Valentine's Memories
February 11, 2022
1 love, 4 hugs, 3 kisses...Is that what 143 stands for? The special recipe for Valentine's Day? Love is truly in the air and heart shapes are visibly scattered everywhere. Flowers, chocolates, stuffed toys, etc, are ready to be wrapped for VD. Mr. Cupido would surely be roaming around and ready to release his arrow to his target. Would you love to be hit by his arrow? Or just block it and remain solo? Whatever it is, FebLove just makes us feel in love, either in a romantic way or just an ordinary one. Self-love is still part of the picture anyway.
Reading different Valentine memories made me reminisce about mine too. The happy, romantic, sad, and silly ones. Don't be green-minded, it's not what you think it is, lol. You'll know about it later. I'm not stone-hearted at all. My heart still beats normally, I guess 😅. It's pounding, pacing slow and fast at times, depending on the situation. And yes, I'm still a normal lonely human being, lol.
Back in the days when I was still in love and dating my ex, butterflies in my stomach uncontrollably go wild every time he holds my hand gently, and my heart would beat so fast. The cinema near our school was our dating site as we love to watch movies on weekends. On Valentine's day, the same thing would happen, date here and there, holding hands while walking. And it seemed like heart clouds were hovering above us.
But would you believe it if I said that I never received a bouquet from him? That was understandable as we were still students and a bouquet was quite fancy. But can't he just pick a stem of flower from their garden? It would be more romantic. And a lady in love would love to have it. I was always aiming for that, especially on Valentine's day. Unfortunately, he never gave me one. I did receive some chocolates, stuffed toys, and other material stuff. But he never knew that what I love to receive were flowers as I found it romantic.
But I guess, we were really not meant to be together as all material things he gave me were all lost, I mean, got by other hands. The stuffed bear he gave was stolen by my dear brother and gave it to his girlfriend, wth! The jersey he gave me was used by my brother without my permission and wore it during their basketball game. I was like, "Hey bro when did you change your family name?" As my ex's surname and our anniversary date were printed on it. The jacket he gave fell from my bag, maybe on my way or the jeepney, and I only noticed it was gone when I rummaged through my bag in the office. That day, I was trembling while working as I had no jacket to wear and our office was like snowing. The only thing left was the souvenir t-shirt he gave me from their engineering department. And it faded over time already and I don't know where it is now.
But you know that the most painful memory happened in February too? And that's the reason why I hated February before. It just brought back those nights when he broke my heart. February 20, 2011, to be exact and I didn't even receive a Valentine greeting from him beforehand. Unbeknownst to me, he was already busy with another woman. You can read it here, Hello Love, Goodbye. Thanks For Cheating.
Those were just some of the happy and painful memories that happened in the month of Love. But what's worth sharing are the funny and stupid ones.
Valentine's day the next year after the breakup was, of course, a lonely day for a single lady who doesn't like to venture out into the wilds of Eros, the God of Love. But who says I was lonely? No more lonely days as my newfound friends occupied the empty seats beside me.
February 14, 2012. Our office was filled with stories about Valentine's day. Different plans and dates with their partners were proudly shared in the prod. And we? The Group of singles was just silently staring at each other and had no reason to dive into their discussion.
After the prod, my friends and I met outside and discussed how to spend the day without feeling sad and lonely. Unhesitantly, I invited them to watch a movie with me. Not in a cinema, but in Liselle's house, lol. The 3 Idiots movie saved our day. The whole afternoon was spent in front of the TV with matching popcorn, I mean, pancit canton and coke beside us.
At least, the day ended happily as 3 idiots were truly entertaining. We laughed throughout the movie and learned a lot of lessons.
And the stupid thing I ever did was still in February 2012. And I never shared this story here before. Being single for a year, I thought of testing my heart if it would feel the love again. There was a man I met through text but I forgot how I got his number. Unexpectedly, he's the brother of my high school classmate and even younger than me. I have never been into a relationship with a younger man and I found it awkward.
Due to loneliness, I gave it a try and entertained his messages. After a few weeks, we started dating and became closer, especially since we were from the same town. We would go back to our town on weekends and back to the city on weekdays.
One day he invited me to watch a movie as a post-Valentine date. He started a joke and mentioned a kiss. A silly thought came to mind and I joked with him, "I'll give you a kiss if you'll give me a flower." In my mind, I just wanted to go with the flow and see how far we would go.
On the day of our date, we opted to watch the latest movie in Robinson's Cinema and I went there earlier than him. Surprisingly, I saw him walking towards me with a rose in his hand. It wasn't a bouquet but still a flower with heart-shaped decorations, lol.
I just screwed myself in my mind and I never thought he would dare to buy a flower for me. Does he really want a kiss? I stupidly asked myself that kept me worried the whole course of watching the movie. The movie ended after more than an hour and a few seconds before the lights inside the cinema turned on again, we coincidentally faced each other at the same time, then all of a sudden, his lips landed on mine. It was just a smack though.
And that was the consequence of my stupid joke. However, in that process, I waited to feel something, but to no avail. There was no spark or whatever at all. He just reminded me of my past. With that, I opted to stop engaging with him as I know that it won't work. We became friends though and he understood my decision.
Two men came after him and another story to tell. But never entertained any man again since 2013 up to date. Maybe I was really destined to be single forever, lol. Nonetheless, I'm happy being single and I love loving myself more than any man.
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Hahaha ang plan ko for valentines eh sa may Intramuros naman haha