@isla_20

@isla_20 17 February 2026

My God!! It's been 3 years since I last published an article here and guess what? Ngayon ko lang talaga ulit na open tong account na to. Grabe, sobrang dami na nagbago sa buhay ko.

@isla_20 1 April 2022

Finding out why... Hello!! It's me again, writing and sharing with you my thoughts and experiences. It was January this year when I felt some weird changes in my body which also caused changes in my daily routine. And here are some of them. Frequent urination Actually, I already noticed the frequent urge to urinate last December 2021 but I just shrug it off thinking that maybe it was just because of the cold weather. It was weird for me since I am not really that type of person who usually drink water. Actually my usual intake of water a day is beyond that of what is recommended. But still, I always felt the urge to use the bathroom even though I just used it a few minutes ago and my urine was just a few drops. Mood swings I remember one time, it was also January this year, when my partner and I visited my brother and grandma. Of course, we talked about some things to catch up and my partner shared with my grandma how I got angry most of time with him without any valid reason. I was so guilty about it because it was true. There were times when out of the blue I'll get angry at him due to small things that doesn't really affect our relationship at all. Food cravings I admit that I am that kind of person who crave for food from time to time but this time it was different. There was this one time when I craved for green mango and then my partner teased me that he will not get any mango and then I cried. When that happened, my friends who witnessed it teased me that I am pregnant. There is also this one time when I really want to eat native chicken soup. My partner suggested to use dressed chicken instead but I insisted to have the native chicken. So what we did was we bought alive native chicken and then ate Ellen cooked it but I want the chicken to be cooked by my partner and he did even though he was tired from his work. From favorite food to hated one Since then I really liked corned beef and fried chicken but there came a time when I started hating it. It was lunch time when my partner got some food for us to eat. He knows that corned beef is my favorite so he got a lot of it in our plate. When I tasted it I feel like vomiting it and I did. The same scenario happened when I ate fried chicken. Since then I hated those two food and anything that is fried. I preferred soup over fried ones. Finding out why It was last December 16, 2021 when I last got my period. January 16 came but I didn't get my period though I already felt period cramps and some of my pre-menstrual symptoms so I thought that maybe I get it the next day or later of that month. My friends and the people here in the house teased me that maybe I am already pregnant but I am hesitant to admit it on myself because I know that there were times when I get my period later than the previous months. But last day of January came but I still didn't got my period. I asked friend to buy me a pregnancy test. It was around lunch time when my friend arrived from the drug store. She bought 2 pregnancy test as I instructed. I got a disposable cup and the pregnancy test and headed to the bathroom. When I put my urine in the pregnancy as instructed, it was faint red line at first and then followed by the second line which is now clear red. I got two red lines though the first one is faint but as far as what I have known, even though the other line is faint it is still considered as positive. Though I already had a hint, the result of the pregnancy just proved me that I am really pregnant. I showed my pregnancy test to my partner and his smile was priceless. He stared at it and then he hugged me. So, that's why. I am pregnant and all of those weird changes in me was all because I am already carrying a child in me. That's all for today and thank you for reading this one. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 29 March 2022

Heavy feelings... My eyes are puff as of the moment of writing this one. I just finished crying my heart out without any valid reason and I've been like this for almost 4 months now. It all started last December of 2021. I just felt my heart being so heavy that sometimes it made me hard to breathe. I remember one time when I was at work at the bakery, I suddenly burst into tears and it continued for an hour or two. My tears won't stop from falling and my partner got worried about me. He asked me what's wrong but I just answered him that I don't know. He didn't stopped from asking me because he thinks that I regretted being with him. I cried in his arms and he was just there hugging me and from time to time he would asked me again and my answers are still the same " I don't know". His t-shirt got wet because of me but he didn't mind at all. The next day after that, it happened again. And just like what happened before, I still don't know why. I took a bath early to freshen up and after getting dressed, I felt my heart getting heavy again and I can hardly breathe. I told my partner about it and he's worried but I told him that I can handle it and I don't know why I suddenly felt that way though I already have an idea why. When I went downstairs I told our ate Ellen about it and she asked me if I'm that kind of person who likes to hide my feelings and I answered her "yes". She told me to just cry it out and to not hide my feelings anymore. If I feel hurt or disappointed I must let it out because it's not good hiding such feelings. It was around 9 P.M. when I can't take it anymore. My partner kissed my cheek non-stop and he said "I love you" and upon hearing it that's when I burst into tears again. He wasn't able to see my tears because the lights was off and he exited the room to take his dinner. I silently cried in our room and when he came back he turned the lights back on and that's when he sees my eyes. He already knows what my eyes would look like after crying so he immediately noticed it. He asked me a lot of questions like "Are you okay?", "What's the problem", "Is something wrong?", etc., and I just answered him "Nothing". He knows me very well and that I don't like being bothered when I'm in that state so he just kissed me again and whispered "I love you". He remained beside me up until now. I became so curious as to why so I searched the Google about what pregnant women would sometimes feel and I found out that some pregnant women experienced the same thing that I did. So I presume that this incidents of mine were just because of my pregnancy. I will end my entry now because I'm already sleepy and I'll be visiting my OB tomorrow for my monthly check up and hopefully my baby is healthy.

@isla_20 25 March 2022

A new chapter! Good day everyone. How are you? I know its been a while since I last published my article here at read.cash. I think its been 2 months or 3 months already and now I'm gonna be uploading my comeback article and this gonna be about some updates in my life. Let's start! **A new chapter.** Some may say that I'm still young but this is what I want, so who cares? November of 2021 when my boyfriend and I decided to enter a new chapter of our lives. We decided to live together. At first it was very hard for me to tell my grandmother about our plan because in the first place I'm still a student. But despite that fact I was still able to tell her about it. Of course at first she didn't agree with it and she tells me and my boyfriend to wait until I finish my studies but we didn't stopped there. The following week I told her about it again and at that time she asked me if it was really what I want and I told her "yes". She then agreed with it because according to her, if that is really what I want then who is she to interfere. It was November 21 last year when he went to my grandma's place and he asked my hand. November 28 of the same year when his family went there too to formally ask for my hand. Since my grandma and my uncle was my guardian, they were the one who talked about it. They told how difficult this journey will be. They gave us advices on how to deal with such difficulties and all we did was listen to them and absorb all of it. Yes, I know that living together is not easy as it seems. I have witnessed a lot of people who have entered this kind of set-up. They struggled for there living. They face a lot of problems regarding there financial status. Some of them choose to stay together until now but some of them went there separate ways. It is very frightening but despite all of it we still choose to push through with it. Its been 4 months now since we started living together and luckily we didn't encounter such problem as of the moment. For 4 months, we didn't have any big arguments. I don't know if it's because we don't care about what we separately do or it is because we just trust each other so much and we stick to our rules as a couple. Or maybe because he's very mindful of what I'll feel about what he does to the point that he always asks for my permission first before doing it. I remember one night when his friend went here and told him that there other friend was in there house, he hurriedly rode his friend's motorcycle to went there only to find out that he was fooled. Just after an hour he went back home to ask for my permission to go back from where he was and explained his side why he didn't able to ask for my permission first. I got angry at him because I really hate it when he leaves home without me knowing. I gave the permission but he was so troubled and another hour had passed he went back home again together with his friend to ask for my permission again because according to him, he really knows that I am not okay and that I was angry at him. He admitted his mistake and my heart melt because I can see in his eyes that he's really sorry. It was around 11 P.M when he finally went home. He was tipsy and he cried in front of me. He told me that he was happy that after sometime he finally got a chance to have some time with his friends but on the other hand he was also worried because I was angry. He told me that he didn't want me to get angry and stressed because according to him he really love me. And I thank him for that. It's been 4 months and I didn't feel any regret towards my decision. I know that this new chapter of mine is far from what anyone have experienced with the same situation as mine and I also know that we still have a long way to go.

@isla_20 9 November 2021

Some of my Favorites **November 9, 2021** I can't think of any topic AGAIN! So, what I did is I visited the community PromptlyJonica to find some good prompt to write about. And yes, I found one. Foodies!!!!! But since I am writing this in Taglish and I don't think that this will be accepted in that community so I am submitting this in different community. I am not really picky when it comes to food, I eat whatever that is available in the table. But of course there is always that kind of food we really like to eat and categorize it as our favorite food. In here I will be sharing with you the food that I grow up with and loves to eat whenever it is served. **Ensaladang talbos ng kamote** Sino ba ang lumaki sa hirap na hindi kumakain ng talbos ng kamote lalo na kapag ginawang ensalada? Ito talaga yung ginagawa naming ulam kapag wala na kaming pera or nagki-crave ako nito. Ang ginagawa ko kapag gusto ko kumain nito is nagpupunta ako sa taniman namin sa likod bahay para kumaha ng talbos. Kapag ako ang nagtimpla ng ganito gusto ko yung nalalasahan ko talaga yung alat tsaka asim ng suka. **Ginataang Langka** Dati pa lang nung bata pa ako paborito ko na talaga to. Sa tuwing nagluluto si Nanay ng ganito dati napaparami talaga kain ko tsaka minsan ito nalang kinakain ko di ko na inuulam. Nung nawala Nanay ko, yung kuya ko naman ang gusto ko na nagluluto ng ginataang langka kasi alam niya kung ano yung masarap na luto nito. Masarap kasi to kapag creamy talaga yung gata. Kapag ito ulam namin yung isang buong langka na gagataan minsan isang kainan lang namin yan kasi ito talaga yung kinakain namin, kunting kanin nalang solve na. **Adobong sitaw** Lumaki ako na sitaw at talong yung tinatanim ng mga magulang ko at nilalako naman namin ni Nanay sa mga bahay. Kaya kapag wala kaming ulam ito agad yung niluluto ni Nanay. Kukuha lang dun sa taniman tapos lulutuin na. Sarap na sarap ako nito kapag luto sa mantika at toyo lang siya lalo na kapag medyo nagiging crispy na yung iba. **Buttered Shrimp** Alam ko may ibang tao na allergic sa hipon at nagpapasalamat ako na hindi ako isa sa kanila kasi hipon is one of my favorite. Dati pa naman gustong gusto ko na talaga yung hipon pero nung natikman ko yung buttered shrimp, grabe sobrang sarap na sarap talaga ako nun. Sa tuwing umaattend ako ng handaan or kami mismo yung may handa tapos may buttered shrimp ito talaga yung lalantakan ko kahit wala ng kanin oks lang sakin. Minsan hindi talaga ako titigil hanggat may hipon pang natitira sa hapag namin Hahhahahahahhahahah. Yan lang siguro muna sa ngayon para naman may maisulat pa ako bukas hahaha. Sana naman na enjoy at natakam kayo kahit papaano sa mga nabanggit ko na pagkain sa taas hahahaha. Salamat sa pagbabasa. Ciao😘

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@isla_20 7 November 2021

Male and Female can have a platonic relationship November 7, 2021 Another article that is inspired from what I have read in Facebook. As usual, I was scrolling in my fb account when I saw this post. I didn't really mind it at first but I scrolled back to it to read it and I kind of felt that people should really know that not all guy and girl friends is romantically involved with each other. This was shared by my Facebook friend and I say to myself that this one is very true most especially for the people that I know. I know that it is not just me, maybe most of us have experienced being romantically linked to our guy ug girl friends by the people that surrounds us. They'll gonna put malice on us being close to our opposite sex when in fact we're just enjoying each other's company. We just love the vibe. We just love hanging out with them for some reasons. Me, for instance, I love making friends with guys around me because they are true. If they like you as a friend, they like you. They don't have any space for drama. They don't do such thing as backstabbing. If they don't like how you act they gonna tell you right in front of your face. I like being friends with guys because they'll gonna treat you as their princess. Your guy friends is your instant one call away bodyguard. Unlike being friends with girls, not all but well mostly, who likes drama. I was in my elementary years when I noticed this kind of drama that girls has. They'll act as if they like you when you're in front of them but after that they'll gonna backstab you. Since then, I chose my girl friends and limit them to atleast 5 and the rest are all boys. Boys and girls can be friends without being inlove with each other. People should understand that and to not put malice to their friendship because sometimes people's judgement may ruin someone's friendship for years. People words can create awkwardness between them. There's nothing wrong with it but on the other hand we can't really tell because there are also cases when best friends turn into lovers and I think that is still okay. For the people who likes to stick their noses on someone else's business, all I can say is that to please don't do such things. Let the involved party do their thing because you never know when you can ruin their friendship or build a much more kind of relationship. It's much better to keep your hand off of it. Yeyyy, another article published today. Hoping to keep having ideas everyday so that I can really stick to my one article per day goal heheheh. Anyways, thank you so much for reading my article again. I really did appreciate it. Until my next publish article guys. Good night. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 6 November 2021

Even the smallest lie can break the biggest trust November 6, 2021 I was scrolling in my Facebook account when I stumbled upon this quote "Even the smallest lie can break the biggest trust". It caught my attention as my trust for someone was currently broke at that time. **Trust** I am that kind of person who easily trust people. When I like your aura with just one look and we could make long conversations in just first meeting then I would trust you right at that moment. I don't know why but I always see the goodness in every person. I won't judge you by what you are outside. Some people may find me weird by being friends with the people they see as a bad one. Maybe I am like this because I know the feeling of being judged by the outside without even knowing why I act that certain way. I find those people, well of course not all of them, trustworthy. **Breaking the Trust** It takes time to build someone's trust but it will only take a second to destroy it. Recently, someone taught me about his life experience. He was betrayed before and now he's afraid of being betrayed again. He told me that I should tell the person I love everything about me, may it be a good experience or a bad one. Even the smallest details about yourself should not be a secret. Because in that way, you can tell if the person that you love dearly really loves you. As for my recent experience, someone broke my trust in them which they just built up not long ago. Maybe it was also my fault because I trusted her again but I am just being me. Months prior, she broke my trust in her and not long after we reconciled and I started to trust her again. One day, I am not gonna tell you the full details, I asked her if she did that certain thing and she said with full of confidence that she didn't. I asked her several times and she answered me constantly. I believed her. One night, my cousin visited me here at the house and asked for my help regarding with his modules. While answering he shared that he saw her doing that thing which I asked her about. I didn't believe my cousin at first because he's a little bit playful but as he shared some details I finally believe in him. I was dumbfounded knowing after knowing that. I chatted her and what makes me more angry is that she denied it again at first and then she said her sorry because it was true, she lied to me. Up until now I am not in good terms with her because for the second time around I feel betrayed and she broke my trust. **Final Take** Simple, **JUST TELL THE TRUTH**. Thank you so much for reading this one😘 Ciao 😘

@isla_20 31 October 2021

Thinking about getting vaccinated October 31, 2021 Since the pandemic spread across the world, a lot of things change. We've been instructed to stay at home for a couple of months which lead to starvation for a lot of us. Classes were suspended and sooner modular and online class became the new medium of learning. As a student, I can't do anything about it but to accept the truth that I will be learning my lessons on my own. A few months later, a vaccine were created which made me happy. Yes, I was so happy hearing that news because for me a vaccine means we'll be back to how we are before COVID-19 spread. But little did I know it was not that easy to just go back from what we are before. Yes, vaccine was created but I've been hearing news about it being the reason why people dies. There's a lot of side effects that the vaccine gives to people. Some of it made people being paralyzed, difficulty in breathing and a lot more. At first I really wanted to get vaccinated as soon as the vaccine will be available here in our locality but the news about its side effects ruined my plan. It brought fear in me especially that I know in myself that there's something wrong in my body. Sometimes I experience difficulty in breathing. This has started when I was still in my 3rd year in highschool, I was 14 years old at that time when suddenly I felt that I can't breathe and my chest hurts. I still feel that way up until now and that's what made me feel scared because what if the vaccine will trigger another attack in me and I will not be able to survive that one. On the other hand, I've been thinking about getting vaccinated because we can't deny the fact that vaccines is now becoming a requirement for work and travel. Me as a student, the will for getting a vaccine heightened when our school conducted a survey for students who already got their shots. Our school is planning to have a face-to-face classes and from what I have heard, only those who got their vaccines will be able to attend the face-to-face classes. I find modular and online classes hard and being able to have a chance of having a face-to-face classes back is really making me think in considering getting my shot. Almost all of my friends are already vaccinated. Hopefully, sooner or later I'll be able to finally decide if I'll be getting my shot or not. But whatever my decision will be, I just hope that I'll be doing the right thing. Thank you and God bless everyone! Ciao 😘

@isla_20 29 October 2021

Nothing to write about **October 29, 2021** Another week had passed without me being able to write something here. I really need to write something since this platform became my only source of income for the past months hihihi. So, today I'll be answering some random questions I got from the internet. Answering random questions AGAIN! I just wanted to have something to write about. By the way, I got these questions from this link: https://teambuilding.com/blog/random-questions Let's start! What activity do you waste the most time on? I always waste my time on scrolling through my phone without doing any important thing. I always do procrastination, huhuhu. It sucks you knowing that you're just wasting your time but then you always do it. I do really hope that I can do better about this wasting of time activity of mine. What technology are you most hooked on? As what I have answered in the first question, I think it's very obvious what technology I am very hooked up to. Mobile phone. I am very hooked on my phone that it's the first thing that I hold when I woke up and the very last thing that my hand hold when I sleep. And I think most of us is really hooked in our phones. What is something that never fails to make you laugh? This question is kind of interesting for me. Well, I do laugh at everything. Even the smallest thing which I think is funny really makes me laugh. Even at serious times I sometimes can't hold myself from bursting into a laughter. I don't know why but it's just me. Who is the worst roommate you have ever had? It's this someone that I was able to share a house with when I'm still at my freshmen year in college. He was at his last year in college and we call him "Kuya" since his older than us. He was this kind of guy who uses our utensils without our permissions and he doesn't even bother on washing them. We just got up and when we want to eat, we'll just find that our spoons and plates was used and was in the sink. Like, we washed them when we used them and left them in the rack but the heck someone used it and didn't even bother on atleast washing them. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be? Did you survive everything? --- just that one question. No more explanation why but that's the one thing I want to ask my future self. What is the biggest risk you have ever taken? Its getting out from my comfort zone. Getting out from the things that I've been used to for 5 years. It's a huge risk for me since I don't know if I'm doing the right thing but one thing is for sure, I'm genuinely happy with where I am now and who I am with right now. This may sound ridiculous for someone who knows what situation that I am in right now but trust me, even me find myself ridiculous. What is an ideal that is most worth sacrificing for? For me, I am willing to sacrifice everything for my happiness but not to the point where I'll be hurting the people that surrounds me. If you weren’t afraid of failure, what would you do differently? It would be enjoying my life the way I wanted it to be. Failure made me do things the different way most especially because I was surrounded by judgemental people who told me many different things(negative). They already see me failing at everything even though I am not yet started doing it. So I think that would be all for now. Thank you for reading this one even though this is just so random and no purpose at all. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 19 October 2021

Gone for almost a month (Part II) October 19, 2021 As what I have told you from my previous article, I've been inactive here at read.cash for almost a month. In my published article yesterday, I have shared with you my escapade while staying here at my boarding house. This article is just a continuation of my fun filled experience for a week. If you want to read my previous article just visit it here at this link https://read.cash/@isla_20/gone-for-almost-a-month-2b36d8a2 **Third Trip** September 30, 2021 - Afternoon Our friends was having their usual afternoon game outside of our boarding house. One of our so-called kuya in the house brought some green mangoes which I love the most. We then shared it with everyone in the house and our kuya got some more because we enjoyed eating it. The mangoes are not that sour. We dipped it in vinegar with some chilli on it and a little salt. As usual we are so bored at the house so we chatted our friends there and told them what will be the plan for the night. They replied and told us that whatever the plan is they'll go with it. One of my boardmates suggested that what if we'll be having a *budol fight.* All of us then agreed to it immediately. Without any further we planned what kind of food we will be having. Our final decision was to cook a *"halang-halang"* or a spicy chicken with coconut milk, and hotdog. Before we started eating, of course the moment wouldn't be great without a good looking photo of us. **Final Trip** October 2, 2021 Our fourth and final trip for our 1 week stay there was to have a *"nilamaw"* . *"Nilamaw"* is like a salad. It was around 2:00 P.M. when we start walking to get to our landlord's land where we can get some young coconut. The hike was so fun, as usual, because there's a lot of us. During the hike we took some pictures and some videos for us to watch and to remember that day. I even took some funny pictures of my friends and sent it on our group chat. We finished and got home by 4:00 P.M. After we got home we first changed our clothes and freshen up. The coconut was then mixed with condensed milk and some biscuits and a good amount of ice to cool it up. My 1 week stay and escapade there ended when me and my boardmates went home last October 3, 2021. We kind of felt sad because we knew that we will miss all those trips, stories, and laughter with our friends in that place. But the reality couldn't be just ignore so we really need to go home and face the reality once more. That's all for my 1 week escapade. A little escape from reality. Thank you so much for lending your time and God bless. Ciao 😘

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@isla_20 17 October 2021

Gone for almost a month **October 17, 2021** The last article that I published here was on September 25, 2021 and now is October 17, 2021, it's almost been a month since I became inactive here at read.cash. I was just so lazy and doesn't have the will to write as well as any topic for me to tackle. Also I did have my little escapade during the last week of September, well it's not really an escapade though. Just a little escape from the reality. So, it was September 26, 2021 when I decided to travel back to my boarding house. I was just so bored at our house and I also have my personal reason for deciding to travel at that time and did not follow my initial plan which is to go there on September 27, 2021. It was 2:00 P.M. when I rode the *habal-habal* and I arrived at my destination at around 4:00 P.M. **The First Trip** I arrived at the boarding house around 4:00 P.M. and my boardmates was also there to do their modules. Our friends then invited us to have some snack at the Felicity Dream Square. It was I think around 7:00 P.M. when our friends got us from the house. We then drive straight to our destination. Felicity Dream Square is a food park located at Banday, Tomas Oppus' baywalk. They sell different kinds food like siomai, barbeque, corndog, and many more. Well, the only thing that I've been craving is siomai so that's what we ordered. My cravings had been satisfied especially that it was a treat from our friends HAHAHAH. We stayed there for 3 hours just talking about life and we did have fun watching the moon above the sea. Since our curfew in the boarding house is 10:00 P.M. so we then decided to went home. Our friends still even want to eat some grilled fish so they told us that they will wait for the fishermen to got back from fishing and bought some fish for us to grilled. It was I think around 12:00 A.M. when they chatted us the had bought some fish and since we have this cottage at the sea so we grilled the fish there. We had fun eating it together with our friends and boardmates. My first day there ended. **The Second Trip** September 29, 2021 when we decided to go to Bato, Leyte's baywalk. Actually we already planned this one during our first trip. While talking with them, they have shared their experiences visiting various food parks in Southern Leyte. I even replied to them that I can't relate with any of the places since I've never been in any of them. So, to make the story short, our second trip was planned for me. It was in that afternoon when we are so excited while our drivers are still playing volleyball. They just stopped their game when one of our driver got injured. His feet suffered from a wound when he tried to jump. At that time we know that we will not be pushing our plans. So we think of another activity for that night. But still the injured one told us that he can still drive. It was around 7:00 P.M. when left the house. There are 7 of us and we have used 3 motorcycles. It was a 1 hour drive. We ordered different kinds of barbeque and a soft drinks. Our dinner was full of laughter and fun. As usual, our curfew was 10:00 P.M but we decided to go home at around 10:30 because we still want to enjoy the night. While eating and having some drinks, a live band was also playing in front. I think that's all for now and a part 2 will follow. I still have a lot to share with you from my 1 week stay there. Thank you for reading this one even though I've been out for almost a month. P.S. My stay there is not just for fun. I was also able to do some of my projects and one of them is my midterm for my major which is Pricing Strategy. Our project is Corporate Pricing Strategy Project (CPSP). Ciao 😘

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@isla_20 25 September 2021

It's been 4 years (Part 2) **September 25, 2021** Just like what I have mentioned in my previous article, I'm gonna write a separate one for my father. It took me awhile to finally have the courage to write this one since up until now this still hunts me, well both of them still hunts me. ***September 17, 2017*** 43 days since my mother left us. It's been a tough 43 days for all of us without her but what can we do? We need to accept the fact that people come and go and that whether we like it or not there will come a time that our love ones will leave us. The pain is unbearable but seeing how strong my father was, was what we all need. He was so strong though I know that he is hurting inside, he kept his pain from us so that we would remain strong. People may have not saw it but everytime my father and I talk, I can see in his eyes how hurt he was. September 17, 2017 is Sunday. My father instructed my older brother to look for a *barunday (a fish)* in the market because we wants to eat a grilled barunday that day. My brother went to the market using my father's *habal-habal* but he got home saying that he didn't find any. My brother then brought me with him to the other barangay where fish vendors would flock together but sad to say we got home with nothing. My father then tried his luck and went to the market, he got home with a pig's mask which consists of pig's ears, tongue, and other stuff from the pig's head. He then prepared the pig's masks for grilling. We were talking happily that day and ate the grilled pig's head together. Since it's September that time, our municipality will be celebrating it's fiesta on 28-29 of that month. It's been a tradition in our municipality to have a month long celebration. Starting from September 9 or 11, every night there will be a program with different host. Parish Night, LGU Night, Teacher's Night, MAMABA Night just to name a few. On that night will be the night for the *habal-habal* drivers which my father is included. I can still remember that I came across him that night near the gymnasium where the party was held. I was also out that night to enjoy together with my cousin. My younger brother was also with his friends while my older brother was already on his boarding house. He stopped in front of us and asked me things like where my brother is, did we already ate our dinner, and that where was I heading. I answered him and also asked him if he will be attending the party and he said yes. I even joked at him. We are very casual with each other like we are just friends and of the same age but I still respect my father. We are very close and I even shared with him my secrets and he also does share his. After that talked I didn't seen him again. I went at around 11 P.M. and so does my younger brother. My father was still at the party and I knew that time that when he come home he'll gonna woke me up. ***September 18, 2017 - around 1:50 A.M. to 3:00 A.M.*** I was sleeping peacefully when I got interrupted by a moan, not an erotic moan of course. I woke up and realizing that it was my father above. Well, we have this kind of room at the roof, like an attic. My father was at the attic just above my room. The attic was not very high, I can even knock on it while standing in my room. When I heard my father moaning, I realized that he was having a nightmare as usual. My father was this kind of person where in when he got nightmares he would punch even while he was asleep or even talk. With that in mind, I just knocked his floor and called out his name. My grandmother then got up from inside the house and asked me what's happening then she told me to went at the attic. I frantically went up and when I saw my father I immediately woke him up but he didn't even move a little. My grandmother then asked me to open the door and I did. I hurriedly then went back to the attic and continued waking my father. I then knew what was going on. I even bit his toe because from what I heard that would wake people up but still nothing. I've done everything that I could but my father was still sleeping. With my trembling hands I then reached for his chest to listen to his heartbeat. My tears fell down when I heard nothing. I was sobbing when I went down and went outside the house. It hurts so bad that with just a short period of time we lost our parents. I was just 18 at that time, my older brother was 20 and our youngest was turning 15. I cried my heart out and even questioned God why that happened to us. I was badly hurt that I even cursed Him. Yes, I cursed God that time. Our relatives came and they helped us bringing my father down from the attic. The pain doubled when I saw my younger brother crying silently. I didn't have the courage to comfort him because I, myself needs comfort. I was just outside crying the whole time. I can't make myself to look at my father lying in bed. It was around 6:A.M when I finally had the courage to went back in. There I saw him lying in bed with his eyes closed. I was still crying when I held his cold hands. I asked him to wake up but he didn't. Looking back to all of it feels the same. The pain never changed or lessen even a bit. I can't even describe how it feels. It was so painful and I don't want to feel that way again. It was all hard for me to bear because I'm the one who was there when my parents died. I was the one who have this what if's. I am also blaming myself for the actions that I've made because if only I went at the attic immediately maybe my father is still alive. If only I was able to woke him up on time he would still be here with us. Maybe if I woke my mother up and didn't let my feelings got me, she would also be here with us. If only I stayed by their side, they would still be alive. If only.

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@isla_20 20 September 2021

It's been 4 years **September 20, 2021** August 5, 2017 and September 18, 2017. That are the dates that I will never forget for the rest of my life. Why? Because that is the day of my mom and dad's death respectively. Just a 45 day interval. I could still remember all the details of it. **August 3, 2017** When my mom experienced a difficulty in breathing and according to her, her belly is bloated and a bit hard and it's also painful when you poke it. My dad decided to take her to the nearest public hospital as her per request. We don't even have a money for her hospitalization but we still decided to take her. We traveled for almost an hour riding my father's motorcycle with a roof or *habal-habal* we call it. We arrived at the hospital and my mother was admitted. My father decided to went home to find someone who can lend him some money for the expenses and I was left their to attend to my mother's needs, as always because everytime that she will be hospitalized I'm always the one tasked to look after her. She was feeling okay that day and the next day. Afternoon of August 4 when my mother asked me to call my father and asked him if when will he visit us and to tell him that she want my father at the hospital. My father then told me during the call that he will visit that day and he did. **August 5, 2017. 6 A.M.** My mother wanted to go the bathroom to piss. Since she can't go on her own because her feet is swelling, my father and I helped her out. She was heavy that time though we are almost the same size. We barely lift her up and that was a bit odd because I can lift her up alone the past days and during her past hospitalization but that day I can't. While we are at the bathroom, she was acting odd. She said that she wanted to take a bath because she already stinks. She wanted to clean herself up but we told her not to. She's so stubborn and she even plays with the water. She didn't listen to us as if she was a child. It took us almost 3o minutes to convinced her to get out of there because someone wanted to use the bathroom. When we are able to got her out, she acted more strange. She's already shouting and even scratched my father and I that left a wound on our arms. She even said a prayer and my father told to her to pray to God but she didn't finished it because she shouted at us again. I started crying at that moment when she wanted to take her dextrose off her arm and she successfully did despite me not letting her to, her arm bleeds. She continuously shouted at us and acted like a child. I was crying the whole time thinking that my mother already lost her mind and thinking that she will be like that when we got out of the hospital made me even cry more. My father then told me to call for a doctor or a nurse to attend to my mother's bleeding arm. The nurse came and gave me some prescription for me to buy. **Almost 8 A.M.** When I came back from buying the prescription that was given to me, my mother is already sleeping peacefully. The nurse put her dextrose back on and injected her with the medicine that they told me to buy. I can't remember the exact name of the medicine though but I was told that it will make my mom to relax. My father then told me to eat my breakfast. I was not myself while eating my breakfast at the eatery just in front of the hospital. The scene earlier was still on my mind and I can't take it off my mind. I was thinking of the possible scenarios that may happen when we got out of the hospital. When I came back my mother was still sleeping. I asked my father to eat his breakfast but he told me that he already eaten the food that the hospital gave earlier. He then instructed me to call my mother's siblings and aunts to inform them about her condition. I went out of the room to call them. I was crying while on the call and told them everything that happened. They were also crying and told me to bring my mother back home. **12:00 noon** One of our roommate went out and told me that my father want me back in. I asked her why while tears are still rolling down my cheeks. She told me to just went back in. I stood up and slowly went back in. While still at the door I already saw my mother without her oxygen and right there and then I already knew that she's gone. I run towards her crying, telling her to wake up while shaking her body. I shouted my cries because I can't take the pain silently. I was weeping. I can't remember when did I stopped crying but when I did I called her family again to inform them. My father then called at home to inform them except my younger brother. We never told him that our mother is already dead. He just found it out when he accidentally passed over at the funeral home near our house and he sees us. I cried again seeing how painful it was for my father to told him while leading him inside where my mother's dead body was being prepared. I think that's all for now since this one already have a 5 minutes reading time. I'll just gonna write my father's separately. It's been 4 years but it is still fresh like it just happened yesterday. It been hard for me finishing this one without shedding a tear so I'm gonna end it here. Thank you for giving this your time. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 16 September 2021

Perfectly Imperfect The sun is now setting which brought the golden hues on the sky and the ocean floor in front of me. I really wonder how God created the Earth perfectly. How He put the perfect color on everything that our eyes can see. How did He know that red looks perfect on a rose? How did He know who's perfect for you? A lot of questions is still lingering in my mind while I silently adore the scene in front of me when a pair of feet appeared on my side. I glance on it's way. The memories of yesterday slowly flash on my mind. *"Amber! Wait up"* *It was my friend, Soledad or Sol for short. She doesn't want to be called by her real name because according to her, her name is for oldies.* *"What? I need to go home early. Mom wants me to help her with cooking since her friend is coming for dinner." I replied glancing at her while still walking towards the gate of our school.* *"My parents will not be home tonight so my brother will be inviting his friends for a party at our house." She said while almost running towards me just to cope up with my pace.* *"Ohh, okay. I'll tell mom." I know what she meant by that. She wants to sleep in our house. She's been like that every time her parents are not around most especially when her older brother invites his friends at home for a party. She hates parties, so do I.* *"Yeyy!" She grab my hand and run towards her driver who is patiently waiting for her at the parking lot. She then instructed him to drive straight at my house. We didn't wait for her brother since he already have his own car. He's 4 years older than us. We are on our last year in senior high while her brother is on his last year in college. While on our way, Sol then explained what are her plans to her driver and that her parents already knows about it. They then agreed that Sol will be fetched the next morning at our house since tomorrow is Saturday.* *The drive was not that long. We arrived at my house 10 minutes later. My mom, as always, let Sol sleep in our house specifically in my room. I hurriedly changed my uniform and Sol did too. She also helped in preparing food for our dinner. My mom's friend arrived just minutes after my father. Mom then introduced us with Tita Marie and Tito Jack and their son Mackie. I learned that Tita Marie and Tito Jack were at our neighborhood checking a house. They're planning to settle down here for good. Mackie was also around our age and is transferring in our school.* *"My Amber and Sol here is also in their senior year Mackie darling. You'll gonna be enjoying each other's company, I'm very sure of that."* *Our dinner ended and Tita Marie, Tito Jack and Mackie stayed for a little while for some tea. Since it's a bit late, Sol and I excused ourselves to finally sleep and rest. The next day, Sol was fetched by her driver.* *"Did you make your assignment last night?" It was our classmate Bianca talking with her friend Isla at the back.* *"Did Bianca said assignment? Ohh my, I forgot mine at home. I just hope that Kuya is still at home."* *"Text him already to bring your assignment." I half-heartedly suggested. I am not really close to Sol's older brother. I kind of feel like uncomfortable when he's around and Sol knows that. We're close a few years ago but it just changed when my darkest secret got revealed because of a game. We were playing a Truth or Dare in our classroom together with my classmates. It was my time when I chose Truth over Dare. They're always been curious who my crush was since they didn't hear me crushing on someone. I didn't know whose name to say so I blurted out Val's name, Sol's older brother, because I truly admire him for simply being him. That news spread like wildfire and a few hours later, everything changed.* Uwu!! This is purely fictional. I certainly have an ending in my mind but I still have a lot things that I wanted to do in this story. Please let me know what you think of this one. Thank you in advance.

@isla_20 16 September 2021

Hooray! Another sponsor for me today. Thank you so much @Ellehcim for the sponsorship ❤️ I appreciate it so much. Cheers to more blessings and BCH🥳

@isla_20 14 September 2021

Vivid Dreams September 14, 2021 My life has been turned upside down 4 years ago. Suddenly all that I was used to was gone in just a short span of time. My dreams also changed. It was as if I am living my nightmare and I was dreaming my life. The first day and the first few months was the hardest. *I was sleeping and I was woken up by the sounds of the dishes being washed and the sound of someone preparing our breakfast and I know in myself that it was my mother doing all of that. I got up from my bed and went to the kitchen and there I saw my mom preparing our breakfast.* *My father arrived from his morning visit to our rice field. He was with his usual farmer's clothes. A shirt which he cut out the sleeves for it to be refreshing paired with his old short and a machete in his side tied in his waist.* *It was Sunday and we need to get back to our boarding houses because the class starts at Monday. My father drove us to the terminal and waited with us until the bus arrived. We bid our goodbye's and with the last glance I saw my father waving his hands and smiling at us. We arrived at the bus terminal. One more ride and then we'll be at our destination. My phone rang, it was a text message from my father saying that we should text or call him when we arrive at our boarding house. I texted him, informing that we just arrived at the bus terminal.* *The week ended abruptly. It is now Saturday and it's now time to go home. I woke up very early to catch the first and only bus.* *It was 7 A.M. when I arrived at home. My younger brother is still asleep. I greeted my parents and told them how my trip was. I got so tired and decided to take a nap before eating my breakfast. I was sleeping peacefully when a very familiar sound entered my sleeping mind. It was the sound that would always woke me up every morning. The sound of dishes clinging with each other. Ahh, that's my mom in her usual routine--- preparing our meal. We are very lucky to have our parents with us. The smell of freshly brewed coffee wake my senses up. I am all smiles while walking towards the kitchen but before I am able to see my mom...* I was woken up by the same sounds that I heard just a while ago. My tears fall down while hearing it. I just realized that a month ago my mother stopped preparing our breakfast and just days ago my father stopped visiting our rice fields. And just days ago when I received his last text. I just realized that I will never be able to see her again in our kitchen preparing our meals. I'm not gonna receive any call or text from him. I just realized that it was all just a dream. This was been in my drafts for a week already but I was not able to finish this. I didn't know how to write this one but now I managed to. This was inspired by @JonicaBradley prompt #Dream. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 12 September 2021

What if? September 12, 2021 It's been a week since I last published my article here at read.cash. I can't think of any topic to write these past few days. I was also not that active in noise.cash because I was not really feeling okay. I have a fever as of this moment and my body is aching but I will try to cope up here at read.cash today. For today I will just gonna answer the "What if's" since my brain is really not working but I hope I'll gonna pull this off. **What if you could make money grow from trees in your back yard?** This is really nice but thinking that I don't have a backyard as of the moment just spoil the idea of growing some money. But if I have a tree in my back that can grow some money I will definitely share it with the people that needs it especially that we are at a crisis because of this pandemic. **You can either be an astronaut or a professional driver. What if you could be both but only if you agree to switch to the opposite sex?** I will gladly switch to the opposite sex. Why? Because being a woman is hard especially when you become a mom. I am not saying that I don't want to be a mother but if I have a choice I want to be a man not because I want to be an astronaut or a professional driver because clearly a woman can also do that. I wanted to be a man because I think being a man is easy. **What if you have to give up one thing between watching television or surfing the internet?** I will gladly give up watching television. I'm not really a fan of watching TV, I am more into browsing the internet. With internet I can surely earn money and be updated with the things that is happening around the world just like when watching television and browsing the internet is more convenient for me. **What if money was never an issue in your life? Where would you be at this exact moment?** I always dream of having a lot of money especially when I see people who doesn't have anything in their table to eat. I wanted to help them, so maybe I am somewhere helping someone. **What if you could choose how and when you were going to die?** I want to die while sleeping or in a vehicular accident that will result in my sudden death. I just want to leave this world without any sufferings. And of course I want to die old. I don't want to die young without enjoying life to the fullest. **What if you were alone in the house, and you heard doors opening and closing at night?** I'll surely be running away from that house. It's so scary when that happens and luckily I never experienced that kind of situation and I'm praying to not experience that at all. **What if we all lived in gardens and houses made of grass with huge vines and sunflowers surrounding us like walls?** I would love to live in a house made of grass with huge vines and sunflowers surrounding us. This also means that no pollution and we can only breath fresh air which is a luxury when you live in a city. Most people only experience breathing unpolluted air when they go to provinces. **What if your last kiss was the only kiss you would remember for the rest of your life? Would you change the person whom you kissed?** Definitely not. No other explanation, hihihi. I feel like I am floating in the air while answering those questions above😅 Sorry if this is so lame. Babawi nalang ako sa susunod. Thank you. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 8 September 2021

Good morning everyone! Seeing the notification saying that I got another sponsor got me excited. Thank you so much @bmjc98 for the sponsorship. More power and BCH to all of us, hihihih

@isla_20 5 September 2021

Just me being random..... September 5, 2021 ***It is me again being myself, random. I choose this questions randomly from*** ***https://www.brightful.me/blog/random-questions-to-ask-start-a-conversation/*** ***.*** So without anything being said let's start this one already. If You Had Three Wishes, What Would You Wish For? If I had three wishes I would wish to first, travel back in time when my parents are still with us. Second, to have a farm land to cultivate and grow some crops because that is what my father always wanted. And lastly, to stay with them. What was your fondest memory of high school? I would say that it would be all the memory that I am with my circle friends. I enjoyed my life in high school because of them. We've done a lot of silly things together all while still learning. My high school was never boring nor a bad experience. What talent would you want to possess if you could? Growing up I'm always envious with the people around me who could dance and sing. I am a bad dancer and bad singer. I can't participate at events which need those talents. While my classmates and friends ate performing I'm always at the corner watching them. I felt so bad and untalented. So if you ask me that question, my answer will always be that two. Who do you most like to poke fun at? It's my boyfriend. It is our way of enjoying our time together by making jokes at each other. If you could be best friends with a celebrity, who would it be? The first celebrity that comes in my kind while reading this question is actually Chris Hemsworth but I like him better as my husband, LOL. So I'm gonna go with Jason Momoa as my best friend because I've read something about Emilia Clarke's interview about Jason Momoa shouting "wifey" and rugby tacking her when he saw her. I just found that so funny. If you were to play a song you love right now, what would it be? It will always be "Beautiful" by Jim Brickman and Wayne Brady. When I first heard that song, I just fell in love with it. What have you learned about life from kids? I think it would be to always appreciate little things that you have and to always choose to be happy. And never be ashamed of showing what you feel. If you could have any super power, which one would you choose? As always it would be the power to teleport. I just love the concept of teleportation so much. I watched this movie a long time ago entitled "Jumper" and I feel in love with it. If you were invited to attend Hogwarts, which Hogwarts house would you choose? A couple of years ago, my friend introduced me to this some kind of like Hogwarts school online and they will gonna sort you into a house based on your answers to the questions at the beginning when you sign up. So I answered the questions. After I finished answering the questions, it was then evaluated and the remarks was that I am similar to Harry. Like Harry, I was sorted in the House of Gryffindor. Would you rather be able to control time, or be able to know what people are thinking? I would never dare to know what other people are thinking. I can't even control my own mind what more if I would know what other people are thinking? I would surely become a mess. So I would rather be able to control time. I want to stop the time whenever I feel so genuinely happy and will turn the time faster everytime I feel sad and lonely. It you found $2,000 in the ground, what would you do with it? I would use it to buy some BCH when the market is in dip😁. Or buy some EBEN and stake it HAHAHAH. Do you save or spend? I want to save but I can't stop spending especially if it's food. That's it guys. Hope you like it. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 2 September 2021

Introducing BCH through read.cash and noise.cash to my Friends **September 2, 2021** **The First Encounter** It was year 2018 when I first heard about Bitcoin. I was at my first year in college when one of my instructor shared his endeavors at the crypto world. There is never a meeting where he doesn't brag about his profits in Bitcoin. He said that Bitcoin is a good investment as what he is teaching us is about the Applied Mathematics of Investment. As a naive student, I didn't actually believed in him. In my mind I was like, "How can you earn money without it's physical form?", "How can you even convert it into a dollar?", "Is it even possible for a single so called Bitcoin to have a value that big?". Those are the questions that keeps on lingering in my mind and kept me from believing what our instructor is saying throughout that semester. We even mocked him whenever we got out of his class and called him as "Mr. Bitcoin". **The Second Encounter** It was March of this year when I heard about Bitcoin again but this time it has *cash* at the end of it --- Bitcoincash. It was my neighbor back then who kept on talking about Bitcoincash, it was ate @Zhyne06 . I can always hear her talking about it to ate @Janz who is my sister-in-law. I can hear the excitement in their voices everytime they talked about getting a tip from the bot, Rusty. And when I passed in front of them they would even advice me to sign up and make my own account. They told me about noise.cash and read.cash and how they earn from it. I was not attentive as to what they are saying but still pretended that I was and kept on agreeing to what they are saying. They've told me about it a couple of times but a little curiosity about it was all that I've got. All I remembered was the URL. One day I was able to have some extra data from my studies and wrote the URL at my browser. With the little idea about the two platform I did signed up, both at noise.cash and read.cash. I was active at the platform for just a day or two. I didn't know what to post at noise.cash so if you happen to scroll back to my first post, you'll see that I posted just a word. As for the read.cash, I think I posted an article there and it didn't even reach the 3 minute reading time. I didn't got any amount, because obviously I didn't know what I was doing, from both of them that made me unmotivated to continue my endeavor. **The Third Encounter** A couple of months had passed and with the help of my sister-in-law and her constant encouragement, I logged back in to the platforms. Unfortunately, I didn't remember any of the details of my read.cash account so I decided to make a new one. This time, I listened to her tips in order for me to be noticed at the platform. I was so happy when I first got a tip at noise.cash. It made me feel so motivated and continued posting random stuff at noise.cash. Meanwhile, my account at read.cash first got a tip from my very supportive sister-in-law. It was really her that inspired me to keep hustling at read.cash. I read about a lot of articles from the different writers that added up to my inspiration. Reading their monthly reports and goals was the reason that I pushed myself to write one article per day. It took Rusty a week to finally noticed my existence at read.cash. It was 9:00 A.M when I opened my phone and visited the platform with the notification of "TheRandomRewarder upvoted your blah blah blah". It was the best day of my life and shared the news to my brother which he then told my sister-in-law. From then on I was able to got some upvotes from Rusty and also from the generous people here at read.cash. I may not be earning like how other writers are but I am still grateful. **Spreading Awareness** When I first got to withdraw my earnings, I decided to share the platform to some of my friends with the intention of helping them and spreading awareness about BCH. However, I didn't expected their response to it. It was like I was talking to my old self. I can see that they were not interested to what I am talking about. Doubt was evident in their faces. No matter how much proof I showed them it seems that they see BCH, read.cash, and noise.cash as a scam. It pained me thinking that I was like them a few months ago and couldn't even blame them for thinking that way because I've been there. It's hard for them to believe that they can earn just by posting random stuff just like what they are doing at Facebook and Twitter. I'm always being frowned upon every time I shared with them what I was been doing at the platform. Despite the unwelcoming response I got from them I am still not gonna stop spreading awareness about BCH. I will not stop telling them that yes there is a coin called Bitcoincash and that the single coin can have a huge value and it may increase in due time. I will not stop telling them that you can earn money without holding it in physical form. And I will not stop learning new ideas about BCH and the whole cryptocurrency and be able to educate the people that things like Bitcoincash exists. Because for me, BITCOINCASH IS THE FUTURE.

@isla_20 1 September 2021

September 1st What a good start for the month of September. I woke up seeing the sun rising up earlier this morning. It was so good since it's been raining here in our place for the last couple of days. The sun was so bright and I saw a couple of people doing there laundry. We started our day with a good breakfast---omelette, dried fish, and a hot chocolate drink. We enjoyed eating our meal while talking about things that happened to us in the month of August. It's been tough and we are all thankful of the decision that we've been made. After finishing our meal we head off visiting our noise.cash and read.cash account for updates. I have seen that rusty visited a couple of times and I felt so happy. Since there are just the 3 of us here in the house, I decided to make some noise by playing Jose Mari Chan's Christmas songs. His songs will really remind you the feeling of celebrating the Christmas. When my younger brother arrived here in the house and hear what was playing he commented that it was still early to play such kind of music. Well, we Filipinos have the very long Christmas celebration because we celebrate it right when Ber months will start---as early as September 1st. I opened my laptop and play some games in it to relax. I was not able to noticed that the battery has low power so while playing it just went off. I went upstairs to charged it and went back down to get my phone. When I looked at myself in mirror, I have noticed that both of my eyes are red. Last night it was just my left eye but today it was both. I don't know what's the reason why it became red all of a sudden. It's not painful or even itchy, it's just red. I searched for google as to what can I do to lessen the redness and I found out that I can put wet cotton wool above my eye. I tried it right after we finished eating our lunch. I got some cotton and put some mineral water to it, just enough to wet it and then put it above my closed eyes. I felt that my eyes kind of relaxes when I did it. While doing it I kind of felt sleepy so I went to my room upstairs, removed the cotton and decided to sleep. It was quarter to 4:00 P.M when I woke up. I went to the kitchen and saw my brother and sister-in-law preparing our food for dinner. They are planning to cook *escabeche* as our viand. While watching them preparing for the ingredients I felt that my eyes are getting itchy and there a slight sting on it. I wore my anti radiation glasses to atleast ease the exposure of my eyes but it has no effect. Maybe I'll start to lessen using my phone and laptop for my eyes to atleast relax from the exposure in radiation. And this would mean me not visiting the platform. So yeah, maybe I'll be gone for a couple of days to relax and will just be back after the redness is gone. I kind of felt worried because this is the first time that my eyes became like this. I'm really praying that this is nothing serious and hopefully that the redness will be gone tomorrow when I woke up because visiting read.cash and noise.cash is already part of my everyday routine. My September started beautifully but I am gonna end it with a goodbye. Goodbye for now guys. I'll see you all when my eyes are back to normal. Take care everyone and thank you. Ciao 😘 *****All photos used are captured by me and/or screenshots from my phone.*****

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@isla_20 31 August 2021

My kind of accepting an apology August 31, 2021 ***Hey, it's August 31. The last day of August and tomorrow will be the start of Ber Months. Wishing that the month of September will start with something good.*** We, humans are not perfect. We make mistakes and we forgive too. But as a human, some people don't accept an apology. Like me. I don't usually accept an apology due to some reasons and I'm gonna tell you about it here. I know that we are all different and what I'm gonna write in here are based on my experiences. My not accepting an apology doesn't mean I don't forgive people. What I mean in here is that when you ask for an apology from me, I won't give it to you by saying "I accept your apology". I have different kinds of accepting an apology and those are through actions coz you know I prefer actions more than words. My Way of Accepting your Apology **1. If I start talking to you again** When I'm angry at you because you've done something wrong to me what you'll gonna get from me is a silent treatment. I'm not gonna talk to you until my anger goes down. Even if you'll say that you're sorry a hundred of times if I'm still angry I am not gonna accept that. Why? Because I don't push myself to forgive you. I don't want to try hard for us to be okay again just because you've already said your sorry. I want us to be okay again without any hard feelings left in me. You will know if I have forgiven you already if I started talking to you again. So, if you happen to have done something wrong just say you're sorry once or twice because if you'll gonna say sorry a couple of times my anger will just boil up again because of annoyance. **2. If I offer you a food** Everytime that my younger brother and I got into a fight or misunderstanding, he would always be treated by me coldly. He would not gonna hear me asking him if he had eaten his meal already unlike those days that we are okay. I love my brother that is why whenever I eat my meal I always ask him to eat with me. So if he have done something which I don't like I'll just gonna keep quiet and eat my meal alone. If my anger already subsided that's when the time that I will offer him a food as a sign that I have forgiven him already. That's it. There are just really the two of them😂. I'm not really hard to please but if I'm really angry at you for doing something, it might take me months before I forgive you. Despite accepting your sorry, please don't expect us to be back to what we used to be. I may have forgiven you but I wouldn't trust you again like how I trusted you before. *(Hindi na ako huhugot pa, basta nasaktan ako dahil dun pero okay na ako ngayon.)* Please forgive me if this may seem nonsense to you but still thank you for reading this one. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 30 August 2021

Looking Closely August 30, 2021 I read about @OfficialGamboaLikeUs article entitled "Self examining: What am I?" and ask if I could write my own about it since I don't have any topic to write, hihihi. So, here is my version. **What am I good at?** To be honest I don't really know at what aspect I am good at because I suck at everything HAHAHAHA. But I can say that I'm a good listener. If you're my friend and you'll share your secrets and problems with me I'll always listen to everything that you'll said. I will let you pour at me all that is in your head. I will also give you some advice and will definitely tell you if I think that you are the one at fault. I am that kind of friend who will listen to you but will not tolerate you. **What am I bad at?** If I'm gonna answer this one, this will be a long list for sure because as what I have written above I suck at everything. So, what I'm gonna include here are the one that I really suck at. I'm really bad at managing my time and following my own set of schedule. Whenever I plan my activity for the day like doing my modules it's very hard for me to follow it. I procrastinate a lot especially during this time that there are so many restrictions and we can't function well. I am also bad at waking up early and it is also very hard for me to sleep at night. I'm really a night person which is the reason that I have a thin body. **What makes me tired?** There's really this one thing that makes me tired and makes me to not function as myself. It is when this certain person who I don't like keeps on nagging me or just by hearing her voice will make me tired. If I hear her voice I automatically lose my energy for the entire day. So, what I do when she's around is I just lay on my bed all day or leave the house. **What is the most important thing in my life?** The most important thing in my life right now is my siblings who I consider as my only family and my boyfriend. I'm not gonna surrender at whatever problems that will be thrown in my way as long as I have them. **What stresses me out?** When I was still at my grandma's house everything stresses me out. It was just so toxic in there that whatever you do is an issue for them. They always have something to say about everything. It was as if they were born just for that job and it's very annoying. But as of this moment, I don't think something will stress me out because I'm the type of person who always look for happiness at everything, anytime. **What relaxes me?** Whenever I felt stressed out before there is only one person who can calm me and give me peace. It's my boyfriend. There's just something about him that can calm everything in me, maybe because I love him. So, everytime that something is bothering I will just gonna talk to him and share everything to him then I'll feel okay right away. Also, when I don't know what to do anymore I'll gonna ask for his idea about it for me to have some clarification because he's not gonna sugarcoat everything that he'll said. If he thinks that I'm the one at fault then he'll tell me without any hesitations. **How do I want others to see me?** I don't have any hold as to how other people will see me so, I'm just gonna let them see me whatever they like. After all, I don't need their approval in my life. They're just their to pull me down and if I will entertain everything that they will say I'll just feel stressed so might as well let them be. **What makes me angry?** There's only one thing that makes me angry at people. It is when someone would use my things without my permission especially if they're not my friend or my family. But there are also things that I wouldn't care if anyone will use it just not the things that I bought using my own money which I consider as important. As of now there are just three things that I don't want others to use without my permission --- my phone, charger, and my bike. **What makes me happy?** If I'm angry, sad, or lonely, just give some food then my mood will surely lift up. And there is also someone that will make me happy, my one and only **(*****charr)*** . He can make me cry, angry and sad but he can also make me happy. Everytime that I hear his corny jokes, whatever effort that I make just to stay angry, I always find myself smiling at the end. **What type of friend do I want to be?** I always wanted to be that one friend who everyone trusts. I want everyone to know that whatever happens I will always be here for them. Not financially but emotionally because I know the feeling of not having anyone to talk your personal problem with. I don't want anyone to feel being left out. **What makes me afraid?** It's been 4 years since I started fearing to be left again. I don't want to go that same trauma again. I don't mind if I go first just not the important people in my life. I know this is so late but I want to thank you my only 3 sponsors ❤️. Thank you so much mga Ate❤️ Ciao 😘

@isla_20 28 August 2021

The Wind Beneath my Wings August 29, 2021 It's been 3 days since I last published an article and there's a lot that happened between that short span of time. I'm not go into details with you here but we are finally out of that house. We are now standing on our own together with my brother and my sister-in-law @Janz . I know this will be hard because we've been living with people our whole life and this one is a huge step for us. No one will gonna support us financially so we will be the one to provide for our needs. Well, it's not really like we've been supported full on financial matters while still with them though. It is now year 2022. Few hours from now and I'm gonna be holding my long awaited diploma. Our long awaited diploma. While waiting for my parents to arrive at my boarding house, I can't help but to look back on this journey of mine with my parents. I was in 2nd grade in elementary when my parents first separate ways due to some issues. My mom left us with my dad and went to Manila. I can still remember how heartbreaking that was for me, a 7 year old at that time. I was so young but I already understood why my mom left us. I thought at that time that I will not be seeing her again but just months after that my father decided that we will all go to Manila to see our mom there and to also fixed what was been broken. And my father did. May of year 2007 when we went back to the province and there I continued my studies together with my brother. Since then, they supported all of our needs with all they can. As their daughter, I witnessed all the hardships that my parents went through in raising us 3. There may be times when they can't pay the miscellaneous fees but they'll make sure that before the school year ends they are fully paid. **Fast forward.** It was year 2018 when I started my college journey at a university. My father was scared at first due to our financial status and is afraid if he'll be able to support the two of us. Nonetheless, he never backed down. We still went through our dreams of me becoming a degree holder, a licensed teacher to be exact. Throughout my 4 years in pursuing our dreams I've encountered a lot and stumbled upon countless of hindrances but my parents was there to support me. They kept me flying with their winds of wisdom, encouragements, trust, and above all love. There are times when I think of letting go of my dream but I can't let go my parent's dream. They're just too important for me. When we found out that I was one of those lucky students who are gonna be enjoying the TES-2 of our government, my parents were so delighted thinking that the financial burden of my studies will be lift off their shoulders. The 20,000 pesos every sem was a huge help for not just for me but for my parents as well. Every time that I received that amount I always wanted to give to my parents but my father would always refuse me because according to him that was intended for my studies. But I'm so stubborn that I always found ways to give it to him without noticing. Every sem that I got to finished was a step closer to our dream. Every school year that passed brought a new level of brightness in my parent's smile. I knew they've got so many negative thoughts from the people that surrounds us about me not being able to get a diploma but they never doubted me. They've became so proud of me every passing time. When I got my uniform for my practice teaching, my father immediately wanted me try it on for them and I did. When I got out wearing the uniform I can clearly hear and see the happiness in my parent's face. They're all praises and of course jokes, my father loves to joke around. While wearing the uniform I took that opportunity to have a photograph with them. We were all smiles, a genuine smile. I got teary eyed looking back at those memories when they came. My father in his usual white shirt and a pair of jeans paired with his favorite shoes smiling at me with his wrinkled face, tan skin because of working at a rice field. My mother wearing her simple cream dress and a pair of flat sandals. My younger brother standing beside them whose gonna start with his college journey the next school year with his shirt, a pair of black jeans, and shoes. My older brother was walking towards us holding my nephew's hands together with his wife. We went to my university's covered court where the graduation will be held. Throughout the entire time my family was all smiles. When I got back to them, I hug them tightly. I can't contain my emotions seeing them at my graduation day. We are so emotional that finally all of our efforts are finally paying off. We took a family picture together just like what we did at my older brother's graduation. This is the perfect family for me. The family that will support you and will continue to encourage you every time that you will doubt yourself. I love them so much and I thank them for being the wind beneath my wings. How I wish that this is all true, huhuhu. I don't know why I suddenly wrote this kind of thing at 2 A.M. in the morning. I just woke up and suddenly wanted to write this one. Maybe because these are the things that I wanted to happen and been imagining all those years. Anyways, thank you for lending your time in reading this just out of the blue article of mine. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 25 August 2021

It’s Raining and We Can Do Nothing About It August 25, 2021 ***There are things that we can do nothing about. Some are best to just be ignored most especially if you knew that it will just ruin you.*** For the last two days I feel so weak and not feeling to do anything expect to just lay on my bed and think about the things. Last August 22, 2021, while doing my laundry the rain suddenly poured and I got wet. The next day, my head is throbbing, I had a runny nose and I can feel that I am about to have a flu. Every year when Ber months is coming is the time that I become so sickly. Later that night of August 23, I felt so cold and head hurts so bad. I’ve taken a medicine because I know my body well, I am about to have a flu. True to what I had expected, at dawn of August 24 I woke up feeling a little dizzy and cold. Since it is still early, I decided to write an article to at least make use of my time and uploaded it here in read.cash. Throughout that day, I have done nothing expect the written article of course. The fever only worsened later that night so I decided to sleep early to rest hoping that when I woke up the fever would leave me. At 1:00 A.M. I woke up because of the headache. I didn’t get enough sleep and woke up again at four. Luckily, my fever already subsided and I was able to get and folded the clothes that I washed before catching a fever. **August 25, 2021** I woke up feeling myself again and expected that this day would be awesome but I was wrong, as always HAHAHA. At 3:00 P.M. this day, my younger brother already decided to take my bicycle to a repair shop together with our older brother since both of our bikes have damage tires. I was laying here in my bed waiting for the schedule to be available so that I can already enroll when suddenly my younger brother came and said that our older brother’s bicycle tire have a lot of hole as if it was being stabbed. When I got out and went to where his bicycle where, they showed me the bubbling tire due to a lot of holes (tires would make some bubbles when it is being showered or submerge in water). We’ve counted the holes and we come to a total of 8 bubbling holes. It is lot. My older brother got really angry and we only have one suspect who can do that. It is our mute and deaf cousin. They have this argument weeks before because of the same reason that leads to my brother killing my cousin’s beloved rooster. That is the only motive that we can think of as to why he is our culprit. He is the type of person who can’t sleep without getting even although it is his fault in the first place. My brother confronted him and got more angry when he denied it. His denial just made him more guilty. Why? It is because my brother didn’t told him yet what was the reason but when he saw that they are heading towards the bicycle he got really defensive already. My brother almost hit him due to raging anger but luckily he did not. Our grandmother came and as usual she defended our cousin by saying that he is not on his right mind and told my brother to just let it pass. Our younger brother also got angry because whatever the situation is when it comes to that cousin we are always wrong. In our entire life what we have received was them telling us to just let it pass. The worst thing is that our grandmother and his father believed him when he told him through his hand gestures that he got his bruise in his left eye because he was harassed by two people, my two brothers. My grandmother told me that and I said that I was there when the confrontation started and my brother didn’t hit him but she didn’t believe me. Instead, she told me that what if to have it certified by a doctor. I told my brother about what our grandmother had told me so he also confronted my grandmother, as always she washes her hands immediately. She even complained on our younger brother saying that our older brother didn’t have any respect at all because of what he did. I feel really sorry for our situation. We didn’t really have any choice. Whatever we do, we are always wrong. We are the bad ones in our relatives eyes because our grandmother will always tell them everything and will always disregard our sides. What we feel here is always nothing to them. For them we should be the one to always forgive and just let everything happen without fighting for our selves. This situation really sucks. I really loathe this place. I am really praying to leave this place as soon as I can. It's been raining here for 4 years already and we can do nothing about it but to let it pass and wait for the sun to show up. Sorry for lashing this all out to you but this is the only place where I can pour my feelings out without my so called relatives judging me. I am so fed up with them already. Thank you for reading. Good day and God Bless. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 23 August 2021

Growing up and Scared August 24, 2021 This article is inspired by @JonicaBradley Monsters, Myth, and Legend. I want to post this article last night but there is a problem and I can't access my account. Luckily I can now. Like any other child, my parents used to scare me every time that I wouldn't listen to them. Sometimes, my father used to scare us as he pretends to be one of those scary monsters that he tells us every night. Before we talked about my childhood and growing up with scary stories, let me first tell you about the Philippine Folklore that my parents used to tell us. **Scary monsters that My Father used to tell us** Aswang - according to what my father have told us, aswang is a human like monster with sharp fangs and finger nails that cut like a sharp blade. He says that aswang's favorite victim are children. They love to eat the organs of children because they are fresh. You can know if the aswang is near when their sounds are faint, and their sound is loud when they're away. Tik-tik - From my father's story and from what I have seen in TV, Tik-tik are human like monster that would crawl up in your roof. Their target are pregnant women aand newborn baby. Tik-tik has a very long tongue which they used to suck up a child inside the mother's womb. Sigbin - Sigbin were describe by my father as something that look like a kangaroo. According to him, Sigbin are the pet of aswang. They feed on the squash sprouts and usually go out at night. They were hidden inside a jar under the house or in a dark room. When you hear sounds like those of a clapping hands, it is told that those are there long ears. Manananggal - is a human when it's an ordinary day but their wings would grow in the night of full moon, their upper body will be detached from the lower ones. It is told that they will hid their lower body so that no one would see it while they were away looking for a victim. On the other hand, the upper body with the wings on it will be flying around to search for a victim. They also have sharp teeth and finger nails. Kapre - they are like giants that lives on old huge trees. They are described to have shoulder length hair. They have loud voices and a huge cigarettes in between their fingers. They love to scare people. Tiyanak - Tiyanak are babies that were aborted who turn into monsters. Their teeth are very sharp to suck up one's blood. My father said that it would attack at night. **Growing up** As a child I used to believe that everything that my parents had told me were true. It's your parents so, who wouldn't right? I grew up being scared ever night that one of those mentioned above well come to our house or attack us. When it's already dark outside, I'll just stay inside the house and wouldn't let myself be alone in one room. When I was still a child our house at that time was made of bamboo, our floor used to have those small gaps and we have these space underneath the floor that can fit a person and we call it ***"silong".*** I can still remember one night when my father had arrived from somewhere and we are inside the house with our bare feet, he went in the *silong* and poke our feet using a stick. We were scared and startled at the time. Meanwhile, my father continues to poke our feet while we were up scared. We got up in the table, chair and anything as long as our feet was not on the floor. When my father was already satisfied on scaring us, he burst into laughter. There are also times that he would make some strange sounds when he's outside our house like those of the sounds of monsters he used to tell us. As usual, we always got scared every time that he does that. But their are also times that strange things would happen in our place. I can remember this one in particular where our neighbor's sacks of rice that were piled in their porch have slits as if a sharp blade is used. There is also a scratch on the floor right under their door as if it wants to enter their household. The scratch are not like those of the cat's or dog's, they're different. With my Father's stories, constant acts of scaring and the strange things that would happen around our neighborhood, I grew up really believing that monsters really do exist. Good day everyone. Ciao😘 `Disclaimer: All photos used are not mine but rather from Google.`

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@isla_20 22 August 2021

Dreams and Plans August 22, 2021 When I was still a child I always dream of being a teacher. While in school listening to the lectures of my teacher I would always imagine myself being the one standing in front giving lessons. I don't know why I dreamt of being a teacher but maybe because most of the children gone through that stage. When you're a girl you'll dream of being a teacher. Meanwhile, a boy would dream of being a police officer. That's mostly the case at my time. As I grew older, my dreams are slowly changing. I started having my priority and not just a dream as a whole. I have this kind of timeline for my plans and dreams and it is constantly changing as time went by. My Dreams When I was in Highschool ***To finish my studies***- ever since this is my ultimate dream, even before I enter high school. For me, being able to have a degree means a better future, a stable job and a happy life. Being a degree holder means everything to me at that time and I wanted to become a teacher. ***To have a job***- of course, my plan after obtaining a degree is to have job, a stable job, and when I say a stable job that means a teaching job. I can still remember the days when my best friend and me will be talking about what are our plans for the future. When it's my turn to share my plans I always say that I want to finish my studies and become a teacher, give back to my parents and have my own house. ***To give back to my parents***- I really want to be able to give back to my parents when the time comes. I've seen there struggles just to provide us with our needs and I wanted to repay them. I wanted them to experience not being able to worry of what to eat for dinner or where to get the money that is needed to buy for stuff needed at home, or the money that is needed to be able to pay the electric bill. I really wanted to spoil them when I get a job. I want to build a house just for them. ***To build my own house -*** my plan back then after giving back to my parents was to build my own house. Since while growing up we didn't have our house so one of my dreams was to build my own house. I am not aiming for a lavish home but a simple house is enough for me as long as I have something to call as my own. When I entered college, a lot of things happened that affected my beliefs and the way that I see life. I was able to understand how hard the life is, how people will try to drag you down, and the hardships that you will encounter just to get your diploma. My dreams also changed as the time goes by. From having my 4 major dreams, now there are 5 of them. ***To be a degree holder*** ***To live alone*** ***To have a job and save up*** ***To have my own mini grocery store*** ***To build my own house*** ***To build my own family*** As of now, after finishing my degree I am aiming to have a job and be able to live alone. Why I want to live alone? It is because I am so fed up living having these kind of people around me which only gives me pain. I want to have a peaceful life which I haven't experienced for last 4 years of my life. Having a job didn't leave my list. I want to save up and start my own business which I really like after learning to love my course. Having your own business means you will have more time to spend with your family because you're the boss, no one will gonna dictate you on what to do. You are the owner of your time. Having my own family was also added to my list. I am really dreaming of having my own family which I can give my attention, care, and love. I want to build my own family that is the opposite of what I am experiencing right now. My So Called Timeline I've come up to my own timeline when one of my instructor shared his goal. He shared what are the things that he wants to achieve and at what age. I was fascinated by the idea and created mine. ***At 23 years old - to become a degree holder*** ***At 24 years old - have a job*** ***At 25 years old - start my own business*** ***At 26 years old - build my own house*** ***At 27 years old*** ***- start my own family*** My plan is as simple as that but I don't think I can achieve all of that though especially during this crisis. Despite that, I am still praying to God to guide me throughout my journey. I know He has plans for me, maybe different from what I have planned and maybe we have the same plan. Either way, I will still strive and fight with whatever that is ahead of me.

@isla_20 21 August 2021

Packaging and Labeling August 21, 2021 Good day everyone!! This is another prompt from @JonicaBradley and @TengoLoTodo . This is about **LABELS**. As a BSBA-Major in Marketing Management student, we are taught that packaging and labeling is also important for your product to succeed in the market. For our Major this sem which is Product Management, we are tasked to create our own product as well as the packaging and labeling of it. Before we go to my product and my labels of it, let me first share to you what I have learned in our module so far. **The 4 Kinds of Label** **Brand Label** - brand label are those labels that helps us identify the product or the brand (obviously) **Descriptive Label** - this is the one that provides information about the product like what is it made of and such. **Grade Label -** this are the labels that identifies the product's judge quality with a letter, number, or word. **Promotional Label** - in order to attract more consumers, promotional label are there to provide attractive graphics to help promote the product. **The Importance of Labeling in Marketing** According to what I have read, labeling is used by marketers to identify their products. Labeling is also used for packaging the product. Labels are also used to impart knowledge on the consumer about the ingredients of the food items. Label helps to spread awareness among the consumers. **Types of Labeling in Marketing** There are two types of labeling in marketing. The Branded Product Labels and the Eco or Information Labels. The Branded Product Labels plays an important role in company brand building programs. While the Eco or Information Labels are used on consumer products such as foodstuff and fast moving consumer goods. Of course, like what I have mentioned above, they are used to impart information to the consumer and these labels are often made out of eco-friendly substances so that they do not interfere with the consumable products. **The Prototype** It took me too long to be able to come up with this idea. I have decided to make a scented candle but with a twist. I've seen this video on Facebook about a soap with a money inside of it. The money ranges from $1 up to I think $10. So I thought why not create a scented candle that will help you relax from all the stress that this pandemic have brought us and will also ring you the exciting feeling every time you light up your candle because of the treasure that you can find inside of it. The treasure that I am referring is a money ranging from 1 peso up to 20 pesos which I covered with a foil to avoid from burning. I made this candle on my own. Since I don't have the equipment on making a candle I settle myself with some alternative. I just bought a beeswax candle at the market and melted it in a can. For the essential oil for the candle to have a scent, I searched on YouTube on how to create my own essential oil. I am not confident if I did it right, HAHAHA. But all in all, I am still so happy that I was able to pull this off. The Packaging and Labeling For the packaging, I created my own box from a folder I bought in the market. The labels are my own ideas and I created it using the Adobe Photoshop CS2 since I know how to use it because that was my job many years ago. I'm a minimalist when it comes to designs and stuff so I am contented with my creation. I just printed the labels earlier so I wasn't able to put it in the box that I have created but hopefully I can do it maybe tomorrow or tonight if I'm done answering the activities. I'm gonna update this one if I'm done with my overall product prototype. I hope you like it. Thank you for reading this one. Good day. Ciao 😘

@isla_20 20 August 2021

Answering Questions: Slambook Challenge (Part 2) August 20, 2021 Good day everyone! I hope you are all doing well. Earlier, it was raining here in our place which made me to just stay in our house as always😁 Here is the second part of my Slambook Challenge. Can I meet 3 person instead of 1 'coz there's this one person that I really want to meet in person. He's my ultimate crush since I knew him from the Avengers. I really admired how Chris Hemsworth portrayed Thor, the God of Thunder. Since then I became a super fan of him, I even call him as ***"bibi" or baby .*** As for the other 2, if you have read most of my article it would be obvious that they are my parents. I still have something to tell them so I want to meet them again. If only I could then I would. The last movie that I saw was the last part of The Kissing Booth trilogy. I was a bit disappointed of how it ended but was also able to get the message that the movie wanted it's viewers to learn. ***"Sometimes letting go is the best choice. No matter how strong both of you as a couple, you have to grow separately, you have to grow individually. It will be painful but it will be worth it." "I do love you, but maybe sometimes loving each other just isn't enough."*** - these lines really got me. Sometimes it's not wrong to let go of the one you love especially if the relationship kept you from growing and being the best version of yourself. What you need is someone that will push you to try harder and will support you to reach your dreams. So yeah, after realizing what the movie is all about I kinda like how it ended after all the very last part of the movie was them riding there own motorcycle. I chose this question because there's this one particular advice that I had received from my former teacher. I was in my junior year at that time and was currently experiencing the so called "puppy love". My teacher told me that even the relationship will end you can still love that person. Loving someone doesn't always mean that you need to be in a relationship with him or her. From that day on I learn to let go of the people that I love doesn't have the same feelings towards me. I also became a believer of the saying that, if you're meant to be then you will certainly meet again. "Tell your parents how much you love them because we never know until when they will stay with us. Show them how much you cared for them and please be a good daughter. Don't make them mad or even talk back to them. Always follow what they would tell you because all of that is for your own safety. I am also proud of you for being able to handle such difficulty at a young age. I know it's not easy but you did great. Whatever happens always strive with all that you can. Don't let people to look down on you. You're a fighter. Just always believe in yourself. " My biggest what if is, "What if my parents are still here with us?" That question always linger in my mind most especially when we face difficulty with the people that we are living right now. It is so hard not having your parents with you. You don't have someone you can depend on, someone who understands you, someone that truly cares for you. Maybe if they are still here with us our lives would be different. Maybe we can say that we're genuinely happy. But all of that are just maybe's. Well, the answer for this one is very much obvious. It is my boyfriend. We've been together for almost 5 years and I can say that I already knew him. We are so comfortable with each other and we are even planning for our future already. I know that married life is not easy but if the time comes I know that my partner will not abandon me. If faith favors us, I will be the happiest girl. For now, we are still enjoying our life as a couple despite the situation that we are in right now. I would say that I want to have that superpower to travel back in time and be able to change what I think was wrong but that would mean I will mess up my current life, so no. I would chose to have a superpower to teleport. Since I am not allowed to be with the man that I love, I always dream of having the power to teleport so I can be with him without the people noticing that I am gone. With that superpower I can travel to anywhere anytime that I want. There are also times where my friends are hanging out but due to financial problems I can't join them. So, having to teleport is really a must have for me lol. Thank you for reading this one. Good night. Ciao 😘

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@isla_20 18 August 2021

Actions Speaks Louder Than Words August 18, 2021 Good day everyone! How are you? I hope you are all okay and doing well. This is my first time writing prompt from @JonicaBradley and @TengoLoTodo I am a keen observer and I tend to associate actions as to how people see me or if they have grudges over me. Here are some actions that I had encountered and the reason as to how I interpreted them one by one. Smiles Then Turning Your Back on Me If somebody smiles on me especially those of my acquaintances I'll definitely smiled back at them and might start a conversation with them, however if they smile then eventually turn there backs on, I might not smile back at them or even talk to them ever again. Why? Turning your back is considered rude for me. And turning your back after smiling at me means you're smile is not sincere and that you have some grudges or you hate me but just pretended not having that feeling. Not unless you're talking to someone then you started looking around and coincidentally saw me, smiles at me, and back to who you are talking with earlier. I'll definitely not be talking to you again because above all, I hate pretentious people the most. If you don't like me then don't try pretending to like me. I, myself never pretends to like someone as my friend. If I don't like you then I am not talking to you. You're talking in group then suddenly stopped because of my arrival I am very cautious of people this kind and I have encountered this type of situation countless of times already. When I was younger, I just shrug this off. I was 17 when I started noticing this kind of act from people that I considered as my friends. This was when I was still in my previous school and boarding house. My boardmates at that time are my batch mates while still in highschool and we are all girls. It was my first week at school when their guy friend noticed my existence and asked them my number. Obviously he became my boyfriend at that time. He was from the other boarding house near the school and he always treats me for lunch, because of that all the other boys from where he stays became my friends too. They would always greet me whenever they saw me walking or in school. That's where things started. Whenever I came home from school I can see them in their room talking but they would eventually stopped and pretended to do something. Things gets worst when they put malice to my landlord's good intentions in helping me. Luckily, my roommate who is also my best friend told me everything. They're jealous of the attentions that I am getting from the people they admire who does not give them the attention that they wanted. The reason why they would stop their conversations upon my arrival is because they are talking ill behind my back. They successfully kicked me out from that house though. From that time on, that specific action would only mean one thing for me. You are back stabbing me. So whenever I encounter that situation, I always distanced myself from that kind of people. Sharing your secrets with me Choosing someone who you can share your secrets with is very hard. You will need to consider some specific criteria for you to truly trust someone with your secrets especially that a lot of us have trust issues. I have a few friends whom I share my secrets with and they do share their secrets with me too. So when someone shares their deepest and darkest secrets with me, I always feel honored. Who wouldn't? You've been that very good kind of friend to them to the point that they trusted you with their secrets. So, if one of my friends share their secrets I really do my best not to break their trust. And if there ever come a time that we'll part ways due to some specific reasons, you can trust me that whatever secrets that you have told me will remain a secret because after all, we've been friends. CLOSING THOUGHT In every situation, actions speaks louder than words. Words without action is just a word, so if you love someone might be better to show them rather than just tell them how you feel. And if you're sorry because you've done wrong, don't just tell them that you are sorry. Show them how sincere you are by not doing it again and avoiding things that might trigger the memory. Good day! Ciao 😘