I'm Back
Look who's here again? Hey my lovelies, it's been a month since I haven't visited nor written any articles here. Yes, it's been long since I tried to focus on my new role as a first time mom. But for now, I am here to start again, I guess. I am here to engage as I really miss you all. I totally miss having a virtual friend that even though I didn't meet you personally but y'all already have a space in my heart. I miss being with the dreamer and incredible friend. Ow! May I receive a welcome greeting? lol. Christmas is coming to town, the feeling of the cold breeze touching my skin made me shiver. So anyway, since I have been absent for a long time let me tell you how my days or month went.
After knowing how difficult it is to be a mom, I choose to quit here (without thinking that I can't since my heart belongs here). I am still with my parents since our house in the city needs a renovation. With the help of my mom things go easily (well not that easy). When it comes to my husband, he will just visit us once a week since he was working in the city. If you asked me, why not staying at his parents (manugang) house, well I don't feel it. I mean come on, staying at someone's house is not my thing, not unless I don't have a choice. I already know how things work there since I was staying when I was pregnant. I'm not against them, okay? It's just that there are times that things won't go according to plan, decisions will always intervene, especially the privacy as a couple. I am also trying to find a job online where it pays really well. I mean as a mom I wanted to earn not just for myself but for my baby as a priority. My husband can provide however, it's always better to have my own. Ow, I have this job I wanted to enter but my partner argued about it. It's about talking and chatting with foreign people, no laswa or nasty things but it's necessary to be open minded. The more minutes you talk to them the more income. However, my husband doesn't want it so I have no choice but not to. I was searching for something that can be done online but I can't find any knowing that our signal wasn't that good adding that we sometimes experience brown out.
Last time I also received the certification that the city government gave me since I am a scholar and thus received an upcoming money since they are still processing it knowing that I graduate as a Cum Laude. As you know, processing the necessary requirements is not as easy, as I have a breastfed baby whom I really need not to bring her in the city so I have to do the pumping. I already shared with you here about the long time it takes to get the requirements since our school is like that. It's been months before I got my TOR and GWA, even the Dean's signature takes 2 weeks before it is signed. Gez! But I have no choice. For now, I am doing my role as a mom, still finding an online job and still waiting for the money that the city will soon release. It's been an exhausting month for me, yet full of new experience and love.
`I miss you all, those stories I'm excited to read and I will spend my time reading here.`
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Anxiety and Confidence
Happy Halloween my lovelies! Today is the day to visit our loved ones who have not been with us for long. The day where we can give our full time and attention to them. It's Undas so I hope everyone is doing great, what I mean is that you successfully do what you want to do in line with the safety protocol. Anyway, if you notice I am no longer consistent on making an article every single day, as I feel demotivated and unproductive, ow gonna admit I feel lazy too in thinking what to write or topic to talk about. I have read this article to one of the writers here and decided to give my opinion and understanding towards this.
**Growth and Mistakes**
We can't grow if we can't commit mistakes, I mean through mistakes we grow it makes us into something we never thought we are. The more we fall, the more we understand things. They seem to be twins. Failure is a stepping stone to success. It's these mistakes that make us better people and make us strive to reach our dream goals. Our mistakes tell us what went wrong and how to fix it. Everyone has gone through some of the toughest times in their lives. But at this particular stage, she learned to be bigger and better. Time and experience have proven to be the best teachers. Every mistake or bad decision we make has a life lesson we learn.Time is a way of telling how far you've come. Experience is a way of telling how strong you have become. We must learn from our mistakes. As a result, we create a stronger version of ourselves that is later indestructible. Only from the actual, experiential stages of your life can you learn to judge everything and everyone fairly. Some of us need to fall over the same rock several times before learning that particular lesson. Knowledge is wisdom. Knowledge is everything. The knowledge you possess will help you decide if the current situation is good or bad.
**Anxiety and Confidence**
A simple way to change your self-esteem is to actually examine the levels of acceptance and rejection you've experienced. We tend to focus on the negative things, such as people saying rude things to us or avoiding us, but we usually focus on the things that we easily overlook. There are more people who care about us. Take a good look at how many people in your life care about you and how many you ignore.Most people accept more than they reject, which should improve their feelings and self-esteem. However, if more people are avoiding you, take a closer look at why and consider making personal changes. Your stress and worries can exhaust others, especially when you are afraid.
**Accountability and Self forgiveness**
This perspective on forgiveness versus accountability is quite common.It is one that can be used in a variety of situations and is valid.However, in a lot of other situations, this binary perspective of accountability versus forgiveness can actually increase suffering and conflict and support oppressive systems like patriarchy and white supremacy.Those who, like me, are privileged enough to have their voices heard, at least enough of the time to validate this being possible or expected, only view forgiveness as an unfulfilling alternative to accountability.Sometimes, the only way to heal is to forgive.Additionally, it is not at all bad.In fact, forgiveness has a tremendous amount of power.Because of this, the teachings of every religion on the planet relate to one another.Since the beginning of time, people have relied on forgiveness as a means of healing.
**Learning and Unlearning**
Unlearning, individuals must confront and transcend their previously held beliefs, assumptions, and values in order to transform their practice.In other words, it's a change in who you are.Unlearning what I have learned, or at least being aware of what I have learned since I was an adult so that I don't make unjustified assumptions, is one of the things that I find one of the most difficult as I get older and probably have more experience.
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When Nature takes charge
A blessed Sunday my lovelies! It's hot in my area right now, and I feel thankful that even if we are in Mindanao we didn't experience what Typhoon Paeng brought as it continues to hit different places. It's heartbreaking to read the news about how typhoons took life. PAG-ASA stated before that there are still 7 typhoons to come before this year ends but look how strong it is, how about the next catastrophe? I hope it didn't happen, how I wish PAG-ASA would wrongly conclude about it, hopefully. I saw a video post on TikTok about the house that was washed away by the strong flood that ended up at the bridge. A lot of people saw it personally but can't do anything about it. It's sad to know how painful many kababayan are experiencing right now. Typhoon Paeng is not a joke anymore, it took countless lives that keep on increasing every single day. Animals that help for their living were also found dead, different properties are now damaged. I can't explain how difficult the situation is.
***Praying for Mindanaoan***
If you are not doing anything right now, just hug your loved ones, show how much you love them and treasure every moment. We don't know what will come next, we don't know how life will end and we don't know anything about it. As long as we have time to do what's needed to do, then why not? Typhoon Paeng made me realize that life is really short, things will happen unexpectedly, no matter how much we pray or wish that day won't come, it will co'z it's already written. There is a lot of pain, trials and difficulties will come our way, it's endless that even if we hardly believe it won't happen, again it will. Reality is painful and we know that, no matter how much we deny it, no matter how much we ignore it, this is it and we can't escape reality. I just wonder if only we could live inside our dreams, where unending happiness is found, where dreams all come true and where problems don't exist. There might be no challenge at all but how I wish, I mean after all what we only want is pure happiness, who would have wished something terrible to happen right? Ang saya siguro if we can live those dreams, where we can escape this cruel and unfair world. But yah! it's just a dream and it won't happen, not unless we have magic to do so ahahahah. Pero to be honest, if only I could, I'll surely stay there forever.
Furthermore, let's go back to reality, I also noticed that when Mindanao experienced this kind of problems, the media were kinda quiet about it even those different vloggers didn't talk about it. I'm not anti media or what, I'm telling what I really notice. Yes they released news, but it's different from what they do when Visayas or Luzon experience typhoons. All of the news is about it, but right now nah! Biased indeed. Nakakainis lang yung media and biased kasi mas priority nila yung Manila keso nasa Manila sila, keso ganito ganyan. To be honest, isang taong content creator palang yung nakita kong nag post and nag reready to help the Mindanao and that is MEIKO MONTEFALCO. Anyway, if you have anything that could help them please don't hesitate to share. Clothes that you might not use anymore, medicine kit, flashlight, food or any as long as it's given wholeheartedly. If you are planning to donate money, you can give it to the local government or any way to share your blessings. Hopefully, na matapos na ang bagyo, it already took many lives.
***Again pray for Mindanaoan!***
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Bride of Dracula
A cold Friday my lovelies! It's freezing up here which I really love. The feeling of the cold breeze touching my pale skin, shiver moments that's perfect for my hot coffee while typing my article and the swaying of branches though it actually messed up our backyard since a lot of leaves are falling lol. Anyway, since Halloween is fast approaching and I'm pretty sure, most of you here celebrate it and got these questions from google hahahahaha, wala akong ma topic eh. Without further ado, let's get ahead and start.
**Would you rather be the Bride of Frankenstein or the Bride of Dracula?**
I love vampire movies especially when Hollywood actors and actresses give life to it. For this one I'll choose the second option as I like having the blood or being with Dracula though they can't go out when the sun is up at least di ako mangingitim ahahahah. Sleeping in the coffin, drinking blood and having the unique ability are just so cool adding the feeling of being able to go to the tallest building and simply jump without any injuries are too pretty. Ow, having the fangs are cute as well grrrr.
**Would you rather go trick or treating with a werewolf or a zombie?**
I don't want to be late for these hahahahahaha so I would pick the werewolf as they are fast to do things unlike the zombie who walk too slow, if ever will surely be done the next few days. Werewolf is my type as well, those beautiful and colorful eyes, the cute fur and scary look they are. They are perfectly awesome. They are perfect for trick and treating for Halloween, no pagod as I can ride them, no hustle since they can run fast.
**Would you rather eat only chocolates or eat only gummy candies?**
Ahmmff, can I have both please hehehe. Y'all know how I love sweets especially the chocolates and I do love gummy candies especially those with a sour flavor. Wah! I can't just choose one as I can't lose any of these lol. They are way too tasty when they melt in my mouth, gez! it's heaven.
**Would you rather share all your candy with your siblings or your parents?**
Why not give my candies to them, I mean it's okay if I can't eat any as long as they can have it. I can give my everything to them, for my parents it's just a small amount of food and nothing can compare to what they give to me and for my siblings they helped me a lot and thus I can share my candies to them or they can have it all if they wanted to.
**Would you rather only have Halloween or only have Christmas?**
Can I have Christmas? Christmas means a lot to me, those feelings of being reunited with loved ones, preparing delicious food, buying gifts for them and even the feeling of giving and receiving anything. The laughter that every family shared, those sweet smiles and genuine eyes. Ow, gonna add the beautiful and colorful Christmas lights and tree. Those gifts below it that we're excited to open.
*Am I that weird? I mean I have choices that might be different from anyone else's. I love things that seem to be unusual and I like imaginary thingy lol. Something I want is out of the box, something that I think is cool and beautiful. Gez! I even wanted to see it with my own eyes, sometimes things or wishing it existed at some point hahaha. Katakot no? and ang weird ko.*
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In the Dark
It's almost the end of the month which means that Halloween is about to come. Indeed time flies so fast, that even I can't believe that I'm 11 months here. Just one month left then I can celebrate my first year anniversary. Gez! I never thought I could make it this far, before I keep on thinking to stop writing as I am demotivated and unproductive to do so. But here I am, 1 year is approaching. Parang kailan lang no? When @JustMaryel told me that this platform exists, she's the one who taught how this works and she motivates me at some point but for now I haven't seen her here. Maybe she's busy with her work. Anyway, since it's almost Halloween, I saw an interesting question from @Usagi so I decided to give my answer as well.
**How would you like to celebrate Halloween this year?**
To be honest, we didn't celebrate Halloween here, no treats or tricks just like the other places or countries. We haven't tried that even once since I don't know we are not used to it or it's because my family and our ancestors didn't do it as well. I haven't tried wearing a horror costume or even going to a Halloween's party. Well, since we are not into wearing scary thingy, so I guess we just cooked the food that normally presents during that time, binignit and biko will surely be on our table. Visiting the graves of relatives will be the thing we do too. But this time I can't visit them as I have my baby to look over.
**What is your all-time favorite scary monster or creature of the night?**
Hmmff, since I only saw it in movies or videos on Facebook a ghost will be kinda scary for me. Especially when make-up works, the bloody white dress, black eyes that seem to eat me anytime, long black messy hair that looks like it moves in its own way and how the people give life to it. Even before that's my all time favorite scary costume, ang lakas lang ng dating tingnan and it actually looks real to me lol.
**Are you scared of the dark? If not, what advice can you give to people who feel scared when the lights are out?**
When I was a kid, I felt scared in the dark co'z it seems that there is something or someone behind it. A ghost, or anything that would harm me, something that would move. I'm afraid to the point that I will cover myself with my blanket. But as I grew up, I realized that actually dark is my partner and now my favorite. I'm no longer afraid of it, I like when the room is dark, as I said it's already my partner co'z I can do what I want when it's dark, I can cry in pain, I can release all the suffering I've felt, I can think of things that I can't do when the light is on and I just want to lay down and sleep. When it's dark, I can be a person who doesn't need to smile and act like everything is okay, I can be the real me.
*To those who are afraid I can't force you to like darkness co'z phobia isn't a joke nor can give you advice. Maybe, just be who you really are. If you are afraid in darkness then find the light, if you can't love it then don't force yourself. Feel free to feel what you want co'z afraid it or not it's that what we are. Maybe now, you are scared but when you allow yourself not to, then it will happen in time.*
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It's just a Game
A dazzling Tuesday my lovelies! Another hot day up here that kinda changed my mood into irritable hehehehe. I just don't like the feeling of lagkit and sweat all over my body even if I just finished taking a bath. No matter how much I face the electric fan I still feel uncomfortable. Hopefully it will rain as I want to sleep or drink a hot coffee while reading an article here. The weather is hot as the issue we are in our clan vs. the other clan. Yes you read it right, we have chaos that's happening here versus the other party. Let me tell you how it happened.
October 23, Sunday happens to have a basketball league since our fiesta is approaching, so the barangay officials and even the SK chairman had an initiative to have a liga that includes not just our District but as well as different districts over the island. It's been a week since the game went well, district 1 came up to our place to play. One game to another, it was peaceful though there are times na may bardagulan but still manage to be fixed not until our Purok players and another Purok played that messed everything up. I don't know but every time that two parties played there was always a misunderstanding or even magkasakitan pa when they played. I don't know but it seems that they didn't like each other, adding that one of the other players is a good actor even if he just bumps lightly he will act like it was intentional. So here it is, last time they played again but this time it created a huge cause, it's not just a simple misunderstanding that can be fixed by the referees or the SK but it brought into something big that ended up in the barangay hall to settle. My sister (since I can't watch the game as I have a baby to look over) said during the game that it was too messy that they ended up punching each other, not just the player to player but outsiders already interacting with the issue since of course their children or relatives are involved.
Until today, it wasn't settled yet as some say my uncle punched the player of the other clan but no matter how we asked our Uncle he will deny co'z he never did. The other clan said they have the evidence but we haven't seen it yet and they said one of his nephews told the other parties the our Uncle really hit the player. Sobrang gulo talaga, and qe really don't know what's the truth about it. Even if it starts na mawala yung issue, there are people na nagpapakalat until the issue rises and lalong lumala. My uncle even came here in the morning as the father of the player that he was punch daw said to him this morning "Happy naka dong na nakasumbag ka sa akong anak?" (Are you happy that you punched my son?). That made my uncle angry, as it seems that the father tried to level the issue up, even if we haven't seen the video yet. It seems that he didn't want the issue to end and that brought us into an angry mood. Yes, I also feel mad at them co'z they end up coming to a conclusion even if it's not yet done. For now, my sister tried to accumulate some information as she was working in the barangay. Today, the Chairman will settle the both parties again, hopefully it will be fine. Ow, if you asked about the game, I don't know yet if it will continue.
***Lesson learned:***
`If it's just a game don't take it seriously not unless it was obvious and intentional`.
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Hot Issue
A blessed Monday my lovelies! Nakakapag chismis na ba ang lahat? lol. I know some of you are updated or not about the latest issues, where different vloggers are nagbardagulan na through social media. I woke up, picked my phone but my newsfeed and my tiktok fyp is full of such issues. To be honest, I'm not that Marites na hilig maki chismis nor makisawsaw. Curiosity kills ika nga, but I don't have the guts to watch all the live shows they made just to share what they think or feel about it, especially that they are included. So yah, I don't watch their live shows. However, I accumulated some information and let me share it with you.
~~Let me start with the person who's made this chaos, but this is based on my opinion only.~~
Wilbert, the manager of Herlene Hipon Budol and Madam Inutz, is generous enough to share his blessings with these two ladies. A man who made their dreams come true. However, there's this negative attitude he had.
He is the example that will show and share your secret pag di kayo nagkakaunawaan.
He's a guy na ikakalat yung napag usapan niyo.
He can't be trusted at some point.
He's the one who chooses to share everything in the socmed than fix it privately.
Ms. Z, a vlogger who has a child and had been through different tough times that tested her. A mom who had been cheated many times and now chooses her child and peace over that man who only gave her pain. She's somehow;
Easy to share her thoughts or feelings with someone who just met.
Madaling magtiwala though she didn't know that person well.
She's too vocal about what she feels.
Ms. Toni, a mother who has experienced pain in life too. A woman who had been cheated many times but now found a man who loves her and her daughter. Gone into different surgeries to satisfy her wants and needs. But she's helpful and family oriented.
She's willing to share her thoughts.
Mahilig siyang mag ungkat ng nakaraan sa past love life niya.
She link Ms. Z to his ex partner.
Di magpapatalo pero may pinaglalaban.
Mr. W, a man who had been link to Ms. Z. Some speculation said they have been in a relationship before. He is somewhat;
Hinihila niya pababa si girl and share that manggagamit daw.
He also shared that he used her but Ms. Z used him even more.
Ms. S, a best friend of Ms. Z but still fights her.
Instead of helping her she chose to believe the other side.
She knows her friend very well but chooses to fight against her.
She might get hurt about Ms. Z's word.
Mr. W, a vlogger and now a father of his lovely jowa.
He knows the issue but choose to keep his mouth shut
Easy to be with
Jolly person who doesn't care about the issue.
See? Di ako Marites niyan ha? hahaahahah. To be honest, wala naman talaga akong pinanigan sa kanila. I didn't unfollow any of them. But that issue made me realize important things. First, we should choose who our friends are. Second, never ever share the secret to the person we just me co'z we don't know that person will use it against us. Third, never be too vocal about everything, not all people can be trusted. Lastly, if chaos arises don't just cry, fight and reveal the truth.
*For now, ito muna and hopefully the issue will be fixed as soon as possible and hirap ng ganyan lagi ang lumalabas sa fyp ko. I will stop it right here, if you watch their videos or if you have any idea feel free to share it. Anyway, I'm not a one sided person.*
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Just Random
Happy Sunday my lovelies! I don't know if I'm the only one who feels productive today. I woke up not so early co'z I feel like the bed is trying to pull me in. But when I force myself to get up since I have a baby that made me alive. I want to do the laundry or even clean. However, my mother taught us to never do household chores (aside from cooking) when it's Sunday co'z it should be "rest day", the same as God did after He made everything from heaven to earth. Even if we have a lot of clothes to wash we didn't do it, at least we can rest our hand from doing it hahahaha (we don't have washing machines). Ow, I'm in the mood right now, not after my migraine hit me again. Yes, I have a headache that changes my mood from productive to non energetic. I wanted to just lay down and sleep co'z I feel that anytime my head will pop. Gez! It made me feel uncomfortable. Nakaka badtrip.
I don't know what to write right now. No topic came into my mind no matter how hard I try. Hirap ng ganito, di na nga productive wala pang topic to tackle. Not in the mood to do so, samahan pa ni Rusty who already forgot that I exist. Gez! It's been 3 consecutive days since he hasn't spent time giving me a tip. I already did my best but I guess my best wasn't good enough 🎶🎶 ay hahahahaha. Pero to be honest, wala eh Rusty already forget about me, sino ba naman ako para alalahanin niya, isa lang naman akong hampas lupa lol. I don't know if I'm the only one who experienced this, his tip is important to me to earn, however he added that demotivated feeling I have felt. Minsan naisip ko tuloy mag stop ng magsulat, co'z what's the purpose after all, I mean it's not all about money but we deny it or not kasama yan kaya nga tayo nagsumikap magsulat even if we are unproductive to do so.
Looking at how low the BCH right now, I guess it's 6k+ lang, bother me. C',mon, wala na ngang Rusty na nagbibigay ng tip, sobrang baba pa ng Bitcoin cash, I tried to look back on my article and ang baba literal ng income ko. Hopefully, Rusty will visit me later or BCH will pump high. This is my source of income right now, since I can't work as I have my breastfeeding baby. Though, my partner has work and we can sustain our needs, iba pa rin if I have my own money, it's not being ma pride it's just supporting each other. I mean ang hirap kaya pag siya lang ang nagtatrabaho just to earn money. No matter how small my income is,ang importante I did it. For now, laban lang muna, stick muna with this platform. After all, I still have the courage to do so, I still have the guts that one of these days, Rusty will visit me and BCH will pump. Maybe it takes time to make it happen, or even if di mangyari and importante natuto akong magtiwala. If not for me, why force? Pag para sakin then better.
As I look at the word count of mh article, I realized na nagawa ko palang magsulat right now ahahahah. I hit 600 words though I feel I write nonsense words or topics. I mean that no specific topic though, just pure random one. But hopefully, manifesting maging okay ang lahat and will fall according to its place, positively.
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Winter Over Summer
It's already Friday and we can't deny how time flies so fast it seems to be just a snap of a finger then another day again. I wish I could pause time for once, where I can treasure even more the moment. Where happiness and laughter are present. No pain, failure and disappointment, just pure fun. But guess? This is how the world turns, maybe I was laughing yesterday and today is the total opposite. But no matter how fast, disappointed or happy my day is I will make sure that I will treasure every moment and memory. Enough with my drama today, let's talk about choices that I saw last @Itsfarah's article. Let's get ahead and start.
**Sand or Snow**
I am living in the province which has a lot of beaches to offer, white sand and crystal clear sea and I'm already used to it. However, this time I want something new, something that I never touched nor experienced and that would be the **SNOW**. I wanted to feel the cold breeze, I wanted to see how the roof became ice as so does the backyard. I wanted to play like throwing a bunch of ice to someone. I wanted to experience building a snowman out of it.
**Dogs or Cats**
Y'all know I am a **DOG** lover, so I will always choose doggy over catty lol. I don't hate cats but it's just like I love dogs. They are fun to play with, they will bark at me when they know I came home, they can wiggle their tail and they can be my best friend too.
**Night in or Night out**
I grew up keeping away from going out at night. Just here inside the house, doing things, watching or playing. Right now, I want to go out of my comfort zone, where I can experience new things. I want **NIGHT OUT**, where I can go to the bar, drink all the drinks I want, sway to the lovely music, talk and laugh hard with friends. I Met new people and wanted to experience going home so drunk that I can't even walk straight lol. Wanted to put something new with my life.
**Coffee or Tea**
If it's a Korean **TEA** then I'll choose it over coffee. I once tasted how delicious it was and wanted to try it over and over again. Since I'm already into coffee, why not try tea again? I mean new taste, new experience.
**Netflix or Hulu**
To be honest, I don't know what Hulu is, I have to google it pa for me to understand what does it mean hehehehehe. For this one I'll choose **HULU**, again new experience on how to do or open it. New things to know and discover, so why not? New is good too lol.
**Sunrise or Sunset**
I love the sun whether it's sunrise or sunset. I love how beautiful they are, their shining shimmering splendid color but for now I'll choose **SUNSET**. I wanted to see how the sun goes down, how my day ends in a productive or demotivated way. I wanted to say bye bye to the pain, hoping that tomorrow is something new, maybe happiness, hopefully. It's like putting my hope, inhale positivity, exhale negativity.
**Iphone or Android**
I wanted to experience something new again so I'll choose **IPHONE**, I don't have one. I only have this Xiaomi Android Phone which is actually a great phone, has good specs and a high GB. For now, I'm content with it but sooner I wanted to try an iphone.
**Summer or Winter**
Since I chose snow in the first choice, so this one I'll choose **WINTER**. I don't like summer, the feeling of lagkit and init irritates me so bad. I wanted to experience shivering from the cold and sleep the whole day without thinking about the heat.
**TV Shows or Movie**
I love **MOVIES**, especially when I am with my husband. It would be a great time for us to just spend time together, enjoy the moment and the food of course lol.
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Tiktok Budol
How are you my lovelies? I hope y'all doing great as you are. How was the weather on your side? Hopefully, that made you productive, co'z here nah! it's Mr. Sunny who showed his shining shimmering splendid heat and maybe pushed me to publish an article as yesterday I haven't been able to do so since it's gloomy hehehe. Oh, I even wanted to end my day without making one but guess? I have to, as I want to share my nonsense topic here to ruin your day, just kidding.
Since tambay ako kay tik tok lagi so I choose to just scroll up and down to find some inspiration or even videos that would entertain me, as you know laughter is the best medicine and I wanted to laugh hard to ease the pain charot hahahahaha. I mean to kill time, after all I'm done with the things I needed to do, so yah tiktok gave me happiness at some point. Even if some are kinda toxic, maybe you also noticed it, if only you are into tiktok, some women and men right now are trying to gain more likes and followers that end up showing their almost naked body just to achieve that goal. Aside from popularity they are longing, they are also into salary since that app pays if I'm not mistaken. However, that leads them into bashing, which is I guess it's part of a plan, co'z why not? I mean after all bashers are the one who will make them viral. Even on Facebook I find it toxic, but I still open both apps as I said it will entertain me, and help me forget my problem for once.
Since I like spending my time in tiktok and products always come out from my fyp so budol naman for today's video hahahahaha. Yes, I am no longer using my shopee app not unless I order products from China since they are free shipping. But this time, I now into tiktok shop which I ordered some skin care. Maybe I already shared with you here that I love buying skin care products co'z if my skin won't like it then I can give it to my sister lol. Yesterday, I spent time finding products which I successfully made. Ow, I ordered a Kojic Niacinamide Lotion, sunflower oil which is a great combo I guess. It's my first time using it since I keep on changing my lotion. I also ordered a Seresee serum which is my first time using it as well, since I don't use serum on my face, just a facial soap then spf so I guess the result would be great hopefully. Yesterday my budol cost 620 pesos or $10.7. Guess what? I don't have that kind of money in my wallet since I store it in my bitcoin wallet hahahaha. Hopefully, I can withdraw it before the parcel comes or if not then maybe I can hiram hiram my sister's money lol. Yan kasi kakabudol. If you don't want to ubos your money please wag na kayong mag tiktok hahahahah. But you know what? I still buy the things I want even if I already had a baby, I mean some say I have to prioritize my baby right now, I did and it doesn't mean I will stop taking care of myself as well. I may have a baby but still capable of making myself satisfied, after all it's my money. It's not that I made myself a top priority co'z right now it's not, I made sure that my baby had diapers, wipes and anything she needed before I buy things for myself.
`Life is short, make yourself satisfied`.
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Deep Questions
When we talk about life, dreams and future, we have a lot of stories to tell. Plan that needed to execute and objectives that were set to reach the goal. However, we might forget to think that such dreams will make us happy or is that what we really wanted in life? Sometimes we want something not because it is our passion but because it is practical. I once watched in one of the Tiktok videos that mostly graduating students choose to go abroad to find a job that is way too far from the degree they got. They never care what people say against them, it's being practical since the salary is way too high compared to the degree of job they got here in the Philippines. Let's accept the fact that today's products are increasing, yet the salary never moves. Expenses are getting crazy. Furthermore, I searched for something in google that can save me this time. If you wanted to pick your own questions to answer, just spank me lol . https://journalsmarter.com/deep-questions-to-ask
**Is there something that you've dreamt of doing for a long time? Why haven't you done it?**
If I have something that I've dreamt of doing it is to travel not just here in my country but around the world. I wanted to try new things that are out of my comfort zone. Something new that helped me grow into someone who's not afraid of anything. I wanted to just let my body, mind and heart do whatever they wish. Ow, I haven't done it yet maybe because my money said so lol. I have my other priorities for now, her health and safety. If I'm going to reach that goal then maybe time will come and I'll make sure first that I have my family with me.
**What would you like to change about your family?**
Nothing at all, why would I change anything. I am already content and happy with my family, we encounter failure, disappointment and pain but we all stand as one.
**What was a place or event that transformed your ideas, thinking, perspective or made you alive in a new way? What changed?**
When my baby came, she transformed me into something I never thought I could be. She changed my mindset and helped me grow. She put colors into my dark world, she made me think impossible things will be possible and thus it changed my perspective towards things.
**What one thing would you do if it would be impossible to fail?**
That would be to build my family a house, not totally a mansion though. I wish it's impossible to fail but I guess it is. When we talk a lot of money this is something I need to save and work hard for.
**What is something you love now, that you never could have imagined you would like in the past?**
Sleeping late or at worst no sleep at all, as y'all know I am a sleep lover and do sleep early but when I became a mom I loved how I can't sleep at night giving my baby her needs. I love the feeling of playing with her, especially when I hear her laugh. I love how she smiles at me and looks at me.
**If you could invite anyone, living or dead to dinner, who would that be and why?**
Can I invite my grandparents from both sides? I want to experience having a lola who I can talk with, about life, love and even problems. It's not that I don't want to share it with my parents, it's just that I wanted to experience it.
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Alcohol please
Another week, another day to start the daily routine again. Another week to grind and work hard for the dreams even if it means risking our health. Can sleep late at night or worst no sleep at all. Do some work even if it's already over time. Stress from hectic schedule, hustle and bustle of work, and even the tight deadlines. Responsibilities that keep on adding. Overthinking about life and how it will be a year from now. This seems to be difficult when adulting or parenting hits. But at the end of the day, we can say, "it's worth it". How are you my lovelies? Oops my apologies for starting my article into something stressful co'z it's true lol. Enough with my chit-chat, let's do the questions and answers portion that I read to sis @BCH_Lover. Thank you for saving me this time.
**What you do for good sleep?**
I am a sleep lover, I can sleep no matter how noisy the background is, I can sleep wherever I am and can sleep more than the hours it is required. However, things change, co'z for now 2 hours is already okay for me and insomnia starts to hit me. I easily wake up to even the smallest noise. I even hardly fall asleep even if I already drink milk, and do my routine. No matter what I do to have that good and nice sleep I can't have that now.
**Do you recognize the link in sleep and food?**
They say, if we have a full stomach then we can have a good sleep and I guess it's true. Based on my experience I can't sleep when I am hungry but when I get to have good food then it results in a dreamy sleep.
**"Stress kills sleep" what is your opinion?**
I totally agree with this one, when I am stressed I can't sleep, overthinking hits again, those what ifs in and regret in life. Stress from not being able to accomplish things, from thinking what I did isn't enough and would never be. Stress mentally that affects my health and how I see things.
**What you can give up for good sleep. Alcohol or coffee?**
Before, I could sleep even if I drink coffee before going to bed, but right now, I can't. Maybe I'll give the coffee up, I want to try drinking alcohol if I get a good sleep or these two are the same hahaha.
**Do you think going early to bed guarantees a dreamy sleep?**
No guarantee at all, I experienced sleeping early way back then but don't have that nice and dreamy sleep. But there are times I sleep late yet have a nice dream. It's not a matter of how early of late it is, maybe it's about the peace we have within. If we are peaceful physically, mentally and spiritually then maybe we are peacefully sleeping, no worries.
`As a new mom, I can say that sleeping a short period of time already made my day, as I now have to prioritize my baby over my sleep. I have to look after her when she's hungry or when her diaper is full. Need to play with her from midnight to dawn. Spending quality time with her even if I am exhausted and tired, even if my body told me to rest. I might not have the hours of sleep I used to when I was single but at least I have her now who gave me so much happiness, who filled my emptiness and who made my world as colorful as the rainbow. Can have a good sleep or not. As long as she's full, healthy and happy then I'm fine with it.`
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Lap Dance 🎶
Happy Sunday my lovelies! How was the weather up there? Did Mr. Sunny showed it shining shimmering splendid heat? Or the total opposite? Ow, here? I guess it's neutral, not too hot nor too cold. Are you resting right now? Or keep on doing some errands, grind maybe? Anyway, last night I came across the @ARTicLEE topic so I decided to take a screenshot of it, since I don't have my own topic to write on. If you haven't read it's article just click me. https://read.cash/@ARTicLEE/id-rather-go-for-horror-movies-99c60d53.
**Would you rather go on holiday alone or with people you dislike?**
I would love being alone rather than being with the people I truly dislike co'z I'm pretty sure even if I have them I won't enjoy the scenery and even the happenings. I guess it's okay to be alone but not lonely though. I can make myself happy and satisfied so why not?
**Would you rather watch a horror movie on your own or a bad comedy with people you don't like?**
Gonna pick the first one, I love horror movies, this is my favourite genre and I can watch it alone as long as I have snacks beside me lol. I'm not good at telling jokes, it would be corny and the worst is that if I'm going to tell it to the people I don't like hahaha.
**Would you rather be alone or be with someone you are moderately happy with?**
I am kinda introverted but this time I would choose to be with someone whom I feel moderately happy with. Maybe that is the start where that moderate thing will level up into "my happiness". Why not give myself a chance to be happy coz everything starts at the lowest level until it rises up.
**Would you rather gulp a whole bottle of beer or milk?**
C'mon I'm not an alcoholic type of woman, I don't usually drink so I go for the second one. Milk will surely give me more calcium and any other vitamins that my body can benefit from. At least it looks like I'm living a healthy life, hehehe.
**Would you rather spend the next 10 years in China or Russia?**
Hmff, this is kinda tough but if I have to choose maybe I'll go for something that is challenging. I'll go with Russia, I want to see how they are called "The Sleeping Giant". Want to know their culture, beliefs and even how they treat foreigners.
**Would you rather be attending Zoom calls or meetings in the office?**
Since I love being at home, Zoom will do it. Besides, I don't need to spend money for the fare, have to dress well or even put on light makeup to look presentable. If I'm in my home I don't need to exert too much effort for it. Just a little change then that's it. No hustle and haggard from the traffic.
**Would you rather give or receive a lap dance?**
Ahmmff I can dance and it would be better if I give it to my husband to tease him ahahahaha. It would be fun, just by imagining it it made me laugh. He will surely you know hahahahahahaha grrrr (San ka punta to the moon, roadtrip, broom²🎶🎶)
**Would you rather lose your smartphone or car keys?**
I don't have a car so why can I have a key? hahaha. My phone is like my partner, I can't lose it. It stores my favourite pictures, my memories and even the file that is needed.
`Answering these questions is fun, why not try it yourself? This made you think of things`.
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A Parents Novel
We all have our desire, a dream that we want to fulfill that might seem to be impossible. Those wishes that we work hard until we can finally say "thi is it". Learning and experience are unstoppable, we learn from mistakes, we fail at some point of our life. This is not all about happiness and success, sometimes it's about pain, failure and disappointment. Do you have the guts to quit? Does it come to your mind to just stop chasing your dreams? If you feel the same, then I guess I am not alone lol. Ow, just let my mind and heart tell what it wants to tell. Drama for today's blog hahaha. Anyway, stop with my moment, let's get ahead into serious questions that I read from @Itafarah.
**What's your top travel tip?**
I love traveling but it's just rare for me to experience being in another place co'z money said so lol. But if I have a tip for those who are into traveling,
Please do some research first.
Plan where you want to go specifically.
Find a travel buddy whom you trusted.
Secure an amount of money.
Just enjoy the moment and don't forget to take a photo.
**If you write a novel, what would it be about?**
Maybe if I am going to write one, that would be about "A Parents Novel". A story that's about the hardships of a parent. The moment they where they experience different kinds of pain and happiness at the same time. Everything that's about their experiences and feelings. Just to let everyone know that it's time to treasure our parents, time to give them time and show how much we love and care for them. A novel that would surely give a moral lesson and everyone can relate to it.
**Do you call yourself a traveler or a tourist?**
Since I rarely travel, I can't say I am a traveler, maybe a tourist will do. If I am going to say a traveler then it means I visit not just one place or two but a lot more. But then again, I am only a tourist who visits a specific place for once then goes back where my place really is hehehe.
**If you won the lottery, what would you spend the money on?**
If I ever won the lottery and it would be a jackpot then I'll surely spend it in building our dream house for my family and for my own. A house where it would be comfortable for us, no need to go outside when the weather seems to be dazzling since we don't have aircon now. I will spend it in business as well since my mother really wanted to stop working and wish to have a small business. Some would be an investment so the money will automatically grow.
**What would you do if you didn't have to work?**
For now, I don't work so I guess my job would be to take care of my baby, focus on her and make sure she's healthy and fine. I would be here, looking after her. Doing household chores as well. Ow this also means I have a lot of money if I don't have to look for a job so spoiling myself will do, co'z why not ahahahaha.
**What's the most reliable source of travel advice?**
Google would do, I mean this is about searching the place, what's the inclusions and exclusions. The reviews and even the experience of the people who were once there. Don't just listen to what people say, co'z sometimes they try to ruin your travel. Research and research. You can also find reliable sources on YouTube as well.
`Would you love to travel? When and where would it be?`
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Right here, right now
It's almost the weekend which means time to rest. It's time to pause and unwind for a while. Time to relax from all the hustle and bustle, from all the hectic schedule. It's almost time to make yourself a priority again, well this should be everyday. However, we can't deny that sometimes we prioritize our job over our health, right? Anyway, as I mentioned yesterday, today I will be going to post about the DIY shoot I made for her 2 months celebration. I mean not that fancy but a simple yet treasurable one.
**~~Preparation~~**:
Before that day, I started to think what would be the theme or even just a simple design I have to make to at least make her 2 months memory. Since the store here doesn't have the number balloon which was my first plan but failed so I go to my second plan and that is a flower number. I don't need to buy plastic flowers since I have mine here that was used during my wedding. I just pick the flower and paste it in the cartoon. By using the glue stick I was able to make it.
I also went to the store nearby to order for the cake, which was supposedly 380 or more than $6. However, I added another 80 pesos since I wanted a choco moist. I chose a simple pinkish design that was suitable for the theme.
The day after it's her day, I sleep in the morning so I have at least a strength since I wasn't able to sleep well. I woke up around 1 in the afternoon and decided to go and get the cake. Change her clothes and put the design to start the shoot. At first, we could hardly find a good angle since we put it inside the house and the lighting was not good. We thought it would be ok so I decided to slice the cake instantly hahahaha (gutom ako eh). But then an idea of mine popped again and decided to reshoot it outside the house as the good ambiance and lighting are great but this time no cake as I already ate it lol. So there it is, I wake my baby up even if I just put her in the swing, change her clothes again and she seems to feel annoyed this time (ikaw ba naman kakatulog lang). Luckily, she didn't cry and we hurriedly clicked our camera to get a good angle, apply some filter to look even more beautiful. So there it is the results.
Most parents don't celebrate it, not unless it's 1 year, however, since I started to see it on different platforms I come to think that if ever I have a child I will surely celebrate it. God gave me her, so I did. Even if it's a simple one I make sure that when she gets older she can see in the photos that we were celebrating it. It's not necessary to be honest, it depends on the parents but in my part I choose to. I make sure that I have her picture every month to see her improvement, physically. Ow, my husband wasn't here yesterday, as he needs to work and Saturday would be his rest day but it's okay for me. I mean he works hard for us and I'm sure baby Myles would understand it.
*Time flies so fast, but as for now I am treasuring the moments with her, the moment that I can still carry and give her my milk co'z I like it or not, time will come that she no longer needs me like she did when she's a newborn. Masakit man, but this is reality and I'm going to focus on it right here, right now.*
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I Carve Her
Happy Thursday lovelies! Ow, have the dazzling heat up here, I hope your weather is fine lol. I wasn't able to write my article yesterday as I got myself to sleep and did some things as well for today's celebration. Guess what? Today is my baby's 2nd month. Yiee she grew up too fast. Parang kailan lang I was in the hospital experiencing unbearable pain. But now, we are going to mark this day for her as a remembrance. I can't post any pictures right now as we will do the diy shoot in the afternoon, maybe in the next article you will see how simple yet memorable it is for me. Furthermore, @Itsfarah saved me again by the prompt that she saw in one of the writers here, so I decided to do mine as well. Without further ado, let's start.
I was exhausted yet happy. This ***FEELING*** of mine is kinda unexplainable. Stress from not getting enough sleep, from the thoughts that were building inside me. I want to just pause for a while, want to just spend at least a week to unwind, no hustle, no things to do but I know it's impossible. As I am a mom now, all I have to do is do my part, take good care of her, play with her when she's not in the mood to sleep, cuddle her when she's cold, give her milk when she's hungry, change her diaper when it's full, kiss her and tell her how much I love her. I was overwhelmed with everything, I might have been drained of some things but my heart is happy seeing her smile, her laugh and feeling her touch. For now, what I feel is blessed.
`I will just skip the second one.`
Does having a baby make me an ***EXEMPTION*** for not being able to achieve my dreams? I mean as you know I was married at the age of 22 and have a baby at the same age. I graduated yet I wasn't able to get a job to help my family, I am a Cum Laude yet I didn't use it. I have a lot of unfulfilled goals, from giving my family a good life, from spoiling them whatever they want whether it's a thing or food. Am I an exemption? I guess I wasn't. I mean I might have my own family but still I have my goals, I might not be able to fulfill it for now as I have to focus on her but I will soon. I will someday somehow and if I'm there I will surely give everything they want. I am not an exemption as I have goals and I'm willing to do it.
I can say that my life seems to be ***HALF-HALF*** right now. I mean I have to do things aside from taking care of her. Half of my body is to make sure she's okay, while half is to do household chores. From not being able to take a bath early, late meals to not being able to comb my hair to cleaning every mess. I am not complaining as I am loving the person that is ***HALF*** mine and ***HALF*** the person I love.
I ***CARVE*** her in my heart from the day I know I was pregnant, I carve her the day she starts kicking. I carved her the day I first heard her heartbeat and now I carve her as I see how beautiful and cute she is. I will forever carve her, deep in my heart. Forever I will treasure and carve her.
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How judgmental are you?
*A dazzling Tuesday my lovelies! I hope y'all do great as always. Gez! I don't seem to be productive today as I don't get enough sleep again so what I did was to read some articles here and try to find another topic to write on. Luckily, I read @Itsfarah article that caught my attention so why not? Without further ado, let's get ahead and start.*
**What quality in a person do you fall in love with?**
I don't look for what's outside, can't deny the fact that I find some men attractive before. However, everything changes when I meet my faithful husband. Being faithful really means a lot to me, from being serious for the relationship to fulfilling his promise. This includes honesty, compromising, trust and even love. Nakaka in love pag mahal ka din ng taong mahal mo. It doesn't require anything just being ourselves then things happen unexpectedly. Ow, I also find him handsome.
**If “hello” were to be replaced by another word as a greeting, what word would that be?**
If ever it will be replaced then "hey" will do. It's like saying "Hey, how are you?". It's like telling someone how the day went.
**What is your definition of a “perfect life”?**
Personally, a perfect life isn't all about the mansion, lots of cars, expensive things and even property. Sometimes this is about being genuinely happy. Being content from what we already have doesn't mean we have to stop chasing our dreams. Being together with the people we love, seeing them smile, giving them time and treasuring every moment. Perfect life for me is when we grow our life into Him (God). It is when we know how to have a positive mindset towards everything. For me, a perfect life is being simple yet being true.
**What ability do you possess that you’d think others would find amazing?**
I don't know if others can find it amazing as I possess the ability of lying. Yes, you read it right, I lie by telling them that I am okay. By showing I don't care but I did. I lie co'z that's the only way I think makes my loved ones happy co'z if I tell them I'm not then they start to worry. It won't be amazing, is it?
**When you were growing up, which superhero was your favorite, and why?**
Some might consider her as a villain but for me she is a superhero. Wanda is the most powerful witch, who was trying to protect her children from those who want to hurt them. She did some unexplainable things that costs life, however she did it for a reason.
**When was the last time you said “I love you” to someone?**
Just now, I keep telling and showing how much I love my baby and I won't ever get tired of it.
**What would you do if your parents did not approve of your partner?**
I never experienced that my parents didn't approve of my partner as they know that we had a relationship not until we broke up as I don't bring guys to our house hehehe. If that happens then maybe there is something they see that is not good with that person that I am into. Maybe they are just trying to protect me. First thing I would do is to ask them why and what's the reason. Ask them to give that person a second chance co'z if their decision is final then we have to bid goodbye.
**How judgmental are you?**
Am I? Ow c'mon I might have my first impression but that doesn't mean I'm a judgemental. But if I'm going to rate it maybe I'm 6.5/10 lol. The rate will depend if I get to know that person, if I can talk or be with them.
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Your Smile
Happy Monday my lovelies! Another week to start our routine again. Gez! Today, I woke up early as my baby started to cry again, maybe because she wanted us to entertain her and she felt cold so I needed to breastfeed her. She keeps on waking up and so does I whenever she moves co'z I feel it. Since she didn't get enough sleep, I don't have a choice but to wait until she gets tired from kicking and decided to take her a bath so she can have a good sleep after. I am kinda exhausted today, aside from not having a proper sleep I also did some things in our house, from cooking our food, cleaning and even washing the clothes. This is not usually my daily routine as my family will help me in some things, however, since my mother will be on duty and needed to be early, my sister was in the City for their school activities so I have to be all alone by myself. But it's fulfilling knowing that I see myself productive today. Furthermore, this is not my topic today lol. Enough will my chit-chat let's start ahead.
*When I can't find any topic or inspiration for me to write I usually scroll up and down from Facebook or Tiktok but today is different. I find my inspiration by looking at her sweet smile. She made me think that I can do everything, she made me love my mother even more. She taught me to be patient in everything, to understand and care about everyone. She taught me to wake up early, to be responsible and made her my priority. She is even there when I feel exhausted, just by seeing her smile and even her touch made me feel that I can make things possible.*
It's okay if I can't get enough sleep.
It's okay to not be able to do things for myself.
It's okay to not buy what I want.
It's okay if I can be hungry every time.
It's okay to not be able to comb my hair, get a pimple and eyebags.
It's okay to do my work as fast as I can.
It's okay that I'm the one who suffers.
It's okay to look messy.
Everything will be okay, as long as you are healthy, as long as you won't get sick co'z if you will I will wish that I get that from you. Mama will be okay in everything as long as I can see your sweet smile, as long as I can touch and hug you. Everything will be fine with me, my dear. If you cry then I am here to tell you everything will be okay, if you get cold I can hug you tight. If you feel uncomfortable, you can tell just by crying, if your diaper is full I can change it, if you are happy then I will be the happiest mom too. When you come, everything changes, my priorities, my plan, my goals and even those wants and needs can't be fulfilled. Since you came, I am no longer just a nobody co'z you gave me the whole world, you gave me the meaning of life, the meaning of love. Your smile is now my everything, when I speak you seem to listen and understand me, I have you always. When I feel upset you just look at me and suddenly smile. Your brown eyes look too innocent, your face that I want to pinch, your pointed nose that everyone adores, your pink and fluffy lips I wish I can kiss. Your white skin that really suits you.
***My dear Aubrielle, your smile is my world and mama will do everything to make you happy.***
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Death
Hello my lovelies! How are you today? I hope you are doing great.
Today I am in a good mood as I read a heartbreaking news. I know some of you already read it on Facebook or in any other form in spreading news. This is about the day-care kids who were brutally killed by the Ex cop that even the teachers were included. I don't know what comes to that killer's mind why he did so. He even killed his own wife and children before killing himself. It's just heartbreaking, I mean those kids have a bright future ahead yet the criminal took it from them. Those innocent smiles they give before going to school are now cannot be seen by their loving family. Those moments that they shared are now gone but not forgotten. If I were the mother of one of those children, I don't know how I would react to the situation. I don't know how I can handle such pain, I don't know how I can wake up every single day knowing that I can't see my child anymore. I don't know if I can make it, I don't know if I can deal with it. I feel sorry for those parents who go through these hard times, feel sorry for the mother who can't kiss and hug their child anymore, feel sorry for their father who can't carry their child on their shoulders. Who can't hear them talk about how their day went, who can't hear them cry when they are not okay. Who can't tell them if they are ill. I feel sorry for the teacher who tried to protect the students but is now gone. Feel sorry for everyone who was killed intentionally. Fly high dear children.
There is other news that saddens me as well, when the debut celebration turns to condolences. When the birthday should be one of the happiest days yet it turns to be painful. When it should be full of applause and laughter yet full of tears in agony. When it should be full of congratulations but now condolences. As I read the post I feel sympathy for the family who suffers pain from losing someone they loved, someone who supports them and the one who prepared everything for the surprise birthday yet look what happened, they are the one who are surprised as their mother passed during that day. This tightens my heart so bad when I hear them sing happy birthday but not happy, when they say congratulations yet they are full of grief. I was hurt. Hopefully, they can get it through.
Life is indeed full of surprises but sometimes this is not about pure happiness but totally the opposite. Instead of us laughing in success, life throws us pain and failure. It sometimes challenges us to the higher level and think there's no way out there. There's no light in the dark, there's no way we can get out. But look again, how far we got dear, we are now almost there. Almost on the success we are aiming for, almost in the end where happiness is waiting.
*Dear readers, I know life is tough sometimes, but always look for the positive side. Encourage yourself to do more, and be more. We are more than this, we are more than anything. We are unstoppable and never let anything drag our guard down. It's okay not to be okay, it's okay to cry, we are just humans who need rest but after that "Laban ulit". This is life, this is reality and no matter how much we deny, this is it. Laban lang sa buhay, things will get better.*
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Won't let my guard down
Happy weekend my lovelies! It's dazzlingly hot here though bermonth is knocking around the corner which means Christmas is almost there. Yey! Who's excited about it? I mean c'mon it would be a great celebration with the person we love. Cook delicious food and celebrate it together, especially the giving and receiving of gifts. Well, it doesn't matter cheap or expensive, it is as long as it's given wholeheartedly. Nevertheless, I read an article by @Bloghound about what people think about us entitled "Do you even care?". If you haven't read her article just spank me lol. https://read.cash/@Bloghound/do-you-even-care-ef3d41aa
I decided to write this one as I totally relate from it where people can always say something against us even if we did nothing to them. It is like us against the world isn't it? I can't even understand why they can't stop ruining one's life, why they can't mind their own business. Why can't they focus on their own lives rather than thinking about the lives of others? Marites ika nga, but how does it really affect me? Or did they affect it for you as well? I am a kind of woman who won't deny the fact that sometimes it affects me in a way that makes me think I am worthless or something that I am lacking. It affects me in a way that I never thought it would. Even if I already did my best, there is always something they can throw against me, something that they thought it's okay to cross on the line without thinking how it affects people.
*I realized that I can't and never please anyone. I can't make everyone happy and decided not to do it for them. I mean why would I let myself be affected by those sh*tty words from them when they can't even do good deeds for themselves. Why would I let them drag my guard down when they are just nothing to me?*
They can't be happy with the success of others since they fail by doing it. Actually, I notice that Marites people always have something to tell. Something negative that they think will affect the success of such a person.
They can't be pleased since they are envious of what we have. Yes, indeed they can't have what we had, that's why they choose to destroy us instead of supporting us.
They don't want to see other success as they think we won't deserve it. They always think they deserve the whole world, all success, wealth and even attention.
They won't mind what they say as they think what comes in their mouth is the truth. This is the type of person who loves to spill wrong and nonsense things, they are good at making stories, from adding to removing for us to look like a bad person.
Right now, no matter what they say about me I won't mind it. I am what I am and only God can judge me. They might throw hurtful words, then I don't care. I won't let them drag me again, I won't let them take my life and command me to do this and that. My life, my rule. I might have made a mistake (as no one is perfect) but at least I know how to accept it. I'm not born to please everyone and not planning to. They are just nothing to me but a person who loves judging someone's life without minding their own life. They are just nothing! They only know my name, not my whole story. So why would I care? Why would I Iet them?
If I'm going to ask you, would you let them drag your guard down?
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Walking through Dark Graveyard
Hello my lovelies! How are you today? How was the weather on your side? Well, up here I felt the cold breeze touching my pale skin. Gez! I love this kind of feeling. However, I need to get up in bed early even if my body doesn't want to lol! Since I read this article from one of the authors up here, I chose to answer this question and answer the portion which is kinda interesting. Let's go ahead and start.
***Be a ghost or Be a ghoul***
C'mon I don't want to choose any of this, well who would love it? hahaha. Well, anyway if ever I have to then I would choose the first one, as I never wish to be an evil spirit who would surely cause trouble not just for the same spirit but for the living as well. I may be a ghost but I'm sure I will choose to be a good one.
***Live in a haunted house or live in a creepy castle***
Same thing lol, I don't want to choose the first one nor the second. C'mon who would want to stay in a haunted house where ghosts live, where things are flying hahaha. But the castle I guess is not that haunted, maybe the place is just creepy but no ghosts live. So I'll go for the second.
***Walk through cobwebs or walk over eyeballs***
I have this phobia of a one kind of spider which totally makes me shiver and scream from the top of my lungs. If that's the spider's cobwebs then I would choose walking in the eyeballs. That might seem creepy but it's more if I have to go through the thick cobwebs where I can see the spider that I do really hate.
***Eat slugs for dinner or eat snails for breakfast***
Snail is a good food especially during breakfast so I guess this is better lol.
***Meet a vampire or meet a werewolf***
I am fond of these two, the vampire is actually cute and so is the werewolf. However, werewolves are kinda aggressive and I don't want to be eaten by them lol.
***Spend the night in he spooky house or walk through dark graveyard***
Wshh! Do I have to choose? I don't want to walk in the graveyard co'z I might think that the dead will pull my feet and bury me lol.
***Carve a pumpkin or duck for apples***
Carving would be fun and I would love to try it myself.
***Eat all of your Halloween sweets or trade your sweets in for €10***
Since I am practical, I would love to trade it so I could have money. I mean at least I'm not getting a diabetic from eating too many sweets.
***Be chased by a witch or be chase by a zombie***
Witch can ride a broom and can cast a spell and I don't want to be an animal hahaha. So maybe, zombies will do as they aren't that fast in running and so do I am. But at least I can hide from them unlike the witch.
***Stroke a witch cat or cuddle slimy frog***
Since I wanted to get away from the witches thingy so maybe i would like to try something new and that is by hugging the slimy frog though it seems to be disgusting and cold hahahaha.
`We have different beliefs when it comes to Halloween, some people celebrate it while some are not really into. Well, I guess I am one of those who aren't celebrating it, no treat or trick nor a party as no one celebrated it here lol. Whatever the belief is, I respect it. Furthermore, answering these questions is fun, try this out.`
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Who's here again?
Hello my lovelies! Look who's here again? It's me Probinsyana. It's been awhile since I haven't visited here nor written any article as I am trying to unwind adding the responsibility that I have right now. But now I choose to be back as I missed you all, and in fact I want to be productive again where I can engage people through this platform.
As I have posted almost 2 months ago, I spill the tea about me as a new mom. Yes, if you haven't seen it, you read it right now. I am having this beautiful yet tiring responsibility. I want to share with you all how my life was when I chose the focus on myself and so does my baby. Maybe, some of you already know how exhausted mom's work is, especially those who are already mothers.
**Sleepless Nights**, can't deny the fact that way back then I really loved sleeping, my escapade in the reality where I can be what I really want to be. But now, everything changes. I have to spend more time taking care of her. Waking up from time to time to breastfeed her, even though I was too exhausted to get out of bed but I have to.
**Stress**, as all you know when a woman gives birth mostly they experience this called "postpartum depression" where it really needs pure and genuine understanding. Where the self -esteem became too low that end up sometimes suicide. I can't say I really have that too much but I'll admit there are times I experienced that I am doing enough for my baby, that all I think I did was wrong, that my body features change a lot especially that I am now into eating food since I always feel hungry whenever I nurse my baby.
**Body Ache**, I don't know of some experience it but I do. The aches that I have from head to toe, especially my breast where it's really painful during the 1st to 2nd week of giving birth.
**Can't take a bath at the right time**, this is so true especially when she wakes up early and chooses not to sleep and so I have to look for her. I have to tickle her and entertain so she won't get bored and end up crying. Gez! I really don't want to see her cry as I treasure and love her so much.
**Can't look when she gets vaccinated**, when it's time for her to get that vaccine I don't look co'z I felt the pain that she is experiencing. The needle that was pushed into her body made me shiver and wanted to cry. I may look overreacting but it's just that I don't want her to experience pain. But again, that's crucial for her to be healthy.
**She gets but I have**, this is not about the food that I was eating or drinks that I drank but it's also about the feeling that I felt when I am not okay. When I got a runny nose, so did she. That's why I am taking care of myself but it's still inevitable to not get sick as I have those sleepless nights and my health isn't that good.
*See? I am into something right now, which is new to me. Something that made me experience the other feeling, the feeling of having a baby that is half me and half the person I love. The responsibility that I have to accomplish properly so she won't suffer. The duty that I am willing to fulfill. She is now my world, my everything even if things change when she comes.*
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My apologies for being inactive for a week, as I have to prioritize my baby right now. I don't know when I'll be productive again. I'll be resting and focusing on my new role as a mom for now. Adios.
Not a Math Brainer
I don't know if I woke up on the wrong side of the bed or what. It's just my mind that keeps on wandering about different things. I can't even point out what and why I am thinking about random things, it's just that it instantly popped. As I experienced the gloomy weather it also made my mind and body unproductive. I can't think straight away even publishing my own article as my mind seems to be in chaos even though my heart is happy. I mean they are way too different right now and I don't know what to choose, my mind that made me sad for no reason or my heart that is full of happiness. Can't even decide yet. Luckily, upon scrolling my google drive, I have been saving this article from my one and only kabit lol @JustMaryel, and decided to answer it so at least I can make one for now. Without further ado, let's start.
**If you had a pen and paper what's the first thing you would draw?**
That would be a "smile" emoji. I know things are getting rough right now, not just me alone who experienced it. I just want to remind myself and everyone out there that we have to smile even if it's not that real though. We have to smile to make things okay at least. So when we do it for ourselves then maybe we can share those smiles to someone, that will surely mean something. Smile for me means to fight no matter how hard it may be. Smile means kaya mo yan even if it seems to be impossible.
**What is your favorite candle scent?**
I'm not into candles as we only use that when there's a brownout and usually we only use the white and unscented one. But if I would like to use a scented candle that would be the lavender one, as it will surely smell so good. It brings the sweet aroma to the whole house.
**Do you wear your favorite color often?**
I love pink but to be honest I rarely use it. I mean I love it but I don't just like to wear it. I am into black right now.
**What is the best Christmas activity?**
Giving gifts is what means a lot to me, even if I am the only one who gave them ( I don't receive any lol). I love to give things to my family as I see their genuine smiles and that already means to me. Seeing them happy is my priority.
**If you could go to any concert, what would it be?**
Ahmmff not a fan of any band or singer but if I have to choose then maybe December Avenue would be. Their music is just full of pain and love, emotions are there and I would love to hear them sing personally.
**If you could be the best at any sport, what would it be?**
I am not a sports lover woman, I do play badminton sometimes but that's when I was in high school and it's been 4 years or more I guess since I stopped playing it. So maybe badminton will do.
**Have you imagined/planned your wedding?**
Yes and it already happened. One of the most memorable events in my life and I will treasure it forever and so does my partner.
**Do you have a math brain?**
I am a finance student but I don't have a math brain no matter how hard I tried to fall in love with math. It's just that it's hard to love it lol.
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How happy are you right now?
A hot Tuesday my lovelies! It's dazzling hot in here as last night it rained heavily which is actually the reason why the internet connection was gone. Gez! I am still happy today even though I don't like the weather as we need to dry all the clothes and thus Mr. Sunny will help us to make it happen lol. Yesterday, I wasn't able to publish as the internet already started to slow and that made me unproductive to do so as I don't really like to read or write any article that has a slow internet connection. Nevertheless, I read the article of @BreadChamp and decided to write my own answer as well, which I can totally relate to. Let's get ahead and start.
**Have you had your heart broken before? How did it happen?**
Yes I do, not just once, twice or thrice but a lot more. I'm not being pa-victim here but it's true. It's painful though. It's just a puppy love of mine but I thought it's real and true love. I experienced being the "kabit" which I really didn't know not until his sister told me so. I feel sorry for his girlfriend as I don't have any idea but when I knew the truth I totally broke up with him. I experienced being dumped by a man, as he told me that he will focus on his studies but later on he courted my best friend luckily my bff didn't like him. Even though I experienced having a broken heart I still believe that the right man will find me and so it happens.
**What was the most important lesson you’ve learned from your past relationship?**
"Do not give everything you have", it taught me to not give 100% of love to someone as we don't know what will happen next. At least when we get hurt there is still a chance that we can get through it as we love ourselves more than that person. Always look for the red flags as it actually shows even on the first date, always look for something that might be the reason but don't be paranoid. Always protect the heart, mind and even the peace we need.
**How important is trust in a relationship?**
"Trust is everything", we just can't be in a relationship without trust co'z that would be chaos. We can't love when we don't know how to trust, we can be with someone when we don't trust. Trust is one of the key elements to build a strong relationship. If we choose not to trust then we don't need to enter such rs. Trust issues might happen but again, if that's in your past just leave it there and don't know to bring it to the next relationship as the person will surely suffer the things he/she didn't do.
**What would you do for the people you love?**
Love and sacrifice for their sake. When I love, I always look for what's the best for them, I always care and cherish them. I always prioritize their sake. I can give everything they want even if it takes my own life.
**How would you spend your remaining time if you found out you only had 10 days left to live?**
Bond with my loved ones, spend time with them and tell them how much I appreciate and love them.
**How happy are you right now?**
Can I say 7/10 at least. I'm not that sad nor happy maybe I'm just into problems right now but still I am blessed and thankful. I am trying to be fully happy but I just can't maybe there is something that hinder me and I just my mindset.
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Right age to get married
Been on and off here for months now and maybe that's the reason why some of my sponsors didn't renew. Well, it's understandable though and I didn't complain about it. I am still thankful for them as they mean a lot to me and to those who still continue in believing me, I really appreciate it.
Hey my lovelies, how was the weather on your side? If you notice I keep on asking about the weather as it may affect your mood just like it will to me lol. Yes, we got a dazzling heat here and thus it means I'm not in the mood as I easily get irritated due to the sweat all over my body. Since I don't have any topic to write about, I took a screenshot of our dear @Bloghound last time and thus I can use it now. If you haven't read her article just spank me lol "My Dream Leads Me Here" . https://read.cash/@Bloghound/my-dream-leads-me-here-477190b8
**What does your perfect day look like? When would you say you had a great day?**
If the weather is cold and I can really feel the freezing breeze then that would be perfect for me. Unlike the others who love sunny days, I am into cold ones as it actually puts me in a good mood. Yes, I love when the weather is cold as it means I can stay at home, drink some coffee, eat and just want to spend myself in the house resting or sometimes sleeping.
I can say that I have a great day when all of us are safe, have food on the table and can hear each other laugh. Dine together and just simply watch a movie on the television. I don't need any fancy occasion to feel great, what's important to me is that my family is safe and sound. Ow, it will be great and perfect for me if my partner is here too, just like today as he came last night just so he could be with me.
**If you could have one superpower, what would it be? Why that superpower?**
If power exists I would like to have the ability to go back and forth in no time. I mean having the power to bring back time or even stop it. It would really be a good one, because I can control an event in life even if it affects things in the future. In that way, I can protect my family at all costs, and can change things so I won't regret it. I would love to accept that power even if it costs my life as long as I can assure that my loved ones are safe and protected.
**If you had to relocate, where would you least like to live?**
My dream place, a country where I can feel the nature, the spring, greeny environment and even the cold days and that's no other than in "Switzerland". The life would just be simple but at least I can live the place where I really wanted to be, a place where I knew it would be great to live.
**What's the right age to get married?**
Personally, there's no right age to get married. It's not in 20's or 30's that's actually depends on when you are ready. That depends if you already are contented from being a teen or adult. It's when you are capable of providing for yourself and so does for your family. It's when you feel to do so. It's doesn't matter if it too early or too late as again there's no right time for it. Only yourself can tell.
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Being Sentimental
Hey my lovelies! How was the weather on your side today? I hope you got it not so rainy nor sunny lol. Well, here I guess it's a lucky day for me as we got the cold one. Gez! Who wouldn't love it? I mean the feeling of a cold breeze touching my skin, sipping the hot coffee and bread. Ow, I love cuddles as well, not with my partner as he is far but a cuddle from my sister's cat ehehehe. While I write this one, it starts to rain again and as a cold lover I also use our fan even though it's already freezing here. Wanna want my blanket and sleep lol. Since I've been unproductive these following days, I decided to write my own article even though I really don't have the exact topic. I mean I just let my heart and mind speak. So here we go.
***How sentimental are you?*** Are you the one who keeps things that were given to the one you love? Are you a keeper? Co'z I am. Yes, you read it right, I am a woman who will keep the things that my partner gave me when we were still dating. I still have those gifts he gave me and put it in the box. I also have some left in their house where I usually read the letter and thus it brings me back to the old days. Our plan, our promises and our love. It was overwhelming. Writing this one made me fall in love with him over and over again. As of today, I've been arranging the flowers that I will use during our wedding. Yes, you read it right again, I was pasting it in the bond paper and made a simple design but it was actually lacking a frame as I haven't bought it yet. Hopefully, I can today so I could display it here. Those gifts are a reminder for me, when things got worse and we got into a fight I would just open or look into that gift and thus it reminds me of everything. I got a;
****Teddy bear.**** I have that teddy bear that came from my partner as he knows I love to hug it though it is not that big, but still I treasure it but sometimes my niece borrowed it for her to play and I just let her and remind her to take good care of it as it means a lot to me.
****Flower****. I actually have those plastic and real flowers that he gave me, but sad to say the notebook where I put the dried flower is missing but I still have the plastic one.
****Wishing bottle****. It contains all his wishes for me and for us. That thing was actually in his house and I read it when I missed him and that means to me.
****Letters****. I keep all his letters and read them every time. I just want to remind myself how he loves me and does so for me.
****Picture****. We actually have an album where I keep all our pictures together but it's been awhile since I haven't got the chance to print all the pictures and only a few photos I did. I guess that's when we are in our 1st year of college.
`I am a keeper and would love to keep things as it pleases me. Yes, I feel happy when I still keep those gifts from someone I really adore. Just like loving the person, I also love the things he gave me. I will keep it as hard as I can as I don't want to miss those gifts. He means a lot to me and so do his gifts.`
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20-Minutes
Hey my lovelies! How was the weather on your side today? Here? It's gloomy and it's been days since we experienced this one, but of course who wouldn't love the feeling of the cold breeze. As you noticed I haven't been able to publish yesterday even if it's the first day of the month since I am too unmotivated to do so. Yes, again and I don't even have a valid reason. Nevertheless, I saw this interesting questions from @Olasquare entitled "Pub Discussion Series", if you haven't read his article just click me. https://read.cash/notifications/eyJpdiI6ImRKSnhuN3pOcWp0elZNQTl6TG11ZVE9PSIsInZhbHVlIjoiZnlpbHFPQmhOa1VlZm1qdjZwTVNlUT09IiwibWFjIjoiYjlkMzkxYTMzZmU2MmE3MzE0NWVlZjk2NGJjZWE3NjUzZDczMDQ2YWJlOTBhNjg0ZWNhNGQ3MDZjMTMxNDZlMSIsInRhZyI6IiJ9
**Everyone of us must have had a first job, how did you spend your first job income?**
I started working when I was in third year college as a house maid. Yes, you read it right, it was not a good choice though but I have to add that they pay me well. It was an online class so I don't have to worry about my class schedule. They also volunteered to pay my tuition so it's gonna be free for me. All the work is tiring yet I survived for almost a year. I actually am not planning to stop but since I feel too exhausted so I choose my health over my job at that time. I actually spend my income buying what I want and that's when I started to learn how to buy things online, specifically shopee lol. I even spoiled my partner that time since I have a rest day so I chose to spend it with him.
**If you were made to, what topic could you give a 20-minute presentation on without any preparation?**
That would be about LOVE, I don't know but that topic seems relatable for me since I've been in various relationships and thus I already encountered different things and even behaviour that really put the relationship to an end. I also experienced being in the toxic and manipulative one, so I guess that topic would really fit for me even if I don't have time to prepare for it.
**We do check our WhatsApp, Instagram, Facebook and many other social media for stuff to laugh about, what was the funniest thing you’ve seen recently online? ( Let's laugh with you😂😂😂)**
I do that everyday, especially when I am bored or even tired. I will find any videos that would make my day. For now, I haven't seen any yet but yesterday I was watching videos of a cat who rides an ambulance toy car and it accidentally hit the button and thus made it run too fast which made the cat go up, down, to the left and to right hahahahah. It was meowing hard hahahahaha.
**Who in your family are you most like?**
Ahmf, I don't know who actually, when it comes to my physical appearance, they said I look like my mother while some say I look like my father lol. When we talk about the character, we are too different from each other. I don't have that long patience, I have mood swings and easily get irritated with small things.
**What are the attributes you do have the same with the person?**
We are all different as we are born unique, so I guess I don't have any attri that is the same with the other person. I might have that character that others don't have or vice versa.
**What is the most challenging job you can think of? That job that you don't want to do ever!**
Every job is way too challenging, but for me I guess being a teacher would be, as I don't see how other jobs work as I haven't been in the city where I can literally see how busy some of the jobs may be. Since I am into school, I don't actually plan to be a teacher as I already experienced being one, I mean the little teacher which I have to do this and that. From then on, I don't want to get a course that would be related to teaching. Gez! I might throw a chalk in my students face since I don't have that patience that every teacher possesses. Kudos, to all professions who made it to the end. You really are brave.
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