Where is my Mind

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I don't know what's really happening to me to be honest but, I'm enjoying my time again in procrastinating. I mean, instead of doing this or that - here I am watching a short video clip in Facebook. Mostly just about anime short clips and then there's kdrama short clip. I'm rewatching my favorite part in an anime series just like in Naruto, Haikyuu or One Piece. Watching that again is easing the boredomness I have in me right now. I think I have to deactivate again my Facebook account. I hate being like this seriously but I'm still enjoying my time doing nothing and just slouching around just like a real unemployed b!tch na palamunin, lol.

I need to divert my attention again so that this boredomness will disappear. It will disappear yes but after a moment again it will go back again and in the end? I didn't finish anything. And you know a while ago while washing the dishes I am listening to my favorite music but even that, after listening for a minute it feels not right, so wrong, it's not that beautiful anymore. It is boring that even if I tap the next button for like 10 times now I still feel nothing. It's still boring and it's not making me happy anymore. What do you think is wrong with me? I feel like everything that I did is just not right. I mean, it's a playlist for my favorite songs but I feel nothing about it.

I feel like I'm drained even if I'm not that tired. But actually, my legs are tired for walking and walking this morning while I'm at the my Mom's store. My annoyance that morning because of those people buying is still therr actually. People here will know immediately that I'm annoyed because when they ask me something, I am so gigil ng sumagot lol. I just can't help it, I just hate talking really. And as I've said I'm still annoyed. Even the ice cream that my Mama bought in 7/11 is still not enough to ease this init ng ulo or my annoyance. Is this the sign that I'm on my way of becoming an old maid now? Lol. I just want a peaceful day but I jusy can't have it.

It's like the universe is mad at me that they want me to suffer, huehue. Sorry I'm just overreacting really. Even right now I want to listen to some music but because it's not effective anymore I'm just releasing all of my thoughts tru this article. I'm not stress but I feel like I am now. I should've just said yes to Mama when she ask me again to go Plaza just to enjoy. Maybe I can remove this unwanted feelings I have right now. But laziness is stopping me from saying yes. And in my head, I think once is enough already to go there. But now, I'm a having a second thought. I think, I will just ask Mama tomorrow to go with me in plaza. Just for a change of mood. I need that, maybe it will be different na if I do that.

Let me share Plaza de Bansud to you, I took this when we went there days ago. I think this view can help me solve this unexplainable feelings I have in my system. I know for sure that it won't be erase even if I sleep on it. For sure it will be the same again tomorrow so better to do something about it. And going to Plaza de Bansud is the only solution that I can think of. With the loud music and a different rumblings of a hundred of people there I think they can help me forget or what. I just don't know what I am trying to forget here. I can't understand myself anymore. Music is not effective, even anime and kdrama. I feel like something is missing tbh. I just can't pinpoint what is it. Aigoo, life - parang buhay.

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I'll end it here na guys. I think I already said a lot. It helps me even a little but I will try my best to be better. I want to sleep without thinking much over nonsense sh!t of mine.

Ciao..

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Give time for ourselves too, unwinding kung baga. Ang ganda ng plaza may swing.

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User's avatar Probinsyana
2 years ago

Ay hanep ang gandq ng plaza HAHAHAH. Naagaw ng plaza bigla atensyon ko, plaza namin dito parang lantang gulay na di maaasahan. Wanqba sa mayor dito.

Ako naman, since xmas break gusto ko mas maging active. Nakakamiss maging active dito sa rc, kasi once magcontinue pasukan ayan nanaman sa pagiging sovrang inactive hays. Nagsusulat nalamg me ng article para mawala boredom ko tas un nalamh papublish ko pagkanextday 🤣 since kakabalik ko lang sana di ako tamarin jusko

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User's avatar OfficialGamboaLikeUs
2 years ago

Lol

This feeling comes especially at the end of the year, I get how you feel... I'd recommend you give yourself a time limit to rest and get back to work... Time waits for no one

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User's avatar Semaj2k21
2 years ago

Same here sister I am also wasting my time these days hugely. I want to do things but am constantly getting diverted

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User's avatar Trofi01
2 years ago

I think we have to be focus if we want something to change right 🥺

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

yesss)

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User's avatar Trofi01
2 years ago

As music is not effective in this situation so you did the right thing to share your thoughts with us. I hope after visiting plaza you would feel better.

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User's avatar Itsfarah
2 years ago

And thank you for reading my nonsense rants 🙈

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Sometimes I really wonder what goes on inside your mind.. :)

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User's avatar meitanteikudo
2 years ago

Hahahahaha, buksan mo makikita mo puro lang foods 🥺

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

hahaha anong klaseng foods kaya yan? hahaha

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User's avatar meitanteikudo
2 years ago

Mahilig din ako sa mga Korean drama short clips sis. Minsan pag nabobored ako, yan ginagawa ko tas minsan nanonood din Mukbang videos. Naaaliw kasi ako dahil klase-klaseng pagkain nakikita ko.😁

Ang ganda naman ng plaza niyo sis. Ang ganda diyan magpapicture. Feel na feel na talaga yung Christmas. Ang ganda ng mga lights.

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User's avatar JRamona20
2 years ago

Hala the best yang mukhang sis savay8yong cooking show bet na bet ko yarn. Tanggal boredom din yaan ee hehe

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Baka malapit kanang dalawin atee ruru. May mga moments din ako na ganyam hihi. Kaya prefer ko na mag isa pag ganyan 🤣

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User's avatar Sequoia
2 years ago

Tingin ko nga rin ee hanap na dalaw na yaan lagi nalang epal ampy tch

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Falling back into old habits can make you think you're an awful person but you aren't. Sometimes what you see as procrastinating might just be a means for you to rest. That means you've grown.

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User's avatar DocLayla
2 years ago

I really need a rest right, especially my head I need to stop thinking much for a while OMG

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Rest girl and don't get so bored. Be nice to people. Hahaha.

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User's avatar gertu13
2 years ago

Yayy, I will OMG 🙈

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Ako rin eh, nagpapasyal kapag masyadong stress na haha. Pero lalamun rin ako ng nakikita kong masasarap na pagkain haha

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User's avatar Vincent21
2 years ago

Hahaha food iz lifuuu oii kaya kain lanh ng kain aba haha

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

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User's avatar Infinity
2 years ago

Ha? What? That fast? OMG oii, thanks 🥳😱

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Gala ka ate, pasyal pasyal ganon para ma relax ka.

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User's avatar BCH_Genisis
2 years ago

Haha gawin ko nga yang mamyang gabi sana di na tamadin aguyy

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

I don't know how to say this.. But I think I was reading this article with your voice in my head.

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User's avatar Cogamedia
2 years ago

Hahaha, it's been running in my head over and over that's why omg

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Don't waste your life on me you're already the voice inside my head... That song on your playlist.madam hihi

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User's avatar Yen
2 years ago

Teheee the best yan madams, alam mo din yarn 🥳

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

That feeling is normal. Maybe you're just burnout from the daily do's you do. Go for a walk and visit again the Plaza de bansud. It will help your happy cells out and feel refreshed 😊

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User's avatar Alyana
2 years ago

Thank you, That's what I'm gonna do later. Hope this time it will be effective 🤗

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

It happens. Sometimes I also feel like I'm draining out even if I'm not doing much. I guess it's because we pay less attention to our mental health and overall self-care. I wish you do your best ahead.

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User's avatar remona
2 years ago

Aigooo, you know I'm not really thinking much but I don't know why I'm like this. Maybe PMS is on the way now tch.

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Ang ganda ng plaza nyo talaga yung silew silew. 🥲 Sana malapit lang yan dito samin hays diko pa napapanuod yung mga ibanv episodes ng naruto last na panuod ko elem pako eh HAHA

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User's avatar ExpertWritter
2 years ago

Haha maganda nga ang daming tao gabi gabi ee dami ding food stalls 🥳🤤

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Madam kapag may jowa ka na di ka na mabobore, hehe

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User's avatar Pachuchay
2 years ago

Hahahaha, san ga makakabili nyan madams ahahaha

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Naku madams, free yan basta landi landi din kapag may time😂

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User's avatar Pachuchay
2 years ago

I'll suggest going on a trip somewhere nice, though your not fond of that pero try mo din minsan pumunta sa lugar an di mo madalas puntahan. Eat out. Para saan pa yung pag earn mo kung di mo naman gagamitin ngayon or kung di ka naman ganun kasaya. Trust me, I've been there, that feeling of being tired kahit umaga pa lang. Yung maliit na bagay maiinis ka na agad. You need to destress.

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User's avatar sc
2 years ago

Not sure sa going somewhere. Di talaga ako makalayas mag isa, need ng kasama if ever kasi wala din akong alam sa lugar namin. Pwd sana sa beach, malapit langs ana samin kaso mo katamaran iz real 🥺. Stress na nga talaga ata ako kahit di naman ako talaga nag iisip aguyy

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Okay yung pumunta ng beach, marerelax ka talaga. Kailangan mo lang talagang idrive ang sarili mo para gawin yun. Kahit ako nga ta taong bahay din talaga, dumadating din sa point na nakakapagod at nakaka stress na yung nasa bahay lang lagi. At least one every two or three months ka man lang sana lumabas at mag relax.

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User's avatar sc
2 years ago

You might want to take a vacation and change of scenery might really help.. Talk to friends you haven't heard from in a while

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User's avatar Talon
2 years ago

Hmmm vacation, I can't afford that now to maybe just talking a stranger will be good. As for the old friend, hmmm I'll try that

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

It's effective to me. I try hardcore music and I feel relieved.

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User's avatar Nadeen
2 years ago

Halos lahat ng oras ko sa short clips napupunta mare hahahaha Bakasyon ka mare para ma relax😊

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User's avatar JustMaryel
2 years ago

Hahaha same tayo mare bat ga ganon kasi ano aigooo

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

ewan ko din mare Hahaha

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User's avatar JustMaryel
2 years ago

Change your music style, try slapshock and greyhoundz. Haha

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User's avatar Nadeen
2 years ago

I tried other music too, Eminem, Yungblud, Linkin Park and more but aigooo. But right now I'm listening to Paramore and it's effective to me now.

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago
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User's avatar Nadeen
2 years ago

Lumabas ka at maglakad lakad at ng mkalanghap ng sariwang hangin kahit masakit na paa mo kakalad knina jaja.. bka mkakita k ng footlong e solb na😅

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User's avatar z_graeden
2 years ago

HAHAHAHW, nagkalat na footlong baka may makuta ako ano ahahaha

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Jajaja ansaya nun

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User's avatar z_graeden
2 years ago

There are moments talaga na parang lahat hindi na uubra sa yo. The exhaustion we feel has evolved. In spite of that, I hope you're always okay Ate @Ruffa. Fighting! 💞

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User's avatar AlphaCron
2 years ago

Kaya nga ee, ang hirap lang nilang pigilan tsk. I'm okay thanks 🤗

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Gumagala ka gurl, malilibang ka dun. 😅

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User's avatar JulyAnn
2 years ago

Hahahaha un na nga ay inatamad mandin aki. Bulas yayain ko si mudrabels sa plaza haha

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

Oo tama yan, unwind unwind din tayo pag may time.

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User's avatar JulyAnn
2 years ago

Ganda ng moon.. Okay sna supermoon effect sa camera gamitin jan. Klaro ang moon

Mag unwind ka madam

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User's avatar Jane
2 years ago

Ang liwanaga mandin madams nakakatuwa UwU. .baka bagsak ko nito hanap ng music sa yt at un na ang unwind sakin haha

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

You should go for outing and visit beautiful places

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User's avatar FACTICAL
2 years ago

Hmmm, I can do that the problem is my laziness 🥺

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago

I think you need a vacation dear. Somewhere like beach will change your gloomy, upset heart.

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User's avatar Lucifer01
2 years ago

I don't know, I'm just too lazy to do thay tbh 🥺

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User's avatar Ruffa
2 years ago
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