October 1 is Friday so it is time for my sister's article.
This is to you who've been fighting alone in silence, I heard your screams for help. You are not alone in this battle. This message will serve as your companion through the darkest time of your day, I'm with you. You have proven your strength for holding on this far, you will soon see the purpose of why you're putting up with the fight.
You are a brave soul that is needed in this world. You are a saviour on someone else's story. You are an important chapter on your family's lives. It was you who complete them. I do understand the feeling of keeping your problem to yourself because you don't want to burden anyone. Sometimes, you might feel as if they do not understand. I am with you. Mental health issue is not something that is accepted in our society till this day. Many still do believe that it was just in our heads, that if we think positively it will just go away like *poof* by the fairy godmothers. Maybe they were right, we just let ourselves drown into the loneliness and embrace the darkness, but what if this is all we have? Will they understand that we can't let go of the feeling because it's the only thing we knew was real?
For all the days we woke up, we fake a smile to get through what needed to be done, live. But as the day turned into nights, alone, we cry endlessly. We are not sad, we are empty. There were times we felt like nothing's changing even if we put our 100% efforts. It is frustrating to see that all was just useless. Everyday are just the same. It is a routine of pretention. The hide and seek of feelings because we don't have enough strength to voice out how we really feel. Everyone expect us to be strong for them, but none are willing to be strong for us.
I know your cries. I know your pain. I know how hard you pray for all of it to go away. I know how you hurt yourself and think of ending it. You are not selfish, you have every right to think about yourself. But before you do what you think is the right thing to do, think about how you existed in the world. If your parents planned you, live. For your everything they had prayed for and your existence means a lot to them. If you are unplanned and was accepted and considered as a gift from God, live. You were born to be someone in this world. Your life is your right. If you feel neglected by your family and by this world, live for yourself and be strong enough to save someone who is in the same position as you are. It is not your responsibility but imagine how a person was waiting for your help and soon you will realize that you are not just helping them, they are fixing your emptiness along the way. Being strong does not require you to be alone. If you feel as if your responsibility for your family is unending and you can't create your own life, be strong to be selfish. You are not their investment. It's not bad to help them, it's been a normal tradition here in our country to give back to our parents. Still, be wise enough to create your own life. May they support it or not, it is your responsibility for it is your life. Your existence means everything to this world, live.
A day will come when we no longer have to fake a smile because soon we will be genuinely happy with our lives. Till that day comes, it's ok to be a coward and escape reality. Create our own little world where everything happened as how we want it to be. It's ok to be strong for our imaginary scene that we hope was real. Let us live until the day comes where we can say "this was just a prayer and now it's here" to ourselves. I'll pray for you. Keep fighting brave soul. A little kindness will change the world, always be kind.
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