This Is My Truth

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3 years ago
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I was supposed to write on a different topic tonight but suddenly, I got struck by a lightning of insecurity. In this blog, let me talk about my insecurities; how I deal with them, why I feel insecure about them, and finding the root of them.

Insecurities come in different forms. It can be physically, intellectually, mentally and etc. We should know to choose the right words, be sensitive toward other people because our jokes might be offensive to them.


This is a timely topic in which my good friend and I talked about a night ago. Although I have been planning on writing about it a long time ago. This is the right time to discuss my dramas/ insecurities while at the same time earning Bitcoin Cash. Making profits in my dramas. Lol.

So, what are my insecurities? Let's start on the Physical Attributes. I am insecure about my looks. I don't have a nice set of teeth, I have white patches (Tinea versicolor) all over my body, and sometimes I hate my body.

I was an elementary student when I hit my face on the dam. At that time my permanent toots were starting to grow and develop. The impact was hard that my tooth was removed from my gums. I was so stupid back then, I even laughed about what happened and didn't think that it is going to have an impact on me. I lost one of my central incisors. It sucks. If you know Awra Briguela, we have the same set of teeth but hers was more beautiful looking. I feel insecure about it because having a perfect smile contributes to one's appearance. And my peers have beautiful sets of teeth. They don't have to worry about looking for the right angle just to make their teeth good-looking. The only my teeth will get fixed is through braces and I will do that when I already have the money.

I have white patches all over my body and it sucks. I noticed it when I had an outing with my friends. It can be noticed easily because I have brown skin. It spread all over my body. I tried to do a home remedy but it didn't work out. I just wasted money and even made my skin situation worse. I learned my lesson and I'm currently having my medications now. All thanks to noise.cash and read.cash. If it weren't for these two platforms I wouldn't have the money to be able to pay for it.

I sometimes hate my body. One of the very reasons why I disconnected from social media is that I got pressured. I want a toned body with abs. Well, I once achieved it before. It was in the summer of 2019 when I started to work out and after months of working out my body turned out great.

I suffered from Body Dysphoria. There was a drastic change in my body when I started going to college. I didn't notice that my body was changing that time until my friends are already telling me that I am already thin. I checked myself while I was taking a bath and I felt my spinal cord. Bulk eating was my option. I regained my body fats but then, I started to drink-making myself way bigger than expected. I still have existing belly fat that I want to get rid of. And I'm trying my best to burn extra fats and calories.

Final thoughts...

It's not always about accepting our insecurities. It's also about finding a way to deal with them. Don't let yourself drown from the toxic positivity that people around you tell you. You can always do something to improve yourself. We get lost in the process of loving ourselves. But when we finally found ourselves, we can finally tell that we have arrived home. Let yourself be the safe space for you.


Author's note

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3 years ago
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Too many to mention nga yung akin e haha. What I did nalang talaga is loving myself more and more. I am wonderfully made by Him, I must be proud of what I am ✨💗

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3 years ago

Ay yan naman talaga dapat. ❤️❤️❤️ We all are beautiful in our own ways. ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you for your sponsorship!! God bless you more. ❤️❤️❤️

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3 years ago

I have a lot of insecurities din in my body. It sucks coz I can't do anything about it. But well, wala din namam akong ginagawa kaya for sure wala talagang mangyayari. Awan ko ba, ayaw ko talaga ng katawan ko. Pero sa mga fats oks na oks sakin yan pero sana kasi tsk. One reason din why di ako palalabas ng bahay.

By the way, happy 3 months sa inyo ni read.cash, more months to celebrate pa 💗

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3 years ago

It sucks but we have to accept it kapag alam nating wala na talaga tayong magagawa. We shouldn't let it kill us.

Salamat Ate!! ❤️❤️❤️

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3 years ago

Maramo din ako'ng insecurities, pero I chose to embraced them all. Pinaka.problema ko din is yung ngipin ko. Kaya nga malaking pasasalamat ko sa RC at NC, kasi nakapag-ipon ako para sa pagpapaayos ko nito.

Well, di naman talaga natin maiiwasan yung ma.insecure. Kahit anong pilit natin itago yung katotohanan na may inggit tayo sa iba, hindi talaga nangyayari yun. Bagkus, i.embrace nalang natin at gawan nang paraan para ma.improve natin ang mga sarili natin to look better.☺️

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3 years ago

Siguro nagsisimula talaga na feel natin ang insecurities starting highschool to college noh? And embracing our flaws should be the least priority kapag alam nating wala na tayong magagawa.

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3 years ago

Marami din akong mga insecurities pero hinahayaan ko lang. I mean natatamad kasi akong gawan ng paraan 🤣 HAHAHAH gaya ng bilbil sa tyan, natatamad ako magexercise ganon. Tapos yung mga kaibigan ko ang gaganda ng pictorial sa photos kasi sexy at ang gaganda ng damit nila, kaya ko din naman baguhin sarili ko pero mas pinili ko nalang mag stay sa ganito. Wala eh, tinatamad ako eh. Kaya kunware taga sana all nalang muna kahit kaya ko naman maging bella poarch, Build a b*tch ba. 🤣

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3 years ago

Ay ang powerful naman Mami sa pagiging bella poarch sksksksksks. Baka it doesn't bother you that much kaya di mo ginagawan ng paraan or it's not really an insecurity.

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3 years ago

Just like you, may mga insecurities din ako lalo na dati 'nung nasa teenage years pa lang ako. Well, hanggang ngayon din naman. Dati sinusukat ko pa baba ko kung mahaba ba talaga, kasi ayun ang sinasabi sa akin way back 'nung nasa JHS pa ako and even ngayong college. Well, may nag-iisang tao lang naman na mahilig mambuyo at talagang di ako natutuwa sa kaniya. Skl, jowa s'ya 'nung dati kong close friend na ngayon is 'di na gaano kasi mas pinili n'ya 'yung lalaking 'yun. Di naman gwapo eh.

Anyways, ayun nga. I don't let them to bully me even in simple ways dahil lang sa mga imperfections ko. I don't talk but I always made sure na mapi-feel nila na 'di ako natutuwa and I succeed. Tapos may mga times din na tinatanong ko pa sarili ko kung bakit ang gaganda ng hulma ng mga chins nila tapos bakit 'yung akin is ganito? But as nagkaka-edad ako? Natutunan ko din na iembrace sarili ko nang mas higit pa. I opened up my mind and doon ko napagtanto na okay naman ang chin ko, di naman mahaba. Kaya napagtanto ko na, why? Why did I felt such insecurities dahi lang dito? Eh okay naman pala. Then I come up na baka dahil lang sa kakabuyo nila 'yun kaya pati ako is ganoon na din iniisip.

Yes, we ain't perfect. Yes, we have insecurities but as long as we embrace it and do something to lessen that feeling? It's good. Sabi mo nga, dapat alam din natin kung paano i-deal 'yung ganitong mga bagay. And, we should practice it habang mas maaga pa. :)

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3 years ago

We just have to learn how to filter out what other people say about us. And no, Hindi mahaba chin mo. It perfectly suits your face!! You're so pretty kaya!! ❤😀

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3 years ago

Indeed, 'wag lahat is ipapasok sa isip natin kasi minsan nakaka-caused din ng 'di maganda sa isipan natin 'yun. And, yesss. Ayan din na-realize ko habang tumatagal, ang cute kaya ng chin ko. Baka inggit lang sila kaya ganun. Haha

Thank you, mareee! :)

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3 years ago

one of my biggest insecurity talaga is yung ngipin ko, parang rabbit huhuhu tas hindi siya aligned needed tlaga siya ng braces pero poor is me kaya wag nalang mag smile na kita ngipin WAHAHAHA

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3 years ago

Ay Mami magpapa braces tayo kapag may trabaho na tayo! We should promise ourselves na hanggat may paraan dapat kakayanin natin. ❤️

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3 years ago

It's not always about accepting our insecurities. It's also about finding a way to deal with them. - this is just so true. It is how you look for reasons to change and improve your body and appearance. But always remember that you are beautiful. 💗

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3 years ago

Thank you MissJo! We all are beautiful! ❤️❤️❤️

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3 years ago

Yes. Kaya dapat chin up always. 💗

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3 years ago

I didn't like my lower teeth too so I had fixed when I had the money. I hope you will have yours done too. I do have skin condition also where it looks like I have pimples on my arms and thighs. They are like spots and one doctor said it's common in people who live in cold places like here in the mountains but I have learned to accept that.

It's true we have to do the effort also to make us feel good about ourselves.

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3 years ago

Yeah I'm going to work hard so that I can achieve my goals. :") I also have pimples all over my body hahaha, we're the same!!

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3 years ago

I'm not a candy lover since I was a child, so I have maintained its good looks. Sometimes, people would say that it looks artificial because it is properly proportioned. But I guess, beautiful smiles depend on how people express them. I know some people who don't have perfect teeth but it still looks good on them.

Hmmm... Isn't white patches due to adolescence? I remember we also have that when we are a child but we have that plant that can cure it. I already forgot its name, though.

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3 years ago

I think for some people specially the elderlies. But in my case it's purely skin sensitivity. I sweat too much causing a fungal infection and it spread. Though I always wiped out my sweat and changed clothes, the spread can't be handled anymore.

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3 years ago

Oh. Then you should see a dermatologist to check it.

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3 years ago

Meron din samin ganyan dati sa school, na amaze nga ako sa kanya kasi may puti-puti siya sa balat tapos lumalapad. Gusto ko nga rin yan noon kasi kapag nag spread sa katawan mo lahat ang puti-puti mona haha lol. Hndi ba makati?

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3 years ago

Grabe naman hahahahaha wag mo nang gustuhin. 😂 Sometimes merong faker ups, medyo mahapdi lalo na kapag mahangin tas malamig ang panahon.

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3 years ago

Ayy sa hangin pala humahapdi kays need mag pajama chaka jacket, hindj ko kasi close yunh meron niyan dati samin kaya hindi ko natanong. Hehe

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