I got the idea of this, when @Eybyoung post about immortality in noise.cash, it's actually a question.
When I read it, I knew in that moment my answer to that question. Life today is wonderful. To be alive in this era is just something that everyone in the past will surely wish to experience. Because why not, everything in this time is just fast, full of convenience it's like the time today move faster than the time before or in 2000s. Some may or can't notice it because of their work but, the time pace is like it's running out of time that it need to move faster or else it will be late for work, and surely his boss will cook him into a boiling oil because he's 20 minutes late.
I also like this era to be honest, who wouldn't right? Who knows in 2050 our world will function because of technology. Where there's a flying car, that save everyone from the traffic. Or a robot, that instead of hiring a human helper - they will just buy their own robot. And that will make the developer on that robot more rich and wealthy. While those less unfortunate human will just watch to them and those wealthy people running the world while they still struggling of their life with a growling stomach.
I want to witness the advancement that our world will leap, but nahh I take that back. I'm sure some want to see the world grow into much more advance world. And we can only do that if we will live for a hundred years, 200 years maybe. But that's impossible. The more our world will become more advance, the less the human will stay longer in the world. You all know that. With the kind of food that we are all having, you know MSG's . We use a lot of seasonings that is processed. Those processed foods that exist today. How much of chemicals do you think the manufacturer are putting into it.
If immortality is possible and if by chance some unexpected phenomenon happened in the world where the side effect is immortality - a lot of people will kill just to have that. We will never know but for sure, silently a lot is wishing this to happen. So before I share my answer to this question. I want to share these stories about the girl who got bored in Life and just wished that everything ended at her end.
Once upon a time in Hansel Castle - eherm. Year nineteen something when a woman in her 20s gave birth to a very little cute baby in one of the unknown hospital in the south. She is so cute that you will love to pinch her cheeks until it become a little a swollen. Her Mother already has a plan for her. She will be given into her father's sister and she will be her new Mom. And they will call her "Paro."
Years past, that cute baby girl is now in her primary year level. She grows into a fine kid, but don't be fooled. She's actually a full blown naughty kid with only "Playtime" in her mind. She loves playing that her Mom will nag and pinch her if she doesn't study even just a little. She can go outside but there's still a limit. And if she was caught in the act while playing while she's supposed to be studying - she will get her punishment and be locked up in her room.
Years past again and she's now in High School. She become a little responsible but still lazy when it comes to studying. Her Mom doesn't push her to study that hard but she's also not allowed to attend into gathering, not if it's really required. She missed a lot of fun times in that time because she's has a very tight mother. It came to the point thay she resent her. She just want a little happiness but she can't have it - the perks of having a spoilsport mother.
College, she's now a full blown woman, but it's still flat so she can't do anything about it. It's just the same when she was in high school. A lot of things is not allowed. Even if she asked her mother, she will just stay a big "NO" and what a teenager can do, he will just remain silent and will just say all the words she wants to say in her Mom in her mind. While silently crying inside. She missed another adventure again. She didn't really enjoy much. But her childhood is still the time that she can reminisce with a happy heart.
Growing up, I enjoy it a little. I didn't experience a lot, I missed a lot of gatherings together with my classmates. I missed those fun times that my classmates planned. I have so many things that I really want to do with my friends back then, just for experience. Our high school life is not complete if it doesn't have a bonding time. Or when we have project, spending the night at classmate's house is also a thing back then. You will do it together with the groups.
They will all attend while I'm home, doing nothing - just looking at the ceiling waiting for some miracle that I will suddenly brought me to my classmates house and will join them in joy. But all I can do is to wish and nothing happened that I really want. My friends get to enjoy all of their time High School while I didn't. Same in College, I have the same routine. I will go home once the subject ended. I can say that College is more okay that when I'm in High School, but I'm still not allowed to go anywhere.
I didn't experience a lot but I don't wish for immortality. Even if I can have the chance to experience the things that I didn't experience before, I still don't wish to stay in the world longer. To be honest I am So bored with my life now that if I will die tomorrow, then sure, okay. I'll accept it, but please make it painless, lol. Yeah, I want to experience traveling, going into places that I have never been before - but I don't think I can push it. I'm sure I will back out in the last minute.
The only thing that can make me genuinely happy is my time here in read.cash. Sure I smile and laugh - but sometimes those smile will suddenly vanish and I will feel empty? Yeah like that, I'm bored to death. And, I'm okay if I will be given another 20 years of life - I mean I'm 26 now going 27 next month so if I will be given another 20 years then it's already enough for me. That's my wish actually, to die in 50s.
I know that life is a gift, to be alive is a blessings they say, it's just that I don't want to witness my family leaving me one by one. They are the most Important and what matter most in my life and I don't want to witness it, I don't want more pain. When my Father and Sister died especially my Papa - it's the first time that I experience having someone leave us because of death. It's painful, I just told to myself that I don't want to experience that kind of pain again.
I don't want someone to leave me again, so if it's possible I want to leave first. But then, another one leave amd that's my sister. When I heard the news I want to fly to Batangas to see her in flesh but I didn't had the chance to do it because of financial problem. I only get news about her tru my sister in law, tru phone calls. It's hard, when you know that you're sister will about to bid goodbye in this world. She was revived 5 times and we didn't know if she will still fight. And that's the hardest part of being alive. She give up after the 6 attempt.
So, I don't want immortality, I will just enjoy the day that I have. I will grab some opportunity if I will be given a chance (but not always). Enjoy things if I can, love while I still can and my time comes - I will never regret that decision I made in life. I don't need a hundreds year to do that. Just enough time is already enough for me. I don't want to experience more heartaches. I don't want to see the world be filled with things that will make it crumble because of humans.
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July 05, 2021