My 2nd Year Readcash Anniversary: Standing In The Midst Of Nowhere.
You are still standing here amid the ashes and smoke despite all the battles. You haven't realized how far you've come or how you've overcome obstacles you thought you'd never face. When you thought your life would end, you cried yourself to sleep, but look at you now despite the suffering and pain, you are still fighting.
You can still keep a smile on your face despite being tired. You've survived a lot of days that seemed impossible to complete. I wish you the best of luck and wish you continued success. I hope that you never stop trying until you achieve your goals. I hope you continue to find beauty in this awful world.
*Although it may be difficult, I pray that you overcome all of the wounds you have never shown the universe.*
It took me a **very long time** to realize that life is never a race to the finish, that taking breaks does not make me a weaker fighter, and that resting is just as important as moving forward. I'd fallen too many times before I realized fatigue is normal. *I repeatedly failed* before I realized that ***~~**life isn't always fair**~~***.
It took a lot of courage to get to this point, and I will need even more to get to where I should be.
Before I realized that nothing is permanent and that anyone can leave at any time, I had to go through a lot of wounds, pain, broken relationships, and departures.
It took many sleepless nights to dream and pursue those dreams.
There had to be a lot of war, chaos, and scars in order to achieve this peace; this isolation; this feeling of comfort that permeates my being. I had to die a lot before I could finally say that I was alive. That life has more to offer and why things happen. Too many storms came to make sure I could find daylight.
I lie down some nights and wish the world would stop spinning. I feel like too much time has passed each time I break down because I am so stuck here. My mouth can no longer contain the muffled screams that my pillows can hear. I want to release my grip on the sheets with my fingers. I want to let go of everything. I can't control the night, and being alone in this room with four corners is a torture. And the answer to every prayer is whether or not I will survive the night.
*It's been a month, but I still don't feel okay haha.*
Final Thoughts
By the way, happy 2 years to me! It's been 2 years since I joined this platform. May this platform still grow. I'm so happy to have a blogging experience because of readcash, it helped me so much.
An Open Letter For Those Who Were Fighting For Depression.
When I feel ashamed of who I've become, there are nights like this one when I can't look in the mirror. Realizing that I have scars all over my mind and body that will forever remind me of the things I never wanted to happen is agonizing. I have no idea what the future holds for me, and it might take me a lifetime to realize that I have nothing really wrong with myself or to be kind to myself. However, I promise to keep looking for hope.
I should be thoughtful to my own soul. I'm deserving of your forgiveness. I will continue to battle these fights myself. I will have faith.
Because it is the only way I can remember that I am not alone, I wrote this open letter with all of my heart. Please know that I'm breaking apart just like you are, despite the fact that I have no idea what you're going through at the moment. I deeply empathize with your frustration, and I imagine that you were unable to cope with everything that has been going on in your life. From a remote place, I can never really comfort you, however I actually trust these words get to you.
It's possible that you are crying in your bedroom over things that still haunt you because you were harmed by people who betrayed and abused you and the traumas are keeping you awake at night. ***You have put in so much effort to heal***, but at times like these, all you want to do is get lost in your own thoughts and pray that you will survive another night.
Because so many people rely on you, you might be pleading with yourself to hold on to your job in a train or bus. *However*, because you have to work every day, you are exhausted and just want to rest. You have always desired a life that is better and more comfortable, but fate has decided that you must struggle and bleed in order to achieve something you truly desire. Because you are always short on time and money, you would feel guilty if you tried to pamper yourself.
*You couldn't stop comparing yourself to people who have more privilege and are more successful at their jobs at that point.*
Even though I have no idea what is making you want to give up right now, I hope you will hear me. Just like you, I've lost everything, and I'm trying to decide if this life is still worth living. I will never be certain. I'm lost, but I'm trying to keep believing that I'll get something good.
*In a different life*, we might live the life we've always wanted.
*In a different universe*, maybe things would be different and we would get everything we deserve.
In any case, I genuinely want to believe that we endure this life some way or another. I wish we had another day to appreciate the beautiful little things. In the event that our objectives do not come to pass, I also hope that we will return to the same location where the stars provide us with solace.
Final thoughts
Please be reminded that you are not alone, let's fight this!
Always Remind Yourself.
Don't undervalue a person who has already lost everything but is still here to share their story. Don't underestimate someone who has put in a lot of effort to get sober, peace, forgiveness, self—love, freedom, authenticity, truth.
Never undervalue the lonely. They have endured wars in a way that only those who are aware of the lack of human connection can.
Even now, despite coming so far apart, they are holding it all together. In addition to the possibility of occasionally witnessing their delicate unraveling, or out loud, or the best way their souls untie their cages. People who have experienced the kind of grief that never seems to end should not be underestimated, who have been broken in ways you were unaware of. ***The ones who fell into quiet on the grounds that their lungs.*** Had no words left to express.
We will follow the light while they follow things that do not satisfy them. However, that does not mean that we will not occasionally stumble over dark specks. *Pain cannot be avoided*. However, we will continue to look for what the world's empty spaces cannot provide. We'll look for bright minds.
we will ensure that they always know how much they are loved if they are not bright. We will seek grace, and if we are unable to locate it, we will observe the storms that, in a show of mercy, washed us instead of taking us with them. We'll investigate the gardens. And if we are unable to locate them, we will inhale the sweet scent of forgiveness as we catch our breath. *We won't stop at anything.*
*And we will occasionally get lost.*
*However, that's ok.*
*Even the stars occasionally fall.*
I hope you locate what you seek out there.
I wish you the kind of happiness that comes with setting your own rules.I really hope you really take the time to figure out what moves you, what inspires you, and what you really want out of life, and I also hope you have the courage to go after those things.
I hope you will have the bravery to believe that you are capable of and worthy of creating the kind of life that piques your interest and that you are deserving of everything you desire.
I hope that you never let the ease of standing still, comfort, or convenience quench your inner fire. I hope you can demonstrate to the world what you can accomplish with all of your passion.
I hope you can find the kind of love that softens you.
The kind of love that inspires you to become a better person, the kind of love that encourages, encourages, and stands by your sideI hope you find someone who quickly becomes your favorite thing—someone who lessens your fear of falling and whom you can't help but choose every day. I hope you find someone who demonstrates to you just how deeply you can love and feel. Nothing is more beautiful than loving someone who loves you back, so I hope you find something real. Loving someone who builds you a home in their heart is the most beautiful thing.
Try to remind yourself of how far you have come on the days that are the hardest for you. Instead of focusing on what you're not, start focusing on who you are. Instead of focusing on what you don't have, start focusing on what you do have.
Keep in mind that you are someone's favorite person. Advise yourself that you have beaten the most pernicious and tormented parts of life.
Remind yourself that even though your journey may appear to be being weathered by circumstance or difficulty at times, you have overcome those days in the past, even though there will be days when the darkness and doubt crack within your soul.
And as straightforward as that may sound, it is essential to remind yourself of the strength you have cultivated and that the things you believed would one day bury or destroy you never could. That strength is valuable. There is worth in that development. Even if you can't feel it, it will always be there in you.
Final Thoughts
Silly, I formatted my phone and I forgot to save ng seedphrase. My earnings was all gone in just one snap 😂. Lesson learned.
Regardless How Difficult The Things Are..
In contrast to personality traits, healthy confidence is a character trait. A person's character is a collection of moral and mental traits. People with a lot of self-assurance are typically open to new ideas and people. Pure confidence is supportive by nature rather than arrogant.
Don't confuse people with narcissistic traits who are naturally loving, supportive, and confident.Indeed the comma is in the some unacceptable spot. Life goes on, despite my error.
***But***..
I feel like I'm disappearing.
Even though it appears that everyone has their own set of difficulties, I want shoulders to lean on and let everything out.I need someone with whom I can share my feelings right now, but they seem too preoccupied with their own issues. I'm by myself, drowning in my own tears. When I don't even know where it all began, how can I save myself. Those who appear to be managing their lives well and do not require assistance are most in need of your kind words. You might believe that they do not require hearing that they are doing so well, but they require hearing it the most of anyone.
You will never be able to do the things you love if you always wait until the end of the day to find out if you will have time to do them. You will always choose to sleep because you are exhausted. No matter how silly they may seem to you or others, you will always have time to do the things you enjoy.
*It's worth making time for and investing in things that are good for your soul.*
You have come here to serve no one. A greater number of people who like you will not help you achieve anything. Before you leave, you have a much greater purpose and message to convey here. Don't worry too much about things if you'll find out later that they weren't worth all the stress and overthinking. You do you and let individuals' thought process of you be not really important. Every day is a new opportunity to start over, to dream a new dream, to leave a situation that disturbs your mental peace, and to leave those who caused you pain in every way.
Every moment of the day is an opportunity to rekindle your love for life, yourself, and the people who deserve your heart. The only thing you need to know is that you are currently living in a chance that you will never know about. I hope you won't take advantage of any more opportunities. You didn't want to believe that they were intentionally harming you, so you stayed when you had to leave. Because you don't deserve this, you thought they wouldn't ever treat you like this. However, at long last, you realize that not everyone receives what they deserve.
***Many people will be impressed by your strength but will be afraid to be around you, which should answer many of your unanswered questions.***
Stop lavishing affection, care, and effort on people who have never been appreciative of you. Start treating yourself and everyone else equally. It is sufficient to make them the center of your life despite the fact that they barely see you, to give so much and receive so little. Enough fatigue for people to not care that you look that way, even though they are aware that's the reason. Get over your naiveté. There is no longer any need to waste time or effort on ineffective individuals.
Your entire story is unknown to anyone. Not even your closest friends and family, who seem to always be around you and seem to know everything there is to know about you. Only the portion of your life that they share with you is known to everyone in your immediate vicinity. You are not required to tell anyone your story, nor are they required to listen to it. This is sufficient to convince you that you can only ever be defined by yourself. You will also be able to live with the thought of anyone judging you because of this. Always keep in mind that they are not required to know, that *you are not required to tell them, and that you can continue living your life in peace.*
Recently, life has been all about getting yourself out of that dark place, going back to it, and getting yourself out of it again, which has become so exhausting. And you know deep down that you shouldn't give up on yourself because no one in your life truly cares enough to keep pulling you out of that dark place and not giving up on you. You are aware that you are the only thing you have, and you do not want to give up on yourself like everyone else did.
**This is for you**; *regardless of how difficult things get, never give up on yourself. Keep pushing yourself to become and perform at your best. Even if all you want to do is find another person who might be able to assist you in the process but you are unable to do so, don't give up. At the end, you'll realize how resilient you are and that all you need is yourself.*
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Here's To The Person Who Cries Too Much, and Feels Too Much.
The person who experiences too much emotion, cries too much, and asks too much deserves this. Because of your unique innate sensitivity, don't let them ignore your emotional spirit. To the individual who was incorrectly perceived as someone who makes simple tasks more difficult. They were uninformed that all you expected to try not to struggle or overpower tumult was somewhat more explanation.
A toast is made to the individual who continues to cling to the relics of the past.It's hard, I know. However, I can guarantee that one day you will wake up feeling lighter and grateful for yet another start.
***This belongs to the person who laughs around to hide their sad eyes.***
May the chains that hold your tears together break. Keep in mind that the flood of your grief teaches you to let go, so no tear goes unnoticed. I apologize to anyone who was misunderstood.Your feelings are valid. In addition, no one is qualified to evaluate your experience.
Our hero is the person who is full of regret for the things they did or said that they did not do. You can't go back in time, but you can look forward to the future with optimism and be mindful of the present. To everyone who has a problem that keeps coming up. Clutch trust. Drama happens from time to time in life. Life sometimes has to teach you important lessons in order for you to advance and win any war that is waged against you.
Saying is easier than doing. It's easier to listen, hop a few meters within your comfort zone, and then press the restart button because you think it's easier to stop or pause for a while than to continue. And if you think that making this decision is the right one, then act on it.
It is perfectly acceptable to stop in the midst of all the issues. Being a little behind schedule is fine. It's fine to lose all sense of one's inner self. Bedsheets that are tangled and drenched are acceptable behaviors. It's alright to feel weak from time to time. It is acceptable to rethink or reorient your life.
***Rest is acceptable during such battles, but always aim for your strongest return.***
After looking for a place to stay, come back with a much more complete version of yourself so that every question can be answered easily, every direction can be followed smoothly, and every doubt, fear, and incorrect intuition can be put toward something more important in your life.
You shouldn't put yourself last because what they say or do seems to be more valuable or well-received. Stop thinking of yourself as **someone who is below average**, a **second-choice candidate**, or **someone who would rather take a backseat most of the time**. Instead, stop thinking of yourself in these terms. Because some people don't know you exist, *you shouldn't question your worth.*
Out there, there is a vast universe. We can still learn about and comprehend the many facets of life, even if we do not have the opportunity or luxury to see each one-of-a-kind architectural structure or natural wonder during our lifetime. What brought us to this point? What is our real objective? Why suffer now and rejoice later? Why should you be the happiest person if nothing is missing? Or, why acquire wealth when nothing is ever sufficient? There are a lot of other questions.
As you get older, you'll realize that you can choose happiness right now and that your life shouldn't just revolve around material things or anything grand or fancy, like expensive dinners, roses, cars, or parties. Even if some of these things haven't happened to you yet or if your greatest goals haven't been realized yet.
As you advance, a lot of people will eventually leave, and probably half of those who remain cannot be trusted. There will never be anything, however, that you cannot handle. You should not think otherwise if you want to process your thoughts.
Make the right choice. Keep having faith in what is truly important.
***Your viewpoint is considered.***
***Your choices matter.***
***Honesty is important.***
***You play a crucial role.***
Final Toughts
I long for closeness with my own inner peace, development, simplicity, contentment, and joy at this point. Set up home in a place where no one knows my name. Navigate the deepest waters of the ocean, meet new people, and gain fresh perspectives as you discover previously undiscovered nooks and crannies for new adventures. I want to be very close to the ocean, the mountains, and the trees. I want to be loved by the smell of the sea, river, and rain. I want to stand out a little from the crowd. Maybe I should commit to a cause in which my soul is deeply ingrained and just follow my own path no matter what the outside world wants.
Just a change and a break from everything that holds me back from moving forward is all I want. I want to experience and appreciate life by giving life, to let that kind of soul out by living.
Do You Feel Unmotivated? Let this article motivate you.
People have never seen me, no matter what I do, and I've always been a ghost to them. Because there is always someone smarter, more talented, stronger, or more attractive than me, ordinary children like me are treated like ghosts. *We are invisible.* But to be honest*,* I've learned to embrace being a ghost! ***Ghost have more fun anyway***. Go about like a ghost and give no care to anyone else and then peoplet notice at times. Ghosts can be everywhere, but no where all at the same time.
*****Don't worry about what anyone else is, be enough for yourself and things will fall into place.*****
I've felt this my whole life. People cut me off, when I speak, they don't listen, etc. It's hard, but I'm learning to push on and be strong. ~~People are self absorbed.~~ You have to be all of those things to yourself, for yourself first. I will not say that you aren't because that would invalidate your feelings so I'll just say this instead, you have us. And that is because at one point, you touched our hearts and changed our perspective in life for the better.
I used to be like that but therefore I understand that I'm more unique and capable doing a lot of things without any heavy expectations in other people around me and i called it freedom. I used it in my advantage I build my empire without noise and they started to notice and ask who I am.
Yes were invisible but we can look for an advantage of this...invisible can freely improve without them knowing.
time will always tell.
There's always perfect time for everything, its either you wait or find, we cannot control everything in our life that's why, if you have the power to take an action go for it, its either you lose or win in that action yet time will tell, if its absolutely yours or not. We Have enough time, so handle it nicely. ***Trust the process.*** I don't know a lot about what you're going through right now. But please know you're not alone on this. Whatever you are going through that you think is making you weak it will pass. You've gone this far and you'll definitely win this battle again headstrong.
U want to go on but the thought of giving up and vanish from this world still wander around in your head. Yet, most times, your thoughts are already yelling for you to give up and put a stop to it. But, you couldn't or wouldn't. For some, they must not give up because they dont have any choice but to continue. All they have to do is to take a rest, take a break and start again.
***One way of conquering your fear is to face that one thing you feared most. If you emerged from this as a victor, then there is nothing in the world you would be afraid of.***
When you are strong people expect you to be strong always. They have created a picture of you as a super human who never gets weak at any point, that's just a wrong picture of you in their mind. No one is ever strong forever, at the end of the day life breaks everyone, and you sometimes need time to get back up and pick yourself up to be yourself again. But the bottom line Is you'll always get back up and be fine again maybe not immediately but eventually.
Hating yourself because of something negative you see in yourself based on other peoples judging eyes, it means you want perfection in yourself. And that's positive perfection comes from God alone because He is Perfect. Only He can give you that assurance and affirmation with self fulfillment that you are indeed perfect for who you are. God made you perfect for His purpose, God made you perfect to fit in your own individuality. He made you perfect for His unconditional love, and He is so delighted in you, no matter what other people say about you, still, you are precious and perfect to be so you.
**Most of the time you hate yourself because of other people's expectations you're trying to meet.**
You're trying to find joy in forcing yourself trying to please them. The truth is, their expectations will never be satisfied, so you'll end up hating yourself. Live life the way you wanted, not the way how people expect you to live it. You hate yourself because you have a wrong focus. You focus on pleasing other people than pleasing yourself. Focus on you and realize that you have to be you, the you who is capable of committing mistakes and is also capable of learning not to commit the same mistake again. Love yourself.
We can hate our self sometime due to some decision that reflects our today. But don't hate yourself too much. As everything happens for a reason. Instead of hating yourself, take it as a lesson and prevent issues recurring. In the end only yourself can be your saviour. Don't be too hard on yourself. ***Trust the process.***
Final Thoughts
***We must accept what's the reality of life. Accept yourself from your past and what you are right now, Therefore life would be much easier. In this world of full of judgments just be you, one day people will accept just the way you are. Don't chase, attract. Give yourself time. Soon enough, you'll learn to love your scars, your flaws, your what-ifs, yourself. Believe me, it's one of the best things that'll happen in your life.***
Blessed sunday everyone!
Heavy is Empty: a Wounded Warrior Of Life.
Have you been depleted lately? The impression that you are neither happy nor sad. No tears to shed, and chuckling is at this point not a song it was once previously.
Anything you can call empty is vicious, evil, or something like that. You were dying inside from it. *You became tired, even though you have no idea what's going on.*
Where things aren't as beautiful with bright colors as they were beforem.Where monotony and haze first appeared. Where there are no words to express your feelings whenever you are asked, you can only respond "**fine**" until further questions are asked.
You can't put into words how you feel or what it feels like to be empty. Because it is putting you down, it is such a huge burden on you.
***Empty is heavy and it's really empty.***
This past few days I cannot put into words what I am feeling. have finally found out what this feeling is. Feeling empty it is. Metaphors after You. Perhaps the feeling of being afraid to feel happiness 'cause you think what's the punishment, is it what you're thinking? Perhaps the feeling of being afraid to feel happiness cause I think what's the punishment, is it what I'm thinking? I have figured out one why an individual is feeling empty. One of the reason is invalidating your feelings or emotions of needing someone to rely on. As well as unacceptance.
I still laugh and cry but there would be times where my energy starts to decline along with my emotions until it's empty and my expression gone blank, and I'd go from one app to another still, it couldn't fill the emptiness I have.
***~~**Feeling unwanted and unloved are the two worst feelings one can ever experience,more than the feeling of emptiness.**~~***
I was dissatisfied by the minor occurrences.
Like when I hear that schools will be shut as a result of weighty downpour, I'm excited. So that while I waited for my mother to call my name so I could eat, I could curl up under my blanket and watch my favorite morning cartoon.
For instance, I would be overjoyed to receive a gift box containing my favorite snacks whenever my mother returned from a trip.
For instance, I get so excited whenever I hear my favorite music on the radio.
Like the things I played with outside with my friends in our tiny homes; attempting to live a simple, independent life in the future and naively imitating my adult surroundings.
*a time for kids.* Oh, when you start to feel sluggish and have to get up early for school.
However, at this stage of adulthood, it wasn't easy.I was there when I wept and couldn't fight because I was so exhausted. The responsibilities of failure caused sadness and melancholy. Bleed if you break this fragile heart. A silent battle requires a silent cry at midnight. So agitated and determined to win.
*a wounded warrior.*
Sometimes the small amount of happines is what matters. As well as making small steps to move forward. Small amount yet a big help of moulding the future dreams.
***When the music you love no longer soothes your*** soul and the night is too cold for a heart that was wrapped in warm pain from the cruelty of the world.
***When the videos you used to watch no longer make you laugh*** for the first time, or when your rants are no longer heard by all the stars and the moon.
You are the only person you have when everything seems off, people are close but too far away, and you are the only one.
***When you can only rely on yourself.***
***when you were the only one*** who supported you through your difficulties and suffering. The impression that even though you are with other people, you are still alone. WishingYou to be healed, life happens, shift focus as to be alive is a miracle, my good wishes. How awful to b with people n still feel alone even in d midst of people sharing great jokes n laughter, u still have to force urself to laugh cos it as if ur mind n soul have gone numb to feelings. Try to express how u feel inside to people n dey end up thinking u crazy, so just bottle it all up within n continue fighting alone.
Final Thoughts
I'm so sorry about this one, lately I'm just tired since I can't sleep well and I feel like my energy was draining slowly. I have no problem with it but it makes me feel sad thinking that I should fight this way.
What I've Realized In Life Being In After 18 Years Of Age.
actually before 18 i experience this kind of situation where those responsibility hit me as a hard itself. when I'm 16 i Start losing 'em i may be sorounded by ppl but i felt like I'm alone, I'm lonely yeah i experience a lot in life. ***Life after 18 is really different***, I started to realize all the things my parents have done those things that seemed so wrong for me were really right as I thought about it after 18. My Rebellious days were gone and now I spend my day doing things right, making right decision not just for me but also my family. I've realized so much after 18.
But no, it's hard asf since I am a breadwinner and my family didn't appreciate everything well. It makes me sad in some reason knowing that we can't be child anymore and from now on every step that we take will become a matter unlike before that we just take a step without even realizing what path it leads us. Somehow i realized that even i don't want to change it can't help because changing was the only reason for us to move forward that's why we need to be wiser specially in decision making, making decisions is our only way that will lead us of what future we chose.
**After 18**, you will feel the burden of life, the pressure of starting a good life and building up a good career. As you watch your parents get old and see the determination of your brothers/sisters to strive for life, you'll start denying yourself and the things that you really love. ***You'll think how to get on track of the fastest way to earn money*** to provide for the family (only the good and legal one of course). You do these things until you lose your own purpose in life and lose your interest of creating your own path. We all desire to love, help and become great but sometimes in our lives we realize that not all these desire are being fulfilled and things will not get well because we want it to be.
***Everyone has responsibilities to take despite their age, some could face huge responsibility, realise things that’s they could never understood, at a young age even before adulthood and some not.***
Back when I was 5, I always wanted to grow up fast and earn my own money, but now that I will be turning 22, turns out there are lots of things I need to consider before entering a part time job. I wanted it badly, but I am still stuck between doing it, or just focus on my studies and work after. I am not in a rush, *I just want experience, new environment, new responsibilities.*
You will start to pressure your self from the expectation of your fam. And you will embrace your growing stage and learn from experiences that you encountered from the past.
**Loosing of friends is normal .**
**You always prefer to be alone**
**And we think of trusting no one.**
Insecurity, Anxiety, Frustration, Depression - This words will become part of life. If you are lucky , your life becomes smoother than others. There's a lot of struggle I've been faced after I turned 18, my problems become more challenging and worst. But, I do learned a lot from it. I met a lot of people noy just with different faces but also different personalities that challenge me on how to take care of it. I lost some friends and it's okay it's part of life.
After 18, ***your life will be unexpected***, but you still have control in yourself, but not in everything. Many says enjoy the process because that's the key to success...I believed in that, I never rush about the things, I do compare my life to others, many times.
But It's also true that you have your and you must mind your own business. What a life they says. But It's awesome journey, don't care the status, tragedies, and many more that affects our way of thinking, I wish to be the poorest of the poor, because that's where will hit us, to be grateful not only in material things but also with the people, even those who we hated a lot. We will be still grateful. Having a deep understanding about life will help us grow a lot...
*Though it was really a big changes in my life after 18 but what I realized and do until now is to enjoy the every day life that I have. Life after 18 you'll going to believe in the saying "****~~**we only leave once.**~~****"*
There are times where I really want to vent out, knowing there's only me myself who will listen and understand the situation where I am right now.
Author's Note
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My Life As A Breadwinner. (Stress and tiredness.)
I know the rest of you are wondering why I suddenly disappeared, that I suddenly had no clue and I don't even have the strength to say I want to stop writing. But nevermind, this is just about updates about what's happening to me since it's been a while.
*Being a breadwinner*
You were forced to spend days debating whether to buy this or that without second thoughts.
If you don't have savings, insurance, or plans for the future, you'll get a lot of criticism.All you can think about and focus on is how to stay afloat in the current. Almost everything has a side effect of feeling insecure.
Your ability to pay for everything gives the impression to others that you are making a lot of money, despite the fact that you are barely making ends meet.
The only person who would pay for everything is you. You will at times deprive yourself, and you will also argue with your conscience about whether or not you should be compensated for your efforts. Regardless of whether you just went with the choice to make a little use to make yourself somewhat more agreeable, you will question whether you are having an existence of lavishness.
You'll be wondering when better times will arrive every day.
**People your age who succeed in life will always make you envious because they don't care about others. They can have access to the resources they require to develop and thrive on their own.**
You didn't choose this life, that's the fact of the matter; Instead, it selected you.
At 21 years old, I have to deal with this level of stress. Where there is very little time for rest.
Sad to think, but even more down is the feeling that your parents don't really care about you anymore. That with the amount of mistakes you made before, no matter what you do to make up for it now, there is no value. They will not change their view of you. You're a piece of shit and trash, because you don't have any money to hand and if you have, they'll insult you, "***that's all? It's good that you gave***."
Imagine the number of breakdowns you'll experience every time after calculating the expenses. Idk if it's just me, but it really hurts to think that "*~~**there is nothing left of me**~~*" but at the end of the day, "this life chose me". What made this worse is the fact you look and compare your "*progress*" with others'. **Dont**. I've been there. And it won't make any difference if you continue doing so. Focus on your goals. ***But that's more harder than it was to be.***
At the age of 21, you are physically and mentally tired, but as long as there is tomorrow you can handle it, you will try to wake up early, you will work, after a long time you will just go to sleep because you are so tired and thinking about what you really want. but you can't do it because you have different goals for your family and not for yourself.
Sometimes you cry for no reason, you don't even understand what you really want because your family is your priority.
It's true. Everything that depends on you will also get tired. The feeling that you have an obligation. There is no problem, as long as the person you are helping is at least "**thankful**". It's not the one you've heard of. It's not that they will compare you to other children of their acquaintances, because they say that this helps his family more, but I'm just like this. I also have bills so I am paid monthly and above all I also have a life.
I wanted to wuit, but I can't. Because ***~~**I am the breadwinner.**~~***
Final thoughts
Sorry, I just need to vent out a little.
My Best And Worst Experience: story time!
So lately, I can't type well because yung hand ko is super masakit. Which is I don't know if I got hurt nung nagpalatrinidad kami or what. It's just I'm having a hard time to give force to my hand since it's hard very well.
So tonight, we don't have aby story telling since I know some of you hate the story of ghost. But since the November is near, I will share some of my Baguio creepy experience hahaha.
So let's start!
What inspires you the most?
When someone told me to be back on track, actually being inactive here is not ob my plan. Sadyang I'm not feeling okay lamg this past few months because of something thag I can't explain. Pero I realized na at the end, I'm still me. It's still me who loves writing and engaging with new people and random personalities. I am still the old me but the motivation was lost, maybe because I just need a little more time to be back on track. And here I am, smiling and laughing and starting writing again after many months of suffering.
**Best compliment you've been given.**
Some of you knew na I'm a call center agent. Actually, working in BPO is my long term goal pero what happened is my health can't hold it and I need to let go of my dreams than letting myself suffered because of anemia.
So I have this experience where I am taking calls and I'm crying. One of the caller is an old lady and she sounds sweet, most of our callers are rude so working on BPO needs a mentally preparation. That lady told me that my voice is sad and she can't explain it, I just cried and cried. Later on, she told me, "Sweetie, you know what? There are days where everything was not easy. But I know you can do it, hang in there because I know to myself that you're a fighter." After she told me that I can't help but to smile.
This may not be part of compliment, hut I want to share my best experience as a customer service <3
What will you do to make today great?
Sleep? Haha idk. I'm just listening to Papa Dudut horror stories since I'm not doing anything. I can't move well because of my hand, it's sore and I can't explain the feeling. So what the best thing that I can do is to make some food, eat, taking bath and also watching something. But since the internet was slow, I'm just reading some of the open forums on facebook.
What are you afraid of?
Many things haha. To be honest.. I'm so afraid of everything, going back to the place where it hurt me the most. There are so many things that I can't explain, it's hard to say being bread winner makes you feel afraid of what's going on.
STORY TIME!
Speaking of breadwinner, I'm planning go reapply again on a call center company here at Baguio, I'm wishing that this time everything will be in a good condition na talaga. Last time, I was declared that I have Anemia, that causes me to resign and to took a long enough to accept everything, when I resigned to my old job, or let say awol, everything was not become easy. It's hard for me to accept the reality that I need give up the job that I have. It's really hard for me since I know that I need a stable job to sustain everything,
I can't help but to keep crying all the time about what's happening around me.
I can't even tell my partner the real reason why I choose to give up my job. But it's hard asf and it's becoming worst day by day, I'm not good enough to sustain everything and I feel useless and worthless at the same time. I want to explain to my partner everything but I don't know where will I start. When the doctor said that I need to undergo to some laboratory, I agreed.
What happened is, my red blood are quite a bit and the doctor asked me if I feel something inside my body. I told the doctor about what happened when I was still working. I can't remember what day it is, I'm in the middle of tsking calls when I feel that my eyes were becoming blurry and blurry and It feels like I will throw up. I suddenly took my 1st 15mins break because I'm not sure of what will happened. After that, I put my head on my shoulder at the table and that's the time where I felt like I will loss my consciousness any time and I'm not wrong. Minutes after that I can't remember anything.
I just hear a lot of voices calling my name and when I opened my eyes, I saw the male coach asking me if I'm alright or what. I asked them what happened, they told me that they are wondering why I'm still not logged in and it's already more than 20mins passed. He said, one of the agent tried to call me and tap my shoulder but I have no response at all. When they tried to lift my head up, they saw that I'm so pale. That's the time where they try hard to wake me up, when I woke up they bring me in the nurse office and I throw up.
My learning specialist told me that beforbthe shift started, she already noticed thay I'm not in a good condition and I have no choice but to tell them the truth about what I feel.
*But I am regretting it because of my health, I really hate it because of my health.*
**Authors Note**
I am praying to God that I hope, right now everything is already good.
Let's Have Some 4 Minutes Free Write: mental block attacks and taking some Spanish lesson.
So I didn't know what to write everything in my mind was a song lyrics, I was trying to figure out something then I just accidentally thought about, "Why don't I just have some 5 mins free write?". of course so that I can write everything that comes on my mind, but 5mins? This article will eat up my more than 30 minutes or less than that if you will ask me haha. See? Even me, I'm not sure like what will I write? Haha I can't write what's on my mind since it's a song lyrics and I don't even know what song it is. **My mind was making its own unique lyrics**.
Okay so I'll just tell a story about how my day went off, welp it's a boring one but hope you can bear with it.
Me and my partner had a conversation earlier and maybe it's around 1am or 2am? I am asking her with some ilonggo words and she stopped what she's doing and start thinking about some ilonggo terms that she can pair with haha. Honestly, I don't know why Ilokanos are cute when they are speaking Ilonggo. Or maybe it's just me, a weird lil brain of mine, surely.
By the way, we buy some hamsters again last day because we only have 2 hamsters left and we don't want them to be lost. We both agreed to buy a new pair which is 2 pairs of campbell dwarfs and 1 male syrian hamster. I'm just sad a lil bit because the male in on pair of campbell dwarf died, the syrian bit it while my partner was on her duty so she didn't know it. Just a sad ending right? We just bought it and it died in front of our eyes. It was still moving and breathing when my partner took it home but suddenly, after a while it's already dead. I just said a lil prayer and told the dwarf male that he's free to get a rest. Gladly we still have his fair which is one female, but that female was so big and the small black Campbell looks scary since he was fighting in their prison.
It can't help but I just put her in the other cage to avoid any confliction behind them, haha there's many things on my mind pala if we do some 5 mins writing, I mean we kept on writing and writing and we say a lot of things at the same time without minding where we are. *I'm just sitting here at the outside while waiting for my partner so it doesn't matter..*
**So let me tell you a story also about what happened last Oct 12.**
Me and my partner talked about that we will send the products by our own since we are so devastated because of some failed deliveries from my supplier, and guess what..while we are looking for the delivery truck and it's raining cats and dogs that time we have no choice but to walk, we didn't know that it's so far away and we just kept walking. But I feel so tired at the moment since we didn't know it's far from the place that me and my partner were. We are so happy when a taxi came and we just took it, we ask the driver to bring us to the place and kahit siya ay naligaw. The lady that was assisting us, she's on of the addals staffs and she's are not good in giving directions jusko.
A day after that, my hands fell so sore. Maybe because of the heaviness of the item. It's about 20 jars of strawberry jam and 10pcs of oatbar and cheesebar, see? Even my partner told me that her body aches after spending so much strength kakabuhat sa products. Welp, I just got a little fever and right now my right hand was kinda okay na, it's not like on the 2nd day na it's hurt like hell talaga.
***By the way, this 5 mins writing is exciting pala no? You will write a lot of things since ang daming napasok sa isipan mo. I'm on my mental block stage right now and I can't think straight kasi haha.***
**I'm Learning Spanish Again.**
I already know a lot of words when it comes to spanish since my grandma used to speak spanish and also my father. I am fluent when it comesbto their language, also I know how to speak masbateneos but when I become younger I already forgot some of their words, and right now I can only understand them but I can't speak spanish haha. If I'm trying to speak some spanish words, it was mixed with tagalog, english and also spanish.
I found it cute when I'm learning Spanish, some of their words are already familiar since the Spaniards have us for like more than a decades. I mean I forgot how decades it is but it's a long long long one. So it makes me feel easy to understand them.
I am planning to share some of it but don't judge me, I'm not good at it since I'm learning again haha.
**Author's Note.**
I'll start renewing some of the sponsorship again, thank you for supporting me again and again!
If You Really Care About Someone.
A girl who loves a stranger may not seem strange at first, but there is something about the way they look at the world that makes you question everything. From their perspective, everything is new, and nothing is more beautiful than the world around them. The truth is, ***when you love someone, you love them for who they are*** – not who you want them to be. You see the world through their eyes and you love them for it. You don’t try to change them, because you know that they are perfect just the way they are.
Love, at first sight, is something that many people claim to have experienced. It is often described as a feeling of instant connection and understanding. While some people may be skeptical of the idea, many believe that it is possible to fall in love with someone the first time you lay your eyes on them. Whether or not love, at first sight, is real, it is undoubtedly an intriguing concept.
***True love is something that can be difficult to explain, but it is worth fighting for. It is a feeling that fills you with happiness and makes you want to be a better person. It is something that you are willing to sacrifice everything for, and it is worth every single second that you spend fighting for it.***
If you love someone, you want the best for them. You want them to be happy, and you want them to be surrounded by positive things. You want to see them smile every day, and you want to be the one who makes them happy. It is often described as a feeling of instant connection and understanding, and while some people may be skeptical of the idea, many believe that it is possible to fall in love with someone the first time you lay eyes on them.
If you are in love, you are willing to do anything for that person. You will fight for them, and you will do anything to make them happy. You will be there for them no matter what, and you will never stop trying to make them the best that they can be.
The thing about love is that it is not about what someone does for you. It is about how you feel about them, and whether or not you can see the good in them. No matter what mistakes they make, you will always be there for them. You will never stop fighting for them, and you will always be willing to do whatever it takes to keep them happy. ***Love is something that should be cherished***, and it is worth fighting for. If you can fall in love with someone the first time you meet them, then you are truly blessed. Love, at first sight, is something that is often spoken about, but is it truly real? Many people believe that it is, and there are many examples of couples who have fallen in love at first sight.
***Most people think that love is a feeling. That's not entirely accurate, Love is a verb..it concludes actions.***
Tomorrow, I'll be sharing some of my unforgettable wandering around experience at La Trinidad, Benguet. To be honest, I can't stop laughing everytime that I remember it, but yeah days after we go there the fever got me haha.
By the way, thank you for reading this article!
A Motivation That Was Loss: am I back on track after having an extended vacation on writing?
It's been a while since I lost my motivation because of being busy especially in life. I'm back on track sometimes and there are a lot of times where I really lose my motivation why I need to keep writing, writing is my passion eversince I was a kid. It became a diary of mine where I love putting what my emotions are, but lately, it's all gone. I came back to the point that I will keep asking myself why should I need to feel this way, I mean why? This is my escape, but maybe I'm just tired since there are a lot of things happening.
Repeatedly asking myself that I shouldn't be like this, that I need to maintain everything because I am the only one they expect. I am disappointed I'm trying to compare everything from then until now and I figured out that I've changed so much. Like before even if I'm tired, I'm so determined to make an article and not to mention it's not like now.
I'm trying to get back on track yet I'm still losing it, sobrang disappointed nararamdaman ko sa sarili ko because I can't even write 500 word a day. ***Do you know the feeling of having a hard time to endure everything***? I mean, sobrang hirap saakin asikasuhin ng lahat. I know na I can't keep comparing myself sa noon since I am the only one who's doing my job and not them, pero why? Why I'm not motivated? Where is the old me go na? By the way, I was hoping na I will be back on track even if kahit di ngayon. Pero I want talaga soon na, it's very hard if you lose your motivation kahit saan eh.
Sometimes naaasar ako since i want to publish or write an article pero what happened is since I'm tired, I ended up sleeping. Dati naman, I'm not like this, nakakapagpublish pa nga ako ng article even if I'm tired. Siguro, i just need a little time to adjust even more.
What I Realized?
I realized na naging mas malungkot ako kumpara sa noon, I am repeatedly asking myself when and why I became like this. I'm not lazy o ano, It's just na I lost my motivation for some unknown reason and that's what makes me feel bad and sad. Lagi ko sinasabi sa self ko na, writing is my escape so dapat di ako maging ganito. Sabi ko rin, at this case I need to rest for awhile until my motivation came back. pero I can't rest nalang talaga for a while kasi masasanay ako sa part na walang ginagawa. There re times where gusto ko mag breakdown while asking myself why am i like this eh.
But yeah, since I need to be active again, I will try mybest harder than before. And I hope, this motivation of mine came back.
Reasons to feel happy..
***Life is too short***. Maybe right now we are still breathing, we are still laughing, we are still okay..we are not happy all the time naman. There are moments where we feel so down to the point na we are asking ourselves why we feel this way di ba? So we must be happy kasi we still live in this word na minsan halos puro headches na ibinibigay. But guess, I'm also asking for a reasons to feel happy. but nvm haha this is just a small update about me though.
Thank you for reading!
Unknown Letter Send By Someone: To The Man I once Love.
***disclaimer: this letter was send to me via gmail, and as or the recipient request, I will not conclude her of his letter. I don't owned any of this.***
Hello GyraG. You were just recommended to me by one of the people who sent you a letter, I also wanted to send a letter for someone I love very much but I can't have it anymore. I saw that you put a screenshot, if possible I hope not to at least it makes me feel comfortable. Thank you very much if you notice this.
Just call me by the name Shy and it's for someone I once loved, but can't be mine.
*I am writing this so that I can best convey my feelings because I will never be able to tell you. I know that if I tell you how I feel, it will completely shatter and destroy every memory we've ever had of each other because you are such a good friend of mine.You knew me before I started my transition, and because we met at the same time, I sometimes think I'll never feel the same way again.If you had met me earlier in my transition, I often wonder if your feelings for me would have changed.I would be perceived by you as a woman, not as someone who would one day become one.*
*It hurts a lot that I can't keep talking to you like I don't love you. Everything you do amazes me, and the sensation I get when you call my name is unlike anything I've ever felt before. I'm in good company when I'm with you, and I don't need to be apart from anyone; however, I'm not "with" you, so I feel alone. You give me the impression that I don't need to be apart from anyone.*
*I'm broken inside by the thought that you won't be there for me in the same way that I am there for you. I greatly value your friendship and your willingness to assist me when I need it. The fact that you don't say anything says everything I need to know, even if my friends are correct that you know exactly how I feel about you. I've decided to ignore it because I can't stand the thought of you not being a part of my life.*
*I love you, and I will always do. I'm letting you go now.*
***Love,***
**Shy**
Minsan napakahirap magkagusto sa kaibigan no? Yung tipong wala kang magagawa kundi itago nalang nararamdaman mo dahil ayaw mo na masira at mag turn into pieces yung pagkakaibigan niyong dalawa. Naalala ko rin noon, may taong nagkakagusto saakin. Kaibigan ko siya, nung umamin siya saakin sinabihan niya pa ako na duwag daw ako dahil daw sa takot ako sumubok ulit makipagrelasyon pero di ko naman idedeny na talagang natatakot ako.
Di ko naman pinagsisisihan na nireject ko siya at pinili friendship namin, sa totoo lang mas nagpapasalamat ako dahil sa ginawa kong yun ay may nakilala ako na mas binigyan ako ng halaga na alam kong kaya niyang gawin.
To the one who send this letter, okay lang yan. Broken ka man inside importante hindi ka sumugal, importante rin na nag take ka sana ng risk pero naiintindihan kita. Sana, sa next life ay mapagbigyan kayo mismo ng tadhana.
Author's Note
Since there's too many letters that was send to my email and also to my discord, oh sige na I'm accepting any letters na.
If you have any letters for someone that you want to be published, kindly send it here.
**Discord:** GyaG.#4212
**Email:** *clientholder01@gmail.com*
Personal Questions Q&A Part 3: What's something you wish you'd figured out sooner?
since it's raining, and it's been already days when i last published my article, and I have nothing to write, let's answer Q&A instead. but before that, I hope everything is okay and I hope the victims of the typhoon are fine, I know the signal has been raised in some parts of Luzon, I hope there are no accidents.
Okay so let's start!
What's something you wish you'd figured out sooner?
The one about my family. Most of you know my issue with my family and why I am not close to them. To be honest, this is what I wish I could have known sooner and maybe my mind would not have been filled with questions as to why my father's family treated me unfairly. Because as a kid, or as a child, there were a lot of things running through my mind at the time about why it was difficult to understand the treatments of my family and especially my father's children from his first wife, I didn't ask that I hope they treat me right or something. As for me, ***I wish I had known this sooner so that I could somehow understand.***
What is one of the great values that guides your life?
***Leave it alone if they don't support you in all your wishes in life, as long as you reach for your dream that you know you really want***.. It's hard to be true in a world surrounded by judgment, it's also hard to be open to things if the person in front of you is closed to everything. Back then, I was often judged because of the dreams I had, especially from my father's family. Often, they think that the plan I have will fail. Even my family thinks of me that way, but I'm happy that somehow the hardship and pain I went through paid off.
****It was hard to start, several times I felt like crying because I felt like my hard work and ideas were useless. but here, it's blooming somehow.****
What language do you speak?
I'm a bilengual person so basically I spoke tagalog, english, ilonggo and ***spanish.*** My dad and my grandma used to speak with spanish and that's how i learned it. But time passed, I already forgot how to speak spanish but I can still understand when someone were speaking spanish.
What's one place you've travelled that you never want to go back to?
My hometown, to be honest, is one of the places I've been to that I don't want to go back to. There is nothing else but my hometown, why? Since I left, I said to myself that I will take with me the heartaches and memories that I experienced. Maybe it was the best decision for me to stay away because somehow I had a peace of mind that I couldn't find where I came from. But, I also told myself that once I get out of here I will make sure that I will be stronger. There are a lot of ups and downs, but despite that, my desire to get away from things dominates me, which is also the reason why I became stronger.
What issue will you always speak your mind about?
My self. when I talk to myself, my thoughts are often full of failure and what ifs. I can't help but think about such things for reasons I don't know, maybe there's a part of me that's afraid of things I don't understand.
AUTHOR'S NOTE.
Hi! done publishing an article again, it's been a while right? I became inactive for some reason.
by the way, I am planning to look for a stalls asap since the business are growing unexpectedly.
Lead image source. https://www.throughlinegroup.com/2019/04/01/effective-ways-to-manage-your-audience-qa/
A Weird Dreams Of Mine.
While I was sleeping last night, I don't know why I suddenly dreamed of @JRamona20 or @JRamona25 . It's funny to think that in the middle of my deep sleep, ate ramona and I met up in a dream HAHAHAHA. Before we start, I want to clear things up.
I really need motivation to continue with everything, I haven't had any problems these past few days, but with my internet yes. Fortunately, somehow, a way was found so that I still have internet.
Let's talk about it first, because I'm sleepy while I'm typing this so I have to chatter to somehow wake up my soul. It turns out that my dream of going to the night market for many months when I stayed here in Baguio has come true, *I'm quite happy* for the part that I got out of the house haha. So speaking of the supplier, it's all good. We have found someone and he is a factory.
So that's it, let's stop. Let's start doing this article.
While I was sleeping I had a dream, in my dream sister Ramona was there. First, I was outside and looking for a place to go while waiting for my partner because she has work, nothing happened when suddenly someone called my name and I thought I didn't know her. I asked who she was, and she said, "***It's your sister Ramona.***" That's why I immediately recognized my sister. I was even surprised how she ended up in my dream because I wasn't thinking about her, so of course maybe she just visited or maybe she remembered me when I was also asleep.
She said she was in Baguio, she said it was for vacation so she was in Baguio. I was surprised because she was beautiful in my dream, but that explains well why she was beautiful in my dream because she's really beautiful. After that, she asked me if I was going somewhere and I said no. I was just looking for a part of Baguio that I could go to, then she invited me to the rides here (***Sorry I don't know the name since I haven't been there yet***.)
She freed me, we ate sushi, ramen and other things. Later she decided that we should eat at Mang Inasal and I agreed because I was hungry. And that's when we saw my partner, she said he was serving rice and she also saw me. After that I suddenly woke up.
My second dream is, a forest. To be honest, I always dream of a forest, I don't know what it means and I don't know why and for what. But every time I dream of a forest, there is one aspect that never disappears from my dream. He's a child, I don't know him and I'm not sure why I keep dreaming about him. But there is no time when my dream is that he is always there. I'm thinking, maybe he's the kid who's making me feel at the boarding house, maybe he's the one and there's no one else.
There is another place where I dreamed of that boy, he was smiling and looking at me. His smile that was terrifying, he said, "You've seen me." Then I felt all my hair stand up even though I was asleep. I tried to wake myself up, when the cat that I cared for came up to me then I woke up and I saw something black in front of me. That time I realized something, it wasn't a dream but he made me feel that he's just here.
Honestly, I don't know why I feel so strongly about these things, because I remember my partner. I didn't know at that time that she feel something, I just saw someone standing by her side and I told her. That's when I confirmed that she have a feeling that there are someone there but she can't see it. Maybe I'm just not aware because he doesn't say anything and he doesn't say anything, I think I only found out when he said it. Until now, I am very puzzled as to who they are and why since I came here to Baguio I have become more sensitive to everyone.
To be honest, hindi ko feel na okay ako. For this past few days, di ko feel na maayos lang ako kasi pakiramdam ko sobrang bigat ng lahat. Pakiramdam ko may iba akong kasama na hindi ko nakikita, na hindi visible saakin kung sino at ano siya. Di ko maintindihan pero oo parang ganyan, parang nag gulo na ang lavo na ewan.
Heyaa!! I'll finish this up muna dito. I'll do my best to be active narin kahit papaano.
Is It Bad To Give Feedback Or Suggestion? (I offended someone but that's not what I mean.)
Recently, I've been having a bit of a problem because the person who used to be my supplier is not following the orders and reservations I tell him, especially about the flavors. All I of his reason is, ***"Sorry, I forgot."*** That's not a valid reason, right? Especially if I remind him several times before shipped out. As a seller, the problem he gave was too big. My first order of wine is purely with flavors, but what happened is he gave me the wrong flavor which is not on the list.
And the thing is, that's all reservations because so I don't have a choice but to say sorry for those who didn't get the flavors they wanted. Before shipping out, I asked him again if it's okay and then he said *yes*.
When the deliveries arrived at home, I immediately called my dad and they told me the flavor of the wine that has been delivered.
I was shocked, yes totally shocked. Who doesn't? You are expecting them to send the correct varieties of wine and what they send is different? And their reason is, ***"I forgot."*** If you guys were in the same situation as me, do you think you would take it as excuses? Especially if you try to remind them many times about the flavors that they need to send?
*****The second one is, someone ordered 48pcs of wine and 12pcs of big wine. But guess what happened? All of the flavors were assorted, that's what the buyer wanted since they wanted to taste some too. But what they send is all guyabano flavor.*****
For the second time I already reminded them about the wine and what he said is that he seems to have forgotten. Of course you will be angry, who wouldn't be angry that it happened again, right?
That's not what I want to reach them and be noticed by them, and also I'm not that kind of person. Because feedback is super important to me, I mean, if I receive feedback, whether it's negative or positive, I accept it because I can apply it to myself. I can apply it and make it a lesson for next time, that's why when I receive feedback I don't disagree. I accepted it because it was a lesson for me.
*I don't want to apologize, or say sorry just because of what happened or what I said.*
Everything I said was just a suggestion, that's why I gave it because as a seller I want everything to be in order. Not everything is perfect, and I know that. But we are in a business where if we don't want to lose customers, it shouldn't be like that.
We're in a business where if you're supposed to be good, be good. I didn't want to offend, I didn't want to give negative feedback either. But if they need to know something for the betterment of their business, and for me as well, I will accept all feedbacks wether it is positive or negative.
I will learn and apologize, I will apologize for what I did wrong and I will apologize and promise not to do it again.
***Do you remember my issue with JonicaBradley here at readcash?*** Even though I didn't do anything wrong, I still apologized because maybe there were words, or maybe something triggered her at that time, so she got angry and said that my article was plagiarism. She also said that there is also a writer/author inside readcash who pretends to be a woman and a young woman, at that time I knew that she was suspicious of me but I still explained everything according to the way that there will be no fight or anything else that is possible when there is a fight.
I didn't blame him for what he said, and I didn't react like it was the end of the world. I went through everything in a calm conversation, although what she did was that others recognized me more on this platform. So at that time, I was thankful because if it wasn't for what she did, I wouldn't have been recognized here at read.cash, so it became a self introduction to me as to what event took place.
An example is when you buy something you want, sometimes others can't help but get angry right away, right? There are even people who will suddenly yell at you and suddenly get angry because the service is said to be poor and the crew is said to act very slowly or sluggishly. But it shouldn't be like that, always take a deep breath and think that it's not just you who gets tired but them too.
Since my partner is a crew trainer, I can see how tired she is every day and I am still amazed because even though she is very tired from the day, she often still manages to act. Sometimes I'm ashamed of him, because I'm a messy person and there are times when I really don't want to act and I want to do what I have to do the next day. Because she is not like that, often when she does something she wants it clean and she always wants it done.
Authors note
lately i was having a problem with my internet and it became hard for me to published an article. I have accumulated all of my articles for the past few days where I published any of my articles because of my internet. Ahh, my patience haha.
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"Things That's Bugging Me."
When it comes to dreams nothing is impossible, when it comes to sacrifice it is also easy. All of us will go through hardships where we will experience tears, tiredness and above all the feeling of giving up. Maybe, in our lives, we sometimes wonder why life is like this, right? It's like, you shouldn't feel tired but why is it like this? The kind where your mind is fine, you're fine, but you're not. Is it messy? maybe it's just the way my mind is running now. Tomorrow, or the day after, I might be okay. Because even though I am sometimes confused with myself, I feel that things are not enough and I am also struggling.
I should be happy, I should be happy because I have achieved some achievements. I should also be happy because I have accomplished so much for myself, but he still lacks feelings. *The happiness I'm looking for is not here, my happy dreams are not here.*
Everything just got more chaotic for me, my mind just got more chaotic because of things. When I look at my partner, I just smile. If I'm tired of everything, she's even more tired because she's had almost no rest for a month. She wakes up in the morning to go to work, comes home from work at night to eat and sleep, then the next day he has to wake up again to go home.
I suddenly realized that he is the one I draw strength from, because of him I am motivated. Because of her I'm smiling and I'm happy now, because of her I feel better when I'm sad or have a problem.
She is very positive in life, the type that only laughs when she is struggling or has a problem, she only laughs when she is really struggling. Sometimes I get annoyed because she is too hasty in her decision, but it comes to a point where I understand her somehow. Sometimes I just smile because I realize how disappointed I am in myself. If the answer is prayer to ease the feelings, I'll just smile about it and thank God that I can still do it. It's very contagious, isn't it? Especially when you are with the person you love, and she is always positive, even if you sometimes feel that she is very tired throughout the day. I can only smile at how positive she is in life despite her problems, sometimes it's really questionable to me why she's positive. If I were in her situation, I might not know what to do, I'm too quick to give up on things.
I have no right to complain that I'm tired of everything, that I'm tired of everything because if I'm tired, she's more tired. I remembered when she said that her body wanted to rest but she couldn't because she had a job, she had to work to pay her bills and to buy what she wanted. I didn't expect that, because every time that she will go home I can see and I can sense how tired she is. Sometimes, I'm disappointed in myself because I can't help her with everything that she wanted.
I also prefer that I can ask her about things, especially if I give her a headache or if she is stressed by me. She only has one answer, always no. She said, I become her rest when she's too tired. Me too, she is the one who calms me down when I want to end this life of mine. *Sometimes it makes me wonder if she really deserves me.*
Author's Note
This article should be published 3 days, but since my internet can't access this site then I have no choice but to let this article pass HAHAHAA and right now I'm also having an issue ysndiejd.
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From Small Business Sale To A Big Business Sale: my life story on how I started doing my business.
*****Before I start, i would like to say thank you to***** @Eunoia *****for letting me borrow some of her money. Thank you so much manong, I can't explain how much I was thankful because you didn't think twice to help me and lend some. I promise to repay you the remaining balance, thank you again.*****
hi! so this article is a motivation article for those who wants to start their own business but they are afraid, and they don't know what to do, i hope you guys can learn something from this!
When doing business with the first one you will give up, with the one you almost don't know where to start and how to start. It also includes the fact that you will almost run out of money and you don't know from whom and where to borrow. I experienced all of this, especially during times when I didn't know how to start again, and how to get up. Let's say that I started with small sales, until it came to the point that I hardly knew if my difficulties were going anywhere or not.
At first, there were only a few people who bought and took from me because I was just a new seller. *It's embarrassing to admit it,* but sometimes I wonder why I don't borrow money and use lending apps to pay my debts. Because, at first I felt like my hard work and fatigue was nothing for this. It almost didn't occur to me that this might be a test, and I had to learn something. At first, I sold only one by one and a few at a time. I only ship to us when there are reservations. But, one day, I received a message asking about a box of wine and how much it was.
At first, of course, I thought maybe he was just asking, but I was surprised when he said he wanted to take it. Of course, as I was the one that entered my mind, I was afraid that it might be a scam later or something. Until he made a video call and worse, he knew my parents. I told my partner, and she said that we should look for stalls in our area so that we can display it there and not be too expensive when it comes to shipping fees. Because the amount I pay in shipping fee every time we were delivering is high and I hardly even leave the house to look around.
But, the funny thing is, in the midst of suffering and in the midst of sacrifices, I was suddenly given a reason to continue fighting again in this opportunity. I'm very negative when it comes to things like this, especially when nothing seems to be happening. I almost gave up the first few days we sold because of the weakness of what was sold, I couldn't understand where I was missing or what I could do to be able to fund. You know the one that almost makes you want to cry because you don't know where you're going to get the money and where you're going to get the payment?
The one who doesn't know how to grow your own customers, the one who doesn't know how to perform everything you need because you don't have a job and you have to earn money to scrape by. I used to always tell myself that it's okay, ***if I'm having a hard time, it's okay.*** I just thought that all I could do was trust God, I almost always prayed that he would not abandon me from what I had started. By God's mercy, he guides me in my actions and movements.
I came to the point where I almost lost hope, but I read something that if you plan to do business, you should first trust yourself. When I started to trust myself, that's when I realized that my perspective had changed. My previous negative thoughts were replaced by self-confidence. When I used to think that I was going nowhere everything was replaced with joy and courage, I learned to look at the side where I am positive about everything. I learned to look on the side where everything is fine.
Back then, I almost remembered asking myself over and over again that I was helping others but why it was not being reciprocated, until I saw the answers to my questions. God suddenly gave me an answer, and instead of being filled with questions again, I gave him the fear I felt and asked for guidance to help me fight. And he never let me down.
*****In the middle of the fight, sometimes you will stumble. But get up, look up and just smile at everyone.*****
Proofs: (Actual photo is all mine.)
this is the first delivery that i had last August 7, although it's still small. But I'm thankful because we already have buyer.
If yu want to see and visit or buy something, you can view my main facebook where I am posting.
Link: https://web.facebook.com/doraemon.0407
This is the today's order's. I sold 48pcs of wine and 12pcs of big wine. I'm so thakful and grateful because of it.
And this is the next reservation what will be delivered on Sept 15!
Author's Note
I'm so thankful of my business progress. I hope this one continued and I am looking forward to help back the people who also helped me,
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Good day everyone! Let's have a warm welcome to @Renzel1596 and lets help her to grow to this platform. She's my partner's sister by the way.
Additional:
**Sorry for being inactive for this past few days, I'm already renewing some of the sponsorship that were on my list. Thanks!**
The Law Is Blind
The law is blind to the truth, if you are wrong, you will not be given justice. They often say that justice is only for the rich, isn't it true? When you don't have money, those above will not listen to you. ***They will be deaf to the poor, and their ears will be open to the wealthy.*** It is painful and hard to accept the truth, truths that no one will listen to you when you are oppressed.
Because the law only focuses on the rich, and neglects the poor. Let's say that, the law must protect the people. This should be the one that gives peacefulness to something, but what if it is the cause of difficulties? What if this is the reason why someone is oppressed and why some people are tortured? It is not difficult to speak the truth, it is not difficult to speak according to what is really happening.
*****But there is a problem, what exactly is the problem?*****
The problem I am referring to is the unfairness of the law. No, it shouldn't be a law. I'm not saying it's people, I'm also not saying it's higher ups. But yes, I am referring to those who have powers at the top who do nothing when they see someone being oppressed by other police, or someone else who is supposed to protect the people. You don't have to react to the truth, if you get hit it's not my fault either.
If I'm conveying something here, it's to be open and honest about everything. The pain is seen by the people who are being treated by the police, or by those in higher ups. The law was once useless, but why does it continue to happen today? Where are the justices for the mercilessly murdered person? Where is the justice for people who are mercilessly abused? Where are the people who are supposed to protect the citizens? Why does it seem like there has been a silence among the people who should be protectors whenever someone tells the truth?
Why is it that when people who are victims of abuse speak, suddenly something bad happens to them? Why when someone asks for protection not to be hurt, there's a reaction but why there's no action? Where is the care that should be given to abused people? Where? Why do things become reasons that shouldn't be? And because you want to silence someone so much that they don't tell the truth, it ended up killing them so that the truth wouldn't come out.
Have You Ever Broken Someone's Heart?.
Since it's going to rain, we'll just do a question and answer that I got myself from the site that I used to take questions from before. I hope you enjoy it. But, I will tell about Cayen and me because I really have nothing left to write.
**Would you date someone significantly (9 years or over) older than you?**
Yes, I like someone older than me. One of my dates before was already 30 while I was only 19. It was around 2020, I met him at school, he basically became my close friend. But the ending is that he just became my older brother because I'm not ready to enter into a relationship, so in short I rejected him hehe. It doesn't hurt, does it? Just kidding, he also told me that it's okay since he can sense that I'm not into boys, which is true. I have never had a crush on a man and I have never had a boy partner either.
I cannot consider myself as bisexual because I only really like lesbians. Yes, just lesbians. But this is it, I'm going to tell you about a person named Cayen.
**Have You Ever Broken Someone's Heart?**
Yes, there was someone who liked me then. As in several times he said that he likes me. I was in grade 10 at this time and coming in grade 11, I didn't expect that he would like me because I thought that was very ugly. He is the person that he almost pretended to love me and he was serious, but at that time I had an attachment to my ex so I didn't do anything. To be honest, I let him flirt with me even when it came to the part where my ex and I were together again.
Actually, it was very unexpected on my part. I apologized to him but I know I hurt him a lot. I never made such a decision in my life but maybe at that time I had a little attachment to him but that's just because I still love my ex so I can't reject him or push him away. Cayen is in a band, he is a vocalist and guitarist in their band. I can only say that he sings really well.
I met him when there was a concert in the plaza and he was with their band there. I bumped into him accidentally until every day I was in the square and when he saw me he would smile at me. They are not locals, they are from Davao. We immediately felt at ease until it came to the point where he asked for my number and I gave it to him. He courted me and said he plans to stay once we become friends, I also found out that they have a business in Davao which is they are a fruit supplier.
I don't know how I will feel because I am guilty of him. I asked for an apology many times and she said is, ***"It's okay, I understand."***
What I Learned.
I learned to say everything while it's still early. It's hard to make someone cry, or to hurt someone. It doesn't matter if it takes too long but after that I promised myself that it will not going to happened again.
AUTHOR'S NOTE.
sorry if I tell a messed up story, I just thought of it since I remember it again. By the way, thankyou ate @Adrielle1214 for the sponsorship renewal! Godbless po!
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Sept 1: The Happenings Wednesday; I receive random messages from other people.
So my article today is about rants, you know that everyone is in a mess, my mind is even more messed up. On Friday, last week, I ordered items to be sent to us for sale. All of that is the buyer's reservation, so they expect it to come for them to taste that product, but our supplier gave the wrong flavors. I borowed money to manong eunoia expecting that the products they would deliver were correct but it turned out to be wrong. The reason why we don't pick it up is because its cheap and won't cost us too much. But that decision seems to be wrong.
I only bought 3 for 100 from her but because it was still money, I still paid for her and I hoped that everything would be fine. I called the buyer and said that the flavors that came to the house were wrong, the buyer was angry because he also expected that the flavor he chose would arrive and not different flavors. I tried to explain that we didn't know that the wrong one was sent.
I also reminded and reminded the supplier several times that our supplier only said yes to yes per flavor, but in the end it was still not followed. I feel like that kind of thing is very stupid on my side. I expected it to arrive well, I expected it to arrive without any problems, but that's not how it happened. I'm not angry but I'm annoyed because the expectation I have is too high and then I'm going to be disappointed. But there's nothing I can do because there's nothing I can do, the only thing I can do is find a new buyer who wants to buy the product so it doesn't go to waste.
So lately I can't do anything but think of something to write but my brain is really empty. I feel like I've run out of things to write about, maybe because it's been a while since I've been writing.
***But lately, I've been receiving a lot of letters or messages for someone I don't know. They are all venting out, it started with the article that I published about the one who sent it to discord and one after the other. I am planning to publish it here soon, I already have their permission but they want me not to include the screenshots.***
**AUTHOR'S NOTE.**
I'm trying to be active but i really can't. So what I do is I'm publishing article per other day nalang talaga.
Why Don't We Just Pretend That It's Not Hurt At All?
In love, it includes being hurt, it also includes crying and it includes hoping. Relationships also include thoughts that they might be, or that you might actually be meant to be. But, as I thought about it, I really asked myself. ***Why don't we just pretend that it's not hurt at all? .*** Why is it hard for us to let go of the person who wants to let go of us? And why is it ***hard for us to understand the people who want to break up with us?***
Sometimes, we are filled with "**Why**" justifications, right? We will be filled with our own problems that maybe they just have the wrong wishes, or maybe they just have the wrong things to convey. Most of them will not say that there is someone else that they met who is better than you.
They are just trying to do their part as your partner, despite the fact that they love somebody else and they like somebody. Why that they can't tell the fact that they don't want it anymore? Why can't they just be honest and say they have someone else? For that we won't get hurt if they ever become cold in the relationship you have. The one you almost want to save because you love them, because you don't want to lose them. But what if you already feel that he has someone else? Worst, someone told you about that matter but you don't criticize it because you say, **"To see is to believe.",** doesn't it seem like you're fooling yourself more?
*There are people who, when their partner is not able to express themselves because they are doing something, want to break up immediately because they say they don't love them anymore. The type, only in a small house will immediately sulk. I have a question, why would you sulk if you knew that his or her was busy? Like, they need to do something and they need to finish something but why are you angry? That's not a relationship, that's a relationship shit. Even me, I don't want a relationship that is nothing but that.*
Since I experienced this with my ex, especially when it comes to cheating, it taught me a lot to believe when someone says or has already spoken. Because we can't always, "**To see is to believe**." Sometimes other people's words are very powerful, especially when they match your feelings. That's why, they say that what is in your heart is not always right because it is not your heart that decides but your mind. It's one of the things I've learned, because we can't always believe what they say or trust the words they say. We will not listen all the time, especially if you already feel something is wrong.
*Whether we admit it or not, sometimes we really depend on what we want to believe. Sometimes, we think that we love them so we don't want to believe even though we have doubts about what is really true.*
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AUTHOR'S NOTE
If you already knew that something seems off, always learn to confront them. Don't be scare that they will leave you. Be scared if you lose yourself pleasing someone who doesn't care to you.
Reminiscing The Year 2009: still remember those good old days? (I'm Back!)
It's been raining here in Baguio for the past few days and I have almost no internet because it's weak, I didn't do anything except once and my phone was outside and my laptop was all I used. But knowing that, it's not easy if you always have a laptop with you because everything you need and almost everything you want to see is on your phone. But that's it, since it's a little bit better, I'll try to be active again here in readcash and hive.
For being active, to being inactive. Isn't it heartbreaking? When you used to be very active, you did almost everything, now you don't. I'm also lazy but I have to scrub because I have expenses and I need a source for my needs. But wait, how is everyone? Here I am, selling online Baguio food supplies like strawberry jam, ube jam, blueberry jam and others from here in Baguio. Maybe you want to buy? Just buy from me haha. joke.
***stop this nonsense, let's start our article.***
Reminiscing The Year 2009: still remember those good old days?
The ber months are near, I know most of us here have reached the time where as the ber months enter, all Christmas songs can be heard around. You will also feel the cold breeze that you miss especially when you are in the province. And at that time, you will be able to say, ***"It's cold, thank you."***
Do you still remember? Your mom or dad is with you every time you go to the market to buy and collect CDs that are all Christmas songs. You also choose the CDs you want to watch. You still get angry when your parents don't give you gifts, sometimes you don't even want to go home because you want to buy something new to watch.
Do you still remember? There will be people selling CDs for 50php or maybe 40php. The type of excitement you feel because there's something to eat, you feel the joy because it's Christmas time again. *Those times when everything was so happy for us, but now it seems to have disappeared on its own.*
Author's Note.
I also remember that it was still fashionable to be a jejemon at this time, touchscreen phones were not yet fashionable, admit it, you're smiling right? Do you care too? do you remember The fun of being friends because it's Christmas, you can get drunk and you go almost everywhere. Another thing here is the *peryahan*, whether you admit it or not, you were once picked up and searched at the *peryahan* by your parents haha. I'm always happy on this day, because there's a mango float and there's a variety of desserts and fruit that we only taste at Christmas, right? It's also fun in these seasons because you can almost feel the touch of the cold weather on your skin that you almost don't want to let go.
If you could have lunch with anyone dead or alive who would it be?
I was thinking to write an article last day but again, I have this mental block of mine where I don't have anything to write about. And now, I just think about why not I try the surveys? So I searched some survey and I found some! Let's answer it one by one.
**Link:**
https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/JTFGWWD
Did you do anything fun for vacation?
it's been 2 years since the pandemic started and it's been already 2 years since we all have a home vacation for like 2 years alos. Actually, pandemic didn't bring any good for me since a lot of people lost their jobs, a lot of teenagers got pregnant, a lot of people struggle because of being hungry So my answer is no, vacation didnt bring any fun for me because of the happenings around the globe. It makes me sick, it makes my anxiety and my depression became so bad.
Maybe for some, they'd enjoy their vacation because because they travelled everywhere, but for me? No, I'm not saying that the vacation was sucks bt yeah, there's a lot of opportnity where lost due of pandemic.
If you could speak any other language, what would it be?
Japanese, I love watching anime and I wish that I can speak their words. I'm planning to work to their place soon but i still need to earn some money for me to be able to have my passport. Maybe I still need also to study some of their words for me to be able to catch up.
Is it a dream? Yes, still I am planning but still I really want to work there soon. I already studied korean last 2018 but I didnt finished the class and I dont have the certification so i'm planning to take a japanese class.
If you could have lunch with anyone dead or alive who would it be?
My grandma, If ever I had a chance to have a lunch with her even if only in a dream, I'll be happy and I won't ask for anything. I will tell her how lucky I am to have her as my grandmother, how lucky I am that she raised me by her side. Whether I admit it or not, nothing would make me happier than seeing heragain.
If I ever get a chance to see and hug her, I will hug her tightly and tell her everything. I will tell her what is happening in my life and I will make the most of the time that she is by my side, even if it's just in a dream. Every time I'm sad, every time I don't know what to do, I only think of grandma. I often ask her for guidance, I hope she doesn't leave me alone, I miss my grandmother, I miss the time when she was with me.Right now, I'm very sad and looking for her protection. I'm looking for her love, I'm looking for the times when she's by my side. I'm feeling very sad now, I'm sad about what happening to me. I'm positive but I don't know why it seems like it's hard to say.
author's note
we bring back the puppy to the ownder because of some reasons. Maybe, that is the reason why i feel sad because all of the dogs that's been with me, he is the most sweetest dog that i've ever have. I'm happy because I have him for just a just time but I feel sad because i cannot have dog anymore. I wish, sooner or later I will have one.
Rainy Seasons Questions and Answer.
It's raining today and I just got woke up. I was making an article earlier but I fell asleep, so today let's do enough with motivational articles. Let's answer some random questions and answer that I found on a website.
**Link:**
https://randomquestionmaker.com/ feel free to use it!
***Do frogs have ears?***
Sometimes, I was asking myself the same questions if frogs also have ears. But maybe they have, but it's too small to see. I remember when I was scrolling through facebook. i saw a picture of a frog with ears, actually that was weird since that is the first time i saw something like that haha.
***If you were a worm, how long would you be?***
Maybe 20cm or more. I remember asking my partner that question, *"If I am a worm, will you still love me?"*, she looked at me with a weird look and said, "**No, you are a worm, why would I love you? Are you crazy.**" I can't help myself but I was just laughing because of her answers.
***But if you are a worm, how long you want to be?***
***What is the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?***
Chicken joy with icecream, grapes with icecream, haha I don't know. I have eaten weird combination for along time. They said I'm weird, because I like to try combinations of foods, but for me they are super yummy. Maybe, I just have really weird taste buds that's why haha. But overall, I can rate them 1000/10 since they taste good for me hehehe.
I want to eat so much, sometimes whenever I'm cooking I'm mixing different seasonings if it's good and if it's not I throw it away. right? HAHAHAHA
***What’s the dumbest thing you’ve ever cried about?***
***Food***, I have this cravings weeks ago to the junk food named lai-lai, my partner teased me and I cried HAHAHA. i cannot imagine myself crying just because of a food, or maybe that time i was having mood swings. It's all gone when she buys me a beng-beng, the chocolate covered with cereal thingy. Such a childish act but I love my childish side, but most of the time she was stressed bcause of me. there are times where I'm so picky about food and I'll ended up crying.
i'm so lucky that after everything, when we both lay down, she was kissing my forehead but for me it was not seet because for me it was a love from her that she wanted me to feel.
By the way, that's the only questions that caught may attention. Since it's rainy day I want to lay down and do nothing and sleep. Sleeping is the best medicine for someone like me and for someone who loves cold weather. But at the same time, i hate cold eather because it gives me pressure on my tummy but I hate hot weather also because it makes me sweat.
Author's Note
keep safe for those who were affected by the typhoon, I see that many users here were affected due of this typhoon. Keep safe everyone!
Article That Is Dedicated To Someone.
**Disclaimer**: *this article/blog/post was sent to me via discord. I don't own any of this, I will just share my opinion after typing this and I'll dedicate this to someone named EyeScream, it's nice to meet you buddy!*
From: EyeScream.
*On my stay in Baguio and people keeps telling me I came at the wrong time. Well, nobody can say I really came at a wrong time, I came exactly as what I wanted, and of my character and personality. They say that I came when the weather is bad and for what is superlativity of the term, where it's not a good timing for a tour... But they don't realize that I do appreciate everything. That it is fine, even better to actually see a different perspective of things, people, places, and stuff. This rainy season is not a bad side, perhaps it's part! Of growth of flowers, fruits, vegetables, even the prized strawberries! joy*
*Anyway, what I wanted to say is that, these things are part too and important, and what we see as "****bad****" were the things that makes me appreciate things more that we enjoy in their season, perhaps the months of January-February where Penagbengga is celebrated, where the season of bloom is celebrated. Haha. Ayun lang.*
To EyeScream.
For me, we arrived at the right time. We have come to a time when it really is appropriate. We didn't expect these things to happen in the future. Sometimes, being in a new place have a reason why we are here, and why we got here. Me, being here in Baguio during rainy season makes me realize how beautiful the weather is when it's cold. It helps me to be calm about everything, it helps me to think about everything. That's why I don't believe what they say, "***Bad time.***" because for me, this is a perfect time especially for people who have deep thoughts. Don't worry, the day you come here is a perfect day for you to refresh. You were here for a short time but it's amazing how much you enjoyed your days. *I'm looking forward to your shared thoughts again here in Baguio when you come back!*
From EyeScream: The Time
"**The Time**"
*There's no such thing as wrong timing, there's no such this as perfect timing, there's just only time.*
*They say, that if you meet the person at the wrong time, is a wrong person to start with. But no, I firmly believe that there's only a time for everything, she's not the wrong person to start with, it's just that she's not the person, she's not the time. As it is, as it was, when you share your time with people, is the time that you share a portion of your life. As much as people hate the time of heat from the sun, is as much as these people love the rain, and as it was people love the heat from the sun, the time will come that they will hate the rain. Time is perfect, boundless, and indeed the only thing we own yet ironically we cannot produce, yet we were able to give.*
To EyesSream
I hate cold weather, and I also hate hot weather. For me, there is no perfect weather that suits everyone. Just like the people we meet, we are very consistent that this person will be ours for us but in the end, there is nothing we can do if they choose to stay away. Everything is in perfect timing, all the challenges, all the thoughts, all the problems, everything that confuses our minds, all of that comes at the exact time. But, when it comes to someone we love, there is no *wrong time* and no *right time*. Everyone we meet is not a right person, nor a wrong person. They are the people who will bring lessons to the life we have. They are also the people who will teach us many lessons. Their experience, will be our idea for the next path we choose. If you ask me, for me *****the people who come and meet us are the ones who teach us to know what we want to achieve in life.*****
From EyeScream:
**Stairs of Chamber**
*We often times succumbed ourselves to our devastating nature, it's normal, it happens, and it's fine, occasionally on heavy breakdowns. But often than not our grave mishaps is more surreal than the hopes of acclaiming freedom over it. We are buried deep down to our troubled minds, without overseeing the future of even trying to overcome the madness that we're earning. I guess it is the result of being deceived by our weak minds, that we accepted the results as reality from our repeated unsuccessful attempts to change from the past.*
*Someone told me "****at least I do no harm****" but is there anything good about it? What benefits do broken soul and a broken spirit have from these reasoning? Even the soul yearns for peace, no matter how far clueless we are of achieving such hefty prize. Even the spirit yearns for connection, even how far we ought to leave the future for the present's cause. Even the mind—its tragic synopsis are meant to be wandered and comforted from its agonizing streams.*
*These I know, yet doesn't have a full understanding. The intensity of traumas do vary, some do measure up to life's expense. But I believe, as long as someone lives, he's strong enough to be standing the tests of time, 'til the steps lead us to the grave, and our secret chambers are admired when unveiled.*
To EyeScream
We live in this world for a very deep reason, and yes. You are right about the last part you said. However, not everyone can survive. We're lucky enough if we're still standing despite everything. We are still very lucky if we are still chosen to fight in a chaotic world, and in a chaotic life. Even in simple words, we all think of giving up when we really can't stand it anymore. It's okay if yu feel that your mind deceive you, not because you are weak but because you still looking for the answers that can give freedom to the trouble that you were experiencing. *From your stories that have been told, I want you to know that I am proud because of the dedication that you have.* ***Just keep going, you will find those answers soon.***
Author's Note:
I am happy to meet someone who's sharing his/her thoughts to me. By the way, i'm so sorry for being inactive. I do multi tasking all of the times and there are times where i don't have enough idea but I have some articles that was on my drafts that need some edits since the articles that was save on mine were all from last years.
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Aug 22, 2022.
The Reason Of my Inactiveness
**In The Middle of Giving up, We Always Learned How to Fight Back.**
*I’m okay,* that is the word that was so easy to say, that was very easy to say that we are fine. That we have no problems, we have nothing to think. But that’s not true. Every statement that included those words are all lies. We can say that we are okay, we can say that we are fine, we can say that because we are laughing in the front of other people, we are laughing in the front of everyone. But that one doesn’t matter when we, ourselves breakdown.
**During** the trials that I am experiencing, I learned how to laugh at it. I also learned on how to deal with them. Learning on ho dealing with those problem is a very big help, *imagine,* when you are alone and nobody has with you and you are breaking down. All we thinking is about ending everything right? We even didn’t think about the solution that we can try for us to survive on what kind of problem that we have right now. We just want every moments of us to be happy, without thinking that we may have any problems that will occurred. *Being alone* is not quite easy. There are times where a lot of questions were bugging us, especially **disappointment**, **thoughts**, **problems**, or anything that can cause of our breakdowns. And during that breakdowns, most of the time we are alone and no one is there to help us to get up, no one is there to help us to move. No one is there to help us to be stronger, because in the end of the day, the only thing that we have is *****ourselves.*****
It’s not us who’s experiencing this kind of giving up, even the person who’s motivated, also them they are unmotivated most of the time. But guess what, the only thing for them to go on is to motivate others for them to be able to feel the happiness also, *what a joke right?.*
In the middle of giving up, *we always learned on how to fight back.* We always learned on how to deal with them with a positive thoughts.
At this moment, when I know that I don’t feel good enough, I always thought that this is okay.
Lately, I have a little problem with myself. Coming back to my anxiety since I stopped working, I was afraid of coming to terms with the fact that I could do nothing but stay home. I tell my self that it's okay, I don't want this and I never ask for something like that. I was filled with what ifs, and I feel sorry also about the things I couldn't help.
I even tell my parents that even I, was super disappoint with my own because I had to leave work to choose my health. That I had to leave work just for myself. I don't want to leave the employer, I don't want to. Sometimes I don't know if I'm right blaming myself for it or being too wrong. but nevermind, i will still do mybest despite everything. Maybe right now, its not for me. But time will come, everything will be worth it.
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