The Story of my Depression.

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3 years ago

According to Better Health Channel:

Depression is a constant feeling of sadness and loss of interest, which stops you doing your normal activities. Different types of depression exist, with symptoms ranging from relatively minor to severe. Generally, depression does not result from a single event, but from a mix of events and factors.

For me, depression is not visible on the face of a person. You can feel it even if he/she is smiling. Many depressed people do not see the sign that he is a depressed person. Depression is one of the hardest diseases to fight off. I can’t totally say that I am experiencing depression because I have never undergone a specialist. I also can’t clarify to the reader of this article how I felt during those times because I often amused myself by doing the article, and using the noise.cash site.

The Story.

Hello, I am an artist. Many people says that when an artist is free from stress and depression because artists are able to express their emotions and resentments to the world by creating artworks. I agree with this because sometimes you can really express your feelings when you are having fun with something else. But not so much for me. Especially now that I’m studying and also looking for a viable income online because I haven’t been able to get a job at the moment because of the pandemic; and there are few jobs available for specific people.

I think is the reason for my depression these past few months is my education and the pressure under me. I am a student who prefers leadership rather than just being a ‘dumbbell’ or the term ‘do-nothings’ students. But in exchange for my preference is my mental health. Let's admit it, the education of today's students is not that 'persuasive', and the education system here in the Philippines is not as effective today because we are experiencing a pandemic. Let us also admit that many students have not learned much but are even more stressed due to the number of requirements and performance that will be passed.

I think this is where my depression starts. I'm stressed with things that I've taken too seriously as a serious thing. My desire to help my family during this pandemic also came along. To make it short, I had depression because I was abusing myself too much on things that I thought I could do at the same time. I was too sent to stress and force myself. I thought too much about things that would be bad for my mental health and physical health.

March 18, 2021. The department of Education has declared a semester break for public school students from grades 1 to 12 only; March 14-19 (Mon-Fri).

We recieved One week sem-break . But, our section was not included especially me, because I was the leader of our group because we were given reporting that the semester break would be done. I thought a lot of bad things during these times because I was upset because this was the only time I could have rested, but it didn't go on because we still had work to do. As a leader, I still divide up tasks. Monday to Wednesday, we finished the powerpoint. The process took so long because we had to present five topics and only three presentors had to present even though we had 10 members in the group.

Wednesday night, everything was exploding in my brain. I took our presentation very seriously even though I am used to do such things before. That is how I feel super stressed that week. Before I go to sleep that day, I reflect on myself. I realized that I could really do it, that I didn't have to think. Also in conjunction with my reflection on myself,the announcement of my teacher who postponed our presentation tomorrow and it was move to friday.

The Friday.

The next day, I pleased my mother to accompany me to the market and buy the food I wanted to buy . I made the most of that day. I buy things I want to buy and eat just to get rid of the stress and sadness I feel. The thorn in my chest disappeared when this happened. After that day, I prepared for my presentation and it was as successful as we expected.

May we all know that depression can eat us, especially you. Those who often experience this are those who smile and laugh. Maybe, you find her/him smiling but deep inside she/he is crying. Let's find someone to talk to and help. May we be aware of our feelings and especially of our emotions. Mental health is important too.

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Thanks for sharing. I can feel the disappointment and the weight that you are conveying as a pioneer. I think you truly need a break. Please. Give yourself one. I realize that we are distinctive in light of the fact that dependent on what I see that you are truly viewing everything appropriately. What's more, I don't see anything amiss with that. On the off chance that you can attempt to extricate up a piece. plan a specific time, or certain day where you will offer yourself a reprieve and you will simply do all that you need to do. or on the other hand you can even sit idle in the event that you have a feeling that you would prefer not to do anything. With respect to me, who's likewise stress more often than not, that is my main thing. break is so significant. also, sunday is my day. I'm making a decent attempt not to stress over acads and necessities during sunday. what's more, it is so useful. I trust that all may work out in a good way for you.

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Thank you so much for this. I appreciate it. 🥺✨

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I think it is very easy to get carried away by external pressures, especially now that we are in the middle of this pandemic and it has changed the scheme or the ways we were used to in our routines. All this adds up and of course affects our mental health.

It has helped me to flow in the midst of the circumstances without opposing or resisting so much, but rather trying to adapt to what is presented to me and looking for new alternatives.

Everyone will have their own strategies, but I think the most important thing is to be clear that the priority is our peace and our mental health, and based on that we can act looking for solutions. I believe that this keeps us away from pressures and illnesses.

Thanks for sharing your experience 🤗

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3 years ago

Most welcome ,@MiriannaLis. 🥺 And also, thank you for sharing your thoughts. It helps me to think more about on what's happening to my world right now. Thank you for reading my article! 🥺✨❤

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The modern world and its modern problems make up the essence of what created the mental health problem epidemic we live in today. I'd wager depression and anxiety are a serious pandemic that blasts the COVID one out of the water. Some 100 years ago, anxiety and depression were rare, now with everyone you talk to you discover nearly everyone has some sort of mental problem like anxiety, panic disorder, depression, OCD, etc... I wish you the best and whenever you feel like depressing, make your art! Cheers!

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Thank you for this, @CryptoMax. 🥺 Sure! I will make more art until I become professional at it. Thank you so much! 🥺✨

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Yes its true depression makes a person to lazy and do nothing for himself an overthinking is too dangerous for health either it mentally or physically but a person with the courage can do end of depression its natural every person has the ability to fight with depression

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Due to pandemic..most of us suffer depression..we need to support those people.

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Hey there. I can feel the frustration and the weight that you are carrying as a leader. I think you really need a break. Come on. Give yourself one. I know that we are different because based on what I see that you are really taking everything seriously. And I don't see anything wrong with that. If you can try to loosen up a bit. schedule a certain time, or certain day where you will give yourself a break and you will just do everything that you want to do. or you can even do nothing if you feel like you don't want to do anything. As for me, who's also stress most of the time, that's what I do. break is so important. and sunday is my day. I am trying hard not to worry about acads and requirements during sunday. and it is so helpful. I hope that all may go well with you.

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Thank you so much for this, ate @immaryandmerry. Pahinga nga lang po ito ate. Gagawin at itatry ko din ate yung sa katulad ng ginagawa mo na may nilalaan ka pong time para sa sarili. I think time management din po talaga. Napakalaking tulong po nito, salamat po ulit. 😔🥺❤

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You're welcome! Oo itry mo. Ganyan din kasi ako dati, masaydong cinacareer lahat e haha. Then there's this sunday. Mas nakakamotivate kasi na may nilolok forward ja na araw or time na alam mong mairerelease mo lahat ng stress mo. Basta wag mo isipin na sayang yung time na ilalaan mo sa sarili mo. Na baka kung di ka nagpahinga e may natapos kang requirements. You're mental health is more important than all those reqs.

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Yes ate. Makakaasa ka po. Itatry ko ang pagbabago at magiging better para sa sarili ko. Grabe, thank you po talaga. 🥺

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I'm in the stage of depression as well. I always overthink in every situation, I decided to isolate myself and distance myself to my friends. I don't have someone to talk to, and the only thing that helps me is writing and music. Writing whatever may sink in to my mind, listening to my fave music to ease the pain inside. Until today I'm still battling on it but the good thing is I can now control my emotions unlike before. Anyways thanks for sharing your experience and ideas about mental health, keep it up!

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Most welcome and thank you too for sharing your story, @Lusipir. It gives me more insights about faces of mental health. I hope you get better soon. Let's continue to help others even if we are in pain too because this is where humanity starts. 🥺✨❤

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Depression has many faces. You will never know whether someone is depressed or not based on their facade. There are those who are smiling all the time, but dying deep inside. Thanks fpr sharing your story and be strong 💖

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Most welcome, @thepandagirl. Yeah, indeed. The only key to know if he/she is depressed if you have talk to her/him. Thank you for sharing your thoughts about my story. 🥺✨❤

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