"I'm The One That Got Away: The Final Goodbye, Before I Died"

DISCLAIMER: This story is based on real life, but the rest of it is purely fictional.

This story is dedicated for the friend of mine who died 3 years ago due of His sickness.

So before we start, I would like to say that give important to the people/persons who's still there at your side. We don't know when they life will end..no one knows.

I don't know where to get the strength, I'm having a hard time but I want to fight. I want to say goodbye to everyone first, before it’s all over. I don't want anyone to be left behind, I don't want anyone to get hurt but if I have to leave, I can't do anything.

"Son, I want you to fight hah ..mama is waiting for you, mama loves you very much.", I heard my mother say.

Yes, I can hear you. But it's hard to see that you're also having a hard time because of me.

"Mom, how is Rome?", I heard my sister say when she entered my room.

I could only hear them, I could hear nothing but engines, and the blast of the aircon. I wanted to open my eyes, but I couldn't.

Slowly my chest weighed down, so did the weight of my eyelid. I want to stare, I want to talk to them even now.

"Isn't he still getting better?", Again I heard my older sister's voice. it was obvious to her that she was worried, it was obvious to her that she was very worried.

"Not yet, he hasn't woken up in a few days", mama replied.

Some time later I heard someone crying next to you, I could also feel him holding my hand and kissing me at the same time.

"Son, I know you're strong. Fight back, please. I can't afford to lose you son", My mother said while crying.

*Tiiiinnggggg*

All of a sudden I heard someone crying, and suddenly the crowd increased. What is this? Why do they seem to be pumping something into my chest?

But yes, I feel very heavy. .I feel so heavy, I don't want to leave yet but I'm being called back. someone is calling me back to where I am going.

"No, no. Please, please fight please"

"Wake up, wake up there son don't leave mama. .don't leave me child, you are all I have. Don't you want to get better? We're still going negros".

I am currently standing in front of my bed, where I am facing my body. Feeling relieved, I felt no pain and suffering.

"I'm sorry, but we've done everything". After the doctor said that to mama, mama suddenly cried. I want to hug her, I want to kiss her, I want to say that I love her until the end.

Ma, sorry. I didn’t want to give up, I didn’t want to leave you. .ma, I love you so much ma. I love you so much, my sister and brother, I'm sorry if I lose you first. I'm sorry, if I don't keep my promise to everyone.

Time of death: 3:00pm (Sept 13, 2018)

This photo was taken last 2018, actually until now it's hard for me to accept the fact that my friend died at the very young age. He's my partner before when it comes to crypto, like bitcoin. We both always work together to reach the same goals of us. But now that he's gone.. I'm the only one who's gonna continue to reach our goal.

I know that he's happy now, he's not suffering anymore. His suffering for almost 17 years has now paid off, until now I still can feel his presence. And sometimes, I'm dreaming about him that we're playing the same games that we played and then he's happy but I can feel his sadness.

Author's Note:

I may not know if how are you there, but always remember that you're in our heart. You'll never be forgotten.

And because of what happened, I learned to give appreciation to the people who's always in my side.

9-14-2021