Account retrieved!(So many things had happened offline)
Hello fellow read.cash users, how's everyone?
I'm glad to see familiar names still thriving for their goals and staying loyal to read.cash. Congratulations to you all, you have been great. I would like to apologize for being inactive once more because I won't deny the fact that sometimes I felt overwhelmed with my daily tasks offline. I felt the need to breathe and just take a stepback to start afresh.
Aside from it, this year has been so hard for us financially. My mother usually suffer from sudden aches and hypertension even if she's taking her maintenance pills daily. That alarmed us because it took several check ups before they could give what medicine really is accurate for my mother. Mom has a lot of allergies even in medicine so she's required for follow-up check-ups monthly.
Also, our family has been attacked by relatives who have talents diverting stories to seek sympathies from others. Seriously, somehow I realized that life is really unfair sometimes. The people who were attacked will be shaded as the bad guys to others because they believe what they believe, which was sadly based only from what they heard. At first I was furious to defend my family and warn them about spreading fake news but as I reflect deeply, I honestly didn't see the point of proving the truth. They have made up their minds and I just prayed for them. Some things were meant to happen to strengthen us and see where we're rooted. That most people especially the ones who barks so much and have no contribution for your well-being are not even worth our energy.
I know its not just us who are constantly bombarded by toxic people, right? How do you deal with them anyway? Do you even bother? Haha Sometimes we just need to accept the fact that we cannot change someone by our own means. Their perspective, the way they perceive things, their backstories, why they were so happy to pull someone down. Sometimes ignoring suffice but what if, just what if, because they really exist, you cannot ignore toxic people or simply leave them because you were sharing the same space? Or they are just around, perhaps a relative?
Anyway, I talked a lot now how we struggled. The good thing is that my read.cash account has been recovered today, yehey! I was away for months and when I checked my read.cash account, I was automatically logged out. I tried to log in but it says my credentials were not found. Did it happen to your account too? Unfortunately I forgot my password and gmail account that I used but my seed phrase were secured. Haha
So, whatever it takes I wish to continue blogging here even if the real battle offline proceeds on.
Anyway, how was your Valentines day?
I know a lot of our friends flexed their presents on social media. I am happy they are happy. I also know the pressure and slight envy from singles out there who secretly observes and says "sana all" or "hope everyone experience it". Girls and guys please don't be envious about it, love has different forms and ways to reach you. It may not be the romantic type but I know you are being loved. Also there's nothing wrong about not receiving flowers or chocolates in Valentines day. It was never the basis of you lacking something, you are beautiful/handsome as you are, you don't need anyone's validation.
Anyway, I just noticed that the norms or hype these days during Valentines was chocolates and bouquets. Take note bouquets of flowers, not just a piece or something picked from the garden. I think it's just a proof that somehow life is improving. There's nothing wrong about it for as long as you gave it out of love and your recipient is happy about your gifts.
And not receiving something, no problem, not flexing of presents in socials still no problem. Life doesn't depend on it.
Everyday we can always show our love through our words, through giving, through serving, touching and quality time.
Remember to thrive for inner happiness and contentment even with small things.
Secret to a lasting relationship
I may sound like a pro but I am not close to being one. I am jotting this down to help others still believe in love. That long lasting relationships are still possible, there are just few things, but not limited to what I will be uttering, that can help you achieve a real lasting relationship.
Here they are:
Support a gamer bf, generally their likes.
When your partner is a gamer, you shouldn't throw tantrums more frequently just to demand for his time, especially when he's playing. I mean, most girls are guilty of this but remember to give your partner some time to relax and time he can call his "me time". Have a decent conversation of when and how are you gonna make time for each other and time for yourselves. I know that once you are inlove, it may feel like you are never getting enough of that person and therefore demands more. Just remember that in order to have a healthy relationship, you should have time to breathe, trust one another, consider their happiness too not just yours. Everyone has this one or more things that they love doing, and just because you are in that relationship, you have all the rights to change a person's identity. Support them, you can even study what they love and maybe you can turn your "me time" to "we time" 😂 Maybe you haven't unleash your monster gaming skills yet. Who knows, maybe you're great at it?
Don't be overly controlling and paranoid.
Some girls and guys are guilty controlling their girlfriend/boyfriend over some stuffs. It maybe telling what you're partner shouldn't wear or should be eating or must be texting or hanging out with. I know this one is an all time argumentative topic which I found interesting so I included it. As years passed, I am now happy to see how women are becoming wiser and now gaining their voices. As far as clothing is concerned, I think it is cute that your partner is somehow concerned about you and is looking after you. Maybe they are just protecting you over unwanted maliciousness and possible future dangers from wicked minds. However, I found it irrational when I heard over a news that another girl has became a rape victim just because she wore sleeveless and shorts in public. They reciprocate the fact that some men are disrespectful and evil towards women. They therefore blamed those victims because of their clothes during that time of incident. We should change or delete this mindset that supports a rapist rather than the expression of oneself- which is clothing. Evil desires fired up because you feed your mind with it. Don't blame others for your committed mistakes. Everyone deserves a safer place to enjoy and have freedom to wear what they want.
Being paranoid as not letting your partner hang out with his friends because you are doubting his female friends would come. As I have said trust and communication are both essential in a relationship. Boy should tell the details, for me this is important for emergency purposes. In some cases, even if the boy said whom he will be hanging out with but others joined in(clingy girls) unexpectedly is a matter of how much you trust your partner. Some jealousy are cute but constant jealousy and paranoia ruins it all.
Texting, calling or constantly checking your partners phone however may back fire, unless everyones agreed with it. Trust should be included in basic formula of a loving relationship. Nevertheless, if trust was broken I can never blame the partner for controlling or invading your privacy.
Know your partner deeply.
This one is given, knowing that if you love someone(even if you are just starting to like them), you will be more curious about them. You make ways to understand them and make them happy. Some people stalk their crushies on social medias if they don't have chances to talk to that person for long. Or have been secretly admiring someone and wanting to see them smile through gists they wanted. Seeing your special someone smile is super rewarding and contagious. You may not display it but making them happy will make you happy.
Never keep a bad record.
I used to write our fights, no matter how big or small, I wrote them all. How it happened, why it happened, who's fault was it, what solution should be done. Until I realized it has becoming a list already and it reminded me about a bible verse that love should never keep a record of wrongs.
I realized that what I was filling my heart was anger not love. I was totally busy focusing on who's fault was it and reasons to hate him more not to be the patient one and forgiving.
I realized I was unfair, I was flooded even with his simple mistakes and finding what reasons to break up with, not the reasons to hold on. If you are doing this as well, keeping records of wrong doings. Please stop, no matter if you are not writing it down or just storing those in your mind. It will cause your relationship a harmful effect because you are not just accumulating it but you are inviting negative energy in your life and in your relationship.
Compromise.
If you are in a fresh start of a relationship, you may or may not know yet your differences and may be surprised that you have conflicting wants or principles or traits. That is normal because we are made differently unique. This could build a strong foundation to yout relationship or break you apart.
For example you have different daily routines, one is a night owl and one is an early bird. As early in the morning, one is craving for sweet "good morning" message from her partner but the other is still sleeping. Once waken up, his work took over and failed to message even once. This caused fire and constant arguments, even if it just happened once. Simple failure could tear them. How can they can do better? Lower the pride, have a peaceful talk, listen, be patient, know your partner's love language. Maybe you are just demanding him to message you everyday which can make him choke up with the relationship. There are two of you involved in the relationship, you must think of your partner too not just yourself.
Not everyone is as patient and forgiving. We are humans, we tend to easily be angered and hurt our love ones too because they hurt us first. Maybe we are expecting to be loved the way we dreamed of, not realizing that everyone has flaws. At one point or another the people closest in our hearts will disappoint us. Be patient, compromise, forgive.
Staying in a relationship is a choice, happiness is a choice, loving is a choice, if it's a choice then we therefore have control over it. Small sacrifices wont hurt us seeing how big the fulfillment we'll be achieving in lasting relationship that we ever wanted.
Bamboo shoot spring rolls
Good evening read.cash community.
Tonight I decided to write about our unusual viand. It's unusual because we only prepare this whenever available, whether bought from the market or harvested from our backyard.
When I was a kid, I would always follow wherever my father is going. We were not born rich so I was so amazed how my father would strategize our viand from his vegetable garden or sometimes his fishing skills in a natural river near our old house.
One day, as I was tailing papa(my father). His friend came to us again and ask if he could still have some bamboo shoots. It's from papa's grown bamboo trees that almost looked like our fence.
Out of curiousity, papa asked what will he be doing to those bamboo shoots and then the guy replied that they'll be making it as their viand. He also taught papa how to prepare it. Good thing papa asked because as a kid, I was so curious too, considering how durable and hard bamboos are, how can they be edible?
After that papa tried it the next morning, he also passed the knowledge to my big brother. And so after papa died, I can still taste that unique taste of vegetable through my brother.
Tonight however, kuya was not here and I remember it clearly how papa was cooking this. I always spy papa while cooking because he's just an amazing chef for me. So I had to do it on my own now, let's recreate papa's one bamboo shoot recipe which is bamboo shoot spring rolls.
Of course we'll be needing:
Bamboo shoots(Labong)
Chopped Onion and garlic
Salt
pepper
Vegetable oil or any cooking oil available
Protein(Shreded Chicken/pork strips/corned beef or ground beef)
Lumpia wrapper
Preparation of bamboo shoots.
If you bought it from the market, it may look like the image below which is already peeled and clean. https://www.google.com/search?q=bamboo+shoot&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwiJv8u4gsD5AhVK8ZQKHaWIAqAQ2-cCegQIABAC&oq&gs_lcp=ChJtb2JpbGUtZ3dzLXdpei1pbWcQARgEMgcIIxDqAhAnMgcIIxDqAhAnMgcIIxDqAhAnMgcIIxDqAhAnMgcIIxDqAhAnUABYAGCfGWgCcAB4AIABAIgBAJIBAJgBAKABAbABBcABAQ&sclient=mobile-gws-wiz-img&ei=LZv1Ysn0Hcri0wSlkYqACg&bih=538&biw=360&prmd=svin&hl=en#imgrc=79O7eYHYynIeAM
You will just have to slice it and make it into small strips.
However, if you have the freshly harvested shoots like this: https://www.google.com/search?tbs=sbi:AMhZZivo38Ba2BeAAjT9ZVQmfa8RX7OkpMS9tw5dIdSVsg9zgEwi92seEdawjvvHcRA6uMnEeTX-lztArskmlvRi4xngrossKIe-wFBaCQy350OVQBIlQ7ESu-askKicP17z3H_1K0Rwdq4HObzvCIiU4_1OqOer3OTZm76WDkLVHurXIqAOIZa7KzdlwbBNwjrbDFdjcIx209yAirgwif_1Glq6zs874XHlJtIopVc6zGCyRE91uRR9BpJXKXNzgZQFmlYumfoAwAwSPv3fpdDeW6btUM67dmIeoX8eEE-7DW8PPGe5Mx-_1WtfAAHTkCRqWCKKEGBob9NnAaAnAlKQXTWzWXrH3bhdFWlNMYS_1EwHUmgi8BytnnUxrPNhVz1EthfOlYgQHJMe33eq6Ldg2gS2Kj2Cvkjcn0A
You have to peel the outer rind especially the hard surfaces. Slice them into small strips and wash them.
Once the bamboo shoots are clean.
Put them into a wok, add some water( just enough for every piece to be submerged with water). Also sprinkle pinch of salt.
Boil them for minimun of 15 minutes for them to soften. Once boiled, wash them again with tap water to cool down and stop the cooking.
I prefer to squeeze them once they are in room temperature already. Boiling and squeezing both eliminates the juice from the bamboo shoots which I think has the bitter taste and unique scent. Making it as dry as possible.
After squeezing, it's time that I prepare other ingredients for sauteing.
Sautéing
Sauté onion and garlic into a pan over high heat. Add some ground black pepper to wake the taste of black pepper. Allow browning before adding your available proteins, in my case I added 2 two canned corned beef because we haven't restock goods yet. Mix them well for about 3 minutes to cook well. Then it's time to add the bamboo shoots. Cook them for atleast 5mins or until almost all water evaporates. Enough time for flavors to incorporate well with the bamboo shoots.
You can taste it to add a bit of salt and ground black pepper according to your preferred taste or saltiness. Some also put some flavor enhancing in sautéing as 'msg' but I prefer just salt and pepper.
Once cooked, allow them to cool down.
While waiting, I separate the lumpia wrapper individually.
Wrapping
Lumpia wrapper or spring roll wrappers are usually round but they are also available in other shapes.
Wrapping with round wrapper, once the sautéd vegetables have cooled down.
Put 1tbsp into the center then push it down firmly while rolling, fold the edges inward then roll again.
To make the wrapper sealed, I put some water at the edge before closing completely. It may look like these:
Not as pretty as commercially bought spring rolls but this is still a must-try and a budget friendly recipe.
Frying
Just fry them, nothing fancy. Just deep fry them until they turned brown or until crispy.
You can pair them with spicy vinegarette or ketchup. Enjoy eating the fruit of your labor. Haha Itadakimasu!
First three images are not mine, credits to owners because I forgot to take a shot while preparing it.
Bamboo shoots are edible and I believe this is a Chinese influenced cuisine. We Filipinos just love to adapt, explore and be resourceful as much as possible.
Happy cooking beautiful pipz!
Missing my mighty Tubby (Must-know before deciding to own a dog)
`They said crying over a dog is insanity. Treating them as a family is craziness. Spending money for the needs of dogs is totally absurd.`
`That its okay that the dog has the disease than humans. They said dogs are just dogs.`
I heared these phrases several times and it breaks my heart to see how much humans can be monsters unknowingly. Some may never show the same sympathy and love for other creatures as dogs. For them they are simply just dogs who needs to meet their expectations in guarding their house.
This night however, I would like to turture myself more from reminiscing my first dog named "Tubby". I will just narrate because I don't have pictures of his behavior and physical developments.
I miss tubbys long jump.
She's like a kanggaro, she stands up longer than Lazy and Silly. She aims for the food and sometimes just like to climb up the chair. However, most of the time she move backwards to get the right balance and momentum to jump on a higher ground. However, she will just fall because she's to short for her goal landing area hahah. Maybe because she's too small for her jump, her body also is as cute as a tub, chubby and have shorter legs. Nothing else but a cutie little puppy named tubby.
I miss her being a breakdancer or a gymnast.
With her short legs, we can't help but be amazed of how she shows off her flexibility when she eats. Imagine a little puppy eating with most of her body weight was on her two front legs(which I call it her "hands") and she splits her rare legs(which I call "feet") to get more food. Sometimes she manages to lift both her feet when she's too busy eating and we got so amused.
I miss tubby's kisses.
She surprises us with her kiss when she had chances. I had been showered with her kisses before when I tickle her tummy she will face me then give me lots of kisses.
I miss tubbys voice.
She barked like she's the biggest among the three of them. She barked with power and all her might like she's big enough to scare other people which makes me giggles more because she's the cutest.
Tubbys cry also, I miss tubbys different cries. Like she's making her small sound for me to pity her or for me to carry her inside the living room. Cry like she's so annoyed and tired scratching her body because of fleas or other skin problems( I never know how to help them before). I pity her when she woke up in the middle of the night just to scratch her body(i knew I had to help her more but its too late now)😭 I miss tubbys silent cry when she's cold, I once showered her. She's so brave, she didn't even cry the whole time unlike the two. But after taking a bath she shivered and I got scared, more than 30 mins of drying her and hugging her just to feel her heartrate normalize and stop her chilling.
(*I'm so sorry Tubtub. If only mommy knew it wasn't necessary at that time or it would cause you trouble, I shouldn't have done it*.)
I miss her doing efforts to touch me and be with me.
She can sleep very deeply with just putting her head on my foot feeling my skin. Sometimes when I'm in a hammock, she enters her head into one of the holes then manages to climb up to my stomach or lap or knees just to sleep. She loves sleeping with her head hanging down. She loves sliding her body down. Her favorite sleep position was superman pose, but she can sleep lying her back on the floor, she can sleep curled up, she can sleep sidewards with her feet straight and relaxed.
Mistake I've made in adapting a puppy
**Taking a bath to soon** -I never knew they have to reach certain age for me to start bathing them.
**Food***-not giving them enough nutrients that they need and giving them unnecessary. I gave them shrimp paste, sometimes I put fishbones and chicken bones in their meal. Sometimes I can't help but give them chilled fruit salad or other cold desserts.
**Not giving them proper cure to aid skin problems**- not knowing what the source of the problem was, made me tried different things to help them. I just knew they have redness and are lossing hairs.
**Being impatient sometimes**-sometimes I shouted at them just to be quiet and sleep. I want them to stick to the routine and sleep throughout the night.
**Not visiting a vet***
*due to poverty, I tried my best to help them with what we only have because budget is super tight that vet consultation was just a dream.
*Realization in this whole pet-parenting journey*
In the span of eight months, I already lost my three dogs. One adult and two puppies.
**Tubby** was accidentally stepped on her stomach by my aunt while I was cooking and tubby was sleeping soundly on the floor. She lasted three days and her last night with me was the sweetest she could ever been. I cried a lot because it was supposedly a happy new year but I can only feel the pain of losing and being rebuked for crying over a pet.
Puppy **Lazy** didn't eat or drink anything for one week. She died last April 18, 2022(a day before she turned 5 months old) because of parvo virus with early signs of distemper. Her last day with me will forever be remembered. Her last wagging of tail, her bark, her scent, her eyes, everything about her just have so much space in my heart.
**Blacky** was the adult one I got but she got bitten by other stray dogs through fight and she also lasted more than a week before rabies totally got into her brain. It's hard for me to hear her whining because of the pain, her legs that got bitten started twitching which made her drag her feet and develop more and more wounds. Sometimes I carry her for her to pee.
It made me realize that maybe God is showing me that I am not yet ready to be a mom. That love is never enough, we need money to live and give. These experiences broke my heart, shattered into pieces, worst sadness than just breaking up in a relationship. Having a pet dog was not included in my goal this year. It just happened that some people gave them, mom accepted them, unfortunately no one committed in caring them except me and my sister.
At first, I never knew what those creatures will give me but in the end I have learned a lot. I was never prepared but it was like someone pressed my love button for dogs. I never knew I would care this much yet I never regreted giving so much love.
Giving them supportive care most especially when they needed me the most after they got the disease is my duty. I may be stressed, dizzy for not having a decent sleep, my efforts and resources may fall short but the memories and laughters my babies have given me will forever be treasured.
When I have my own house one day, I will still definitely buy a dog for myself. Dogs have special place in my heart. For some reasons they are just the sweetest if you treat them well.
Cats however are also cute but I have my personal reasons why I don't like them in the house like my siblings are asmatic, some have allergies and I, have bad experiences with cats too when I was little. And also just recently I have been scratched by a cat, you can say that I am scared of cats but really I love dogs than cats. No offense to cat lovers and cat moms here, this is just my preference.
Things to know when deciding to have house pets as dogs
Have a great conviction because petting is like investing your own time, love and money. It's a life-long commitment.
Know the breed and health history of your pet and their behavior.
Visit the vet as soon as possible to have them vaccinated with anti-rabies, anti-parvovirus, anti-canine distemper etc. These are serious diseases that can cause worst as death to your pets. Money is a must in petting, if you don't want to end up like me who treated my babies home remedies instead because I can't simply afford the lab.tests, medications etc.
Love them, give them healthy diet and hydrate them.
Research about the do's and don't acts for your pets. Don't be so ignorant as me. Trust me, if you truly care about your pets, you'll gonna learn a lot of things. Like food allergies or contamination, common dog's skin problem treatments, viruses threats etc.
As much as possible, adopt puppies of ages three months and older. By that stage, they have gained the necessary nutrients from their mom's milk which is incomparable to any other food sources.
Have them dewormed as early as two weeks. Vitamins will be useless if worms are inside your pets stomach. Series of deworming must be done, consult a vet of when and how.
Don't socialize them with other dogs if they are not yet vaccinated and it needs enough time for vaccine to take effect.
This just reminded me how blessed I am with the privilege to have dogs in the house. Now whitey and pichi are both pregnant doggies, more cuteness are coming soon. That realization that we have no control over some things and that pain of losing is normal in loving. So we must value the time we have with our pets or love ones.
Wake up girl!
Long ago when inequality between a man and a woman begun in our society .
Women are expected to be just inside the house doing all the cleaning, preparation of food, children and husband's welfare and all. Basically they need to do everything inside the house or be domesticated. While men do the hard work just to provide for the family.
It was the norm that may be all throughout the whole world practices or even abuses even up to now.
In a basic family set-up, that could be fine because even the bible says wives should submit to their husbands.
The thing is, how long can you hold on and pretend everything is fine just to give your child/ren a "#complete family picture" even if you've already lost your identity?
Leaving the infidelity behind and disregarding the lack of commitment, many married couple forgot the word "partnership" and so they ended up into a failed one.
*As I am writing, let me just clarify that maybe you'll say that it's just easy for me to say all these because I am single. Yes I am single but I was a slave in the house also from my childhood until I decided to believe in myself that I can be more. I was once voiceless until I learned to speak up. You may seem hopeless today but as a woman who hates to see failure of sharing responsibilities inside the house or abuse of any kind to women and children. I'd like to make a stand.*
*I solely based all these from the news I have watched or friends experiences. It just made me want to voice out my disappointments and empower women that you are stronger than what you think and more than what other people are expected of you. Maybe you never realized it yet but you can dream so much more, do so much more, it's okay to sit down, breathe and just start with loving yourself.*
Why is it so easy for a man to abuse a woman if they never meet those things they are expected to do everyday? Like for example a friend have lost so much weigth because of her situation. Everyday, for example she almost did everything (20-30 excellent work) without complaining and one visible unfinished chore will cause her turture psychologically or physically with bruises and wounds. She left the guy before because of physically abusing her but they have reconciled. She went back home with her husband whom she loves so much as if nothing happened until history repeats over and over again.
Why does woman have to be silent in fear and be stagnant even if they are bombarded with stress, emotional and physical sufferings?
Even if some women are fortunate enough to never experience domestic violence inside their household, this scenario however may be a common one to most of the women all around the world.
Sometimes using power and control over a woman that you are supposed to be taking care of is unacceptable. Just because in some cases men have all the money because they never let their wives decide for themselves, they never let wives work and earn as well. They enjoy the fact that they have the control over the whole family. They can be addicted to something while their children sleep with empty stomachs. Could have been better, until the next day husband went worst than the usual routine.
If you know wives who are caged to be slaves in the house, who's suffering and never seem to show their true smiles. Talk to them, please help them learn to communicate their true emotions to their husbands. I hope that everything can be settled with proper communication and support. If not, girl I have to remind you that you are beautifully made. Unless it's your choice to serve unconditionally, and don't want to change anything then who am I to interrupt.
I am speaking now for men to see that women should be respected by all means. You may not noticed that they do so much in the house until you saw how terrible it is without a keeper if they got sick or left. Being a mother, a wife and a housekeeper is more than just the titles. They have super powers trying to do all at once because kids have to eat on time, they have side hustles, most of the time sacrificing their own health just to fulfill what they are expected to do even through the night. Show some respect, talk to them, be gentle to them, love them. If you treat them well with care and affection as a companion(or a partner with co-sharing for responsibilities and open communication), there is no reason for them to shy away and could possibly do anything for you.
#stoptheviolence
#respectwomen
#equality
#justlove
Mistakes I've been making on Read.cash
Anneong guys, how have you been? Is the weather good in your area? Ours is super cold with scattered rain which makes me feel drowsy as lulling afternoon wants to knock me down. Haha
I decided to make a cup of hot chocolate (because coffee gives me too much palpitation, and choco is just enough) to wake me while letting my hands be productive and also while listening to music.
May I just ask you a question, how long have you been in read.cash? Do you still make mistakes as you did during your early stay here?
The reason I asked is that I still do a lot of mistakes here and I was just wondering if I wasn't alone. Haha, although my account says I have been around for more than a year here. I honestly have started my decent writing journey just this April with my article "Madaling araw na pagtutula" after abandoning my account. I have been inactive for the month of June so basically I have two months of meaningful stay here. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/madaling-araw-na-pagtutula-d62d07ca
Here's how I discovered bitcoincash . I entered both platforms without researching about it and so after I logged in read.cash I was overwhelmed even with the features. Lol https://read.cash/@Shyryl/my-journey-to-knowing-bchnoob-edition-14dbb577
So here are my top mistakes that I have done and probably you are committing too. After reading these things especially if you're a newbie in this platform, please don't be like me.
Being an on and off slash "an inactive user"
I swear this is the topmost mistake I am constantly struggling about and still working on. Knowing that we don't have the access to a nice wifi, I only use mobile network via prepaid sim cards of selected telecommunication. I almost tried every sim just to do my side husstles, now I am currently using ***Gomo Ph sim*** which is also a prepaid sim powered by Globe. I like it because it offers no expiry 30GB data for as low sa P299.
Cons are the location-dependent signal (which is unfortunately very low in our province) and cost. I know this sounded like a lame excuse but this is why I always wonder and dreamed of having our own wifi connection one day so broken wings can fly higher. Charr Specially that internet is a necessity nowadays.
Not engaging enough and exploring new users
I got used to a habbit of reading articles of just those whom I have subscriptions. I stick to them and make beautiful connections with them. I am not saying that being loyal is a bad habbit but I am surely realizing things too late now that there is so much more to discover here on read.cash. Especially supporting other people's beautiful crafts and reading their unique stories and niche is a nice experience.
Publishing without checking for plagiarism
I have done these before several times in my first months here. Then I honestly abandoned my account for a year because I really don't know how things work here. This is the very first and only platform I joined that's challenging me to finish an article. I didn't even know how to make an article. At first, I had several attempts to write but I was stucked with just staring my phone screen, not knowing where to start.
Another scenario is when I started writing then I couldn't stop until I published it right away, which I ended up wondering why is my article not even approved by rusty?
*Sometimes being too personal in my articles doesn't always mean that I was not plagiarising anything from any other articles or pages posted online, so better check and make this a priority.*
Run it through these writing tools several times, because sometimes even if it says 0% plagiarism at first then I already posted it then I will run another test or checker, then there will be some percent of plagiarism already. I recommend running it several times to make sure that you have your sense of ownership in your craft. You made that and you should be proud of it. But confidence is better with precautions. In order to avoid jail and other misfortunes through legal consequences, it is solely up to us to check the uniqueness of what we write online and offline. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/productivity-apps-i-use-for-bloggingwriting-tools-3afc8dec
So that was it, I will stick to read.cash for as long as I can through the ups and downs of curves. I hope you're not doing the same mistakes as mine.😉
Happy exploring read.cash!
Productivity apps I use for blogging(writing tools)
First of all, I would like to say hi to my fellow readers here. Missed me? Haha, I have gone long enough for you not to miss me. Come on😂 I know you do miss me, say it say it hahaha. Just kidding.
***Precautions:*** *Serious part ahead. I will put some storytelling before proceeding to the writing tools, which some of you may or may not be comfortable enough to read because it includes my laceration experience. Please skip to the first image if you feel discomfort.*
Since June has entered, I have had a lot of things in mind and negative happenings in life. I promise myself to never ever be sick again but then again after my dengue series last month, I had recurring migraine that caused me to refrain from using any devices. Yes, I did successfully overcome two weeks of not bothering about holding my phone for more than 10mins a day. I used it just to check for emails and SMS. Wow! Game changer but that was just relaxation for my eyes but my whole body was, as usual, exhausted with the house chores. One day it happened that I cleaned the balcony thoroughly with soap because pets were there. While brushing soap and water, I slipped through my aunt's bike stand which happened to be a little bit lifted from the surface. It was truncated already and is super rusty. That incident almost totally cut the third finger of my right foot. I run to immediately clean the wound and I left the super bloody balcony. It was severely painful for me, especially since I have low pain tolerance. I was never nervous even if I saw the layers, tendons, white probably is the bone and I still saw the dirt through the cut. The only thing that made me shout to my sister is that I needed a clean cloth to wrap it down while putting some pressure to stop the severe bleeding. To make the story short, we went to the ER. I never knew about the risks of tetanus to humans until that day while waiting for my turn for the doctors' assessment, I browsed it online and as I read, I just said "wow", it was really a serious matter because it's poison to our blood.
To be honest, I was there to have a proper prescription of pain killers from the doctor but for everyone's peace of mind of course antibiotics and tetanus toxoid is a must too. I just had my anti-tetanus vaccination right there. I am glad about it that I have this protection on for ten years of efficacy but at the moment I can only feel both of my arms are too painful and both have bruises from the injection. Haha
So anyway, I am just new to writing but these apps helped me a lot.
**Here are my most used productivity apps for blogging("my writing tools").**
Notes
I have a short-term memory so I find it therapeutic to write down my thoughts and random topics to write about for my articles. My phone has a *built-in* "notes" app(I don't know if built-in was the right term but what I mean is that the "notes" app was already here when I bought my phone and that I can't uninstall it).
What I like about it is that I can sync it in my vivo cloud or google account for back-ups etc. And that I can create folders to categorize one from the other.
Offline writing tools like this are a must for me especially since it's not every day that I have a nice internet connection.
Brave
I like the brave app because it gives me an option to totally block unwanted advertisements if I am very serious about what I am trying to accomplish with my phone and then shield down if I like to help the site to gain some profit from advertisements. Hehe, I wasn't sure about how the reward system works but I am quite contented with the features. Especially that I can regroup my visited sites/tabs for example one group for blogging and the other group is online shopping etc.
Gallery
I always wanted to incorporate a personal touch into my writings. As much as possible I want pictures from my shots so I always use this app called "albums", some phones called this gallery. I will search for my shots first if there is related enough to my topic but if not, I will get them from our ever-reliable "Unsplash". You can use copyright-free images there but make sure to still acknowledge the owner of the image or the site source because you are just simply borrowing their piece. They would appreciate it to receive the credits. https://unsplash.com
The only thing that I am dealing with is that I need to crop my own photos to hasten the uploading time. So they tend to be pixelated sometimes as what I am using now.
English dictionary
I am a self-critic in spelling and word usage which is why my second to the last resort is the English dictionary. Sometimes it's hard for me to write because there are episodes when I will remember a word in English and I can't remember it in Tagalog, then I will search for it in the dictionary if it is fit to be included in a phrase or sentence I am writing. Some things like that made me look for help but constantly looking and being a dictionary dependent have also a consequence as doubting yourself and losing your confidence.
Grammarly
Grammarly yey! I knew about this even before I joined read.cash. They also have a pro version which gives you access to view the results of your plagiarism tests etc.
I only use this after finishing an article to make sure I have the right word spacing, grammar, and spelling, to see how I sounded (am I informative, sad, formal, etc).
Floating apps
The floating app is a must for me these days because I sometimes have limited time for myself and my online pieces of stuff so I made sure to watch the tv series I want while typing down my thoughts before preparing to sleep.
Before installing floating apps, I used the split-screen feature on my phone but it can make my phone constantly rotate even if the rotation lock is on. Aside from rotating, it can make my phone hang or lag so bad that I find it super hard to type/write my article. So thanks to this I can now listen to the news online while doing the things I like.
Speechnotes
Last but not least is the speechnotes. There were times when accidents happen, right? What if your fingers were injured, will you still write? Haha, char. As for me, I have tried this during lockdown season. I forgot why but probably for multi-tasking, I like the app. From then on I haven't uninstalled it yet.
You will basically just have to tap the mic on and start speaking. Your voice will be converted into text. You can also back up your drafts or article in your google account.
*All mobile applications mentioned above can be downloaded using the google play store.*
Bonus
Plagiarism sites I used to check my articles are just these two:
https://plagiarismdetector.net
https://www.duplichecker.com
That was it, No secrets. Are you using these apps too? You can try it if you find it new to you or you can share your recommendations too.
Happy writing beautiful pipz.😊
Before May ends. . .
May is always good to me ever since I was studying. May is my birth month, I always thank God that my birthday isn't a school day.
Here in the Philippines before the pandemic happened, the normal duration of a school year is from June to April.
So aside from I was safe from the endless teasing of spending treats for your classmates on your birthday, I like May a lot because we always enjoy the summer break before another School year starts. Our summer is always full of excitement from camping to swimming to hiking to planting and harvesting root crops and vegetables to going on a vacation with our relatives.
It's either we are having a family day with the whole church members or we are having our family outing on my birthday.
This year, however, our plans for a family outing on my birthday never happened. I was sick for a week because of dengue that being said includes my birthday.
I feel sorry for the whole fam because I saw their excitement before everything happened and I saw also how my siblings cooperated in the house while I was always feeling nauseous. I have on and off high fever and I am always vomiting.
To be honest, sometimes it's good to be sick just to see them be responsible and most caring.
This is the place that we planned to go swimming, it's quite far from the city(from our place). It's almost an hour ride with the jeepney but I know it'll be worth it. **Camp Burabod** in Barcelona Sorsogon is still new to the public because it's newly developed to help the farmers during this pandemic. All income will be given to them for the future developments of the camp. The first time I went there, I already saw the place's potential and the power of tourism, how one could affect the others, and how farmers are beneficial to everyone.
Anyway, I never planned to be sick and cancel our outing but I thank God for my body's recovery and the wisdom He has given me through this experience.
Life shouldn't be taken for granted, living in this world is a total privilege.
Another thing that I am thankful for is my family and Jb. Jb is my boyfriend who's always been a family to us. Despite difficult circumstances in life, he never gets tired of me but he sticks, even more, to show how much he cares.
The budget for the outing was spent already in medication and food. Although my last year's birthday was the total opposite of the crypto market today. Last year I was able to buy something for myself and for mama as gifts from my earnings in noise.cash. This year, however, I lost my supposedly mothers day gift to mama which was approximately $60. I will just hold the bch and wait for the value to soar higher again and see if there's a need to exchange.
I will still thank the Lord for blessing me with everything I only prayed for before especially being with my family. Now through the ups and downs of life, gratefulness will always be in my heart. So thank you for May. I will strive harder for June, to start over for my goal: Mama's denture.😉
[*All images are mine, captured for blogging*]
Friend, yes friend!
Good evening friends, tonight I will be joining another writing prompt made by @meitanteikudo long ago. Haha, I just have nice access to better internet tonight that's why and I suddenly miss my friends.
In this prompt, you will just have to tell something about your friend/s without revealing their names(if you want to, but if your friend permitted you to take his or her name publicly, then that's great too.)hehe
The picture below is just a guide so that we can get to know you as a person through them. Anyways, almost every article of mine is just too personal that you can see bits of me through it, as my kidney on the other and here is my heart haha char not that bits of pieces literally.
We met in our college Alma mater, a State college in our small province. We have the same course and it was I think the first day of our class already when we first met and had our first talk.
We immediately get along and stuck together from that day on.
She's tall with a fit body structure like a very sporty person. My first impression was I thought she was an athlete and that she was not approachable but I was wrong. Even if sometimes I think a person will be so quiet, I still tend to talk to them and get to know them even more that's why I know that we could still be friends regardless of the first impressions.
One of the most memorable moments we had was eating lunch together for almost five years. Our lunch was never boring, we had our circle of friends with us too. We talk so much and tease each other a lot. They were just so crazy that the atmosphere are just so light and I laughed a lot. Swear there are no dull moments when I am with them, especially with her.
You know you find someone like a sister from another mother.
We bonded so much with food, and studies because we're classmates. We have common interests and craziness. We like to tease our classmates(Kuya kuyas). We both physically and unconsciously strike our friends with our hands when we're so excited or happy. We share books and e-books. We hide our phones inside the books in the library because we're reading not school-related as romantic short stories or novels. Haha, I just can't imagine myself surviving those five years without her.
Most of the time we had the same menstrual period cycle and we watch over each other, protecting each other. We are our kind of security guard/best buddies who had sisterly talks, go to the washroom, guarded each other's back, nursing each other. We knew when one is not feeling okay, we understand each other even with the looks of our eyes.
We both like playing volleyball but she plays it well like if our course wasn't as demanding as it was, she could have been a team captain for the women's volleyball team but she chose to focus on acads.
If I could have my life over and could choose whom to trust and whom to choose to befriend, I will still surely choose to like to be with this amazing person I know. The coolest friend I know.
She's the same as me who covers the pain and responsibility we both have as young ladies with smiles and laughter we share. Life is never perfect but choosing to lift the mood helped us get through those deadly five years of college life as thriving students and scholars.
So sad that our time wasn't as techy as now that we don't even have pictures to share. Cellphones back then with cameras are rare and had super low-quality cameras. Haha maybe another reason was we were both camera shy. Anyway, happy moments were best captured by the eyes and stored in the mind. If I have found even one picture of us, I will ask her permission so that I can post it here as well. Haha
If I could give her gifts at this time, I will choose to give her peace of mind and good health so that she can experience more of the world. She will experience "life" that somehow responsibilities took away from her youth. So that she may live longer and experience so much love from others too, meet her true love and have her future family one day. I just can't help but smile imagining her in her happiest moments one day.
Do you have someone in mind to share your friendly memories too? Mine was just as broad as it may sound because I am quite sleepy already, but believe me, reminiscing happy moments with happy people is just so fun and healthy for us, we can go on and on.
Having countless friends is cool but having a few that value you as a person and stay true to you over time is priceless. Treasure them as if your love them like there's no tomorrow.
May you have the reason to smile also as you get through the day.
*[Thank you Unsplash for my lead~2girls]*
How my day went? Reminiscing edition (May 2, 2022)
May 11, 2022
0045H
Hi guys, how was your day? Mine was great and I have accomplished something that I like doing.
Tonight I will be joining this prompt. Not sure if they have a time limit with the submission but first, I wanted to include the questions so I won't be confused or for an easy guide. I want to try this writing prompt with a twist of writing what passed nine days ago. I will try my best to recall haha knowing my short-term memory, I badly need to write it down.
`What kind of a day did you have?`
It was amazing, tiring yet fun day for us. Haha, the 2nd of May is super special to me, especially since it's the same day when I answered my suitor Jb with my lovely 'yes', we became a couple and live happily ever after haha char. This year's May 2 was our 9th Anniversary. Yiiiiiiieeh!!!
I can't believe we are on the 9th already. It feels like we just entered this relationship yesterday. We are finally realizing our travels even if it's just within our hometown first. We enjoyed each other's company with of course limitations and we can only have a quick trip as day tours with the busy scheds and responsibilities we have.
You know when you have a break but you're still thinking about the people left in the house, have they eaten already? Was it right to leave them? Are they doing okay without you there? My thoughts have always been like a mother who felt guilty sometimes when doing things for my own happiness. Anyway, I didn't let my worries overcome me. I travel to breathe, unwind, and be present for my favorite person in life.
We only travel via motorcycle as of now. Thanks to his baby Aerox who never gets tired of rough roads and crazy long adventures.
We had several destinations first before we decided where to finally swim. We also had tried a new 24-hour resto. It's mostly for travelers because they have a lot of souvenirs there, other local products like pili yema, flavored vinegarettes, other handcrafted bags, etc. My happiness is overflowing seeing how much my province Sorsogon improved a lot. I am grateful that we are now prioritizing tourism because there is so much to be unveiled.
We have discovered a new potential tourist spot before going home. It's called *"****Camp Burabod****"* in Barcelona Sorsogon which is a combination of a farm, a camp, and a recreational venue with a pool area.
We roamed around and had many pictures and I truly salute all farmers. The place isn't famous yet but one thing that attracts me is its advocacy of helping local farmers there as a source of income, especially with the Pandemic. I must say farmers must be recognized from ornamental and flowering plants to edible plants to raising fish. Guests are allowed to go fishing and buy what they've caught and all earnings will be given to farmers.
Such a nice place to inhale fresh air and unwind. I enjoyed the trail because the camp was off the road, it was so refreshing for me to have some adventure.
`If you could change your behavior today, what change would it be?`
Do you mean my behavior that day? rather than today hehe I want to be more understanding and not throw tantrums like a kid who didn't get what she wanted.
I know, it's our special day and yet I acted badly at some sort. Yes, I did that, I did complain since we planned to swim after a long ride but I ended up swimming alone in that freezingly cold spring. Char, as if I can swim haha. Like out of excitement to swim, we rented a cottage. When we arrived, the place was crowded already. No one is to watch over our valuable things while swimming so the initial plan was to alternately take chances to swim but at the end of the day he changed his mind and I was the only one who had wet clothes in the bag.
At first, I showed my disappointment, but before leaving that tourist destination. I did apologize to him, I shouldn't have acted that way instead I should be more understanding and patient. Maybe he was tired or cold already.
`Did you accomplish what you need to do today?`
Yes, which is to celebrate our love together. Fortunately, It happened to be a holiday also so his time and attention were mine and we did enjoy our long ride.
`What made you smile today and why?`
Not what but 'who'. It's Him! (Sorry in love) Haha, He was just so clingy even if he's busy driving. He grabs my hands and wrapped them around him tightly. I don't usually do that because I don't do so much PDA. His acts of being close to me are crazy 😂But yeah that was just funny plus his out of nowhere finger heart while driving, while eating, basically just random silliness which I found so sweet.
`Specify the top five things you are grateful for?`
Everyone's in good health, everyone's alive, we have food, we experience love day by day, and for being a vessel of joy to other people. These are the things that are incomparably making me thankful every time.
What about you? How did your day go? And what are the things that you are constantly being grateful for?
I found this blog first with these amazing people. Thanks so much @Kleah97, ate @Pachuchay, and @Jane for the inspiration to write about my day. Sometimes I easily go back to my old self that's not so talkative and so I find these questions a better way to keep my mind on point with the babbling.
Time to sleep, byeii😁(late upload, signal is 🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢)
Coward
May 10, 2022
0140-0200H
Hello read.cash, who's awake? Haha Since I can't fall asleep at this time because I have stomach cramps since the afternoon yet I still want to be productive. I decided to just type on with this random topic in my mind as I try the freewriting prompt while having hot compress in my belly. I will be setting the topic as the title already since I am half awake and half dizzy sleepy zombie already. I can't have deep sleep as I want my sleep to be every time.
I wonder If will I be able to finish even a paragraph with 20mins? Haha, I used to write in a relaxed manner. If I have urgent tasks and chore, I will drop the phone and if I have spare time, I will write.
Anyway, good luck to me. Time starts.
"Coward"
*By: shyryl*
*How long have we been apart?*
*Every day, do you know how I longed for you?*
*I can't think sanely without you*
*All I do is missing you*
*Now we're acting like we've moved on.*
*It's unbearable to see you cry*
*I can't take seeing you this broken*
*but I need to push you away.*
*I have your heart but I need to give it back to him,*
*before it hurts you the most*
*I cannot protect you while being near you.*
*Too far that I can't reach you*
*Too coward to say what's true*
*He's with you now and someone's with me too.*
*But I can't stop staring*
*I can't stop the pain.*
*It's killing me now someone's holding you.*
*I should be him dancing with you*
*I should be the one touching you*
*Loving you, you are for me and I am just for you.*
*That's how it should be but how can it be?*
*I wanna get drunk, shout and lose control*
*But If I lose focus, it'll be dangerous.*
*You seem better without me*
*Things are getting harder*
*It looks like you're a dream now*
*Will I be able to reach you again?*
*I wanna give you the best but power favors the rich. . .*
Twenty minutes have passed so quickly omg. I don't know what to write, to be honest, it's just my second time and the pressure is crazy. My writing tonight is like the branches of a huge tree with my mind going everywhere. I don't know if it's fine with you that it turned out to be that sad story.
Have you experience letting go of the person you still love? Maybe to protect them from danger, maybe to make them happy you sacrifice your own happiness just to see them genuinely smile?
As for me, that's my most hate part of the story when both are still obviously deeply inlove but the Universe seemed to make million of ways to separate them.
I know the above piece is not even close to having rhyme words in the end. I was trying to make it like poetry style but thinking of the time made me stop the editing, just maximize the time of writing and see now as it is. I hope I will improve soon. Thank you read.cash for being with me, you're the outlet of thoughts and a channel of learnings.
Also, maybe I will be able to publish this later today because my phone is already hanging and so as the signal. Huhu When will telcom be gracious enough to help us with better experience of internet? Maybe since they are not cooperating, maybe they are signaling me to sleep.
(*Photo is mine, it's kuya's valentines gift to gf)*
Plans for later
May 8, 2022
0150H
`Are you not on good terms with your mom? Or granda? Or your sister who has a child/ren already?`
`Are you not expressing your love for them daily?`
`Are you just too shy to say you love them? or maybe you have deep cuts that made you build walls?`
Can you relate to these questions above? Maybe some of you have answered YES to any of those but regardless, I will never judge you for we have different stories behind our cheerful smiles.
Anyway, are you aware that today is a special day? It's Mother's day today✨✨✨ What are your plans?
Many users here have already written so much about their lives, their journeys to motherhood, and being hands-on moms.
***💕💕💕Happy mother's day to you all.💕💕💕***
Since we were a child, we have always chosen to make Mother's day a special day. We spoil mama, have her a break and pamper her, we always wrote letters or cards for us to show her how much we are grateful for her sacrifices for us.
We are always lacking in materials things and finances even up to now and it's quite a miracle how mama never gave up her life-long job without anyone to assist her despite having relatives who mock her. We have a big family and we are 10 siblings (excluding my baby sister who died of a heart problem when she was 1 year old). Mama is just an on and off food vendor, sometimes she didn't sell because of the weather or sometimes she's too sick.
We never leave mama alone nor make her feel alone because of papa's passing. From a young age, we knew how we need money to have something to eat and that we need to move to live.
Every day seemed a survival day for us, especially for mama that diseases are left untreated. Thank God as children of mama, together hand in hand we are slowly making progress to help mama's needs. We are prioritizing mama's medicine, and siblings' education before our consumables takes place on the list. Many people especially relatives are throwing insults and laughter at us because we seemed to be in the same place as more than a decade ago. No properties to brag about, no fancy clothes, appliances, car, motorcycle, etc. Whenever they see us their disgust shows off on their faces, some have acted neutral but will silently laugh or backstabs you. We were used to it, the comparisons and small talks to spy on us.
As a family, we are growing. We are far from the ideal but maybe the challenges inside and outside the house brought us more bound as a family. And so today is a beautiful day, we're unstoppable to honor our mom's existence, motherhood, and influence in our lives.
We are going to buy a simple bento Ube cake for mama.
Kuya(big brother) will have to cook sauteed noodles for our snack in the afternoon. Yes, our celebration will be happening in the afternoon later today. Other siblings will write letters, we are also assigned the flowers, venue, plates, etc.
That's how we are going to celebrate mother's day, just make moms feel loved and special. Even a day of shaking off negative vibes will be great and I know moms will love to see family in sync.
Making someone happy sometimes never costs so much, it's the joy you give from the efforts that you made. Knowing simply that they crossed your mind will make them smile, what more with some sweet gestures, saying "I love you's" or hugs or kisses? Or gifts?
I know forgiving and forgetting is hard and easier said but one day, just today, won't kill us to share some love.
Again, ***happy mothers day*** to all moms here and to every mom of every reader who finds my writings tonight, and also to feeling moms and moms at heart out there. Haha, You are uniquely beautiful and you are amazing! Congratulations😊
Hi ate @Pachuchay, @Eybyoung @Yzza0625, @mommykim, @Momentswithmatti
Happy mothers day po😊, naalala ko lang kayo. Hihi
"Fairy me"
Hi guys, pardon me if I wasn't around for more than a week. I looked for any alternative way for me to have a better signal. I was constantly changing my simcard and service provider to finally visit my account here.
Internet is still slow but I need to bear with it. I know it isn't just me who uses data connection just to be online. I missed writing, and as of tonight I will join this prompt from @Tamia, which she have read from @Probinsyana 's article which she got also from @Athaliah. I hope you don't mind guys if I answered these questions as well. Hehe Gracias!
Favorite scent
I like citrusy sweet scents. I remember way back in highschool days, the first cologne that I bought was bambini(ph local brand, I'm not sure if it's available internationally.) I just feel so much like a lady already if I use it.
Next I sticked with lewis and pearl summer edition(the yellow one). I used it until college because it has been my signature scent- a mild citrusy sweet scent that doesn't go away on shirts even after days or even after being sports active. Haha My classmates knew I was around if they smelled the fragrance. Too bad they stopped manufacturing it.
Element that best represents me?
Water. How ironic it may sound how I like so much to be always in the water while in fact I easily feel cold. I'm a cold blooded person with thin layers of skin charr haha I don't know, maybe I can't live in western countries where they have sometimes a negative degree of temperature. I will definitely install shower heater if I live there. Haha Also, I love so much to wash dishes, it's just theraputic and calms me down. Although water should be colorless, I can't help but think of water as a blue water like color blue oceans as blue is my favorite.
Which mythical creature would you choose to be?
I want to be a fairy, guarding mother nature or be a beautiful elf who never gets old, secretly watching humans behind the huge trees. I'm a dendrophile so I will choose these feministic creatures while being in the forest😉
How do you show your love to people?
For my love Jb-words of affirmation, I tend to be gentle and sweet mostly through words. But with my family, I noticed that act of service is the most used way of showing them that I value them so much even if how tired I get as long as I made them happy and eat on time.
My most used emoji?
This one- 😘 or this one 😂. I use it several times a day while chatting with jb or family or friends or even here in read.cash.
What can you hear right now?
Dogs barking, vehicles on the nearby road, electric fan and night crickets. Haha Those are music to my ears which are included already in my daily life. Sometimes I use those sounds to fall asleep. Crazy right, I can sleep in consistent noise than with an alarming small sound that occured once, it just makes my heart jump out of bed.
What can you see outside of you window?
Darkness. Total darkness. It's late night already and we don't have lights outside this window area. I can sleep outside since I'm not afraid of the dark but I know I will have chills later knowing that I easily get cold even with thick clothes on.
Have you ever met someone famous?
Yes, several times and it's too many to mention or rather say too lazy to mention haha. They are mostly celebrities or politicians that I like.
Do you like your name? Would you ever change it?
Although my name wasn't derived from my parents name and it was just a celebrity/singer's name which was famous in our country way back in 80's or 90's. They named me that to grant the request of one of my aunts but yes I like my name.
The only time I want to have a different name is when mom calls my name in a Bisaya tune everytime she's angry of one thing and everyone will be involved with her madness. She calls me Shiriiil instead of a soft pronounciation of Sheryl. Not to offend my bisaya friends here, hehe it's just that mama adds a different flavor with my name which sometimes I think of changing it to "*Raul"* instead. Haha just kidding.
Do you like ice in your drinks?
Sometimes, especially when I can't bear the summer heat or when I'm travelling, I like to drink chilled water. It's more refreshing for me than drinks of any sort which are sweetened already sometimes with preservatives.
What are you afraid of?
Leaving my family behind for good as in dying when I know they still can't.
I want too see my siblings have their diplomas first and my mom have her general check up, treat her underlying diseases which is by God's grace little by little is happening now.
*[As always, thanks so much Unsplash for the lead image.]*
This or That(things I prefer in travelling)
Hello read.cash beautiful people around the world. How was your day? It's Saturday today, have you travelled? Anyway, I will just share another glimpse of my personality and choices with this article.
I have read this prompt through ate @Yzza0625 which she have found also in @BCH_LOVER 's article. I really don't know where this version started but I believe he/she made this also for us to try too.
Here's another ***"This or That"*** questions but it's the ***Travel edition blog.*** Have you tried answering this already? If not, why not try out this prompt. This is fun and it'll help the reader know you better.
So, let's dive in to it.
**Adventure/Relaxation**
It's given that everyone deserves rest after a long-tiring week but I prefer adventures! I have so much drive for extreme adventures. Unfortuntely, swimming is excluded. I don't know how to swim properly, I almost died when I was 8 after ate playfully dropped me in a "Salbabida" or the floating life saver ring. I have drunk lots of sea water and almost drowned. My right hand was the only visible above the water level and I can't reach anyone or anything. Thankfully, one of my churchmate noticed me and saved me. After that I developed phobia in swimming in bodies of water above my chest. I can swim if ,and only if, I can still step on the sand below.
Aside from swimming I like hiking, biking, rappelling, running, camping etc. But sometimes the drive isn't enough if the body is weak. I am super fragile and can easily get sick even with just dusts and drops of rain. I believe I have a feministic look with a dominant masculine personality in a weak body hahaha.
**Massages/Camp**
Camping. I always wish to join a girls scout group when I was in Elementary but mom never let me. Maybe because of poverty but again my personal choices are distinct even when I was a kid. I love discovering things and being resourceful especially in times when alertness needed me the most to surpass challenges.
Camps just makes me more discipline and conscious about the needs while enjoying the process of solving things.
**Paragliding/Swimming**
Paragliding. I haven't tried this but I know the management have safety precautions of letting the ones to try out with secured harness(I hope so). I wanted to fly just as a free spirited person feeling the cold breeze, see things from the horizon and just seize the moment.
**Posh restaurant/Street Foods**
Street foods all the way. Haha I always feel awkward even by just entering an expensive restaurant. My movements are just soo small because I wasn't comfortable. It's not that I worry about the bills but I really don't like shala shala environment in most cases. I like street foods, I can eat them everyday like siomai, barbecue, fishball, kikiam, kamotecue etc. They are affordable and another thing is, I control myself specially in spending, no to impulsive buying even if it's super delicious. I will have to face the consequences if I spend my earnings in a posh resto over the monthly electrical bills, and other needs.
**Sea View/Forest View**
Forest view. Haha Weird as it may sound because not everyone prefer forest than sea view. I can easily be captivated with the huge trees. I like being into the woods. I like planting trees and I am confused too being a fairy or an elf, taking care of the forest and volunteering for Environmental advocacy.
**Hotel/Apartment**
For this one I would love to choose a quality hotel. When that happens, maybe I have enough money for us(whole family) to experience staycation somewhere here in our country first. That's one of my plan for the whole fam, I will make that happen for everyone's smile on their faces.
That was it, thank you for joining me with my freewriting tonight. I am writing this while listening to news and upcoming election update. Also, thank you for the one who first started this prompt.
I hope everyone is in good health and far from accidents or whatever negative events in life. Stay grateful and beautiful:)
[*Thanks to Unsplash for my lead image.]*
It's Mama's birthday today
April 21, 2022
*Did it ever enter your mind to write about your life, it's hardships due to poverty, clashing between the family, journey to being a better person?*
*I did but I was hesitant. Here in our country there is this famous tv show called MMK where the letter sender has written his or her life and actors will play accordingly on a national television. I actually planned to do it, but the show maybe is just too short for my life story. Haha*
*Our family is far from being perfect(Who has perfect family anyway?😅). It may seemed chaotic because of unending dramas sometimes but I know it all happened for a reason.*
*Family members have different personalities and point of views. Some are strong willed or headstrong, some are physically abused due to household chores, some never realized their mistakes or just care less, some just battled their emotions to avoid conflicts.*
*Sometimes one finds it hard to verbalize what he really meant or if the other delivered it intentionally correct but the receiver misunderstood or reciprocate it according to their perception, the result will always be a collision.*
*However, I believe our family is binded with love. Everyone look for each other to correct each other and grow hand in hand.*
*Haha I just told you some sort of our family background and by saying those I am meaning our used to be whole family is now with an extended family.*
*Mama may have done some things that are foul to us, her offsprings. We get confused, hurt, angered but at the end of the day, she is our mother and chose to forgive.*
*Her sacrifices will always be in our mind especially that she was providing alone, parenting alone after papa died.*
Anyway, enough with the negative vibes from bittersweet memories of mine. Today was different than yesterday or any other day because it's my mom's birthday. We made sure to celebrate her birthday (and everyone's birthday) because it just happens once in three hundred and sixty five days.
Last night I slept at 3 in the morning because my sister and I were busy making our own money bouquet- a surprise gift for mama's birthday.
We have been planning to give mama this kind of gift but it's just today that it came to realization. You know it's hard to execute the plan without the budget.
Is it pretty? Haha actually, I have made several revisions to that because I'm not really a florist. And the folds are really visible because we were using plain colored paper. I never been exposed to flower arrangements and bouquet making but I really wanted to do it for mama.
Struggles we have encountered with the money bouquet making was with the materials and tools. I let my sister buy the necessary materials but when she returned home she have only three cartolina papers: dark violet, lavender, and black. Then she bought rubber bands and scatch tape.
We started making late at night because we thought mom will visit us in the evening and she might caught us doing it so we postponed until 10pm. The scatch tape is fine but there are some parts that papers didn't stick together so we used stapler instead. While doing the handle, the stapler misfunctioned. I was hopeless to finish it because I was too sleepy already last night and I find it hard to make. Not until I remembered my big brother has glue sticks, then I used it and it did great job.
We just bought today additional flowers. I searched for fresh flowers in town but I never found one. I opted to use artificial ones just so I can add some volume and colors to the bouquet. Also when I got home, I added some colorful pink leaves and violet flowers from the garden for additional play with the colors.
Mama already left their home and self-pitied. She thought we just doesn't care about her special day and joined one of our Lolo's birthday celebration instead. There are three celebrants in the family today: mama, one of my cousin and one of our grandfather in mother's side.
Fortunately, my cousin accompanied mom and we have contact where she was and what time will they be returning home. All in all, our little surprise celebration for mama's 56th birthday was a success. Her sisters joined us celebrating her day as well.
Regarding the bouquet, mama was really surprised and loved it. Thanks to my siblings too for the money, it's not money bouquet if it doesn't have money on it. Haha Mama's initial reaction was epic, haha she was really happy and counted the paper bills immediately.
`Again, Happy birthday to my beautiful mother. I'm always happy seeing you that happy. May God bless you with good health and happiness for you to experience many many more birthdays. I love you mama💕.`
Thank you for reading. I can't upload another picture because my phone just kept on lagging and the internet is just so slow. Goodie nytie😄
Lazy didn't recover
April 18, 2022
Tonight I will be writing with a heavy heart. It is officially one week after Lazy (one of my dogs) didn't want to eat anything.
I have mentioned her already in my previous article ***I'm preoccupied*** ***and*** ***Loving with condition******.*** https://read.cash/@Shyryl/im-preoccupied-24dad073 https://read.cash/@Shyryl/loving-with-condition-00e1b8ae
Tomorrow actually is her five months with us already but she didn't make it.
Besides the external factor that has made some parts of her face and back loss hairs and get wounded, she also had colds, stuffy nose and phlegm in her throat.
I thought those were the reasons why she loss her appetite. Knowing that we can't afford to go on a check up with the veterenarian, we insisted to make her drink some fluids. However she really refuses even if we forcely open her mouth and drink some water.
Although it is given that she lost her weight so much and she lacks physical activities within that week. Still I am proud she fought so hard, imagine how she was that strong to last a week without eating or drinking enough fluid in her body.
Yesterday night, I broke down already seeing how much she became so skinny and she find it hard to walk. She doesn't want to eat or drink no matter how many times I've tried. I was very emotional seeing her skipping meals for that long. I can't contain it anymore. I went to the comfort room and cried so hard. Praying for her healing and total recovery.
I miss our play time, our insisted arguments when they eat(they argue because they want to taste those foods in both bowls, they kept on exchanging positions while in fact the food are just the same haha), I miss our nap time, I miss her welcoming embrace and kisses, I miss how she barks, I miss her acting skills( silent cry for me to pity her), I miss her being playful and lively.
I didn't write yesterday because to be honest my attention is with Lazy. I searched for remedies that could help her get rid of the phlegm which everyone thought she was choking so they shoo her away but she's not. I was still hopeful that she will be fine soon but at the back of my head I can hear those other peoples laughers that wanted her to die.
As I was watching videos related to her case, I can't help but cry. Next thing I know, I already slept through the night with tears in the eyes.
**Lazy's sweet gestures with me today**
This morning lazy was in the care of my little sister whom I trust in feeding and helping me around with pets.
She managed to have lazy her fluid intake for the morning. Then when lazy and Silly saw me, they wag their tails excited for my presence. I greeted them good morning, caress their beautiful white coats and giggles with them before preparing our pets meal.
When we humans was eating our lunch, I suddenly felt someone made my foot her pillow. I saw Lazy was under the table and lovingly feeling my skin and I just let her because maybe that's how she was comfortable and can breath more knowing her stuffy nose.
I asked her to eat but she never did the whole day. After lunch, Lazy managed to walk, she roames inside the house as if she was looking for something. She tried to sniff things but I guess she just can't smell them. She was constantly changing position but her movements were slow as she was weak already.
I invited her sit beside me on a bench outside to watch some chicken. She was responsive to sounds and her eyes were still focused. I let her drink again for her body to be at least, not dehydrated.
While we were there she changed position and hugged me. Like she laid on my lap. Then suddenly she was attempting to vomit, I put her down and she did vomit almost clear white sticky water with some sort of bubbles. Yesterday I remembered her vomitted twice too but it was really foamy yellow colored fuild. After a while I let her rest again. She repeated her sweet gesture of laying down her body to mine.
At five in the afternoon I suddenly felt super sleepy and slept for almost an hour. When I rose from bed after waking up, Lazy and Silly greeted me again with wagging tails, silly was like standing already to reach me from the stairs of double deck. I noticed lazy was moving her tail but she can't even move her head while laying down on the floor.
I checked her and let her drink again. She was breathing fine but she just kept on drolling and can't move her head. I saw her eyes was slightly staring blank, her hands and feet were cold and pale.
I brought her near the door for her to see some other dogs playing and to inhale some air.
Dinner time I don't want to eat already witnessing lazy's situation but I still ate a little because big brother will be mad. After everyone's finish eating, I immediately went to Lazy.
I can smell our late "Tubby's" smell already with Lazy's. I can smell some blood plus her saliva have odor already. I saw ants biting her eyes already and removed them as fast as I could. I can hear her small voice but I guess her body was numb with the pain already.
I went to the room after, I was keeping the pain inside because some people will again call me crazy if I cry over a dog. My heart is in pain, I prayed to God and let go, let His will be done, and just help me be ready for whatever possibilities(for recovery or for Lazy's relief).
I then went to Lazy, saw that the bloody smell was from her uncontrolled pooping, I cleaned her butt and tail, held her hands, talked to her, said sorry to her, said I really love her so much but I don't want to be selfish anymore. I said if it was really painful and she's tired to fight already, it's fine. Mommy will always love her and will always remember her. She looked at me and I saw both her eyes are with tears. I stroke her hairs and after a while, she vomitted again, pooped blood. I saw everything she's been through, she fought with love. Right then and there she died, I was surprised I didn't shed even a single tear but I was left speechless. Big brother prepared where she will be buried, I still managed to carry her the last time. I cried at burial then I stopped because I kept repeating that *Lazy is happy now, she maybe playing with little tubby now, without pain.* I controlled my emotions, I thought I can until mama visited us tonight. I was reminded how her partner made fun of my pets, smirks wishing them dead, said that even if I sell my puppies out, no one will buy them even if its P100 or $2. I went to my bed and cried so hard. Again I was rebuked angrily that I should stop crying and I should never be crying for a dog.
Tonight's realization
Love will never be enough. Life is a balance of everything, we need money to eat, medicate, study, commute almost in everything. Imagine the world if only love can heal?
Parenting/pet-parenting is a privilege. You never asked for it but it happened. You can't make them stay by your side forever so make beautiful moments and love one another.
People are made different. Sometimes it's not our fault that some people don't have the same humanity and compassion as you have.
Loving is a beautiful feeling but it comes with welcoming pain for possibilities. It's just harder sometimes because we held on so thight that they will never leave us.
Part of moving on is feeling all the negative emotions, until you get numb then you will be left with no choice but to be strong and fight back. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/can-you-move-on-in-30-days-e14a9885
My choices (This or That : food version)
Writing seems overwhelming sometimes especially if you are a newbie. However, I am super glad with read.cash community who constantly bring something enticing to write about.
I read about this prompt called ***This or That*** from many users already but this time, it is the ***Food Version*** from ate @bmjc98 article that I would love to try, which she also got from @Lara888. Thank you so much to you all and to the one who initiated this prompt😘
Basically you will just have to choose from the six sets of food choices below and explain why you like that tha tha that🎶😅.
So let's get through it.
**Pizza or Pasta**
To be honest, I don't usually consume these foods, also burgers, because I'm very Asian and I like rice more *on a daily basis*. But that is not the point. Haha I will just think of it as if I am super hungry and someone offered me these choices. Come to think of it, if the chef is just so creative to add your choice of ingredients while preparing then a right balance of veggies, carbs, protiens and fats would be great match between the three. However, no matter what I talk haha I will still have to follow the mechanics and choose one between these more like western foods that are ruling around the world.
I guess I would choose pizza! I like pizzas with super thin crunchy layer of crust and overloaded with cheese, vegetables, herbs and meats.
**Ice cream or Cake**
Ice cream, cold sweet ice cream just lifts my mood and calm my nerves especially in the summer. My kind of guilty pleasure especially if it's my favorite flavors. With the cakes, I super like cakes too especially if it's moist chocolate cake but most of my purchases seldom meet my expectations. Either they are too dry, too sweet or too plain.
**Waffles or Pancake**
I guess it would be waffles, unless pancakes can be incorporated with savory meats too? Haha I don't know. Usually pancakes are with sweet toppings and sauces but I have tried round waffles with tuna or cheesedog fillings. I love savory meals than sweets.
Rice or Noodles
Noodles please. Even if I claimed to be a rice lady, I still would have to look for viand if I choose rice so I will pick noodles. Chinese cuisine are very much welcome here in the Philippines that some people never realized that it isn't ours in the first place but has just been introduced by the Chinese during Spanish and US colonization.
Whenever I have noodles too, I feel like I have travelled most Asian countries like Korea, Japan, Singapore, Thailand ,etc just by the taste of their foods. I like noodle soups and stir-fried noodles.
Vegetables or Fruits
Vegetables.
I seldom consume fruits to be honest, or sometimes we just buy for the kids when we have extra budget. On the otherhand, almost everyday we cook and eat vegetables. We plant them, regrow them from scratch, harvest them like from garden to table real quick. So the freshness and nutritional value is there. Most of our favorite vegetables are leafy greens.
Spicy or Sweets
If your one of my reader, you probably are sick already with my sentiments and babbling about spicy foods. Haha yes, I like spicy foods than sweets(also as I have mentioned above). I'm really not a sweet tooth. I like savory meals, when it comes to drinks I prefer water than sweetened juices or sodas. Anyway, spicy food mostly because of cultural influence. We are from the region here in the Philippines where spicy foods are always served, almost every meal and I can't help but crave. It's already programmed in my system.
While writing this I paused to secure the lock of our house and read one article which happened to be ate @Yzza0625's. She just joined this version of writing prompt. Never too late ate for fingers that like to type on. Haha
Feel free to join this prompt beautiful pipz. Now I'm hungry char! Haha It's too late already to eat, probably will grab some water instead.
Happy easter sunday:)
[*Lead image from Unsplash, xiexie*]
My adult acne experience(my Holy grail)
Have you experienced someone was staring at you so intently? For example while commuting in a jeepney then after, their gaze and facial reactions showed disgust?
Or have you ever been receiving insults like someone is constantly making fun of your face?
Have you been hiding from the crowd or you have been concealing the unwanted guests in your face?
Are you desperate to go back to your old self, someone who has clear and soft skin without blemishes? Or will that wish be forever be hunting you, as you just stare at your old selfies on your phone?
Join me as I reminisce my journey of overcoming my adult acne.
What is adult acne?
I won't be defining it on my own just to look intelligent and all haha char. I will just let the experts explain it to you guysu. Below is my favorite youtube channel about skin problems and I learned a lot from them.
https://youtu.be/oey9LfcwVDM
What causes adult acne? https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/adult-acne-understanding-underlying-causes-and-banishing-breakouts-2019092117816#:~:text=Adult%20acne%2C%20or%20post-adolescent,cells%2C%20bacteria%2C%20and%20inflammation.
How was my skin before having an adult acne
Growing up, I used to hear praises from people around me because of my hair and skin.
I am grateful to receive those while being confused actually. In fact I never took care of my skin the proper way. I just use a soap day and night in my face which is the same as my soap for the whole body. (*Err I know, I never knew about skincare before*.)
******I guess I'll be spoiling you with my pictures then, haha sorry in advance guys😃.******
So here, this is what it looks like from childhood to adolescence and some part of my adulthood. Haha
Peekaboo!
Maybe people around me just see my skin so unlikely as usual teenagers who are having a transitional hormonal changes in their bodies.
I never experience having a break out not even once in my adolescent period and some part of my adulthood.
How it started?
It started last 2016 when I was working in a batching plant of a construction company.
I just ignored it like mama will always say that we should never pick our acnes to avoid scarring.
For the hopes that it will eventually be gone, I continued with my usual soaping and pathing dry using my towel then that's it. That was what I usually did like "skincare" back then.
I believe it started with just the external factors like dust and cement exposure everyday from commuting and work space.
How bad my skin looked like after having adult acnes
After sharing that collage of pictures in my facebook account before with this caption below, many still laughed because they said I was desperate and trying to be a beauty blogger.
Actually this isn't the worst but I can't find those pictures anymore.
My acnes have gotten angry like it was super inflamed, painful, pus filled and irritated called cystic acnes.
Also my all time enemy is *hyperpigmentation* which made it looked like I have active pimples while in fact they already subsided-just left with marks and scars.
How long did I self- medicate it?
For about 3 years, I was searching for the right product for my face. I almost tried everything(almost because I didn't go to the dermatologist, I'm afraid they will just experiment on my skin and make it their source of living like stories from friends and vloggers). I bought drugstore skincares and topical acne gels. If you're here in the Philippines, you name it. I tried almost every local brands, watsons displayed, tv commercial products from other countries. They all didn't work and just wasted so much money.
I observed every single details on my face. I developed fine lines, acne bumps: whiteheads, blackheads, pustules; hyperpigmentation and scars even if I didn't squeeze it.
My skin is so sensitive that I can get hives even from baby powders. Some shampoos and toothpaste too are giving me acnes in the forehead and around my mouth.
I was so cautious with myself after having adult acnes.
Like why? What's up with the delay? I guess it's better in adolescence for skin to recover until adult stage. Char Haha
I knew that feeling when you just want to hide inside your room to avoid the judgemental world we have. The feeling when at your worst people secretly or vulgarly laughed about your situation.
Girl/Boy cheer up, there's hope!
What product/s actually helped me?
This one, after researching and finding what products would actually work with my skin type. I am super thankful with that youtube channel which I mentioned above. I almost give up but I knew I need to work with my insecurities. The product was made in Korea and I learned at that time that there was only one legit store here in the Philippines that sells that specific product that I need knowing that it was so gentle.
They have physical stores in SM north but that was far and with my busy schedule I opted to order them online instead. I was super glad they have a store in shopee and lazada. https://shopee.ph/product/85923810/1455633233?smtt=0.330842450-1650036359.9
It's **P1250** for every 120ml of the product.
I know it's pricey but its worth it. It lasted 3-4 month to me of every bottle. Upon using it for more than a year I can say it gives me more than the expected result that I want which is to exfoliate my skin in the most gentle way. It really helped me, after I bought that product I was so happy that I find it theraputic while enjoying the moment of soaking it to my skin. For the first time for so long I knew what is #Skincare hahaha.
I used that super mild mandelic acid every night after I wash my face with soap, then after the mandelic acid, I put some moisturizer on. It's so gentle that I didn't develop rash or redness. It did work in exfoliating unwanted/unhealthy layers of the skin revealing the younger smoother skin. When I have active pimples I soak a cotton then leave it on my skin for 15minutes, it helps in drying out and soothing irritated pimples too. I don't need to buy topical gels because it helps already.
When I don't have a topic, it's time for me to read articles of other users here. Then when I paused from reading to cook for everyones food for lunch, this topic just came in mind out of nowhere.
I hope this article is helpful.
I still do have acnes from time to time because of monthly period, stress or face masks but now I knew how to handle them also to handle mean people. Lol
Always remember to say to yourself everyday "I am beautiful/handsome".
Can you move on in 30 days?
Have you been into a failed relationship?
How long have you been single? Or maybe you already found someone who loves you dearly today? so the proper question is *how long did it take for you to move on from your ex? Does your ex seem to bother you even in your dreams?*
In many cases even I can say that the top most reason why couples break up nowadays is because of the so called "third party".
That's just my observation that is why many people can totally relate to teleseryes or television dramas because they have experienced the same. The cheating in general makes them pissed off even by just watching tv.
Other reasons why most people break-up is outgrowning each other. The other has big dreams but the partner seemed to be goalless.
Some people break-up because they fall out of love. I don't know how did this happen to other couples. That feeling when you kept on holding on and fighting for your love but he/she doesn't love you anymore.
It gives me headache justifying the reason of the one who fall out of love because for me, both of you have to make efforts to keep the relationship going. And once you love, you can never unlove them, love is endless unless you never loved the person very truly. Ok that's just my view point. Haha
Regardless of the reason behind break ups, *why is it so hard to forget about your ex? How did you really move on from your "ex" or "exes"? How can you say that you finally moved on from your past?*
Everyone has their way of coping up with the pain and the moving on process. Just recently in a noon time show in the Philippine television called "It's showtime". Vhong, one of the male host shared how he was when he was moving on.
https://youtu.be/Di8w1aXuQhQ
He said that he turtured himself after breaking up with someone whom he dearly love before, he went back to their favorite place as a couple, listened to song that used to be their favorite song, he even went to his ex's house. He did those to fade the love and make **anger** as the primary reason to moving on. He also added that if you are moving on, it helps if you have a friend who can frankly say what you don't want to hear.
Everything he said was reasonable because that's how he moved on, his own way. Not everyone used the anger to move on but somehow embrasing the pain will help you realize that crying won't change a thing, at least you are brave enough to see things even if it's turture.
Although you can never dictate how a person should move on, I believe that he/she can never move on unless he/she *decides* for himself/herself to make that first step to finally stop the pain. It starts from oneself to finally choose to keep going in life, choose to fight for your happiness once again.
I'm sure you have done crazy things too in moving on.
*Is deleting your ex's phone number one on the list*?
Throwing things that reminds you of that person or your moment with the person, burning things or selling it online or is returning stuffs from your ex your option too in moving on?
Some maybe followed the 3-month rule or the #respect your ex duration and give that 3months for him/her to accept things before you shock her with your new girlfriend/boyfriend's pda.
Or maybe blind dating is your way to move on?
Or probably finding a rebound?
Maybe enhancing yourself to make him regret the break up is what you did?
Perhaps you drown yourself in liquor or crying behind the door? Haha
I just want to share with you this new series in youtube that I come across. I find it cute and refreshing to watch a romantic comedy series, youtube original. So sorry if the series have no captions/subtitle in English because the language is originally in Filipino. Just a light lively set of characters and some sort of cliches yet relatable scenes are just cute. However, it is now on its episode 8.
https://youtu.be/lo2WgqSPAIg
How long have you really moved on?
Mine took 13 months, I had one ex whom I dreamed to last for a lifetime. He was sweet and all, but jealousy and guilt was the reason why I ended the relationship.
I was sweet sixteen back then when he bravely asked for my number. We became textmates and friends, he courted and we entered an official relationship label but we were secretly on because I was still studying. My mom and older siblings are very strict that I played pretend but after a while I couldn't contain my guilt anymore, I was lying to my mom and so we broke up. Not to mention we were both a jealous person. He gets jealous to most of my male friends whom I don't have malice at all, even to my cousin. That feeling when you see your special someone with another girl but they can make him laugh more than he does when he's with you. Ehem! That sucks.
But he was my classmate and I can see him everyday. I pretended to be happy too by seeing him everyday he was happy. Next thing I know, one of my cousin was her girlfriend already. It really took me some time(13months) to accept the fact that we can never be and finally decided to help myself bounce back to reality and be genuinely happy. Maybe I'll go with some other details in a separate article because this is actually long already. Lol
Moving on is hard as it may sound but almost everyone go through it, you are not alone. It really starts from accepting the situation and helping yourself. From knowing your worth and deciding to break the wall you built on your own from the process of grieving called *moving on*.
Past are made to make us stronger and be mindful, guarding our hearts more.
**Share your own stories about your ex and your moving on process. This is just for fun, I know some of you will just laugh about your crazy moving on experiences.**
**Do you have an ex?**
**How did you moved on?**
**How long did it take for you to move on from your past relationship?**
**Have you also done terrible things?**
**Enjoy writing and just tag me along.**
Good night.**😊**
*[Thank you so much Unsplash for the free lead image.]*
We have new pets!!!🥰 (April 10, 2022)
Aside from four dogs and a cat. We also have hens, roasters and chicks, we also have a pet dove and fishes.
We always like to have our own pet fishes but it just started last January 2022 that we had our very first fish pet.
It was our first betta fish named "Jojoe", a gift for my sister from Jb. I also mentioned her in my noise.cash account. https://noise.cash/post/85wv7j4sn653
We also have done some mistakes as a newbie owner of fish pets, as a result of what we have done she died unexpectedly after almost two weeks. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/mistakes-weve-done-as-first-time-fish-owners-41b43afe
Anyway, after that, mom bought my sister three fishes to lift her mood. Two orange female platy fish and one pregnant female guppy fish.
We always thought that even the platyfishes are pregnant since they have a rectangular shape stomach already. We waited for so long and nothing happened to the two platyfishes. They never give birth but the guppy fish did-twice actually.
One month after, we bought two male platyfishes to pair with the females. We immediately join the males to the community(big aquarium). But I always thought that the male aren't matured yet for breeding.
But hey! Today is a special day. As we woke up, I mean my younger sister woke me up. As she woke up and fed the fishes, she shouted at me out of excitement.
It was still dark because of the bad weather but I think it was five in the morning when she excitedly showed me the baby fishes. It's from one of the platyfish thats just staying at the buttom of the aquarium.
Meet one of our female platyfish, she have a black tail like a sword and bright orangy body. One thing I also observed is that her pair was staying by her side every corner she goes, that was so sweet.
It's quite cool that platyfishes and Guppy fishes are live bearers unlike Betta fishes that just lay eggs.
Betta, platy and guppy fishes are amazingly amusing me deeply. Pets are giving me so much calmness and curiousity. They just let me learn things like I'm on a science class everytime.
Male guppy and platy fishes are usually smaller than females, but male Betta fishes have longer colorful tails that's making them more beautiful than female ones.
So let me just present to you these beautiful day one old platyfishes.
They are very tiny but you can already see the structure of a platyfish especially their stomach. Hehe It's almost a day but mommy platyfish is still giving birth. Baby platy fishes is now ten and we are still waiting for how many more mommy platy can give. Such an amazing experience and worth gazing up for a moment. A daily dose of anti-stress is what we need right? It's just amazing how these pretty fishes can give that to humans for free.
Now we are trying to breed Bettas.
As you can see at the moment, betta fish are now in one container so that they'll get along with each other.
It's quite unique how betta fishes have a different reproduction process compared to other fishes.
Male betta fish will start to court the female and he will make several bubbles which is called a bubblenest. If the girl finally agreed, they will have to swim like a dancing couple and female will eventually drop some eggs. The male will do most of the job like collecting the eggs and putting it inside the bubbles he made. He will guard them until the eggs hatch and the father betta also have to teach them how to swim before we can isolate him to the fry. Fry is the baby fish or his offspring.
I pray that they will get along well and it will be our successful first time breeding of Betta fishes experience too.
Mistakes we've done as first time fish owners.
Back when we were still children who loves to explore, I remember how we(my older sister and I) escaped from the house during an afternoon nap to catch some fishes in the river near our house. Mama warned us already not to go to the river because the water level is too low and maybe we can't catch some fishes but we will be bitten by leech instead.
We were so happy that the fishes there was so big than what we expected and so we immediately jumped into the water with excitement. But to make the story short mama's proffecies happened, hahaha I can still remember how we were sorry and followed mama's order from then on.
If you like fishes too, maybe you will agree with me how relaxing they can get if you look at them, gaze at their beautiful details, and discover their different characteristics.
We started to pet a kind of betta fish last January 9, 2022. You can see how she was like in my post here: https://noise.cash/post/85wv7j4sn653
Her father is a red and blue colored rose-tailed betta fish and her mother was a colorful Koi-betta fish.
We are still in a newbie stage of petting fishes after three months now but I must say that we have done terrible mistakes before for our very first fish pet.
Here are some mistakes we have done as a newbie owner of pet fishes that maybe you are doing in your pets as well:
Constantly replacing water to the aquarium
As a newbie, we always thought that the clearer the water the happier the fishes can be. Like us humans, we feel comfortable living with the cleaner, fresher environment than places with roaches and rats aka dirty places.
With that in mind we did change the water more often as we see some poops or discoloration in the bottom which we regretted after.
Jb, as the giver of the betta fish explained to us how important micro aquatic organisms are to the growth of the fish. We can change the present water were the betta fish is but never pour it all.
Water can be replaced within two weeks for the betta fish. The kind of fish is so delicate yet self sufficient when it comes to oxygen needs. No need for airpumps because they breathe into the water surfaces.
Overfeeding or skipping the feeding hours
As I have mentioned above about the discoloration at the buttom of the aquarium. We just realized that those were excess fish foods, accumulated fish foods and sometimes melted so it was mixed with the water already. Also we have skipped some feeding schedule sometimes and the moment when we realized that, we then give the food immediately. The fish's diet was disrupted and so as their health. We are guilty of overfeeding too. Sometimes betta fish just love to munch and we can't help but give another pinch of fish food.
Aquascape Overdesigning
There is nothing more fulfilling to the eyes than to see different colors, different components or designs inside your personalized touch aquarium. Be it aquasoil, pebbles of different kinds, big stones or sometimes corals, leaves or aqua plants, dried wood or roots, some add ons like air pumps, aqua thermometer etc. But did you know that the lesser foreign objects inside your aquarium the better for your pet fishes? You just have to do your own research of what is best for your pet and what they actually need.
In our first betta fish, we did transfer her to a bigger aquarium with lots of designs that might have overwhelmed her or stress her out. Yes, fishes can be stressed too so better be careful to experimenting, for your pets sake.
Putting sharp stones or corals
That was what it looks like where we transfered Jojoe(Joejoe). Before we sleep, she was so lively but when we woke up the other day, she was at the corner-dead. We suspected she was stressed from transferring or she might be cornered. She was between the sharp-edges stones and the glass, with long poops still stocked in her stomach.
I don't know, that was just a suspicion but if you can omit those sharp edgy stones and corals, just put them away from your fishes unless they are huge enough to overcome barriers.
Putting unsure aquatic plants or stems
You may thought about putting a plant or stems that has captured your attention because it was so beautiful and you thought it's perfect for your aquarium. You put it inside the community of the living beautiful creatures called "fishes" and the next thing you know, they all died.
Have you experienced that one?
We didn't do that, I mean we almost did. Until I reminded my sister to be sure and we researched about what other aquatic plants we can put inside our aquarium and it wasn't included.
The plant I am pertaining to is *white angel Pandakaki (Tabernaemontana pandacaqui)*.
It has many braches and we thought it might be pretty inside the aquarium. We then learned from a friend that their fishes died because they did the same as what we just thought of.
*Please don't include those in your aquarium just because you find it beautiful unless you are sure enough that they are not poisonous to your pets.*
Using very bright light for fish tanks
Setting up an aquarium out of excitement and putting your fish immediately is sometimes worst than dropping your fish on the floor.
It's like killing them slowly with stress, betta's eyes don't actually need lights at night or overly bright lighting during daytime. They may behave overly agressive if you are stressing them out.
Everything "over" may have cause your fish harm than you thought it could be.
This is just a reminder how delicate fishes can be and making necessary research is important for your pets to last. Don't make same mistakes as ours. Enjoy caring and loving your pets!:)
Part 3. Will you forward, start or stop time?
This is the last series of my question and answer portion from capetalizemytitle.com. You can also visit them if you want. https://capitalizemytitle.com/random-topic-generator/
This site helped me to continue my habit of writing, published or not. Below are my first two Q&A articles on the random topic.
PART 1. "Who would you call for a one-hour convo"?
https://read.cash/@Shyryl/part-1-who-would-you-call-for-one-hour-convo-e4f49a2f
Part 2. Thing you are obsessed with?
https://read.cash/@Shyryl/part-2-thing-you-are-obsessed-with-8e9bc54f
So let's begin,
If you could live anywhere in
the world, where would it be?
I can't really choose between Japan, Singapore, Australia, Korea, and London. Haha anywhere there is fine with me.
What food do you know you
shouldn't eat but can't stop
yourself?
Spicy foods because there are times that I have hyperacidity. Whenever I feel the ache, that's the only time I will control myself. I already erased the soft drinks and coffee since college but my cravings for spicy foods are just a staple.
Would you eat at a restaurant
that was really dirty if the
food was amazing?
No. Hahah Although I'm a foodie, I have a weak stomach also and I am a very imaginative person. I can't really take in what I think is dirty or will stand in a really dirty environment.
What foods do you hate?
I hate not properly cooked rice and rice with stones. For some time I have experienced this, I was super hungry and the viand is my favorite but when I eat another spoonful of rice I heard a crashing sound. It bothered me because I also tasted it, some were still crashed in my teeth. I immediately spill it out and saw the crashed stone pieces. Another is the not so simmered rice when you bite it, it's still hard as uncooked rice. Those are the chances where I easily lost my appetite.
What flavor of ice cream do you
wish existed?
Pili ice cream. Haha I don't know if it already existed but I'd love to try it. Pili is a kind of nut most popular in the province of Sorsogon, Philippines.
Who in your life brings you
the most joy?
Jb my boyfriend. Really he was, he is, and wishing he will still be someday. Our relationship seems like a brand new one even until now. We are more on the friends side than the romantic side these days. We tease each other a lot, we talk so much, and we are realizing our travel goals now starting with our province first, we constantly miss each other. You know you have that joy when you are at peace and you are happy even if you're just sitting side by side. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/how-glad-i-am-to-have-him-51446d9d
If you had to change your name,
what would your new name be?
I really don't have any name in mind. Haha But actually sometimes I think of changing my name especially when mom is angry and murdered my name. She calls me Shiril!!! Not Sheryl. My name used to be as sweet as me but when she calls me hahah nevermind😅. Can you give me any suggestions for the beautiful name?
You find a remote that can rewind,
fast forward, stop, and start
time. What do you do with it?
I'd choose to press the stop button because I want to cherish the moment with my family, loved ones, my pets. I want to play with my puppies so much. I also don't want my younger siblings to grow so fast yet. I want to teach them to survive in this world of criticism, racism, sexism, etc.
What is the most annoying thing
about your phone?
Screen freeze. It hangs in 20 seconds at most. huhuh I still don't have an extra budget for buying a new one because bills are endless and the need for consumables.
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Frustrated "___" .
If you were to complete the title, what dream/s do you have in your heart that just happened to be your hashtag frustration/s?
From the title itself, you can conclude how a person didn't get the result he/ she ever wanted. Have you ever been that desperate to know or learn a skill but you never learned it? Wondering why the world seems in favor to most people but your dreams were just so hard to achieve?
The pandemic passed and most people already unlocked their long-lost talents but here you are still the same. Trying to discover things on your own, at your own pace. Sounds familiar? Didn't it happen to you? Not at once?
I have experienced those, I have had two most desired dreams before. One is being a nurse and the other is being a musician.
There is this one teacher in my second year of high school who motivated me to study well and make my dreams come true. Knowing that I excel in Science and math as my second best, she was so proud whenever I had awards even after our teacher-student tenure.
However, at some point in my life, I had to forget my first dream, my childhood dream.
My answer never changed and I held on to what I shouted at our Kindergarten graduation, that I wanted to become a nurse!!. They laughed and were entertained by what I did. Growing up, I always wanted to wear a full uniform of a nurse and go abroad. I was promised to study abroad too.
After High School graduation, I was at my peak of dreaming and super excited about my college journey. But sad to say that promise of studying abroad never happened and it became my first heartbreak. I looked for alternatives and have already taken entrance exams to different Schools and Universities in our City, in the Bicol region, and even in NCR, Philippines. But poverty and my strict parent never wanted me to live separately even if I passed with Scholarships which can be a big help already. They never let me, and I cried my heart out. It took me a month to see things. I was so disappointed that that's the reality of life. Not everything we wanted can be grabbed so easily as one two three. Somehow I blamed the person who invented or used money and why everything involves money.
Our family can be categorized as the poorest of the poor so maybe rentals, food, fare and things like that were my mother's concerns. I remember I had to choose between going on a graded field trip, prom, or having a copy of the yearbook. I cried secretly because when crying, for them is showing weakness. I don't want to be pinched on the inner thigh as a punishment for crying.
I wanted it all, I wanted to try field trips and see different places, never leave the place without discovering things. I also wanted to go to a prom because my older sisters have been talking about how their nights turned out. They even said those famous lines that " if you don't go on a prom, you will miss half of your life". I also wanted to have a copy of our yearbook as my High School remembrance. We did group pictures as one section and I was always wondering how my picture turned out in that published yearbook. Honestly, I don't remember all of my classmates' names anymore, maybe if I had one I won't ever forget. In the end, I chose to go to a prom and it was a good experience.
Will I ever recommend students go to a prom? My answer would be yes, because why not? Only if School organizes proms at this time when everything is slowly going back to normal. It's your time to enjoy and dance along with your friends with great attires and magical backgrounds and music. If you don't have something to wear, try to be creative. DIY some clothes or borrow from a friend or relatives, etc.
So going back to the title, yes I am a frustrated nurse. I was hurt so much that I closed that possibility in my life already. Although from time to time someone will mistakenly greet me " Good morning ma'am, are you a nurse? You look great with white" or my family would indirectly tease me "go to your sister, she's a nurse, she will monitor you through the night" or " your brother is dropping lots of blood from his wounds, go help him", " you are supposed to know that, didn't you want to be a nurse?" I just let it slide even if it hurts me still.
If you're wondering what I took up, I entered a State College here in our province and took Engineering. I had no other choice. Somehow I accepted the fact that they are overly protective of me and that they needed me in the house and our small barbecue business. We are a big family with a small income and no relatives ever helped us with our expenses. At that time when I entered college, five of our siblings are students. I, being the most mature, acted like the mom of the house ever since when I was in elementary. Because mom has her other needs and obligations for us to have something to eat. I graduated from college and most of the time I will just walk going to school and walk my way home because we don't have money allotted for fares, I starved myself during the whole day just to learn and took exams. Whenever there were surprised expenses such as computerized reports and research, I am super thankful to my classmates who lent money to me every time. I am super thankful to them!
Poverty is something that drives me to press through what other people called a "terrifying Engineering journey". I will also write " misconceptions" about my "course" and the so-called"Engineer".
Poverty is still with us but somehow we are thriving, surviving, and growing as a person, hand in hand with my siblings.
The other one that I am most frustrated about is being a ***musician***. I will just make this second shorter because I have talked so much in my first frustration.
I learned to read the chords over a song hits magazine years back and I wanted to try to play a straight song. I borrowed a guitar from my board mate last 2020 when lockdown hits metro Manila. I searched for tutorials how to play it, I can follow along with the fingers but strumming is the hardest! Haha I don't have long fingers and I easily get hurt by pressing the strings. I have super low pain tolerance, will that suffice? Or an excuse? Hahaha anyway, I didn't learned the chords with flats, I mean those with sharps and minors etc etc.
I just learned the basics, like it has been years but I can only play 5-6chords and use it with same strumming over and over with different parts of different songs. Not bad ! Hahahah How about you? Have you been frustrated over a dream? You can try writing about this too and just tag me. I want to know your story 😃.
In life, we can be planning our own path but it is up to Him who knows everything that will direct us to where we can be used of. Believe that hardships are a blessing in disguise for you to unleash the inner beast in you.
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Part 2. Thing you are obsessed with?
Hello guys, welcome back to my get-to-know-me part two of question and answer. Random questions are from this site. https://capitalizemytitle.com/random-topic-generator/
Let's begin,
What would you want your
last meal to be if you
were on death row?
I can say anything and everything but I can't finish them all because I have a small stomach. I would just request my favorite noodle soup. Jjamppong or seafood laksa or tom yum (make it extra spicy please, haha ), all flavors of buffalo wings, bittersweet moist chocolate cake, and iced tea. If that was my last meal, I will die happy. The one who will punish me will wonder why I die with a smile. Haha
If you could learn the answer
to one question about your future,
what would the question be?
One question only? Haha, I want more but if that's the case then I will grab it and ask this. " What date will I die?" For me to be ready and them. I mean, I'm not scared to die but knowing that my loved ones will be grieving and I am the reason for their pain makes me want to prepare them beforehand.
What do you bring with you
everywhere you go?
A liptint because for some reason my skin color is very pale and my lips as well. I don't like wearing lipsticks because it may seem so unnatural and its heavy on the lips. Naks! Beauty blog? Yeah self, your turning into a lady already. What an achievement Shyryl!😂
What do you get every time you
go grocery shopping?
Toiletries and house essentials like dishwashing liquids, laundry powder, soaps, toothpaste. Kitchen replenishments like soysauce, vinegar, oil, sugar, eggs etc. Since I do the budgeting, cooking and other stuffs as house organization like a mom should be doing, yeah that's what I do and usually get when shopping.
What do you do when you're bored?
I watch some old movies or latest kdrama or sometimes I just like to watch "It's Showtime" recaps in youtube. I will just laugh and laugh since hosts there are very impromptu and funny especially the VVAJ team(haha I just invented that group name which refers to Vice, Vhong, Anne, Jhong- all are it's showtime hosts in the Philippines)
What weird or useless talent do
you have?
I don't think I have weird talent. Maybe useless and unhealthy talent which is being able not to sleep for over 96hours. Zero hours of sleep for that span makes me feel dizzy the next day. That's how long my awareness lasts, I have sleep disorder and I just seldom sleep soundly( maybe 1 night a week only) because I am a light sleeper, very sensitive to noise and has restless legs at night.
What is something you are
obsessed with?
I am obsessed with knowing what cure can I be applying to Lazy's fur condition. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/im-preoccupied-24dad073
As of tonight, after lazy fell asleep. I applied an antibacterial/ antifungal ointment in the affected areas after I cleaned it with some soaked cotton in warm water.I wish it will heal her.
What do you do in your spare time?
Same as what I do when I'm bored. Haha But sometimes I prefer to use my time being productive as writing my content here and studying some related topics in my course.
Have you ever given
a presentation in front of
a large group of people?
How did it go?
Been so long now, its reporting some accomplishment of a project from my previous work. It went well although it was just a short notice. Facing fears as talking in front of a crowd and focusing in the goal makes the preparations and presentation worth it.
What was the last funny video
you saw?
It's showtime recap where it is one of the hosts birthday(Vice Ganda) and celebrity gay guests, which happened to be the celebrants friend) were there as contestants wearing sexy outfits. It just made me smile to see such friendship and funny dialogues.
What's your favorite way to
waste time?
Watching Kdramas and Hollywood vampire series.
Who is your favorite entertainer
(comedian, musician, actor, etc.)?
I have favorites in comedy. From Rene Requiestas and Babalu to Jobert and Empoy.
I like their humors and even their personalities.
Which emerging technology are
you most excited about it?
Laptops. As it emerges, I am hoping that prices will drop for some models so that many people can afford them. Nowadays, gadgets and the internet are a must-have.
What food looks disgusting
but tastes delicious?
Jajangmyeon. It's black color noodles make me imagine it like some worms from the soil. I don't like worms or any animals that crawls. Believe me that's how I saw it and it took me so long to convince myself that it's not what I was thinking. It's not exotic.
I like jajangmyeon, from time to time I crave its flavor. It's just I have impressions and overthinking mind.
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I have mentioned in my last article that I will devide it into two articles but I guess I have to make another extended one. Maybe I have saved so much topics or questions to be answered that is long enough to cut. Hehe Done with the writing, good night beautiful people. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/part-1-who-would-you-call-for-one-hour-convo-e4f49a2f
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PART 1. "Who would you call for one-hour convo"?
Tonight I will be writing about random stuff from a topic generator capitalizemytitle.com because my brain isn't cooperating and I don't have any reserved articles already. Pardon my writing skills, they are just officially 16days old today in read.cash. Excluding my inactivity for the past year and one month. https://capitalizemytitle.com/random-topic-generator/
This article is another question and answer portion, I'm practicing my answering skills for my upcoming miss Universe Philippines screening Haha char! Just kidding.
Anyways, before I lost track of what I am writing and am talkative with anything, let's start answering.
What is your favorite
movie soundtrack?
*I'll never go* by Erik Santos. It is from the Filipino movie "One More Chance". I love director Cathy Molina's movies here in the Philippines, no matter how sad the story may get, there is this realistic humanity and heart in her works that makes me watch them over and over. Haha yep, I love tearjerker romantic movies and romantic comedy movies. I also like the Bea-John Lloyd tandem too but whenever I remember that movie, I remember how irritated I get with Maja Salvador's character. I just learned the three-month rule in this movie haha. I know a lot of fellow Filipinos here know this movie and the soundtrack.
What is one thing you miss
about being a kid?
Playing in general. My playtime includes running most of the time, playing kite, cooking, building a house from coconut or banana leaves, climbing, fishing, biking, etc. Those times when you were careless and just enjoying the moment of being a kid.
What do you do to improve
your mood when you are
in a bad mood?
Inhale, exhale, drink water sometimes eat my favorite ice cream or cake, sometimes I write down my frustrations and it helped to calm myself down. Writing is like I'm releasing the bad energy as if I'm talking to a friend. Pen and paper are my companions, sometimes this phone too.
If you opened a restaurant,
what kind of food would you serve?
Bicol Region's best! Dishes like Bicol express, pinangat(taro leaves with stuffings in coconut milk), kinunot(malunggay/ moringa leaves with fish fillet in coconut milk), binut-ong( glutinous rice cooked in coconut milk too), Baluko recipes(a kind of seashell), Pili nuts recipes from Sorsogon.
What's the most refreshing
thing on a hot summer day?
Nothing more intense than swimming, although I can't really swim. Haha I like to submerge my body in water for a hot summer day. Sometimes cold treats are not helping especially with the weather here in the Philippines so I will always prefer being in the water for so long.
If you could call up anyone
in the world and have
a one-hour conversation,
who would you call?
The question is not specific so maybe I can call or talk to the dead? Haha
If I will be given the chance to have an hour of the call, I want to call my father. I have a lot of stories to share as an adult, an acting mom to my siblings, in my lovelife, career, etc. One hour isn't enough though but I will always be thankful to have the chance to hear his voice again.
Where and when was the
most amazing sunset
you have ever seen?
In Antipolo Rizal cloud9 and also in Highlands Legazpi City. Both are high areas located here in the Philippines, I mean those specific places that I have mentioned are both elevated land so you can savor the beautiful view of the city while creating the most perfect shot of the sunset. When have I seen it? I don't remember anymore when did we go there but I can still remember how beautiful it is to witness the beautiful art.
What was your first smartphone?
How did you feel when you got it?
Samsung J2 (if I'm not mistaken, what does smartphone means? Haha). It feels amazing to finally hold your phone after months of saving money to get that goal. I remember how I was the only one using a keypad phone in our office back then. I wasn't ashamed of using it, it's just that needed a smartphone so badly for my work. I needed a nice camera for documenting some papers and site accomplishments so I bought a phone.
What was the last song
did you listen to?
Hmm, let me check first. It says that my memory card was unmounted haha so I checked my youtube application and took me a while to see one. Haha, the last song I played using my phone was " Who Says" by Selena Gomez. You can watch it below.
https://youtu.be/BzE1mX4Px0I
But the super-duper latest song that I heard and sing-along was "I'll never go" by Erik Santos. Funny how I write about it in the question favorite soundtrack a while ago and it was played on the radio where I was listening to.
What song always puts you
in a good mood?
Sige sumayaw ka by Gloc 9.
https://youtu.be/oq4ZLqS8_rs
It just makes me groove haha. Also the Señorita song.
https://youtu.be/Pkh8UtuejGw
What is the most comfortable
piece of clothing you own?
Loss T-shirt and shorts, when going out I will just replace the shorts with some ripped jeans. Haha, that's how I am when going out, I never care about what other people will say or what comments I will get along the way. I just love to be me.
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I'm sleepy already guys so I must grab the opportunity to sleep now before I end up not sleeping the whole night again. It's already 1:45 am, I was supposedly done by 12midnight, I guess that's how slow I am in writing but I will still write. I wanted to improve of course even if late nights are my only time to write.. I decided to divide the answering into two articles. I hope you like the questions, if you do, you can select random topics to write on too.
I'm preoccupied.
It has been days that I wasn't active on both sites: noise.cash and read.cash. The last days have been very tiring for me, for my body specifically because of daily tasks, errands, and motherhood responsibilities. I had the will to write but whenever I lay down in my bed, I sleep instantly. Well not instantly but maybe within ten minutes, I will fall asleep.
I think it was a blessing in disguise since it's just very rare that I can sleep as fast as that and as deep as sleeping through the night with dreams. I know, it's crazy! I'm pretty amazed too, maybe that was how exhausted my body was and my brain signaled that I needed to rest.
I have a super will to write but whenever I typed in, I ended up sleeping soundly. Haha
Anyway, in my previous article **Loving with condition?** I have mentioned how my babies(adopted puppies) were slowly recovering from almost baldness all over their bodies. I suspected that it's mange and thanks to google for informative guides they are doing just fine after the treatment I did. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/loving-with-condition-00e1b8ae
However, I tried my best to be cautious with what they eat, since I just knew that Silly has a food allergy. Lazy, my other puppy has no food allergies so far. Her hairs are longer and healthier than Silly.
I am super grateful that I can witness their playtime, non-stop running and play bites, barking, and fighting with food. I mean, it just makes me happy to see their energy like that. Before even their sleeping time was disturbed by endless scratching and licking and biting of their own skin just to feel some relief from itchiness and pain(maybe).
But five days ago, I noticed some changes in Lazy's skin.
There is redness on her face. Specifically, on the outer skin around her right eye, her forehead left side of her face(near her nose).
To be honest I didn't worry that much knowing that they are born fighters. I ignored it because I thought it was just from their sisters' play biting and wrestling.
Days passed, I noticed that lazy's appetite changed and her eye condition worsen.
She still plays with her older sister Silly but she can be easily distracted by scratching her own eyes.
Her eyes also have this weird greenish slightly thick eye discharge and I have to clean the area more frequently.
I noticed also her forehead has small bumps, redness, and hair loss around the bumps.
Whenever she takes her afternoon nap, I take the chance to clean her eyes with a moist cloth or cotton then rub some virgin coconut oil in the affected areas.
I repeat the process at night or whenever possible because when she wakes up or notices that I'm doing something, she immediately wipes it with her hand then licks the substance I put.
Also when her eyes are still dirty and one time I haven't cleaned the area, she scratches her eyes and wipes the green or white eye discharge then lick or eat it. I was alarmed because I think if it's green I'm guessing it has an infection then she eats it? Maybe it can cause more trouble.
Below is Lazy's eye yesterday. You can notice the discoloration or redness in her forehead, nose, and eyes.
I was searching for some answers to my questions regarding lazy's skin redness, hair loss, small bumps sometimes with puss.
It has been days but I can't find the exact skin condition as lazy's.
Until tonight, Lazy came into my room slowly wagging her tail as she saw me but she's crying with just a small voice.
As I saw her, I was shocked by what I saw and prayed. You know the feeling when you wanted to help her but you don't know exactly what to do. If only I have the money, I can go and bring her to a vet, or I can treat her dog food or I can put some topical medicine for her rashes, or give them the vitamins they need.
Redness, inflammation, dry or scaly with bumps, hair loss around the eyes, eye discharge. These are my baby's symptoms. As I researched, Lazy's skin condition is similar to the so-called dog's **blepharitis**. I just can't confirm if this is hundred percent as lazy's experiencing it too in her different parts of the body, not just the eyes.
If it's from an allergen, I don't think its from her food. Maybe its an external factor, maybe she got it from their non-stop running even in the grass field or they got a parasite from other dogs they encounter. Some dogs are constantly playing with them even if I don't want to. Sometimes I just bathed them then other dogs came and everyone's color brown or black.
The picture above is also lazy's condition of her skin and hairs on her back with similar bumps, scaly skin, and redness but almost bald now.
I super love my puppies, I treat them as my own. Some people call me crazy for caring this much but this is me and this is how I know how to love other creatures.
I wanted to give them the best if I have to regardless of how bad their furs condition is or if they have breed or none.
I believe they are all lovelies and beautifully made. I wish them nothing but happiness and vigorous life.
*[All photos are mine, cropped for easy uploading.]*
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Ghost of you
I scroll into my phone to delete some files and cache. Suddenly I stopped by this note that I made. It made me laugh because I don't know why I categorized it as one of the topics to be written on.
"Hindi ko magets,
sabi niya mahal ka. . .
pero nanligaw ng iba"
-love radio
Haha, It was just a random dialogue or jokes that I've heard on a radio station back when I was working in the City.
But the translation in google made me laugh even more. Lol
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The word "seduced" is way too much but somehow true in some cases. Maybe for some guys, seduction works to get the girl they want.
I will try to translate this phrase according to my understanding. I'm not actually good at translating words but I will try. What it actually says is somewhat like this "I don't get it, he said he loves me but he's now courting another girl".
The guy suddenly stopped pursuing the girl and the girl was left with confusion.
She may or may not have developed feelings yet for the guy but she deserves an explanation.
Have you ever met someone who became dear to you yet left you without saying goodbye?
Like you were madly in love, already dreaming about your future with the girl/the guy you love then he vanished noiselessly?
You thought everything was going well between you two then everything falls apart and tears you apart?
The word "ghosting" is perfect for this. It is quite a popular word in love and relationships.
What actually is ghosting?
(http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/ghosting)
Text generated by the application English Dictionary https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=livio.pack.lang.en_US
Definition number six is very accurate to that joke phrase I am about in the first picture.
I then remember the video clip of SG singing:
"You left in peace, left me in pieces"
-Selena Gomez in the song *Same old love*
I cannot imagine the pain of losing a person, leaving you in vain.
A broken romance that turned you into pieces. All you have is doubts, what if's, and "why's?"
How many of us have experienced ghosting?
Us because as I am writing, I suddenly realized that I have experienced this before.
Although it wasn't the romantic type but someone ghosted me as a friend, not just once but several times.
I was clueless at that time, I can never distinguish what have I done that made them ignore me, I was desperate to know the truth.
But then again those experiences just made me a better person. It's not that I have wronged them, I then discovered that the other was jealous of me because her boyfriend was texting me asking for some advice. Omg! I can still remember how she hugged me the last time and then ignored me after for the rest of our lives. I have nothing to explain because it wasn't my problem. Haha
The next one I remember is a guy which became super close to me happened to notice those big veins in my feet. It was when we were facilitating a 3-days seminar in college that I wore sleepers at night then his look became an intent gaze. Then after that, he never talks to me. I swear that was funny yet I can be offended too if I want to. I had those big veins when I was a kid, also in my hands, they said it is hereditary but it's not pretty. I knew my flaws and I cannot expect people to just like me as I am. Thankfully, there are "true" friends who remained and stick closer even if we are miles apart.
The rest that ghosted me are guy friends, (some are the same of my age and some that I treated as big brothers). I am very fond of opposite-gender friends. I am one of the boys, I am very comfortable and happy having them around. I have countless guy friends but I also have girl-friends that I can never trade for the world. So as I was saying, guy friends ghosted me when they have girlfriends!!!
Haha, They can remember you if they are single and problematic but if they entered into romantic relationships they removed you from their lives. Haha, char! How can I complain? That's their right, everything for you guys to be happy. Even if your happiness now doesn't include me. Haha
Who else can relate? Go ahead tag your friends now hahaha char!
That's my kind of ***ghosting*** story. You can also try this topic, enjoy writing your story and just tag me.
In this gift called life, we will always encounter someone who will test our patience that brings out the best or worst of us. Just remember your worth as a person. They meant to scratch and harm you. They never realized their scratches and contributions to your life were made for you to shine even brighter as diamonds do.
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THIS OR THAT? (Get to know me) My type version
I saw this is quite a trend and thank you
@ExpertWritterExpertWritter for writing the "This or That" Question and Answer blog and for your friend that tagged you as you mentioned. I now have something to write. Hehe https://read.cash/@ExpertWritter/this-or-that-which-one-is-your-type-a265668d
I will just select some of the questions randomly from the image below and write my chosen answer accordingly.
Taller or shorter?
Since this is "my type" version, I want to make it clear that I prefer men over same-sex. haha(already a trivial answer to question number three). I will choose someone whose taller than me.
I find it romantic even when he intentionally bends over just to kiss me, my ideally tall man. I am short(well I am shorter than what I want, I'm just 5'2"). When I was 17, my height stopped growing😂 so I need a tall guy for my babies to have normal height haha char.
Early bird or night owl?
I'm a night owl, it would be nice if I have a companion (a night owl too) with my daily routine too. Same schedule and no need to compromise and everybody are happy. But! I know it's unhealthy so we must learn to sleep early.
Short or long hair?
I prefer clean-cut, it's just seldom that I will notice a guy with long hair unless his hairstyle fits his personality and face shape.
Flirt or be flirted?
I'd rather be flirted, I like guys who have the courage/ initiative to talk to the girl. I actually never tried flirting. I don't know how to flirt. I just saw that in movies, although I can copy them but I tend to burst out in laughter, sorry😂. I take relationships seriously, to be honest, keep it like it's for a lifetime, not playtime.
Western or Asian?
Before I prefer westerns, especially those tall, handsome with pinkish skin tones with British accents. Omg! I have a thing for British accents, I think it just makes a guy more attractive and masculine to me like I am being hypnotized by their speaking voice and accents.
But as I say, we cannot dictate in our hearts whom to love. Those qualities were useless, if we fall in love, sometimes we tend to break those standards we have set. So there anyway, *I now prefer to Asian, I thought I can never find someone who has the same values as mine until I fall in love with an Asian- a Filipino.*
Hug or kiss?
I want hugs more than kisses. It's just so powerful that it can remove all your negative emotions, worries, doubts, etc. Like, can I get a hug every hour, every day?
Sports or Music?
Both! Haha, I admire both musician and sporty kind of a man. Some people tend to excel in one of these but some can do both. I just can't pick between the two.
Hot or nerd?
Hot, please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha I have nothing against nerds but I like a hot guy more than an intelligent man. Whaaat?? Hahaha Like everything he wears fits him, everything he does flexes his toned muscles, everything he grabs he can carry.
Older or younger?
I like men older than me, more matured, financially stable, more experienced in life that he could teach me patiently.
Although I look tough and matured with my content, often times I like to express my childishness on things so I need the balance.
Polite or funny?
I like funny people, I love happy pil. I do have smile lines now because I'm also a happy person haha char!
I just love to surround myself with someone who jokes around and never get tired to amuse us. I mean, if everything is so serious and polished for the rest of your life then you'll end up missing the laughters you need.
Go out or stay in?
My answer would be "it depends" haha char! I like both but let me assess it again. Hmm, I guess going outside dominants in my type of date than staying in. I really prefer extreme adventures, long rides, mountain climbing, island hopping, scuba diving, etc but restrictions are still there so lunch out is totally fine as long as I'm with the person I love.
Text or call?
Calls, I can never deny the fact that hearing your special someone's voice just make your day extra amazing. Anger, worry, or exhaustion melts down by just hearing the voice of someone you love. Love is just so powerful.
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So there, thanks for reading. Feel free to try answering them if you want.
Stay blessed!
*Lead image from Unsplash.*
Would you rather...
In times when my brain cells are not working well, writing prompts comes in handy dandy, and are very helpful to us who want to make writing a habit of getting into our daily lives(published or not).
As I was exploring this wonderful platform read.cash, I am humbled by how big the community is and how dedicated they are to writing their crafts.
I have so much to learn and one of it is joining prompts that will keep the fingers going.
So here's my edition:
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**Would You Rather . . .**
***Get spanked or get slapped?***
I'd rather get spanked because my father was a disciplinarian. We got used to it 'before'. I remember how when one of my siblings made a mistake, every one of us(siblings) was forced to lay down facing the floor and get spanked as a punishment. If one of us committed a mistake, then everybody will be punished.
Maybe that's one of the reasons why my butt didn't grow bigger haha char! Just kidding.
***Eat too salty food or eat too spicy food?***
Spicy food of course! I am a Bicolana and I grew up having something spicy on the table almost every day.
Bicolana or Bicolano means local residents in Region V or the Bicol Region, Philippines. Bicolana refers to females and Bicolano refers to males.
Bicol Region local citizens are known to be brave and dominant in eating spicy foods. They love to incorporate chili peppers and coconut milk in preparing their meal.
Another reason is that I lessen the salt intake for me to prevent U.T.I., when I was in elementary and high school, almost every year I was confined in the hospital because of eating salty foods, junk foods, sodas, etc. I graduated college without me being admitted with U.T.I because I limit myself in taking salty foods. Prevention is a must, especially to us who don't have extra money for hospitalization and have endless bills.
***Be in love or someone in love with you?***
I know it's an amazing feeling to be loved even if you don't ask for it but I will still choose to be in love with someone. I guess it's better that way to love someone without expecting something in return than be selfish gaining the love and attention from someone who loves me but I don't actually love. I'd rather be in love with someone than waste that person's time and energy loving me. I am certain most of the time about my likes and dislikes. When I don't like a person for example a suitor, I'd rather say it respectfully as early as the first talk than fool him around and give false hope. The more effort and love invested, the more I will be hurting that person.
***Hate someone or someone hate you?***
I will choose someone who hates me because I now realize how we cannot please everybody. Before I was too cautious of my words and actions even keeping my anger to myself just to avoid hurting other people. I used to value their feelings over mine most of the time. I then realized, at some point in our lives, there will always be someone who will hate us even for no valid reason. We are just being ourselves and there is nothing wrong with being true to ourselves.
Their opinions sometimes are better to be ignored than losing yourself being the fake you just to satisfy their ego.
***Have a job you hate but make good money or a job you love but do not make good money?***
I remember I answered this already in someone's post, I chose a job that I hate but making a good amount of money. Money is so much an important thing in our daily lives especially in this time of Pandemic.
But I am having second thoughts now, I want to choose "the job that I do love but not gaining a good amount of money". I realized I've been in that first choice already and realizing my checklist plans for myself would be a great feeling.
I believe that if we pursue the things that we love including a job of choice, you will be enjoying it and sometimes you wouldn't know you're that successful. I mean, definitely, money will follow.
***Be the caregiver or be taken care of?***
Maybe for a change, I'd like to be taken care of even if it's just for a day. Haha I don't even know what " me" time means😅.
***Live alone or be surrounded by crowds of people?***
I'd love to be alone so I'd like to live alone. I mean, it's just amazing to finally be laying down on bed and sometimes I can be in a room for a day.
Sometimes crowd scares me especially because of covid. Whenever we have relatives coming, I tend to overthink.
I don't like social parties too. I don't know, maybe it's really just the pandemic. But living alone just means "peace and productivity" for me.
***Swim with sharks or alligators/crocodiles?***
Tricky question. Hmm, I don't like both! If I really have to choose then it would be swimming with sharks.
Correct me if I'm wrong, I think sharks won't attack me if I don't have open wounds and blood flowing right? I guess yes, I'd choose sharks.
***Be too hot or too cold?***
Too hot! Hahahah you don't like me being cold. Hahaha, I can live my whole life ignoring someone and I don't like someone being cold to me either. Especially if that's the person I love the most, it's like killing me with silence, lol.
I'd want to be sexy and hot too but that want will be a long process I know because I don't even workout. Haha
***Be too hungry or too thirsty***
Too hungry, because if I get too thirsty that would be a problem. I don't think I can survive a day without drinking water so I'd choose too hungry.
***Be dominant or be submissive?***
I can be both. Being dominant to my siblings especially if they are too stubborn. I can be submissive to the law at the same time and to the elderly's advice.
That's it for today.
I choose writing prompt #25, and this is just the second time that I participated in prompts.
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What a Dream (March 24, 2022)
Have you ever done something impulsive in your life? Like it's a life-defining choice?
When I woke up to pee, I felt weird: happy, irritated, and confused recalling my own dream last night.
So that's how it takes to have a deep sleep huh? I always thought I wasn't able to define the word "sleep" anymore because I don't know already what it's like to have a decent sleep.
When I was a child I always have this sleep disorder that I kept defeating. Whenever my muscle felt that uneasy sensation, joint pain sometimes, I can't sleep no matter what I do. It became a habit, a routine, an endless dealing of not having a good sleep.
I remember my father always giving me treats when he came home. It was not the usual treat for a kid but pain relievers, oils, and mint inhalers for me to ease the tingling muscles at night and help me fall asleep.
He always massages my legs or caresses my hair every night for me to fall asleep.
My sleep disorder worsen when my father died.
I planned to make an article but when I laid on a bed at 10 pm last night, it was like I was punched in the face by a boxer. I was knocked out by the heavy feeling of my head. Then, I wake up at 5 am. I had a solid 7 hours of sleep last night. Omg, I wish every night would be like that.
It was a blessing to sleep through the night. Haha, I haven't experienced that for yearssss.
So going back to the title, haha. I had a dream which means I had entered the rem state of sleep.
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I dreamed that Jb came to visit our house and said that we are about to go somewhere beautiful. https://read.cash/@Shyryl/how-glad-i-am-to-have-him-51446d9d
I trust him so much that I feel safe wherever he takes me. By the way, I am facing my trauma too in driving a motorcycle. I knew how to ride a bike but knowing that my father died because of a motorcycle made me forget my dream of riding one on my own.
I just tried for the first time and I can now balance the motorcycle even with someone at the backseat for additional weight. But! I'm still terrified to ride with obstacles(big vehicles, dogs, etc) sometimes I hold the throttle tighter instead of pulling the break, which isn't right. Hahaha
So there, in my dream, I was wearing a loose shirt, jeans, and sneakers. I like wearing a comfortable outfit, knowing that it's summer and I don't wear dresses(for now, because I don't have one, lol). I only wear a dress when it's an important occasion and I have no choice😂.
There we arrived somewhere, so peaceful and the environment was so clean.
Few walks and then there's a small building-a church. We often visit some old churches during our day tour here in our province so going inside didn't bother me.
I was about to sit down when my friends approached me-some of our classmates and prof in college. They congratulate me/us, I didn't know what was happening until I saw some of the brides and grooms lining up to the front of the church. I was so confused but somehow realized that there will be a wedding.
Brides were wearing white dresses and high heels. When someone pushed me that I need to be there too, Jb was in the groom's line. I freaked out. I give Jb a deadly stare because we're not even engaged!
We talked about it several times that for me it is **very** important to honor my parent and uncles(since papa died already). That is a special event of my life, I want them to be there if not, at least they knew and we have permission.
In my dream, Jb knew everything that are about to happen and he was just smiling and convincing me to go there with the brides. I was pissed off. I never thought that it could happen just that.
Are they joking? I mean, I dreamed of it. I guess it's every girl's dream to marry the man they love. Weddings should be special, intimate, and mutual events. I was wearing jeans and they were wearing dresses, omg. Aren't brides should be beautiful on their wedding day? I looked plain and lost for that event. Hahaha
I didn't cooperate, instead, I went outside and leave him. Haha
Then I felt like peeing, I heard roosters sound their good morning greetings, then I woke up.
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Was I that stubborn? That's a big day and I can't just let that be ruined, I mean ruined by a not-so-funny dream.
I love mama so much and I don't want to be married if I don't have her consent.
I know it'll going to happen but it will make that day extra special having the people that I love around me.
How about your wedding? Do you have someone you know that said "I do" without their parent's permission? (aside from Sarah G.)
I mean if they are adults maybe it's cool, but for me, this is my take on this matter😊.
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@Shyryl
