Remembering our Loved Ones, I feel Okay Now
November 2, 2025
Hello guys, how are my favorite people? I will go straight to the point telling that I haven't visited my parent's grave but me and my siblings are inyo remembering all the good things our parents did to us. We lost three special people. First, my father that passed 2017, next my bro-in-law who died 2018 and my mother, 2023. Too much broken hearts huh?
Yes, it is painful. There is a snap of regrets and bitterness but I think I already moved on. We move forward as we are still breathing. We are always doing our best to live but the life that we are living are not the same..
We are living but it is always challenging. I am always tired with all the household chores and responsibilities. I ran errands almost every day. I ran, literally running here and there just to do the chores that my mother was doing when she was still with us. I hope I can make her proud that despite doing two jobs, I am doing all the stuff that I never imagine doing.
What makes me do it despite the challenge, my love for my siblings. We help each other but I have to say that I do most of it. I don't want them to worry. I get tired, always tired at the end of the day. Even when I feel not okay, like body pains, too much shoulder and hand pains, I never absent to chores. I always show up.
I don't want you to pity me. I just want you to know that I am a person trying to survive. All of us have our cross to bear every day and we are just surviving. I am not alone in the "surviving phase of life", you too. Instead of being sad and feel pity we must encourage each other because we don't have a choice.
I am okay and sometimes, I am not. It is okay not to be okay. What matters now is a second chances and the many chances we have to take. Life is ati beautiful, we will get by.
I posted a picture of myself from 2024. That was the day I realised my sibling needs me and they don't want a weakling. Let's fight for this life, because this is still a blessing.
Kamusta mga kumare!! Nakadalaw na ba kayo sa mga puntod sa araw na ito?
Typhoon now is Traumatic
July 23, 2025
There is a sudden energy I felt when I wrote my first article here after a very long period of time. I miss writing. I miss sharing my thoughts. How is everyone? Hope you are all safe in the Philippines!
We had a Habagat or Low pressure area that brought lots of rain in our area. I am located in Metro Manila and our company decided to assign us on a Work-from-home set up because of floods all over the place. It is all over the news on how everyone suffered from the high floods. I am kind of hating how the rain drops because it is heavy. I also experienced thunder storm. A very sharp lightning landed just outside our house that really made me near of being deaf.
Lots of devastation and casualties in the news. Everyone is posting their situation in their areas in social media. It makes me afraid because it is just a low pressure, what if it is a typhoon already? By the way the typhoon didn't reach my location and it's name is Typhoon Crising. Another Typhoon named Dante entered the Par but will not land in the Philippine land but it will surely pushes low pressure that will bring lots of rain, again.
I should be normal for me as every month starts June is the rainy season in our country, however what I cannot normalise is the severe damage it brought about it. It is getting severe and worst, to the point the casualties are trippled. It is becoming alarming and now I am traumatised.
I hope we all survive the change in nature. It is not too late to take care of environment before it kills us.
Not Really Back....
JULY 20, 2025
Hello everyone! I don't remember the time of my last post in here, but I am happy that the site still exist and there are still people posting. I think a lot of you made the account as your online journal now. I dropped by to say hello.
There are lots of things happened to me now. Most of it are lesson learned. I am a person that is now going closer to God. I want to enrich my spirituality and have a healthy and deeper relationship with God.
I know there are lots of new members here. Hello to you!! I am not sure of I am getting back. I don't want to promise anymore. I can assure that when I have thoughts I will be here. I still want to write. I want to be the person who blogs her thoughts. It's kinda healthy or it is a form of healing when you share your thoughts. It will be amazing if I will find people that feels the same. If new friend arrive here, I will be very happy too.
Any news coming from you guys, or any update you want to share with me? This is for now and hopefully in my next one I will share one by one my lesson and life experiences.
Before I end, I try to be a TikTok Affiliate and if you want to meet me at TikTok, my name is Ceo Jona, you can drop me a message there. Let's meet there.
Kamusta kayo? How are you?
AUGUST 12, 2024
It's been a long time and I have been missing in action in here! I am good, still alive and I hope you do too!
Kamusta kayo? How are you all?
I miss writing. I check this site and it is just good that the site is still here. I am about to read some of the articles and wishing there are Filipinos that are still active on the site. Hopefully, there is.
LIFE UPDATES
I am still working double job. We are currently renovating our house and everyone in the household is always tired. It is tiring to renovate a house if you not transfer your things on other house or you are staying in the same house while it is being renovated.
I still choose to be happy. I have my siblings and BFF to encourage me to live each day. When my mother passed away I thought life is not the same. It is true, but I choose to live while I'm breathing. I choose to help my siblings and encourage them to fight their grief. We are one team in fighting the challenges of life.
I am hoping I can share my life more by writing but I cannot promise anything. I just remember to blog again but I am not sure if I am still here tomorrow, writing. Hoping I will remember.
I don't have inspirational words to give you but I am leaving this. Give everything to God. You cannot fight all the odds alone, you need Him. You cannot control everything, you need to have strong faith. Life doesn't promises that it will be it's best but it will always be better. Life your life while you have a chance.
See you when I see you again.
I decided to Write..
MARCH 25, 2024
hi!! After my long hiatus, I decided to check the site and I never thought my account is still here!! I come back but I don't have any idea what is happening here. Is the site still good to write? Why are you still here? What is the reason of you staying?
Well, I am not here to judge your reason, I am just curious. In fact, I am happy that this site is still here and when I saw my notifications, I still see people I knew before. They are still here!!
If you ask me, it was a roller-coaster ride of life for me. It was the worst and I am still recovering. I don't remember if I shared it here. I don't remember my last topic that I have written. I just came back and leave a trace by writing something.
There are days that I am good and motivated, but most of the time and even in a minute I am not okay. My anxiety got worse and my depression continues. My mother passed away last year and the reason to all of this is she.
I cannot be happy for whole day. When I laugh, I will remember her then I will feel sad instantly. I no longer enjoy things that makes me happy before. I always have a doubt when good things happens because I know a sad news will happen after. I have trust issue in almost everything.Being sad is my safe place, I can't be too happy. I think I will be like this for the rest of my life.
I apologise for the very sad article. I used to be a happy person but I chose not to be because I'm scared. It is safer to feel this way. Whatever my sad life is, I wish you a good and financially abundant life. I hope I can write again in the coming days.
Hi everyone! I want to ask how you transfer your balance here? Like what is your other wallet? I have Coins.ph before, but the BCH address of COINS.PH doesn't have "bitcoincash:" word at the start and it says it is a different address. I want to know what is your other wallet, payment processor or give me an idea how can I transfer my balance here. Thank you very much in advance!!
Am I Still Okay?
November 15, 2023
Anyeong! I hope everyone is safe and happy. I just want you to be happy and that is something that is not happening on me as of the moment. It has been 2 months that my mother passed away and I haven't had a good laugh. I guess it will never happen again and life is not the same anymore.
Let's get straight to my story. I thought I was living normally or I get used to living without my mother but I finally realized I am always depress. I go to work and do my household chores, thinking I had accomplished something, yet the truth is, I am not going anywhere. I am just living inside a cycle. Nothings change, no improvement and no change at all.
I took the responsibility of getting the work that my mother is doing in the household. I cook, I go to market, I buy food, I take care of pets, I wash the dishes, do the laundry, iron clothes and at the end of the day I had done everything for my family, but nothing for myself. I go to work, go straight at home and do household chores and work on my night shift. On the next day, I do this all over again. I keep myself busy and my soul is depress. I am living but it is not healthy. I am living, while I am dying. I cried almost every night and I am always end up tired.
I lost my parents. I have my siblings with me, but all of us are lost. I think we can live, we can take care of each other and live normally, but we don't have the kind of happiness. We already lose the hope that we will make our dreams come true. I am working hard to make my mother happy. Now that she is gone, I am working for a salary. My dream, I don't know any dream at all. I am useless and nonsense. I don't want to plan and no Christmas spirit at all. For sure, we will not celebrate as well.
It is hard to lose a loved one. It is hard to not see them anymore. It is hard that you cannot talk to them, and I really wish, seriously, that there is a visiting hours in heaven to see them once again. I miss my parents. Some says, I gain angels, but I lost the faith on believing on any of this. I am on grief and living without faith now.
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All Original Content by @Grecy095
Hands that are Now, Tired
OCTOBER 23, 2023
Anyeong! How are you? I hope you are still fighting. I haven't update you of what happened to me after the sudden death of my mother. To answer that, I think I am just living a day, everyday. I am living to do all I need to do (work, household chores, taking care of my siblings, nephew and pets, and working again). I am living a day. I am living at present, I don't have any goals and now has lost a direction.
I am trying to learn also. I am little by little replacing my mother when it comes to taking care of the household. I am learning how to budget and save. I celebrate little goals because I need to appreciate myself too. No one will appreciate me but me. I thanks myself and I am proud of myself that despite my depression and anxiety, I still choose to live a day.
But, my post is about my tired hands though, and I am sharing to you what it looks like. I just remove my bandage because from time to time I cover it with bandage because it is painful. I have carpal tunnel, the mild one and when I use my hands excessively, that happens.
You see the fat nerves, that means it is tired from doing all the household chores, working, and writing, picking, lifting, holding heavy things and many more. I hope my hands will able to rest but for now, we are still on our adjustment period with all the task and some of the chores at home cannot be delegated so I am the sole person who will do that. Maybe in the future, it will have the rest that it deserve. For now, my tired hands should be applauded for doing its job and being a good follower of my brain when the latter will give some instruction.
Oh I know living my life in a day will able to help me to move on from the sadness, but the pain will never go away. I just need to be tough!
All images are mine
All Original Content by @Grecy095
I hate September because...
OCTOBER 1, 2023
Hello guys, sorry that I just get back after a long hiatus. I am not sure if I will be back for good or might write here irregularly. I just feel like writing today.
Let's get to the point here.
Did you see the title of my post? Honestly, a month has nothing to do with everything that is happening about yourself. It is just a month in a year. September is my birth month but for sure I will stop celebrating from now on. I promise to myself that I will never celebrate it again.
What is the reason I hate September? There were lots of things that happened and it was the worst in my life. My biggest fear happened and it is an everyday nightmare for my family. We haven't been moving on...
My mother passed away last September 8, 2023. It was a birthday of Mama Mary too. It was sudden. I didn't realize that a simple checkup will lead to immediate surgery and it became risky. She was having chest pain and had a difficulty in breathing. While on surgery, she had a cardiac arrest.
I don't have the strength to put everything in detail. I am still tired, sad and having depression. I am just living a life because I am alive, but inside me, I am totally dying. I am not a happy person anymore. I might laugh at joke but my heart is sad. I don't know what is waiting for me and my sibling in our future days. One thing is for sure, we will live with the pain. We are now an orphan since my father was gone too in 2017. It was a disaster for my family. This is our reality.
That's all I can say for today.
Two New Habits
August 1, 2023
Oh my, time flies so fast, it is already August!! The next month will be the start of Ber Months already and September is my birth Month!!
But anyway, I'm not happy. The reason I was not active is not because I am demotivated to post. I think it is more than a became lazy to share some of my life events, or I don't have anything to share at all that is why I am lazy.
Before anything else, guys do you have a coins.ph account? I have problems in sending out my earnings here to my coins.ph, it is because the BCH address in my coins.ph account is different. It doesn't have the word 'bitcoincash' before the address. Now my earnings here are just here. I can transfer it to Bitcoin, but then when I need to transfer my balance on my Bitcoin wallet to coins, same scenario as Coins.ph is giving different BCH address. I have balances on my Bitcoin wallet that are left there for a year now. I don't know what wallet I will be using to transfer my earnings to my gcash. If you happen to had the same situation, what did you do? Thanks in advance.
This is the real topic!!
As I had told you at the start of this article, I am in this phase that some of the things that makes me happy before is no longer making me happy, however, I still want to be grateful to all of the blessing I am receiving everyday. I am happy to share that two new habit has been successfully formed in my life. It is not a biggie though but I am happy.
First, I now develop a habit of drinking 2 tablets of collagen every morning. Before, when I have a new supplements, my problem is about consistency. Even if I want to drink it daily, I always forgot it. However, I able to drink my collagen in the morning in an empty stomach. I have been doing this for a month already and it seems that my hand already automatically pullout the container of collagen for me to drink it. Now I always do it.
The second one is, I disassociate myself to using Messenger. Before, I am active on messenger. Every time I am online and I have to share some contents worth sharing, I go to our group chat and share the link there. That starts a good conversation that leads me to having a funny conversation with my bffs and not able to finish what I plan to do. I should be learning new things every night, but because I was always on Messenger with my friends, I haven't started anything yet. I became inefficient and unproductive.
I just tried for a day not visiting our group chat on Messenger. Then I tried for two days, then a week. I only visit the chatroom when they mentioned me and I escape right a way after answering their chat. During the first week, I've noticed that I can be uninterested with the topics that they share on the chatroom. Another week and I able to get rid of messages and focus on myself. I have to be honest that I don't know what happened to me. I become tired, and uninterested with almost everything. I rather read, learn new things, watch kdrama or just do new things. I able to survive it.
At present, I already deactivated my Facebook and Messenger. I will just activate it before the weekend starts. I never thought I can do that. I am the kind of person who are talkative online with my friends, and now I don't have the energy anymore. This is my third week.
All images are mine
All Original Content by @Grecy095
Feeling of Discomfort leads me to this...
JULY 17, 2023
Anyeong Chingu! How are you all!! I hope you are safe because rainy days are happening. One of my major demotivation lately is the weather, because when the weather is cold, I love to stay in bed rather than work. Unfortunately, I will be commuting going to work during the daytime so I need to get up in bed on time. Also, it is so hard to travel during rainy days because besides not having available vehicles due to floods, you will be soaking under the rain even if you have an umbrella. I cannot dictate the weather. What I can only do is adjust to that, though it makes me feel demotivated.
Anyway, going to my topic for today, have you ever felt uncomfortable with your life? I am doing good and better with my income and work experience, however, there are some things that bug my decision to stay with my dayshift employer. Almost every week, there are people leaving the company. There are only a few people left now and it makes me feel uneasy. I am not planning to leave soon though the changes are pushing me to do so. There are also changes in the work as my work, sooner, will have additional tasks to do since one from my department is resigning and leaving soon too. That requires me to change location from morning to afternoon and physically, I am not sure if I am able to fulfill it because my energy battery is exhausted at five in the afternoon as I need to recharge for my night shift job. It will be very hard for me to do that task and I know, in advance, that I will just feel stressed about it, which leads me to leave too soon, instead of later.
I don't have plans for leaving for real, but being a person who has anxiety and an overthinking habit, I already put a scenario of what kind of life I will be having when this is about to happen. The feeling of being not comfortable led me to this.
I searched for a job that I can do online. I searched for a job that I can work from home permanently but on a dayshift job. In this way, if I found one, I will no longer get out of the house because as soon as I am finished with my daytime job (at home if I found one), I will go straight to my night shift job. Because of that, I learned that there are jobs that I can do permanently at home, however, I need skills to do that. These include Data Analysis or Data Science, Social Media Manager, Project Manager, Virtual Executive Assistant, Amazon Virtual Assistant, video editing, photoshop, and Web Developer. There are skills that I need to know.
I also searched that there are some sites that could provide free courses for me to learn those types of jobs like Alison.com and Coursera. Additional to this are Hubspot.com and I am still on the look for others that provide a course for free and provide certificates too.
Right now, I made a plan on what course I will take first and also added Youtube as my search engine and additional sources. I also watch the content of people that have been there and the rest of the story, I will update you on my journey.
Being uncomfortable leads me to find a new skill that will help me grow instead of feeling stressed about what is happening in my company. It could prepare me for something wonderful rather than feeling bad that some of the good people are leaving the company. One day, I will find myself being happy and satisfied with a career I had chosen that earns me good.
All images are mine
All original content by @Grecy095
What do I remember with this Pancit Palabok?
July 10, 2023
Anyeong Chingu!! How are you? Hope you are all doing fine.
It has been so long since I was not here again. I have been busy, as always, and sometimes demotivated to be in the blogging world. Since I have a story to tell, I will write for tonight.
You see the picture above. It is a picture of Pancit Palabok. It is a Chinese thick white noodle that has orange sauce and different spices and flavors. This is my all-time favorite breakfast when I was young and whenever I eat it at present, I remember a certain story from my childhood.
I think I am the kind of person who always values the good memories and everything that is attached to it, or something that I will remember my childhood, I always get back to the story. When I was young, my parents were always working. There is no one to look after me when my sister is at school. My father, from his job, will go straight to our house to pick me up because my mother has an AM shift at work and no one will take care of me. My father will pick me up and he will leave me to the store of a friend that is near his post. He is a traffic enforcer, by the way, and he has lots of friends in the nearby market that he can leave me there. He will ask me what I want to eat and I will say "Pancit Palabok".
I usually left in the public market, where people are selling spices, fish, meat, and some wet fresh foods. My father has a friend there that I called "Manong" or the old man and he will take care of me while he is selling onions, garlic, calamansi, and some spices. Sometimes, I am the one giving the change to his buyers. I do the math and I was trained there to count. Sometimes, I become the one that sells the vegetables and he will give me some penny after, in exchange for my service. I remember I was only five years old back then. When there are no buyers, I will talk to other vendors. They call me "Japanese baby" because they thought I was a little Japanese girl due to my color. I was pale white and chubby. I make friends with the buyers. When I get bored, Manong will give me comics or song hits. Then after a while, he will give me Pancit Palabok again because that is what I only want to eat.
All of the people there are kind. They teach me how to read and count. I teach them how to sing. They are all funny too because they keep on making fun of each other. I think their life might be hard due to insufficient income but they are happy. They are simple people but they have a soft heart and always wants to help my father. Whenever I eat Pancit Palabok, I always remember them. I wonder if they are still there in the public market. I wonder if they are still alive and hopefully, they are. Because of them, I am safe and my childhood is colorful because, at a younger age, I met wonderful simple people that love me. I think they are the reason why I know the meaning of "hard work" because at a young age, I saw it on my own eyes. I hope they are all still there.
Image is mine
All original content by @Grecy095
I have an RBF!
June 27, 2023
Anyeong Chingu! How are you my fellow writers. I want to say that I enjoy reading your articles. I thought that this place became a ghost town again, yes I am wrong. Everyone are still active, even if they are only a few. I think you miss the site. I miss the site that is why I am here again, sharing something that is very personal. I miss the site and how I wish it was year 2020 or 2021 again where everyone was so active and earning good. Moving on, I am grateful that the site is still there and I want to be here as long as the site is here.
Okay, guys you might be wondering what is it about my title. RBF is not an illness or disease. It is the an acronym of the word **Resting Bitch Face**. I think having this kind of face have becoming normal as when I became active on social media called Tiktok, I learned that I am not the only one. I have been wearing this face even when I was young. I have the Resting Bitch Face that is why I am always mistaken by people that I look angry or irritated always. My eyes are very strong and I look straight with people. If I will not look at people, I am looking the other way but I have the most irritating eyes ever.
My face looks like that all the time. When I am alone in the street or even outside , or inside an establishment, I wear that kind of face. It is not a friendly kind of face. It is something that when the people see, they will be having a second thoughts of approaching me. That is why other people judge me as a bad person because of my face.
I am not aware that I wear that kind of face. I am not aware that I hold that kind of reaction all the time. Even with my friends, tell will ask me if I am okay and I will answer yes, but they are kind of confused because of what I look like. I didn't intend to look like that and I know I should be looking at myself in the mirror and try to exercise smiling.
When I found out that I am not the only one having that kind of face, it feels okay. I feel at ease that there are people who have the same face and they are facing the same problem as well. Now that I am aware, I record myself while working at my desk sometimes. I study myself. I check on how long I am wearing Resting Bitch Face. I kept laughing at myself. Sometimes I look mad and my eyes are the culprit. I apologize for the people who had saw me like this and avoided me instead of approaching me.
Now that I am aware, I will think of the better ways to improve my expression so that my impression with other people will change.
All images are mine
All original content by @Grecy095
What is something they told you in school that you found a complete lie?
June 26, 2023
Anyeong Chingu! Hope you are alive and still kicking. Sorry for my long absence because I had so much to do and was very busy with personal life. I hope everyone is doing fine, having a great time despite all the struggle in every minute of our life.
Guys, I was browsing on my social media account and I saw this question that I can't stop laughing. Yes, there were lots of statements and promises that my teacher told me when I was in grade school and I found out that those are the biggest lie I ever heard. For sure everyone can relate. Most of our teachers are complete liars, just to push us to study, lol. I am not regretting believing do and but I will not tell a lie with my nephew. However, I will wait till he can believe me truthfully or he can absorb the truth in what I am saying.
So what are the complete words that your teachers told you in school that turn out to be a complete lie? Before I continue, I want to tell you that you should forgive them though, life is never easy to everyone at present. It is just there way to influence you to study hard.
My Teacher told me that when I finish school I could land a job easily
Nope, I didn't. I was stuck at home for 6 months because some of the company are looking for experienced worker while I was a newly graduate. They even posted on the job qualifications that they accept newly graduates but when you are there applying they prefer with experienced with the job. It was not easy. Even if you finish a bachelor degree, some companies will turn you down if you do not fit in the criteria.
The real deal of life is, it could suck! It is full of challenges and struggles. It is the battle of the fit test when you are looking for a job regardless you finish a degree or not in the school. ***My teacher should say, when you finish school, it could prepare you for a job or your own business that you can earn but it will never be easy.***
My Teacher told me that when I have high grades at school, I will be prioritize in different companies I will apply
I remember this teacher of mine in Chemistry, saying the statement above. She said that a higher grades makes you a Vip when you are applying in a job even if you don't experience. When it was told to me, I never stop studying. I was busy collecting good grades. It really pushes me up until college. I said to myself that I should study hard and will never be complacent because surely when I apply in the company I want, I will get prioritize.
The reality slaps me when I started applying for a job. Some of the Hr interviewer didn't even look on my scholastic records and only checked my resume. They even turned me down because of again, lack of experience, but the qualification says they accept newly graduates. I was torn of what to believe.
I got a job, but not related to my course, unfortunately because my course BS Chemistry always prefer people with working experience already. I applied to non-course related and stayed there for a year, then I applied on the job which is course-related after a year. I was hired but working experience is not easy there.
I guess our teachers will push us to have good grades or just to study hard, but not all that we learn in school are being applied at work. It is not bad to have good grades though, that the main goal of a student to be an inspiration to fellow student but I just hope there will be someone that will tell them that they should study hard but accept the reality of life. I wish their parents or guardians will guide them about the life outside school before getting out so that it will not be a traumatic experience to some of them. I pray for every student to have a courage and strength!
All images are from Unsplash
All original content by @Grecy095
Where are you when Mt. Pinatubo Erupted?
June 15, 2023
Anyeong chingu! How are you? I hope you are safe. Just earlier there is a magnitude 6.2 Earthquake that we experience here in Luzon. I am not sure where is the epicenter, but in Twitter someone said that it was strong in Mindoro and somewhere in Batangas. We are in the office, I was eating my food then I suddenly felt dizzy. I thought someone pushed me strong and then I said "there is an earthquake!". My officemate said they felt it too and we decided to get out of the office. Everyone in the building hurried out. Moving on and now we are inside the office working and I hope everyone is safe.
images credit to @momblogger at Twitter
Then, a question pop up in Twitter as well. I never thought that today is the anniversary of the eruption of Mt. Pinatubo. It happened last June 15, 1991 and I was just a toddler back then. Mt. Pinatubo is located in the tripoint boundary of provinces like Pampanga, Zambales and Tarlac. It was a huge devastation when it happened and that is my first time that I experience volcanic eruption even though I am not living near those provinces.
image credit to CNN Philippines, picture posted on Twitter
Where are you when Mt. Pinatubo Erupted?
As I shared above, I was just a toddler back then but I was really scared and I thought it is the end of the world. Imagine that at 10 in the morning but the sky is dark? I was watching Eat Bulaga and when I look outside, it looks like a night sky. It was really weird. I am not sure if I experience earthquake too, I don't remember at all. What I remember was the volcanic ashes everywhere and the classes are suspended due to that. Also, local news never stop monitoring the happening that really got me scared because I saw the casualties. There were lots of people losing their homes, livestock and even their lives. There were mass evacuation and I thought our neighborhood is included, though I am living in the metro lol. I really don't remember much about it, but what remains in my mind was devastation and sad faces of all the people living there. Me and my mother will always pray for them and I even cried to God because I was scared, I thought he was the planet earth to explode.
How about you? What do you remember when Mt. Pinatubo Erupted? What did you do and how did you reacted to that situation.
All original content by @Grecy095
My Top 3 Red Flag
JUNE 8, 2023
Anyeong Chingu!! How are you all! Hope you are safe and already at home. I went home late today and I was worried that it will rain. Good thing, it is not.
By the way, do you know about Red Flags? Red flags symbols danger. One someone said he knows about someone's red flag it means there is a specific attitude or personality they have that could be a big disadvantage that is why one should be really careful.
Everyone of us has that. Everyone of us has a bad habit that could affect others. There is this one application or filter/effects at TikTok that will share about your red flags. It is just for content and entertainment though, but when I tried it, it seems it correlates to what I really am. Let me share to you my Top 3 Red Flags.
Not Stylish
Gosh!! It is correct. I am not stylish at all. I have a very poor fashion sense. I am not even look good to the clothes I am wearing almost everyday. My body proportion is abnormal, I'm short and I have high insecurity because I am fat. That brings me down to having poor mindset of what I look like.
I were clothes that I feel comfortable. I don't follow a certain trend. I look boring and sometimes I don't care. For some people, having a good fashion sense could create confidence. Also, you look presentable if you show yourself more in the way you dress yourself. Unfortunately I don't have that. I need a mentor.
Immature
Oh my!! I don't act my age. I am Too Old but I act like 21 to 25 years old. I have to admit, in some areas of my life I am adult and sometimes I am too childish to react to certain things. I thought I learned a lot in life through struggle and I thought I am adulting, but no, in some areas, I am lacking maturity. I can change for the better though and I make sure I learned from all the problem solving of life.
Spends too much
Really? I know I am earning good, but I am not really into spending. Maybe I am guilty of spending on my BTS Merchandise but now I am not really into things like that or I am being choosy. Or maybe the 3rd red flag only connects to me by 50% because I spend too much in food and some BTS merch, but I am not a person who regularly spend too much. I am even wiser when it comes to spending money.
Oh it is fun that the algorithm or data analytics of that filter or effect read me to have three red flags but I have so much red flags to share, so I guess I have a part 2 of this blog.
How about you, do you have a red flags too? Care to share about it!
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A Dream but it feels Real and Scary
May 16, 2023
Anyeong Chingu! How are you best people!! Hope you are safe and okay!!
I can't stop thinking about my dream yesterday that I need to share this to you because I need to lift the heaviness in my chest. I am really worried and praying I will not dream about it again.
This is my dream. In my dream there is this one woman that went to the second floor of our house. We are there, me, my sister, my nephew and my mother. On my dream I said to my mother why this lady went up to second floor and how did he do that if the door is lock. Then the lady was whining and she sit in a chair holding something. I don't know if it is a can or a water bottle. As soon as her butt reached the chair, she vanish in the air. We were all shocked by what happens but I went to the chair and I talk to the can or water bottle or aqua flask the lady was holding. For I remember I told something like do not come inside our house or stop scaring us. I have the courage to speak to the can and chair.
Then we started feel scared and our house becomes dim. I don't know if the lighta were turn off and all of a sudden there is someone, a male figure came out and will attack everyone of us. I stop him from doing that but it seems I am being stab by his nails or I can feel how sharp his nails were. He is a man but he looks a black creature that has a creepy face. He was very strong but I do not stop from defending my family, I really cover my whole body to stop him.
I started praying loud. I really prayed Our Father and Hail Marry while fighting for my life. I do not look into his eyes because it was so scary but I don't have a choice I need to stop him from hurting my family. All of a sudden I felt that it is just a dream. I shouted please wake me up, wake me up! I don't know how long it happens but I found myself losing my breathe when I woke up.
I don't want to think about it when I woke up, but I was too tired. I didn't get back to sleep. When I slept in the evening I'm glad I didn't had a dream like that.
I don't know the meaning of that dream, however, maybe it something to do with all the worries I have in my mind. I know I avoid thinking about it, but I still have the negativity inside of my system. Maybe it has something to do with it.
I don't want to dream like that anymore. I should stay calm and be at peace with my brain to avoid overthinking. I hope I get well with this.
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Why do I get exhausted last Monday?
May 10, 2023
Definitely it is not a Monday today, but Tuesday but because I was tired and super super tired on a hot Monday, I forgot to share it on the same day!!
Before that, I want to say hello to everyone that. Anyeong Chingu! I hope everyone is safe and doing okay!!
Back to my story, it was a regular Monday yesterday but the amount of work was not. I have piles of reports for analysation and filing.
I started working at 9 am after breakfast and I already have something in mind, kind of technique of how I go about my work for that day. I started doing some analysation of deliveries.
I already finished the preparation of delivery receipt when I saw pile of papers on my left side. I feel overwhelmed already. It is like I am doing some reports at present but my mind is starting another work and another, it is exhausting me.
I keep on looking at those documents above. I kept thinking how can I squeeze it in on my regular routine. Then another set of Delivery receipt preparation and I was too tired.
It is not the first time that it happens to me. It happened to me before. What I don't understand is my system is having an error, lol. I think my motherboard (my brain) has a problem. I kept on thinking and thinking and thinking.
Good thing, I able to take a break from thinking about it because my Yoongi photocards arrive.
Yoongi is Suga of BTS and he is one if my bias there. A good friend allow me to adopt her photocards OF Suga. Here are the photocards below.
Little by little the stress in my body is lessening because of the pictures above, but that didn't last that long. I still feel tired after I received a new batches of documents for delivery receipt process and it keeps on happening. It feels like forever. It take me forever to finish. I got irritated that even drinking another coffee doesn't help me. I drink water instead.
I let myself be drown in these waters above, but of course I'm only joking.
I went to ladies room to stop myself from feeling irritated. I began to wonder what I did last week that makes me have these volume of jobs. I think the reason of delay is the long holiday last month and because I did render overtime in two successive Saturdays. Then I started thinking about my salary, but I stop myself from overthinking again because it will not help me. It will only bring me down.
I am okay as soon as I got out of the ladies room.
I also ordered a food from Food Panda since I feel thaty tummy is complaining to all the stress I'm feeling. This makes me happy because it taste good. Now I understand those people who are stress eater because they can find happiness by eating it.
I just have this phase at work that I get emotional when I am overwhelmed with things to do, but I can finish it anyway. I know I will have a day that I am like a superwoman finishing everything and I will get updated once again. No matter what exhausting me at work, I am grateful that I have work! I always will.
I have a very long and sounded sigh when I able to lessen the work. I kept some of the reports and documents to file for another day. I already accepted that I cannot finish it that day but I will definitely finish it this week. Sometimes we need to let go in order to breathe because it is getting heavier and heavier when we do not let go. It burns us out and it is not fine.
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Why I love Rusty????
May 7, 2023
Anyeong Chingu!!
How are you doin?
I am good and excited.
You know what, I have been planning to make a post about Rusty and how I appreciate the green baby, then I read @Coolmidwestguyarticle and he has a prompt challenge and one of it is doing an article telling how much you love Rusty. It is easy to do.
I have been a member since 2020 and I only got to know Rusty in 2021. I became active on the site because of him as it gives me the green signal to go on. He gave me tips ans everything was history. But before that, there is a requirement in the post that we need to screenshot our balance, before and after. Giving tips of 0.2 to Rusty is required.
Above is my before balance and below is the after balance.
Take note, 0.2 is a minimum amount only, you can give more. Unfortunately I don't have much but surely in the future, if this is required, I will give more, of course!
Why do I love Rusty??
It is not even a question, it is a statement. I love Rusty. He is one of the reason I am on this site. Even if he already bid goodbye on the site before, I stayed. I have the feeling he will always come back and he did. I will do the same just in case it happens again.
Well, first, my article here are not the kind of article everyone will keep coming back. My post or blogs are always about me. Rusty might be a bot, but the feeling he gives whenever I received something makes me say, I am doing the right thing. Regardless of the amount, if I saw the green baby tipped my article it gives me a universal thumbs up that you are doing great!!
He makes me feel at ease. He makes me feel comfortable being myself. He makes me push myself to be more of myself. For him, I am useful and I am worthy. I feel like I found a second home and he welcomes me with open arms.
Second, the earnings I got here with the tips I got from my friends here and Rusty, I able to renovate our house, donate school supplies to some student, donate load for online class of student, have a healthy and wealthy Holidays, and I've had been to many places because of it. The reward I get, mostly from Rusty since day one had been useful and gave me good memories. For me it is a biggie!! It is a big deal!! He made a great impact and contribution to my existence here.
Third, one of the reason I am in the site is because of Rusty, that leads me to sharing my life, that leads me for meeting different people, that leads me to having them as a friend, that leads me to grow as a person, that leads me to know other places that my friends shared in their blogs that leads to learning and advance eduction, that leads me to have a character develop. He paved the way to many things that happened to me. He makes my blogging life worthy.
Rusty, thank you is not enough. I love you is nowhere either. I don't know how to share my gratitude. Maybe I will be active and be on the site to make it last long? I will be forever grateful and I will help the site to last long!! Read cash is not only a blogging site but a sanctuary to me. It helps me find calmness in a storm of the day. I owe everything to Read, Rusty and to my dear friends here who always support me.
All images are screenshot of my profile and Rusty from Read.cash
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Thank God I have my Job!
MAY 2, 2023
Anyeong Chingu! It's been a long time how are you? I hope you are doing okay. After a long absence, though I cannot promise to drop by regularly, I am here to sharey gratitude for my job.
On May 15, 2023, I will be 6th years tenure in my company. I started same month in 2017 and I can say it is not the kind of job I want to have there but due to demand of work, and lesser manpower I accepted it.
It was not easy at first but with the help of my officemates, who are still with me at present, I able to learn the job, study it further on my own and add my own strategy and technique to survive a day.
It is always stressful due to some work ethics of some people there and lack of respect. Yes, I have to say that and I'm still sad about it. With poor planning, neglection and being not aware of the consequence of their work ethics, mostly our department is the one suffering.
But I don't want to focus on the negative side as I know all of us are having jobs that make us stress all the time. Stress are all part of it and what we need to do is to manage it. I am trying my best on that area to be honest. I try to make BTS) Korean pop idol) as my outlet to make manageable, lol.
I want to focus on the things I am grateful about it.
I am Grateful for the opportunity of learning
I am a person who is always tired and tardy. I don't feel like moving whenever I wake up in the morning, however, learning from my job is one of the reason I stand up in bed. I am totally honest with this one. I maybe lazy but I'm hungry in learning lots of things. I am hungry for wisdom.
At work, I not only learn about how can I solve problems, how can I be part of the solution and everything, but I learn the different characters of people there and I adjust to the differences. I also learn how to handle my own temper. The lives of my co-employee that they share to me an the lessons they had, are all part of my wisdom now.
I am Grateful for the Salary, Bonus and Benefits
I might not have the higher salary but my company provided bonuses and benefits aside from the monthly salary. I have HMO and Life Insurance, I can even have pension even when I am on my early retirement. It provides the regular 13th month pay and anniversary bonuses. I am very thankful because not all companies can provide that. I am also thankful that our office is just 20 minutes away from our house.
I am Grateful that it provide trainings and company outings
There are trainings like excel, accounting 101 and some stuffs that will be a big use while working. They listen to the demands of the employee and schedule trainings for that. I am not sure if we have company outing for this year, but last year we had. I didn't able to attend as I have my own outing with my friends.
Maybe those little things I have might be bigger in some company, but for now, I believe that this company is given by God. It is the one I prayed for. I cannot promise of staying for lokng, but I am not going anywhere. I appreciate everything, including it's flaws. Thank God I have job!!
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The Pain of losing Dogs is fatal
April 21, 2023
Annyeong Chingu! eotteohge jinaeseyo?
Hello friends! how are you?
I know there are lots of happenings everywhere and if you ask me I am still not recovered from the sad news about sis @Pachuchay . I still cannot believe that she is now gone. Life is too short for everyone that is why we always need to remember to make the best of our lives.
However, yours truly always forgot that. Presently, it has been two months that I don't have a long sleep. When I sleep, it is always broken, like I will get up in bed and take care of my ill dog. I have two ill dogs. One is on the road to recovery and one is still sick but he is a fighter and I hope he recover fast. I need to take care of them and wake up in the middle of the night to check on them, help them drink medicine and everything that one is doing when there is someone that is sick. One of my dog sleep beside me, not in my bed but he is on the floor beside my bed. If he makes a sound I will wake up and take care of him. I feel like I am always "high" because my head seems lighter due to not enough sleep and having low blood.
As of today, I lost one of them. He already left us. Sorry for some confusion as the first part of this article were drafted last April 19, and due to tiredness I can't finish doing the draft.
Again,my dog Kevin passed away. I think he had pneumonia and distemper. We did all we need to do, and even provided supplements for his better immune system but still he didn't make it. At present we already lost three dogs in a span of 2 months. I hope the one that still has illness able to recover. In fact this one is really a fighter. He eats all the time and he seems really hungry. We are focusing right now on his recovery and we believe he is on recovery.
As much as I want put the picture of Kevin here I still can't. It is still hurting to know that he is no longer here. I am Kevin's favorite. I have my daughter dog Unnie, but Kevin wants me to be his mother. Of course the mother is my dog, but it seems Kevin wants the love I am giving to Unnie. He always follow me and loves to stay with me when I am at home. I am grieving for his lost. I will forever miss him. I still have lots of dogs to take care but it is hurting when the one that is gone is really close to you. The pain of losing Dogs is different. It is fatal.
I think Kevin doesn't want me to suffer too. I have been losing sleep for a month now because of him. He felt that I am tired. I am amazed with myself that I able to function at work despite having little sleep. I don't know what pushes me or maybe because I need to work to provide for their medicine and supplements. It is hard. It is hard when there is ill in the family that is why I am telling you to take care of yourself. Prevention is better than cure.
I will miss Kevin, Greya and Tintin. These are my loving dogs that are gone now. I can't put their pictures here, it is hard to see their faces and I know I will cry. I hope they are now in peace. No more pain for my dogs. They are now healthy and happy wherever they are.
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Sis @pachuchay passed away
April 13, 2023
I don't know how to start my article. I went online to check my notification here and then I saw the post of @yen. I was in total shock because I thought it is impossible. I went to noise after commenting and someone from here posted about her, and the I saw the post of @boringwriter and then the post of sis Pachuchay's sister.
I saw the picture. Her body is lifeless covered in white blanket. She is already in the morgue. I can't share it in here as it is her sister's post. I was really shaking and starts crying.
I only stop because the rain is strong. I need to wipe the floor. There are drops from the ceiling because our ceiling has a hole.
I can't cry at all because I am working right now and checking my two ill dogs. I don't have space at home to stay and cry actually. I don't have my own room.
I only left a post in noise and I am still crying right now.
Pachuchay is one of the strongest person I know. I met her here. I learned about her illness last 2021. I am regularly supporting any campaign for her before and when I see her post, I drop a little coins. She was hospitalised long ago, and getting back and forth in the hospital. Just recently I read her post about her husband meeting an accident in the road. She was really shock and scared that she even had a nightmare, and now it is a nightmare that she is gone. I am totally devastated.
I learned also from some chats that she is now in Manila to get her treatment and the people closes to her just found out the sad news.
I will miss her. She is always in the comment section when I am posting about my pets. She has lots of pets and she even shared that she lost most of her cats while she was admitted in the hospital. I will miss this brave woman. She is the reason why I am looking after my two ill dogs as their problem is almost likely like her, about their immune system. Pachuchay might lose the battle, but her life is always worth battling. I hope she feel peace, no more pain sis. I pray for you and your family!! I will miss you sis. This is really painful.
All image are screenshot for Noise account of Pachuchay.
All Original Content.
@pachuchay sis!! Ngayon lang ako naka balik online, tapos eto pa yun mababalitaan ko 😭😭😭😭, sis hindi mo na kinaya, iniwan mo na kami, pero ngayon wala ng sakit, samin na lang yun masakit kasi hindi ka na namin makikita sis. 😭😭😭😭
Studying with Him?
April 9, 2023
Today is Araw ng Kagitingan or Day of Valor here in the Philippines. This holiday was moved to April 10, so in the Philippines now, besides having holiday because of Holy week, we habe another holiday for day of valor. Getting back to work will happen on Tuesday, April 11.
What I did for the past 3 days? I rested. I spend time washing my bags and rubber shoes. I watched BTS content. I searched something. I study Korean. I exercise and dance. I spent my time with my pets, especially the ill ones. I hardly open my Netflix/Disney/Viu accounts to watch series. I did what I don't normally do everyday and that is to spent it with my pets and my things.
I think the binge watching will start later or maybe tomorrow. I am okay with that. Actually I don't have plans even before the long holiday started. I am hearing my officemates talking about the series that they will binge watch and I don't care about that, I didn't make any plans. I want my day to go as relax and easy this holiday.
But last night, I decided to study seriously. I review my notes in my Korean Class and discover a technique on how to study without feeling sleepy and lazy.
I open my laptop and opened my Korean notes and my Korean 101 epub in Google drive as my additional learning materials. I was playing a music background that helps you to study and focus. Then I saw a content about Suga of BTS having his past Vlive. I opened in full screen and I almost lose myself because his face is big in the monitor. This is him below.
I never realized this. I only discover it last night. I wonder why I didn't think about doing it before, lol?
What happened? I was wide awake. I am studying, reviewing and Suga is looking at me at my screen. He seems looking at me. I assume he is checking if I am really studying lol.
I observed myself for an hour. Before, I cannot last for two hours of studying by myself, but last night I lasted for four solid hours! I couldn't believe. If I already discover this before, for sure I already reviewed a lot. Poor me.
Syempre may kasama ng kilig! I am giggling when I caught him looks like looking at me. There are times that he was smirking and laughing, but I don't know what is talking about. My idea is I have someone with me while reviewing and it helps with additional energy and inspiration. This technique indeed help me to study for four hours. I will do this regularly now.
Ang landi diba? Hahahaha
For now I will look for other Live OF suga of BTS to help me with my study.
Summer Ready Hair!!
April 1,2023
It's April Fools day! Did anyone make a fool out of you? Is my question is right? Did someone make a joke or shared you an April fools joke? Hopefully not.
I am at the clinic to get my anti rabies vaccine for the second time. My HMO is so slow, it takes half a day to approve. I don't know why our company got them for us. In case of emergency they cannot be of help. It needs a lot of patience. I can't be in the clinic for a day just because of them. I have lots of work to do. I'm getting pissed off.
Whole waiting for it, I am doing this article because I don't want to entertain the negativity although I really feel it on my veins.
So, to change to the real topic, I cut my hair! This is what it looks like!!
Actually im not planning to have it that short, but when I cut it, I wet my hair and I thought I didn't cut it that short. I even color it with gray but it only took effect on the lower side as that is the part that has bleach.
I like the way it look. I look younger. My reason of doing it is because I can't blow dry my long hair anymore and the weather is so hot! I don't have time to fix my hair anymore this days so I need to cut it short. I hope it grows fast though because I find it very short. I am not get used to have a short hair, but I feel light and it saves my time in preparing myself to go to work in the morning.
Yesterday, me and my friends went to our BTS day and I will share the story on my next article tomorrow. They say that I look 5 years younger than my age and my face looks lighter. I look happy. However, the feeling of having a new hair only last for a week to me, so expect that I will not appreciate it anymore for the next weeks, lol.
Have you had your summer hair ready?? Share your experience guys and always drink water!!
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All Original Content by @Grecy095
My Dog Bite Me!!
March 29, 2023
It should be a regular day for me, skipping breakfast, rushing and cramming and when I am about to get out from the door of our house, "boom!" a dog bite!
I lost my composure already and got stressed while getting out of the house. As soon as I went out, I checked the wound and I saw I had a scratch, but it has redness too.
I informed my sister through messenger that our dog bite me and show her my wounds. She advised me to get a tabbies vaccine because the dog that bitten me is ill. Oh my!!!
As I was going to work I kept on thinking if I will go to Tokyo Health link or Ritm. As soon as I went to the office I ask an officemente who had got a bite recently and he suggested RItm so that I don't need to pay. I am not sure of that though. What I am thinking is the journey going there because it is too far. My sister suggested a medical clinic in Bangkal Makati Evangelista that has rabies vaccine and now I am here.
It is called RG Medical Clinic. I am glad that they are accredited to my HMO and now I am waiting for approval of rabies vaccine. For the record, my HMO is Etiqa and they are slow when it comes to approval. I am here for an hour and still waiting to get my vaccine. I hope I able to finish before 12 in the afternoon because I am avoiding the heat from the sun. I am a regular Heatstroke victim so I am kind of scared to be under the sun during that time.
Moreover, my wounds is not that serious though I have to admit it has an intense pain after I was bitten. I wash it with soap and water when I went to the office and I put alcohol. I need to find out if the wounds has a hole. If I feel an stingy feeling then it has. I have a slight stingy feeling so I decided to have the vaccine immediately. I am glad that my manager is understanding and approve me to went out of the office and get my vaccine ASAP.
Now I am here and waiting for that approval. I haven't had eaten anything. I only had a half a cup of cold coffee when I went out of the house. That is the consequence of not being prepared for the day. I have to suffer from this for the meantime but I will get through this. It is best to go safer and protected. I don't want to die in rabies. I will get married to either Jungkook or Suga in the future, so I need to live and be healthy.
Goodluck to me!!
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All Original Content by @Grecy095
Do not tell others what they can't fix within 10sec. Is this true to you?
March 26,2023
Annyeong Chingus! How are you? The weather is so hot. I want to sleep and I feel tired but I don't have space at home. I decided to not go to work for today because I thought my mother need someone to take care of my nephew since she was about to go out, but then my sister, who is the mother of my nephew went home after work but it's too late to go to work.
I'm putting my blurred face here, just in case you miss me!!
What I did, instead of feeling bad, is yo clean my surroundings and wash my bags. Now I feel tired and sleepy but I decided to write here instead.
Have you heard of the saying, "Do not tell others what they can't fix in 10 secs"?i remember this saying or statement and it comes from my former manager.
What are the things you can fix in 10 seconds or more
A bogger in your nose that is showing.
A food stuck in your teeth.
A dirt in your face.
Uncomb hair
Mucus on the side of the eye.
A lipstick on your teeth.
White hair
And lots of lots if you come to think about. Above are things that you can fix in 10 seconds or more.
Above are the things that you can say to people and you can even whisper it to them. Once you say it, surely they will easily remove it and it is done within 10 secs. Everything is fix, however,
What are the things you can't fix in 10 seconds
Being fat
Being ugly
Being not fair in skin color
Your attitude, (it is always require a decision)
There are things you can't fix or solve in 10 seconds.
Like being fat, you cannot just say to other people that they are fat. Maybe you can say it as a joke, maybe the other person will just accept it when you say it because you are a Close friend, maybe some will not take it seriously, but what if someone could really be depress just by hearing that?
Like me for example, when I am in a group of people or in a gathering, when someone said I look old and fat, I do not take it personally but I kept thinking about it. For sure little while I will go in a ladies room and check for my wrinkles or if I really look old or how fat I am. I will be bothered if I am ugly that day because I was told to be old and fat.
However, on the other side, that person didn't say that I am ugly. She might just told me I look old and fat but because in our present time, being skinny and youthful looking is a standard of beauty, I might not look like beautiful. I might fall somewhere in between the average and the ugly isn't it? So she indirectly said I'm not beautiful at all but she never told me I'm ugly.
See what happened to my brain about that scenario? I began to overthink what I looks like. I might not ask a question to that person of what I really look like because if that person will go direct to the point, I might get hurt, or if she makes me feel okay, I will be in doubt.
Okay, that is the thinking of a person with anxiety by the way so don't tell them what they can fix in 10 seconds or more.
If I have a food sticking on my teeth, I will just gargle with water and not even 5 secs I can end it. If I have bogger I will use a tissue to remove it. If I have a mucus, then I wipe it with someone' s hand, lol.
But being fat and looking old, I cannot fix that in 10 secs. It requires time and mind setting. I rather accept the word "you look okay, or you look fine!" than hearing that said by even the most favorite person I have in my life.
If by any chance you see people, compliment them even if they don't look good for you, because you never know what is walking in your brain after you said those things that can't be fix in 10 secs. However, it is all in the mind and this kind of situation doesn't hold true to other people.
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Manifesting before Sleep to Relieve Stress
March 23, 2023
Annyeong Chingus! It will be an awesome weekend for sure! I have lots of work to do, it is tiring but I am grateful because I have money to feed my family. My company is not perfect but I am not perfect too. This company has provided me money, although it is not enough and I need some more, I am thankful. I am happy. I feel blessed already.
So what's with the title? Does it bring you some cringe? Do you find it creepy?
Disclaimer: I am not an expert on manifesting, but it become part of my regular life. I do not do it daily, but I do it every week or every I have activity for myself to manifest and it becomes a habit now. If this one doesn't take effect on you, don't get mad at me. I am applying this to myself because sometimes life is really unfair and I can't breathe anymore. This can help with my anxiety. It is always your digression if you want to join me.
For this article I'm going to share you about what I do before I sleep. In the next article I will share to you what I do everytime I wake. I will share it one by one in my future post.
I use TikTok to Manifest Money
Do you know that in order for me to relieve my stress for the day, I go to TikTok and search the keyword "money manifestation".
I will watch every content I will see there, say the word they manifest, listen to their manifesting sounds, and create my own manifestation using my notes at my phone. It relieves my stress. I feel relieve seriously. I kept on yawning while watching it. Yawning actions means I am releasing the negativities in my body.
I go to Spotify and listen to money manifestation podcast or binaural theta waves
It is effective for me to use this technique to relax my brain and to release my stress. I use my ear pods, search for money manifestation, any kind of manifestation and binaural waves.
I yawn again and I have a goodnight sleep. I do these techniques when I am having a bad day at work during the day. It might not solve any problem I have during that time but the relieving feeling clears my mind and I get to have an idea on how can I solve the problem. In the morning when I wake up, I might felt tired or might felt bad, but I don't have the kind of depressive feeling I usually have.
I use YouTube to watch Money counting video
This is one of my addition to manifestation. I go to YouTube and search for money counting video. It gives me a different excitement because I keep on thinking I am counting my own money. It makes me feel okay. It puts a smile in my face. I do this when I visit TikTok for the money manifestation technique when I have enough time at night.
Why do I manifest using these techniques?
It has been effective for me to Relieve Stress. Sometimes when I know I am about to get mad and fuming with whatever happening around me that is out of control, I do these techniques one by one and it definitely change my mood. This is my own way of survival. This is my way of taking care of my mental health. If I will not do these, I will go insane.
What do I benefit for doing this? Do I received money already?
It helps me in decision making because it is an effective way of calming myself. Before, I have anger management that I shout whenever I get stress, now, I develop an attitude of breathing through my mouth, counting one to ten and watching manifestation videos instead of reacting. Of course, I feel bad, but I keep quiet. It calms me to do the techniques first before anything else.
I received money, yes!! I either will receive an invites to microjobs on my other job, ghost writing and some opportunities of overtime work in the office. I don't earn that much on my online jobs, but the opportunity is there for me to earn, I only need to work.
Also, through manifestation, my mother received a very large amount of money last January. I have a strong feeling that even I manifest for my own, I can attract it not only for me. It could happen to my family too, without them being aware!! How amazing it is!
On the next episode, I will share about what I do when I wake up. Let's meet in my next article. See yah!!
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How spoiled she is!!
March 21, 2023
Annyeong Chingus! I have been using this Korean greetings this March here in Read, but I haven't shared about the meaning.
Annyeong - means hello or goodbye
Chingu - friend
So if I say "Annyeong Chingu!!", it means Hello friends!!
Anyway, let's move on to my new story for today. Just yesterday, I shared to you that my dog saved me for feeling sad again but initiating a very sweet hug. My dog knows me and she has been with me for three years now. Her birthday is on April 28 and she will be 3!!
I remember this incident last time that my sister said that she will ask for the payment for burger steak (from Jollibee) that Unnie order. Unnie is the name of my dog, by the way. My sister sad that whenever they order food at home and its from Jollibee, Unnie will request for her. She will order food too. It is either burger steak or chicken meal. I just found out from my sister that I need to pay a certain amount because my daughter dog Unnie requested it.
Now, just last week, my sister chatted and telling me that Unnie wants me to buy her strawberry milk.
Here is the chat above.
My sister said that Unnie wants me to buy her a strawberry milk. My nephew doesn't want the taste of the strawberry milk so she tried if Unnie will going to like it. It seems that Unnie urged my sister to chat me and let me know.
She even include a video of Unnie drinking the strawberry milk. Those pictures above is the proof that Unnie loves the taste. She knows when my sister already told me about it. It means she badly wanted it.
I realize how spoiled she is. It is all my fault. She always complain when I am slow in whatever I am doing. She follows me around. Also when we are sleeping (she is sleeping beside me with her own pillow), she hates when I stand up or when I am using my phone. She gets angry when I am laughing in the middle of the night, she is literally pushing me out from the bed, lol. She hates noise that is coming from me whenever we are in bed.
She is little by little being a human. The only lacking is for her to speak my language. She can make different sounds and I can easily tell if she is complaining.
How cute my dog is. She is one of the reason I am happy and satisfied with my life. I am only not satisfied with my income though, lol. I spoiled her, which is bad, but I discipline her too. Despite us being like a mother and daughter, she also have her limits and she knows that. I love Unnie to the infinity and beyond. Let me know your pet story too!!
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