11/20/2021
Let me start by being honest. It took me many minutes before I got to write something on this blank sheet of draft. I am out of formal ideas to publish tonight, so allow me to do my thing, my comfort zone: random blogging, or free-writing, whatever suits it more.
Almost thirty minutes before nine in the evening, and yet, again, as always, as if this suffering won't end, the neighbor blasts their speakers of loud and proud music again. It's like they wanted the whole compound to know they are listening to music, or maybe they are confirming whether people around have ears, I don't know anymore. For sure, we do have ears, I won't be pissed off like this if not. I hope they'd achieve whatever it is they're trying to prove so they can stop this random weekend music party only they enjoy in the first place. These are the times I wish there's a turn off button for our ears, so we could give it a break from the never-ending noise of this world, and from the disrespectful neighbor that we have right here.
Beyond the noise I hear right now, there is one voice that kept replaying inside my mind since earlier. I heard it while washing the dishes, ironing my uniform, and even on fixing my bed. It was Mia's voice. One of the softest meows I have ever kept into my memory. I suddenly thought of my kitten again, I've always missed her. It's always so hard to accept that I can't be with my Mia, even it's been more than a month already. I remember that ONE specific moment, it replayed to me, always, always, like a broken record. That very moment when I was alone in my room, facing the wall, while chatting on my phone. Then I heard a faint meow calling me from behind. I turned around and saw the cutest, sweetest, tiny face, ever. Yes, my adorable kitten coming all the way up the stairs to greet me hello, and play with me. I feel really alone in this room from time to time. Especially this time. I miss her so much. I apologize for the sudden drama.
Capturing her image in my head, I was also reminded of a touching video on Youtube, of a woman who lost her daughter to a disease. Through the help of an a technology called Virtual Reality, she was able to see her daughter once again, an animated, yet almost real and alive-looking version of her, in a virtual place that looked like a playground. I still remember the lots of tears I shed for that video, as the mom touched the face of her daughter as if she was really there, held her hand, and continued apologizing. The girl answered something along the lines of "You see? I am okay here? You are not at fault. It's actually fun here, you don't have to worry about me anymore. I am really fine here, mom."
Definitely heart-wrenching, yet made me thankful to know how technology could be of help in such a way that the mother who was left behind somehow got a closure she deserves to have. If you're okay to spare a few (or more) tears, let me just show you the video, and tell me if you're not gonna cry like I did. It was surely tear-jerking, yet felt warm in a way.
Elle, why are you sharing this suddenly, you may ask? It's because I want to experience this, too. I mean, can I be placed in a beautiful landscape of blooming pastel pink colored-flowers, walking and feeling the soft petals brushing against my feet? And across the long road, I'd meet Mia again? Is that too much to ask? I want us to have a happy moment together, just the two of us, in that beautiful place, even it's not real. Even it's just Virtual Reality. I'd want to tell her the words I was not able to say because we did not get to say goodbye. I would remind her that I love and treasure her so much, that I am sorry for letting her go like this, for leaving her all alome when she was there on the days I had to be alone. It's okay if it ain't gonna be in a Virtual Reality. Even if it'd just gonna be in a dream, it's okay. Can that happen? Heavens, please?
Fudge, I did not expect this would turn out sad. Again, I apologize. I thought I could now just refresh Mia's memories and smile, but I'd still cry like this. I did not expect it. Anyway, Mia, I miss you my love. Wherever you are right now, please always be happy and healthy. Live a long life. You deserve love because you are love itself. You are my own bundle of comfort and warmth. Please don't be cold, don't starve yourself. Don't let people abuse you. Be strong, my baby. I miss you so much. I miss you, and it always hurts.
Getting rid of these tears is not easy. I gotta distract myself. Moving on, let me just share that the defective laptop we bought earlier this year, is now working fine, I guess. I tried using it earlier this afternoon, and it performed okay. It's a good thing. We thought we could not use it again. That's for my younger bro's online classes, though. We just hope it will continue to work well, and not encounter any problems anymore. It would be costly to buy a new laptop again.
How has your day been? Let me ask you that, just in case no one has asked yet. What are the things you did today? New things you learned, or annoying stuff that happened. Care to share? Well then, my comment section is welcoming you to open up. Go! Me first. Today was an "Okay" day, aside from the sadness emerging from my longing of Mia, everything else has been good. I was able to accomplish and read lots of articles today, just let me brag that. Of course, there are still more to do, but at least I am making a progress. My plan on watching a Korean Drama this weekend was postponed, because I got lot of other things to focus on.
It's a good thing, I guess. To be busy in some worthwhile activities, from time to time. It boosts productivity. I am thankful to read.cash for that. I also get to distract myself from negative thoughts.
Hello, reader!
I read this whole blog again, and I must say, this was a roller coaster of emotions. A combination of irritation, of sadness, and relief, within a single day. Yes, definitely possible. This is how my day went.
Have you tried checking out the letters highlighted at the first words of every paragraph? No, check it again, they're there.
Saw it? That's nice to know. Of course, I know you'd be confused right now that it still an incomplete alphabet. Look forward to the next parts coming in. No explanation needed, I gotta complete the alphabet. Letters A up to I, is a good start.
There are still lots of letters left, so I gotta make use of the next opportunity. For now, enjoy this first part. This has been my version of #AlphabetDiary . Write something about it, if you'd want. Until next time!
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Mia is so adorable. I love cats especially small ones like Mia.