Things I want to learn
Education is something that I value. For me, I think that knowledge holds more power than anything in this world. Of course, I know money might seem more powerful, but with knowledge one can find a way to make more money than ever.
However, today I will not be focusing on things that need formal education nor things that will generate money. In this article, I will share the things that I want to learn for fun.
Master a musical instrument
Note that I use master since knowing how to use a musical instrument is a bit achievable.
Exhibit A is me. I know how to play kalimba. But I am not a master at it. It means that I could play a few songs but only the basic ones.
When I first got the kalimba I played it everyday but it had been months now since I last held it.
Sad thing is that I bought a new kalimba as a gift for myself when 2021 ended. But I have yet to play it.
So I want to master it.
Mindfulness
This is actually a part of the book that my psychologist recommended me to read. It was a component of a therapy known as DBT but I was stuck.
Even after reading the idea behind the exercise, I find myself so lost. After all, I have been living life with so many things running on my mind at once that the idea of fully focusing on one thing is a bit difficult to grasp.
I still want to learn it since I feel that it would prove to be a nice experience.
Risk management
A part of bipolar disorder is impulsivity. So I know that I will always have struggles with risk management. But I want to learn how to better manage risks despite my impulsive nature.
I do not want to be too conservative as a risk taker since chances might slip through my fingers. But I do not want to be too much of a risk taker to the point that I will gamble on the losing side.
Actually, my past investments were a major reason why the psychiatrist was able to see that I do not have just major depression but rather I am bipolar.
Planning
A good daily routine is something that I struggle with but it is something that I desperately need. As I mentioned, I am bipolar so a structure is needed to help me become stable.
Being as go with the flow type of person is not a good thing for me as this has led me to many impulsive decisions that brought negative consequences.
So being good with planning is something that I really want to learn. By a good plan, I want to be able to establish a routine that I could stick with.
As of now, I am still trying to find a good routine but I hope that I will be able to find the right one for me soon.
Self confidence
I think that I have a heathy amount of self confidence but that changed.
I already started to have a low confidence when I got cheated on. Then the decline of my self confidence continued as I gained weight during the pandemic.
My self confidence recovered a lot since meeting my partner. But my self confidence also suffered since I got my bipolar diagnosis.
I am still in the process of building my self confidence but I want to make it so it will never be broken down again.
Therapy is helping me a lot in this aspect. It is difficult since it opens up memories I would rather forget but I appreciate the insights I gained during each session.
Closing words
Most of the skills I wanted to learn are related to managing my disorder. Well, I do have a lot of other things I want to learn but these are just some of them.
I do have things that I wanted to learn even before my diagnosis but I will just share it in a different article.
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