Things I'd Say To My Ex
Did you talk to your exes when you broke up?
Did you ever have the so-called “closure”?
Did you have the chance to thank them for being part of your life?
Maybe some of us had the opportunity to experience the things I mentioned above, but some did not. And I can understand how you cannot see yourself talking to your ex again, especially if they cheated on you or caused you so much pain.
Like some of you, I did not have the chance to talk to one of my recent exes. It was a heart-breaking split on his part, I think. And it is the reason why I wrote this piece. He may not read it, but at least I could write down the things I want to say and express them here.
To my ex,
You contributed to the reason why I changed myself for the better.
I know that I was on my worst version before. I knew it all along, but it did not push me so hard to change and be better until we split up. Maybe that was the sign of being better because I was too toxic. You showed me that someone would still love me despite my toxicity, which made me change myself. You are why I wanted to be an excellent partner to my boyfriend because I caused unbearable pain to you before. I can say that I will never go back to that toxicity, and I am sorry that you had to deal with and handle that version of me.
Yes, you read it right. I was the toxic one before, but I learned from that over the moving-on process. I became a better person because I saw the poisonous self back. And I know that my ex contributed to that. He was the driving force that pushed me to change. Though it was a choice I made, I know that he was also a part of it.
I learned so many things because of you.
Maybe I forgot to tell you that you left me enough lessons and realizations. I will always be thankful that you taught me to be considerate of other people’s feelings. It was a roller-coaster ride, but it was a great experience being with you and learning all the ups and downs of a relationship.
Admit it or not, aside from the pain and disappointments our exes left to us, there are lessons learned too. There are moments when we will thank them for the heartaches because we have become more assertive and wiser.
I am sorry if I was a toxic partner back then.
I already admitted being the toxic one before. I know that you have been through a lot because of my toxicity. Also, I know you did your best to keep up with my expectations to satisfy my pride and me. I am sorry for causing too much trouble and stressing you out on the days you were with me. I made many mistakes, and I have hurt you more than I could ever imagine, and I apologize for all that.
I was a toxic partner before. I have these principles that made me lose control over my emotion and pride. I was unhealthy, and I caused pain to my ex too. And I know I should have said sorry to him personally, but I don’t think we will still have the chance to talk about it. I always wanted to say sorry to him, but maybe when the right and the perfect time came.
I want you to be happy.
I am always praying that God will give you the best partner. I want you to feel genuine happiness and be with someone who will love you more than I did. You deserve it, but I am not the one who will give you that. I hope your girl will do things I didn’t do when you were with me. Be happy and enjoy every journey you will walk through with her.
We must wish happiness to our exes even though they broke our hearts. Because once they feel the joy, they will realize how much pain they caused us before. And they will know that we deserve to be happier. Maybe it is hard to pray for someone’s happiness, but it could be another way to let the pain out.
How about you? Did you keep the things you wanted to tell your ex? Maybe it is time to let them all out through writing, even if you do not want them to read it.
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Woah, its so awkward when you encounter your ex eventhough we have closure, minsan nagkakasalubong kami haha iwasan lang talaga ng tingin 😂😂