I Wish I Can Stop It.
Topic: Stop time -
"If you could stop time (and remain there) which year, moment, event or era would you choose, and why?"
This is one of the weekend engagement topics I answered on Hive a few days ago and I wanted to share it with everyone here too because of how special today is. You will know how special it is when you read the poem towards the end of this post.
To answer the question above, I would say I wish I can stop time or go back in time. Wouldn't it have been so easy for us to not live in sorrow anymore or miss people that deeply? R. Kelly's song couldn't have come at a better time "If I Could Turn Back The Hands of Time". If I have a superpower to do anything, it would be to stop time.
I would go back in time to May 16, 1998, and I want to stay there and live there for as long as I can because it means I wouldn't have to deal with so many events that happened years after too. It means I would have avoided them just with that singular act of stopping time before disaster struck.
I am the last born of the family and I used to have 3 older siblings but they are two now. We are three boys and a girl and unfortunately, we lost the only girl amongst us on the 16th of May, 1998. I was young and I didn't know much about her ailment. I feared asking because I don't want to make my mother or dad cry again. I know she used to be in and out of the hospital for a while but it was a recent event then that happened in 1998. There was this particular time I went to the hospital to sleep beside her bed which explained how close we were.
We even shared the same room while the other two older brothers shared one. She was the calmest lady you would ever meet and I've never seen anyone as calm or as quiet as she was, even to this day. She loves peace and won't even argue with anyone or stir up drama unnecessarily. It has been the reason why I try my best to avoid people's drama sometimes. She was so meet and loveable and I wish I could go back to maybe a year before then when she was healthy enough for us to play and laugh around. She was a sweet soul.
If I could stop time, it would help me in FOUR ways:
1. It means we wouldn't have to lose her and she would still be with us for a long time. I don't mind repeating the same day over and over again as long as she is beside me. A lot of people noticed how close I am with ladies and this is one of the reasons. It's not because I'm seeing my sister in them, but because I lacked what it means to have the ever-presence of one while growing up. This is me making up for those years... Don't judge me. She was the purest soul you'd ever meet.
2. It means I would not have to deal with the death of my dad too in 2006, May 26th since we would all be living in 1998 and my family would all be together.
3. It also means I wouldn't have to deal with the death of my mother in 2009, June 15th. It means I would have more time to spend with her for as long as I could. It means I wouldn't have to see her gasp for breath after she told me she loved it when I teach in fellowship. It means I wouldn't have to cry that day as we were rushing her to the hospital and I wouldn't be chasing the car she was being rushed to the hospital barefooted. It means I wouldn't have to watch her body at the morgue or even keep reliving her last moments and how she was struggling, in my head.
4. It also means I won't have to face this adult life because it's nothing but a scam. No one prepared us for this harsh reality. Living life as an adult is a different ball game. Things are not how they used to be and I can honestly say it's tiring and my tiredness is tired. Stopping time in 1998 means I won't have to grow up to shoulder so many responsibilities that makes my neck hurt πππ. It means I would still be under my parents' watch and I am okay with that.
I would go back in time to 1998, pause the time and live in that moment for as long as I can so I wouldn't have to deal with the future events that happened afterwards.
Today makes it 24 years since my late sister passed away. Here is the poem I wrote for her which I also shared on Hive under my username; Olawalium.
24 Years, Still Doesn't Make It Easier.
16th May 1998 - 24 years without your smile
It's another year without you for me to reach
How time flies but that doesn't mean it has been easier
Every day - night and day there are no new words of yours to preach
Dearest sister, you were the fairest of them all, you still are
Your calm demeanour and your incredible personality
Your kindness, your smile and your amazing charm made you a darling to all
You always banish my demons with your smile and drove away all my fears
You are incredible, phenomenal and stood out amongst your peers
It's still fresh and it was just like yesterday
Snatched away by the fold hands of death without a goodbye
There was no warning, you kept smiling through every pain
Giving hope that you would be better and stronger
They said death doesn't surprise wise people because they are always ready to leave
Your smile will forever be etched in my heart - having a place till eternity
Soft, tender, gentle, kindhearted, amazing and charming
You were phenomenal and phenomenal is you
To the world, you may have departed in person
I carry you everywhere we go in my heart and that won't ever change
And not a year passes by without your thought in my heart
This day would never leave my memory for as long as I live
Adebisi Abiodun Oladoja - gone but not forgotten -
Your kind of person can never be forgotten in a hurry
Sing with the angels since you were one when you were here anyway
You simply went home and I know it must be a great homecoming for you
Till we meet to part no more and until then
I would hold you in my heart for as long as I can
Love you, big sister - your kind is rare and I miss you
Thank you for your time.
My pen doesn't bleed, it speaks. I am love's chemical content in human form and that's whyΒ I advise people to take a dose of "Olawalium" daily. π
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Unfortunately, @Olasquare, it is not possible to stop time, we do this thing called growing up, and in that are responsibilities, and we must ascertain that death is a part of life. It was given from the beginning. But we move on. Your sister sounds like the kind of woman that God intended when he created her. But nevertheless, she still had to go home. I think you did your sister an awesome service by your most excellent poem. I've lost all the women in our family, my little sister and my Mom both a few years ago. All but my dad and one uncle and my two brothers left. Everyone gone home. This post obtained through Dreemport: https://staging.dreemport.com