Battling The Battles
Hello there, wonderful friends!
I'm going to start today with not so happy thoughts. Not trying to be a big killjoy, but I think this is a topic that really hits home for everyone. We can loosely say...
"Everyone has bad days" and it is very true, right? The big question is how do you deal with them? How do you see yourself during these bad days?
I have kept it no secret about my past struggles with depression because I think everyone can learn from someone else's struggles. I again have been dealing with so many things lately, and it has to some degree affected my home and personal life. I am not any less of a person but my "affect" ...
af·fect - (noun) - a feeling associated with action: an emotion or mood associated with an idea or action, or the external expression of such a feeling
... has certainly been visible to my family. It breaks my heart seeing people sad because I am sad. Some life plans and those plans are very slow crawling in coming due to barriers, situations, pandemic and so on. Patience, understanding and coping skills are the key, as well as moral support is very essential (something I need to remember). It is easy to internalize and not see what is on the outside for others to see.
I'll write more about this maybe later or in my future posts as I am working in the the house as well as tutoring my daughter's lessons. I feel that this is way too loose and has not conveyed a complete thought. I just had to let this out.
I have most of my life dealt with depression and subsequently have found myself with people who have had the same problems as me. In life, we are faced with trials and tribulations that test us, with age we should learn from them, not everyone does though. Those are the ones in my opinion that permitted themselves to be beaten down victims of what has happened in their lives.
There is however another side of the story, those who are not just depressed, they are damaged mentally by what they have been through, I am admittedly one of them.
Suicide attempts are not always a cry for help, sometimes they are a genuine cry for a way out. All the signs before their end could have been seen as a cry for help. We all think about it I think, admit it or not. I admit the thought crossed my mind just yesterday. I am grateful for life, I love my family but truth be told, I feel too weak to accept that I feel like I am failing sometimes.
I do what I do never for myself, I do it for others. It is called co-dependency . When I feel like I fail others, I feel like I fail myself. Now I am not going to do anything against myself, I will not ever do it but the thought crosses my mind.
Thank you, read.cash. Some of you have been with me for so many years. Many of you are new friends, and I am very blessed for both. We will go day by day together. If you are filled with joy in your heart, please hold on to that. Share as much as you can. If you're not, hang in there just a little bit tighter, it will be over soon. I love you all.
One love,
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February 24, 2022
2:30 pm PST
In between the farm and the beach
Philippines
(The photo is my own and taken by me unless stated otherwise)
I love you sis. We are all in this together, just a little bit longer, yes, and this will be over soon :) Sending love!