"My Old Self"
As I was about to sleep last night, I asked our Lord Jesus Christ to help me return to my old self. The one that is cheerful. The one that is full of determination. The one that is hopeful. The one that is motivated. The one that is interactive.
If you have notice, I am not as active as I am in the past months. Honestly speaking, its not just in here and noise.cash, the same is through in the real world. I feel like I was surrounded by all means of negativities. Like, when I wake in the morning, I just want to stay in bed for a couple of hours. I started a day thinking negative thoughts already. I know its just me to blame. Everything that happens to me this past days, I am the main reason why it happens. I am to blame. I am the one that is at fault. None of my family or friends knows what I went through. But yes, I chose to be that way. I don't want to involve them in my personal issues. Aside from that, I don't want to hear their negative opinions towards me. Though I am used to it, but for some reasons, I don't want to hear it out because I know I will just ended up pitying myself. And I am so tired, feeling that way.
I want to go back. To be on the right track. I don't want to stay this way. Feeling that I want to fade away. Sometimes, especially when I am alone, I can't help myself but cry over the things that keep bothering me. My current situation, my life, my way of living, my relationship towards my family and other people. And worst among all, I want to rush things, especially of the pressure I felt by not having a stable job. And it so happen that I came across a content stating;
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"God won't leave you guessing. He will send you signs that it's time to slow down, quiet your mind, and work on yourself while He labors on your behalf. This includes:
-A break up.
- Physical or mental or emotional exhaustion.
- Negative or hurtful people leaving your life.
- The feeling of being lost or purposeless.
- An opportunity to go on a long trip or retreat.
- The awareness that you've been repeating the same relationship mistakes for years.
- Persistent frustration and lack of peace.
Not all of God's signs are enjoyable. Some are unpleasant or painful. But if that's what it takes to get your attention, its all worth it. Pay attention to the events and patterns in your life. Is God telling you to wait? If you haven't been listening, now is the good time to start. If not, you might squander time that you'll never get back."
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After reading the whole content, I just realized that some of the signs, I did experienced it. "Physical or mental or emotional exhaustion." "The feeling of being lost or purposeless." "Persistent frustration or lack of peace." As for the rest of the signs, I just can't explain it but, thinking about my relationship with MGD, to be honest, there's a part of me that wanting for a break up. I don't know if it is the right thing to do or maybe I just got carried away with my emotions. (Deep Sighing) I guess this is not the right time for me to tell the whole details about it. Let's just leave it that way for now.
As I am about to end this piece today, I just can't stop thinking about those signs above. (Sighing again) And all I want right now is to go back to my old self. I just have to believe that I can do that for my own sake. God is with me, right? ^_^
Thank you for spending your time my read.cash family. Take good care of yourselves!❣️
MAY THE GRACE OF THE LORD BE WITH ALL GOD'S PEOPLE!😇
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|#247| 12th Article of the Month
|04.20.2022 @ 11:26 AM|
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I know your old self when you were active here. Please don't be sad, mate if you are surrounded by negativities then this is the time to prove yourself. Just wake up from your bed and do productive things and say no more to negativities. Start interaction here with new people and choose interesting topics to write no matter how much time it will take. God bless you dear, mate.