Thank you for everything!
Is it really good to live? Maybe for those people who have seen their worth? To those who are living a happy life? Being accepted and loved by their loved ones?
Dear parents,
Thank you for everything you've done for me. Thank you for regretting that I was born, for feeding me that against your will, blaming me for every mistake I made, for being mad at me because I can't excel in school, for not seeing that I'm giving my best shot, and for comparing me with other people. Thank you for not asking if I'm okay and for telling me that I'm a useless daughter. Still, thank you for letting me witness how the world is beautiful and felt like my presence was destroying it.
Dear siblings,
Thank you for always avoiding me when I wanted to talk to you. When I want to share my problems about my studies and friends. Thank you for ignoring me when I ask you something. Am I like the wind?
Dear friends,
Thank you for being my friends. Are you? Most of the time you are bringing me down instead of encouraging me. It really hurts because I thought that you are all true friends. You always have me whenever you need me but you cannot be found when I need you all. Is saying "cheer up" consumes your time a lot? I'm sorry for being like this. Don't worry, I will not disturb you again.
Dear babe,
You are always excluding me from your priorities after you said that I will be in top though I didn't plead. I didn't ask you anything from the start because I said that I may not give you what you want. But then you insisted on entering my life without assurance. And now that I love you so much and giving you my all, it's like nothing for you. You have said that you will care for me and love me no matter what happens, in our first months but you've changed. Am I not enough? What happened to your promises? Ah yeah, is a promise made to be broken, eh? Thank you for telling me that I'm just overreacting and being sensitive everytime I share some of my problems with my family. Hopefully, you will find your happiness with someone.
I know, I am no longer here once you have read this. I hope you are all happy without me. I am sorry for my existence, this is the last day. I am sorry to be born, for not being a daughter, friend, girlfriend, or a person that you wanted to.
Thank you for everything.
~ Gel.
Obviously, this is not my story. I don't want to write this but my fingers seems to like writing about this one. Hehe. Sorry. Hopefully, no one is experiencing this. It feels like no one is loving you and your existence was just a sin. Aigoo. This is sad.
Thank you for reading! ❣
Oh by the way, finally, me and my sister Carisdaneym2 were able to let our youngest sister join readcash. And, I think some of you already see her in your notification. Welcome here monggi, @Zeya. 😆
Feel free to welcome and read her first published article. Here: City and Province. Thank you! :)
People who really don't care will always say that you are overacting. I can you feel you sis