Ended up Regretting for not Trying My Best!
Inner Thoughts:
"Should I do it? Or Not?"
"What if I will not be accepted? Another rejection then?"
"What if I will not last that for long?
"What if..."
"Ahh...maybe its not meant for me. Maybe next time."
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"Am I gone mad? Why do I always letting the opportunity passed through me, again and again? What is your problem, self? Hey! wake up!"
I kept on blabbering with you about the fact that I still don't have a stable job and as for now, relying on my job in here as an online writer. The thing is, I have given a lot of opportunities but what I did is just let these opportunities just passed by without even trying. Before landing a job in this platform two years ago, my parents and I went to town to buy some goods for home uses. Because my mama was so eager for me to have a job, she said that we should look for it in near places after we buy all the stuffs needed. So, after that, we did searching for a job vacancies in town. Mostly we found a stores that hiring a sales lady. Then we asked one of the personnels about the requirements, then she said that I only need to fill in a Bio-data. Out of her eagerness, my mama forced me to buy some Bio-data sheets and filled it out then submitted it to the store. To cut the story short, after a month of waiting their responds, I received a message saying that I am hired as a sales lady. I am happy but there was a part of me that felt the hesitation to really go for it. But then again, I still give it a try because of my mama. At the first hours of duty, I felt that it was just okay. But because I don't have an experience of being one, I was not doing my part of being a sales lady, and that is to entertain the customers and do the sales talking. Suddenly, the girl owner of the store came. She looks scary and I easily felt this kind of aura that I don't like. One of my co-workers said that she really is a strict boss, she don't want to see a worker that is just sitting, that as a worker I/we should have something to do. I felt really uncomfortable after hearing those things. Then the afternoon duties came. I felt a bit relieved upon looking the clock because its almost time for closing but I was so shocked that I was being told that we should go home at 7 pm. And I was like, "What in the world is happening in here?" I didn't have a choice but to wait. My parents then was waiting outside because I still don't have a boarding house. When we arrived home, I said to my parents that I will not go back in there, anymore. I said to them, that it was not right to attend the duties at 6 am and go home at 7 pm. And if you are asking about the salary, its Php 3 500/month only, about $70 per month. My papa then decided that I should not really go back in there but my mama got mad at me. She said, that I should not waste the chance because I already have the job. I even cried saying that I don't want to go back in there and she should not force me again because I don't want to. After that, I locked my room and didn't ate my breakfast the next day. Then, a month after, my mama said something that I don't like to hear about and ending up blaming me for being a jobless and compared me to my cousins and other batch mates that are now having their own stable means of income. I do regret it but, maybe if you are in my situation, you too will not last for long in that kind of job.
Three months after, I looked for another job vacancy in town. I found another store that was hiring for a sales agent but when I asked about the details, the personnel said that if I will get hired I will not be assigned in that store and the salary is only PHp 150 per day or about $3 per day. After that, I decided to leave the store and look for another one. Then I found a grocery store that was hiring for a cashier. What I don't like about the manager, she is not approachable. Its not that I judged her, but the way she answered my questions about the details, I don't like the tone of her voice. After she told me so, I immediately leave in there. When I arrived home, I received another scolding from my mama. She even included MGD in our argument. She told me that MGD might be the reason why I didn't grab those job opportunities and told me to just live with him. I cried again.
A year after, I've got hired as an assistant COA or Commission on Audit officer in our Municipality office. But I ended up resigning for some personal issues and I've done telling you the details. Another scolding? YES! But at that time, I don't know what happened but I've got the guts to talk back against my mama. Then, I went to Sogod and presumed that I can look for a better job opportunity. I even submitted an application as a part-time Instructor but I didn't receive a responds from them, so as the other private school that I applied for. Few months later, I decided to become a load reseller. I used some of my savings as my capital. I was then so happy to received even just a Peso everyday of being a load reseller, though I have this thought in mind,
"If only I did my best in those jobs, maybe I am not doing this right now."
"If only I did my best and grab those job opportunities, maybe I am not a jobless person right now."
"If only I did my best while I'm still at work, maybe I am receiving a monthly salary right now."
"If only I did my best..."
Then a miracle happened. I've met Readcash and Noisecash because of ate/Mamsh Flor. She is the reason why I am here. I owed her a lot, so as these platforms.
"Thank so much ate/Mamsh Flor! Thank you so much Readcash and Noisecash, to all the staffs and of course to all of you my beloved Readcash Family!"( ˘ ³˘)♥
As I've waited for another opportunity, I am happily working, learning, and earning in these platforms. (Not that active in Noisecash though). Much of my time, I spent it in here, though I am not always active at night. That is why I am so blessed to be part of this awesome site.
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Every now and then, I kept on blaming myself because I know I am to blame. I cried almost every night. I overthink things. The worst thing was that my mama always made me feel that I am useless. That even though I am not that useless anymore because I have a means of income- Readcash, Noisecash, and other earning sites, still she is not satisfied. But I do understand her, especially after getting an advice and explanation from the confession I did. Right now, I just keep holding on. That one day, I will have one. The kind of stable job that is really suited for me, where I can work comfortably and happily. As for the lastest job I applied for, I am still waiting for their responds. While waiting for it, I will just keep doing what I am doing. I am not saying that I am not contented in here, its just I want to take it as it is the only way that I can really sustain my needs, and help out my parents in my own little ways.
How about you? Do you have any regrets by just letting the opportunity be gone without trying your best to have it or work for it? Feel free to leave your comments in the comment section my fam.
(My apologies for a late update because I spent my morning with my grandfather (mother's side). You know, its been a while since the last time I saw home. "Minsan lang kasi bumisita at mabisita. Tas hinatid ko din siya pauwi sa kabilang barrio.)
Thank you for reading. Take good care of yourselves!❣️
TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!😇
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I want to extend my deepest gratitude towards the people that keep supporting my works in here. To my avid readers, likers, subscribers, and upvoters. As well as my sponsors; (old, new, and renewed ones). Having you as my Readcash family and virtual friends, gives me the feeling that my job as an online writer or blogger is being done quite well. Thank you for making my Readcash journey fruitful. May the Lord God bless us more fruitful days, months, and years to come!
No Hate, Just Love!❤️
@renren16
xoxo(*˘︶˘*).｡*♡
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This maybe a bit late of comment.. hehehehe. But it is not good also if we are not happy with our job. If we are happy on what we are doing then good results will be the outcome. Maybe you can be a virtual assistant. At least it is work from home.