I Wish I Can Stop It.

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2 years ago

Topic: Stop time -
"If you could stop time (and remain there) which year, moment, event or era would you choose, and why?"

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This is one of the weekend engagement topics I answered on Hive a few days ago and I wanted to share it with everyone here too because of how special today is. You will know how special it is when you read the poem towards the end of this post.

To answer the question above, I would say I wish I can stop time or go back in time. Wouldn't it have been so easy for us to not live in sorrow anymore or miss people that deeply? R. Kelly's song couldn't have come at a better time "If I Could Turn Back The Hands of Time". If I have a superpower to do anything, it would be to stop time.

I would go back in time to May 16, 1998, and I want to stay there and live there for as long as I can because it means I wouldn't have to deal with so many events that happened years after too. It means I would have avoided them just with that singular act of stopping time before disaster struck.

I am the last born of the family and I used to have 3 older siblings but they are two now. We are three boys and a girl and unfortunately, we lost the only girl amongst us on the 16th of May, 1998. I was young and I didn't know much about her ailment. I feared asking because I don't want to make my mother or dad cry again. I know she used to be in and out of the hospital for a while but it was a recent event then that happened in 1998. There was this particular time I went to the hospital to sleep beside her bed which explained how close we were.

We even shared the same room while the other two older brothers shared one. She was the calmest lady you would ever meet and I've never seen anyone as calm or as quiet as she was, even to this day. She loves peace and won't even argue with anyone or stir up drama unnecessarily. It has been the reason why I try my best to avoid people's drama sometimes. She was so meet and loveable and I wish I could go back to maybe a year before then when she was healthy enough for us to play and laugh around. She was a sweet soul.

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If I could stop time, it would help me in FOUR ways:

1. It means we wouldn't have to lose her and she would still be with us for a long time. I don't mind repeating the same day over and over again as long as she is beside me. A lot of people noticed how close I am with ladies and this is one of the reasons. It's not because I'm seeing my sister in them, but because I lacked what it means to have the ever-presence of one while growing up. This is me making up for those years... Don't judge me. She was the purest soul you'd ever meet.

2. It means I would not have to deal with the death of my dad too in 2006, May 26th since we would all be living in 1998 and my family would all be together.

3. It also means I wouldn't have to deal with the death of my mother in 2009, June 15th. It means I would have more time to spend with her for as long as I could. It means I wouldn't have to see her gasp for breath after she told me she loved it when I teach in fellowship. It means I wouldn't have to cry that day as we were rushing her to the hospital and I wouldn't be chasing the car she was being rushed to the hospital barefooted. It means I wouldn't have to watch her body at the morgue or even keep reliving her last moments and how she was struggling, in my head.

4. It also means I won't have to face this adult life because it's nothing but a scam. No one prepared us for this harsh reality. Living life as an adult is a different ball game. Things are not how they used to be and I can honestly say it's tiring and my tiredness is tired. Stopping time in 1998 means I won't have to grow up to shoulder so many responsibilities that makes my neck hurt πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ. It means I would still be under my parents' watch and I am okay with that.

I would go back in time to 1998, pause the time and live in that moment for as long as I can so I wouldn't have to deal with the future events that happened afterwards.

Today makes it 24 years since my late sister passed away. Here is the poem I wrote for her which I also shared on Hive under my username; Olawalium.

24 Years, Still Doesn't Make It Easier.

16th May 1998 - 24 years without your smile
It's another year without you for me to reach
How time flies but that doesn't mean it has been easier
Every day - night and day there are no new words of yours to preach
Dearest sister, you were the fairest of them all, you still are
Your calm demeanour and your incredible personality
Your kindness, your smile and your amazing charm made you a darling to all
You always banish my demons with your smile and drove away all my fears
You are incredible, phenomenal and stood out amongst your peers
It's still fresh and it was just like yesterday
Snatched away by the fold hands of death without a goodbye
There was no warning, you kept smiling through every pain
Giving hope that you would be better and stronger
They said death doesn't surprise wise people because they are always ready to leave
Your smile will forever be etched in my heart - having a place till eternity
Soft, tender, gentle, kindhearted, amazing and charming
You were phenomenal and phenomenal is you
To the world, you may have departed in person
I carry you everywhere we go in my heart and that won't ever change
And not a year passes by without your thought in my heart
This day would never leave my memory for as long as I live
Adebisi Abiodun Oladoja - gone but not forgotten -
Your kind of person can never be forgotten in a hurry
Sing with the angels since you were one when you were here anyway
You simply went home and I know it must be a great homecoming for you
Till we meet to part no more and until then
I would hold you in my heart for as long as I can
Love you, big sister - your kind is rare and I miss you

Thank you for your time.

My pen doesn't bleed, it speaks. I am love's chemical content in human form and that's whyΒ  I advise people to take a dose of "Olawalium" daily. πŸ™ˆ

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Unfortunately, @Olasquare, it is not possible to stop time, we do this thing called growing up, and in that are responsibilities, and we must ascertain that death is a part of life. It was given from the beginning. But we move on. Your sister sounds like the kind of woman that God intended when he created her. But nevertheless, she still had to go home. I think you did your sister an awesome service by your most excellent poem. I've lost all the women in our family, my little sister and my Mom both a few years ago. All but my dad and one uncle and my two brothers left. Everyone gone home. This post obtained through Dreemport: https://staging.dreemport.com

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2 years ago

Thank you so much. Your words always give this ease and you always make sense. Thank you so much for your kind words. Yes, she has gone home where she belonged. Heaven missed an angel when she was sent here on earth any way. I am really sorry about your sister and mum. Let's keep being strong for the ones we lost. God bless your heart.

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2 years ago

How special and how sad at the same time Olawali. So much loss for one person to have to deal with within their family. Sending you a big hug. We just had the 3rd anniversary of my Mom's passing... although three years on and I deal with it so much better... the week around it is always quite sobering for me and filled with moments that catch me off guard emotionally. Your poem is a beautiful ode to your sister. These lines are something you must hold onto:

Your smile will forever be etched in my heart...I carry you everywhere we go in my heart and that won't ever change

Carry them Olawali... they will always be with you. You will see them in your own reflection, in the voices of your other siblings, and maybe one day in that of your own children. I read this post of yours through Dreemport.

much love xx

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2 years ago

Your heart is so beautiful, Samantha and I am sorry about your mum. No doubt, we will carry them every where we go because those memories won't fade away. Thank you so much. I really appreciate you.

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2 years ago

Have read this already.. But im here again from Dreemport 😁

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2 years ago

Hahaha Dreemport doing wonders. Thanks Janey.

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2 years ago

May God comfort you dear. It must have been a harrowing experience for you living without them and even recounting their memories. But I believe in the hope of resurrection. Some day soon, you will see them again and your family will unite again. May God keep your brothers for you and protect your wife and daughter who will console you and fill the roles of mother and sister as well for you.

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2 years ago

Amen!!! Thank you so much, ma. This means a lot to me...so much. God bless you. I am deeply grateful.

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2 years ago

My eyes are filled with tears bro, I can't stand losing my family even though I know it would happen one day.

There was a particular day I thought about it and my pillow was soaked in tears, their impact in your life is very visible and I pray their souls continue to rest in peace. 1998 would definitely be a perfect time to pause the time.

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2 years ago

Yes, brother. It's a scary thought which we would never wish for. I pray yours live much more longer... Thank you so much, my brother. You have always been amazing.

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2 years ago

Sir, as i read this from the start to the end, i had to reread it again. Kaiii!! Sorry for all you have passed through, it isn't easy when one losses his loved ones, elder sister, dad & mum. I strongly believe your elder would be your gist partner, your playmate, and your friend. You both shared the same room , that's a great love, but na wa for death oh that took her away from you, if you could turn back the hand of time, you would go back to those days you both used to have beautiful time together. Those memories cannot be forgotten. Rest in peace to Aunty Abiodun, rest in peace to Daddy, bΓ bΓ‘ rere!!! Rest in Peace to Mum, Γ¬yΓ‘ dΓ‘radΓ‘ra . I know they didn't die, they only slept, certainly you will see them again by the resurrection morning at Christ's side, where there will be no more departure. God strengthen and help you always Egbon.

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2 years ago

Amen. Thank you so much... I always appreciate your kind words. It wasn't easy but God showed up every time and that consoled us all. God bless you, bro.

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2 years ago

It must've been a bumpy ride for you all this years. having to deal with pain of losing someone dear at a young age. so sorry sir.

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2 years ago

Bumpy ride it was, no doubt but here I am... Life will always happen, we just have to keep moving on. Thanks a lot.

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2 years ago

Such a sad one, I wonder how you coped, I guess it made you stronger Mr Ola, going back in time would have really been so much fun, going back in time would make us rewrite so many wrongs, going back in time would have shielded us from those sun burns we had due to our childish and ignorant minds.

But it's a pity, life goes on. Sorry about Big Sis, I really can't imagine what it means to loose a sibling and still loose both parents. Such nice poem you have there Mr Ola, I'm sure her heart embraces your unforgotten love for her, even in her demise.

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2 years ago

Bless your heart, Ella. Yes, we have to keep moving on especially when we have no power to change certain things. I appreciate your kind words dear. πŸ€—

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2 years ago

Time is reality. It is like we have to accept whatever comes our way, even if we like it or not. Very sad to hear about your sister whom you were close to. The poem her strength and your pain in losing her. If ever given a chance to go back I would definitely love to go to my childhood days. As you said no responsibility, a carefree life under the shelter of parents.

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2 years ago

That's reality of life and I agree. Thank you so much.

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2 years ago

I understand your feelings. I am sorry to here that you lose someone from your life. We don't have ability to control the power of our creator.

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2 years ago

Yes, we don't. We just have to keep moving on. Thanks a lot.

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2 years ago

I'm on tears while reading this my dear, really it's hard and really regretful to not spending time with our love ones when they are still here beside us, I wish we really can go back and stop time where they are still here. I also wanted to go back and stop the time when my aunt was still alive but I can't and I know that all dear to us that leave this world will still always be there guiding and looking for us from a far.

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2 years ago

I am so sorry about your aunt too, my friend. I wish we have that super power to effect that change and halt the death. Thank you so much.

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2 years ago

Wow I feel so sad when going through all those incident that happened. But since all those things has already happen, there is nothing we can do, we couldn't stop it from happening, we don't even have the strength in us to stop death from taking away our love ones. Yet we can't stop time from moving forward, but all those memory are so so painful, and it's something we can never forget in a hurry, but all we need to do is just to take heart, we have to strengthen ourselves and keep moving forward.

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2 years ago

That's true. We cannot stop time or go back in time but we just have to keep moving on. Thanks a lot for this.

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2 years ago

It's my pleasure sir.

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Sir If I could go back in time I would definitely want to live in the year 2014 & 2015 because there are so beautiful memories of mine that are linked to those two years. But Time only flows forward so we have got to live with what we given now. It will bring good things again for you, for me and everyone. Hope for the best

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2 years ago

Yes, live rolls and moves forward and that's what we are to do as well. It won't be easy but we have no choice.

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2 years ago

You are absolutely right’

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😊😊😊

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So many sad memories in just a year πŸ₯Ί. As for me, I'm not sure to what time I want to go back and remain there. I think I'm okay with my life now and I already move on to the sad events hmmm πŸ€”.

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2 years ago

Moving on is the best. You know those memories would just hit you and you wish you can go back in time.

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2 years ago

Ohh. I'm so touched Ola! Your sister is so dear to you that you want to stop time just to be with her forever. That's love.

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2 years ago

Thank you so much. She was amazing.

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2 years ago

No one can't stop time neither can anyone hold it not to move Am so sorry for everything that has happened to you I guess it is meant to be

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2 years ago

Yes, my dear. They are meant to be and there is nothing we can do to change it.

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2 years ago

Damn, this is very painful to read and although I feel your pain, I can't really tell how you feel coz I haven't lost anybody very close to me. Sorry about the family members you have lost, may their souls continue to rest in perfect peace

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2 years ago

Amen. Thanks a lot, brother. Always appreciated

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2 years ago

Your sorrow is understandable dear. We all have events we wish we can change but life just have to move on. Tomorrow is better

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2 years ago

We have no choice...we have to move on. Thank you so much.

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2 years ago

I missed this challenge.. Good luck uncle

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2 years ago

Yes, you said you were busy. I wish you can still write it here even if it's not on Hive.

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2 years ago

If only we have the ability to stop or turn back the time, why not? We really love to see those important person in our lives for once

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2 years ago

Absolutely. I would give anything to have that moment back.

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2 years ago

Reading that first line there made me wanted just go back to when I was born and after reading further I saw the year 1998 and I was like ok maybe it's a coincidence but truly sad sorry accept my deepest condolences please, but frankly speaking, I just want to go back to when I was born in 1998 because sometimes being a baby is just better than being an adult with all these adult problems and all this adult stuff, being a baby I way more enjoyable and having all your parents around to take care and provide for and not that am running or shying away from my responsibility but damn being an adult is killing me. just go back in time and be a child with my whole family intact because that feeling there is just the best, please again do accept my sincere condolences.

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2 years ago

I know how that feels. Sometimes I just wish I can run from the responsibilities of adulthood too, sadly we can't. They call it growing up...just as the rose comes forth despite the thorns. Good to have you here.

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2 years ago

I don't have any regrets living in todays time but if I could go back in time and stop it, it would be the time that my family was complete, where we were so happy enough to just not think about tomorrow, where Our family got broken..

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2 years ago

I can relate a little to that. I wish we all can too. Thanks a lot.

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Egbon oga o, bi ile aye shey ri ni yen,ki olorun sha maa da abo re bo wa,mo gbadura pe e o ni ri iru re mo. Nipa ti igbe aye agba nnnnn olorun mu yin pe owo ago ko shey e yi pada, ki gbogbo wa gba kamu ni...... hope I tried with my yoruba

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2 years ago

You more than tried and yes, I understood everything. Amen and thank you so much dear.

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2 years ago

Reading this story literally brought tears to my ears particularly the part when you had to chase after the car taking your Mom to the hospital barefoot. Losing a loved one is something nobody ever wishes for. So sorry about all these Sir Ola. This is painful 😣.

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2 years ago

Absolutely...I can't even wish it on someone I hate. It's a terrible state. Thank you so much, brother. I really appreciate you.

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2 years ago

Loosing someone dear to us really hurts Ola! Now I understand why you have many girl friends as I saw in some pictures you uploaded sometimes or I read in your articles.. For sure your sister is happy where she is now as she watched how you grow as a fine gentleman.

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2 years ago

I wish I can run to you right now and give you a warm hug. Thanks a lot, Lhes.

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2 years ago

Just sending my warm hugs Ola!

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2 years ago

Received with joy πŸ₯°

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Hehehe πŸ˜„

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2 years ago

in my break times I usually think about the subject of time, in particular with the ability to go back in time, and I reflect very seriously on it just in case the opportunity arises (hahaha) and I always conclude that I would choose the year after having my last son, since I can't risk losing them. 7 months ago I lost my father without a doubt if he could turn back time and stop him he would do it to be with him and never lose him. very good article friend, happy night.

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2 years ago

Thank you very much. Yes, I wish we can go back in time and pause time to our advantage too. It plays in my head often. Thanks a lot for this πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€— and I am so sorry about your dad.

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2 years ago

Thank you friend for your words of encouragement.

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2 years ago

Anytime. πŸ€—

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2 years ago

Being lost with someone isn't easy at all. We can't stop pouring our tears and emotions. We get better and okay soon.

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2 years ago

Yes, we hope to get better and move on eventually but those memories won't go away.

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2 years ago

I know that loss is also painful. Everything will never come back unless we have a time machine. I hope that everything gets better from now on.

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2 years ago

Absolutely and I believe everything will get better too. Thanks a lot.

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2 years ago

I once lost a sister too, then I was the youngest, though I didn't get to know her very well, but I still have few memories of her till date.

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2 years ago

Those memories can never go away. Thanks brother.

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2 years ago

May the beautiful soul of your dearly departed sister continue to rest in the bosom of the lord. Anytime time I read any of your articles about the loved ones you death have taken from you, I always get emotional

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2 years ago

I can't help but get emotional too. Memories sips from my veins sometimes. Thanks dear.

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2 years ago

Really touching. Can't say I can relate as I have never really lost anyone that close to me. Although, I lost a sister too around that 98/99 not sure exactly and I don't ask much because of how it affects my mom. But I was still very young and she was only a baby when she died so I don't have the memories really. But I do have a younger sister and she's my favourite siblings (don't tell my other siblings). She is a vibe and always looks out for others. I can't imagine how I'd feel if I lost her. May your sister's soul continue to rest in perfect peace.

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2 years ago

Hahaha don't worry. .I won't tell your other siblings. Thank you so much for your kind words. Deeply appreciated. πŸ€—πŸ€—. I pray she would live longer... God bless your heart.

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2 years ago

Time doesn't make it any easier, I wish I can stop time too. I can relate a bit to this. I'm so sorry about everything

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2 years ago

Thank you so much, my friend.

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2 years ago

Sorry for what happened, uncle Ola, and how I hope our wishes could come true so we could fix what ails us....sorry about your mother and father and everything that occurred.

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2 years ago

I have faith that everything will be alright. Deeply appreciated, Vic.

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2 years ago

We all have this moment in our lifes when we wished time could stop, when we wished what had happened should have never happened. All we have to do is to leave the past behind and move forward. When our loved ones becomes our memory they become a treasure to us.

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2 years ago

Yes, that's the best we can do; wish. We have to forge ahead and not allow ourselves to be held back by life.

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2 years ago

So sorry about this, this is really heartbreaking,this life is really an irony, while you are sad today another is celebrating her birthday today..... Am so so sorry about your mum and dad too, I wish I can give you a hug for a minute, it's really painful, please do take care.

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I could really use that hug. Thank you so much. I am really grateful.

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You are welcome 😚

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2 years ago

One thing that hurts so bad is losing someone you love. You wrote that she's a peaceful soul and I'm sure she's at peace wherever she is. Your story seems to be interesting and a bit tragic. I'm sorry😊. Have a nice time

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2 years ago

Thank you so much dear. I appreciate this.

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2 years ago

Such memories are hard to forget, I felt touched while reading the your story. It reminded me of my late Mom. May the good Lord keep her soul in peace.

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Thank you so much, sir and I am sorry about your mum. Memories like this can never be forgotten in a hurry.

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