I'm Still Astonished With The Admission Result
Good evening everyone. Sorry for posting this article late because of the power interruption the city's power provider conducted a while ago. I feel so hopeless in the writing as it seems like I won't be able to study anymore. You know, despite the hardships you might take, they didn't give you a chance to prove yourself when you want to learn with the course you wish.
I had an outstanding performance when it came to studying from elementary up until high school. Not that excellent, but I can say that I can get passing scores as far as I can. In my elementary years, when I was private, I got a lot of recognition due to my middle type of intelligence. I remember when my mom was shocked when I told her I was the second leading in our class.
When I was in junior high school, I accumulated a lot of certificates and countable medals. My parents are witnesses to how I got high grades in Mathematics and other subjects. If I just have my phone and can attach a couple of photos to this article, maybe I already did it. As I said, I'm not that intelligent. I'm just diligent, so I can achieve the things I have today. This is the related article, by the way. And due to my determination to graduate with high recognition, I can achieve with honor.
Four years after graduating from elementary, I studied in Senior High School, where I took ABM or Accountancy, Business, and Management in other terms. I bet you had an idea why I took it, just use your common sense. Haha, just kidding. I'm just trying to kill the sadness and emptiness I'm feeling now. Even though I entered the BCH community when I was a first-year SHS, I still achieved to be promoted to Grade 12 with honors.
Since I want to eradicate the laziness and not appropriate behavior I did last school year, I opted to change it by being optimistic. This school year taught me how to multi-task and how do I achieve a lot of goals. One of them is getting the title of being with honor again, and the last one is earning BCH despite my busy life. You have read all my life trials, and I guess that this challenge made me tougher every day.
I enrolled at CLSU in the first week of the year, hoping I would be qualified. After six months of waiting, the university has already posted the lists of qualified first-year college students. When I read it, my body suddenly trembled. Who wouldn't be? The site crashed when I opened it, so I followed the trick I saw in the comment section.
If you thought I succeeded, well, I'm not. I can't help but question all my efforts this school year. Does it mean that doing those sacrifices and efforts is worthless? I think I failed to enter this university because of their high standards on the course I chose. The screenshot I attached below states that I was not fit on the first choice, which is BSCA.
However, what about my second choice? Is it not counted?
I have a lot of negative thoughts in my brain, whether I'm just dumb or unlucky in life. This is the only university I entered, and it looks like I will be stopping to study for a year or more. Or, if I want to pursue my study, I need to enter on private university, which I can't afford. I feel so hopeless, though. I don't know if I can still study or not.
I'm afraid to see myself hanging on the rope just because they didn't qualify me as their student. To be honest, I don't want to create suicidal thoughts since I failed. I hope they will consider my second choice, though. They just wasted my eagerness to get on my dream job.
Hello, kingofreview! I know this had been a bad time for you, especially since you are undergoing such a situation. Like you, I have been there when I failed my UPCAT badly. However, one thing made me realize from the time that I failed my UPCAT: I am not for the course/s I once aimed for. Maybe, there is another course and a better life waiting for you out there.
Do not discourage yourself. Take this time as a breather. You'll eventually know what your heart truly desires. Who knows what the future holds for us, right?
I hope you'll still pursue your college education. Also, I know you are a bright student, it isn't late to look for scholarships out there. There are a plethora of private universities in Manila that offers scholarship grants every semester. Maybe you'll have a shot in the grandest universities along the U-belt.
My failed UPCAT opened another door of opportunity for me. Even though I failed to enter UP, I still had the chance to study in Manila.
Whatever your plan would be, I wish you all the best. Kakayanin yan!