I realize that Making decisions as an Adult is Hard

Yesterday, I was thinking if I can convert $40 usd because I don't have enough balance or allowance already. I thought that my allowance was budgeted and enough for staying here at my cousins house since july 16th to last week. However, today was supposed to be my travel to go back to our grandparents house but i have 3 reasons why my plan is not continued.

• I don't have money to spend for my fare.

• Because my sister can't pick me up she can't able to go here because she doesn't have money too.

• My Cousin wants me to stay here again because she needed my help. I need to teach her do her make up for their school in August 4.

so as a response to them, was a big sigh. Honestly, I want to go back to my Grandparents house because I miss my Cat his name is Zebra, he is a moody cat like me. I also have two dogs, their name is Oreo and Duday and while writing about them, i really miss them already.

Anyways, i am so very 'kuripot' when it comes to money you know, I have a hard time of saving more BCH since last month and right now, when I told my Mom that I need some money and i will convert some of BCH so that she doesn't need to give me some and at first she said that she will send me some allowance but i insisted because I don't want her to send me again some money but I think , I don't just need $40 usd to spend because

• I also need to convert a money for my Grandparents to spend for their farm. Actually, my Mom already give them last month some budget or share for their plants in the farm, she gives them Php 10,000.00 or $200.41 usd but still not enough.

• I also need to pay for their Current bills and speaking of current bills, I don't understand why we are just the only person that needed to pay for the electric bills since we are not the only family who are staying at our Grandparents house. My Mom always give a budget for the pay our current bills yet the other Family is not paying anything. Seriously?

• For Groceries because our refrigerator doesn't have anything just a cold water, ice, and a charcoal.

• $40 usd Allowance of my sister for her studying. I wanted to help my sister in her studies sometimes because our mother doesn't know that she is studying with her TESDA FBS course and;

• $20 usd for myself. This can help me for my load balance so that I can able to write here. So instead of $40, i decided that I don't need that much. I just need some money for my fare and to my load balance.

My mom told me that if I will convert some money for my Grandparents I need to give them Php 5,000.00 or $100 usd The Php 4.000 will be go as a help for the farm, while the Php 1,000 will be for their electric bills. Php 3,000 for the groceries, Php 2,000.00 for my sister and Php 1,000.00 for me.

So, if we will calculate all of the money that I need

Php 11,000 or $220.02 usd. I think I hurt my eyes after seeing that Total of amount of money but I really needed it. However, I feel so sad to convert that total of amount because all of the money that I saved is for our future house.

What is the Problem why I'm still deciding until now about that?

So the problem to me is, I'm hesitating because I'm still not at the 2BCH yet i will convert a money already.

Why I need to do this?

Because like what I always said, my family thinks that I'm millionaire already. Here in the Philippines, if they will now that you have a thousands of money, they will think of you as a millionaire, rich or 'Baknang' in our dialect. When I started in Php 10,000 hodl they already want me to convert that amount and if I don't want to they always say something behind my back.

But this decision is still Undecided since I will not still going home. Maybe when I will go home already. So while I was still here, I will just need to convert a total amount of $20 usd for myself later when the Bitcoin.com is not in the red market already and so while I'm still staying here, I think i need to write more articles Just so I will saved a money for that amount.

Closing Thoughts...

While reading @Eunoia 's recent article, I think I understand why our parents always say that they don't have money when I was still a Kid. Because While I am growing up i can already feel that it is hard to accumulate and to have a money. Like yes, it is a huge amount when you will hold to your own palms and when you see however, it is hard to budget our money because we have a lot of important things to spend. Yung kahahawak mo pangalang sa kamay mo ng ilang segundo wala pang ilang oras or araw ubos na diba?

There was a time that i almost cried because of how hard being an adult is. I'm still starting my life as an adult yet here I am being weak for everyday life. However, I'm still thankful because God never neglected me.

Thank you for reading my nonsense today. so yes, I'm still problematic to my money right now because I have a though time in deciding when we talk about money.

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