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I'm on the nineteenth Day since that painful break-up. Wishing it was just a dream, but then I realized it never was. How's my life after that? Let's fine out through reading this write up...

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What's up my lovely and handsome brothers and sisters!? How are you? I was inactive two days straight. Did you notice that? I hope you did. (Smiling)

How's your hustling journey? Did you achieve your goals already? Or still striving? What about me? Uhm... I am too far from that. Especially that I am not as active as you are my read.cash fam. So, what's the lastest update? (Marites na naman.^_^) Well, I will just share the most important thing that had happened to me this past few days. Both good and bad, of course. (I am just comfortable sharing with you about my personal life, because I know I can trust you my fam.)

May 18, 2022-Wednesday

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- Someone treated me on eating "Balut." That someone is the one I have mentioned on my previous article. The one that helped me to survive the storm. But before that, I decided to went to my Aunt and I've got a little scolding from her because of MGD. She said to me that I am just numb because I didn't give another chance to MGD. "Sayang daw kasi yung six years." But I said, "it will never happen again." I have given him a lot of chances but he just keep repeating what he did.

Its not because I have someone that comforts me now. Its because I have found my worth. I am able to realized that I should love myself first more than anything else or leaving some love for myself instead of giving it all. I realized that at that time, I was just too blinded because of too much love I have given to him but still it wasn't enough for him to stay loyal to me. Even at this very moment, I still have these questions in mind,

"Why he did that to me?"

"Am I not good enough?"

"Am I not worthy enough?"

Though I forgave him, but I still can't imagine myself to talk to him or to see him again. I am not yet ready for that. The pain is still there.

After staying for a while in that place, I decided to went outside and spent my time to that someone. He let me eat all I want. I mean the Balut. I am able to see his efforts, for calling and chatting me. He even visited me at home. He accompanies me when I went to a Disco. He talks to me everyday whenever possible. And if you're asking, "Am I happy? Yes! I am very much happy.

May 19, 2022-Yesterday

- I went to town with my Aunt and my cousin. She bought a shoes for him and I bought some of things I need like my vitamins and my beauty regimens.

It was actually a fine day, but I just don't know why it rained all of a sudden. It feels like there was a storm. I really thought that we will not be able to go to town because of that phenomenon. But thanks God, for it stopped. Fast forward, we've got home around 6 pm and had a dinner with my papa and mama. And around 8 pm, that someone visited me at home. In bisaya term, "Namisita." I felt he was really nervous because of the sweats he got all over his face. My parents was just at their room sleeping. (Ganyan kasi sila pag may bisita ako. Hindi kasi sila yung mahilig din makipagkuwentuhan lalo pa pag bisita ko. Awkward ba? Nasanay na lang din ako. Hoping na sooner or later, kausapin na din nila yung tao. Hehe)

We spent time together, talking just a random stuffs. And lately realized, it was already 1 am in the morning. "Kapag kasi kumportable ako sa taong kausap ko, hindi ko na iniintindi yung oras." After that, I said that he should go home na para mapagpahinga na din.

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And here I am today, waking up in a beautiful friday, smiling and trying to manifest positivity. I hope you do the same.

Here's my quick breakfast today.😁

Regarding the break-up issue, the pain is still there but I am taking each day as a challenge or just a test. I know God's time will come. It will surely will! (Sighing) For now, I am trying to enjoy my life with my family and my social media life.

That would be all for this blog. Thank you for spending your time my read.cash family. Take good care of yourselves!❣️

TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!😇

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Slowly but surely sis, it's not easy but I know someday somehow you can overcome it.

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2 years ago

For sure.. Hindi man sa ngayon, pero darating din ang tamang panahon na si God lang ang may alam..

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2 years ago

I am glad to see you now doing better since the breakup, with time you will definitely heal completely and forget about the whole thing

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2 years ago

God is the reason why I remain strong today!😇

Yeah! He's time will come and heal my pains. Thanks my friend.❤️

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2 years ago

I like your new perspective; loving and putting yourself first before any other. That's how it works, when we love ourselves first, then it becomes hard for anyone to take advantage of us all in the name of love or feelings

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2 years ago

I just lately realized that things my dear Kacy. It maybe because I am just too blinded to see my worth because I loved him so much. But now, I learned my lessons.

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2 years ago

I am happy that you're doing good mare. That's better that to think that someone na matagal kanang 🙄. But anyways kung sino man yang nagpapasaya sayo today sana ay ituloy nya lang. Mabilis kang makakalimot kapag ganyan 🥰

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2 years ago

Yun nga mare. Napakuwento na tuloy ako. Ngayon nga, binaliktad na naman yung storya, kasi daw matagal na niyang alam na meron daw talagang nangyayari na hindi maganda. Aigoo! Ako daw yung gamer sa'ming dalawa. Naku! Naku! Haha. Natawa nalang din ako, though medyo nainis. Kahit makailang beses ko pang sabihin na hiwalay na kami before ko pa nagawang i.entertain yung tao. Masama na ba yung maghanap na ako nang comfort sa iba? Oo, parang napakadali na lang din para sa'kin na gawin yun. Sa makailang ulit ba naman kasing pangyayari, sino bang hindi masasagad dun? Yung tipong, para talagang pinapaburan pa siya nang mga Auntie, wala na lang din ako'ng paki. Hindi naman dahil may taga.comfort. Hindi na talaga eh. Tas iniisip ko na din talaga na hindi na mag.wo.work for us. Though, hindi talaga maipagkakailang minahal ko siya, "Dati." Parang namanhid ba.

About naman dun sa someone, malapit na kasi siyang bumalik nang Maynila mare. Kaya sabi nga ni mama, wag daw ako umasa hahaha.. Ang nega ni mama. Pero, alam ko naman na concern lang din talaga siya sa'kin mare.

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2 years ago

Saka wala naman kayony ginagawng masama ah. Sya nga nakipag halikan pa ampt kakapal namam talaga ng fez nyan.

Pero, nagugustuhan mo ma din ba ung someone na yan?

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2 years ago

Yun nga eh. Tas sinasabi niyang kasalan ko pa daw kasi naniwala ako sa pinagsasabi nang ibang tao. Nagalit talaga si mama dun mare. Ang sabi niya, "mismong kamag.anak na niya yung nagsabi. Ano pang idadahilan niya? Tinuring pa naman namin siyang anak na din tas ganun² lang ang gagawin niya. Ang kapal naman ng mukha niya."

Nagalit siya sa'kin mare kasi I treated him daw na parang basura. Na pinagmurahan ko siya. Sino ba naman kasing hindi magagalit sa ginawa niya. All this time, pinaniwala niya, hindi lang ako ha pati mga magulang ko..

Hmmm.. Oo naman, ma.effort din kasi siya mare. As in, May 6 kami naghiwalay tas first naming commu, after nung elections, hindi na talaga naputol yun til now mare. Lagi din siyang bumibista dito sa bahay. Yun nga lang babalik na siya nang Maynila.

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2 years ago

Kapal ng fez talaga 🙄 buti nalamg nalaman mo totoong ugali nyan. What if kasal na layo tas ganyan pala sya naku nakuu. Di naman kasi maniniwala if walang basehan diba tsk tsk.

Anyways, sana ay mag btuloy tuloy pa yan kahit andun sya sa Manila na ehe

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2 years ago

Kaya nga mare. Tas nung nag.post ako, panay cheering up sa'kin na comments natatanggap ko galing sa mga taong nakakakilala sa'min dun sa lugar na yun. Edi ibig sabihin, alam din nila yung ginagawa niya dun kapag di kami magkasama.. Kakainis talaga..

Yun nga sabi ko sa kaniya din mare. Kung seryoso man siya sa'kin, na gusto ko siya pagkatiwalaan, wag siya gagawa nang bagay na magiging dahilan na lumayo talaga ako for good.

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2 years ago

I know how hard it can be to survive a heart break. Although I myself have never had my heart broken, I just know that it's no easy feat. Don't worry, you'll get better in no time.

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2 years ago

Yes, of course my dear. Let's just be positive. Hehe.. Thank you so much..🥰

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2 years ago

Why didn't you show us the picture of the someone 😋.... Wishing you all the love

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2 years ago

Very soon my dear friend. Not for now, I guess. Thank you so much.😘

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2 years ago

Sakto na imong gibuhat mamsh. Ayaw iclose imong heart sa lain. Pero little advice lang pud, ayaw sa kasud ug laing relationship if dili pa ka totally healed. Maayu pud ng naa kay makaistorya mamsh.

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2 years ago

Same jud mo'ng Ma'am Dan ug advice Mamsh. Sa pagkatinuod kaning someone nga ahung gi.mention, ahu na jud bitaw ni sija'ng gipasidan.an lagi mga dugmok ko kaajo rung mga panahona. Even ahung ginikanan apektado. Gi.sermonan napud gani lagi ko nija gaina Mamsh, nga basin napud kuno pag.abot sa panahon, muasa napud kuno daw ko..Ingon siya tarungon daw naho ahung kinabuhi, dili na magpataka ug dasmag. Na.feel jud pud naho ilang kahadlok Mamsh, nga basin masakitan napud ko, muasa napud ko. Ug ahu jud nang gi.pranka sa iyaha, personally..Dili ko gusto anang dili sija masayod sa tanan kay syempre, gusto ko nga dawaton jud nija ug unsa ko, ahung mga kakuwangan, mga kalisdanan, everything about me. Dili lalim ang 6 years nga basta-basta na laman papason Mamsh uie. Ang nakaparat laman kay gibaliktad napud ang storya. Ang ending ako daw ang gaduwa..Sa ba diay naho ug ing.ana sija kakitid maghuna.huna pud. Bisan pa man gani'g gi.paburan na sija sa ahung ubang Auntie, nawad.an na jud siguro ko'g paki nija..Though syempre dili jud ikalimod na gugmaan ko nija sa niaging panahon.

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2 years ago

Haruyyy mamsh uy. Kalain c e niya uy. Iya man gipahid nimo iyang sa. Makaingon man pud ta nga maayu ra sad diay nga nagbuwag mo. Kabaga jud sa iyang fezlak ba nga mamali ug istorya. Ayaw na lang na siya panumbalinga mamsh. Ipakita na lang niya nga kaya nimo mubarug nga wala siya.

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2 years ago

Mao gani Mamsh. Mao man pud na ijang gibuhat sauna kadtong naka.uyab ko sa taga.silingang baryo. Ipaglandakan lagi nga nag.cheat ko. Bisan after na jud pud to sa break up namo pud. Tas gibuhat napud nija ug utro karun. Pero nahh, di nako magpakugang nija Mamsh, nigara naman gud pud sija. Tas wa jud sija'y dag.anan kay ag baje na mismo ang gapakita naho nga naa ju'y something nila. Gawas ana, ipakita pa jud nila's taga.ila kung unsa sila. Though wa ko nakakita personally. Mismong ig.agaw na nija ang ga.sulte.. Ug kadtong last nga ga.post ko regarding the issue, reading sa mga comments sa taga-ila, sure na jud nga naa kay more on cheering me up ilang mga comments. Pasabot ana, sila didto nasayod jud bahin ana. Tas mu.deny pa jud gihapon sija. Kay ako daw lagi kuno nag.cheat.

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2 years ago

Wa jud lagiy kawatan nga mutug-an mamsh. Bisan klaro pa sa tin-awng tubig nga nakasa sila di pa jud muangkon. Ing-ana ng mga tawng way baruganan mamsh.

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2 years ago

Gani tas mao to ingon si mama nga ug adisir pa kuno nga gusto sija nga ma.settle niari na unta kuno. Ug nganong mahadlok man kuno ug wa pa jud kuno'y sa.

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2 years ago

Iba talaga kapag nasa moving on process ate. You will have so many thoughts about why, what if, and how did it go wrong. Hay. I hope you will feel better soon talaga. 🥺♥️

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2 years ago

Kaya nga eh. Tas yung susumbatan ka kasi may ibang tao na nagco-comfort na sayo. Ang ending ikaw pa yung masama kasi daw nagawa ko na magmura sa kaniya. Of course, kahit galit ako, nakokonsensiya din naman ako sa ginawa ko.I know, its not a good excuse kasi despite all of that, hindi naman mababago yung katotohanang minahal ko yung taong yun for how many years. Tas kanina, sinumbatan niya ako ulit ang ending, ako pa yung mali daw nang rason, siya naman to'ng nahuli. Ayaw niya kasing maniwala na after na nung break up dumating yung taong nagbibigay comfort sa'kin ngayon. He insisted na I am a play girl daw. Nakaka.offend na din yun sis, kaya I literally said na tigilan na niya yung pagbabaliktad ng sitwasyon kasi kahit ano pang gawin niya, paboran pa man siya nang mga kamag.anak ko, hindi na mababago yung desisyon ko na mas pahalagan ang sarili ko higit sa ibang tao.

Pagsubok lang to. Kakayanin.

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2 years ago

Dili sayon kalimtan Ang 6 yrs, daghan kaayog memories na, Happy lang ko para nimu sis, Kay sa hinay2 mka move on Ra Ka, been at the same situation before ug nindut sa feeling nga naa Koy mga friend sa super ka supportive samot na akong mama, nga gapa remind nako pirmi about sa akong worth. Healing really takes time sis, just surround yourself sa mga taw nga makapalipay sa imuha. Fighting. 💪❤️😘

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2 years ago

Gani sis. Gaina gani, ka.received na sad ko'g another tambag kay naa nag-ipid2 kuno naho...Haha. Giingnan ko'g tarunga jud nang imong kinabuhi. Para ra na's ikamaajo ninju. Kay kinsa ba lagi daw kuno'y laing kadaganan nga ginikanan raman. Tas nagpalibot man pud lagi ning mga marites sis. Kita nalaman gajud ang maglikay hangtud asa kutob ang makaya.

Mao bitaw nga dili jud pud ko mubiya diri dapita sis kay dako na kaajo ni'g tabang naho ning mga tawo nga naa nganhi. Usa naka ana.☺️

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2 years ago

Walay ulan dere gihapon sis pero kusoga sa hangin ,makuyawan ta . Anyway ,everythings happend for a reason jud diay ,mao diay wa ka mabubtis sis kay naay gibuhat nga kababalaghan imo partner . Duh oy ,aypan c e ko maka huna huna nija ba ,sagdi nato ,padayun lang sa life and move on.For sure one day moabot ra ang paras emoha jud.

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2 years ago

Mao lagi. Maaju na to nahung pa.gwapa kay abi lagi'g makalarga na pud after. Unsay pagdaw nikalit man laman ug hangin nga murag bagyo tas nagda pa jud ug uwan sis. Nalangan nuon bitaw mi atua ug humuwat.

Nakaingon jud pud bitaw ko sis na maaju ra jud nga wa. Naa ju'y dakong rason nga wa mahitabo nga mabuntis ko lagi. Ayaw pa.stress uie. Maka.wrinkles raba na. Mao jud na'y ahung buhaton sis. Lisod pud ug magpakadugmok na laman ta permi. Abi pa laman wa na ju'y laing ikapuli..Ahws.. Ka.harsh.😁

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2 years ago

Bitaw ,strong kanunay oy ,walay gwapa nga weak hehe ,bitaw pohon moabot ra ang para jud saimoha .Dili ikaw ang nawad an ,kundi siya .

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2 years ago

(Sighing...) Magpuyo nalang ta'ng malinawon sis. Ang pangutana ug magmalinawon ba jud kaha? Haha.

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2 years ago

Don't take this heartbreak as a negative thing...it will help you many times in future....just be strong and move on according to your way

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2 years ago

Yes! Thank you for that kind of advice my friend. 😊

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2 years ago

I'm so proud of your darling, realizing how much worthy you are as a woman. You're in pain, but that's just proof that you truly loved that person. Six years aren't a joke, but neither is the experience that you went through in that relationship.  Fighting lang po.

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2 years ago

Laban Japan tayo sis. Yun naman talaga dapar gawin eh. Walang ibang tutulong talaga sa'tin kung hindi tayo mismo..Dapat tayo yung manguna para makabangon ulit. Magsimula nang panibagong yugto..

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2 years ago

Tama po, we can't wait to see your progress sa selflove na ginagawa mo ngayon.

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2 years ago

Sooner or later sis..🥰

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2 years ago

Happy ko nga happy ka sis..though you are not totally healed pero at least you are trying to heal.Anyway dili jud sayang ang mga tuig if useless ipaglaban ky dili na worth it ang tao.

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2 years ago

Salamat sis. Wa man lagi ta'y laing mahimo sis kundi dawaton ang unsa may dapat dawaton. At least karun, nakamata nako ug mas nakita na jud naho kung unsa ko. Ahung worth. Ganun. Dili man gud pud ko makaingon na dili siya worth it, siguro kuan lang, natabunan lang sa iyang nabuhat. Tao raman ta lagi, we make mistakes. Gihigugma man pud naho gud. Sobra-sobra pa gani, maong labing dugmoka pud naho. Hehe.😂

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2 years ago

gugmaan jud ka niya sis.Pero I think it's not ur lose.You deserve someone better.

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2 years ago

Yes I am sissy. Dili man jud ko mulimod nga gihigugma to naho uie. Pero karun nakita ug nakamata naman ko's ahung kabuang nija, ahwss, mao na'y giingon, "Sorry nalang."

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2 years ago

at least u see your worth now..it's time na tagaan ug importansiya imong self

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2 years ago

Gani tas ug wa pa jud sija'y gibuhat, nganong wa man sija kaako ug atubang naho, namo.. Mao pud na'y ingon nila mama bitaw.

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2 years ago

Mao jud sis. Guilty Lang jud sija

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2 years ago

Ambot pud unsay dagan sa ijang utok sis.. Naahhh, nahuman na among storya sis, gi.block naman pud nahu to.

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2 years ago

Better that way Para makapadajon ka ug move on..

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2 years ago

Mao gani. Kay gusto napud ko'g kalinaw ba..

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2 years ago

Maayo kay naay someone na imo maka storya permi sis. Mas better na kay para di kaayo nimo ma feel ang sakit.

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2 years ago

Lagi sis. Pero mubalik naman siya Manila sis. Trabaho man siya adto gud. Nahug lang nga nagbakasyon siya ngare. Pero happy man sad ko nga naa siya to comfort me.

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2 years ago

Siguro naman bisan ug naa siya sa Manila, naa ra gihapon mo communication diba? Pwede ra man gihapon mo nagtawagan pag naa'y time

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2 years ago

Maoy ijang pasaleg sis. Maju laman lagi ug dili makalimot sis. Nasud napud lagi sa ahung huna.huna nga dina ko magpalabi ug saleg. Samut na anang muadto lagi siya ug balik sa Manila.

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2 years ago

Kana jud ang lisod sis.... Basta kung puhon man kung mag-love ka ug lain, mapa LDR man o naa lang sa duol, ayaw jud Ihatag fully ang imong trust. Kay gamay nalang jud ang mga faithful karong panahona.

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2 years ago

Korek sis. Naka.learned nako sa ahung lesson man pud..

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2 years ago

I am really sorry for your heartbroken feelings. But this is world, everything is possible, you should move forward. Should forget everything of past. Time will heal you soon.

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2 years ago

Don't worry my friend. I'm doing great.. Yes, you said right. It maybe hard for the first time but moving forward is the key to be happy in the next chapter of my life. God's time will heal everything..

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2 years ago

Times heal the heart hehe, be healed and don't close the heart to someone much more deserved hehe. Yiee naman whos that comforter huh? siya naman next update mo sa sming mga marites haha

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2 years ago

Yun nga sabi niya sa'kin sir Eunoia. Nung mga first days pa, wag ko daw isasarado yung heart ko for someone na willing naman talaga akong alagaan at mahalin talaga. Pero sa totoo lang, ang hirap na kasi magtiwala. Oo unfair yun sa part niya, siguro takot lang talaga ako.

Magkalapit lang bahay namin sir, pero bakasyon lang siya dito kasi may trabaho siya Manila. This coming June 5, babalik na siya dun. Isa din yan sa rason kung bakit takot ako magtiwala kasi malayo na naman. Lalong lumayo kasi Manila na yan eh. Hehe

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