I was supposed to write on a different topic tonight but suddenly, I got struck by a lightning of insecurity. In this blog, let me talk about my insecurities; how I deal with them, why I feel insecure about them, and finding the root of them.
Insecurities come in different forms. It can be physically, intellectually, mentally and etc. We should know to choose the right words, be sensitive toward other people because our jokes might be offensive to them.
This is a timely topic in which my good friend and I talked about a night ago. Although I have been planning on writing about it a long time ago. This is the right time to discuss my dramas/ insecurities while at the same time earning Bitcoin Cash. Making profits in my dramas. Lol.
So, what are my insecurities? Let's start on the Physical Attributes. I am insecure about my looks. I don't have a nice set of teeth, I have white patches (Tinea versicolor) all over my body, and sometimes I hate my body.
I was an elementary student when I hit my face on the dam. At that time my permanent toots were starting to grow and develop. The impact was hard that my tooth was removed from my gums. I was so stupid back then, I even laughed about what happened and didn't think that it is going to have an impact on me. I lost one of my central incisors. It sucks. If you know Awra Briguela, we have the same set of teeth but hers was more beautiful looking. I feel insecure about it because having a perfect smile contributes to one's appearance. And my peers have beautiful sets of teeth. They don't have to worry about looking for the right angle just to make their teeth good-looking. The only my teeth will get fixed is through braces and I will do that when I already have the money.
I have white patches all over my body and it sucks. I noticed it when I had an outing with my friends. It can be noticed easily because I have brown skin. It spread all over my body. I tried to do a home remedy but it didn't work out. I just wasted money and even made my skin situation worse. I learned my lesson and I'm currently having my medications now. All thanks to noise.cash and read.cash. If it weren't for these two platforms I wouldn't have the money to be able to pay for it.
I sometimes hate my body. One of the very reasons why I disconnected from social media is that I got pressured. I want a toned body with abs. Well, I once achieved it before. It was in the summer of 2019 when I started to work out and after months of working out my body turned out great.
I suffered from Body Dysphoria. There was a drastic change in my body when I started going to college. I didn't notice that my body was changing that time until my friends are already telling me that I am already thin. I checked myself while I was taking a bath and I felt my spinal cord. Bulk eating was my option. I regained my body fats but then, I started to drink-making myself way bigger than expected. I still have existing belly fat that I want to get rid of. And I'm trying my best to burn extra fats and calories.
Final thoughts...
It's not always about accepting our insecurities. It's also about finding a way to deal with them. Don't let yourself drown from the toxic positivity that people around you tell you. You can always do something to improve yourself. We get lost in the process of loving ourselves. But when we finally found ourselves, we can finally tell that we have arrived home. Let yourself be the safe space for you.
Author's note
Today (August 26) marks my three months stay on this platform. Thank you so much to all of you. To my sponsors, moots (mutual), readers (even the silent ones), and to my Noiseristificationism family. To many more BCH for all of us!
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Too many to mention nga yung akin e haha. What I did nalang talaga is loving myself more and more. I am wonderfully made by Him, I must be proud of what I am ✨💗