Blog#169:03 March 03,2022

If I'm gonna tell you that I have already close my door for the other people, would I look like bad? Do I act like I am holding any grudge for them?

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Hey there my dear family here in read.cash, how are you? It's already Thursday, wow! Time really flies so fast and I have already successfully wasted two months of this year 2022 lol. I wonder what did I do for the past two months, I can't remember anything, I can't remember any progress 🤣. Oh wait maybe I was just busy chasing up with my goals and I have already forgotten to appreciate my little progress. I think I should have a Me time to feel the essence of my life, to embrace the beauty of it, as I think I am being stock with my own race🤔, this isn't sounds healthy isn't it?

Anyway so much for that, maybe you are already wondering with the title of this blog, which is the outcast. Well I came to this topic because of what I actually felt, since the day I came to this place.

Anyway while I am reading the article of someone here in readcash this morning, our neighbor suddenly came and call my name from outside.

Since I already knew who the owner of that voice, I didn't get up immediately from my bed. Actually I get up forcefully as I really don't like that person. When I open our door she asked me if I can Xerox her ID's for her, as they knew that we have a Xerox machine.

Anyway our Xerox machine isn't actually a Xerox machine, it was just actually a printer but at the same time you can also use it for Xerox. That printer was actually a second hand, I bought it when I am still working in Hong Kong for only $50HKD( $6usd)(300.00 pesos).

During the pandemic, we really earn from that printer as people required to Xerox their documents for their Ayuda,🤣( Ayuda, means financial support/ relief from the government) to receive their money. I just remember that everyday we always have many costumers outside our house as they all wanted to Xerox their documents. As early as 6 a.m I am already busy, with that printer.

I told her that our printer isn't working anymore so I cannot Xerox her ID's, but actually it's still working perfectly. I just lied as I really don't like to entertain her. Unintentionally, I am not holding a grudge for them( I am referring our neighbors) but I dislike them. After all that they did to us, I learned to close my door for them, besides they threat us, as an outcast.

Honestly I don't know the main reason of their behaviour towards us. It seems like they hate us from the bottom of their lives 🤣.

It was because they don't even bother to respect our existence. They are our neighbor who's living at the first floor anyway, and I think I have already share my problem with them.

Even though they know that there's a human (yes human because we are not aliens or ghost, for them not to see us) living under their premises, they don't bother to care their noise. They will do everything that they want upstairs, even though it's disturbing us. They don't even care if it's already midnight and their children is still running around the house, and of course since we were living under we really get disturb. Sometimes we can hear them dragging their chair at the middle of the night. If we complain they will do it more worst to annoy us.

Another thing is they are happy to see us struggling. One of the reason why the landlord of this apartment increases our rent, is because of them. They convince the owner to increase our rent because our space is bigger than theirs. Yes, it's them who convince the landlord and were sure about it because we can hear them. Our space is bigger, but they already took our extra space for their parking lot and yet they are not happy they want us to leave. We even hear them talking that they are waiting for the day that we left this apartment so they can took over our space.

Well, we don't have any plan to stay here until in our last breath. We will be leaving not for their happiness but for our own peace. Besides even if they occupy this whole apartment,this can't be theirs, they will remain as a tent.

Anyway I don't hold any grudge for them, I just wanted to remain as an outcast. They threat us like we didn't exist, so they must not come to our door. They don't want us, then we also don't want them😅.

Closing thoughts;

We should not beg for respect and yet we can't force people to accept or like us. And if a person hate us, well there's only three reasons for it;

1. They saw us as a threat

2. They want to be like us

3. They are not happy with their lives.

This is all for today guy's and thank you always.

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