I'm waiting for you, so please look for me
I think I finally found my the one guysuu, my dream man. The man that I wish I have. He's not the hottest and he doesn't have the pretty face like others but I like him! No nope! I mean, I love him! The feeling is so intense that I can't really contain my mouth from screaming. I mean, seriously! This is the first time that I felt this. I feel like Mr. Cupid arrow my heart that when I saw him, My heart just started to beat fast. I think I just experience that thing they called " Love at first sight!" Even me can't take the intensity of my own feelings. I feel like my heart will just jump out of my chest!
I'm not really an NBSB coz I already experience having a relationship. I liked all of them but this one is just different, I mean way different from what I felt on mu Ex's. I can't really explain it clearly but for sure many of you can relate to this. He's not handsome but his appeal? My gosh! It's, it's mega super duper strong that I just want to go throw myself to him. I had bunch of crushes too but this one is really different. I can say that this is not just a mere crush! Coz I am in love!! Finally. I don't know that real meaning of Love before but I know it now. So this is what it feels like.
I think if he let me down this instant I will just choose to die without loving anyone if it's not him! But do you know what I love to him the most? It's his eyes. His chinky eyes the will give you a warn feeling inside because of how warm his smile is. You will just melt in there if you accidentally had an eye to eye contact with him. If before, I can't look to anyone if they are also looking at my way. That time, I just really can't stop myself from looking at his eyes. Yes, I experience having an eye to eye contact with him. I feel so hot all over my body because of embarrassment when I notice that I am having an eye to eye contact with him.
So after that, I just pretended that I am not looking at him by looking at his back. Lol. But you know what, after doing that my eyes just go look back to where he is and I saw him putting his facemask on again, huhu but there I saw him smile. I mean, even if he has this facemask I can very much tell that he is smiling the way his eyes get more chinky lol. Call me assuming but he really smile. Maybe he's laughing at me coz he caught me looking at him but deliberately avoid eyes contact when I notice it. Oh please heaven! Even if I want to wish to disappear in that place because of embarrassment, I didn't wish for it. I still want to see him more.
I'm not sure where is he from but he is unfamiliar to me so maybe he's from another barangay. You know what guys, I am so mad to Mommy when she asked me to run some errand and asked me to buy this and that with our viand but when I saw him. I thank my Mom because if she didn't force me to go to the market, I will never see him. I know it's impossible to see him again but, I'm praying to heaven that "Let me see him again pweaseeee!" Huehue. I want to know his name. I want to add him on Facebook, IG, Twitter and any other social media that exist until today. Oh please, Lord. Ibalato nyo na sya sakin huehue.
If only I have a kapalmuks, I will surely take some of his photo. But I still have a shame so I stop myself from doing that. What I did is, just to memorize his built and face. Inikot ko ang buong palengke just to watch him. And I am so happy because there is no girl in his side. I'm still not sure on that part too, but I'm hoping huehue. I really really like him and I hope to see him again one of this day. Now I have all the reason to go to the Market even if Mama is not with me. And guy, hahaha OMG. So, I know someone in the Market who knows my Name. He's Mom's friend, he sells chicken and that's where I buy chicken n always.
He has this habit that Everytime he will see me he will shout immediately and loudly my name like "Ruffaaaaa anong sa iyo, chicken?" Yeah like that, there are just times that I buy Pork that's why I can't always buy to him. And, OMG. I am so thankful to him because when he call my name loudly that time, that guy is in there. I'm not sure if he's listening but I'm hoping too that he is. I am actually waiting for his name in my inbox and I know I'm being assuming here but there's no harm naman in hoping right leelelelelel. Maybe, just maybe he has this a detective like talent just like in other girl therr who will look for their crush name on facebook and he will see mine and finally our love story will start haha.
For someone like me that's been a single for almost 6 years now, I am soooo atat na to have a juwa, lol. What what? I just want to feel loved again, to feel like someone cares for me. Is that too much to ask? Huehue. I also want love. I also want care, particularly from him. I don't know, it's just that the feeling I have for him is so intense that I silently wishing for this. I can be a little possessive and so much toxic but, I can work it out naman basta for him. OMFG, my thinking about all of this is just so advance. That's what he can do to me. I can be crazy in love and maybe I can finally do the things that I am afraid to do before. If it's him, I will surely work on it ☺️.
I'm just sooo inlove guysu, pweaseeee bear with me ☺️. It's been a week since it happened and I'm still hoping to see him. Maybe today I can finally see him. Let see I will surely share some chismis about my love life to all of you. That's for sure. But what's taking him so long huehue.
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April 02, 2022