Confessions Of A Former Drug User (The Escape)

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3 years ago

Good evening all.

Yesterday, I shared how my husband entered into the world of drug addiction when he was a little younger. Today, I am going to share the last part of his drug addiction diaries and how he was able to escape from it.

And I quote:

A Suicide Brings Me Back To Drugs

"In 2004, someone close to me committed suicide. My world flipped upside down, I felt the worst guilt I have ever felt and gone on a severely strong path of self-destruction and punishment. At the time I was a taxi driver and selling anything you could ask for out of my cab (in Las Vegas this is not at all uncommon).

Well, I started doing what I was selling - Meth and cocaine, and drinking became my new security blankets. I got off work every night and went to the casino and played blackjack. I would drink about 20 Jack Daniels and Cokes a night to distract me from thinking of my friend's death. If I went home to sleep, I was having nightmares similar to the movie "The Butterfly Effect" where I kept trying to go back and save my friend and kept failing.

This is why the meth and coke came in. I will come home fall on my face and have to be awake again in an hour. I would shower, brush my teeth and at this time now was smoking the meth, because the visible effects were less, you weren't as twitchy and you sweat a lot less.

I managed to finally stop doing it and came to terms with the past. I later started working as a car salesman, great more druggies around me, and before you knew it, I was doing coke at work. It put a lot more hype into your sales pitch. Again, it did not last and I stopped doing it."

Relationship Issues, Low Self Worth, Feeling Defeated

"My Old Friend Meth Visited Me Once Again - I got into another relationship. It was hmm soo soo and unhealthy we will say. So much drama and head games and in the mix. And we started doing meth together. I got pretty deep into it, why? Because it blocked out the emotions I was feeling of helplessness in my relationship. It basically numbed me by making my head race so fast, and I didn't have time to feel. I wanted to stop, but it was too hard because she always had some on her, and she would do it in front of me. I would even ask her to not bring it, but she would anyway and then offer it to me. I was always weak and accepted."

No Longer A Prisoner

"Finally, something great happened. She left town for a month. I cleaned up and when she returned, I refused to see her, and that ended her... and the meth? I am happy to say I have been drug-free ever since.

I will end this with one phrase that everyone has heard:

"Say no to drugs"

If you start using the word "NO" becomes very very hard to say.

I am not proud of this, but I did learn from it. I replaced drugs with my wife, she is my drug now. That may seem odd, but for a bipolar, ADHD person with PTSD, well, she is my savior. Tonight we had talked about my drinking. I will not go into details but, I have my demons and that excuses NOTHING. This is today, and I have goals as well as responsibilities that are hard to reach here. I have my moments where I wish to God, my past can help me focus. I do not like feeling like I am failing my family and that is a HUGE issue for me.

my husband and I

This is the most embarrassing part of my life, but it is the one part of my life where I may be able to help someone else. I do not regret what I have done because in some strange way I may be able to help someone else.

As an adult if not treated it gets immensely worse, so does your psyche, now add to that drug? You are looking at one hot mess. The fact that I breathe today is a complete miracle, people can blast God all they want, but I don't.

I am alive for a reason. It may not be about me, I really think I am alive for others. I am a crazy-ass left field, off the hook today and tomorrow may be a different kinda guy. One thing you will always know- I will be real. That is it. Am I special? HELL NO! Just well networked and everything everyone goes through! Been there, done that! I will use my past to try and help you. I will never walk away from that which I feel is a personal responsibility."

my husband and our daughter

"I just want to be a good person to make up for all the times in my life where I wasn't."

That ends my husband's drug confessions. Thank you all for reading.

It's almost 7 pm here and I'm going to go eat dinner now. A super typhoon just landed here in Northern Luzon, so I'll better hurry and I'll get back in a few. I hope everyone is having a manageable Friday.

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September 10, 2021

07: 02 pm

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3 years ago

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Imbag na lang ta ada ka nya? hehe.

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3 years ago

Haha sumpungen ladta kadey

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3 years ago

Wow! Sanaol madam bloghound. Yieee! I am amazed with how your husband changed and you were there for him.

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3 years ago

Hehe salamat, kuya!

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3 years ago

I was happy to know that eventually he was able to say "NO" to drugs. Hope all drugs users will have that courage and will like him.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much po!

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3 years ago

This is the most beautiful transition ever. From getting addicted to drugs, to getting addicted to you and your daughter. 💗 This is such an inspiring article sis.

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3 years ago

So kind of you. Thank you, Missjo!

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3 years ago

You are welcome, sis! 💗

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3 years ago

Salute to your hubby ate. I like how you and your daughter became his drug. :> May this article helps other drug users out there to look for the brighter side.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, sis!

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3 years ago

Wala talagang makakapantay sa pag mamahal hehe

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3 years ago

naman, sis hehe

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3 years ago

Ayyyy sanaol kinaaadikan sis hahaha. I am happy for him po. Buti nakawala na sya sa nakaraan na iyon.

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3 years ago

hehe salamat, sis!!!

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3 years ago

my wife, she is my drug now.

This is awesome.

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3 years ago

Thank you, big bro! Regards to your wifey!

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3 years ago

You mean my drug? Thank you. LOL.

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3 years ago

lol

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3 years ago

Your husband is a real life hero. His confession proves that anyone can change at any situation. There is always a way to stop negotiating with odd days. Bravo to your husband and I think, @Bloghound, you do too deserve credit for this. Love for your family. Stay safe as you said a typhoon is coming.

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3 years ago

Thank you, Hasan :) Happy weekend, my friend!

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3 years ago

Happy weekend dear

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3 years ago

This is the true power of love. Love can erase someone's dark world like a drug.

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3 years ago

I believe that too, Luna. Thank you!

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3 years ago

Sa pagkakaalam ko Sis mahirip iwasan ang addiction sa drugs, maraming taong sumubok iwasan pero di kaya. But your husband is so strong and blessed to defeat it. At ikaw na yung drugs nya, ganda naman ng effect nakakainlove hahaha

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3 years ago

Salamat, sis Ling hehe

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3 years ago

That's how life works po and I'm happy for him that he found his drug(you) to be woth him in times of ups and downs of life...and yung huling part po Tama iyon. It's not too late to make up for the things we missed in our misserable past life as long as we want to change it ..we can...😊 Ingat po kayo jan..mahangin po dito kahit malayo na ...

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, Jerome!

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3 years ago

Makapangyarihan talaga ang pagmamahal. Nakakaya nitong baguhin ang isang tao upang matakasan ang madilim na nakaraan. 😊

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3 years ago

Wen ngarud, kabsat. Thank you.

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3 years ago

Nakaka inspired magbasa nito. Alam kong hindi madaling mabago ang mga nakagawian ng mga bagay pero dahil sa pagmamahal niya para sa kanyang pamilya, nagawa niyang magbago.

"I replaced drugs with my wife, she is my drug now." - nakakakilig ang line na to,😄

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3 years ago

Mejo cheesy nga po pero, buti tumino naman po :D

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3 years ago

Bet ko yung ikaw na yung drugs niya sis haha. Buti at nakawala siya sa nakaraan na yun. ❣

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3 years ago

thanks, madam :D

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3 years ago

Wow ang saya kasi, he choose to be a better man, it only means that ung pagbabago is nasa sarili talaga natin sya, kaya need natin tulungan ang sarili natin at ng pamilya natin. Ang ganda ng story nya sis, very inspiring

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3 years ago

Salamat,sis :)

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3 years ago

So proud of how life can be changed by someone special! Totally happy this is a story from the past and know you can both see the future, and guess what guys it´s shining! congrats to your husband ´cause he´s a great fighter.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, Simon!

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3 years ago

Permit me to save this. I need to make one of my friends read this. Its a great lesson for drug addicts.

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3 years ago

That's so sweet of you. Thank you, Queen!

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3 years ago

Finally, I got to read part 2. I do not know what it's like to be addicted to pills but I know that it can take its toll on its victims and trying to get clean and gain some self-control will only get increasingly difficult with time, sometimes it might take someone getting hurt to realize we have made a bad decision. Say NO to drugs. Thank you so much for sharing, I hope someone out there is reading this and getting that courage they need to finally call it quits, for good.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, wolfman!

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3 years ago

One of those things peer pressure can't convince me to do is going into drug. I know the implications already and why should I? I am happy for him because he was able to fight it and recover. This should serve as as a lesson for drug addict on here

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3 years ago

Thank you, Gaftek!

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3 years ago

You are welcome ma

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3 years ago

One of those things peer pressure can't convince me to do is going into drug. I know the implications already and why should I.

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3 years ago

ohh..this made me T_T

The fact that I breathe today is a complete miracle, people can blast God all they want, but I don't.

and now, i want to know your love story sis..hahaha

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3 years ago

Nasa Bubblews yun dati, sis hehe

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3 years ago

Buti naman po nagawa nyang makaalis sa madilim nyang nakaraan. Nagpapatunay lang po kung gano ka nya kamahal

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3 years ago

Salamat, kli4d!

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3 years ago

Hmmm this is so touching but I believe it when he said been alive is by the grace of God because some people have died because of drugs and some has run mad because of drugs but God helped him to come out of it

It is a very miracle thing

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3 years ago

Indeed it is, Esther. Thank you so much.

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3 years ago

This is emotional and the part where he mentioned you to be his drugs moved my heart.

I have seen people who find it difficult to quit and I am glad your hubby found you to be a perfect reason to quit. You must be an amazing woman @Bloghound.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, George :)

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3 years ago

Yeah kinilig din ako dun sa ikaw na ang drug na hubby mo, super sweet sis. Glad that he left that thing forever. Ingat kayo sis.

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3 years ago

Hehe maraming salamat, sis!

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3 years ago

Heheh sana all talaga :D

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3 years ago

Haven't read the first part but what ntters is that your husband is now FREE! His story is worth sharing to inspire others and let them know that they can alsp overcome drugs! Thank you for this . ❤️

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3 years ago

Thank you for the kind comment too, sis :)

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3 years ago

No worries. <3

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3 years ago

Tragic events do bring out the worse in us. I'm glad you were there beside him and help him fight through it all.

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3 years ago

Thank you, Sponked!

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3 years ago

I hope that typhoon passes far away from your place. I am glad he was able to get out of that bondage and with your help.

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3 years ago

Thank you, gertu :)

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3 years ago

Truly an inspiration to young people. There could be a lot of lessons to be learned. And I admired your husband for being so brave to share his life with drugs before. It was not that easy. The best part is that he get over it and replaced it with his addiction to his wife which is you. Ayieeeeee.. God bless you po.

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3 years ago

Maraming salamat, sis.

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3 years ago

Awww... you have been and is his angel sis, you helped him out of the whole he was in. I love this confession.❤

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, sis :) God is good all the time.

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3 years ago

All the time sis! Have a great weekend!

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3 years ago

salamat, sis! you too!

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3 years ago

Wow! This is a touching story. Coming out of drug addiction is not that easy. I congratulate your husband for having the will to get out of his addiction and of course for finding you... his new drugs

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, kuya. Kaya nga po :)

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3 years ago

Thank God his been restored to share the story so that others can learn from it. If you an addict you can still say no to drugs it is never too late

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3 years ago

Really thank God, sistah. God is good!

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3 years ago

I was sad while reading your article. But knowing you're the reason for his rehabilitation makes me smile. What if he never meet you? What if you you didn't cross each other's path? Buti nalang po talaga. You're the savior ate bloghound (I still didn't know what to call you) pero mahnd6 yung butterfly effect movie angass

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3 years ago

Salamat, lodi Snail. Halos same lang naman kami ng past. Suicidal lang sakin din. Madaming beses. Yes, super nice yang movie na yan :) Gandang gabi!

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3 years ago

You are his inspiration to overcome that dark moments of his life. God bless both of you.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, sis Juliana!

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3 years ago

Love his story ate! It is a powerful story and WILL help a lot of people.. !!! ayiii,,, galeng bet ko yung thought na you two really work as a team... not a fairytale I bet but just right and exactly waht you both need... kick ass story you both have .. .!!!

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3 years ago

hehe thankie, lil sis. and for all the love and support. luvluvluv xoxoxo

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3 years ago

always right behind you ate ;) . . luvluv .. .makaidlip na......

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3 years ago

Hats off to your husband sis. Hindi madali bumitaw sa mga ganyang bagay. I know someone na akala mo hindi na talaga gumagamit pero ganun pa rin pala. I also love the line "My wife is my drug now." You and your daughter is his life now. God bless your family sis.(◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, sis Yzza. Life is carzy sometimes.

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3 years ago

Nakakakilig naman "My wife is now my drugs". Salute to your husband for fighting the addiction kahit mahirap.

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3 years ago

Hehe salamat, sis!

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3 years ago

Salute to your husband for having you as his drug now Madam. ❤❤❤ Not all drug story can turn out like that kasi yung karamihan Hindi na mabago bago, kinain na ng sistema. And I know the husband change because of you and your daughter. And alam ko din hindi biro yung pinagdaanan mo.

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3 years ago

Maraming salamat, sis. Opo, minsan inaatake din sya ng Ptsd nya. Minsan sobrang depressed ganyan. Okay na naman sya now, sis.

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3 years ago

God bless him and your whole family Sis. ❤

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3 years ago

❤❤❤ and to you as well, sis ❤❤❤

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3 years ago

Grabe yun nakarelasyon na nagdrugs din. Mahirap nga makawala sa ganyan kung andyan mismo sa harap mo yung tukso. And bilib ako sa asawa mo kaai kusa syang tumigil sa bisyo nyan..

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3 years ago

Adik nga daw yun ex nya, sis. Buti umalis at natauhan din sya.

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3 years ago

Buti nga talaga sis..

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3 years ago

yes sis hehe

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3 years ago

This is a powerful story.Sometimes our love can change other’s life in a positive way.in my eyes it's a wonderful article my dear.good lesson.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, Rumi :)

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3 years ago

No need thanks my dear. we are mate.

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3 years ago

I love the part that "My wife is my drug now" ❤️ Thank you for sharing your story that definitely worth reading because you will learn some lessons and awareness also to those who are still fighting against drugs. Keep safe po kayo 'dyan sa Northern Luzon. 🤗

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, sis Queen. Kayo din po.

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3 years ago

This is a powerful story. Only few would really have the courage to flip situations around and go back to being good. I adore his courage. He sure has inspired a lot of people reading his story.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much, Mura :) Good evening, sis!

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3 years ago

Undoubtedly a very helpful blog for drug addict people around us. Sometimes our love can change other’s life in a positive way.

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3 years ago

Hi, sis. Thank you.

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