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She'd only given in because she was lonely I promised to myself before that I will never do it again. I hold up for 7 months from the day that I promises and I succeeded on it. I even created a lot of sticky note with my written promise on it.m and put it on my table, my tv screen, even on the mirror and oopz I also have 5 sticky note on my bathroom. I also make sure that I will always see it Everytime that I will go to my kitchen. I get a good result on it and I'm patting my head everyday because I was able to hold up for that long 7 months. I even thought I won't be able to do it but heaven! I am so amazing for making it this far. But doing it is not easy because of a lot of temptation. I was tempted for like unlimited times because of my co workers and friends. They just keep on pushing me in doing "it" but because I have this goal. I was still able to hold up. ! Not that I think about it. Even if they told me a lot of things about how good was it. Even if they keep on tempting me, my urge to achieve my goal was so strong that no one can ever tempt me from doing it again. But off course I can still imagine those things that they keep on saying to me. And I almost lost it. But nah! My will is stronger than the urge of doing it. Bur just Imagine you are being stopped by a lot of people in going in to comfort room just so you can dump some waste. That's what I felt while hodling it all. The urge. But because I want so much to change. Because I want so much to make myself more presentable to others. I want to look good to everyone. I held it all it. I endure it all. I didn't give myself a chance to be entice by the good smell of those. I feel sad because I'm depriving myself but it's okay. It's for my own good. I know, I'm always putting it on my head, that's it's all fir my own good. I will the only one who'll benefit on it in the end. Everything is all good. Everything is perfect and I can still stop myself from doing it. It didn't even occur to me that everything will chance on just one day. Everything is still on hand the other day but it change yesterday. Because I saw Him. The main reason of why I'm doing it. I don't really give a damn about myself coz I'm just sayinf it so I can have all the reason to pursue this goal but... I can't take it anymore. I saw Him yesterday with his new woman. Why he can't love me? Why he can't see that's I'm doing it all for him? Why can't he like me too seriously. I'm trying my best to loss weight so why? And you know because of the pain and the heartbreak I felt and the loneliness yesterday. I finally give in. I broke my own promise and when I check again - i gained 2 kilos for just a day. I look again at my place and I saw 3 boxes of pizza, a bucket of Fried Chicken from Jolibee, Burgers, fries, Cake, Pasta and more and more that I lost count all of it. I mean, why? I only give in because I was lonely and I gain nothing but 2 more kilo of fat and eyebags and not just that. I also lost 5000php for buying all of these foods. I mean jow on earth di I put it all on my stomach? This is just too much Wahhyyyy!!!! Huehue. -- I got the prompt for this on Squibler.io. Thanks to the one who share this site ehee. But I didn't type this to that dangerous site as I know I can't pull it off. And if ever it disappear, I can't type it again and for sure I will forget the idea immediately that's why I cheated lol. I type this on my read.cash editor ehehe.

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