A Narrow minded person like her will never understand

When I was younger, I became a victim of bullying. There are a lot of hurtful words I recieved from my classmates, from the other kids, from the other parents and you know what is worst? I can't believe that my Family are also being like that towards me before.

You know? back when I am still a Kid, I really don't like to fight with someone. I am a shy type person back then and I don't know how to encourage someone to play with me. I just like to have some peace of mind not until I found a friends and I already told you about them already. I thought there's no people who will never like me. I thought that there's no other kids to be with me. But that are just the only thought.

I never laughed or bullied someone because I know how much it hurts to be criticize by other people.

In this article for today, I will share you if what are those things about me that they hated, doesn't like, and or reason why they bullied me. Writing this one is really hard for me because I still remember some flashbacks and what I experienced before because of it.

My Dark Underarms

I shared to you this article about my Dark undedarms. This is what my problem before because, I can't use or wear some sleeveless shirts. I always wear T-shirts because I don't have confidence of wearing some sexy stuffs and I am scared of what other people might say about it.

Back then during my Elementary days, my Classmatss esp. Girls are always laughing everytime that they can see my dark underarms and they even spread the news to the other people.

They often says that my underarms are so ugly and they even thought that it was have an odor smell but I don't have that. Just the darker skin of my undearms is the problem.

But Good thing that I found some solutions and that is using Kojic acid soap only and the new BrilliantK Revetalizing kit but I don't use it often just the kojic soap.

Fat Stomach

One of my insecurities is when other young kids have a nice and flat belly. I tried to do a diet but I didn't continued doing it because it was hard. Not eating the foods that you like or want to eat and doing exercise. There ars a lot of things that you don't or you can't do and eat when you will planning to diet or lose weight and I can't bare that.

Back then when I was still high school, my Stomach is in the good shape. I was skinny and I can able to dance right now, while being older my Fat changed too. It became like a balloon. You know before, one of my dream and wish is to be fat a little because I do like to have a chubby cheeks but the fats didn't came up to my cheeks but to my belly instead. Huhu

That's why, My friends and some members of my family teased me about it. They often called me some random words about being fat.

Incomplete Family

Do you think that you will just experienced bullying because of your appearance? No. Because this one is the worsts and I can't stand myself for fighting back to those v who Re making fun of my Family.

To those new readers of mine, if you don't know about my family, My parents are divorce so I don't have Dad plus my Mom is still at the abroad working. I envy those kids who can able to be with their Mother and Dad and have some moments since when they still a Kid until now while me, I don't have a clear memories about them because I got used of being alone.

I am scared sometimes because my devilish side is coming out if the other kids make fun and judged my parents because they are my weakness. They can make fun of me but they should not try to make fun of my Family. Every night, it's hurts me esp. When I can't do anything about it because they have their back up and the hurtful thing is, I got used of not to tell my Mom who is working anroad about it because I don't like to hurt her and so that is alsomy request to my Grandma.

Actually, there is this reason why I am writing this one right now that supposed to be published yesterday but because of this girl who just good at bullying others as if she is a perfect, my mood changed and I don't have energy to tell this one.

This wast happened when I am hanging my clothes outside yesterday when this girl arrived and passed by. I heared her saying it to my Uncle (The eldest and Brother of my Mom which is her Step Father), she laughed and I even heared her saying this to him, "Ang Itim nung kili kili niya." (Her underarms are so dark). That time I am just wearing a sando so my underarms are exposed. I was so pissed to the point that I said, "So? Kinaganda mo naba panlalait sa kili-kili ko?" I raised my left natural eyebrow after saying that to her.

Imagine, she is a girl too and she is bullying and or body shaming me. I don't tolerate this kind of behavior because I support other girls and I even do some things to motivate them.

I hope that there no girl like her. I hope that she can learned not too bully other girls esp. That she has her Son now.

Conclusion....

Am I affected after that moment when she said that? I admit yes because she laughed and even said it intentionally in front of me and because of this, the self-confidence that I build for years gone and lost for a second. It's hard to build our self-confidence you know because it wss hard but we are trying to accept and love ourselves despite of the things that we are lack of. But even so, that is not will be the reason for me not to grind because even she said that, I realized that I can slay. I can slay by my own way besides it's my own body, it's my life and I have freedom and being like this and that will never be a reason for us to stop achieving our dreams and goals and to be successful.

Thanks fot reading!

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