring our son to this world. And that made him realize not just my worth but a woman’s worth. I can still remember when he told me “Dili jud lalim inyong naagian noh sa pag panganak?” which means that our journey during labour is never easy because he saw it all, and I am thankful for that realization.
`That 1st cry`
It is rewarding that after all those pain, your little angel is with you now. I cried upon hearing his first cry. Well, it’s a tear of joy, soo much joy, that after 9 months, I was able to hold, hug, and kiss my little angel. I have realized my purpose after giving birth. Being a Mother is tiring but REWARDING. You’ll have sleepless nights but embrace and enjoy it because they are not a baby for a long time, enjoy dressing them because the day will come when they won’t like the dress of your choice . Embrace all those hardships so you won’t regret anything when they get old and decide on their own.
`It is an unending journey`
Motherhood doesn’t just end after giving birth, or after you give them a home and educate them. Not even after they get married and have kids of their own. It is a never ending journey. Being a Mother is endless. Even in your sleep, you still think and prayed for them. You continue to pray for their health and success even if they are married.
Once you have that heart beat in your tummy, till you give birth, when they are infants, toddlers and ready to embrace their childhood, and of course their teen age days until they are ready and excited to embrace adulthood and decide on their own, YOU ARE A MOTHER. It never ends. Isn’t it tiring? Well, it is. But it is rewarding knowing that you gave your best. Your child is God's gift to you.
My life’s turning point
Hi everyone!
Since I am new here, allow me to share my life story that changes the whole in me. By the way, you can call me Ms. Queen.
**My ultimate dream!**
Working abroad was my ultimate dream after graduating college or even before. I was able to find a job 2 months after graduation while I was also busy getting the requirements needed in working abroad since I have a cousin who helped me a lot to get a job in Dubai. It was a slow process but on the other side, was able to enjoy since I have a job that supports my needs, and was able to send some for my family. A year after, my cousin went home in the Philippines with a good news with her, she asked me if I am ready so that I can be with her in going back to Dubai since a lot of opportunities are waiting for me there. I was happy back then because finally the long wait is over.
**The other side of the coin.**
Well, my happiness and excitement were all temporary since I also found out that I was pregnant. I got so devastated and cried for nights. I’ve been dreaming for this day to come but with just a blink of an eye, I lost it. I prayed and ask God for His guidance.
It was never a difficult decision to let go of my ultimate dream because I have a little angel inside me. Yeah, I know, I wasted the opportunity but I choose my son and will always will. ❤️ I lasted 5 years in my job while my partner got an opportunity abroad that lasted 4 years, it was never an easy journey for us. Being in a long distance relationship requires patience and trust. He is with us now and we are a happy family of 4.
For now, we get back on track just like before. I found a work month before he arrives home and now, he also got a job. It was a rollercoaster ride but we’ve got each others back.
I never *regret* the decision I made 6 years ago. I may not have lived the life I wished when I was young, but God gave me a life that is worth living. ❤️❤️❤️
@QueenOfHome
