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My Suicidal Thoughts Hello! Don't worry, I'm not thinking about dying right now. I'm pretty fine, alive and kicking. XD Few days ago I was tagged by Ate @Eylz2021 on a prompt about darkness organized by Ms. **@JonicaBradley**. I didn't know what to write at that time, I had no idea what darkness meant to me. So after reading some articles about the darkness of some of my friends here who already joined in this event. Something came into my mind but not like theirs, this one seems like having fun in the dark. https://read.cash/@JonicaBradley/writing-prompt-4-darkness-30499827 I just want to share what are the suicidal thoughts sinking in my mind every time I'm feeling useless, worthless etc. I will make this fun to the best I can. Haha. Because sometimes I'm having fun in the darkness. Give your insights in the comment section. Lezzgo. Whenever someone told me that I'm **USELESS**. Nothing was done right. ****I want to HANG myself.**** Get a rope, enter the comfort room, bring some chairs so I can tie up the rope then lock the door so no one can disturb and stop me.   But every time I want to do that, I can't imagine how I can take the pain. XD I mean, it will hurt me, I don't want it. Ah okay, nevermind. I want to die but there must be no pain.  ****I want to be HIT by big vehicles.**** I imagine my body rolling on the road because of the impact, something I flew after the car hitting me or pop off my head in within my body :D how fun is that, right?   ****I want to STAB myself with the knife multiple times and SLICE my neck.****  While imagining this one I act like an actress that seems dying. XD It's like my blood won't stop flowing! I will run out of blood huhu. Charot. Like my blood coming from my neck is like a fountain. Wiiieee.  I remember one of my professors told this short short story... *About knives which can't kill people no matter how you use it to stab yourself but are sharp enough to cut meat, vegetables, fruits etc. It is like an advertisement(obviously for fun, not true) for knives, would you buy one?*. The end. This story made me laugh. Sometimes I wish that I never existed, wasn't born and seen this world. I want to put an end to my life but thinking the process makes me stop. XD I can't think of the easiest ways to die, surely one. Do you know what, aside from sleeping and not waking up? Comment down below! Haha. BONUS ONLY. **EATEN** by other people.  Don't be so green. Haha. I mean it's like a zombie who wants my flesh, cannibal. How does it feel when there are zombies eating your meat while you are alive? I was bitten by my siblings or friends and it hurts. So how much more if they are going to eat me? Yikes! Haha. I cannot. I want to **SLEEP** and **not WAKE UP** anymore. (*Once I have done my responsibilities in life*). This is the only way I know that you will not get hurt and it is so easy. Sorry, I know this is not a joke, I just want this one to be different. Don't take this one seriously. The way I think about how to get things done the way I'll die, made me laugh. On the other hand, I've been in darkness but thinking about funny moments. XD I had **fun** with the **darkness**. :) @JonicaBradley Thank you for reading! :) Lead Image Source: soundcloud.com https://soundcloud.com/brenda-emanuele/jake-hill-josh-a-suicidal **dziefem's note:** Stay away from those toxic people. Have a healthy life and heart. If you have suicidal thoughts, talk to someone about your problems. My previous articles: 0.4 BCH - 1 Month at read.cash https://read.cash/@dziefem/04-bch-1-month-at-readcash-d160b729 **Special Day of Two out of Six Men in My Life** https://read.cash/@dziefem/special-day-of-two-out-of-six-men-in-my-life-361fe550 **I hate My Father!** https://read.cash/@dziefem/i-hate-my-father-6ca44d5c **How do I Fight My Stage Fright?** https://read.cash/@dziefem/how-do-i-fight-my-stage-fright-51065cd7 **Six Years With You and Counting** https://read.cash/@dziefem/six-years-with-you-and-counting-cbbc6105 **Someone made me Pregnant!** https://read.cash/@dziefem/someone-made-me-pregnant-3a1227cb **How do you Interpret Songs?** https://read.cash/@dziefem/how-do-you-interpret-songs-fd972b6d **Different Types of People that I've Encountered** https://read.cash/@dziefem/different-types-of-people-that-ive-encountered-1725a93f

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