Do you know why I love to tease you? Do you know why I love to annoy you? Do you know why I love to call you different names including "Pig?" It's not like I want to shame you to everyone or be a laughingstock. It's just that, that's the only way I know so that you can notice me. And aside from that? I love to see your blushing cheeks when you get mad at me. Your attention are all on me. And I like the feeling of that even if if you think differently about me. I like you so much but I can't find the courage to say it to you.
It's not like I want to harm you or what. It's just that, I want you to look at me even if you want me to die using your eyes. I can take all of that, you're .. you're just amazing, lovely, beautiful, cute, pretty and you're... You're the one I like. I can't tell it it to you directly or in face to face. I really want to do it to be honest. But, but how? I'm just a good for nothing bastard who loves to make other girls cry. You know me as a playboy and I don't think I can change the way you view me. It's not like I can make my image as clear as the blue ocean.
You know what, the first time I saw you on the Corridor that one afternoon. I saw this dancing light in your surroundings, it's like you're an angel that descend to give your positivity to everyone. You're all smile to anyone, even I can't help myself from smiling widely when I saw that beautiful smile of yours. And that moment, I accept to myself that I finally found the one who will change my perspective in life. Not just your smile actually, it's the whole you. Even the way you talk calmly to everyone, I feel like I'm in a cloud nine.
That's why I am so eager to make you notice me. And my effort paid off because even if you talk to me with so much annoyance or hate in your face at least I get to talk to you. You know I can tease you and keep on jerking you but if I tried to open my mouth to say the real feeling I have for you - that's where I tremble in fear. I think I'm okay being like this with you. I think I'm okay even if you saw me as the biggest jerk on earth at least I can have all the reason to talk to you. Without fearing that you might notice the real feeling I have for you and avoid me in the end. I don't want that.
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There is this one annoyingly handsome guy in our University that I really like. He's handsome it was already attached in his name since he was born. He's the biggest jerk I know who love to make every girl in this university cry. And he was liked by every woman in that university. I think even some girl professor in our University will grovel in his feet just to be with him. Yeah, he's that handsome. I like him but not to the point of kneeling - eherm that's sounds dirty. Or I just have a dirty mind, hihi.
Anyways, I Like Him just like the other girl do. But he's look is not the only reason why I like him. I like him even before. I was 11 years old back then. I have to run some errand that time and. It was the the laundry that Mom had wash. She's busy that time that's why she asked me to deliver it to the Village where he's living. It was when a dog escaped from one of the house there. I am so afraid that time because the dog is big and if that dog bite my legs it'll gonna break for sure. And all I can do that time was to just hide my face and waitint for those big teeth to bite me.
But it never happen because someone call the dog and it was him. I am so afraid that time but I was still mesmerized by the gorgeousness of that boy. The fear that I felt because of that big dog suddenly disappear. My heart was beating so fast that time that I forgot that I almost got bitten by that dog. He ask me if I'm okay and that it was their neighbor dog. He also said that he escaped to his leash again. I didn't say anything that time I am just looking at him still in daze because of his looks.
And, that time I saw him as my savior who save me from being eaten by that big dog. He's also kind to accompany me out of the village. I just don't know what happen to him but that time he look so serious with his glasses. But he's not wearing it now. I thought I will never see him again, but destiny is really working 24/7 because I found him here in this university. I found him thanks to the name tag that he had back then. Yeah, I still thought of looking at his name that time.
I like him till now but I don't know if he feel the same way. He just love to tease and annoy me, that's just all. I maybe just one of his entertainment. But even if that's the case, it's okay for me. As long as I get to talk with him even if we are like Tom and Jerry. I can look at him with annoyance but in my heart, I look at him with lust - No!!! I mean Love, yes Love. I Love him, how I wish he's mine.
So, hehe well that's how it end. Let's just leave it to their destiny if they will be together after a year or two. Let's just hope for the best, lol.
You know, listening to a Music is really a great help to me in creating my article. Sometime I get my topic in their lyrics but oftentimes I get it in a song title. It's like a prompt for me. That's why every morning just even if I just got out in my bed. I will get my headphone and my old cellphone, choose the Playlist and hit the Play button. So while brushing my teeth, folding my blanket and my Mosquito net, whilw sweeping the floor in front of our store and while cooking our breakfast. I am with music enjoying and savoring the good flavor of it into my brain, cherettt ahahahaga.
But seriously speaking, MUSIC IS LIFE! By the way, I get my title in one of Mayday Parade 's song - Never Sure. I don't know if it's fit to the content of my article hihi, I just hope.
So, I hope you enjoy it. Just...
Happy Reading!!!
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