I have debt and I am not proud of it!

I didn't know that I will at this kind of situation right now. To be honest, I don't like to have debt to other people esp. That I have some earnings now. But because I couldn't use it for now that I needed it, I have to do this kind of solution to my problem and that is borrowing some money.

I have debt and I am not proud of it esp. That I borrowed some money to one and the most important someone of my life. Actually, I didn't want to do this but;

What pushed me to do this kind of decision?

First and again, I will tell you this one. You know that how much I struggle to some spaces of my small room. Because of my temporary room is just have a narrow space, I plan to buy this thing and what is this thing?

Of course, the one and only Cabinet. I decided yesterday night that I don't need to have a customized cabinet because it is just a tempo. room. If I will do that, cuztomizing will costs a lot of money and I don't like it. Esp. That my portfollio is not that good and my smartBCH tokens are sleeping.

So, I just decided to buy a Rattan cabinet:

I saw this to Facebook while browsing and searching and looking for a cabinet that was good but cheap price.

I like this kind of cabinet because there is this two sides where I can put my new blouses and shirts that I always used when I go out aside from that, it was spacious below and I can able to put my pants and maong shorts. Meanwhile, there is this 5 small drawers where I can put my old clothes such as shirts and shorts that I am just wearing when I am just staying here, pajama ternos that I always wear when I will sleep, underwears and socks, and the extra box will be put for the things if there are some other important and extra things.

This cabinet costs for Php 3,900 or $74.40 USD. Compare when I will buy a big cabinet made with wood, for sure the costs is Php 10-15,000 Peso. So, I will just go for this one.

Now, What is the story why I have debt?

While cleaning those mess that left inbthe temporary room, I have this mindset that, I can't stop looking at the two big drawers in the room. The drawer of my Sister and my own Drawer. I am annoyed because the space is always my problem. If where I can put this and that because it's so very narrow.

My goal is to get rid not only the dusts but, I have also this main goal and that is to fixed the narrow space. Esp. That I can't able to get rid the big double deck bed because it can't fit to my small window. So, the drawers need to be adjusted in order to have some free space and the dusts will be free to fly fly fly and I can clean them properly. Because if I have some narrow spaces, you know how much dusts you can step every corner everyday and I don't like that to be happen again. Never. Because the last time that I cleaned the room even if I am cleaning everyday, I thought that I cleaned it well but that is just only a thought.

So, After cleaning, I decided to chat my MOM. Yes, My Mother. The person who helped me in this kind of situation is my Mom. I know that I should not do this because I have this promise to myself a long time ago since when I started my journey here and saving Bitcoincash and aside from that, earning from answering modules of my younger cousin. I promise to myself that I will never beg or asked for help to my Mom since I know how tired she is from working.

But because I need to solved this problem and my tempo. room will finished, I decided to ask for her Help.

We talked via Call because she want me to see. I am so very hanggard that time because I'm done mopping and cleaning all the dusts from window to double deck bed and left things.

Anyways I told it to her my problem and I also ask if she can lend me some money to use it for buying that Cabinet and I will pay her next month at the end of May Month and she didn't hesitate to lend me and she even like to buy me a Vanity table but I refused because I don't need that but I know that she is stubborn so I didn't make our conversation long and just said, Yes and Okay. She even told me that, I didn't asked anything to her for how many months already and Good thing that I asked her for some help and she even told me these words,

"Alam mo anak, okay lang naman humingi ng tulong e. Kasi responsibilidad kong ibigay lahat ng gusto niyo ng ate mo. Kaya nga, nagtratrabaho ako dito para sainyo at para saan pa at nagtratrabaho ako dito?"

She says, that it was okay to asked some help to her because it was her responsibility to give the things that My Sister and I wanted and we are also the reason why she is working abroad.

I always keep saying sorry to her and I was shy because I asked some money. But even so she said that to me, I still said to her that she should consider that as my Debt and I will pay her in the Future and wait for her own room.

Conclusion...

Having debt to my Mom feel so uneasy and I am not happy and proud about it. I mean, I am shy and guilty for borrowing money to her. I get used of standing on my own and learned to be independent when it comes to the things that I wanted.

Right now since the BCH is still at the dip, I can't convert all my earnings in one go. I don't like to spend them all that's why, I decided to ask some help to her and promise that I will work hard to pay the money that she lend to me during the whole years that she raised me by her own hard work.

Thanks for reading!

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