I told my parents I am sick
One of the things that I have a difficult time doing is opening up to my parents. I love them a lot and I work hard to give them a future where they can just relax instead of worrying but our perceptions in life are vastly different.
I have learned fron childhood that sometimes being honest is punished so I have learned to keep secrets from them. However, as I grow older I got tired of keeping things from my parents.
So I did my best to be honest with the especially with my dates. I did not want to lie just to go out on a date with my partner so I became honest about that.
However, just because I got a bit better at being honest with them does not mean that I freely tell them things. I honestly envy those people who have such good relationship with their parents that they can tell them anything without fear.
As much as I know that they are only lookin out for me and sharing what they think is best for me, sometimes I could not ignore how much we differ from our mindset. I feel like they are stuck in the past while they might think that I am a little too out of control if they know the things I hide from them.
But they are always under the assumption that I am their perfect daughter. The one they kept putting their pressure on. The one who listens to them and does not talk back much.
I have always felt the need to resent myself as the strong one. I know that I cannot show them a moment of weakness since they never forget it.
I tried so hard to be tough but I know that I was just burying feelings that will cause harm to me in the long run. But I still tried my best to pretend everything is fine. And my family did not know any better.
Today I placed my trust on them
This morning, after our morning walk I randomly told my mother that I need medicine and I have a prescription for it.
I have been wondering the night before what excuse will I tell them to buy my medicine. But upon fallinfg asleep, I think my mind decided to just tell them and deal with the fallout if it happens.
Anyway, I had a hard time telling what it was for and just told her that it was for sleep. She was actually happy about that and suggested that each of us take it so we can sleep properly.
By that time I panicked and told her that I am sick. That what happened six years ago. She got quiet and asked me again if I was still not okay from what happened then and I told her yes, I am not okay. I needed help so I found ways to get help.
I knew she did not understand but she let me knows that she is supporting me in her own way.
Telling my mother was the easy part. It is my father that I knew I would have problems with.
When I told him what the medicine was for he said some hurtful things. But I think my mother talked some sense to him because he insisted to pay for my medicine even though I have the money.
He also brought home cats maybe because he thought it will help me. I really love cats but I honestly am not in the right mindset to take care of one kitten let alone two. I am already tired from taking care of Moshi so I do not know how I will even manage to take care two kittens.
I will refrain from saying anything more since I know his decision stems from some kind of belief that it will help me.
Closing words
Telling my parents went as I expected it to go down. Although I had a leasant surprise when my sisters showed their support for me in their own way. My younger sister gave me money to add for my medicine and therapy budget and my sister promised to treat me in Payday, our youngest sister is less noisy and irritating today too.
I know that everyone in my family supports me in the way that they know how even though some left me more drained than the others. I did not want to tell them since I know they tend to worry and I did not need coddling. I need space.
Hopefully, now they would understand if I just want to be left alone for some time. It was a difficult decision to tell them but I am glad I still did it since I actually got less expenses for the medicine.
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I wish you well dear and hope you do come out strong and healthy… you are brave to confront your family it was never the wrong thing to do.. get well quick