They give foods to me, they put clothes in my body and they are my savior from this curse world. I am happy. I am so thankful to them because of what they did to me. I still remember the time that they decided to get me at the orphanage. I just arrive in that place and maybe luck is me that time. I'm not even staying there for a day but I already got myself a family that I can call "My." I am sad that I will be separated with my friends but, I also want to experience having a "Family" that's why even if they beg to not to go with them, I still go on. And I can only wish that they also find a family that they can call their own. I want all of us to be happ so, I'm wishing it too.
Having a family is heaven for me. I get to experience being loved and cared. I was the happiest coz even those toys thay I can only wish that I have? I can finally have them. Mom and Dad will buy them for me. I can eat anything I want and it's the best foods that I ever had to be honest Mom and sometimes Dad will cook for me and we will eat happily in one table. I also learned how use a fork and spoon. I'm used to eating with mu bare hands that's why it is new to me. The life that I am only wishing before that I could have, I have it now. That's why I'm forever thankful with my Mom and Dad for giving this opportunity to me to be their daughter, to br in a family.
In a family that I never had. A family that I wish and long for. A family that I can rely on whenever I'm cold and feel alone in this world. That kind of family who's always in there ready to tap my shoulder whenever I need it. A real family. And jow that I have it and it finally came true . I wil take care of them, I will treasure them and I will be the best daughter ever that exist. So that they won't decide to let go of my hand. This is the chance that was given to me by Him so I won't break this chance, I'm grabbing it. Now that I already experience how it feel to have a complete family, I won't break their trust to me. And I will love them with all my heart. I promise!
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2 Years already passed and a miracle happened to us. Mom and Dad will be having a baby, no not only one but a twin. I'm also happy coz finally, I can have a siblings that will call me "Sister." To be honest at first I thought Mom and Dad will change their treatment to me once they have their own baby as in that came from their own flesh, but I thought wrong. They just love us more. They love us the same. We are the favorites and not just one. And that's the start of a lovely relationship with them. Our house become warmer with thr arrival of the twins. And I don't feel left behind at all. And for that I feel more love with my new family. They are my everything.
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I'm not sure when did everything started to chang but, I think it started when the twins learned that I am adopted. They change their treatment to me and they don't treat me as a big sister now. They changed and they are not showing it to anyone but just me. I don't know where their hate to me coming from but I tried to talk to them but they will just laugh at me and ignore me whenever Mom and Dad is not home. My sweet little sisters are gone, no one is calling me "Ate" now. They really change and I feel unwanted coz of it. I started to doubt myself. I began to think that what if Mom and Dad throw me out of our house and throw me back to the orphanage.
I don't want that! I don't want to be alone again. I don't want to go back on that place. This is my home and I will never leave this house. That's why I decided to just accept their cold treatment to me. I am older that them in 5 years but I feel like I am the eldest and I am just letting them to bully me. It hurts me more that our closeness is not there anymore. Just because I am adopted. I also began to detach myself not just to them but also with Mom and Dad. I am just readying myself because I know the time that they will decide to throw me out on that house will come. The time will come that they will get sick of my presence too.
Even though they still treat me with love my mind just can't think straight because if the twin's treatment with me. It hurts, seriously. I treat them like my own sister but what's wrong with being adopted why they are hating me so much. I love them but they feel the opposite no to me. I want to have a lot of time with them but they are pushing me away. That's why I just decided to ignore them too and focus more on my study. Thanks to that I'm making my Mom and Dad proud to me because of the awards and trophies that I brought home. But in exchange with that, my sister's resent me more. And I can't do anything about it. Maybe they feel that Mom and Dad loves me more than them than their own flesh.
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And that's where my hell begins. They are just teenagers but they really know how to annoy me. I'm the kindest, I know that but I want to unleash my evilness just for that two. They are really testing my kindness. I can still forgive them for the name that these two are calling me but breaking the things that the most important people that gave to me is on different matter.
Those things that I cherish than them. Not just two but all of them. All of my blood really boiled and I feel like I will explode anytime soon. And that's where I did the thinhs that I know I will regret later but even so, I still enjoy doing it. I feel like I already give justice to the things that they break. Those thinhs that was given to me by my Mom and Dad
Seeing their chopped body on my hands. They deserve it. They touch the things that they shouldn't touch. So even if they regret the things that they did I will never forgive them. Ever!
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Woah that's seems brutal pero may rason naman pero kahit ganon sana wag dumating sa point na yun