We're like Cat and Mouse who loves to fight. Throwing words that we didn't mean just wanted to blab. To be able to talk to you I had to act. But deep inside I'm dying just to hold you, it frighten me but to hell with it. It is too strong for me but I like it. Feeling like this is not new but when it comes to you, resisting it? No, that's hard to do. No one knows what I feel for you, no one but my Pen and Paper. Putting it into a paper using my pen is the only way I know so that I can free myself from this feeling. No, no! It's not like I don't like it. It's just that, it is so overwhelming I have to fight myself from confessing to you.
For me? You're an Angel in Disguise, too kind, too caring, too fun to be with but also too good for me. And so I thought, we're the exact opposite. I will just like you from afar pretending to annoy you but that is just my way for you to look at me. I told you this before "you're ugly, no one's gonna like you coz your chubby, you're not that sexy, so don't try to be like Maggie!" I know it's below the belt, but know that it's just a False Pretense. I just want to annoy you and see you're blushing cheeks. You are so beautiful and I want to see it always. You just don't know, it makes my heart flatter in joy whenever you blush because of anger.
No Spell can ever make this feelings disappear, I think you're my purpose that's why I am here. Though my way of showing it is a bit annoying, know that I'm just afraid that's why I don't do it the way you want it. Please Don't Hate me Mary, I plan to marry you soon but first, I should let my feelings for you known. We can't be together if I continue hiding it. I know, I know I should show it to you. But how? You know me as your bully, so I don't think you can fully trust me. Just one Step Right Up is all I have to do, but the question is will you allow me to court you? I can get all of those letters I wrote for you, but is that enough to make you like me too?
Should I leave it In Fate's Hands? Or just confess to you? I can't decide, my heart is afraid to what may come. I want to scream your name but they might find me crazy. But I will never deny it coz yeah, I'm crazy over you. Alright, It's been decided! I will now confess my real feeling for you. Ready for your laugh when I tell it to. Brace Yourself coz now I'm ready to Reap your loud NO. I will accept whatever your decision is. I will, I.. but I'm already too late. I almost forgot you recently got yourself a boyfriend. And now I am here still not accepting the truth. That the girl I like, is now with someone else.
It's because I'm Your Guardian Angel and I'm the one who shoot the arrow to your boyfriend that is connected to you. I'm the one who push you to him because till now, I can't seem to open my mouth to let you know my own feelings For you, Damn Regrets. We're now Disconnected.
WAHHH, does it make sense to you? This one I mean huehue. I just hope. So, I use again that one prompt of Kudo kudo which is using a song title to write your article. And as you can see those highlighted one is a song from the band The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. One of my favorite also, especially their song Your Guardian Angel. That one is the best!
Good thing I finish this, this one was drafted from a long time ago, a month ago rather. My mind is not working very well today, naiwan sa squid game and utak ko tsk. But anyways, hope you still enjoy it.
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September 21, 2021